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I don't remember anything, because honestly, I only slept for like 3 hours or so.


And also, in waking life, when you know you're going to face inevitable failure, it's REALLY hard to not think, "Man, I really fucked up didn't I?" and still keep a happy face?

I've noticed last night that I regressed into "Yes you can do this, just follow it through" mode....It made me happy, but I was frankly disturbed in that regression, because that's the type of personality where I actually think straight, calm down, and actually remain optimistic about things.

Worried about failing lab today? "No problem Link! Just learn from your lesson, and hope that you do better!" Forgot to tell your professor to shift your exam to another date because they let you do that if you have two exams tomorrow? "Don't worry Link, it's only one time you'll have two rough exams in one day anyway......"

Sigh, I still have 2 hours and 15 minutes at most to study for the Math Exam, then after the boring History lecture, I still have 8 hours to study for my Organic Chemistry and/or Math class together.....

You know this state of mind where it starts suppressing negative thoughts, because it just cannot tolerate them anymore because it realizes how stupid it is to worry in the first place, and wants to see things through instead, god.....it's like being a naive child again.


Hell, if I become lucid again, I think I just might try to find Hades and play some damn tennis with him....and not making it a happy care bear ending, just sedated happiness......if that makes any sense?

Dont exactly know what time i ran into such dream. today was such a out of the ordinary day. spent most of my time sleeping today, got nothing to do today so i peacefully slept in.
i had several dreams today, some which i cant really recollect, but i know for a fact i had them. But the one which i could vividly remember was me flying!

i had no intentions on having such a lucid dream, it just came.

But here it is, im flying in the sky to what seemd like the sort of sky you would see in the background of the logo 'dreamworks'.



This is probably one of my most favourite dreams ive had!!!

It took me three seperate hours of the day to write down all my dreams from last night. When I pushed post, it erased all of it. I'm too tired, I'm gonna have to skip last night's dreams. :\

I'm back writing for the night before last because I happened to have a K dream and I like to keep a record of all those It's been a couple days so I don't remember as much as I did when I woke up, and there's some stuff to explain about my waking life as I go so parts of the dream will make sense.

The dream starts out with me in the house I spent my preteen and teen years in. I'm in the little entrance way (Foyer?) about to go out the front door. I notice that what should be a solid door with a stained glass window is instead the glass storm door we have at the house I currently live in. I stop myself and say, "This door shouldn't be see through.." But before I can continue that train of thought I notice there are people outside. My mom is on the porch sitting in an adirondack chair with my grandmother, and my kids are in the yard playing. However after I note them I feel that familiar tugging feeling that I need to look to the side followed by the warm and familiar feeling that I know all too well from my dreams. The first thought I have is, "This feeling that I am going to meet him soon was right. He's here!" (Now, to explain, randomly during my days I've started having that same warm and familiar feeling like K is close by, but without the tugging telling me where to look. I like to look at it as a reminder that I'm getting closer to unraveling these dreams and finding him again) So in the dream I go out the door, and as I do he turns and looks at me. I say hey, and he tells me I look familiar, and I tell him yeah he does too, and I am pretty sure we know each other even though we've never met. He asks me if I'd like to take a walk and talk, and I say yes. So we walk along the sidewalk in front of the house to my uncles property next door. There's a fancy playhouse/swing set/slide combination thing on the property, and none of the kids are playing on it, so K starts to climb up the ladder into the little club house part of it. I ask him while he climbs up what his name is, and he replies with Kale. Before I can question him any farther, I notice there's someone climbing a tree across the creek that splits the property. K asks me whats wrong because I have a funny look as I watch this person in the tree. I tell him there's someone building a tree house on my uncles property and I don't think they're supposed to be there. He offers to go an tell the guy to stop, but I say I need to ask first. I start to go ask my grandmother if that person has permission to build on my uncles lot, but then a kid kicks a ball into the creek and I run to get it, but the kid gets it first. Then I am distracted talked to the kid about the ball, then I wake up.

I can't really recall much from this weekend because I was up really late both nights working on the game.

1. I was driving home from somewhere and I parked in the garage. I then remember going to clean out the car and finding something I hadn't seen in years. It was a Happy Meal toy that to this day I wish i still had... it was one of those LCD Sonic games from 2003 I think it was. I remember being quite happy about finding something from so long ago and went to turn it on only to find the batteries were dead.

2. I vaguely remember I was at home playing Sonic Unleashed and failing horribly. Whenever a quick-step area came up and you had to push the right buttons... I was way too slow at it and couldn't make any jumps or anything. I then remember finally getting a little better and getting a couple combos, but not enough to make it through the level with any style.

So I was having one of those nights when you are replaying work or school related subjects over and over. This is a natural part of the learning process, but i hate it anyways. I was not really in the mood to lucid dream, as I needed as much quality rest before work as I could get. I spontaniously became lucid in the middle of repeating a work related taskover and over. I told myself 'stop it, i forbid you from dreaming about work' the image faltered but soon started back up. I tried again 'I need to sleep, stop dreaming about work.'
The image faded, but as soon as I relaxed it started again. I entered the image of me working and found it was trying to continue the learning phase regardless.

My hand reached for a tool, so I threw it up in the air and it stuck in the ceiling. My hand reached for something else, so I scattered them recklessly. "Stop dreaming about work, I need to sleep!"

My hand reached out to replace the tool i had stuck in the ceiling.... So, I sprayed flames out my finger tips, and lit the whole damn place on fire!

Then I was able to get some quality sleep, with out dreaming about work, LOL. Dur ~3 minutes.

(My first LD.)
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I was standing outside a tall, unnamed hotel with a green awning. In front of me was man in a black suit, and a boy wearing a black t-shirt and pants, who looked like he was in his late teens. A doorman in an over sized red coat was beside us, talking with the man in the suit as he opened the door. As I attempted to enter the building with the men, (the view suddenly shifted to 2nd person) the doorman put his hand on my shoulder and said I wasn’t allowed to enter, but the man in front of me turned and stopped him and said “She’s with us.”

Now in the light, I thought I was going to swoon when I saw the man facing me was Bruce Wayne, and the boy beside him was Dick Grayson (wearing his Robin mask). Inside though, wasn’t a fancy hotel. We were standing on a marble platform, with a weird makeshift /elevator in front of us; an older janitor waiting inside. The janitor hit a button and a guardrail surrounding the lift went down. He nodded at Bruce and I followed him and Robin onto the platform. The platform shifted and went up on a slope, taking us to a wooden landing, and stopped. I went to step off, but it immediately began moving again, nearly throwing me off balance.

The elevator went back to the marble landing and the remaining guardrails lowered; but the lift didn’t stop. It continued on a ‘S’ shape track, and I kept wobbling, fearful I would fall onto the exposed tracking. We began to descend down another slope. When the lift stopped, (by now I was seeing this and 1st person and felt completely aware I was dreaming) we were in what looked like a miniature parking garage. A plain, black Ford SUV was parked onto the left. Above it, a small shelf with multiple Batman masks. Behind the truck though was a very fancy black sports car, and beside that car, a black Volvo motorcycle.

The janitor took of his cap, tore off his mustache and pulled down his overalls (he had on black pants underneath), revealing he was really Alfred. Bruce helped me down and walked over to the other side of the SUV, pulling down the different Batman masks and trying them on. Unsatisfied he reached into a cardboard box beside the truck and pulled out a cheap, leather batman eye mask.

“Umm…what about the rest of your costume?” I asked eying the vigilante as he pulled out the motorcycle (which had suddenly become a two seater).

“Tonight’s a special night; lots of people are going to be dressed as the Batman. Our identities should be fine.”
With that he and Tim mounted the bike.

“Robin and I will be out for a quick run; in the mean-time, you hangout with Alfred.”

They sped off.
By now Alfred had cast the overalls aside and had on his suit jacket and bow tie; car keys in hand. He opened the passenger door of the sports car for me, and seated himself on the driver’s side. But he stopped me as I was shutting the door.

“Excuse me miss, would you mind making sure the other doors are shut?”

Even though we hadn’t touched the SUV, both doors were open. I could feel the weight of the doors and the coldness of the steel as I shut them. I returned to the other car and seated myself; the leather feeling very real.

“Anywhere in particular miss?” Alfred asked as hit the ignition button.

“Well,” I laughed. “I’ve never been to Gotham, so anywhere is fine.”

Alfred turned to me and put his arm on the storage compartment/armrest. “Do you celebrate miss?”

“Yes. But I haven’t for a few years. There was a shooting at the McDonald’s by my house, so I haven’t dressed up since.”
Suddenly I noticed the cool air and began rubbing my arms.

He smiled.“Well then I know the perfect place for us to go.” I reached to put my seat belt on…and woke up.
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It felt so real...I'm really hoping I can continue this dream at a later point. I'm dying to see one of Zatanna's magic shows now.

TB was telling me and a group of people about how he intended on taking acid in the next day or so while also expressing his concern of the fact that he has been exposed to a lot of military violence as of late, and he feared a bad trip. I think, from here, I walked as someone tried to explain to me the meaning of a "banished" style of governing which is a combination of republican and proletariat policies. I latched on to the Republican part and expressed that I enjoyed the existence of big government programs such as the Peace Corps. We continued walking until I came upon an underway soccer game. As the ball rolled towards me, I kicked it back and internally felt satisfied by not making a fool of myself.

The two other fragments which I can't connect to the main plot is that I did some sexual things with V, and it did not have any odd emotional overtones with it. Also, TB was driving an old luxury car at a pretty slow pace which caught a walking person off guard and complained wondering if the car was an automatic or not.

Earlier I had a dream that I was waitressing again at my old job. I couldn't get anything right and kept messing up everyones order. I spent so much time at one table that I got sat and couldn't get to my other table in time. Another waitress had to take their order.

I also dreamt that I was talking with a girl I went to high school with who was sick. She was in her bed as we were talking. I told her to tell another girl we knew that I said hello. It's odd because these two people aren't people I was particularly close with in school at all.

After a day at the fair, me and the band congregate on a beautiful cliff over-looking the ocean which was litt beautifully by the moonlight. It would of been incredibly relaxing had I not remembered this dream. As the band is talking I hear the water becoming agitated and I immidiately grab our drum major and run off to the side where the cliff circles a wall and a gap becomes clear. I get ready to jump it but stop just before because it was too large. I lose my footing and plummet towards the ocean and I know what monsters wait below. I then find myself struggling to escape the dreamworld. My window in RL becomes visible but the dream is still trying to take hold. I feel my bed start to shake me kicking It trying to awaken somebody so that they can come wake me. I finally manage to break free but unable to move as I am now in sleep paralysis for a few minutes until I finally regain control. (this was my first SP encounter)

So weird. Really vivid dream last night. This girl who's really cool who I just met, Amy, and I were hanging out and walking around Tacoma at night. I really like her as a person (in real life,) and in my dream we were holding hands and putting our arms around each other's shoulders and stuff. I was worried that maybe she would think I'm lesbian or something, but I just really liked her as a friend. We were talking about how we had been talking about other people earlier (which actually did happen with her earlier in the night in real life). We both really wanted to stop doing that so we made a pact not to gossip again. It was a really powerful feeling that came over me of wanting to change because gossiping does not make me feel good, and in a way it's an addiction because even though I don't want to gossip, I'll do it anyway because I'm so curious as to what's happening in other's lives, even though it's none of my business.
Then, I woke up in another dream world. I was picking up Matthew from the airport when he's coming to visit, and I just remember running and jumping into his arms and making out really passionately for a long time in the middle of the airport. Everyone was staring at us but I didn't give a fuck, cuz it felt really good and I missed him so much! Guess I'm just getting excited to see him

Hmn, now this is some odd happenings.

So I have this dream, right? And the only part I can remember is right at the end where I (in the dream) am exhausted and hug/lean against a certain lady-friend of mine. Well, she think is best that we sit down before I crumble into a zero-energy mass, so she starts walking me (whilst I lean my head on her shoulder) over toward a park bench. (Weren't we just in a gymnasium??)
Well, the motion of walking/dragging me over to the bench caused my head to slip down... down her front a little over half a foot.
Now it should be clear why I didn't feel like just forgetting this dream.

Okay, so I wake up. And it's hours before I need to 'rise 'n shine', so I attempt to re-enter the dream. Creative, imaginative guy that I am, that shouldn't be hard, right?
True. I can see the dream-location in my head, I'm there, she's there. Now poke her, Elliot. 'Kay, that works.
But I didn't feel it. It's not me, it's "me".
Waitasecond... I'm in third person perspective, falling into a stage-1 sleep reconstruction (or continuation) of my dream, right? Okay, then WHY is it that I can't get back into my dream-self? I mean, the dream is even throwing in some odd things and non-sequitors like it would if it was a true dream. Because it IS.
BUT I STILL CAN'T GET MYSELF INTO IT!
Grrrrr....

Well. Does the counsel of my peers here on DV tell me anything about this conundrum?

Non-dream Dream

I am in a world sort of like the Hunger Games except instead of having to fight to the death we are all forced into a swimming competition. I am undergoing intense swimming training and competition in brutal conditions. There are dead bodies and blood in the water. I meet a cute black girl during training and we fall in love. I comfort her and help her through the brutality. The judges begin to fall in love with us. We both win the competition against all odds and we give speeches to each other at the ceremony in front of the whole world. Everyone loves us and we have our first kiss in front of everyone. At the end we go our separate ways. I have her phone number. I desperately want to text her to just have lunch or something - to have a chance at a life together. I hesitate because I notice my wedding ring on my hand then I wake up.

This was truly an epic dream and I recalled it in great detail every time I woke up throughout the night. I chose to enjoy it and try to continue it (which I did) every time I woke up instead of writing notes down. Therefore I forgot most of the details but I woke up with strong feelings of true love. Very powerful.

Other people in the dream: brother, wife, IA

So I was at a party of some sort, and everybody was having a good time, but me and a few other people could sense that something was going to go wrong. We were trying to kind of make sure everything was alright, but really weird thing were happening, like the pool would drain. Then more water would pour out of the back. and that happened two or three times. There was some hole in the ground that was man made, but I don't remember the justification for it. We made it for a reason, a long while before all this. But people were climbing down that, just to check it out, and some returned but others didn't. We tried to disallow people from going down there. Others were being killed in brutal ways. Eventually the water flooded the area and more people were being killed more easily. I tried to urge everyone to get out, and I did as well.
I got out really easily, and there was an out of control car/boat thing on this lake nearby. I jumped on that to see if anybody was alive on it, but it was empty. There was also a giant ship that was empty, but still going at high speeds on the water.
I was at that point trying to get to the shore. I got on the car boat thing that was farther inland than the boat, and tried to abruptly turn, and the waves slowly turned the large boat too. It turned easily as if some force was trying to kill me with it. But I managed to get around it, and made it to land.
I was just trying to rush to somewhere safe, which turned out to be some music lounge, and there was a private room and I sat in there. I tried everything I could to see if my girlfriend was okay, but I couldn't find anything. And then I woke up.

Dream - Lucid

I was at some kind of meeting or function. There were lots of people there. I want to say we were outside. I was sitting against a half a wall. Not quite stairs, though the wall could function that way; it's hard to explain. I'll just call them wall/stairs. There were some rooms or other areas up there.

It was then dark outside. I was still at this function, when I noticed that the wall/stairs was leaking magma in certain areas. There were people, scientists or something, inspecting it and taking measurements. No one else seemed really concerned about the magma except for me and the scientists. I remember seeing some magma flow out onto a black scientist's thumb while he wasn't paying attention, and I thought for sure it would burn him, but it didn't; he didn't even seem to notice.

I then got up and saw that I had been sitting with my back to a lot of magma flowing from this wall/stairs. I hadn't felt any heat or burning or anything at all. Odd. I watched the scientists some more as they collected samples. Some of the magma being examined had an unnatural glow to it. I watched one of the scientists walk by me with rubber gloves on covered in a reddish residue. I figured it was from the magma. I then watched some of the wall crumble as more magma slowly flowed out.

Then, on two TV screens up above me (now we seemed to be inside instead of outside), there was a warning being flashed because of the magma, which also had some weird chemicals in it that made it even more dangerous than regular magma. We all needed to evacuate. That's when I realized my home was in danger. I ran up the short wall/stairs and into one of the rooms. There was a guy with me helping me out. He looked like the blonde scientist from Dark City (watched the movie last night IWL).

The main thing I wanted to rescue was my cat. Apparently, I kept her in a big hamster/bird cage? Anyway, the blonde scientist scooped her out of her litter box. I was glad she was in there at that time, because otherwise, I was afraid I'd lose her. I took her from the scientist, and we both grabbed as much of her stuff as we could. I then walked over to my bed to grab some more things, like clothes and stuff. I sifted through a pile of pajama pants, trying to decide which ones to take. I was saying out loud that I couldn't decide which ones I wanted to take. I wanted to take the ones with Thumper the bunny on them since I saw them first (a pair I actually own IWL, but rarely wear), but there were others that I actually really liked and wore more often that I would rather have. I was in a hurry though, and didn't feel I had enough time to go through them all and decide that way. I just grabbed a bunch, the Thumper ones pink being some of the ones I grabbed. While we were running to a safer place, I noticed I was holding onto the cat too tightly, and loosened my grip a bit. She didn't struggle or anything.

At some point, we noticed that my key chain had some keys broken off from it. I examined them, and noticed it was only the keys to Jake's apartment, the ones that no longer worked since the locks got changed. All the keys I needed were there.

We were then in this quiet apartment, though in the same building as we were in, it was safe for some reason. I set up the cage, put her food dish in it, and told the blonde scientist that was with me to open the top of her cage to get the litter box in it. The litter box didn't seem like it should fit at all; it was way too big. But it fit. We put the cat in there too. I then told the scientist I needed to go get her water dish. The scientist picked up a small green bowl that we could use instead, since it was so dangerous where I had previously been. I said we could do that if I couldn't get her original water dish, and to myself, I thought I could grab some more things, like more clothes, out of there as well while I was over there. I ran off.

When I got to the magma scene, I ran up and down the aisle, looking for my previous location. I could have sworn it was here. I looked to the wall/stairs to my left, and noticed a line of guys standing on top of one of the wall/stairs that was accumulating more and more magma. I had no time to think about why they were doing this; it was total chaos here anyway, the reasons were endless. I ran up and down the aisle a few more times, then, to my right, saw a hallway. I ran down the hallway, and it was light there, more peaceful, no smoke or chaos. At a desk sat my friend, Rachel. We talked about the magma for a second, asking one another if we'd heard about it. Then, I was where I needed to be.

As I entered, it was smoky, and lots of people were running around in the craziness. I saw a huge section of fold-out chairs in front of me. At the front of them, whom I almost ran by, was Seth Rogen. He was just standing there. As I went by, I said
"Seth, I need your help."
He then agreed to help me, while saying to his friends
"I'm going to go help this girl," with emphasis on the girl part. It was like he was trying to impress his friends, saying he was going to help a female, or something like that.

I then ran with Seth behind me, looking down the aisles of chairs that were on my right. I knew the water dish was down one of them. There were a few people down all of them, panicking, trying to figure out what exactly they should do. We came to some of the middle sections, and I was sure the dish had to be down one of them. Though I was worried the panicking people would get in the way, I told Seth to go down to the end of one, and the dish should be there. He went down the aisle to look for the dish.