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Well last nights wasn't very much, I was in a huge rush getting my appendix out before I went to work apparently, and well my wife decided that she would just do it for me. I was done and ready for work within like 10 minutes of her starting the surgery somehow.

i drempt that i was putting on a play at st dunstans and it was all with old friends from st dudnstansss. it wa supposed to be about like les iserables but it clearly wasnt as there were vietnamese characters and other stuff goin on. i direected the play but lots of other people were in it and didnt remmber there lines and fucked it up. i went home for a sec went back to their school and cudnt decide what i was good at

First lucid dream

at first I was in a huge dream but I remember only bits and parts

me and my dad were flying in a plane because I think there was a zombie acoplypse we landed in this kind of abandoned park and thats all I remember

then I went back to sleep and had my first lucid dream

i was in my old house laundry but it was kind of messed up my sister was there and for skme weird reason I just knew i was dreaming I didnt have to do any RC it was beyind weird I looked at my self I could see my body so I lokked around the laundry then I thaught of doing something I tried to but i couldnt do it so I rembered that you have to beleive it for a reason so I looked around for a vial but woked up before I found one


then I went to sleep again and had a dream that i was this kind of soldeir but thats all i can rember

ih well at least it was my first lucid

I just woke up from having a nap, and I vividly remember some parts of the dream I had. The most confusing for me was that I dreamed a man wanted to rape me... but I ended up being willing and enjoying it and lying to my fiance about it by telling him I was raped. The man was very good looking, not violent or sadistic and was quite well endowed. I'm not sure what all of this means in the least, I just wanted to get it down before the memory dissipated.

For now, my only idea is that maybe it is representing the things I am missing in my life?

Alright, trying to get back in the flow of writing my dreams, I realize I mised these two in my previous post.

9/17: 4 dreams

Even though there was 4 dreams, I only recall one. Me and my bro were on the side of a highway, about 40 feet away from it, shooting cars. I remember holding this real nice sniper rifle with a scope on the top, shooting at cars/trucks passing by, listening to the sound of the bullet bouncing off the trailers. There was another dream that had the same thing go on, but with a different weapon I think, and the other two dreams were probably also variants of the dream.

9/19: Volcano dream

I don't remember as much about this one as I did the day it happened.
I remember mom wasn't home, and it was bedtime. The house was kind of warm, but I shrugged it off, and went to bed. When I woke up, a volcano had gone off in the night(probably before I went to bed, or right as I was going to bed), so there was just ashes everywhere, and things burning. I remember just looking out and seeing a mountain nearby our home covered in ashes. It was near winter time in my dream, and I remember thinking "I know those are ashes, not snow." I saw a tree in our yard, looking at where the branches connect to the center of the tree: They were burning orange, as if they were about to fall off from the heat. I woke everyone up, and we evacuated. My parents stopped to talk to some guy who was also evacuating, and he says it is unimaginable for a volcano to be going off. I looked up and there was two giant logs as a structure above us. They were burning at the center weakpoint as well, and I walked off not wanting to be crushed if they fell. I looked around at buildings just observing the horror that was happening. There was a building kind of like the space needle with lava oozing out the top. The dream ended with us returning to our home, safe, as the volcano was contained, and the lava didn't overtake our house.

Non Lucid.

I'm afraid of telling anyone the details of this dream because people might think I'm going psycho. It's "not normal" for a teenage girl to have such dreams.

This I had Sunday night, school's the next day. I have been drawing people mutilating themselves in various ways. Normally I don't draw such things, but right now I am in a bit of a depression. I need some kind of relief.

This is one of the dreams I have where I am not in my own body. I don't know anyone in it. I can't remember a lot of the thoughts I had.

I was in the body of a very fit man in a chalk-striped dark blue suit. There was some part of me viewing his mind objectively, though I still initiated some action. In some parts he and I were of the same mindset.

We went to either a terrace of a big business building or a gas station though I didn't see any pumps. It was night and there were lights on the covering of the white triangular roof. Then I saw a gray-blue garbage can in front of one of those convenience store doors on the only far wall (gray/beige) to the left and then a little boy standing next to the garbage can. He had on a dark gray short-sleeve T-shirt with black lining the collar and cuffs. I cannot remember his bottom-half. Inside the door it was quite bright (sort of a white light, I couldn't see much).

I don't know exactly how but I killed him, his head was hanging cleanly off his neck to the left but he was standing quite upright. He had black hair and looked like that kid Asa Butterfield. Before I killed him I had a vague feeling of frustration and surprise. There was not much blood.

Then a white woman (maybe in her late 20s, early 30s) with long blonde hair in a light top and blue jeans ran up to the boy and started speaking animatedly to him. I walked away. I thought, I have to go somewhere else, then I spotted a black car pulling up (maybe a Lincoln). Before getting in I turned to look and the boy was alive again. The woman was pulling him to a red car beside a gas pump, it looked like he was trying to resist. Like there was an invisible pole and he was hanging onto it with his limbs splayed out. They looked more child-like when I killed him. Now they looked spidery and thin, stretched. He was yelling out something, he sounded panicked, I couldn't get any actual words. Then I turned around and woke up, hot and sweating.

RM

Non lucid. Lots of clues but I didn't pick up on them. Trying to text but keypad wouldn't work and kept changing the text. My friend Josh was on Dexter.

Brief lucidity. At a warehouse with friends - Shane from high school. Something seemed off (can't remember what) did reality check with hands and realized I was dreaming. Started pushing my body through walls. Conjure JC - took forever, but eventually worked - sort of. Concert - guest list - more high school friends. Lost lucidity, but the dream continued.

I've been gone for a while, lost my motivation with my new social life. Things have changed a lot since I've made my last entry, so things might be a bit different. Not that anybody will notice. Anyways.

I find myself in a sort of dome. I'm rich. I was very high at a friend's house during the course of this dream, so. I walk out of the entry room where there is no exit that I remember, and I'm surrounded with color. Beautiful landscape is around me, and there are some aggressors, but they're ignoring me. I can feel the fun in the atmosphere. I see two or three people talking, and they're obviously quite posh. At least one of them is a parent to me...
Which explained the dome. They've paid for this, all for me. It was weird. I play a few games, but it's all faded since it's been a few days.

This is my very first lucid dream that I can remember. Here is how it goes:
I was walking around outside in complete daylight, everything seemed nice and I kept looking at my feet while walking towards a tree that was right outside of my dogs fence, (it's not really there in reality.)
I stopped half way to the tree when I spotted a HUGE anaconda, this instantly made me lucid. Snakes are a big sign that I'm dreaming, because they are frequently in them. Whenever I see or think about snakes I do a reality check, this way whenever I have a dream with snakes in it I will (hopefully) pinch my nose.
Anyways, I started looking around and then I suddenly fell down, and the dream scape then changed. I woke up on a couch in a hotel, I pinched my nose and I felt how I was still breathing and then I knew once again that I was dreaming. (Hehe, I made a rhyme... Well, I think I did)
I looked around and saw my parents sitting on another couch, they were talking. I focused on trying to make the whole dream clearer, so I shouted things such as "clarity now!" and "vividness now!", but it did not work very well, so I went up to my mother, who was eating something, and I said "show me unconditional love!" (it was all I could think of.)
She took me in her arms and said: "Darling stop talking nonsense."
I laughed, because I was in shock at how the hug felt exactly how it would feel in reality, yet the dream was still not very vivid.
I then did a foolish thing. Since this was a DILD I guess I was still not in my right mind...
I looked at my mother, and father, and told them that I wanted to wake up now, so that I could tell my friends/family.
My mom grabbed my shoulder gently, and said "whatever you want sweetheart."
I thought that she was going to wake me up, but I was wrong, I had to to it myself, so I closed my eyes tightly and opened them really fast, and I awakened on my bed. I was in misery, I mean, I just let a perfectly fine lucid dream go to waste... Shame on me.

Another experiment with galantamine

Details
cool down - 10PM - 11PM
sleep start - 11PM
brief wake up with a little trouble getting back to sleep - 12:30
alarm - 5AM, galantamine + choline
lucid dreaming - 5AM to 7AM even during light sleep, 6 lucid experiences - attr: intense, dark, false awakenings, local

I wake up a lot during the night, which is actually quite nice for dream recall. This time, I remembered four dreams.

I need to get better paper to write my dreams on at night. Because writing it on my bookmark or inhaler box is rather inconvenient. -_-

Dream 1: This wasn't actually a full-blown REM dream. It occurred during the hypnagogic (is that the correct term?) stage, in which I generally have a bunch of random images, sounds, and so forth being broadcast into my mind.

All I remember is seeing this weird spiralish creature that looked like an old toy I used to have. Someone was telling me its name, and it was an odd name, though I can't remember it now. It looked very, very familiar to me in the dream, although I'm not sure why. Woke up shortly afterwards.

Dream 2: I honestly can't remember much about this dream other than I had it. It wasn't too far into the night. I think it involved a log ride, and the prevailing emotions were fear, apprehension, and excitement...but I might actually be mixing it up with an earlier dream. A lot of my dreams are about amusement park rides!

Dream 3: I was on the peak of a really high mountain with a bunch of relatives. This included my uncle, my mom, my dad, my aunt, and my grandma. It was really steep, the peak was small, and we were near a cliff on both sides. Some of us were sitting down, on rows of oddly-shaped rocks - cylindrical, strangely enough. Cylinders on their sides. Others were standing. I was sitting, and terrified that I was going to fall off of the mountain.

Someone - my dad? made a joke along the lines of, "Don't back up too far! You might fall off!" and for some odd reason, everyone except me found this funny.

Even though we were high up, my brain seemed to forget that, because I looked down in front of me and saw a beach. My cousins were playing in the water, which was an absolutely beautiful shade of turquoise. The waves crashed and traveled back and forth along the shoreline at the base of the mountain. I wish I had touched that water, to see what it felt like. If only I had become lucid.

Why all these family dreams lately? I think it's because as of late I've been slowly pulling myself out of my bubble of antisocial-ness and depression and starting to interact with them again. And trust them. But I'm not sure.

On the second part of this dream, there was some sort of transition into a new scene, and on the mountain there was a conveyor belt with a gutter on top of it. Basically, it was like a narrow open-top fish tank with a moving conveyor belt as the floor. For some reason, me and some kids were putting fish we had caught onto the conveyor belt-gutter thing.

One kid put in an anglerfish. My hand was still in the water with my fish, but he told me not to worry - the stinger had been removed. By the stinger, he meant the lure. I was really glad I wouldn't get stung but took my hand out anyway. (Funny considering IRL, anglerfish don't sting!) Some other kid had a shiny electric fish, which had little electric flashing white LED lights on it. xD All the fish were deep-sea fish. And they were pretty much all black. For some reason, the water in the conveyor belt-tank thing was starting to dry up, until the fish had hardly any water. It was odd and a bit sad, because the fish weren't too happy with what little water was left.

Dream 4: For whatever reason, I was back at college again, and classes were to start the next day. But it looked different. I was in a dorm-like building with a bunch of guys and girls in it - and oddly enough, I was feeling sad and homesick, missing my family. Which usually doesn't happen, even though I love my family. And more than that, I was scared. My head was filled with fear about the semester in front of me and it was very unpleasant. I was supposed to go to school for only part of the semester until I got called to my mission (it's church stuff) and then I would just drop my classes and go. I had a bed in the room, and a window view. I had a schedule for classes and (for whatever reason) breakfast/meals. I missed home and couldn't believe how stressful everything was going to be.

Needless to say, I was extremely relieved upon waking up. O_O

I had more dreams during the night; I'm sure of it. Unfortunately, I was often too tired to record them, and fell back asleep.

This strange thing happened a few nights ago. I was dreaming of laying in bed with this asian girl. She was asleep. I was looking at her eyes and all of a sudden they jolted open! It scared the shit out of me. The scene went black and i assumed that i just woke up. So i laid still and imagined my body floating. I started hearing loud bangs on the door. Then i heard someone stomping up the stairs. I was aware of what was happening so I wasn't frightened. I heard a cat strut in and meow. I opened my eyes and i was laying on my bed watching the cat walk around. I got up and looked into the mirror and saw myself laying in bed! I was stoked! I left the room and in the next room i saw my brother and this guy just staring at me before i opened the door. It was creepy. Then i went into my aunts room. She was asleep wathing tv. I walked over to her and patted her back. She jolted around instantly and had a blank stare. Once again creepy. I woke up and got up to go pee. I noticed my aunts room lights were on. Here's the crazy part. She said she woke up to this feeling of someone pushin her back. I was really creeped out then.

Anything like this ever happen to anyone?

The first dream I had was about my friend Nick and I. We were hanging out with a few other people at my house. My house had bunkbeds for some reason though. All I remember is having a group conversation for awhile, and then looking over at Nick because I heard him snoring. He had fallen asleep with his eyes open and was snoring. It was terribly funny to me so I pointed it out and threw a pen at him to snap him out of it.

The next dream was very weird to me at the time. My family was getting ready to head out for church on a Sunday. I was in my back yard waiting for everyone to gather. I noticed my sister's boyfriend pull up in his car, and opened the gate for him. He was walking in with a toddler boy that looked a little bit like him.
"Who's this little guy?" I asked him. He told me it was his son. I was so blown away, I said "Oh, alright." Then I walked back into my parent's house and talked to my mom.
"Did you know that Tristan had another kid? I sure as heck didn't." I said to her. She had no idea either, we were both a bit dumb founded.

After that, I had a dream that I was back at my old elementry school. I was having a cigerette and talking with someone else. After awhile I began having a very bad feeling like something was there. I told everyone we should leave, it was dark and I could feel something dangerous around. There were kids with us then and I began getting them to the exit. I saw what it was that was prowling. A character named Urgot from a videogame of mine. He was a biological machine that gave himself eternal life by replacing all of his organs and limbs with other creatures bodies and machine's. He looks like a huge wrotting mass with long metalic legs like a spider. We needed to get out. So we got to the exit and everyone was out except for one small boy. He had dissapeared. I ran back in the school and found him propped up against the wall, his chest was bleeding. Part of the skin of his chest had been taken out, so I rushed him away and back to his home down the street. The scene shifted to the next day. There were police in front of his house and his family had gathered to keep him company through recovery. I knew for some reason that I was the answer to Urgot's attacks. I walked in the house and pleaded with the family to let me through, I could help. They let me in, and I put my hand on the boy- and his injuries were healed. There was a bit more after this part but I don't remember it very well.

The last dream was about my mother and I taking a trip up to the mountains with a little girl we were taking with us. Her parents both recently had died, and her and her sister were being taken in by my family but weren't together at the moment. The little girl wanted to hear about my mother parents, this was in the future some time after they both had died. My mother told me to tell the girl about them, so I did for the rest of the car ride. We got to a cabin we were going to be staying at, then my alarm went off.