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10-14-2012 -- [Dream during a nap. First parts missing, as always.] I'm riding somewhere with Cheryl, her family, and various of her friends, on my way to work, I think, though I have no idea where I am going or what kind of job. We're in their minivan, which seems much, much more like a full-size bus in the dream.

I have my eyes closed, trying to take a nap, and one of the kids keeps blowing on my face, trying to annoy me. I end up with both my hands over my face, just trying to keep from being disturbed. I do fully wake up, though, about the time I think we should have hit the freeway interchange for the 408, where there is lots of construction I remember from other dreams, because we don't seem to be getting there.

Cheryl turned off just slightly before I would expect her to, and we're making our first stop somewhere in downtown Orlando, where she swaps out a water cooler. Oddly by almost tossing it out of the van/bus, and just tossing in another one, very casually. Can't remember water coolers being so easy to either find, or so light to easily toss. Oh well.

Quick second stop for something that seems almost more like dropping people off on the old Nazarene Sunday school bus, and I'm getting kind of worried about work, but I have no idea what job. Suddenly I find myself thinking I need to get to House of Imports for my weekend shift there, since last week they finally hired me back. Wait? Was that really last week? Feels like several weeks, at least. Now I am worried I may have missed several weeks of work because I forgot they hired me back, and am afraid I may get there just to find I have been fired again. [In real life, the dream where I was rehired was probably two to three months ago, and may or may not have been one I wrote down or typed up. But I did have such a dream in the last few months.]

The next stop turns out to be at the Buena Park Mall, and I separate from everybody else to go my own way, just to find the Mall is a lot bigger than any time I visited in the past. [In real life, the mall 'enlarged' twice in my life, and I still dream of the second time, occasionally. First, when I was really young they did some enlarging and remodeling to enclose the mall, changing it's name from the Buena Park Center to the Buena Park Mall. The second time they added the lower level, a movie theater complex, and the JC Penney's 'wing' and I still dream of construction sites from that enlargement somewhat regularly.]

This time the mall has added another three floors of shops, and a huge stadium, and I find myself approaching the stadium, where they are filming something. I think it starts out with filming a wrestling show, but soon seems to change to filming a game show. It is a cross between Family Feud and Jeopardy. They are doing the final round where both people have like 15 seconds to answer five questions and they are trying to reach 200 points, but the answers have to be in the form of a question.

That bit has just ended, and a large, powerful, slightly redneck character carrying a rifle around with him (looking much like the Big Boss Man) wanders into a snack bar, where he is kind of threatening everybody with his rifle. Every single one of them pulls out a handgun and aims it at him, and suddenly they are all friends because they are all NRA members and can defend themselves ... including the guy with the rifle. They are talking trash about the Democrats, and though I mostly agree with their viewpoint, I think they are carrying it slightly too far.

Anyway, I need to get home and get ready for work, so I head over to the elevator, where there is a long line. It moves quickly, however, and I find myself getting into an elevator with interesting decor. They seem to have gone for a sort of a retro-future style (think the Jules Verne-themed Tomorrowland rehab). I find the correct button for my floor and push it. Others push for theirs, and the elevator just sits there.

One guy is pushing buttons almost at random, and one lady is walking in and out the doors muttering complaints, and finally the doors close quickly ... right on the lady. She is being trapped in between the two sets of doors, neither on nor off the elevator, and we're afraid she will be mangled, but we can't find the door open button among all the fake controls for the futuristic theming. I finally find the button by the time we've gone about three floors, but by that time, I figure we're almost to our floor, why bother. The doors open, and the woman is still standing between the sets of doors, perfectly fine.

I'd kind of figured that might have been the case. It looked like there was almost a sort of platform attached to the elevator between the doors, and I thought she might be find, especially when there had been no screaming. She is slightly shocked, but her husband is just strutting back and forth, threatening to sue everybody in sight, and not checking on how his wife actually is. I lean over and quietly ask her if she is OK, and she is all over me. She is grinding herself against me, and kissing me very passionately, and I'm kind of enjoying myself. Her husband asks what the blank is going on, and she lets me go, blushes attractively, and says I showed concern for her, and she just couldn't help herself. Attractive brunette.

I'm still trying to come to grips with that pleasant scene when the folks I came to the mall with stroll past me heading for the car, and I join them for the ride home. They've changed from Cheryl's family to Aj (Veronica)'s family, but I seem to fit right in.

Wow... It's started happening again... My bed randomly floating around and flying and whatnot... (Explained here -> http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/sup3...ays-fun-36861/ )

So it happened again... Only this time, it was a bit worse. It kept occurring multiple times as opposed to just one, which used to be what it was like. My bed randomly floating off the ground, not being able to see it happen generally, but I could feel it as usual. It happened 2 or 3 times, then it stopped and I was awake. I woke up multiple times. Almost every time I tried to go to sleep, I would get that sinking feeling. I couldn't go to sleep for a while, Maybe about 2 hours. Keep in mind that this was at about 4:30 AM already.

There is a good side to this though. I was able to see things happen, only once however. I looked up and saw that I was floating. I didn't see my bed floating, but for some reason I could still feel it beneath me. I floated up a bit and was then launched at my wall. Then it went black for a fraction of a second and I was back in bed laying down. Eventually, I was able to get to sleep. This was terrifying, but in the dream, I knew I was dreaming... I'm now starting to think that these dreams are maybe a weird type of Lucid Dream... And if they are, then that's good because they're pretty easily accessible to me.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 11:30PM

4 16oz Coors Light over 5hr period, 3x 595mg potassium gluconate, 200mg B6

WBTB additional B6 200mg WILD with MILD mantra "Look at the sky" and counting

WBTB time 4:00am-4:30am I didn't technically stay but a few minutes but I had a hard time being awake enough to focus. I got really uncomfortable so I moved to the recliner after 30min. It took a few more minutes to get comfortable on the recliner. I eventually forced myself to lay still.

Sky Painting
I find myself in a small room sitting in what feels like a folding chair at a small table. I am painting a picture with professional water colors. I remember I made blotches of dark blue and added blotches of black. For some reason my black was applied with my operator stamp from work. I add some crimson and other light hues. The paint was undiluted so I loaded a larger brush with water only and swiped the whole painting. It blended into an abstract but beautiful early dawn sunrise. Then the water turned into a baby blue color and everything got runny. I tried blowing on it to dry it up an the baby blue only moved and the color underneath was unchanged. I messed with this for a bit.

Then it dawns on me that I am painting the sky. I remember about the sky and that I was trying to WILD. I fall backward in my chair in to an abyss. I hold on the the small canvass for stability but it is of no use. I get a flash of other people posting thier versions of my painting on the forum. Some just added an overlay of a bright object like a building other were abstract. Then I become engulfed in darkness. I stop fighting and relax. I let whatever wants to happen happen. This was the perfect mindset for DEILD.

I lie still for DIELD. I almost immediately feel vibrations. This time I am completely calm.I even think to check myself. Heart rate and breathing feel relaxed and normal. I am pleased. Before the vibrations end I begin the familiar process of imagining my feet connecting to the floor. It takes a few tries but I finally feel grounded. I am now standing in the living room. It is really dark. Just as dark as it is in real life.I think about how I want to make black fire. I don't know how but I look at my hand and try to visualize. Nothing. I feel the dream fading so I stop and look around.

I see the mirror in the room and jump on the couch to get up close. I look at myself and can faintly see my left eye is brown and my right eye is green I am really annoyed that it is dark. I say out loud, "I need some light." My voice sounds weak and raspy. I say it louder, "Light please." Still nothing. I go float up to the ceiling fan. I still remember the chain broke yesterday so I reach up close and pull it. The light doesn't work but the fans are spinning. I say, "Fuck it." and head out the front door.

I am on my front porch and floating. I feel the wind shifting me slightly. It is really dark outside too. I can see a few trees and decide to try some advanced flying. I think about Robert Wagonners book. He says to focus on a place and your dream body will fly to it. So, I look at the top of a very tall pine tree. I zoom toward it super fast. The strange thing is I notice that even though I flew fast, the transition was jerky and not smooth like a badly encoded video file. Maybe my brains computer couldn't render that fast. HA! I see another tree even taller and I fly the same way. Super fast with the jerkiness.

Now I am grasping the very tip of the taller tree. I look around and try using expectation to create some light. I tell myself that the sun should be coming up now. I look to the east and see the sun beginning to rise like predawn twilight. I smile because it looks like my painting. I think that is good but its still too dark. I am out of ideas now. I feel the dream fading. I learned from the NLD just before, that I should just relax and let it fade away and get ready for DEILD.

I feel like I am in a black void so I rub my hands together to stabilize. I partially open one eye and can see as if I am back in my bedroom. I see my hands rubbing together and almost dismiss it as a real awakening. I think I am in bed next to my wife but on the wrong side. I almost get up but pause. I think no I will wait and see. This might still be a dream. I think I must have really moved my leg because with that thought I really woke up.

WBTB 5:00AM-7:40AM

WBTB WILD with sky mantra and counting. The same as previous dream

Black Fire Fail
It take some time to get comfortable and relaxed. About 20 min. I am doing the dive when my wife wakes up and snuggles with me. I tell her I just got back to sleep since Riley woke up. She rolls back over. I am comfortable and let my awareness become a dim thing while counting 1 sky to 10 sky and repeat until I lose track. Each round of 10 I feel myself getting more and more relaxed. I think of it as very old self hypnosis technique I was doing several years ago. It's still effective.

After 20 min I see SP vibrations. Again I visualize and imagine tactile sensations of my feet connecting to the floor. This time it was not instant. I had to feel my feet walking and stomping before I felt out of my body. Then it fades and I relax. I get a crazy high speed spinning sensation and go back into sp. I remember to relax. I try to get up again. I really struggle to get up and I start to get annoyed. This time I roll fast to the right. I am now face down on the floor with my legs stuck in the bed like my body is stretched. I feel stuck. I remember the last time I did this I felt the crazy cold thing that became a lucid nightmare. I get a crazy idea and try to make it happen again. I feel like there is something under the bed. I smile and shove my hand under. It feels blocked like there is stuff under the bed but its clear in real life. I go in to a very convincing FA. I can hear loud country music. I think its some sort of phone alarm. I feel like I am awake in my bed. I start to turn to my wife to tell her to turn it off. I am very annoyed. Then I remeber to watch for FAs. I think about and I realize there would probably not be country music playing next to me. I stop myself and before I even look at her I realize it is a dream. This time I am well into a dream and I quickly get out if bed. I feel weak and drunk. I stumble out if the room. There is way more like in the living room this time. I smile at that. I think its funny how I know the sun is up now and my subC goes with it. I still want to create fire in my hands. I concentrate. I see a breif flicker of normal fire but when I try to go into black it fades. Now, I can't see the fire but I see the room glow. I lose focus. I wake up for real. I look at my wife and smile. She is awake on her phone and looks at me like I am crazy. The clock says 8:40

I had this short lucid dream during a very brief mid-morning nap. Lucid napping is a first for me. I didn't perform at my best in-dream and I allow the dream to end much too soon. Also, I get beat up by a little kid. But hey, lucid is lucid! Always learning.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #22: Unwelcome Houseguests

I'm holding hands with my two toddler-age sons, preparing to go outside for a walk. Before we reach the front door of th house, twin boys with curly blonde hair open the door and scurry inside. They look to be about eight years old and are complete strangers to me. This feels strange, and soon I'm lucid.

I decide that I don't want these weird kids running around in my house so I start ushering them out the door. They seem to cheerfully accept getting kicked out so my thoughts turn to lucid goals. I remember that I wanted to do the Task of the Month and replace my head with a pumpkin. But what was the other one? Ah yes, get a vampire, werewolf, or zombie to bite me. Now I remember.

Just as I'm thinking this (and probably because I'm thinking this), the twin on my left suddenly lunges at me and bites me hard on the left pec, right by my armpit. He snarls like a dog, whipping his head back and forth. I'm taken completely by surprise, both by the suddenness of the attack and by how much it actually hurts. I try to shout some kind of command at him but all that comes out is this pathetic yowl.

I blank out for a fraction of a second and my perspective switches to the top of the stairs, looking down at the scene of the attack. I have no dream body and everyone (me, my kids, the twins) is now gone from the scene. My view is turned on its side, as if I were lying down. I try to move, try to RC, but with no body there's not much that I can do.

I imagine that I'm lying here because I passed out and I'm just waking up. This seems to work! I have hands and a body again and I slowly get to me feet. Just then, I hear the sound of my alarm clock and voluntarily wake up. But when I wake up, it's only been 15 minutes since I laid down! The alarm wasn't anywhere close to going off and I fooled myself into waking up for no reason.

So yeah....I took a half a pil wtf.


We're riding on the back of a truck and doing exercises on this beam structure. Every time someone does something more over the top, I'm thinking they're going to fall and die. It's getting a little too extreme, so I move up to the bed of the truck. My brother is driving, and the wind is blowing through my hair. The mountain side looks pretty lush, and I see wolves running around on them. I took a quick picture on my phone, and everything freaking changed.

The scenery got bleak, and the wolves started running at the truck, the girl I was with turned into a goblin, snakes and rats were trying to get in. I moved up inside the truck (it was more like a SUV now) snapped a rats neck and put it in the window crack and rolled it up to secure it. I figured an extra target would help distract them. I finished the dream wrestling some snake.

This was my shortest dream of the night but the most significant.

I find myself in a pine forest, an unknown setting for me. People are around but they seem to be keeping their distance as though they're waiting on something or afraid of me and the people closest to me. It turns out they have good reason as mystical powers are being worked with.

The teenage girl closest to me is dressed like Shiro from Deadman Wonderland.

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She is standing near a wall about three feet high that may be made from old railroad ties. Her arms are in front of her with her palms down as though to summon something. Beneath her hands are two white bars, each about six inches long, two inches wide and just over an inch high, stacked one on top of the other. My perspective is from slightly below her and in front of the low wall. Looking up at her I can see light bathing her from below as though the bars are radiating light...but more than that...waves of energy seem to be all around, as though power is being unleashed.

The girl is not as experienced as I am but I can see she definitely has power and potential. As her hands hover over the bars waves of new energy are released, enough to affect the very air like a strong wind. I'm eager to see if she will fully release the power from the bars.

The truly significant thing was the source of power in the bars was dream-power, something I knew to be known as Regional Dream Stabilization. The stronger the power of a dreamer the larger an area they could stabilize and control. The effect was radiant so worked in all directions from the source. I was really eager to see how the effect of her powers unfolded, and I wasn't alone. The others in the forest grove were also on edge waiting for something to happen.

And then I woke.

I've been really lazy lately on writing down my dream journals as soon as I wake up, therefor, the past few days have had very little recall.. I need to get over that habit! xD

Anywhom, here's a small dream fragment for you guys:
I was in a building with a lot of people.. There was a girl on her computer playing a game that looked really familiar to me.. Upon approaching her, I saw that the game was Guild Wars, a game that I use to play religiously. I began to make conversation with her, asking her how long she's played and stuff.. She then gave me a pretty weird response: "what's Guild Wars?" After explaining it was the game she was playing and showing her how to play, the dream kinda crashed.. It seems like more of my dreams are having contradictions in them.. Something will be happening in a dream and the DCs tell me something completely opposite, which then makes the dream become even less aware..

Haven't been sleeping well this past week. No real dreams to remember, just random stuff as I was falling asleep.

Twisty Road
I see an image of a twisty country road, and feel it pulling me into the scene, but as the road looks dangerous, I don't allow myself to be pulled in. Then I think better of it, thinking it will speed up the formation of the dream. I focus on the road again, thinking I've lost that "pull" on me it had, but it sucks me right in.

I rocket down the road, but around the first turn, the scenery is missing and black. I keep going and there's more black scenery the farther I go. Eventually there is so much black I lose all sense of movement, and don't have enough dream stuff to try and stabilize.

Dream Body Try
I'm trying to sleep, and am aware of a vague sense of movement in my hands. I can move them like an inch beyond their actual physical position. So I try to move my phantom limbs further. I slowly move my hands towards each other, and it takes like 10 minutes of forcing before my hands touch. But I finally connect one closed fist into one open hand.

I was hoping to be able to shake lose my dream body, but I can still only move my phantom limbs an inch in any direction. I keep trying to shake lose more freedom of movement, but it's just now working for me.

I am a very lucid dreamer. My entire life I've had amazing, incredible, vivid and often times book worthy dreams. I've actually got up out of bed a couple times in the past and jotted them down as quickly as possible before they faded. My dream this morning led me to this site. Not one of my amazing dreams by any means, just wanted to know what it could've possibly meant, as I've never had a dream about eating money before. So, I'm outside waiting to go boating with my fiance' Randy. For some reason, I am hungry and begin eating a sandwich. I take a bite and look to see my sandwich is made of dollar bills. I don't think anything of it, other than it needs more mustard. On the last bite, I open the bread and see there is a folded 10 spot there. I slide it out of the bread and stick it in my bra (something I would actually do) and finish the sandwich. Weird. Seems like it's just a dream about me worrying about money or wasting money. My ex-best friend keeps popping up in my dreams lately also. She's been in the last 3 or 4. Sometimes she's mean. Sometimes she's just there to fill up space.

I just don't remember anything. I didn't go for a WBTB, and I don't think that was the deciding factor at all. I just slept late for some weird reason to watch "New Prince of Tennis."

Ugh, Anime......can be so addicting, especially when you know the majority of the characters' in a series, it's like something you can't escape from, it's just too enticing seeing how they can progress, even if they're just fictional.

Bleh..........today is going to be a crappy day......

Remember being in 7/11 in Rutland. I was getting some taquitos. I didnt tell what kinds I wanted but I got the right ones. I was getting some other stuff too. It took her awhile to get my taquitos. She finally placed them on the counter and then knocked them over as she put my other stuff there. I had already eaten one but I said she knocked all 3 off. I told her and asked for some new ones. She wanted me to show her so I lifter up the garbage can nearby and there was a bunch of them underneath it so she gave me 3 more. I left and went to catch the bus. I just missed the first one but caught up to it at the next couple of stops. I was on a skateboard which was really hard to ride. Next remember coming down the back road that connects to Ellison in my car. There were cops and stuff all over the place, off to the side and on the road. There were a bunch of hippyish eco kids everywhere and in the middle of the road. I had the feeling i sometimes get in dreams where it was the second time i had done this in that dream. I almost hit a couple kids. There was the guy who seemed to be the leader type in the middle of the road talking to cops. I was listening to some metal pretty loudly and as I came down I tried to turn it down but the volume knob wasnt doing anything. I wasnt sure if I could go so I sat there for a few seconds and eventually just went. I kept driving down the road. There were side paths and stuff leading off old vernon into the bush. I met up with Teegan and a few other guys. We headed up one of these paths where there would have normally been a house. The leader guy of the eco kids was with us. It was kinda snowy out. We came to a small clearing just inside the trees. There was a stump and some downed trees and it was kind of a cool spot. We met up with Sophia there. She looked really good and had just died her hair like whitish with orangish/red rings and highlights throughout it. Everyone was talking to her. She was upset. I tried to make her feel better. I said Sophia! I like your hair. She said she knew. Teegan had a thing apparently with the leader of the eco kids which I was happy but also upset about. I was trying to be supportive. Teegan and I had a talk. She told me her and Dalton had hung out the night before. I inferred that he left and she kinda giggled. I didnt like that he had stayed the night. She claimed the didnt do anything. She said she smoked weed everyday now. She told me she was going to move to Winnipeg with a bunch of the eco kids and sell weed because you could make lots of money there. I got upset at this and told her she shouldnt do it. I said think about all the guys we buy from and how you would never want to be like them. I talked to Charlotte later on and complained about what she had told me to her.
-Remeber being at RMS with some of the same kids. I was with 2 girls at first, both from the eco kids. I was trying to get a file of some kind and they were trying to stop me. I was in a narrow hallway with them. My gr9 video teacher was there trying to stop me, not from getting the file like the girls but because I was there after hours. We were all like middle school age. Soon we all went into a backyard type area (exluding the teacher). It was like Kathy's backyard but there was no hot tub. There was a bunch of family of peoples back there. Teegan was there again. At some point someone lost something and 3 of us went to look for it. There were 3 hidden shafts in a bathroom that we looked in, all of them went down. I was back outside soon and me and teegan had another talk. I told her she should do whatever she wanted but that sellling weed was a bad idea. We kissed even though the guy she had a thing with was right there. People were eating bbq now. My friend had a bunch of hot dog weiners and since there were none left he gave me 2 because they were small. I also grabbed toppings off his bun which I then realized was inappropriate.

I had too many dreams last night, so I can't remember everything...

The first one, I was in the kitchen. I know I was talking to some friends and they were scared because it was too dark. I'm afraid of the dark, which means I was terrified. I decided to turn on the lights, but they were either weak or not working. I managed to get a bit of light there anyway, so I went back to doing the dishes (even though I hadn't been doing them before). A glass was haunted, but I told my friends all we had to do was wash it. It didn't work, so I went with my second best idea... I threw it on the floor. A dark mist came out of it and it attacked me. I sort of had sleep paraysis in the dream, as if not moving was because of the ghost/spirit/whatever it was.

My other dream, I was following McGonagall around Hogwarts. Hogwarts turned into a mall, I kept following her, she was ignoring me. For some reason, I was hitting on her, even though she is older than my grandmother. I got tired of being ignored and decided to look for a bathroom. I ran into this little girl who used to be on TV, she wad telling people to go to a bookstore. I didn't go in, but I smiled at her, waved and said hi. As I kept walking, I heard he saying how happy she was that I had been nice, because people were all treating her terribly. I found the bathroom, one stall was filthy, the second one was dirty, but I thought I could use it. Then I noticed it didn't have any paper, so I left, cursing the bathroom, and woke up.

The third dream, I was in a sort of hotel. I saw Lily Evans and I asked her out. She really didn't like me, but she decided to give me a chance. I was happy and went to my bed supef happy. I was sharing a room with some boys who were my friends, but I didn't want to talk to them, so I kinda ran away from them. Then I fell asleepand woke up with a letter from Lily, telling me that we were going to meet in thirty minutes. I got up and started to get ready, but then my father showed up. He was VERY mad and shouting a lot because I had made too much noise. He kept telling me I'd be sorry for waking him up at five am and that sleeping was too important.

My last dream, I was driving and I think I was going to the doctor. I parked the car and then I went inside a building, there was an LGBT party going on. I found people from my city and hoped to get a ride back home with them (even though I had driven there). Then some people invaded our party and I think they were going to hit us or kill us. Either way, three people jumped through the window and one of them died, so I gave up in that. Then I hid in a cabinet and planned on leaving once they weren't there anymore.

That's all I can remember...

Dream - Lucid

I was in some weird, mostly white, circular room. It looked kind of like a lounge or something. It was supposed to be DV I think. There was a big pillar in the middle of the room. Lots of people were milling about. The Sandman was the one I remember by name. The rest, I'm not sure who they were.

I was very suspicious of The Sandman, and many of the other men there, mainly the people who were supposed to be The Sandman's male friends. I remember him and his friends being older men, and his friends being in business suits. The Sandman, however, resembled my dream guide, having shoulder-length brown, scruffy hair, and a mustache.

Anyway, I was suspicious of him and his friends, because there was a murder, and I suspected one of them. I would listen to them talk and stuff. I think they knew that I knew I suspected them, so that made me even more anxious about the whole thing.

I was then driving through my neighborhood, towards the entrance/exit. It was nighttime. A possum ran out in front of me on its hind legs. I started saying "Get out of the way, possum!" and stuff like that (like I do IWL ), and I narrowly missed him. I then saw a bunny and her babies in someone's yard that had just crossed the road. I was nowhere near hitting them. But then, more started to appear, mostly baby bunnies. They were all scattered in the road, and I was so afraid to hit them. It eventually was to the point where they were EVERYWHERE. I remember hearing one of the bunnies "screaming", as if they were in terrible danger. It sounded like a loud cat's meow.

I then was out of the car, and kneeling at the side of the road by someone's yard next to a bunny family. I remember lots of white baby bunnies at this point. I went to touch the mamma bunny, and accidentally touched one of the babies, who was apparently a newborn, because it felt slimy, warm, and hairless. I was afraid that now, the mamma bunny would reject the baby.

I was then washing my hands in my bathroom at my house. I finished, and saw a white baby bunny in my sink. How it got there was beyond me. I thought maybe he had been stuck to my hand or something, and I hadn't noticed. It looked dead at first, but upon further examination, I discovered that it was still alive, but barely. I looked down at the small, slightly damp bunny, and asked
"Are you dying?"
The bunny nodded.
I then either asked if it knew where its mamma was, or if there was anything I could do, and it shook its head no.

I then was in the DV place again, only this time, it was a section that had an indoor pool. I was getting angry at The Sandman's friends, though now, they looked like older teens/in their 20s. I remember one having a shaved head. I tried to flip them off, but my finger just wouldn't work right. I had to pry it up with my left hand, and still, I couldn't hold it up. Ugh, so frustrating! I was walking after them, still yelling and being angry, when they went through this purple set of doors that just seemed to appear out of nowhere on the wall. The doors had windows on them, and I could see them peeking through the windows, looking at me. I then decided to moon them. I knew I'd probably get in trouble with someone, but it was going to be so worth it. I turned around and pulled my pants down, and exposed my bare ass to them for a second or two before I pulled them back up and walked away, not looking back at all to see their reaction. I felt really, really satisfied with myself. I was thinking about the small birthmark on my butt and whether or not they saw it.

I then was heading over towards my friend Courtney, who was in the pool I believe. She was trying to leave; she was moving away (she just moved to Ohio IWL). I almost felt like she was trying to get away from me. She went up the ladder to get out. I talked to her a bit. She was disappointed in me for mooning those guys (she had seen the whole thing from her spot in the pool). But the conversation started to get much friendlier.

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I was on campus at my old college, walking into the cafeteria area where I had that last job that didn't work out. I had no idea why I was going in there; I didn't want a confrontation with any of the employees. The restaurant I worked at was right next to the entrance, and in the hallway right outside, there's a door that goes into the back area of the restaurant. An additional hallway that doesn't exist IWL was there too. It's hard to describe in words.

Anyway, I walked into the cafeteria area, and saw that it was very vacant. It must be around 10am, when many of the restaurants are still trying to open up. There was a fat lady whom I didn't recognize at the cash register. She was wearing a black shirt, and looked to be about middle aged. Her darker blondish hair was up in a short ponytail. Whew, someone I didn't work with or recognize. I figured she was my replacement. I then wondered if everyone else I had worked with, including my manager since I didn't see her, had also quit (wouldn't be surprised...the turnover rate there is very, very high IWL). As I turned to look directly at the fat lady, I fell down onto the floor.

I then walked in the back. I didn't even know why I did it in the dream. I thought that the people back there would recognize me, and that I wasn't supposed to be back there. However, I don't remember even seeing any people back there. It was vacant, like the dining area.

Then, again, I was suspicious of a murder, but it was in a different setting: My house. The Sandman was no longer involved, but people who resembled his older friends from the last dream were still there. I was super suspicious. The guys would apparently come to my house sometimes and chat with my mom. They worked with and really supported my dad.

I then remember being in the car with the suspected murderer, a middle-aged man with a shaved head. He was driving, and I was in the passenger's side seat. I hinted that I knew he was the killer.

I was then in the porch, and I walked out into the kitchen. There was a girl there, one that looked to be a bit younger than me, so probably about 20-22 or so. In the dream, I knew her, but not too well. We were talking, and I started to talk about Emilee, a girl I went to high school with who was killed in a drunk driving accident a few months ago IWL. Emilee had apparently been really close to this girl. Her eyes started to water as I talked about her. Mine did as well; it was a very tragic topic. I told her that I had to serve Emilee's alleged murderer every day at the coffee shop (I guess I still worked there in the dream). IWL the man behind the wheel of the car she was in was her age, and has many charges stacked against him. In the dream, it wasn't a car accident, but she was the victim of a cold-blooded murder. And the man who did it was the guy I confronted in the car, the one who helped my dad. I think I was one of the only ones who suspected him.

I then was in the living room with my mom. I was sitting on one of the red chairs we have in there. I squatted down onto the ground and lowered my voice as I started to talk. I asked her if she thought this bald guy, whom I called Drew (it was supposed to be my IWL acquaintance, Drew D.) who was now peeing in the bathroom (I could hear him peeing), was the killer. She said yes, but she also said he really backed my dad financially. I told her I had confronted him about it. I then heard him start to pee in the toilet again. I then thought about me being the next victim, my name being in the headlines as "The Anderson's girl" being killed.

Oct. 13, 2012
10:30-11:00

I had finished doing a two minute plank when i decided to just lay there on the floor. I laid there and laid there, resisting the urge to move. I laid there until I was in about 65% sleep paralysis, trying my best not to move. A feeling of dead-weighted-ness arose from my right arm and slowly spread to my body. When my limbs were all almost completely paralyzed and it started to happen to my core, THE PHONE RANG!!! I was so angry! I still feel some of the paralysis in my arms while I type this. The person didn't even leave a message, so I had no idea who it was who just ruined my paralysis. It really sucked.

First I had a nightmare that my dad killed the dog with a shotgun and then was going to kill my cat, and my mom was trying to kill herself with a pistol but I kept stopping her.

I woke up and fell asleep and had another dream that I'm this loser guy on a bike and I find this ticket or eraser or something like that which is the only thing left of a little girl who is looking for her daddy, so I put the object in my pocket and swear that I'll find her Daddy for her. Later, I'm in this office building that has a skate park outside and at first I was using the skate park, then I was trying to hide from this one very angry businessman because the walls of the building are see-through, then when I was in the building, the guy orders me to turn on something because he thinks that I work there. I don't know what he told me to turn on though, so I just go in the direction he points and look for something to turn on. I find myself in a classroom with some students, so I leave there. Then, I find myself in this big medieval-like chamber with a handful of people all forcing a wide half-circle around a human!GLaDOS from Portal, who is giving them orders.

Apparently the rival company has stolen something from us, I can't remember if it was an object or a person. GLaDOS selects me to go back and get it, so I walk out the heavy wooden double doors and down the hall which is now also medieval-castle-looking. I feel cool to be doing something like this. Then, GLaDOS sends a bunch of other people down the hall too and I don't feel as cool knowing that I'm working as part of a crowd.

Later, I'm on my journey with my small group of about 4 other people, and one of them tells me that the rest were sent to do other things that will slow down, hinder, or distract the rival company, but we are the ones who will get the thing back from them. Matt Smith (as the doctor? as John Smith?) is one of my companions. We are camped out on the side of the road, similar to a place I know in real life. A cart belonging to the rival company passes by us, and they steal my glasses and one of my companions. A companion that wasn't stolen shouts, "they stole the kid Wheatley!" and I think Nymph from the Portal fandom might have been with us, but that was the first time I realized it. I see a white blur which is presumably Nymph in the cart as it leaves us.

At this point I am a little bit lucid, because I go back to our vehicle thing and materialize some contacts and try to put them in (but I can't - I'm really bad with putting in and taking out contacts, that's why I don't wear them). But then, the Doctor comes up to me angrily and accuses me of working for the rival company, because I never wear my contacts or go anywhere with them, but today I brought them because I knew that the other cart would steal my glasses. I don't have any real way to refute that.

There may have been a chunk that I've forgotten, but later, I'm maybe half-way lucid and I tell my group to follow me. Along the way I practice manipulating things around me. When they all get to this drive-way thing with trees around it that I was leading them to, I start waving my hand back and forth straight through a thick tree branch, and explain to the Doctor that all of our companions besides him weren't real. They evaporate when he realizes this. Then I call him "Matt Smith" to see if there's any reaction, but he's too busy focusing on the fact that his companions that he cared about weren't real. Then I possess a tree because I want to see what it feels like to be a tree, but I can't get myself to and I'm disappointed when I still feel like a slightly stretched-out version of myself. Presumably all Matt sees when he looks at me at that point is the tree, judging by the way he looks at me at that point, but he saw me fly into it to possess it, so his eyes are searching the tree when he asks me a question that is very important to him, I think he might have asked me, "am I real?" but I cannot remember for sure.

Whatever the question was, when I came out of the tree and told him yes, he was so happy that he grabbed the sides of my head and kissed me multiple times. I was very happy for him. Then we were teleported to the Ellen DeGeneres show where there were two rows of teenage girls on thin pillows, facing each other, bent over with their face and torso facing the ground in the adamantine pose. At the end of the row of girls was a throne-like chair that Ellen was sitting on. We were in the middle of the row of girls, about a girl or two away from Ellen's throne. Presumably, we were her next guests? One of the girls looked up and made an angry face at us.

I wasn't really sure what was going on, but I was still so happy for Matt that I sneaked a quick kiss with him again before I woke up.