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I had a series of three related dreams this morning:

1.) I was standing in a packed gymnasium waiting for a basketball game to begin. There were hardly any empty seats so I stood near an entrance. A tall man stood next to me as we waited. I had the feeling he was there for me and eventually we left together.

2.) The tall man and I drove away in a small 4 door car (Toyota or something). As we approached our destination ( a military base) we noticed a disturbance in the sky. The clouds became angry and dark. Then a twisting cyclone appeared! We were so close to home. But the cyclone kept moving toward us then away. There was an empty building nearby where we finally sought refuge.

While we kept an eye on the weather outside we noticed a small security detail driving around. They were looking for us as we hadn't been accounted for. I sensed we were in trouble. So we his in a big metal box just as the cyclone smashed into the building.

After some time the box was opened. We were surrounded by water and policeman seeking our arrest.

3.) A woman sent me to gather clothes for children who were being chosen for something (felt like a reaping a' la Hunger Games). The child I had to prepare looked a lot like Britney Spears (LOL)! I decided to cut the sleeves off her outfit. That way she'd be disqualified and not face any harm. When the other children arrived to pick up her clothing I held up her tattered things and shrugged.

These are parts of a non lcid dream of mine which occured before my successful WILD attempt I'll write about later. My recall has been so poor lately after I stopped keeping a DJ, but I'll try to fix that from now on.

Anyway, I was sometime in my dream arguing with my mother about something really loud and I can't remember what it was. Aaaand thats it, then there is a....


[Dream Skip]



Then I find myself with a friend, could be a momentary DC, but it seemed like a friend in my dream. Watching videos in the net in front of my computer and we see look at some titles and he says "Look, there's a good one! This guy is trying to prank a woman nad he dies by accident!" and I was like, how could that happen? And then I said "cool, let's watch it".


So there is a video where a man meets a woman he knows, not a random one, in a field of grass for no apparent in front of a big city, like New York, and says to her things like "Hey there, what's up? How are you lately?" and she regularly answers, until she pulls out a cigarrete to smoke and lights it up. Then it may be the part where the prank began and I was curious to see how he died, so he pulls the cigarette from her mouth and then my WBTB alarm goes off, 4:00 am. Time to WILD. Believe me or not, this is how it happened, I was too curious to find out what the hell happened in the imaginary video, but my alarm screwed me up. Anyways, it had a purpose!

brb with my WILD post

[Sunday, October 14th, 2012]
<later in the day, I take a nap>
<dream is foggy, I forget to write this down and it vanishes>

I remember summoning a 18-wheeler to come pick me up and bring me somewhere. We were on V.M. road and heading north, and as we passed the train tracks and took the bend to the left- we came to an obstacle. There was a giant wall in the road. I turned around and did something to a giant rock behind me. A triangle with an eye appeared and the triangle began to spin around the eye. It glowed a thick white light and shot out a beam of light towards the wall. The wall glowed with white veins and the wall opened.

(Everything resembled futuristic, alien technology- and it was pretty neat to watch.)

[Sunday, October 14th, 2012]
(Around 3AM and I wake up and remember quite a bit. I've been sleeping for along time. A LONG TIME.)


<dream had more before this, but this is where I started to remember>
I remember being ontop of a building's roof with a few other people. There is a small lake between me and the rest of the land. In the small beige-mud lake, there is debris everywhere and people scattered through out. Whenever I come close to the edge of the roof, a giant tenticle shoots out of the mud and tries to hit me. I hit it with a weapon before it sinks back down. Eventually, it becomes like WoW... when the tenticle pop's back up- I command the rest of my "raid" group to attack, and all of the people drowning in the mud all leap out and attack the tenticle. I begin to shoot it with some kind of range attack as this is happening. It sinks back one more time before I lure it back up for a final attack. We did it! Everyone is teleported to the dry land. There's a neat looking Mage Staff with a star at the end of it for loot. A few people "roll" for it- in a new way that I don't recognize. I leap from piece of debris to debris all the way across the swamp and as I'm climbing up a small hill to get to the land, I realize that I'm a low level but also the leader of the group. I walk up to the loot on the ground and try to right click on it, but nothing happens. I try to ask how to roll, but I'm teleported to Stormwind or some other city in real life before I have a chance.

In this other city, I try talking to the Raid but realize I've left the group and that it was a Guild group- that I can't talk to since I'm not in it now.

+

I'm leaving town to go up Yarnell hill with my Mom and maybe Casey/Nathan. We're on our way up the hill, and we must have been walking. We walk up the hill faster than usual and we notice that some parts of the railing going up the hill have been smashed and damaged. There've been reports of someone vandalising the rails. We make our way up the hill and we find a cave. It's a giant cave temple- that I tell my Mom is a "Shaman Training Temple" inside, we see people who look like WoW characters all standing around, as if they're really Shaman Trainers or people to buy things from or Questgivers. We walk up to the middle of the giant cave/room and one of us talks to a questgiver. One of the quest involves stopping the man from damaging the rails, apparently its Virgil from McDonald's management.

We leave and start walking up Yarnell hill more. Now I'm not with my Mom or Casey anymore, it's Nathan and Tyler. After awhile, we become thristier than ever and have to stop at a random convenience store. Inside, I grab a cup and fill it with a little ice and water. Its not enough ice though, so I hold the cup against the icemachine more and I notice how I can fill the cup up with ice without the water overflowing. I turn around and see a few kids I know selling some new drink ideas. (There was a peanut butter & honey snack- and there was a "Honey-Fizz" drink, as I'd like to call it, was handed to me. It was a dark yellow bottle of "Honey"-flavored soda. I opened it and downed it quick. It was AMAZING. It was one of the best drinks I've ever had. I made this known to everyone around me. After awhile of talking to Tyler and Nathan about this, I wake up.
<woke up>

[Friday, October 12th, 2012]
(Slept with Alex tonight. I woke up a few times and told Alex about my dream, but I forgot it entirely- since I didn't go straight to my Dream Journal. I was also tired as HELL when I first zonked out, due to overstonage and sexhaustion. I forgive myself- hopefully, the next morning will be better. Though I do plan on getting stoned in the morning with Alex and Nathan- we'll see how that goes.)

(I'll also note, that I've read a lot of books that changed my outlook on a lot of things- and I said a prayer (Soul Download) to help me with my ego problem. I felt different immediately, and I could feel that my ego had dissolved. It felt amazing- and me and Alex haven't had anything close to a fight since.)

[Thursday, October 11th, 2012]
(I had just fallen asleep from waking up the first time. Before this dream, I had the Carnival dream.)

There was an odd man and a teary-eyed child walking up a quiet path to a large cave.
At the top of the path, the man shoves the kid inside, after stripping his clothes off and assures him, "It'll be all right, go inside. I'm going to help you. This has to be done."
The bare child has no choice, really. He lacks sureness in his feet, as he walks into the cave, almost as if he's afraid to fall from a cliff. It was so dark, you really couldn't tell if there was a dropoff or not. The kid takes a little, but now he's in the center of the cave. You can see him hunched into a ball somewhere in the dark with your dim nightvision that no one else but us has. The man wants to do this where no one will find them.

Suddenly- I'm the boy. I see nothing but pitchblack. The light from outside doesn't enter this cave. "I'm coming in~" a whisper violates the silence, but is carried along like a screaming wind. I take a step backwards- but I hear my footsteps crunch in the sand a few times. I stop and listen- I hear
a "crunch... crunch... crunch... crunch..." at such an irregular beat. Something is different now and off- my skin began to crawl. The cool air suddenly became so cold, it hurt my skin. The crunching is growing closer and closer and closer. It had to be less than a yard away... I throw up my hands in pure terror in a pathetic attempt at self-defense. I touched nothing- just waved my arms around quietly.

Then someone SEIZES my hands violently and shoved them down to my side. They lean their face closer to mine. I became semi-lucid- just in time to witness some... THING... with a sunken face staring at me dead in the eyes with soulless milky-black charcoal eyes. The face quickly morphed into Alex.

"Do you wanna see my noon?" she whispered through the dead silence of the cave. "Do you wanna see my noon?"

She stares me dead in the eye with a blank expression on her face. Then she slowly opens her mouth wide- and two fists pushed together... slowly crawls out of her open mouth as if someone inside was pushing them out. They began to open and creep towards my face to grab it.

"WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP."

(Imagine making two fists in front of you like you're holding a steering wheel tight. Push your hands together like that. Then, holding the bottom of your hands together where it joins the wrist imagine them opening and unrolling like a flower. That's how she tried to grab my face.)


<I woke up.>

[Thursday, October 11th, 2012]

<The night before this, Alex had told me how she felt about me... she popped the question, "Why are we together?" a few times and after she left, it felt like the end of the world. She was definitely going to leave me... I was angry and sad at the same time. Why is she so unfair with me? Demanding things of me, but when I ask for the same, she tells me I will never understand. She must love to drill me further into the ground. Even now as I type this, I can't help feeling a helpless feeling... a bitter disgust for the Alex that night, that lectured me like a child and let me know I was a horrible boyfriend. My heart sank 3 times smaller that night. I sat in my bed and sobbed for hours and screamed into my pillow, trying to stop my heart from hurting. I thought about hurting myself physically, I thought about leaving her before she could leave me. I even left a few scars on my mind. I finally calmed down after talking to her on the phone... she made me laugh... while I was going to get cigarettes, but I still felt miserable as I lied down to go to bed.>

(Before I fell asleep, being as horrible anxious and depressed and emotional as I was... I told my subconscious to just give me whatever dream it thought I needed to see. "Go ahead. Throw anything I need to see at me. But make me lucid. I need to be lucid!" I fall asleep.)

(Hours later, I have my first dream that I remember...)

I walk out of a motel room with Alex beside me and we look around. Some kind of festival was occuring all around us. People are walking around in all directions, mostly heading for a particular carnival ground. Some are in costume, some are stark naked. We walk around for a bit and decide to head back to where we came from, to change our appearence. I decide I wanted to either be stark naked too, or cross-dress. Back at the motel room, I skim through my options in clothes, and notice I suddenly have a lot of female clothes in my closet as well as male ones. Alex isn't with me anymore though. So I walk back outside and wander around some more- still with the urge to rip off all of my clothes.

Glancing around at people more, I notice that I know quite a lot of people here- no family members, but people from my town that I know are very common here. Suddenly, I see some people walking towards Bashas'. Apparently, Bashas' is allowing our festival to take as much food as we want to bring back for a feast. I follow the small crowd to Bashas'. Outside, I wait for an employee to unlock the doors... and we head in with shopping carts. We start tossing in random items, from meats to snacks to candy to cheeses to drinks. The second cart starts filling up with purely meat, and I warn them not to overdo it on meat.

<dream skips>

We're back at the festival. I grab a flyer from the ground and it shows my whole family is performing. Tim Z****, Bob Z****, and a few other Z****'s that I've never heard of. I realize that I can't cross-dress or go stark naked because they're here and I don't want them to think bad of me. I see Zack and Alex together and I walk up to them. Zack and me are friendly like we used to be.

<HOLE IN MEMORY> My Dad was involved with this memory, as were Alex and Zack. We were gathering something off the dirt street, there were lots of them... we were in the old west and my Dad was standing next to an old wagon. <memory skips>

We're now in the middle of a cardboard-like city. The buildings are close together and flat and textureless like a cheap old video game using 3D models of a wall and a cheap texture stretched across the surface. It's like a type of maze here with buildings painted on the walls. The structures do however tower into the sky like normal. I'm still with Alex and Zack. We're doing something <HOLE IN MEMORY> when me and Alex seperate from Zack. The grey sky becomes covered in clouds the color of charcoal. They become the darkest black imaginable. Me and Alex look at each other and instantly begin to run down the street, searching for shelter. I see Zack behind us walking some other direction, almost as if he's unaware. He turns a corner and I lose sight of him. I keep running the other way.

We arrive inside of a dark building to wait out the storm. Rain begins to POUR and we wait there for hours. When it finally stops, we go outside, and color is returning to the sky. The sun peaks out from behind the clouds, but the world is still a dull grey tone.

We walk back to where our motel was and I find where my car is parked. We hop in and begin to drive. She wants to find Zack... she's worried sick about him. I'm depressed- We drive for a bit more and <HOLE IN MEMORY> I park in the Circle K with pumps, and do a horrible job. I try to re-align my park job a few times before I give up and decide its okay how I parked. Alex walks up to me and starts yelling at me about some unknown thing and asks me why I left her somewhere. I tried to explain I didn't leave her anywhere... but it's no use. We both hop in the car however and drive off towards the direction of McDonalds. "Please, we have to find Zack. I'm worried about him." I keep driving.

Suddenly, we're in a Fun-House of Mirrors, sitting inside a track-ride. We slowly turn a corner and see Zack lying down. The car stops and Alex gets out and runs to Zack and gives him a long hug. She lets go and kisses Zack on the lips. I blink my eyes and see that Zack has his knuckle up to Alex lips. It's a gesture towards me- that Zack would have made before while he was still my friend. I watch the whole scene objectively, as if it had nothing to do with me... a movie I knew was depressing, but lacked the emotion to feel. The only thing I felt was that I was a horrible boyfriend- at that moment I remembered all of the things I had been saying throughout the dream. It was like my horrible self from waking life was invading my dreams- I had said pathetic things about Zack and that I was tired of all this shit and more. I felt horrible compared to Zack, who had just done something nice for me

<I wake up feeling like shit.>

(I still admired the intensity of the dream, and closed my eyes again and imagined being lucid during it... I repeated in my head, "It's a dream.")
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<I fell back into a dream.>
<It's continued with "Pedophilia in a Dark Place" after this dream.

[Wednesday, October 10th, 2012]
I remember singing "In The Company of Wolves" with Nathan and Alex.

<That's it for recall.>

(Later, I remember being inside of a strange building and outside meeting with smaller kids. There was baseball being played around me but I only remember faint impressions of it being something like a school or private school to be more exact.)

Oct. 14, 2012
11:00-3:00

I remember being in school. Jy was in this one again. It was about how I like her and my emotions for her. I remember standing next to Jy when suddenly this tall person went over to me and confronted me for some reason. That's all I remember.

I was in school and I remember this girl from school named Ty.

There was some sort of object called "Pleasure Lotion" in the dream.

Something about set?

There was a group of people, i had to observe. And i should kill someone of them, which i did. After a while, a friend of mine, should kill someone to, and i met him, bevor he drove there with the drum, to tell him, that he actually should not do it. i wontet do pay his ticket as well, and as i tried to find a one euro coin i found only a two euro coin, that worried me a bit.

Then i directly observed my enemies, watched them from a hill, and thought about what to do with them, i droped my cellphone down, so the head of them would pick it up, which he did, and then i thought i would blow him of with an explosive charge built into the phone, but instead i blow his car and on the phone came a message for him.

and then there was the scenery, in which i, and two friends, a girl and a boy, had to hid from them, but they came very close too us, and in that moment i understood, that you should breathe very slowly, when you hide.

I am in a plane inside of a plane. On a U shaped track. The track ends back inside of the plane. Being John Malckovich style. It is the entrane to a man's mind. As I near his earlobe, I grow smaller, as does the plane.

I am in the same school as usual. The high school that I usually forget my locker combo, my class schedule, yadda yadda yadda...Only this time I have a new confidence. I impress a teacher in the teachers lounge with my big ideas and wealth of knowledge. The other teachers fawn after me as I leave the lounge to go dominate another day at school.

I am suddenly in the middle of the kitchen, watching as my mom bends down to grab something from the fridge. It is the glass jar of Essiac. She pours herself a glass and shoots it down the hatch.

We are at a big party. Amber C. is here and a bunch of other girls I know. It seems that most are girls but there are definitely some boys lingering. We are doing a loft of moving. There is a different movement to mimic/practice/execute in each section of the house. The secret room is here, at least "a" secret room is here. I open the door and there is a fireplace and big stuffy armchairs. It seems no one knows about the room. A second time I peer in, a woman gives me a sneaky smile and locks the door. I intuitively know I can get in though, whenever I wish.

Upstairs there are men feeding on girls like vampires. I do not spend too much time up here but I don't remeber feeling any fear. Everything seemed normal and not taboo. At one point I cannot find any of my friends. I fear that either
a) they have left early without me or
b) ther vampire like men have gotten to them.

I check the hidden room (reconfirming my aforementioned premonition) and they are not there. So I grab my shoes, which is somewhat of a dillema because at this point I am quite lucid and have to decide which shoes are the most logically fit for a quick getaway. I don't recoginze any of the shoes as mine but am confident that I can have my pick because afterall, I'm dreaming. I pick a pair of checkered tennis shoes that are multicolored and remind me of a pair Amanda C. has. I head outside to put them on, which is very difficult. Outside I sit on a curb to put on the shoes. I feel safer out here in the open. The curb is concrete, white concrete. Mid shoeing, I see my companions come out of the door behind me. I don't understand but I figure that I started loking for them before I as very lucid so I must have just missed them. I decide to ask anyway and find out that they have been in the basement. Amber tells me that there is a whole set of rooms down there. She was in a room working on her core strength.

In this dream, i shifted to two different areas. The first area, from what i remember, looked like a light-colored townhouse across from an overdrop bridge and a waterfall. The second area ocurred somewhere in a city of small town.

1) Across a curvy road, smoothly paved road with yellow lines, i noticed a classmate of mine from a college math class. There is a flash of trees, a boarder that is on the edge of the road facing the water. There was a space where people could stop their vehicles to turn around or pull over. I also visited Ma, sister and Dad in the area. Seeing him was interesting, considering it being a year since he passed into the universe (or passed away). Seeing him felt so real, like i was hanging out with him. It felt comfortable.

Next thing i remember, i had a visit with my math classmate. We talked about sexual orientation and at the time, i did not remember why, though i got a calm feeling.

I remember my sister coming to visit me and bring me back to the room in the town house that we were staying at. Mom and Dad were in the room and he handed her a present. There was a feeling of happiness from her as she received it. This reminded me of a photo of her when she was a kid and caught a fish at a fish hatchery. I cannot recall what he gave her, though noticed that she was opening a rectangular-shaped box with pinkish reddish wrapping paper.

Somewhere, i think my sister was deeply enamored in electronics. I got this feeling to stay at the townhouse. The thought was at the time, that my mom and sister did not want to lose me. There was a sound and maybe a sight of Dad talking, though the words are blurry or the energy is moving so fast.

Shifting to a different area...

2) In the middle of being in the first area, somewhere in that time period, i shifted to the second area which felt like a quiet, yet a twist of reality in a neighborhood that looked like it was in the middle of a murder mystery.

The energy felt rapid with what looked like criminal activity. I did not realize how dangerous it was, until i felt more visible in situation. I felt like i wanted to leave right away. During the situation, I was holding a baby in my arms. I did not know where the baby came from. With the baby in my arms, i saw a few men across from the house i was in, seeing them go into a small house, taking a gun inside and shooting at something or someone. All the sudden, i heard a scream. At the time, i was afraid the guys were going to turn around and see someone a bit terrified.

After that, the area fades out in my memory.

I am with a group of friends at a movie theater. I feel like we're going to see something special like Harry Potter, or some fantasy flick. My group needs to do something before we head into our film and I know that if I don't go now, I will not be pleased with my seat. So I make some sort of excuse to do something like go to the bathroom or I just ninja my way in the door before anyone has time to notice. Suddenly I am in a large mass of people all trying to enter the theater. I struggle around for a bit but eventually find a good seat. Staring at the screen I notice my vision is blurry. This triggers nistant lucidity (for I wear contacts and glasses in real life). This was the internal dialogue that followed:

Do I have my contacts in?
Of course I do I'm at a movie theater.
I wouldn't go see a movie without vision.
I can't see the screen very clearly so I must be in a dream movie theater.
If I'm in a dream does my vision need altering?
Does it dpend on my lucidity?
Wait...OMG...I'm dreaming!"

*wakes up