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1-26-09

Lucid fragment:

I was laying in bed and looking over at my nightstand and watching this very large black widow spider. It was about 6 inches long. I remember knowing that it was a dream and looking at it closely and thinking something like, "Wow...look at that detail. It's amazing that my mind can come up with that kind of detail. I couldn't draw that in real life--I wouldn't know exactly where to draw in the legs and the cephalothorax --so how can my mind create it so perfectly.

Then I saw two beetles walk across my nightstand. I wondered if the spider would try to catch them. As soon as I thought this the black widow pounced on one of them and started to suck it dry.

I must have been quite lucid or else I would have felt quite creeped out by all of this.

1-8-09

Lucid Dream:

I was in this room with a friend. It looked like a bank. My friend went to stand in line. I walked to the back of the room to wait. On the way I slipped and fell on the floor. I sat there for a moment, then noticed that I was starting to spin. I found this strange and just let it happen.

I then became lucid. I jumped up and flew over the line of waiting people. In the next room I tried to remember the tasks. I remembered two. One was to look at a clock. I looked around the room and saw a digital clock sitting on a cluttered shelf. It said 7:42...or was it 7:34...no, it was 7:47. I really tried to focus and stablize it, but the clock was a blur of numbers that changed everytime I tried to focus. I remembered people saying that time changed, but I hadn't realized that it was quite this unstable. I wondered why that was.

I then remembered that I needed to use my five senses. I had already been seeing and hearing things, so I decided to focus on "touch". I reached out and felt the solidness of a rail in front of me.

I then decided to find something to taste. But before I had gone anywhere I realized that I had already been eating. I had a bowl of macaroni and cheese. I could taste the cheesey flavor and feel the pieces of partly chewed noodles in my mouth.

I decided to move on to smell.

I flew around and saw Jeff. I told him that I needed to find something to smell. I couldn't see anything that would have a smell to it. I then looked at him and asked, "Have you been working out? Maybe you'll smell sweaty?" But as I leaned toward him and couldn't smell anything.

I started flying out of the building. I then saw next to the door a styrofoam container of food that somone had brought back from a restaurant. I openind it and saw leftover green peppers. I knew that they would have a smell. I put my nose right to them and took a big whiff. I could smell a very faint pepper smell. I was disappointed that my dream nose wasn't better. As I pulled my nose back I realized that my nose had touched the peppers and that the peppers had little prickly thorns on them and some of the thorns had stuck in my nose. They were painful to pull out. Jeff thought it was funny that I had let that happen, as if I should have known better than to put my nose up to peppers.

I followed Jeff into the parking lot. He got into a large white pickup truck. I started to get in too. Then I had an idea. I told him to just start driving and not to worry about what I was doing. I then rolled the window down and stood outside the truck and reached in and grabbed the handle above the window. As the truck started to move I was carried away, floating beside the truck. It was a wonderfully exhilerating feeling. I told myself that I would have to remember to try that again in future LD.

Jeff stopped the truck too soon and started talking to someone. I got back in the truck and waited. I saw a baseball glove on the seat. I ran my fingers over the soft leather, then picked it up to smell it. It had a faint leathery smell. I then started touching other parts of the car so I could say that I really did the task thoroughly.

My dream faded and I thought I had woken up. But then I forced myself to relax and drift back into the dream.

I was now in a building with Marie. There was a bad guy we were having to get away from him. We locked outselves in a bathroom. I felt quite nervous. But then I told Marie that if it got too scary then I would just let myself wake up.
And that's all I remember.

December something 2008:



Lucid dream

I was in a dream when I suddenly felt that dream-like feeling. I tested it by foating and found that I could indeed float. I floated to the door to go outside so I could fly. But before I went out I decided that my last few LDs hadn't been that tactile. I decided that when I grabbed that door knob that I would really feel it and notice how if felt in my hand.

I reached out and expected the knob to be cool. I was a little disappointed to find that it was the same temperature as my hand and didn't really feel like anything in particular.

I then had another idea. I remembered how when you rub something against you lips you can feel a lot more detail. So still holding the door knob I knelt down and leaned over and brought my lips to where the doorknob was supposed to be. I didn't feel anything so I leaned further. Still nothing. I pulled back to find that the knob was gone.

Since the door was already opened I flew outside to the street in front of my mom's house. I saw my friend Becky in the road. I landed by her. She was very happy about something and grabbed my shoulders. I remember really feeling that sensation. She told me something which I no longer remember.
Then I had an idea. I decided to ask her about the future (My dream self somehow thinks that if I ask a dream character the future there is more chance if it being true, I don't know why). So I asked her to predict something. She then said like "Pretty soon the planet Mars will be..... " [and she said something that didn't really make sense]. But the meaning to me was that something spectacular was about to happen concerning the planet Mars.

And that's all I remember.

December something 2008:


One of my lucid dreams:

Very short memory. All I remember is that I was lucid and flew around with John Taylor from Duran Duran. He was wearing a white sport jacket and white hat like I think he wore in their video Rio. I remember seeing his beautiful smile.

I even found a picture that looks almost exactly like he did in the dream.

12-10-08

I had a total lucid pig out session last night.

I don't remember how the dream even started. All I remember is becoming lucid at a table absolutely full of goodies. I decided to take full advantage of the situation. I started grabbing handful after handful and stuffing it into my mouth. I ate cake, cookies, pie, and my favorite-- a chocolate peanutbutter cheesecake.

I remember grabbing something off the plate of the person sitting next to me knowing that that person was a DC and didn't matter.

Another thing I noticed was how much could fit into my mouth at once. I was almost able to "inhale" large pieces. Then when my mouth felt full I would just swallow it down. I don't actually remember chewing alot. The food mostly kind of slid down my throat. The flavor was there. I enjoyed everything.

I also remember grabbing a piece of a decorated cake. It was in the shape of a teddybear. I scooped off the head and inhaled it all in. It was a chocolate cake with very creamy--almost pudding like-- vanilla creme frosting.


Man, it was all so good.


So yes, if you are curious, I'm still depriving myself very well in real life.

12-3-08

Dream 6 (Lucid):

I was in a backyard I was with a boy who looked about 13 and two young women about 20 years old. I saw that they were tutoring the boy. I realized that this boy had superhero powers that he just learned about. The two women were also super and were helping him learn how to do all the things that he could do. I saw that they were about to teach him how to fly.

At this point I suddenly became lucid. I wanted to take off flying with the three of them. I already knew how to fly. I crouched down into almost a squat ready to spring up and fly into the air.

At that exact moment my stupid alarm went off.

In that split second that I was still in my dream, the sound startled me so much that I fell back onto my butt.


What a graceful ending to a lucid dream cut way too short

I even had my goals all planned out....

11-30-08

I remember the dream starting out rather creepy. I was supposed to visit this little boy. The boy had this skeleton. Well, part of a skeleton. It was just the skull and the spine. It still had some skin on the bones. I saw it in my mind even though I hadn't gotten to where the boy was yet. The more I thought about the skeleton the more freaked out I became, almost to the point of panicking. The thought of having to be in the same room as that skeleton was absolutely horrifying. I didn't know how I could handle it, but yet it was something that I was going to have to do.

At some point I became lucid.

I was in the room with the boy. I wanted to do something significant with my lucid abilities. I didn't want to just waste my dream flying and then hardly even remembering it. I wanted to try something--a new lucid skill. The idea of developing my lucid talents really appealed to me.

I looked around for something to give me an idea of what to try. I saw a piece of construction paper on the floor. As I picked it up I could see that it must have been one of the boy's art projects from school. It was in rough shape, crinkled with one corner ripped off.

I decided that I would poke my finger through the paper. Not ripping a hole through, but just magically sliding my finger through. I put my finger up to the paper and gently pushed. The paper just moved with my finger. I told myself that I could do this. That was was really good at developing lucid talents.

I tried again. This time my finger just slid though the paper. I pulled my finger out. It left a perfectly round hole. I concentrated on that hole and slowly I could see the edge of the circle come in and the circle became smaller until it was finally gone.

I was so impressed with myself. It just looked so cool. I had to do it again. So I stuck my finger through the paper again, pulling it out and then concentrating on making the hole go away. I did this at least five times.

I then looked at the ripped corner. I concentrated again. Slowly the paper stated growing, filling in the missing corner.

When that was finsihed I looked around for something else to mess with. On the floor next to the boy was another art project. This one was a very large figure of a person. It was also made out of paper and very crinkled up. I decided to use my lucid powers to flatten it. I concentrated, starting at the feet and flattened it. It was really cool to watch. When I was finished, it was complelty flat as it it had never been wadded up.

There is a trasition here.

I am outside again. I decide I need to complete a Task. The only one that comes to mind is DV's follow the yellow brick road one. I decided to go look for one. I was at the edge of a forest and I flew around looking. I flew for what seemed like a long time and finally I found a brick road. It was not yellow. Instead, it was red. I was tired at this point of looking for a yellow brick road, so I decided to just follow this red one. I was hoping to find something very interesting. I followed it into the woods. It went past trees and big boulders and up hills. But nothing unusual came into sight.

Late November (2008):

I have had several lucid dreams lately where I have been flying. I think I'm only partly lucid because all I can think of to do is fly (I'm not thinking fully like I do in real life or a really good LD).

I don't have very good memories of these dreams, only that something triggers lucidity and I RC by flying. I do remember in one dream I was flying over a beach. In another dream I was flying to the top of this stone henge looking thing. In another I was flying down a street trying to go faster but not having much luck.

I feel like I have been flying so much lately that it seems like I should be able to do it in real life too. Like I'll be looking up at something and suddenly think how easy that should be to get to...how I can just imagine what it would feel like, look like, to fly right up to it. Things look so much closer, more tangible. It's neat and weird. I kind of like it.

Mid November 2008:

I had two LDs last week. Both short with me only remembering that I like to fly when lucid. And not even doing that well. No thought of any more interesting or complicated tasks.

10-22-08

Dream notes.


Mini LD

Flying.

10-16-08



Fragment 3 lucid fragment: taking picture of the moon through the orange autum leaves on a tree. Became lucid. Was disappointed that these pictures would never turn out. Dream over.

Updating....

10-15-08

I was in a room. These girls were all working of these projects involving weaving. Some were rugs. Some where....well, I actually don't know. They had edges that were made from carved bamboo slices.

At some point I became lucid. I tried to remember what to do. Finally I remembered to tell other dream characters that this was a dream. So I call out to get their attention and say, "Hey everyone--this is a lucid dream!"

They all stared at me with blank looks on their faces as if they had no idea what I just said, as if I had been speaking a foreign language.

So I say it again. I turn around and look at the group of girls standing behind me hoping for a better reaction. But I still just got that blank look.


I'm not sure how this dream ended. I either woke up or just lost lucidity and went on to other dreams. I think it was the latter.

I jumped out of a building and I saw some female ninja running down the wall. We hit the ground at the same time. She's wearing a typical ninja outfit except it's brown, and her mask is a darker shade of brown. She also has a Chinese straw hat on. We're both running and she vanishes in and out of perception view..I don't know if she's teleporting or just moving fast as hell like DBZ. I stopped for a moment, and she turned around and threw something at me. I held out my hand (three green fingers), and immediately caught the sai. She threw another one and I did the same. It was like I didn't have to focus on the object, but more or less my hand and and everything else just guided it in. I told her I was the best with sai's and some lady came up and started asking me question....all her words were weird. Like her sentences didn't make any sense. I tried to answer them, but it was just off.

I haven't been on in a while due to night terrors and other problems due to my epilepsy getting in the way but I am here now, and I feel like I want to do this more than ever. I started this process because of my night terrors and now they are back with a vengeance and I wish I knew the reason. I could make a few guesses but I really think none of them would suffice.

I dreamt of a a girl (that I don't remember remembering) being raped.
I dreamt that I literally blew up my cousin. She used to be my best friend and I seemed to be happy about it in this dream. It may sound stupid in writing but sadly (and pathetically) it isn't.
I dreamt of my brothers death.
I dreamt that I was crying and crying and running and crying and couldn't escape whatever was chasing me.


I started this to escape this dreams where I ran. Not only that but also to maybe escape the boredom of my life and the sadness i felt. As these nightmares hit me with a new, and almost fresh, sting I can't help feeling helpless. Since I don't seem to be getting any better at what I am doing. I hope that this changes. and that I don't lose hope. And that I can defeat this thing devouring me every night.

As i type this and I know no one will read it I feel comfortable with that. I never really felt like anyone heard my call in the first place. But I will be fine.

So I went to bed with the intention of getting Lucid... And I sure did... Here's how my night went.

I was in a dream, doing something... Can't remember what, and I became Lucid. I can't remember what I did in this one, but I know I was definitely Lucid..
You'll see why I can't remember what I did in a second...

After about 5 mins of being Lucid, I woke up, then DEILD back into a dream, and became Lucid again... It was raining, and I lifted up my hands and changed it to be sunny.
Then I had an FA, and did a nose plug RC and became Lucid... again... Then I was at school, and was talking to some chicks, and I woke up...

At this point I was just lying there like, 'uh... ok, lets keep going!' (WBTB) So I went back to sleep with the intention of becoming Lucid again, and I did. Now I told my sister that we were dreaming, and then went and flew around for a bit... Then my lucidity faded, and I had an FA, did a Nose Plug RC and became Lucid again....
This red bit repeated over like, literally 7 times.... :/ So when I woke up I was just like "duh herp derp what just happened'...
xD