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Date: February 14, 2013 ||| Time Block: 7:00 AM to 8:30 AM ||| Length: 5 minutes. ||| Lucidity: level 3/2. ||| Entry Type: DILD ||| Major Methods: WBTB

Methods: lay in bed next to my younger brother after being called; just fell asleep while not even thinking about lucid dreaming.

Summary: had about 4 consecutive false awakenings (they have details, but too tired and forgetful to write them down); on 5th false awakening, finally gave up on other goals and went out the window to fly; had an amazing experience flying past our old house, picking up my sister (by her request), and flying off into the woods for many seconds, the whole way fully conscious I was dreaming and looking in awe at the scenery and the appearance of objects as they appeared; eventually hit into a power line and 'woke up'; I raced to go write it down, with Dad being there with Davey not surprising me; while thinking about what to write down, I woke up for real.

all I remember is I dreamed I was just playing call of duty, i was looking down the scope of a sniper rifle and got a double kill lol.

Hey at least I'm improving since last night:P

Ok, so this is not a dream I had today, but one that I feel I will never forget. It wasn't lucid, but never before have i witnessed such a perfect story take place in my dream. I had this one about a year ago, but I'm new here and wanted to share this with other people. There are many references that would probably not make much sense to anyone but me. Still, I've tried to keep as much of the original content as unchanged as possible. I'm also going to include pictures of people the DCs were based on, or whom they resembled the most, so you might get a better idea what they were like. Those are either famous people (some you might probably recognize), or just those I know from my life (friends, former classmates, etc.). I've also given the DCs those people's names, to be able to refer to them somehow. Also, I'm sorry for my English, I'm not a native speaker, but I'll try my best.

Alright, so here we go:
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The main protagonist of this story wasn't me. I was just a spectator, but somehow, I felt connected to him. You know, like when you play a 3rd person video game .

The "hero's" name was Johnny



One day, he was riding his bike in the countryside. After a while, he noticed an abandoned village. Actually, it was just a couple of crumbled huts. There was a road leading to them, so he wanted to take a closer look, but the road was barred. When he looked in the direction of the huts again, he noticed something he didn't see before. There were some strange scarecrow-like things jumping around. Yes, jumping, because they had valve springs instead of legs. And they wore silk hats. They didn't seem like something Johnny would want to approach, so he hid behind a bush by the road. Suddenly, he heard a noise of a car arriving from inside the "village". The car stopped for a moment, waited for the bars to open and proceeded through, stopping again only after a few meters. It was a red cabrio, pretty old model, but looked new nonetheless. Just like this:



The driver resembled a ringmaster



(That is pretty much him, only he had black clothes). He was aware of Johnny hiding behind the bush and told him to come closer. Johnny hesitated, but decided to leave his hiding spot and approach the guy. "Beware what you wish for!", the ringmaster told him. Then he let Johnny enter the village and drove off. Johnny started walking down the road towards the huts. The "scarecrows" were gone. Weird thing was that the huts seemed to increase i number. There were maybe 4 - 5 huts now, and they even seemed to be in a better state than before. Johnny wanted to examine the place, so he entered one of the huts. There was a little hallway and a door that led to another room. He could see golden light emanate from the room behind. When he passed through the door, he was standing in a large room with a huge pile of CD's in the middle. There was a boy lying on his stomach at the top of the pile, shouting: "Thank you! Thank you for allowing us to discover this place!" Suddenly, more people started barging in the room. They were mostly teens with large sport bags. In an instant, it became apparent that this place was ... a boarding house.

Johnny then decided to leave the building. But with opening the door leading outside, it was like entering another world. There weren't just a few huts anymore. There was a big city instead, with crowds of people everywhere. Even some skyscrappers started to rise from the ground. The only thing that stayed was the only road in the middle of the town. There was a school building across the road, so Johnny decided to investigate some more. Upon entering, he saw a few people he knew. He walked up to them and asked what's going on here. They told him they attend the school and also live in this town. That didn't make any sense, as he knew them from before and knew that wasn't the truth. They were his former classmates. They were in a classroom and the students suddenly began to take their seats. A teacher was probably supposed to come. But nobody came. So they all just sat there, talking. The classmates started explaining that this is a place where all wishes come true. On the other hand, everything evil is banned here. The scarecrows roaming around town are here to watch over everyone and their task is to dispose of everything "evil" they stumble upon.

Suddenly, one of the classmates stood up on their desk. It was Anette:



She declared that she loves Johnny. Just like that, out of the blue. That left him surprised for a moment, but then he gladly accepted it. He climbed up the desk and the two started kissing. In a few seconds, they were levitating in the air, a few meters above the desk. Then they slowly descended to the ground. The whole classroom was cheering and applauding. Johnny recognised one of the guys standing nearby as the one lying on the pile of CDs a while ago. He introduced himself as Pete:



They were chatting for a while. Pete explained that his family is in a terrible situation. He doesn't get along with his father, his mom has some serious illnes and his grandma died some time ago. He was just visiting her when she died. She was disliked by many and didn't care, but she was always there for Pete. It was a great loss for him. When she was dying, she gave him some kind of a porcelain jar. She told him it was very rare and holds a special power that might possibly cure mom. When returning home after her death, he came across this village. He felt dragged in by some invisible force and chose to stay for a while. But after spending some time here, when he wanted to leave, he couldn't. There was no way out of the village, as if he was still in the same place while walking in any direction.

Then the school bell rang and everyone was headed out of the building. The news about "The levitating pair" spread fast. Everyone in town knew them. Everyone was amazed and maybe a bit envious about how much the two are able to do due to their love and passion. Johnny stood at the entrance to school and noticed a huge skyscrapper across the street that wasn't there before. It had signs saying "Pearl Group" all over it. "What?" He thought. Pearl Group was a company he worked for. How did it get here? He wanted answers. He went through the main entrance and stepped in a huge hall which looked like an airport. There were even those big metal detectors you have to pass through in order to proceed. And there was security staff too. One of the guards was a dark haired girl named Gloria:

http://tinyurl.com/beaqo42 (excuse the links, but the site only allows me to attach 5 pictures to a post)

When Johnny passed through the metal detector, she approached to search him anyway. As she got closer, she recognized him as the "levitating guy". She was jealous and hated Anette for getting this guy. But then she noticed him staring at her. She smelled a chance, grabbed him and kissed him. In a hall full of people. He didn't try to stop her. He enjoyed it. She laughed and left him standing there. After a moment, he shook it off and continued to proceed upstairs. He needed to see Daniel, the boss of Pearl Group:

http://tinyurl.com/ab3v2zg

He got to the top floor. There was a single office. Daniel's office. Johnny entered the room and Daniel was welcoming him with a smile. But Johnny went straight to the point. "How did you get here?", "What are you doing here?". And so Daniel started explaining: "There are possibilites in this city like nowhere else in the world. We will become the most powerful corporation ever. Anything the company needs, we can wish for and we get it. Buildings, employees, anything. We have everything we can think of." That left Johnny seriously disgusted, although he couldn't help but feel guilty. He worked for them, after all. And it was him who discovered the village. They just followed him there somehow. He turned around and left the room without a word.

When returning to the ground floor, he saw a huge crowd of people shouting and yelling at someone. Then he saw it. Anette and Gloria were standing in the middle, almost fighting. He ran towards them. There was a smug smirk on Gloria's face, but with Anette, it was different. She was mad as hell. "How could you?!", she screamed at Johnny. "You've destroyed everything!" She slapped him and walked away. The rest of the crowd seemed to suddenly disregard him. Someone even threw something at him. "Boo! Boo!", the people went, pointing fingers. Then they stopped paying attention to him.

Meanwhile, something happened in the hut Pete resided in. While he was out in town, one of the scarecrows sneaked inside. In his bedroom, there was a large bedside table with the jar his grandma gave him placed on it. But Pete's grandma was considered a bad person among people while she lived, even if only for not talking to others and keeping to herself. And the scarecrow knew that. Or, more precisely, he felt a negative energy emanating from the jar. He didn't care why it was so. After all, the scarecrows were just mindless beings programmed by god-knows-who to get rid of everything they didn't consider "right". So he (or it, for that matter), grabbed the jar and smashed it to pieces.

When Pete returned to the hut, he was shocked to see the pieces lying on the floor. He felt a wave of anger clouding his mind. His mother's only hope was lost. "That's it!" He thought. "I'm done with this town." He furiously headed outside, determined to get as far from there as possible. While rushing through town, he ran into Johnny. He didn't look too happy either. "What's wrong?", Pete asked. "This place is not for me...", Johnny replied. "That makes two of us", Pete said. "Let's leave, I'm full of this place", he added. Johnny nodded in approval. They both got on Pete's motorcycle (Yes, it somehow magically appeared, they probably wished it to be there ), and started racing towards the edge of the town. If there even was an edge anymore. The city was growing faster than they were able to get away from it. New skyscrappers rising from the ground one by one right next to them in the blink of an eye, with "Pearl Group" signs everywhere. And then, something clicked. Johnny realized that the power lies on his side. He immediately focused his thoughts on getting out of the town. And indeed, after a while, they made it to the place where the road was barred. There was also a small booth for a security guard which wasn't there before, but they were allowed to pass through nonetheless. The guys left the town behind and were now making their way through the suburbs towards the countryside. Johnny turned around to check how far from the city they are, but there was no trace of it anywhere. It was gone.

The two kept driving for some time, until they finally stopped at a bus stop in the middle of nowhere. "What now?", Johnny asked. "I need to see my mom...", Pete replied. Then they took off again. After some time, they reached a place with a few houses. They stopped in front of the one with a wooden fence. "Here", Pete said. "I'll wait here", Johnny assured him. Pete got off the bike and passed through the wooden fence. He appeared in a large garden with a huge cubical building. It was an underpass. So he proceeded through, exiting on the other side, finding himself in front of a big old apartment building. He opened the huge cranky door and entered the building. There was a hallway inside, with stairs at the far end, separated by a glass barrier with another door in it. When Pete opened the other door, he stopped in his tracks. A person was standing there. It was his father. He didn't look one bit surprised to see Pete. He definitely seemed devastated, though. Pete came up to him, asking: "... Mom?"
"Your mother just died..." his father replied.

Well, It may be true. I had a weird experience today. My father passed away 15 days ago from a heart attack. It was a shock I felt never before. He was only 52 and in perfectly ok health. Because I live in USA and family in India, I couldn't even see him for last time. We were very close but in a subtle, non verbal way. I have/ had a regret that I couldn't/didn't express myself to him very clearly and maybe he felt like I kind of think of him as inferior or may be I feel I am very clever or something like that. I still have a regret that I didn't spoke with him very expressively like I do with my mom. That, he was one of the real influences on me and I loved him.
Then, I had a very relaxing evening yesterday I slept with pretty calm nerves. Then, I experienced series of dreams, they were super realistic, I was in my own perspective. There was also death of my dad in the dream, but it was hoax. He came back ! I asked him why did he do that, and he gave some explanation I don't remember. I sat on his shoulders and roamed around, maybe I did that when I was kid. He had an accident 2 years ago, which left him with swollen leg. So,I asked about it and it was recovered. My mom was furious with him in the dream. I said to him that he Must not miss him Blood pressure medication and he said ok, though a bit involuntarily. Then, all my relatives were there to see him again (he kind of came back from dead, or it was a hoax played by him, or some thing like that...)
My uncle said to him,'You just ask for the break, don't take a break like that!' and my other uncle asked to drop me back to airport for my flight to USA. And he said that he got it, he will drop me! It was the thing that he did for me on literally every day, drop me to bus station for school, or for other things. And I was woken up, all sweaty.
Later, I called mom, and explained, and cried a bit (the tears just rolled, and I seldom cry...).
Maybe,it was some maze created by my mind for giving me some closure, giving me chance to meet him again... or maybe it was an alternate reality. Or my dad's soul, communicating me when I was very calm minded.
I have no explanation, but from these experiences, I doubt the need of our existence. Our Hindu Dharma gives very well defined and studied explanations of afterlife, and one of the rituals that I did later denoted that he was satisfied when he passed. (He never knew he died, no pain, no fear..)
We are just puppets here, with unseen strings, and I just hope that wherever his soul is, he transcends to higher spiritual level and be happy.

Awake
Dream
Lucid
Semi-Lucid


I had been trying to WILD for almost an hour, so I gave up and started sleeping on my side. I'm lying there trying to sleep, When all of a sudden, I start feeling weird sensations, so I think to myself: WILD!. I lay there and let myself drift off in to my dream while trying to maintain conciousness, and I succeed.

I’m in the middle of what looks like an enormous prairie land. I immediately think to myself: Yes I’ve done it! Time to have fun! I leap into the air and start flying. It was AMAZING it felt so real, everything was so vivid and crystal clear. I felt the resistance of the air while going upwards too. As I start flying, the landscape shifts from this dull field, to some exotic place with many red rocks, and tall trees. The landscape is amazing, It reminded me of a video game, because often I couldn't look too far into the distance, because it wasn't there. I mostly had to look underneath me to observe the landscape. The grass is a very dark green, and there are orange mountains everywhere. Eventually, I start seeing giant monsters on the ground, and they look like they’re mad at me for flying around their land. I reach into my pocket and pull out grenades and start launching them while I'm flying. I kill them all and continue flying around the landscapes, and eventually the color starts changing. The orange mountains are now more of a creamy white, and it seems like the world is changing into minecraft. I start seeing black borders, so I land on the ground to yell out “MORE VIVIDNESS”. I don't remember hearing my voice, but everything did become clear into picture again, like I was staring straight into a painting. As I'm walking around thinking about what I should do in my dream, I decide that I wanted to listen to music (I now realize there were a lot more better things I could've done ) , so I reach into my pocket and try to pull out an iPod, just as I feel it and am about to pull it out, I fall into a lake and feel as if I’m going to start drowning. I realize that I can breathe, and everything becomes all good, and I levitate myself back onto the land. When I get out of the water I started hearing music, I have no idea what song it was, but it sounded like something epic that you would put in a movie trailer. I decide to pull out a red cape out of my back pocket. I put the cape on, and start flying again. Out of nowhere, come more trolls. I pull out an MP5 sub-machine gun from my pocket, and start killing the horde of trolls. While I’m shooting them, I’m flying around in the air and constantly dodging their rocks. Eventually the boss troll comes out. I land on the ground this time to face him. I’m standing about 20 feet from him. He’s this big ugly troll, maybe around 10 feet tall, and he has this giant wooden spiked bat. After this it gets blurry and I wake up in my parent’s bed.

As soon As I wake up, I start thinking to myself, why would I wake up in my parent’s bed?. I sit up straight and ask my mom, “What am I doing here?” She tells me I should go to sleep. I start doing a reality check to count my fingers, and I could've sworn I had exactly ten. So I ask my Dad “Why am I sleeping in your bed?” and he replies “It seemed like it was getting too hot in your room so I carried you here.” I thought his answer was a bit strange, considering it’s the winter, and my room shouldn't be hot. (Maybe it was because I had too many blankets on and my subconscious was telling me.) At this point, I was so assured that I was in real life, So I lie back down and try to go sleep so I won’t be tired for school. When I'm lying down I feel a presence around me, so I try to keep my eyes closed because I'm thinking that I'm in a bad sleep paralysis. I keep trying to keep my eyes closed, but I feel a force and I just open them to see what it is. When I open my eyes and look around, I spot a nasty spider the size of a dinner plate on the floor, beside my bed looking at me. Its legs were orange with black accents, and it had this giant translucent butt with tiny blue baby spiders crawling around in it. My natural instinct is to kill it so I get out of my bed and hammer fist it. I kill it with one hit, and I gather up all the harmless baby blue spiders, and pour them into the sink. I wake up in my own bed. In which I blow through my nose and stare at my clock this time to assure I'm not dreaming.

This was a fun but weird DILD that hit right at the end of a very long NLD. The sudden introduction of this "Dream Coordinator" character was interesting. I enjoy it when my subconscious plays back at me like that.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #66: The Dream Coordinator

I'm on an epic quest, roaming on foot across the United States with several odd characters: a man in his 50s dragging around an 8-foot potted plant, an 11-year-old anorexic boy, and a pretty, short-haired woman in her mid-40s named "Mrs. Rearden". I've been journeying with Mrs. Rearden the longest and I trust her completely.

It's a foggy morning, and we're all sitting for a moment on a long couch outside of a gas station. I notice that gas is "$1200 / 1000 gallons". I think, "$1200?? God, that's expensive." But I take a moment to do the math and realize that this gas is actually super cheap. "Ah... tricky, tricky!" I think.

I see one of those gas station signs with the changeable letters. It reads, "DUDE THIS SUCKS", which I find surprising. I look closer and see that it has changed to "YES WE'RE OPEN!" Just below the sign I see a row of frightening stone gargoyles perched along one of the gas station walls. Finally I've been bombarded with enough clues and now I know that this is a dream.

The other DCs stare silently ahead, so I ignore them and take a look around. It's still foggy, but I realize that I'm not outside at all but rather in what looks like an enormous airplane hangar. There are windows high up in the corner and I float toward one, planning to phase outside. As I reach the window, though, my vision goes black.

I feel myself floating back down, so once again I imagine that I have a gladius in my hand and start swinging it around everywhere. I land back on the ground, but everything stays black. I can still feel the weight of the gladius and my moving arm, though, so I feel fairly relaxed. I start probing at my dream body and discover that I seem to be wearing nothing but my boxer shorts. Suddenly worried, I check to make sure that my wiener is still there. Yes, all is well.

I've been in the dark longer than I'd like so I call out for help. "Somebody come help me! Mrs. Rearden, I need you to help me!" There's no response. I poke and slap at my face, hoping something will happen. Finally, I decide that maybe something will happen if I take off my boxer shorts. As soon as I attempt this, I hear Mrs. Rearden shout, "Don't do that! Stop it! Here, I'll help you." She grabs my left hand, gives it a hard yank, and pulls me into a new dream scene just outside of a door.

I keep a grip on her hand and we walk through the door. We're on the second story walkway of a mall. Mrs. Rearden looks frightened. She mutters, "This is not where the Coordinator wants us to be."

I'm stunned by this. "Who? The Coordinator?"

"Yes," she says. "The Dream Coordinator. This was not what he had planned." She is really upset and keeps looking nervously around the scene

I tug at her hand and move with her further along the walkway. As we approach an elevator, I say, "There is no Dream Coordinator. This is my dream and we don't answer to anybody. But you don't have to come with me any further. I think I'm okay on my own now."

She responds that she wants to help, but as she's speaking, I become disconnected from my dream body. My perspective sinks down to the busy food court on the mall's first floor. I feel like an insubstantial apparition and I'm desperate to regain physical form. I try the gladius trick but it feels all wrong.

There's a guy with a shaved head nearby, black, in his 30s, wandering happily around the food court. I move toward him, hoping that if I make physical contact it'll bring me back into the dream. He sees me floating toward him, though, and takes off at a dead run, screaming in terror. I don't blame him -- if a ghost in nothing but boxer shorts came after me, I'd run like hell, too. With nowhere else to go, I run out of steam and the dream ends.

I remember trying to sale my car. So my dad decided to buy it. We were standing outside of a store and my dad told my little brother to back the car out if the parking lot. Well apparently we were on a very large hill or a small mountain because when he backed out the car went off the mountain and got destroyed. In the dream I was more concerned with my little brother but my dad just cared about the car. Looking back its actually kind of funny.

i dont quite member my dream at the moment i feel a little tired and am trying to picture it but cant

Write previous entry on here. Back to bed. more lucids.

I SSILDed and it worked better with the WBTB since I have been sleeping too heavily and barely waking up during the night.

I had a normal dream about my family having a bunch of issues and I started playing video games (like I did when I was like 15). Someone mentioned work and I checked the time. It looked like 7:30, crap! I checked again. 8:30! Checked again, 6:39. I tried to explain the family situation to my wife and then I woke up to my wife saying "is someone else in here?" I freak out real fast and am not 100% sure what she said. I try to ask her to repeat. My mouth doesn't work "C... c... C... Can you repeat that?" Aha! SP! I broke out of it too! I look over and my wife is asleep. She must have been sleep talking. Only the second time I have been in SP though!

I went back to sleep. A little sad about not just WILDing through SP.

To make up for it, I WILD! Yay. I remember that the two dreams I forgot to stabilize and to look for HQ. I stabilized. Thought about a forest behind me. Aha! There was one. I walked over. It was so dark. Not too bad. I need to get there stealthily in case of extras. I walk through the tree line and notice that there is a huge ditch with aroad going down to a pool. Weird. There is a group of people coming up the road. I need to get away from the road. Secret base won't have a road to it. they had flash lights. they are looking for me. five groups of 3... Fifteen people. I haven't fought against anyone, I don't know if I can take 15. I hide in the trees and when they get past I start going to the thick part of the forest. After walking for a minute I got off the road (gonna upload a picture drawn of this place). I then woke up because of how dark it was.

I woke up. Back to sleep. I am in a huge building and people are letting their dogs out on me. Since the building had doors it was easy to get away.

Woke up. Back to sleep. Another WILD . It is day time and I am looking at a neighborhood. I think of forest again and turn around. The swimming pool and forest! This time there are people at the pool. I start walking by, and am contemplating flying to the HQ, but don't want to give away its location. DCs at the pool call me over. My throat hurts really really bad. Like someone is sitting on it. Ignoring it doesn't seem to help. It is causing me to be pretty unstable even with the vividness. I start losing the dream and let it go.

Ah! Thirst. I had been laying on my back with my mouth open. It is time to get up to work anyways.

I have been really tired lately (even with 8 hours of sleep). After these 7 hours though, I feel great though!

Tormentors
Recall: 7/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

For some reason I've called up Jimmy, and ask him if he knows any indian medicine men or sorcerers, maybe he has someone in his family who has that type of knowledge. He doesn't seem into the idea but I talk him into it and he finally tells me to come over.

I go to his place, he invites me inside, then all these indians start giving me a hard time. An old woman giving me dirty looks that could kill, muscled goon indians trying to intimidate me. I know where I'm not wanted, so I go to put my shoes back on only to find thumb tacks inside them. I remove the tacks, put on my shoes and leave.

But it's not going to be that easy. They follow me and start using some sort of reality altering magics or curse on me. Everything is just going crazy in a very bad way, hard to describe. I begin to use dream control without being lucid to counteract their efforts, and manage to calm things down. One of them comments that they are surprised I managed to calm things down so quickly, then they launch another attack even worse than the last one. My reality falls apart into a crazy fractal. I do my best to keep my focus so it doesn't get the better of me and try to get out of there.

I leave the apartment building but they follow me, so I try to lose them by hopping on a bus that happens to have stopped near me with the door open, but they still follow. On the bus, my trials continue. At one point there is some sort of deformed mutant kid at the front with a donation box, and the old indian woman hands me 15 dollars to give to him. I'm about to put it all in his box, when I think I'll need money to pay my bus fare and keep 5 for myself, giving the kid 10. The old indian woman is absolutely disgusted by this, and even I concede that was a dick move. I know this isn't real, and I couldn't even give to the poor cripple kid without thinking of myself.

This hellish mind fuck of an assault carries on, and I finally realize I'm dreaming. Rather than try to salvage this mess of a dream, I'm like "fuck this, I'm outta here!" and wake myself up.

I'm having too many dreams where I use dream control without being lucid. Going to have to try to do something about that.

Non lucid. I'm surprised I remember anything, I slept like crap and my stomach hurts.

Anyway, Danny took me and Chris to come kind of science/history museum. Reminded me of the kind my ex, Karl, used to take me and Chris. So we're walking around the place, and I notice Karl walking past us. I barely caught eye contact with him before we went in opposite directions. Danny and Chris didn't seem to notice. (A little real life back story: after Karl and I broke up, I met Danny pretty quick and we hit it off quick. A bit later Karl wanted to get back together but I had already moved on. So there was some yuckiness there in the aftermath.) So we continue on walking and I hear footsteps behind us. Without turning around entirely, I peek on the ground just behind us, and I see Karl shoes. He's following us lol! There's a small theater just up ahead that's about to play some little Natural Geographic type short film. So the 3 of us file inside and grab some seats. Karl didn't appear to have followed us inside the theater.

Later, I have to pee. So I leave the theater real quick to go find the bathroom. As soon as I open the theater door, Karl is RIGHT there. We literally collide and I start to fall over a bit. I grabbed onto Karl's shoulders for support, and am able to regain my composure. He had the most fucked up expression. I put my hand on his face and ask, "Are you alright Karl?" He didn't answer. I continued to the bathroom and he went who knows where. When I left the bathroom (I don't remember peeing or what I did in there lol), I started down the hall back to the theater. I passed Karl AGAIN going the opposite direction. I didn't make eye contact this time and we just kept going our opposite ways.

Later on in the dream the 3 of us went outside where they had some nature trails. Something else Karl and I used to do alot together. I never saw him again.

(The dream was a little emotionally powerful, based on how I feel the morning after. I believe the day residue that my brain pulled this dream for came from "How I met Your Mother." Danny and I were watching it last night. We saw the episode where Ted was avoiding that one doctor ex-gf. And what happens? They end up at a restaurant where she just happens to pop in. He's debating on confronting her etc because they're relationship ended kinda fucked up too. My dream reminded me of that episode, or maybe it was actually vice versa.)

First LD in a while. Not too much got accomplished, but Frick, it was fun!

Decided to try and WILD from initial awakening again. Like everyone told me not too . Second attempt, second success.

I go to bed a little late (1130) and attempt to get into almost a medatative stance where I am visualizing and kind of just playing around with that until a dream starts. Then, at about 1230 my upstairs neighbors decide to drop something on the floor and chase fifteen elephants around their room and pick it up. That jolted me and made me wake up a bit. Then I made it back into that trance like state. I am standing! Aha! In a Dream! and then I wake up. Same thing that happened last time I tried this. I was in a dream, but then got kicked out. I lay still. I am getting the hang of what you need to feel in order to get in the dream from the waking state. I DEILD back into the dream, and the same thing happens. Over and over dunno how many times, I am a little ticked off by this, but then someone starts talking to me and I get up out of bed not lucid and go about some boring dream business. I then woke up again and was ticked off because I realized that I hadn't been RCing upon waking and that may have only been one lucid with scene changes. . The motionless RC worked (I am in reality). I tried to DEILD again. This time less confident since I think that the last five or so times that I thought I had "found that feeling" might have just been fake and my dream trolling me. I tried to get to the feeling and...
I am in a dream! I look at my surroundings. Not too many people in a neighborhood. It is a little cloudy out. I take to the sky and my wife joins me. We start talking about the dream and she pretty much has no dream control except being able to fly (so my subC got it right). She asked why it was so cold in this dream world and I told her I would warm it up. I lay back while we are flying and look at the clouds (I think nina flies like this... Might have been someone else though. I would recommend this though! It is fun!) No sun... I use all my might and get the sun out of the clouds by willing them away. We started getting caught up in the dream a bit. She (like a normal DC) steered the conversation to how in the city we were in there was an election today and everyone needed to vote. She told me to remember that they didn't nominate anyone this year, so you can vote for whoever you like. I would have lost my lucidity, but she kept reffering to the place as "a dream" so that kept me with it.

Then she started complaining about the cold again. The sun was setting, so I tried to bring it back... Fail. It dissapeared even faster. We landed and went to a house. We needed to vote soon or it wouldn't count. I was following her and she went through a garage to vote in the back. I decided to mess with her and flew past her and slammed the door shut. Put a barrier around the door. I then flew out the garage with her chasing me (that may sound mean, but it was more like flirting. Plus I had realized that I didn't need to vote since it was a dream. I woke up right after that.

Pre-Bed
3grams Fish Oil
5 MG Melatonin
1 cup Ginkgo Biloba Tea

Bed time 10:15PM
Alarm at 12:00AM
Move to recliner and do a few quick SSILD cycles before I past out.

#130 Regrets and Holidays - DILD - 1:44AM

I am working for my old boss P. She is next to me and I am printing out photos for her on the ID station printer. I keep asking, "Does this look OK?"

Then I am printing old photos of my mom and me when I was around two years old. Then I am with my dead grandma (nanny). I am looking at a live sized computer screen of a old Christmas tree. The background is solid blue and it looks like a bad photo shop job. I can see discoloration on the edges like it had been cut-and-pasted on the blue background.

Nanny is standing to my right wants a copy of that photo but I think it's too late. She tells me to just use the Christmas tree and do a new one. I see my toddler self and my mom posing in front of the tree. We look like a photo but we look we are really there. I say something to Nanny about it. Then I realize she is dead and become lucid. I start to become emotional but luckily the first thing I think of is the flower TOTM. I quickly reach behind my back and summon a rose. I don't feel it in my hand but pretend its there. When I bring it in front of me it looks like a normal red rose. Nanny wordlessly takes it. Then the emotion takes over me. I begin to cry and hug her. I feel mild pressure of her against me. I say to her. "I love you so much. I really miss you. I wished you weren't dead." I go on to say some other things but I forget now.

I guess because of the emotion I lose lucidity as my awareness gradually becomes a dim thought in my mind. I am suddenly in front of my Grandpa (Pawpaw) and I continue crying and talking. "I am really sorry that I did not call or visit you two before you died." He looks at me disinterested and shrugs a bit. I looks like he mouths something, "Ya." I think how I was a least hoping he was going to tell it was OK, not to worry, but he didn't seem to care. I feel really terrible.

Now, I am sitting at a Thanksgiving feast with my parents and my wife. I act as if nothing happened and feel completely happy. I assume my grandparents are going to join us but I don't see them anywhere. Instead of a Turkey there is a Turkey Pie. Actually, I see 2 pie and both are half eaten. I think there is not enough turkey for everyone. I hear my mom say, "I don't know but I better be getting my pie of turkey." Then I remember that my dad and I ate some earlier and I decide to pass on the Turkey Pie this round so there is enough for everyone.

I go back to sleep.

3:00AM no recall.

100MG Caffeine
2x Valerian Root

I am awakened by a noise at 3:30AM. I feel like I was just on the cusp of a lucid dream but I can't recall what it was. Couldn't go back to sleep after that.

This is the only part I can remember after waking up from it a few hours ago.

Me, my sister, and my mother were stuck in one of the most dangerous countries in the world, Mexico. It was getting dark and we had to find a home quick or we won't even be able to make it through the night.

The sun slowly begin disappearing and before we could get anywhere it was nearly the darkest. I didn't know what we would do, if we didn't find a safe place to reside in for the night we were bound to die. Though it actually never happened but it's a thought that I kept in my mind.

We were starting to get worried, especially when we were together. There was absolutely nothing else we could do but face death. My mother suggested we find a spot somewhere in the park to stay for the night but we already knew we wouldn't last.

There was a guy who suddenly came around a fence in front of the park we were facing, he tells us, including himself, to end our lives already. If we're gonna do it we should do it now. I was worried about it all and even now, I'm thinking about how sad it is for my mom to have been going through this with us. There was no father at the time, we were alone.

Recall from today's naps from roughly 9 hours ago.

Dream 1:

I was watching Minecraft Tekkit series by Sips&Sjin from the Yogscast on YouTube, they were building their compound and for some reason there were alot of other players helping them. There was also huge wooden clock tower like structure. Suddenly i was playing on the same server and everyone was asking me about something. Dream skips.
I am playing on the server with my friend LV, but we are apparently on the same map that from before. We are trying to figure out some stuff with Railcraft and having some problems placing rails properly.

Dream 2:

I was watching episode of some anime(don't recall which one), in which the villages all over the world are under attack and there's only village that is guarded by ninjas. The villagers from other villages came and are now hiding in this village. Soon it gets attacked as well, but ninjas deal with the attacking forces. There were three dudes in dark armor along the enemies which were presumably commanders. Ninjas almost finish them off, but suddenly three female warriors in open black outfits appear and finish off those three dudes, they become invisible and retreat before ninjas can do anything.
The battle stops for now but those female warriors are walking through village while invisible and putting villagers to sleep for some reason, then villagers decide to use another villagers as 'gates' at choke points so they can notice when there someone comes(logic!!!). Soon the enemy is discovered, but suddenly there's two angelic women appear out of nowhere, after that episode literally goes off rails, some semi-naked man dropkicks the angelic women out of nowhere, everything turns into rainbows and army of pegasi is flying around (). As episode ends i comment that 'it was the most awesome filler episode of all time'. Dream ends.