In my dream my husband is out of town (as he is in real life). In my dream I asked a coworker out on a date, and he happily accepted. See this is a perfect example of why I want to lucid dream. This is not who I am in waking life. This is not who I want to be. This is not who I choose to be. Yes, I am lonely when my husband is out of town I get it. I will also admit that I like this coworker ... as a coworker, as a buddy, as someone to share ideas with and to joke with. Infidelity is a big no-no for me, and I also get that my mind therefore decided to present me with this scenario to shock me, to tell me "See I know how to push your buttons." Here is something that would really bother you. But we already knew that! We already knew that I am struggling with self-esteem issues and with taking control over who I want to perceive myself as and deciding what is proper. This however I know is not proper. And I refuse to think that I "need" this, so subconscious fuck off! I am going to relearn lucid dreaming, and make sure that I get to decide what I do and what is right for me. If I am so fucking lonely tonight, why not give me a dream of my husband instead. That would have been nice, ok? But no, my subconscious, you decided to play games with me. Well, I don't appreciate that! In an hour I need to get up and go to work and face this coworker, and forget that my subconscious asked him out on a date.
Updated 03-05-2013 at 11:56 AM by 61501
Frqgment: In my dream a real life acquaintance mine whom I usuelly see about twice a year were in a dream competition of sorts. She was trying to learn how to "suck out" the nightmare part out of dreams. I was trying to learn how to "suck out" lucidity out of dreams. Upon waking I was struck by the odd use of the word "suck out". Did we mean like a succabus? Meanwhile, my son was the one who had woken me up (at 2:30am) saying that his leopard and some other plush toy were stuck together and he did not know how it happened. I suggested he bring them to me, and I would look into it. He said he did not know where they were. Realizing that what was bothering was probably a dream fragment, I suggested he go back to sleep, and we would look for them in the morning.
I was non lucid, but i was with my sister playing some game in which one person lead a team to the other side of a set of courses. we had to defeat a boss at the end. 3,4,13
I was realized I was dreaming when I huge car that took up all three lanes was on the road. I thought this is a dream! I looked around this amazing huge in future city. I thought this must be what it will be like 500 years from now and was almost amazing about how original this city looks. I didn't copy something from a movie but was very unique. I noticed a building a wanted to go into. I walked in this empty factory with gaint toys displayed on all ends of the wall. There a very loud noise coming from inside this warehouse. The sounds was so loud I thought I must be hearing this from the physical world. I lost lucidity at this point. I became lucid while attempting a wild. I got out of bed in the dream world and walked to my shrine in my room. This is one of the most interesting places to go in my lucid dreams. A red dakini appeared clearly and then other forms of dakinis. Then ganapati appeared at the same time all of the large groups of people in the world that were distress. Ganapati watched over all the people with compassion.
I'm riding in a car, and J is in the back seat with some girl who's supposed to be her daughter...J has a mustache, and I'm like "wow I'm glad I'm not with her now, she has really fallen off" to myself. Her kid looks to be about 6 or 7 and she's talking really dirty....about "sucking cock" or something. And I'm just like WHUCK!? So the dream ends, and I'm in ISP...I don't even think about moving...totally gonna be a DEILD right? No....freak HI gets silly. Not the demon succubi silly, but the "my dads new GF comes into the room and sits on the bed. I can feel the bed slump down, and hear ha conversation with her daughter. What the fuck are they doing here!? I break it only to find out, I was just hearing things.
03/04/13 On the Road: Campfire I am sitting on the side of a road with some other people. I recognize them all. I see MoSh, Roland, Jake, Eddie, Susanna, and Oy all gathered around a campfire. Everyone is watching Roland very closely. Roland is finishing his story about what happened in Hambre with Susan Delgado. He says he didn't meet her where he had said they would meet. He said he knew if he was to meet her he wouldn't have the strength to do what needed to be done. He said he would have liked nothing more than to make a life with Susan, but the tower… He talks for a bit more about why he has to find the tower and fix what is wrong within it. He finally stops and looks around. He looks like something just occurred to him. He says there were parts of the story he himself hadn't remembered until he told it… like the fact MoSh and I were both there. But while he has aged, we were both the same then as we are now. We were part of his ka-tet back then and we are again… ka is a wheel… but how is it that we aren't changed? I tell him MoSh and I travel through both time and space to arrive where and when we need to be, those events in Majis are like yesterday to MoSh and me… I literally rescued Susan yesterday. So what happened to Susan anyway? Roland said he saw in the glass when she was almost burned alive… had been sure she would be… he had already accepted that they would not be together, but wasn't ready to accept that. He says part of him would swear he saw here actually burn… On the Road: The Emerald City I am on the road traveling with MoSh, Roland, Jake, Eddie, Susanna, and Oy. There is a palace ahead spanning across the road. The palace is a green crystalline color. There are shoes in the street. It looks like someone left out a pair of bright red shoes for each person in the group. We all pick up the pair of shoes that is intended for us, mine looks like the ruby slippers Dorothy wore in the Wizard of Oz. We continue to the entrance to what I can only think of as the Emerald City. There is a large gate in the front of the palace, it looks more like a palace than a city. The road leads through the gate and I can see the road extending into the palace. After figuring things out for a short while it is determined that we all have to tape the red shoes together at the same time, three times, to open the door. So everyone puts on the shoes and taps them together. There is a reverberating sound that makes everything vibrate, but nothing happens. Oops… everyone forgot about Oy. The billy-bumbler hadn't clicked his shoes together. So we do the test again, this time with Jake and Roland taking care of clicking Oy's shoes together… and the sound is even louder. The entire structure of the emerald palace seems to vibrate. The gate doesn't open… it shatters into a billion tiny shards. Fortunately none of them seem to be sharp enough to cut anyone. We go into the palace, following a long hallway to a door at the end. The whole thing looks like the Wizard of Oz. The door at the end has a sign that states the bell is out of order… please knock. The door is unlocked, however, so we go through. There is a loud voice coming from everywhere, asking how dare we enter the presence of the great and powerful Oz. Eddie says not to worry… it's just a bumhug… I think he means a humbug. I think the voice considers itself to sound threatening and scary, but it really just sounds a bit ridiculous to me. Oy is also unaffected by this, he is over near a curtain pulling at it. He pulls it aside to reveal a man there. The man doesn't look good, it looks like a piece of his skull is missing… ouch! He is throwing threats around until Eddie puts bullets in his head. There is another man there, however. He is standing in the middle of the main room where there had been a blazing fire special effect, he is holding the wizard's glass orb. He says he will give us one final chance to cry off and forget about the tower. Everyone says no, they will not do that, including MoSh and me… I tell him, "You wish… not gonna happen." Roland tries to shoot him with his gun, but it doesn't fire. The man laughs at that and says Roland will get only misfires with him. Maybe the bullets are all bad. Roland responds by drawing a gun from Eddie, Susan, and Jake's home world… He draws it lightning fast and fires at the man, who disappears in an explosion of smoke. He does not get away unscathed, however, I hear a cry of surprise and pain before he manages to dematerialize. Now we are alone in the huge room, Roland says he thinks he will have to tell the rest of his tale before we can continue… no… he will have to show us. He points to where the man dropped the wizard's glass as he disappeared. We go over to the orb and Roland indicates we should look into the orb. I don't see anything in it, I wonder why that is. Roland and the others seem to see something in there… and I notice Roland has a shocked look on his face. He says that's not how it happened… but now he remembers differently… which one is true? The first thing I think to say is nothing is true… and everything is permitted, even changing events that have already happened… I look back into the orb and this time I can see an image. Roland is walking down a hallway and into a room. There are shoes underneath the curtains but he doesn't see them. He is looking for his mother. The others are all gathered around as well, all except for Roland. The younger version of Roland turns around when someone is behind him. At first it looks like the witch Rhea, come back for revenge, holding out a dead snake towards Roland. She looks like a corpse. But then that image looks transparent, and it is really Roland's mother. She is holding out a belt that looks handmade. Roland is drawing his guns, apparently he still sees Rhea. Everyone is yelling at Roland not to do it, it is a trick. I say nothing out loud, but I focus on sending a telepathic signal through time and space… I send a message to MoSh to do the same… maybe it can get through, even just enough to make him hesitate… a second is all it would take… and he does hesitate. Due to my telepathic message? He hesitates just long enough to see the illusion waver… and then he sees her for who she really is. I hear Rhea's voice of rage, yelling curses, saying she will still have her revenge… I am thinking I should have killed the witch in Hambre. Roland's mother interprets Roland having his guns out to mean he knows she had planned on betraying his father. She quickly tries to explain that she didn't know what she was doing, Marten had gotten into her head somehow... he'd been using her the whole time. Roland has no interest in just shooting his mother, he looks around to see if the witch is still present in the room. He looks straight at me for what seems like a long time before turning back to his mother, who says she wants a chance to make up for what she has done. The images around us fade to pink. I feel a bit disoriented and then find I am sitting on the road, it looks like we are far past the Emerald Palace. The others are all there, too, they also look disoriented. From the look of our shoes we have been walking the whole time. I notice the road isn't what it used to be… not really a road at all. And the path of the beam can be easily seen in the clouds in the sky. We are back on track. Roland is looking at me strangely. He says he doesn't know how it can be. He still remembers shooting his mother, but it is like it was a dream… and what we just saw is much clearer. It is here that I wake up.
Dream recall from non-lucid naps. Nap #1: I was in the desert, searching for something, then i find some place. Suddenly huge cactuses rise from the ground and i start falling. I wake up in the bed but room looks different, dream fades out as soon as i move for an reality check. Nap #2: I was playing some Warzone 2100 multiplayer with LV, we played coop versus 2 AI bots. Game got weird in a way that alot of defense structures were being built by everyone, literally walls of towers and stuff, and we were only at the start of the game. AI was building even faster somehow(cheating?) they had literally bases twice as huge after a while. Then LV got disconnected and i continued playing without noticing it, only to be overwhelmed by AI building towers and bunkers literally near my base in masses. Later i noticed that LV disconnected and shortly... I wake up in the bed, room looked normal but there was weird stuff in the mirror(i didn't paid attention to that in the dream though), i was about to do my usual reality check, but suddenly huge pressure was coming from everywhere and there was very loud noise was in my head. Dream ended shortly.
Here I will write the dreams I had written down from 9th February to today, EXCEPT 27th February because that I already written down because it was lucid. But the other days I was lazy to write and I decided to do that now. I've also start to write up if I been sleeping at home or at my gf's house. I will write (home) if I slept home, and (gf) if I slept at my gf's place. And (?) if I haven't written it up. 9th February (gf) Bedtime: no idea Final Wakeup: no idea Fragment: I had 4-some 13th February (home) Bedtime: 03:40 Final Wakeup: 10:00 Fragment: Brazzers, a girl squirt 18th February (gf) Bedtime: 23:35 Final Wakeup: 10:25 Fragment: I put my gf on Google latitude as she didn't bother doing it herself 22th February (home) Bedtime: 01:20 Final Wakeup: 11:15 Fragment: I watched some video show where they drove F1 cars and jumped over obstacles etc. Dream: I begun a karate sport with some gangsters. We were in my apartment (port 27), I was going to get picked up in car but I forgot my sweatpants just when we were going. I had hi-tech stuffs, a TV screen floating in the air, and wireless HDMI from my hi-tech laptop to the TV. ??th February (gf) Bedtime: 00:30 Final Wakeup: ?? : ?? Fragment 1: My gf was becoming a moderator in a filesharing part of a big forum, even though she only had 15-20 posts. Fragment 2: I was on vacation in Afghanistan with dad, mum and my sister. But they started to argue and I regret that I followed with them on vacation. 26th February (home) Bedtime: 01:15 First wakeup: 05 : ?? Final Wakeup: 08:00 Fragment: I was on smosh website and watched videos. One was on a cowboy that got kidnapped and then shot to death. 27th February - the lucid dream and some other dreams I already wrote up. Was home. 28th February (home) Bedtime: 03:55 First wakeup: 08 : ?? Second wakeup: 09:05 Final wakeup: 10:08 Fragment: A crazy little guy hunted me with a knife etc. 2th Mars (gf) Bedtime: 00:40 Final wakeup: ?? : ?? Fragment: Many snowmobiles. Holiday? 3rd Mars (gf) Bedtime: 23:40 Final wakeup: 08:23 Fragment: I was at my mums house, my room was total different and even bigger. I had my own bathroom and everything. It was like I could live inside my room 24/7 as I had toilet, food and all that's needed for living. That's all. I sure had more dreams and fragments, but there between days I sometime forgot to unpack my dream journal as I moved to and from my gf and dads home. I also was quite so lazy. I had some fragments and dreams that I had in my mind when I woke up, but that I never wrote down. However, I counted those dreams and fragments in my counting, as I still had remember them after some hours of being awake.
Sunday 3/3/13 - bed at 12:30am - 8:50am B-complex at bedtime some dreams DR1 I'm at some meeting, signing attendance book DR2 Get yelled at by someone and I stand up to her. Monday 3/4/13 Nap 11ish - 12:30am Got either DILD or WILD. And added 1 DEILD to it. Not remembering much, because continued sleeping thinking I hook another DEILD to it. FIRS TIME EVER - vibrations in face and not the usuall torso. I'm sitting on a chair, rocking backwards, until I overdo it and back of the chair leans all the way to the ground in a slow and gentle motion. I realize I could do this to induce and keep doing it. I'm sitting on a train, my dad is standing and talking to me. I'm half asleep, when I realize i can see him with eyes closed. I figure it would be fun to follow him so I get up and follow him. We come to a building I know my friend lives in so I decide to go check out her bedroom and next time I'm there to see if what I saw was correct. *IWL, they are cutting trees nearby and using the shreader so it's very loud in my apartment. But I had a LD before in lots of noise, so i tried today as well. Iw was ok, but couln't get a long chain going. It's ok, I'm happy. Thank you, come again
Updated 03-05-2013 at 06:10 AM by 50242
Tuesday, 4th of March. Had a horrible nights sleep last night, woke up a lot but from noises and being cold, not from the end of REM Cycles. So, didn't remember and dreams last night, no need to be angry though, nothing I could do about it! I still awoke pretty grumpy how ever as I did have a lack of sleep, still am staying confident on dream recall!
I fell asleep last night at around 1am and had a regular dream or two. Woke up at 5am and stayed up for about 10-15 minutes and went back to bed. My final waking time was 8:30am. Basically last night I had kind of an unintentional wbtb. In the time during my second sleep I had a couple, long non-lucid dreams. Just a side note: I have not been doing any rc's lately or anything besides having a thought or two of LD'ing in the back of my head daily. The night before last I was having a dream when I just randomly said to myself, "I am dreaming" and that triggered quick lucidity but as soon as I realized it, the dream had faded to black. I am not counting that as an official lucid although I am impressed with myself for getting to that point. That night I also had an unintentional wbtb, as I had fallen asleep on the couch and went to my bed later in the night. So here I am, in my non-lucid dream. I am standing on some bedrock looking at all the waterfalls that stretch down the horizon. It is dusk outside. The dream is vivid and clear. I see a billboard at the top of one waterfall closest to me, thinking "why the hell would someone put an ad here?" Anyway, I looked around for a few more seconds and randomly just say to myself "I am dreaming". I get that awesome rush you get when you find out that you're dreaming and run and jump off the bedrock into the water below. Below the surface it gets darker and darker the deeper I go until I'm falling into black space. All of a sudden I'm completely still. I open my eyes and I'm back in my bed. The room is completely dark and for a moment I'm thinking I really did just wake up. I lean up and see an industrial white light on the wall by my bed, which is not there in WL. Without question, or doing any rc's, I know this is still a dream. I get up slowly, pulling the cover off. I sit on the edge of my bed for a few seconds thinking about how my goal in this dream is to anchor myself in and engage all five senses as much as possible. Idk why but I put it off and got up and dug through my drawer for something but I dont recall what it was that I was looking for. After that I pace around my black room for a minute or two. For some reason I felt very tired and my eyelids were heavy. I was fighting the urge to close my dream eyes for the fear I'd lose the dream and wake up. I decided to do a rc just to see what my hands looked like in the dream. They looked normal, but my focus was zooming in and out, clarifying then blurring, like a camera trying to focus. Through the dream I never let myself forget I was dreaming, and that seemed to keep me in longer. I then Looked at my phone to see what funky characteristics it had. I turned on the screen and a red samsung came up with weird quotation marks, like "SAMSUNG" and then something appeared below it. I figured, fair enough. I walked around my room a bit more feeling sluggish and half asleep. I finally had closed my eyes. A couple seconds passed and I opened them slowly, hoping to be in the dream still. But what I see is daylight instead of solid darkness, and I can see everything in my room. I lean up to do a rc. My hands look normal, none of that zoomy shit. I plug my nose and can't breath. Great, I'm awake! I decided to get up and write everything down in my dream journal. This LD lasted about 5 minutes. My record before this was 20 seconds. Talk about improvement!! This time though I didn't just take off and fly and wake myself up out of the excitement, keeping my cool worked. I'm kinda impressed with myself for have lucid instances in the last two nights. I'm sure they had to do with my wbtb's. It seems all I gotta do is say "I'm dreaming" and voila. I will do wbtb's the next couple nights and see how it works out.
Sadly I can only recall an interesting fragment of my dream but I know it involved searching for a video on the internet which showed once and for all how the Italians had learned the ultimate secret to life and happiness and had put it in a video which starred Hobbits and Mario Bros. characters. Sadly, I saw it but then lost the link and could never find it again. :(
Was having problems waking up, thus meh recall. Dream 1(Fragment): Dream was happening indoors and there was trapdoor of sorts. Dream 2(Fragment): I recall watching some sort of walkthrough of some jumping puzzle game.
Total sleep: 7 hours Daytime Techniques: RC’s Lucid Techniques: N/A Recall Techniques: DJ Fell Asleep: 5.30am Dream Title: Massive zombie horde Dream: Its day time and I am walking along some grass. To my left, which for some reason is the way I am facing, is a red brick wall. As I pass an Army truck someone - I’m not sure who – appears next to me. They hold up part of a corpse as we continue to walk, and it is quite bloody. I stop and turn around, pulling a weird face. “What the hell is that?” “We can take it and use it as food, because no-one seems to like deer, and it’ll help instead of cereal.” “Oh, good point.” There is a time skip, and now it is completely dark, like we are in the middle of a field somewhere. Groups of people are stood in the backs on large trucks, and behind us I can see lights shining on the floor around the building that looks like a pretty strong compound. I have no idea why everyone isn’t inside it, it looks quite safe. The trucks are also parked inside a mesh fence, and the drivers have really strong torches. It is extremely cold, and I can see the water vapour coming out of people’s mouths when they breathe. Anyway, we all hear a noise, and turn around. As far as we can see (Which isn't that far because it's REALLY dark…), there are bodies. Hundreds of thousands of them are lit up but the moon that magically appears behind them, and the strong torches pick out the details of the closer ones. Their purple skin seems to almost glow in the light. So they begin to push as hard as against the fence. Obviously, the hundreds of thousands of bodies managed to easily get through the mesh fence. Realizing that a massacre was about to take place, I quickly vaulted over the side of the truck and hit the floor. My vision zoomed in on an electric fence at the other side of the compound, but there was a hole in it. I started running towards it, and as I got closer, the hole got bigger. There were also every few zombies around this side. As I got to the fence, I jumped, curled myself into a ball and jumped through the hole. I hit the floor and rolled, coming to my feet with a rod of metal in my hand. I must’ve got it from the hole, but I hit a zombie with it and it does some serious damage. Looking back, I notice a small building just back inside. It would only be a few metres width and length. Deciding to check it out, I step back inside and go into the building. When I get inside, there is a faint purple glow, and the surfaces of every area in it are like a white metal. Through a hole in the wall, I see a girl from my school, holding out her hand. I know I have to help her, but at that moment, my head teacher walks in. He looks like of zombie-ish and he walks really slowly, but somehow the girl and the hole manage to disappear. He doesn’t spot me either. The dream ends here because I was woken by my parents. Awake: 6.45am Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 12/15 it was mega vivid. The light shining over the horde in the middle of the night, and generally the graphics of the whole dream were amazing Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) 2/10 Length: (how long it felt like) 10 minutes Emotions: I didn’t feel much in this dream, apart from being really cold, and having a kind of adrenaline rush when I jumped through the hole in the electric fence. Dream Signs/tags: corpse, zombies, purple, vivid
California highways are really beautiful, but not when you feel like you're being followed while trying to get back to your home. I pulled off the main highway to resolve some issue, perhaps read my map...I'm not certain, but the men in the white pickup that pulled up behind me seemed very threatening. He glared at me over the steering wheel as if he was daring me to make a strange move. The passenger was the more malevelent-looking of the two. A long bald head appeared around the corner of the windshield and smiled a toothy grin, yellowed teeth filling his face like a diseased jack-o-lantern. "All we want is the pills! Give us the drugs and we'll let you live!" I was reluctant to give up the pills as I knew they were expensive and important. I reached into my pocket and pulled out several foil blister-packs, each containing four pills of the medicine the evel man wanted. I suspected they were for pain but I never saw their name. "All of them!" He seemed very impatient as he said this. I walked over to him and handed the pills over, all but two. "Let me keep just these two! They're important, at least let me keep these!" I implored him. He nodded in an allowing way and I pocketed the pills, relief flooding over me, and I turned back towards my car for the walk back. I found the gravelly road I was on appeared to be covered with broken glass, large pieces littering the entire area. I can't imagine how I didn't notice that before. One step told me I could never walk back safely so I decided to float/swim back to the car pushing myself with my hands. The shard of glass sticking out of my finger and the painful sensation brought me to lucidity and I examined the orangish-brown glass in my finger before pulling it out. I stared at the mark and it sealed immediately. Knowing I couldn't propel myself with my hands or feet because of the glass I instead chose to float my way back, a hovering figure sitting cross-legged in the car. The feeling was pretty cool knowing I could float so easily, and I made it back to the car safely. Something happened after that but I don't recall it well enough to describe.
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