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*If you fall asleep on the mother tantra then dream yoga is easy.
*Planning to go to the horse racing and make a living.

Not as much recall, but oh well.

I was playing a MMO video game of some kind with LV, there were a few in game updates that i don't really liked and global chat was annoying me a bit, but later i said that the game was ok by itself.

Last night I had my first lucid dream. As I entered into the dream, I realized that I was in a place I didn't know. So I closed my eyes and imagined I was at my new house I am staying in, in real life. When I opened my eyes I was there. In the house I stay in, there is a room with a whole bunch of space, so I thought I would try and levitate around the room. I did and had fun with that for a while. Once I got done doing that, I went to the bathroom just to look in the mirror. As I looked, I remembered that you could use a mirror to transport you somewhere else. I tried to step through the mirror but I couldn't. So I attempted the spinning technique to change my environment. I believe I got to excited and I woke up.

When I went back to sleep I tried the same method and ended up in another lucid dream. This time I was at my Mom's boyfriend's trailer. I started walking through his house and normally he has pictures up all over his walls. Well ever time I passed one, they would change into something compleatly new. They even changed into people I did not even know. Well as I got to the end of his hallway, I was walking into the living room. When I got in there I was no longer at his house, but I was at my house in the living room. I looked around wondering how I got there, and as soon as I looked to the right, there was this bald headed kid in a black cloak with a blue head looking back at me. He screamed, ran, and then dove behind something. On the other side of this thing he dove behind, a little blue rabbit, or something like that came out. I just srugged my sholders and decided I wanted to try something. I asked for a girl that I imagined was there to come to the living room from the back room. Nothing happened. So I tried calling for my sister to come out from the back room, and all of a sudden she did. I just wanted to see if I could manifest a person into my dream and I could so I was happy. Then I woke up again.

Since my method had worked both times, before I thought I would try it a third time. Sure enough, I went right back into a lucid dream. I ended up at the foot of a huge mountain, so I started heading towards the top. I was going to try and fly off the top of it. As soon as I almost got to the top of the mountain, I started seeing signs that said things like, "Do not attempt to fly." I kept double taking at these signs and the words changed,but they all had the same idea such as, "Dangerous," and "Flying prohibited." I started thinking to rationally, forgetting that I was causing those signs to be there, and decided not to jump. Then I woke up this morning and was so happy that I finally had a lucid dream.

At the start of the dream i was in sort of like a wood cabin house and i was jumping around the place, when i jumped i would jump really high and float back to the ground. It felt nothing like jumping in real life.

After jumping around i stumbled across an old school mate who i didn't really get on this, i said his name to his face and ran of jumping around again. I came to a halt and found big bags of popcorn and started to stuff my face with them until i could not swallow them because i had too much.

After that i was outside and all i could see was an image of Baby cows being born from what looked like a lighting cloud. Early that day i watched a video on facebook about animal cruelty and that must have been why i saw that image in my dream.

First dream was my dad and siblings going into this big rest stop place with restaurants and shops. I walked around and found my old restaurant job there, even though in real life it is not in a big rest stop place. I looked and instead of my old coworkers there were just a bunch of old people in their 30's and 40's that just gave me the vibe of incredibly boring people. I found one girl that used to work there named Antwanette and she asked me to sign her out, I said hey I don't work here anymore so whats the big deal, then Kelly comes to check and Antwanette realizes she forgot to check "the equipment" or something like that. I wander around and look at the bartender, don't know him but looks boring as well, makes some sort of cringing face like he knows he is boring. Then I walk around and I can't find my family, so I walk outside and they walk outside as well, I get in a separate car from them and wait for them to pull out so we can continue on the road trip.
Second dream I had I was racing my high school friend Andrew. I keep trying to catch up to him but every time I get close he just seems to have slightly more energy and he pulls ahead a bit further. We are racing on this asphalt path but I have never been on this path before. The trees are green and the sun was shining, it's winter in real life and all the trees are leafless. I keep running and following Andrew through this almost jungle like area. I kept trying to pass him but I just ran out of energy every time I caught up with him.

Part I: "Tough Love Tactics"

Through the whole dream, there was this buzzword that had kept coming up. Something along the lines of "Tough Love Tactics". In the waking world, I still haven't a clue what that means.

Anyways, the dream was rather vague. I don't remember too much of how it began, though what I do remember is this man, perhaps me, who had been walking around, two orange-yellow figures appearing next to him every now and again. He kept saying those figures were important, though I for the life of me could not tell why. They seemed almost transparent, but fully solid at the same time. One moment we entered this house, and in it was a chair, a computer and a radio. I then saw him use those two figures, and it was rather interesting.

One was using the computer, the other fiddling with the radio as if they both knew what they were doing. I asked the man who might have been me "How did you do that?", he replied with "It's Tough Love Tactics." which boggled me even as I woke up minutes later.

Notes:

I never saw the guy's face, but he was about as tall as me, wore a blue shirt and had blonde hair.
There was something having to do with dragons in this dream, but I can't remember for the life of me what they had to do with the dream.
The room with the computer and the radio seemed very foreign to me.

Interpretation:

Perhaps, the two figures represent different sides of me, and the term "Tough Love Tactics" pertains to a sort of mental state where I must think realistically yet praise myself at the same time. Perhaps, it has to do with self-loathing.

I was with a gorgeous, fit girl and we were taking ecstasy when her family and friends turned up, they were really angry that I was with her, I think 2 were her brothers and another was her partner, we evaded them and I woke up.
I tried to DEILD, failed, however I did return to the same dream, assuming that I actually woke.

Spoiler for Adult Material:

I was then having sex with her, she was laid on her back with her legs up over her head whilst I performed oral sex on her, much to her delight, we then proceeded to pleasure each other in the 69 position until we both climaxed together, I can recall the taste of her and the feel of my mouth on her vagina, for some reason we were joined by another girl, she wasn't as pretty, but she was just as fit and what she lacked in looks, she made up for in experience, we continued to pleasure each other in various ways until once again her friends and family turned up.

She expressed her love for me at this point, they were most unhappy with this confession and so they bundled me into a car, I was naked and I still had an erection, which I tried to hide. We went into a shop and I lost them in the isles, I was looking for an escape route when she turned up once more. She had packed all of her clothed and stated that we were to run away together. Just as we were about to escape, they found us again and were just about to kick off when I woke once more (I assume). I tried to DEILD again, but to no avail. I woke up proper at around 8am. I'd like to add that I didn't write any of this down until 12.40 and I still had amazing recall.

I quite liked this one.

I was swimming in a lagoon as we lived on an island just off Jamaica. Someone took or bought Dutchess (my other dog) much to my dismay.

Woke again later on, I had recall, but fell asleep before I could record it.

I was walking down the road with someone and telling them how we used to scare people as kids by climbing the trees and springing from the branches. My Mum and Dad stole my lotto card from me and I had to go in disguise to retrieve it. My Dad was going to stab me, but I called his bluff. We then noticed that my Mum was just sat there reading a book even though she was the main protagonist. There were lots of people about, so we decided to research them, it turned out that they were form years ago and we noticed that they were all in the black and white photos that were scattered around.

I went to bed early and meditated. I don't know if the nights dreams were affected by this, but what I recalled was extremely vivid.

I found myself in a group of lads, but I only knew Mini-me, although it wasn't his likeness. At one point we were smoking weed and I was telling everyone that I didn't usually smoke weed. I remember talking about Spacey and drugs and that I felt stoned. We were then in knee deep water, Mini-me had lost his weed and went looking for it in the water. At one point we were in the grounds of a church and the fence or gate had been half cut to allow access and capture of immigrants. I was shooting a Chinese boy at some point and his mother started to fight me Kung-Fu style. I told Joy to tell my Dad to get Bruce Lee to come and help me. I don't recall the order, but at some point, I found myself amongst alien technology, ships etc'. We were working for them, I had to bring ships into the dock and take other ships out from the docks. I was driving along a coast line and there was a huge whale and I mean huge as in a Jumbo Jet sized whale, that had beached itself and had started to rot away. I asked someone where we were and they said it was Grimsby. Water was flowing up inside it's body and making it's flesh ripple, lots of people were milling around it.

I was in a house and having a party, some guy started to convulse, he then proceeded to perform his party piece, which consisted of him sitting down on nothing, like an invisible chair or something and then lowering himself, in robotic movements onto the sofa. It looked amazingly cool and I asked him to teach me, which he did. As I was learning, Joy came in and asked if it was ok to skin the geese in the garden, at which point I fell over laughing. I woke up laughing and saying out loud "Your kidding, I've seen her try to skin a rabbit."

I'm recovering from an illness so it was a coughing, uncomfortable, rough night. I finally had to take 1.5 mg of melatonin to tip myself into sleep at around 4 am to get this LD (which explains the melatonin reference in the dream.) Given all that, I'm really pleased to have gotten lucid. I just wish I'd gotten more than 4 hours of sleep!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #75: Floodlights

Wife and I are staying in a hotel room and having some disagreement about the use of melatonin in cooking and laundry. She tells me that she will never bake melatonin into bread or use it to wash our towels. Peeved, I hide around the corner out of sight, and sulk about how unreasonable this ban on melatonin baking is.

Then we're in bed trying to fall asleep. I roll over to my right side and find that there's a hammer in bed with us! I think about how horrible it would be if REM atonia malfunctioned and one of us had some kind of combat dream. (I've had a vague but long-standing fear of REM behavior disorder since I was pretty young.) I'm pissed that the hotel staff has left this in our bed and I get up, deciding that I have to get rid of this hammer.

I slide the hammer flat along the floor and throw it into the hallway through the gap under the door. It spins round and round then clonks into the wall on the opposite end of the hall. It suddenly seems ludicrous to me that the hammer would fit under the door like that and I become lucid.

Vividness looks good, so I'm excited. I head for the window of the hotel room, passing two more double beds on the way out. (It occurs to me that the bed I was just in was crammed into the kitchen nook.) As I approach the window, I notice that a four-foot metallic cube is shoved against the wall. It's vibrating ever-so-slightly and there's a strange voice coming out of it saying something about "Orcs Must Die!" (I played this game before going to bed.) I think that the voice is telling me to "insert a coin". I'm really interested in this but I start feeling confused. Worried for my stability, I turn away from the cube and turn my attention back to the window and my goals.

I want to make my way to Angel Falls for Task of the Year, so I plan to phase through the glass. I halfheartedly try to push through it, but I know that I'm doing it wrong and my hand is stopped at the window. I struggle to remember what I'm supposed to do. Oh right -- the glass isn't even there. Just do what you want. I simply walk outside into the night, paying no attention to the glass, and find myself standing on a ledge looking out over a nighttime city scene, many stories off of the ground.

I don't feel like I can Hulk-jump from this tiny ledge, so I allow myself to rise up to get a better look at the city. I'm high up now, and I see a distant tower topped by a turning searchlight, clearly visible in the night sky. It intrigues me, but I decide to stick with Task of the Year. After floating upward for a while, I land on the hotel roof. I look to the sky above me and see a strange array of floodlights shining down on me like I'm in the middle of a sports arena. The lights are blindingly bright and my vision first goes completely white, then fades to black.

For some reason, I don't think of readying myself for DEILD but instead become fixated on asking the dream scene a question. While I'm fiddling around, everything collapses around me.

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Prebed: 2MG Melatonin
Bedtime: 10:45PM
WBTB: 2:46AM / 20MIN + 20-30min insomnia,
6 tablespoons peppermint leaves @ 3:10AM


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wakefulness
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Taken? 4:57AM - DILD

I am in some "country" hospital that looks more like a house converted. Or a doctors office. I am with my wife and son for some reason. There is some woman in the same room delivering a baby. The room reminds me of a kitchen area and I am standing next to a built in "island". The woman seems to be propped up on the counter top. There is a bloody mess coming from her and her really young and nervous doctors is saying something about getting the tongs. The woman giving birth becomes very anxious and scared. I think this is going to end badly.

I try to be respectful and not look at the woman like a freak show. I see puddles of blood and gore on the floor. Some little girl that I assume it is the daughter of the woman picks up bloody paper towels off the floor. I become alarmed at that but her father makes her stop before I can react.

Later, I can't seem to find my wife or son. I go room to room. The house is like a maze. Pause at some doors in a hallway. I think they could at least put some room numbers on the doors. I don't know if I have been here already or not. I see the woman who was in delivery with her newborn son, husband and daughter. They are crouched on the floor next to a pallet. There are no beds. I notice the hospital is sparsely furnished. I ask them if they have seen my wife and son. The man shakes his head no. I become frantic and keep looking. I become suspicious and go back to the man. I mostly want to get a better look at the baby. From a distance he looks older and resembles my own son. I look closer and think they are hiding his face on purpose. He slithers all around under a pillow, in a blanket and then in the womans long black hair. Finally, I get a clear view of his face and decide it isn't my son after all. I ask the man once more if he has seen them. He tells me they left.

I feel panic and decide to find them. I feel like something is terribly wrong. Suddenly, I am in my car. For some reason I think they left in my brother's car. I try to think what car he was driving and get a vision of a black Nissan Altima.

I peel out and go to direction I think they went. I drive incredibly fast. I see a white sporty car passing and coming my wat. I flash my lights at him and it get back over before we collide. I start noticing how odd the car sounds and how blurry my far away vision is. I feel my foot has the gas petal all the way down. I see a slow semi and a motorcycle in front of me. I don't want to slow down but feel I have to.

Then I suddenly become lucid and relax a bit. I go to pass but see on coming traffic. I think to just plow through them for fun but decided they should veer off instead. The cars do just that. I notice one is a white Ford Ranger.

Now I have a clear road. I see pasture and country side. I pass a mail box on my right and reach out and slap it. Its spins like a top and I drive on. There is some daycare looking place on my left with huge playground equipment. I wonder what my lucid tasks are but I feel bound to the car and can't think of a way to change the scene without destabilizing. I decide that I am truly curious about the dream and want to continue the story line. The idea comes to me that I have no way to find my wife and son. Suddenly I see glowing yellow wispy tire tracks pointing the way. I start to doubt this and it vanishes. I think maybe I want to drive off and embankment into a valley. I see a small cemetery down there and change my mind.

Now all excitement is gone and I feel really bored. I try to just enjoy the country side. A car ride with no rules is always the best. But I lose focus really quickly and I suddenly wake up.

So, as stated, I lost focus for a short while, but after experiencing sleep paralysis once more, I will be redoubling my efforts.

I need to stay on track and focused.

Two lads from my time in the YM were after me, one got hold of me and told me what to say to get rid if his brother. I was looking at a snake at some point, I tried to kill it, but it shed it's skin into an almost alien form and started to lay eggs. I found an illegal baby burial ground, called the police, but a tribe stole everything before they could come. I chased them, they were drinking their own piss and throwing golf balls at me.

Spacey gave Jason Ellam a job and kicked off about it. I found myself in jail and I got some huge bar of chocolate, I was walking around with an unrealistically huge erection.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- no galantamine + choline
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
- (no chart today due to technical difficulties) zeo has merged the two nights sleep for some reason I think to do with day light savings time.