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First Successful WILD Session

Disclaimer: ADULT content ahead! Some twisted, morbid content ahead! Proceed with caution!

Note: This is a WILD Session that popped up around some time before. c: Not really this time where I'm officially challenging myself to master WILD, just before I heard about WILD and wanted to give it a shot. Anyway, without further ado, here's the session:

I was pretty damn sleepy that time. Just finished a project, and despite the fact I just had sleep a couple of hours earlier, I'm now lying in my bed still really sleepy. weird, this rarely happens. It was around the afternoon. Now I'm not sure the exact time, I'm thinking around 2PM or 3PM or 4PM.

The *atmosphere* circulating around my mind was just. really. different. from the usual. I can't put it into words, but seriously, it was just so different, like something I've never experienced before! The feeling crawling up to me was just like I could just summon whatever's in mind to a dream at any given point of time.

So the first thing that came into my mind was: smexy time! c:

Then I just felt like being sucked into the dream. Not like being vacuum cleaner sucked in, but the images, the scenes - they just kept coming, before I even realized it, I was inside the dream. And let me tell you, it was no smexy time at all.

Now here's the WEIRDEST thing ever. So I was in the dream, and then I heard a kid. A little kid, asking for help. To stop it. Please, I never meant to hurt them. For some unexplained reason, I got the story that there was a daughter, little kid - abused, and then the stepfather, the abuser - and this little kid, she ended up, I think, killing her step sister. For what reason, I don't know, can't remember. So the stepfather was furious. Next thing I can remember, I was like floating in a room that looks like the one next to mine (in the real world), so I browsed through the computer and saw like an article piece of a kid who killed blah blah blah. Actually, I forgot what's exactly in that article piece, I just know I saw a news article and all that.

And then there, I was in the body of the little kid. And I felt something inside of me. Like the stepdad's you know what. And it was painful. Not the kind of sex sensation I've ever experienced in a dream kind of painful.

Then I woke up. The transition from a little girl body to my own felt like a wave overcoming me. It was weird. The first thing that came into my mind then was that how weird everything in the dream was. If you would take a look at it, it's actually somewhat realistic - like the plot is realistic and all that, but there are fragments (like elements in the dream) from the dream that are simply distorted. Though I think those distorted stuff would play some roles in dream interpration, etc. etc.

Anyway, so that's one of the dreams I've had in my WILD session.

I remember having a couple more, and I can still recall their scenes, but I won't put it in here anymore as their just bits and fragments. What I can is that they were extremely vivid and just very long dreams + far from my usual dreams

Dream Start-
It's daylight, and I am in my old apartment,sitting on the floor. I am sitting on a rug I still have, behind a sofa I have. But somehow, I am still able to see the long window behind it, along with the spring-looking woods outside. My vision of the outside is extended farther the I should see in real like (Left to right). I quickly take notice to a young girl in front of the window (about six feet away). She is brown or blonde (her hair kept switching colors), her height was indistinguishable, she was pretty gorgeous (body wise), and she was wearing lingerie. I seem to set aside the fact that she was dressed unusual. Somehow, she was ONLY communication through body language and I was talk to her in my mind (She did NOT say a word.). She appeared (or teleported, whichever you prefer.) in front of my door and slowly gazed at me. After about ten seconds, she gave me the feeling that something needed to happen, and looked to her right. I slowly looked towards where she was glancing at, and saw the window open, and my friend, who smokes, smoking a cigarette. I semi-panicked, and telepathically told her to come in. My view "zoomed in" by her hip, and I got a closer look at her thighs . I then saw my friend look towards the girl and nodded as blew the smoke out of his mouth and nose. I suggested to the girl that we should go into my room (I was still in the living room) and have sex. She still gave me an odd feeling, but proceeded into my room, with me following. I opened the slot for the airconditioner in my room and went to close it, as I did, I told her to becareful and be aware. Before I knew it, she was in a dogystyle position, and had her panties moved to the right . I proceeded to have sex with her, but after three or five 'humps', we got up and I went to go see if my mom was home. Seeing she was, I went back into my room to tell the girl about the news, but when I walked in, she was gone . I noticed that the slot for the air conditioner was opened (I was on the first floor, so, the slot was about five or so inches above the ground.) (when I saw it while having sex, (in the corner of my eye) it was closed) and I had a strong feeling that the girl left through there. I looked closer where the slot was, and I was starting to feel lonely and disappointed.
Dream End. (The girl's face was blurry, and I couldn't really describe how facial features.)

I was at a dinner party where everyone except me were Italian. I didn't understand anything of what they were saying, so I just went around and burned time. As I do so, I notice that a person is trying to put me in a bad light. A different person asks me if I could check someones bag to see whether his phone was in it. Without thinking, I go ahead and do it, until I realize he's making me look like I'm trying to steal, so I stop and walk to the other end of the room. I notice the person trying to put me in a bad light is whispering in peoples ears, and I now have a lot of Italians sending me mean gazes. They each separately come over and yell something at me in Italian, and I try to explain that the two people were just trying to make me look bad. Nobody listens.

#1 Racing through Trackmania-like obstacles, loops and such, but with speedboats. My classmates appeared as my opponents for this year's annual race, which happened to take place on a very nice and sunny day. After being the first to complete the track on water, with my classmates right behind me, we left our boats and ran onto land. The race went into a big abandoned hotel. As I entered the building, I noticed it was very dark. Looking out of its windows, it appeared that it had now suddenly turned night. A few light bulbs lit up the labyrinthy corridors here and there, but not even enough to cover half of the shadows. I heard a lot of strange noises, and saw some shady figures, but never got a clear sight of what was hiding, just waiting for us to approach. One of my classmates clung to me, which I found was somewhat an annoyance. We went up a flight of stairs and to the left, where we were met by the moans and screams of something that had just started chasing us. I didn't get a look at it before it came out of the darkness, but I had an idea of it being a humanoid creature, possibly similar to what one might find in the Dead Space games. We ran for our lives back past the flight of stairs, where I now noticed a set of numbers, but this time we ran to the right. I passed a chair which had a body in it, laying completely motionless and in a position as if it had plumped down from the ceiling in a lying position and just landed on the chair (arms sticking out to the sides, legs stiffly in front of the chair, sitting off the edge of the chair). I didn't have the balls to look it in the face to find out whether it was alive, or if it was one of my classmates - knowing it could suddenly spring up and scare me - so I just ran past it. We figured the set of numbers was the place we had to go for the race, but we didn't get a specific letter (the hotel had some special mirrored room-number system so the right half had the same room numbers as the left half), so we weren't sure whether we had to run back to the left of the flight of stairs or take the door leading out to the fire escape. We decided not to go back to the creatures, and just wanted to get out of that hotel. When we got outside, it was indeed night time. We got to the ground, and noticed the host of the race as well as the remaining participants sitting in the lobby watching an old movie on a projector. Apparently three classmates were lost in the hotel and the race was called off.

I woke up after this part, but it continued in another dream.

#2 The host and I went to search the hotel for the missing classmates. As we entered each room, the host had to do something with his briefcase before we could continue, often resulting in a creature creeping up on us and scaring the shit out of us by screaming from behind when we least expected it. I was scared shitless of creatures hiding somewhere in the rooms we entered, such as behind curtains, in the bathrooms, or behind the bathroom curtains, so I checked every possible hiding spot. We never found the missing classmates.

About two months ago I kept having LDs every night or sometimes more than once in each night and they freakd me out... they always started the same I would be in my room and instantly know that I was asleep. When I first startd having these I always saw my mirror no refection where ever I would look it was like I had obscured "mirror vison" ... some times my walking was impaired and once I was stuck in my bed with no movement, it freakd me out I tryd pinching myself screaming anything to wake myself up but it didnt work... no matter bc they never lasted long anyway and at the time I was very grateful they didnt it was really scary and confusing to me as to why I was having these kinds of dreams... so I started doing some research and found out what was happening. .. and I decided my next ld I would fly ( I had flying dreams in my past and they are so amazingly real its out this world the feeling and reality of it) so my next n last Ld I was in my room and I was still a little weary of it but I tryd to will myself to fly but all I could do was bounce around my ceiling and walls... then I woke up gasping
Since then about two mths ago I havent had any Lds and if im lucky I remember maybe bits of my dream. I was meditating and exercising more than I have been lately so im hopeing if I get back on a more pure spiritual path I can willingly achieve Lds any feed back or eexperience anyone has with this would be greatly appreciated and ill keep posted if I have any progress. ..

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some games with LV and we were recording some games as well. There was some strange version of 'I Wanna Be The Guy' which was apparently 3D and there was one level we been stuck at which was happening in some kind of channel and there was moon falling. Then we were chatting for a bit on skype and our friend DP was with us as well. Later we finally managed to beat that one level, and decided to update YouTube channel before editing videos, then we were finally done with it and were talking about subscribers.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some big room with metallic walls and ceiling, and ice floor, i was trying to pilot some sort of mecha then i used it to break through ice and then was been able to move around underwater with it.
Then later i was watching some anime about people who had power to transform into some combination of beasts and mechanical parts. I recall there was final battle between main character and bunch of enemies and it was on stadium of some kind. The main character of anime was really overpowered by that time and could freely take on two enemies without even using any advanced powers, then there's a ton of people were attacking him and he used his transformation, his powered form was some sort of big brown cat with stripes and green glowing eyes, piloting some sort of floating mechanical head. Then he went to final battle with main enemy, but only thing i can recall is that it was pretty epic.
Later on i was watching apparently some episodes i missed, there was one that was telling something about time before those transforming powers were found. There were some kids watching show, which was ridiculously bad and people who was setting it up haven't even tried. Then one of people who was setting up show started telling some story about bizarre version of game he seen. The game started normally but once player got control his character was one hit killed by some black figure, which was saying 'sorry~' and even with cheats figure kept killing it.

I don't know where I was...maybe a hotel room. I think we rented out several rooms. I was watching some girl play this old school beat 'em up, and and she was near the end of the game. There was a bonus objective where if the player collected all the flags in the game, they would get a bonus game. Well she got the last flag, and died doing so, but ended up beating it afterwords. The game was another beat em up, made the same year, but the graphics weren't so great.

Anyways, my brother T is in the next room, and he wanted me to play this other game, and my sis wanted me to bring my PS3 over there. I finally get things over there, and hook them up, and my other brother starts having a conversation about my progress in college. They walked off and kept talking, but I could over hear them talk about how far I should have been (ie just get a straight bachelors instead of getting the two AA's what I'm about to receive). I told them that my GI bill only pays for 3 years, and there's no way I can guarantee myself of passing that 4th year without and financial support.

Notes: I had the worst time getting getting to sleep (again), even though I'd taken some sleeping pills. I ended up remembering some fragments anyway (enough to put them in my dream palace at least), so I thought I'd go ahead and type them up today (unlike yesterday when I couldn't even put my dreams into words, much less imagery - ugh).

By now I already know I can hold a lot of information in my memory palace (I'm at 121+) and I have three dream "clusters" stored (I link all the dreams into one chunk each, so that's three days worth of dreams), so I'm thinking of removing dreams as I type them up here at DV, unless they are particularly memorable.

These are all muddled so I'm just going to type them as one - but they may be separate dreams. When I woke up, there was already no order to them.

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I'm looking at Alistair and Zevran from Dragon Age: Origins on my computer, and dad comes up behind me. I flip through an image of one of their abs. We have a conversation about them that leads to dad calling one of them a 'she' (I think there was a picture of them together?), and I hesitate and start to let him think that, because he's against homosexuality, but in the end I stand firm and say "they're both guys". I think he says that it's fine.

Side-note: In one of my loci, for remembering dad's phone number, I have my dad coming up to me and commenting on a porn scene on my screen - I wonder if that caused this dream? :O

A little later, I'm doing something and I hear mom yell at dad, "Your religion is so sexist!". I hate when they fight in real life, but I was pretty into what I was doing and didn't seem to care in the dream.

I have this man watching over a website of mine apparently, and I am in the room with him (maybe checking in). I look at one of the pages, and see that it's full of inaccurate Japanese. I express my dismay and exasperation.

I believe the scene changes here a bit - me and a/the man are talking amiably, but at the same time we both know that we're just pretending for the sake of 'my sister' (I can't remember if she's in the room at the beginning, but she isn't in this next bit).

We give up the pretense and talk about the task I have to go do, because the man is a demon who was put with my sister to have a hostage. I'm not worried that when I leave, he'll hurt her, but still a thought comes up from somewhere above my dream character - "Won't he hurt her while I'm gone anyway?"

My aunt is leaving the house with a black camera, and I'm like, "oh, is that to get a better reading on the Japanese?". Mom, standing somewhere to the right, gets a mischievous look on her face. There's a few bits I couldn't remember.

A trans* char (FTM I think?) was talking to someone in a room about what if someone they liked found out. Later, they're talking to that person and it turns out that he heard the conversation through the vents and knew, and was fine with it. He had blond hair. It's possible that DC!me from the demon part was trans* too and the demon had an inkling?

Wednesday 3/13/13. Last night went to bed 1:30 am - 9:30am.

I was chased by police, again. I'm walking down a pedestrian zone, 2 cops in black uniforms, they look like NY police. They are walking towards me. There some kind of a metal column in the middle of the walkway, and it exactly covers their view of me as we walk. It's unnerving to walk slowly this close to them, but it works, they can't see me.

I sit down outside a small store. Lady owner comes out and tries to shoo me away. Then she sees the look of desperation on my face and askes me if I need to hide. I nod "yes". She lets me in. A customer brings her dog in for grooming and walking downstairs.

- I'm in another building. Could be police station. There are stairs to go downstairs but it's restricted area. I walk there anyway, because I feel that's the way out. Big chase, I'm up in the metal construction thing under the ceiling and jumping out the closed window.

Chase is always fun, but this one was a little tense, for some reason.

I attempted to induce a lucid dream tonight but I was too tired, as well as having some sinus pain (and the headache to go with it. The weather is not being kind to me.

At ~7 pm Pacific time, I lie down to sleep and curl up on my side. This is usually my initial sleeping position, prior to WBTB attempts. I fall asleep easily, reminding myself to be aware of my surroundings and do reality checks.

I dream that I am driving down a highway with my brother. Judging by the landscape, it's somewhere in southern Kentucky. I'm driving a very nice car, a BMW with some sort of fancy name (I keep forgetting throughout the dream and having to ask my brother). It's black, with charcoal grey detailing on the interior.

Now my brother is driving. He pulls the car over to the side of the highway, turns it off, and gets out. I assume something is wrong with the car and follow him. We walk down the side of the highway for a few minutes before I ask him, "What's wrong with the car?"
"Nothing," he says, and shrugs.
"I thought it broke down or ran out of gas," I say. "I'm going back to the car, we can't just leave it there."
We turn around and walk back to where the car was. There are several other cars by the side of the road - some older cars, Toyotas and Kias and the like - but my car is gone. After searching up and down the road for a while, I come to the conclusion that the car must have gotten towed. I'm upset with my brother about it, because now we have to go and get it from the impound lot, which will take a lot of time and money.

I wake up. My head hurts. I perform a reality check. I attempt WILD; I fail. I fall back to sleep and re-enter the same dream.

My brother and I are still trying to get the car back from the impound lot. We see an apartment complex, and head there. It may or may not be our home. As we enter an apartment, I realize that my laptop was in the car when it was towed. I'm very upset about this. All of my work is done on my laptop, and all of my files are on it. Without it, I won't be able to work or pay my bills. Even worse, I'm also worried someone will be able to bypass my password and other security measures and access confidential files and information.

I decide to take a shower. There is a small control panel in the shower, and the shower head also functions as a speaker. While I'm showering, I receive an email. I check it on the shower control panel. It's someone saying that they have my laptop and all of the files on it. They have recorded a message for me, and I realize that this person is a 12 year old boy. They are claiming that unless I pay them $1 per file, they will post them all on the Internet.

I'm glad that I have the recording and email as evidence; somehow, the manner in which my shower head/control panel functions also allows me to get their IP. I send them a message back asking them to please meet with me so that I can pay them a hefty sum of money and recover my laptop. They agree to do so. I set about filing a police report and contacting the proper authorities regarding extortion and the b.s. that this kid is trying to pull.

I wake up. My head still hurts. I perform a reality check. I try a WILD anyway but am distracted by the pain, and I just fall asleep.

The dream resumes. I have decided to phone the impound lot to make sure that they actually have my car. I have to ask my brother for the make and model, as I have forgotten.

I now have a motorcycle. I am trying to get to the impound lot to recover my car. I am riding the motorcycle through the apartment complex. One of the tenants is upset that I have been riding up and down the stairs and riding through her apartment as a shortcut. She's decided to catch me doing it, but she's always waiting at the wrong door and I always get around her. I drive over her bed, which left a tire track on the comforter, but didn't. The entire apartment is done in shades of off-white and pastels, and the comforter is a very light (almost white) cream color. There are fake pastel flowers in vases everywhere. I drive out the back door of the apartment, and she is asleep next to the steps. I drive down the steps but accidentally hit the throttle, and go down the steps on my rear wheel. I drive down the highway toward the impound lot.

I wake up. It's 6 a.m. My head still hurts. I attempt to WILD, but everything distracts me. I get up, take an ibuprofen, and go make breakfast.

So last night i had the most amazing lucid dream.

I'm standing in the middle of a crossroad, no one around and as I look to the sky I see a red comet. "Dragons.." I say and burst out in laughing: I'm dreaming. So I thought:" Dude, i'm totally going to fly now." Wich worked!!!! AWSOME I CAN FLY YEAHHHHHHHHHHH, but keep Calm Vince, else you're going to wake up!!!

So the next moment i'm in the sky with 2 incredibely hot girls around my neck looking for trouble. And then there he was.... Voldermort...... This...is it...


After a relatively long battle(At least, it felt long) I defeated him and got laid with one of the nice ladies.


But I tried ( yes i'm a nerd i know.) a Kamehameha wave, but it didnt work... Also going super saiyan doesnt work for me.... -,- need some more practice i think....


Thanks for reading anyhow!

I was just driving round the streets, like cruising as a youngster, Spacey's mates were around, one was a black guy we'd scored off before, although I didn't recognise him, he looked like Bob Marley and we stopped to pick him up. There was some more driving and interactions that I can't recall. We were in Spacey's house, in his room and doing coke on a small table, it was my bedside table, but it was Daz's room, we had the lights out to avoid being caught out by the girls. Spacey was moaning about the amount of coke I'd given him the week before and I was trying to explain that someone else had sorted it out and that I had just brought it to him. The other guy in the room was the one with the coke now and I got the feeling that I was going to have to pay if I wanted some.

Note for the next part of the dream.
I went to bed listening to Lucid Dreaming Binural Beats by Slash112, which, if you've listened, has the words, "The next time I am dreaming, I will realise I am dreaming, am I dreaming, is this a dream."
So we had the TV on and it was a report about a boy who had witnessed his father taken away by spirits, the tones were playing as a backing track to the report and the boy kept repeating the words from the video. This was very intrusive and I actually woke up, turned the video off (I had it on repeat) and immediately returned to the dream, albeit without conscious thought, effort or indeed awareness (a good sign though I hope). Sasha came in the room and caught us doing coke and started to kick off that we were shady, so the guy said she could have some. Due to the fact we had now been sussed, Daz said "You'll all like this with the light on, won't you.?" to which we were all agreed. Sasha was bent over him doing a line and he was encouraging me to check out her ass.

He then got out his application for nuclear power security clearance and was showing it off, bragging about how hard it had been to pass and that he was going to be on really good money from now on. The other guy asked Sasha if he could stay the night and she seemed concerned about his reputation spoiling Daz's security status, I felt she should have been more concerned about my reputation for some reason, although I don't know why. She made sure he knew they would be "shaggin" and did he know the rules. He joked that the rules were to join in. I woke again and got up for 20 minutes to record my dream.

I have woken from dreams multiple time over the past two days now, something which I didn't do before, I am hoping this is a sign of progress.

I returned to bed. As I lay there I felt the room spinning, much like it does when you're inebriated, I'm wondering if this is a good sign. Regardless, I tried to use it and imagined myself spinning with it, my legs felt disassociated from my body and I thought at the time that I was achieving something, however I fell into sleep without memory, I dreamt again.

Martin Ribey had gotten out of jail and was hanging around, I was worried about him stealing my new bike, in the dream he knew I suspected him of stealing my first bike and he was acting all shady about it, I tried to lose him in the streets, I started to parkour to get away from him, but he could do it also, I doubt either of us can, I know I can't.

I found myself with Joy and we were going to swim in a river, Joy jumped in, but it was very shallow and she hurt her feet. I was really nervous about jumping in, but after Joy checked the depth, I did a bomb into the water. At one point, I was at Joy's parents house to pick her up and whilst I was waiting for her, I got something we needed from the kitchen drawer. Her Dad then came down and said he'd get it for us, for some reason I didn't mention I'd already got it, when he couldn't find it, I gingerly admitted that I had already got it, at which point he kicked off, even though it was an innocent act, he got so mad that he asked me to leave. I then woke proper.

03.13.2013

Overthrowing the Tea Party (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up in sleep paralysis, and my clock informs me that I'm late for work. I'm not sure if I'm just hallucinating this, but I can't be late after missing so much last week! I struggle to wake up. No avail. The entire time, a sermon from some conservative southern Baptist preacher is blaring from my television. It is one of the most irritating things ever...

Suddenly Amanda comes in the room. "Hey, don't you have class now?" she asks.

"Yes," I mumble in a weak voice. "Please wake me up."

She sits down on top of me. At first, I am still paralyzed. But then: "Hey, I can move now." I do a reality check and confirm that I'm actually dreaming. I decide I'm probably not really late for anything.

"I need you to come with us," Amanda tells me in a strange voice. It's almost as if she's hypnotized. Curious, I decide to play along.

"Fair enough. But afterwards, you should help me find that girl that you drew. That's my goal, remember?"

She doesn't answer. She just looks at me expectantly, waiting for me to follow her. I shrug and attempt to put on my bedroom slippers. It doesn't work, and I figure I don't need them since it's just a dream.

She leads me into an attic where my other friends are waiting. "Hey guys, what's up?" I ask.

"Welcome to the Tea Party," they all say in weird, robotic voices. I look around the room and see that it is completely filled with radical Republican propaganda, including some pictures of my friends that show women "in their proper place." What the hell?

I take their pictures off the wall and stare my friends dead in the eyes as I rip the papers to shreds. They all gasp in horror. "That's what I think of your stupid Tea Party," I laugh, knowing that I just picked a deadly fight.

They all come at me at once, screaming about how I betrayed them and ruined everything. I leap down from the attic, intending to just ignore them and to carry on with my original goal, but they latch onto me. Since they're restraining my arms, I kick out at them violently. Alex complains that I've broken her ribs. "Good," I growl.

I wake up when Alex sneezes in real life.

I was on my way to the trainstation to go to school when I sort of drift out of the dream. I realize this before waking up and turn lucid become of it. I was still in the progress of waking up so I quickly dreamspin (while still on my bike, I have NO idea how I did that), and find myself in what looked like a gameworld. I was standing in a purple-violet area that looked like a hallway, with a bunch of strange creatures standing in my way. I get carried away while battling them and lose my lucidity. After beating the creatures I beat the boss in the next room and I reappear in the same position as where I first appeared, only this time everything had a different color (as if to suggest this was level 2). I start the level again but the dream ends then.

I went to sleep last night at about 6:30pm, and got up at 5am(no sleep the night before). So I woke up and fell back to sleep alot. I recall the 2 biggest non lucids.

In the first, I had just started dating ASTL (Assistant Store Team Leader) Wes. He's married irl, and I have a bf irl, and I was aware of both in the dream Anyway, me and Wes are making out on the bed and he pops the "L" word. I just kinda cuddled him, and was about to say it back, though I didn't really feel it. So the cuddle lasted a bit longer when I realized that the time which had passed was too long to say it now and not be really awkward. Interesting note: in my dream, I had a memories of this relationship, even though I hadn't dreamed the memories. Hard to explain, it's kinda like having dream memories of a thing programmed into my mind, even though I hadn't dreamed them. Anyway, one of these memories was that Wes had actually popped the "L" word a while before, and I HAD said it back then. We had also had sex before, but again, I didn't dream it. It was just a dream memory again. So weird. Anyway, we monkeyed around a bit more, then he sat up, took one of my feet in each hand, and opened my legs scissor-like and said, "We need to do it again." The dream memory of us doing it before filled my mind, and it was gooooood. For some reason I felt like I needed a shower, so I said "Ok but after I shower." Then I snapped my legs shut.

On the way to the shower, I passed by the livingroom, and there was Danny and Chris and my mom and stepdad sitting in the livingroom. Stepdad was being a dick about a clock or something. I looked at everyone in the room, at Danny the most. He was just glued to the TV. I thought how odd it was that I was messing with Wes in just the other room, and no one suspected anything. I felt so guilty that I had apparently cheated on Danny, and sad that there was no going back now.

I went to the bathroom and made the decision that I would end it with Wes, and never tell Danny a word. I would never do this again, and hopefully I could salvage the relationship. I spent the rest of that dream never getting into that shower, rather piddling with a screwdriver and some loose screws in the wall, trying to tighten the loose ones that were set awkwardly in moisture-rotted wood. It was daytime out, I remember that (I remembered that I wanted to make it a point to record the time of day in my DJ).

Later, a non lucid about dating ASTL Ryan. Both of these ASTLs are really cute guys by the way, and besides that and both being married ASTLs with kids, I have no idea why I dreamed of either or both of them in this way. Anyway, I was with Ryan in a conference room with other team members I think, and we had just started dating after he broke up with some female DC (not his real life wife). The girl didn't know he got into another relationship, and she suddenly appeared in the conference room, in a huff. She seemed reaaaaally hurt by my dating Ryan.

She stormed off, and I chased her down the hall. She had an expression of "Don't try to talk to me all sweet in a pitying way.." when I grabbed her arm and yelled, "I don't pity you! I'm just here to tell you that you're doing it wrong." She was like "Doing WHAT wrong?" I said "Look, y'all broke up, now we're going out. If you want to pine over him like this, then you're not hurting me or him, just you. You're supposed to move on and find someone to make you happy, not continue on in misery over someone you can't have anymore. YOU are you only true love, when it comes down to it. So you have to take care of yourself. Well, when you have kids, then they become you're true love, but you know what I mean." She had a look of understanding dawning on her face, and she said "Thank you" and meant it.

So I galloped back to the conference room, ready to proudly convey my triumphant story to Ryan, and how we were all cool now (if only it were that easy irl). Well it wasn't that easy because I got distracted on the way as I walked past a room making some amazing looking skillet bread. These lovely loaves were springing up all over these baking stations, in white hot wrought iron flat tops. Then I remembered Ryan. I ran like lightening to the original conference room, but the door was locked, and the room was dark and empty. I pounded the glass and said DAMNIT! I was really bummed.

Then Ryan appeared in the doorway of an outside stairwell just behind me. I was happy again Why aren't these fuckers this cooperative in my lucids?? I regaled the tale of his ex to him, and he seemed satisfied. We went outside and down the stairs, and sat on a bench looking out over the sea on a cool, cloudy day. It was nice. I put my hand on the back of his neck (this guy is super muscular, by the way. Premature gray hair and lovely blue eyes, whereas Wes is blond, has HUGE saucer like blue eyes, and looks like a grown up Ralfie from Christmas Story). Then my hand moved down to his muscular shoulders, and I began massaging them. He reciprocated by turning toward me, and pulling me to him, allowing my to lay my head on his broad chest. My jaw felt really tight and awkward (I think I may have been lying weird on my pillow irl). Otherwise, I would have started macking down on him right then and there.

I woke up then, and was confused as to why I had just had 2 ASTL dreams that were so similar. Note that in the second one, it was in a universe where I wasn't and hadn't been with Danny. When I woke up between those 2 dreams, it woke up real life Danny for a moment. He said "Did I wake you?" and I said "No I just woke up from a dream. It wasn't a really good dream anyway."