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took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- 1 dose galantamine + choline
- 2400mg Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 2 lucid experiences
skills practiced: stabilization (looking at hands), walking through solid objects, talking to DCs
note:
- galantamine still made it quite difficult to get to sleep

no chart today because of user error with fixing the date on the zeo, should finally be fixed

My four year old had this dream:

He dreamed that his friend was over at our home, and he could transform with a fin on his head and a giant butt (kids this age butts are a big deal, very funny and all, and so are potty jokes). In this dream we also had a special potty that allowed one to watch TV movies while sitting on the potty.

Yup, he's a four year old boy, and this was a fun wish fulfilling dream.

I was in the neighborhood where I grew up. I was walking to my friend, Sherri's house. As I was walking past Ricky's house I noticed it was gone. There were bulldozer marks where the house had been. I couldn't believe it was gone so I went to look over the riverbank. For some reason I was upset because I was supposed to clean the windows. Before I could look over the riverbank I saw a stranger coming. I decided to slink away. I didn't want him to see me although he didn't look particularly threatening. When I got to where the fence was supposed to be I looked back and I could see the strange man following me.

I decided to hurry to get to Sherri's house. The closer I got to her house the harder it was to get there. I was pulling myself along the fence because the stranger was getting closer and closer to me. I got to Sherri's front door and one of my old managers were there remodeling her house. Sherri and her mom weren't home. He said they were at his house on the hill. I wanted to help so I started cleaning dust off stuff. I looked up and the stranger was talking to my manager as my manager kept working.

I went into the house to get away and clean some more. The lock and knob was missing from the front door. I was trying to decide which rooms to clean because they needed to be clean so we could paint. Every time I would go into a room it would already be clean. Then I found Willa (Sherri's mom). I asked her what she wanted cleaned in her bedroom because it was already clean.

Then she took me to the bedroom she was actually using. It was a whole suite of rooms and these were the rooms that needed cleaning. I told her I had forgotten that she stayed in these rooms instead of the other ones. Then I went back outside and was cleaning a shelf so Adam could paint it. The stranger was still waiting. Then Adam started to try to have sex but I wasn't interested. I couldn't keep his hands off me. I woke up.

I remember waking up around 4am thinking that instead of writing in my DJ, I would go back to sleep and try to WILD. hen my husband got dressed (he has an early meeting), then my son got into bed with me (I told him that he was disturbing my trying to fall asleep, and he left), then there was another noise and whatnot. Well, I was completely unable to fall asleep, let alone WILD. By 5am I gave up. I am groggy and not well rested, and can't sleep any more. Sigh.

Dream recall from non-lucid naps from yesterday and today.

Yesterday's nap(fragment):

I was on my PC and desktop was all messed up and wallpaper was different, i rearranged it back to normal. Then i was checking dreamviews and i was randomly promoted to the dream guide rank( ), the forums suddenly became bronze colored and there was weird thread in news section that stated 'We are on fire'. There was also a star with sickle and hammer in the upper right corner. I went back to bed and decided to go for another nap.

Today's nap(fragments):

I was playing some Warzone 2100 map that looked like first transport mission of campaign, but instead i was controlling the scavenger faction, there were lots of new units that were not original, but part of them, such as some vans, trucks and tractors were from some mods, but other part was completely new, like some mechas made from broken parts and garbage.
Then there was this weird game, which in main mode was basically touhou but horizontally oriented, and cancelling bullets with boss explosion was one of the scoring methods, but i was failing at it. Extra mode of it was actually a fighter game where characters been changing form between Captain Falcon, Sonic and Mickey Mouse by using certain combinations of moves. Apparently there was also superextra mode which was like extra but instead of versus fight everyone was teaming up versus boss, which looked like Sonic in Iron Man suit that was also turning gold, and was really overpowered.
Later at home there were lots of pillows, forming literally walls. I almost fell over one of them.

yo yo yo your so orignal yo yo yo your so orignal yo yo yo your so orignal if this song offend you its probaly dissing you throw your finger up its sublimanol now think about being somwhere thats really nowhere its a D R E everywhere and thats stands for dreaming reality everywhere yo yo yo your so orignal yo yo yo your so orignal throw your finger up its sublimanol

rapitdly pressing the same button now turn into a rapid notion of beathing this fucking game but the game is jus there to give you a nostligic feeling of being in control of something your not you could be a ninja a figher a dreamer etc. but im inhaling a thought of not thinkings but being in this same state of mind same image of sequence moving rapidly as your finger hit the button you notice you in arcade setting but the arcade is jus your home console and your training in a thought of beating this game entirley your getting tired of doing the same thing but you dream everday things like reality and show that are about reality and other non-important stuff like that but if you slow down the processe of thinking you really not button mashing at all its a sequence you put in the game like putting in a code for a supreme character but while notice these fragment of figment of imagination the scene be come even more brutal than picture yourself being a mortal in a combat sitatuation where your commiting a fatalaty on every single opponet you ever face this game then become a lucid sequence of code inputs that you do unawarely its not dreaming lucidly but being non lucid as of becoming in the dream state of playing a game in the state of mind of playing the games that we once all known as the button masher but the button mashing becomes jus slowing typing process of typing situtaiton of you moving around your home thinking about doing this action over and over again

so there a smoke cloud a artifical human walk through it his image gets clearer and brighter the image intensify what am i looking at is it real is it surreal or is it a dream a very lucid dream so the puffing sensation returns there that image goes again but now its blurry im half dose off falling into the sleep realms the voice i heard was that of a machine but yet it was so human like idk if im sleep or awake the cartoony image starts to refresh into an actual pixle of real skin then the story begins from here now im dreaming the world is so life like the mental stability of this notion was so surreal it cant be it been like ive been dreaming this for years the smoke cloud my judgement the real life 17 im an artifical life form that mere human fathom about the story prolongs i was once known as Avan then the dream turn into a subverse reality now this lucid dream im consciously in the astral plane that face it seen by more dreamers with there own point of view now the vibrationally state kicks in

3:10AM

I am staying at some friend's house, P and J. For some reason we are moving to Tulsa and I am starting a new job at Olive Garden.

I have an FA and wake from some dream about P owning a grocery store. It's empty and he isn't getting any customers. Some goofy vendors deliver goods on pallet jack and knock over displays. P chases them out. Them I guess it was P and J, they begin to have sex and move into the back of the store. Arnold Schwarzenegger shows up with a cigar in one hand and a ventriloquist dummy in the other. He says something really lame and thinks he's being funny.



I get out of bed and I look back and realize I was cuddled with J on one side while P was on the other. I briefly find this to be odd but run out for embarrassment.

I am in the living room with P and he is talking about starting some management position. He says it's actually lunch time for him and he works only half days. I look at the clock and see is like 6:27AM. I get worried because I was supposed to the at Olive Garden at 7AM. I then realize I have no idea how I got this job or where the restaurant is. I almost get lucid but I am too busy freaking out. I pull out some piece of paper. I see that it is wet in places but I can really read it. (Coincidentally I spilled isopropyl alcohol on some documents today and it looked really similar to my dream.) I put the paper away and pull out my phone to try and Goolge. I hope that there is only one Olive Garden. Then, I get really scared and realize I am not at all qualified for this job. I know nothing about managing a restaurant. I begging to really freak out. I look down at my clothes and see that I am wearing black slacks and a white button up shirt. I think maybe I should just give it up and go job hunting again. I'm sure I can find something. When I wake up I feel disoriented and confused who and where I really am.

I have another dream around 6 that is too private to share and slightly disturbing.

Early in the morning, I was walking around a home looting goods from someone I've never met before. I have an accomplice with me. He's following me through the whole dream.

There's a room we found interesting just down the fall we were standing on. I entered the room, close the door after my accomplice gets in, but something went wrong. Someone was following us. I'm guessing it was the cops which wasn't a good thing. I probably done something illegal. We both had to find a way out but the only way out was through the window behind us.

The room we were in was empty. There was nothing here for us to rob. We both were panicking as we struggled to find a way out of this place free. That's when we decided to walk out the bedroom window and escape the area. I was the first one to exit the room. My partner was second.

There was something strange after looking at the new area I just climbed in to. It was my front yard. I looked around to see if there was any cops around but after checking around the corner of the house, there was a cop running towards me. I immediately ran outside of the home property and next to there street where I found a car for my getaway. The street, as always, was lonely. I didn't see anyone there at the time.

I waited for my partner and we eventually left the area together in this car.

I think I've seen this place before. There's a lot of posters and accessories in this room that looked to have belonged to a girl. There's nothing interesting in the room. The only interesting thing I saw was someone I had seen before on one of the television shows I watched. She keeps changing from body to body.

I cannot recall much from the whole dream. After leaving the room I was first in, I was outside walking in the rain while following a group of kids through abandoned buildings somewhere around the village. Most of these buildings were burnt out, so there wasn't really too much to explain right now.

This next part I met a friend standing on a parking lot next to a few homes. There is a group of other people standing next to her. I walk up to Trinh and ask her a question. She didn't give me a good answer. I got a bad vibe from her, but I'm still not sure if she hated me at that moment. Me and everyone else who were following me now went separate ways. I walked in to one of the buildings next to the parking lot and rain was then stopped.

In the next home I entered I only saw one of my Aunts and she was waiting for someone in the house to walk outside and go some place with her. I was standing on the stairs, listening. It was a pretty calm night.

Someone I kinda know who is female drew me some pictures.
My Grandma seemed really mad at me for some reason.
My girlfriend and I went on a trip.

Sorry for lack of detail but that's all I remember.

No dream recall the last couple days, since my last lucid dream. I just wanted to check in to keep the habit of posting.

Food before bed: Cinnamon bun 1/14/11 9:18 P.M
Drink before bed: Italian soda (hazelnut) 1/15/11 5:25 A.M.

The dream was interesting, I could remember myself in my living room looking around. The room is based off my actual house in Astoria without much difference. I believe the Christmas tree was there, and to my suprise there were wrapped up Xbox 360 games; they were wrapped up individually. I think I heard wither Dan or Matt saying something about the games but wasn't sure. Then there was a bag next to the wrapped 360 games and I noticed in particular 2 games. Fable 1 and Fable 2 exactly how they appear in the waking state. Then I went to the kitchen where I found Perry and Dan. We were talking and apparently I was able to levitate off the ground. I had a conversation with Dan about how Fable II was a good game to keep and we both agreed that while it was unfortunate my Halo 3 was stolen- it wasn't anything to cry over. While Perry, Dan, and I were talking in the kitchen some "scary" music was playing. We all noticed and I said to Dan, "Let me try to voice it out". Ok this is what I really said but I began singing the notes of the scary songs. Dan made a remark but not sure what he said. Perry suddenly made a strange and stupid comment that if I wanted to hear scarier music, I should have sex in the dark- in someone else's dorm room. I found this hilarious because he would never say this in real life. Like I said before I was able to levitate off the ground with Perry and Dan commenting. Eventually I saw Dan leave the room while I spun around levitation. I then went upside down leaned backwards to grab my calves and started spinning around. I did this for a few seconds and the dream ended.

Many things that occurred in the dream have mirrored the waking world in a number of ways. First. my living room and kitchen were exactly the same. The kitchen was particularly bright and the table is situated where it normally is. I, in fact, owned FableI, II, and Halo 3 with I and II being my favorite games. Halo 3 was lost sophomore year when I still had a 360. I also, in the dream, remembered Matt was going to get a 360 and Fable 3. Dan and Perry were there normal selves except the comment Perry made. Apparently in the dream I thought the dorms were connected to my house. When in the kitchen, Dan was in front of me and Perry was off to the side. While I was off to bed, I put on my headphones and put on a playlist on loop. It was the album called "The Lost Chord" by Jonathan Goldman. The album had some very strange sounds including a Buddhist monk doing a guttural chant preceded by the sound phasing from the intro. The "scary" music in the dream was not atonal and Dan tried to sing with me.

I woke up like 11:20 this morning. As always, sat behind the computer in the morning.
After an hour I really started to get hungry, and well I had nothing to eat, because I hadn't bought anything for myself.

As I were getting dressed to go store, my old mobilephone was ringing, I didn't get time to answer before it stopped. But I called back and it was the employment service that wanted me to get there as fast possible or atleast before 3pm, because I needed to get some information about an internship I'll start on Monday. This internship though doesn't seem to be like the ones I'd before that was total useless, this one is for a job in the summer that I might get if I do it good on the internship. It's some simple IT job that probably retarded persons would even succeed. And they needed lots of people.

So, hungry as fk I were going to take bus to the city. I walked outdoor and shortly after my dad opened the balcony door and asked me where I am going. I said I'm going to the employment service and he asked me if I want a ride because he is going to his work soon. So I said alright.
He dropped me off in front of the employment service, I walked in and went into the room. The old woman who I've as 'officer' or whatever to call it, said I was very quick.

She talked and gave me paper about the internship, about where and when it starts.
25th March to 10th April I will be there slaving like I've done massive of times before. This though look more bright in my eyes.
But I wasn't very happy anyway, and she was quite surprised of that as she know I've been trying hard to get a job.
What I kind of got angry on is that this internship is on the days where me, my gf, dad and his gf were going to my dads dad for some days.
Even though, my dad in car told me that it might not be off anyway, because his girlfriend wants to stay home and enjoy time with her oldest son etc.
And also, this ain't 100% sure I will even get a job, and I remember there is like 3 places where they gonna put us, and I don't want to work like 500km away from here, like where the fk do I'm gonna live. If I will go bus to and from the job, I will not earn more than if I just would be without job like I'm now. Because I guess the salary will be sh-t.

Well, after the meeting I walked to the library, was getting on the WiFi network and surfed around on my phone. Did that for like a 15 minutes, then got bored and started walk home.
On my way home I passed by a store, bought a dr pepper, pizza doughbottom (or whatever spelled and called), and all other stuffs I need for make a glutenfree pizza. Also bought some chips and cheese dip I wanted try out (they don't have the cheese dip I been eating for over a year ago, the very best one, sux that all stores seems to be removing it).

Anyway, once I came home. Went on the computer, noticide I were banned from the girly sh-tty website me and my gf use to be on. I noticied my IP were banned because no user did work to login to. So I first tried use a IP proxy through the webbrowsers network settings, but it didn't work. So I used TOR webbrowser and there I got into another account. But my main account were total gone. And I don't even know why really.
But, I don't care any much. My gf though noticied it some hours after and she thought I had deleted my account there until I explained that I'm banned.

Anyway, short after I been on the computer for some minutes, I started to make my pizza, took me like 30 minutes in total.
Then I ate it, was tasting great.

After that, I've been on the computer like all afternoon and evening.
I plan to go bed soon, time is 10:12pm right now (22:12). I probably are in my bed atleast 23:00, in a 3/4 hour (45 minutes).


My plan for tomorrow is to get up early, I will maybe put alarm at like 7am, maybe even 6am, not sure. I shall sleep a 7-8 hours atleast. Then I will wake up, pack my gymbag and head off to gym and try to be there before 9am. Then I will just walk back home later and really no idea what to do rest of all day tomorrow.

Now I will go have some water and sit behind the computer some more minutes before I go bed.