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I had the worst night. I could not for the life of me get to sleep. And when I was able to sleep a little bit, it was a very light sleep and never more than an hour or so. I'm really tired. I just can't sleep! I did have some fragments though....

Dream Fragment 1: Kurt Hummel and I are excitedly walking down a huge spiral staircase. There are tons of people, so I grab his hand. He looks down at our joined hands and then at my face, smiling the whole time. We then start trying every handshake that we can think of and crack up laughing.

Dream Fragment 2: I'm holding a baby boy in my arms. He tells me that he has to go to the bathroom. I raise him higher on my hip and start walking hurriedly to the bathroom. He falls asleep in my arms.

A stupid dream:
-Hi Sandra how are you?I said to she.
-Fine,you?Said Sandra
-Can I go to you?
-No because Im going to Roma,Colloseum-(lol)
-Colloseum?!
She did not understand and told me nothing.
-Ok Bye.
Done.

I leap out of bed on to a giant wolf-dingo wearing a red And black duster. I open a Portal to the moon. Raven and Mosh are there with Roland. Raven is riding a horse, and Mosh a giant lizArd. Raven opens a portal to another world. We land in a forest in th middle of a battle. Elves against giant wolves. raven unleashes a flurry of arrowS, and the wolves drop the elf children in their mouths.

Dream recall from today's naps, got a couple of DILDs and a bit of progress with dream control.

Nap #1:

I was on my PC, playing some kind of mod of video game called Doom. I got bored and decided to replay one of my own old mods for Doom. It was going on normally for a while, but soon it was smoothly transitioning from 'me playing game' to 'me being in game', then i ran into some technical problem with game not loading properly, but i fixed it, as i got to the next level it was suddenly overdetailed compared to everything else, there were yellow and red cave walls and also there was some kind of reactor behind the gate, and objectives stated that i had to destroy it. The detailing work on that map was ridiculous and i was never that good at map making so i realized that i am dreaming, i was walking around a bit and there were monsters from doom, which were frozen in place for some reason, but before i could do anything dream suddenly transitioned into my room.
It was daytime, i recalled my goals and went to the balcony, which was already open. On the balcony i was ready for another attempt on transforming into a dragon, i recalled that behaving like one would help transformation process, so i tried to do a roar, but failed, i started to fly and felt wings again. Dream destabilized in a second and i, what i call it, 'lagged out', basically no matter what i did i was shifted into previous position while moving again, and shifting to previous position again again in infinite loop, like what you would see when other player lags out in some multiplayer games. I tried shouting 'stabilize!' but shortly dream faded out.

Nap #2:

There was scene where main character of the game Medievil, Sir Daniel Fortesque, was talking to some princess, but she later lured him into some kind of trap. He managed to get out and she attacked him with sword, but he, being undead skeleton, was mostly unfazed by attack. Then dream skipped.
I wake up back in my bed, i recall the dream that i had and then i take off headphones and can still hear binaural beats, which means i am still dreaming. I get up and go to the balcony, on the way i engage senses and try feeling objects, for some reason it was hard to move fingers and for a second i felt the bed with it(being nowhere near the bed) as if i was still in the bed, i was thinking that it might feeling from my waking body but i quickly discarded that thought to prevent destabilization.
I take off and feel wings again, this time flying is even easier and i can even hear sound of wings! I fly to the left(if facing building) and then just fly around for a short while. I decide to try attempting transformation into a dragon right in the flight, i shout 'Dragon form!' while visualizing and expecting change to happen but nothing happens. I notice that i am flying above some kind of marketplace and there are lots of DCs. For fun i decide i try something different, i fly right at random DC, which apparently is female DC, and suddenly stop right in front of her face, there's expression of shock on her face haha, then i fly away. I decide to go for another attempt at transformation into a dragon, i shout 'Dragon form!' again while visualizing and expecting the change and suddenly i feel the change on my right hand and hear weird periodic sounds that i can describe as 'crackle', i look at my hand and it's clawed and there are black scales roughly halfway to the elbow, in a few seconds it becomes back normal though, but hey, it didn't instantly destabilized dream this time! I fly around for some more time and then dream fades out.
I wake up back at my bed and in a few seconds i wake up properly.

I'm sitting on a couch, my wrist held out in front of me by Castiel. He is wrapping up an ugly wound. I watch him work and I'm glad to see the wound disappear underneath the white cloth. I smile, looking into his eyes. And I ask, "Why are you so sweet on me, Clarence?". He carefully finishes his work and looks at me, still holding my wrist in his hands. "I don't know...", he says quietly. A small, almost sad smile comes to his face. "I'm sorry.", he adds, and slowly he casts his eyes downward. I shift forward and closer to him, reaching out to lift his face in my hands. I smile and kiss his forehead. I close my eyes and say, "It's okay... you're my unicorn".


Dream Fragment: I'm in one of the high school outside hallways. Michael is stupid and I'm really pissed off. I launch myself at him, pushing him back towards one of the green beams. Super Mario music is playing. And when he hits the beam with his back, the Super Mario death music plays.

I was told by an old school friend's dad in real life that I was invited along to have special access to a candy store that was going out of business or something.

I was being pretty timid while there, unsure of how much I was allowed to take. I talked to someone about it (possibly Pillywiggin?) and was reassured. I didn't hesitate after that.

I remember that I made sure to grab some Mounds bars for mom, and Hershey's bars with almonds. I looked for some Twizzlers but couldn't find them. Finally I went to the end of the isle and found a whole rack dedicated to them in all kinds of colors. There was a group of boys sitting on the ground, playing some kind of game or chatting.

As I looked through the bags of Twizzlers for plain 'ol strawberry, "Upward Movement (Dave Owns)" from Homestuck started playing (at the 1:28 mark).

After I grabbed a bag, I went back down the isle, leaving a comment behind about how I wondered if there was any "Family Guy" candy, before following up with a "probably not". I think I was trying to show off somehow.

I remember that I wandered down another (dark?) isle at one point but it wasn't candy, so I went back.

March 21, 2013 - 7.5 hours in - 3 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke naturally a couple times and tried to fall right back asleep, then woke naturally after 6.5 hours and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

I am in a car with dark seats and T. is driving and E. is in the back seat.

I am looking at a menu of sorts which on its list has something called a male restaurant and a female restaurant. I think this to be strange and as I think more about where I am, I find that I cannot remember how I got here. I ask E. if anyone else is in the back seat and he says no. I plug my nose and try to inhale, but I expect it to not work, since everything seems so real. I can do it but I don't have the right grip, and I do it again and I can definitely inhale. I rub my hands and try not to think about how I am actually lying in bed, and just take in the scenery.

The trees are bare and the ground is covered in snow. The scenery consists of fields and patches of trees mixed about. We are on a wide urban style street with curbs. A street goes off to the right, and the street sign has the name of a real life street a couple miles from where I live. A yellow sign reads "Park Closes Gold." The road narrows and the curb ends and it becomes a road closed in with trees as we head slightly uphill. A green stoplight appears which we go through. There are a couple more green lights, and the road transitions in and out of an urban style road with curbs. Those stoplights on the curbed sections of road are on metal poles, and those on the country-style sections without curb are on wires and/or telephone poles.

As a country road it goes down a hill and I notice that we are going very fast. I fear this will eventually destabilize the dream, so I will it to slow back down. At this point I don't seem to have any awareness of the car anymore. Ahead on the horizon is a large steep hill, and before that point there is a railroad crossing, although this one has green lights, not red ones. A train is coming and I speed up trying to beat the train, although I think to myself there is a good chance I will be hit, ending the dream. I barely make it through in time, surprising myself, but the road curves fairly sharply to the left without me and the visuals fly to the left a little but run out. I don't try to keep the dream and let myself wake up.

These are my favourite 3 dreams I had over the last 3 days. Instead of writing all the dreams I have and putting them on DV, I'm just choosing my favorite dream from each night!

Title: My Move To France
Date: Monday 18/03/2013

Plot:
I was sitting at the top of the Ricoh Arena, behind me are the like sort of windows which they have at the top. You can't see out them but they are kinda transparent. Anyway, there was bangs and flashes going on outside of the Ricoh. I knew something bad was happening and I had to get out of England. Although I didn't see what was actually happening I knew people were invading the country like in Red Dawn.

The next thing I know I'm flying, flying above earth. I had to chose a country to live in, I chose France because in the dream my Nan and Grandad lived there. I landed on there street and went into there house. The house looked old but really nice. I looked out the window onto the street and the roads were cobbled and house looked like that as well. It looked like how I'd imagine a French street to look like. But on this street was people who lived on my street in England, there was my friend across the road, my nextdoor neighbours etc.

The problem was I wasn't really allowed outside without causing trouble. Because in France they didn't want people escaping from England to come to their country. However I went outside anyway as my brother had arrived, he didn't fly or anything he arrived by PENGUIN SLIDE. He showed me how he done it. How he slid down a ramp in England on his belly and landed here. He was tired though and wanted to go to sleep. So I went for a walk round the streets. I was walking down some steps and too my left was two men, lying down on reclining chairs relaxing. They immediately noticed I was English and told me to come over. They were cool about me being in France and I walked off.

Title: Snake Bite
Date: Thursday 21/03/2013

Plot:
I was snowboarding and skiing down a slope. I could switch to whatever when I liked. I was skiing down the slope and I aimed to go between these two poles... I missed. I then carried down to the bottom. I got off and started to walk back up the hill again. My friend was in front of me and he was talking about a funeral he was going to. People were saying to him, wont it be awkward when you see your father in law crying. He replied 'no'. We were near the top now and we stopped. I then pulled a snake out my bag. I was holding it by the tail and it was snapping about trying to bite something. I couldn't hold it any longer and I dropped it on the floor. My friend who I was talking to picks up the snake, throws it at my face and it bites my nose and I wake up!

Title: Pranking Mug Off
Date: Friday 22/03/2013

Plot:
I was at a theme park and I seen some girls getting off a ride. Me and my friends decide this is the perfect place and people to do a prank too. (In RL I've started making pranks for YouTube. Here is one of my PRANKS if you wish to watch.) So we chased these girls down. They ran up about a 4 story block and my friend said to me 'I really hope this prank works.' The prank was something to do with getting a girls number. Anyway we climbed up the stairs and we reached the queue at the top. There was a girl, I walked up to her confidently and said 'Put your number in my phone!' This prank is on YouTube by some other prankers btw. She took my phone and started writing her 'number.' My friends couldn't believe it, I heard one say 'It actually worked!' She gave me my phone back and I looked at the number... I was mugged right off. The number looked something like '078628GOAWAY9020.' Then I awoke!

The orange bit is when I became lucid.

I'm in a backyard that I've never been, I'm climbing on them and looking on the tops of the fence and every once in awhile I find a stack of money. Then my friend and some boy I don't recognize walks into the backyard and they ask me what I'm doing. I tell them that finding money on fences is how I make a living, they're are shocked by this, so I show them, I pick a spot on the long fence and I climb up a little and find a small stack of money and show them, they're intrigued but still shocked, we start walking away from the fence, and suddenly the boy has a pitchfork in his hands and is walking towards me, he first goes towards my friend but I jump in front of her, and it goes into my stomach but doesn't puncture me yet, I say to him "what the hell are you doing!" and then he say's "I'm sorry, I can't control it!", so me and my friend say it's okay, but then I run out of room to back up in and then the pitchfork impales my torso and goes all the way through, my friend gasps but I tell her it's okay, for some reason I don't feel any pain, but it feels like a sensation. We are interrupted by some man and he says we must go to the hill and watch the aliens arrive, the boy has disappeared, but me and my friend panic and go to the hill so we don't stick out for any reason and get in trouble. When we go to the hill there is so many people laying and sitting on blankets or just on the grass, me and my friend lay together really close anticipating a bad thing, (then everything, the wind the grass the people just get very vivid) and I hear something loud and horrible coming i think its the ship but before I see anything I become aware that I'm in a dream, and I think i prevented the ship from coming because I can just hear the awful noise and shaking sensation, then I turn to see my friend but she's gone so I realize I can get the heck outta here and I look at the grass then when I look back up I'm still at the hill and I get annoyed but all the people and noise are gone, I try it again and when I look to the light I'm in this really really small room with just a rug and Then I feel as though my lucidity is slipping so I look at my hands and my fingers go out like smoke and I rub my hands together and I guess I stabilized, I make a door appear for some reason, I don't even use it, then I remember I need to brake something (that's the only part of the totm I could remember for some reason) but there is nothing to brake, no window nothing, when I turn looking I see a small table that a lamp would go on and I try to touch it but it sort of acts like two magnets deflecting from each other every time my hand got near, so I sloppily swing my foot at it and it explodes with one touch and wood chips go in the air in almost slow motion and I think why is it less wood then was in the form of it being a table. then I want to try to fly, but when I try it's like I'm doggy paddling in water but I stay in the air where I doggy paddled instead of going back down.]and then my cat woke me up quite alarmed because he had to take a dump and the litter box is in the hallway.

Me and some family drive through a wooded area in the rv. When we get to a dead end there is a thrashed bike there, we then turn right & now we are in a small black car, we are driving into to some sort of an event, there is a stadium bowl, with the outer balconies completely covered in people, and a line all the way from the stadium entrance to the large parking lot. I think "oh crap are we going to have to wait in this long line", but then my grandma turns into one of the 2 driveway entrances that are between the 2 lines of people, then I wonder why I even doubted my grandma. As we're slowly driving towards the entrance, a woman stops us and asks us if we can take her teen daughter to the entrance also, then the daughter turns around and argues with her mom about how embarrassing it is and how she's gone up to the entrance by herself before, so while they argue, we just drive away. We get to the entrance and go inside. It looks like a hotel registration, there is a table with cards, I watch grandma pick one up and begin to fill it out with random numbers. Then sudden;y I'm by myself back in the wooded area, I don't remember the way we got here so I can't back track so I decide to go to the stadium and hopefully someone I know is there. I walk to the dead end and decide to take the trashed bike to ride it to the stadium, when I get to the hotel registration door I throw the bike to the side then enter the building. There is a small line at the card table, everybody in line gives me a dirty look, then I see in my peripherals a older woman and her teen daughter who entered after me trying to walk faster than me to get ahead of me in line, so I bust out into a run and beat them to it, and I know they're giving me dirty looks from behind so I turn around and get in their face and tell them "I don't give looks, I punch faces", then they look to the ground and act like nothing happened. Then I turn back forward and talk to the two girls in front of me I tell them hello and they say hello back, I can tell one is genuine while the other is fake. When it's our turn at the registration table, the two girls go to one end of the table and pick a card up to fill out, and I go to the other end and I place my cellphone one the table, as I do that I know the fake girl snags my cellphone so I tell her to give me it back, she acts like she doesn't know what I'm talking about, so I grab her cellphone that is sitting on the table and motion like I'm going to throw to the ground, then she panics and gives ion and hands me back my cellphone, but she has a stupid smug look on her face so I throw her cellphone at her face. I pick up one of the cards from the table and a pen, but I try to remember the numbers but I can't so I tell the person behind the table that my family has already filled one of these out and she enthusiastically say "oh well let me check the computer for them" while she does that my family appears and tells me to go with them. So we go and walk through another door, we have to choose our own room, I go into to on to the left, it's got 2 beds and ramones shirt laying every where, I tell them this is a good one, but they don't want it, they go to the room to the right, I tell them the one at the end is good and has 2 beds as well, but my uncle say we are getting this one in the front, but I can't believe it because it has only one bed and no wall for blocking off the lobby, just a small curtain, I tell him soon all the sports fans will be in line in the lobby and as I say that they come in and teenage boys keep peeking in to the curtain, and I tell my uncle "you see! they're already peeping toms", but my uncle say its fine they wont even though they already are. So I call him a dumb ass then walk to the lobby worker and ask him if there is a solution to this problem and he says yes, there is a pullout wall, I say thank goodness and walk back to the shitty room to tell them, then my uncle say's "see it works out", and I say "yeah no thanks to your dumb ass." Then suddenly we are at my grandmas house for dinner and we're still bickering and my damn sister in law just busts into it like it's any of her business so I leave the tools to argue amongst their selves with their idiotic points and go into the living room with my niece and we eat candy and the hard candies taste so horrible and bitter but the chewy candy tastes so sweet like watermelon.

My journey began at Pacific High School. It's the school I'm always dreaming about. I'm standing at the quad waiting for a few friends to showing up during the day. There was a lot of people walking around so I'm assuming school was out. I met up with a few friends a met from another school I'm taking right now. Well, I really just met Natalie. When she shows up, I was lucid. I was lucid before this, I just forgot where I was and what I was doing.

There were times when I just wanted people to die. That's when I used my powers to have them killed off easily. That's when I start to notice differences in how I can control my powers. I felt that the more I thought about killing someone, the harder it'll be or it may not happen. I tried not to think about it and look away and strangely, it worked. I raised my right hand and formed it in a shape of a pistol and killed almost everyone I saw. Even as me and Natalie were walking home, I was killing people.

I remember telling Natalie something. I told her that I had some kind of friendly love for her. She didn't show too much sympathy but when we reached the quieter part of the school, she showed some interest in walking very close next to me. I also saw a man walking in the direction we were walking in. At first, I thought he was going to kill us, but I walked in to a factory just half the mile from the school. I didn't take to much time there. That place was a ghost town. I'm not sure what was standing beyond the road, there was a big wall surrounding the area I was walking next to.

This is the part where I ditch Natalie and enter the factory. There's a few people I met in the factory, but nothing special happened. I only noticed a few women standing in front a set of clothing while some of them were nagging about it.

I also do remember another part. I was back at my house with the power of lucidity. I was standing in front yard with two other people on the ground, injured. I looked up at the sky and felt it was a perfect time to end the world off with a meteor. I paused and stared at the school for a few seconds and raised my right hand. I tried my best to destroy the world but it just wouldn't work. Again.

I don't remember much of last night. Again, I was distracted and not focused on dreaming lucidly, although I did ponder it as I fell asleep.

I had one of my out of body experience type things. Sometimes, while asleep, even though I am not dreaming I will instinctively "sit up" out of my body and begin an OBE.

I was not able to easily fully free myself from my body, this time - for whatever reason. But I WAS able to see - in the past, I've always been blind - although I wasn't able to fully open my eyes. I was quite aware that this was a form of dream, although I was unable to control its course. I stumbled around my dream-room, half-blind and unable to control my limbs very well at all or free myself from my blanket, which I felt like I was entangled in.

I realized that this wasn't working well and lay back down, attempting to visualize and possibly break out of the OBE into a regular lucid dream. I also attempted to do a scene change to sky, which didn't work. Unfortunately, I lost lucidity.

I know that this wasn't a misadventure with sleep paralysis because I've gotten very good at differentiating. When I woke up, my bed and bedroom were unmussed despite the fact that in my OBE/dream, I had completely wrecked my bedroom and knocked/thrown stuff everywhere. Unless I then cleaned them up in my sleep... lol.

I was woken up by my smoke alarm chirping. I had to get up and change the battery. While I did so, I tried to ponder the dreams I had, but I couldn't recall any of them. It was frustrating. My dream recall seriously hinges on how stressed and distracted I am.

Feel tired to write right now. I will make a short description of the day.


I woke up sometime in morning. I was on the computer.
Then I walked to the gym, worked out, and then walked to my gf.
Once at gf's place, I were on the computer. Then we also ate chicken, cucumber and some feta cheese. AND cashew nuts too.

Then we went with gf's mums friend to some guy who fixed my gfs mums car because it broke a few days ago. We drove to the part of the city where my dad lives, because my gf think of getting a dog that looks like a sheep almost.
The dog is 1 year old and named Gizmo or something like that. He barked a lot, seemed to be aggressive etc.
The people that were gonna lend us him (they give us him a year and we only need pay food, and then maybe we get the dog), was not able to have the dog anymore because the dog was jealous and pee'd on the kids stuffs etc, lol.
Well, my gf is unsure if she gonna get the dog, as it seemed so angry and wasn't very nice as it bit her hand too, with the whole mouth.

Well, then we went away from there and picked up my gfs mums sister who lives in Stockholm (capital of Sweden, like 900km south) but she have come up here to visit.
We went home to my gf.
My gf and her mums sister (whatever called), went away again, as they were going to make tattoos at some dude we know. My gf got a couple of tattoos she been doing the past half year, she was just gonna fill in some tattoo alittle while her mums sister were going to do some tattoo.

That's kinda everything in quite short details.
No idea if we will eat anything soon again. I ate 500g quark with funlight for an hour ago as I were hungry.

Friday 3/22/13

Bed 5am - 10:50am Watching Warehouse 13 marathon. Now, I'm ready for new season.

OK, last dream of my sleep was crappy. Stil feeling crappy from it.

DR: I was visiting friend of mine and her two kids. I know them very well. I thought I had permission to tell kids about what LDing is and how to achieve it. As I'm starting to explain, she tells me, all annoyed, I hope you not telling them mombo-jumbo crap. I'm like "no, just that they don't have to put up with bad dreams and stuff".

But I stopped explaining. Then we had some crappy pizza and I couldn't wait to get the heck out of there. Very ackward. We played with kids on the floor and I felt like everything I do or say is scrutinized and wrong.

I really wish I would stop dreaming with people from my past. That part of my life is over. I wish, I could get over it.

Not much today it seems.

I recall fight of some kind in outdoors place and there was some sort of puzzle indoors. I also recall something about experiments on dream recall or something.