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I was at a concert in a big room. The room was somewhat dark, with a blue-ish glow. Tony hawk comes out and people start cheering. He comes up to me and I give him a high five. This makes him really happy so he decides to give me a million dollars. My mom persuades him to give me 2 million instead.

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Later on, I got up at about 1:30. I laid down to try a WILD. I wanted to give up after about 20 minutes, but I persisted. Shortly after, I got the vibrations. But they went away quickly. My eyes even opened up during the process. Afterwards I just went back to bed regularly.

I was in school talking to some girls in my year/the year below me in a group, at break-time. We were talking about this girl "Aine" in my school and the girls were talking about how jealous they were about how nice her body was, I was telling the girl I like in the group (Hazel) that she has a better body honestly. They called Aine over and she started talking about how nice her body was which seemed normal in the dream-world last night, and then she was saying she wanted better legs but she was happy with her boobs, bit weird haha.

That's pretty much it.

Date: 5 May

Total sleep time: 3 hrs

Dreams: None remembered, although I am sure I was dreaming something when I had to wake up to prepare for travel

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Date: 6 May

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Impressions: While I was looking forward to the REM rebound, I actually got a lot of heavy sleep today and retrieving memories was rather hard. This is not the first time I have noticed this effect since I began keeping a more extensive DJ. That's why I decided to put some emphasis on it this time, heavy sleep deprivation actually led to more deep sleep and less memories. Anyways, it's good I got some decent sleep. Now, prepare for lucid!

Fragment1: A friend of ours who is pregnant irl, she may be expecting twins

Fragment2: A conversation about dreaming and lucidity, I vaguely remembered this after briefly waking up, thought things are getting better because I am thinking about lucidity

Fragment3: A good friend from school. I take my time to check out the way he looks, slighly different. There is some feeling at the back of my mind when I observe him, (he is a DS), but I am totally absorbed by the story. He tells me about a class get together they planned but one of the girls made a big scandal? I reply that I remember the event and also say that I have had a dream about the whole thing. I mention dreaming a few more times during the conversation. In the dream I also have the feeling my friend may have dreamt about something similar.

Date: 4 May

Total sleep time: 8 hrs, possible REM rebound

Recall method: memorized, later wrote down

Location: hotel

Dream1: Two girls that I don't like at all are back. One of them actually has lost a lot of weigh and looks quite fit, and doesn't look like herself at all. I become concerned that the other one will try to come home and convince my bf's brother that she likes him, so that he falls in love with her. I look for a place outside to give my bf a call and warn him about the situation. I do that, then get distracted by some rusty doors of a yard.

Fragment2: Another dream where one of those girls participated

Dream3: I am back to some place, most likely living with my parents. They have invited relatives over and I don't like that, so I decide to go out. Before I do that I engage in extensive TK, lifting all kinds of objects, including rolls of toilet paper. I notice that it is easier to lift some smaller lighter ones. I then look for the keys and find my way out.

As I go out, there are two aggressive dogs that notice me, one small that is trying to bite me and a bigger one. I go back into the house. The DC of a friend of mine is now here as well. I tell her about the situation, she is very confident that there is nothing to worry about and says she will accompany me. We go out, at the same time another woman from the same building comes out and calls the dog by some name. It now behaves very friendly, I want to know its name, but can't get to ask the woman. We reach some kind of subway and I see that most trains are cancelled or there is one every hour. I have also forgotten something, maybe the keys. My friends's DC is very helpful again, suggests that she will go back to get them, I just have to wait for her. I tell her that there is no sense of going out so late, because it will be hard to get on the train if there are many people and it comes only once every hour. She is calm and replies that we will walk back home, no worries about that. She goes to get the keys or whatever and is soon back.

We go out, looking for a place to eat or drink. This guy attaches to us, he works in one of the nearby restaurants and knows the area rather well. He is flirting with my friend, but I know she has a bf, anyways, that's her business.

I am sitting on a table with some guys that I think I know. I see huge cups of raspberries passing on some kind of conveyer in the air. There are also cakes. I see another guy that I know, and he is celebrating his birthday or something, with one of the big cakes, but nobody is paying much attention to him, because they don't like him.

Comments: My friend's DC was very helpful this time. I should really learn to get my DCs to help me more often.

Had a dream early in the night that was kind of scary. It involved traveling on a river in Vietnam. There was gunfire and abductions.


I was at a music festival where the Disco Biscuits were supposed to play. A lot of my high school friends were there and I was happy about this. I had a large back pack on that I wanted to put down. There was a table with chairs toward the edge of the room and I put it down near a chair. My friends wanted to set the table up right by the stage though which unnerved me because it would get in the way of everybody else. The band started playing but they were very quiet and didn't sound like the Disco Biscuits. Me and my friends laughed together a bit, then we dispersed. I walked past some girl and got stuck under a rope barrier and said some high stuff that made everyone laugh. We got to this one area. My acquaintance JeSm was laying down. He was on some pills and he just wanted to zone out. I thought it was weird that he wanted to do that at a concert. He seemed very relaxed though and I was thinking that I could never do such drugs because I'd be too afraid of dying. SS was talking to some people. Me and MC started walking around the festival lawn area to mingle with the crowd. We saw some girls that were kind of cute. We started talking to them. One of them was an ex wife of my friend BA. She was critical of him as a womanizer and I felt guilt by association. Nevertheless, I continued to flirt with them. I said, "Yea, I know that BA is a jerk, but you know what? I'm a jerk too." MC was astonished that I would say something like that to a girl who I was trying to attract because it supposedly would make me look bad. I tapped the girls stomach and said, "So why don't you give me your number?" She started giving it to me. I looked over at MC and said, "See, it works." Then I tapped her again and said that I had a girlfriend too. This was going too far. She then refused to give me her number and I left but as I was walking away, it was revealed that I had her number anyway.

o over the past few days I've been having a mixture of nightmares and, 'troubled' dreams. Here's just a brief record of a few so I can remember them.

1 - I have children. One of them's about 15. He gets murdered and it hurts so badly. Then my boyfriend (husband at this time) dies and I'm left heartbroken with two kids.

2 - My dad goes out to Afghanistan. My mum has a really bad car accident and ends up in a coma, I hear on the radio my dad's dead, told his parents instead of my mum. My mum dies. I have to leave our house because it's renting from the military. I'm homeless before exams.

3 - I wake up being burnt really badly. My entire right side of my face is beyond repair, lots of scars and skin grafts, most of my body is burnt. Loose all confidence. Get persuaded out one day and I make a child cry. I wake up properly after killing myself.

4 - My boyfriend gets burnt badly. He draws into himself but goes about his daily life. I'm supposed to be going somewhere with him and I get on the bus and only when it drives off do I realize he's not with me. I get off and run back to his. Talk to him, persaude him out. We argue, I leave in a hurry, forget something and when I return find him saying I'm not worth the effort. We break up. I run away and don't ever see him again.

Few others I can't remember at the moment.

I was exploring a cave with my friends, well they were my friends in my dream though I don't know any of them in real life. It was a cave in the mountains and we were finishing up looking for an exit. As we were going along, a polar bear came from a side tunnel towards us. I kept going forward to get away but none of my friends followed me, it seems they went back a little down the path we just came instead. After I had lured the bear off with me, my friends were able to escape up the side tunnel where the bear came and get outside the cave. I manage to elude close contact with the bear, and I'm almost able to go outside too, but the sheer dropoff is preventing me from exiting quickly.

My friends are around the exit where I'm trying to get out and I can hear them call to me. They are giving me encouragement and advice how to get out. At this point I'm holding the rock face on a steep slope to the dropoff. The bear notices that it can get closer to me if it circles around by going back down the tunnel and coming outside. So I go back inside. The polar bear is on the left side ledge which is higher that me, swiping downwards in my direction. I get lower and there is this pool of water there, so I get halfway into it. My friends start telling me, "hey notice those stones, they seem to be holding the water in. If you can move them out of the way the water will rush out and you can escape." I'm yelling back while counting "the stones seem to be stacked in a wall four to six stones wide. I don't know if it is doable." I get fully down in the water and give a push. The rock wall gives a bit under my force. I yell out "I'm doing this!" then give a mighty shove. The rocks go forth out the side of the mountain with the water and tumble down the mountain. I manage to stay put though.

With the water gone, I'm able to exit again, but there is still this dropoff there so I need to take care and go slow. The bear is above me again, growling and pawing about. I try to ignore it and just focus on what I'm doing. Suddenly the bear loses it footing when it tries to get too close to me and falls down the slope, flies over my head, then continues to fall down the cliff bouncing along the rocks as it does so. It looks like a horrible way to go, but at least I'm safe now and join my friends.

Although I really didn't go lucid in the dream, I do know I made a conscious decision by using what seemed to be super strength in pushing the rock wall apart. My DC friends were only suggesting that I move the rocks one by one. That process would have taken forever.

The night prior, I had a dream about superheroes. And then there was a tall skyscraper, and I put some of the windows out with my mind from a distance. Then I was caught in a huge wave, that was rocking me back and forth with each surge, but even though I was immersed in it I did not drown. There was a really old guy who was supposed to be a villain.

Last night I dreamed I was on IRC, only IRC was set up more like an image board. Anyway, I found a channel I liked that was full of a bunch of other gamers and role players. There was a kid on there obsessed with Yu Gi Oh to a really annoying degree who kept challenging me to fake "fights", and then cheating terribly. I commented that he was taking an awful lot of Free Actions (for some reason we were playing by 3.5 Edition Dungeons & Dragons rules) and then beat him up with a pair of giant stuffed foam thumbs. A toy he was using as a prop to fight with exploded into a bunch of glass beads, and then he turned into a kitten. I felt bad about wrecking his toy and being so mean to a little kid/kitten, so I picked up the toy (it looked like a doll head, only made out of beads) and began trying to repair it.

It seems I'm with a group of students at some type of specialized school. The class is held outdoors where a teacher tells them to move forward and use their bird control powers. I'm there with the group so I follow. Suddenly a group of owls appears and they are just hovering over a single spot in a field not too far away. The students focus on calling to one of the owls and they try different gestures and poses. Only 15 seconds later, all but one owl has flown to one of the students and has landed on him or her. There was only this one guy to my left who didn't get an owl to come yet. Since he was taking so long, the solitary owl got distracted by a group of sparrows and went after one. The owl caught the sparrow and went to land in a tree.

Soon, an eagle joined the fray. It swooped in suddenly from above, trapping both the owl and the group of sparrows in the trees. It wanted to get its claws on anything it could eat. All the while my DCs were narrating for me what was going on by talking to one another and making comments. Some like "I hope the owl is alright", or "Oh look it is going after that group of sparrows". Now everyone was trying to make the eagle go away by yelling at it. The eagle flew up, but then came back down closer to us. It seemed to not look so much like an eagle now, but a deformed dog with huge wings. It was really ugly to look at, and then another one showed up. The pair seemed to harass the group for a few minutes, landing and stomping about near us, then flying overhead again.

The eagle-dog creatures had large muscular back legs, and really short stubby front legs. They only squatted on their hindquarters when landing on the ground, with their front legs looking like mini-arms. It is sort of how a T-Rex would look, but with a dog. Finally these things flew off for good. The owl came out of the trees and the guy summoned him this time much easier.

Every night it differs between two scenes...
I need to get control of these or i'll go insane.
1st Dream Journal Entry but ive been having these dreams since i was a child....
Hidden message i cant decode without gaining control...
so here we go....wish me luck...

Dream 1:
I ''wake'' up outside of my fathers old house a large thatch roof house... im in the garden..
There are soldiers everywhere they're searching for something..
I have no control of my movements or actions...
My feelings are fear... All of a sudden i am noticed by some soldiers who start to chase me wielding shortswords.
I run with all my might but i am small in my dream and one step to me is five steps for my chasers.
i see a fence that can be scaled and head towards it my heart is pounding i am afraid in my arms im holding a teddy bear of sorts and hugging it closely well i run..tears are streaming down my eyes....
i start to scale the fence and peak to the top..
My hope rises and as i reach the other side...
There are countless soldiers surrounding me...(out of the pan into the fire)
One walks up to me with a smile on his face...he says everything will be alright...
he takes my teddy bear away from me gently...
and then proceeds to force the shortsword deep into my stomach piercing through my clothes and sliding it in as if it were nothing..
i go cold...it is such an odd sensation...not pain but uncomfortable....as he lays me onto the ground i start to black out blood running out the side of my mouth...
he places the teddy into my arms and they walk away calmly...
as i slowly fade into darkness i wake up into reality from this dream..
//notes//
My stomach feels uncomfortable after this dream...i am short of breathe and sweating as if i was running...and my nose almost always is bleeding....
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So yea i guess this is my first dream journal entry...comment if thats possible insight would help...i need to learn to become lucid...if i can just escape there or change my path in the dream....or something...i'll post the second dream shortly..i know this was a long one and i apologize just needed to get it out...i just recently joined this site...hoping for positive feedback...maybe even somebody who can relate to this and help me..
Have a Great Day Everyone

Regards
The Bear

I dreamed that I found a stash of drugs and used them all. Shortly after, my vision got a weirdly zoomed focus as I was staring at my own face in a mirror which was a complete abomination. My mouth was gigantic and deformed, my eyes dull, dark and insane. Leeches crawled out of my lips and gums, leaving a stinging pain and gory holes emitting short streams of blood. I went to sit by my computer desk, but it was literally covered in dead flies. Covered as in I couldn't see the desk.

Dream recall from today's naps. DILD and WILD.

Dream 1(fragment):

I wake up, sit on the bed and think about something for a while, then i realize that i forgot to do an reality check and as i take off headphones i can still hear binaural beats, so i am dreaming, but dream fades out shortly and i wake up.
I keep eyes closed and try to DEILD(but it takes some time to fall back asleep so i count this as WILD)
Dream 2:
I am still in the bed, but i feel something different. I try to open eyes but i can't see anything, i can move though and i take off headphones while still hearing binaural beats. Shortly i feel something move through the room, and shortly this something jumps onto me and i hear a growl of some kind. Then i wake up.

Note: Way to go after going through (almost)daily 'SP' threads, still an interesting experience though, i wish i could see what that creature was.

I was playing some weird western-styled game in coop with someone, we were going through some town and sniping some enemies, eventually we have found enemy leader and killed him as well.
Later in dream there was scene where i was going to school apparently and then hiding from someone and there was a bunch of AI War building icons floating around. Later i was trapped in the bathroom which had two doors.

There is kind of erotica in this one (Nothing actual, just talk of it), I guess that's why it was so vivid and exciting and I could remember quite a bit.. I didn't see any ruling against erotica in the DJ, but if there is please take this down, I have no intention of going over the rules.

I remember sitting in a room (in retrospect it was very similar to a classroom in which I study often, one that looks like a bomb shelter, with blue chairs with tables connected to them, and I think there was a board behind me) with 100 girls (The number came up in the conversation, I don't remember any of them except two girls with whom I have little to no contact with IRL, and one of them I find not attracting in the least), and my sister. The idea came up that they would all give my a blow job (NOT including my sister)... they agreed, I agreed, we moved on.
A small scene I remember was that one of the girls I knew came to me, and asked me if I was in 3 units math (Lowest level of math you can do to get a high school diploma), I said "God no", she said "I can't do this then" and walked away. I remember my heart beating like crazy (And, well... another organ about the same...).

I remember driving in what I think was some black jeep. Sky was blue, I was sitting in the left seat in the back, staring out the window. next thing I remember is reaching some building (I don't remember leaving the car), a ~10 meter tall meeting with glass walls, inside there were many round tables with tablecloths on them and a bar, not sure if there was an event inside, there were definitely people. The tables, the floor and the bar were white. I entered the building, and I remember meeting a kid there, one with whom, again, I have extremely little contact. He asked me where a friend of mine was (A close one), I pointed out of the window and there he was.

We skip to me and my sister walking down the street, in parallel to the entrance to the last building. She gave me sexual advice, I couldn't remember any of it. The street was full of people, yet I didn't feel slightly embarrassed by the conversation (I guess it didn't come to my mind, even though I'm very uncomfortable about these topics IRL).
The last thing I remember was arriving to a building that also had glass walls, but also had beige walls from the inside. I never entered it, but I think I might have seen a girl inside.

Few Notes:
-Started DJ a night before this one, but I was empty of dreams.

-Last dream I remember (Not recorded though, it's been a week ago or so) was also an erotic dream with quite a bit erotic action in it.

-I figure this might have some significance, I'm a virgin. Never had a GF before.

-I wasn't very aware at the time, but IIRC I remembered way more about the dream (The sexual advice, the conversation at the start, possibly the girl inside the last building), back when I was at bed, but I thought those were just thoughts, not dream memories so I didn't write down at the time (Even though this has happened before, I didn't think it would work on me again.. I better prepare a few mantras about this for tonight). Only a while later I realized my daydreams are in third person, and this was definitely a first person memory.

-In my personal DJ I have all the names I know written, it just seems irrelevant here.

-My relationship with my older sister is far from a comfortable and sharing one, it can get to the point that I hate her guts. And even though she's a pervert (and experienced I guess...), and I would never take advice from her nor share anything like this with her (I wouldn't share it with anyone).

-I can only assume the part with the jeep was still part of the dream based on the sky, intuition, and possibly that's how I chronologically remembered it.

-I might have written fairly irrelevant info, but since I can recall 0-0.5 dreams a night.. I write EVERYTHING down.

That's all I got, this dream was non-lucid, of course, and it's the first dream I record with a DJ.

Last night was my first LD. I was only lucid for a short period of time but it felt good to finally be lucid.

I was in an unfamiliar kitchen with my parents and many of their friends sitting near a counter. I was drinking wine and chatting with the guests when I looked down at my hands and saw how abnormal they looked. They were swollen and my fingers looked like cones with fat basses and skinny tips. I instantly knew i was dreaming and naturally became very excited. I stood up and ignored everyone talking to me, simply laughing at the fact that they were all fake. I walked out of the kitchen and found myself in the sideyard of this unfamiliar house.

There was a door further down and felt compelled to walk through it. I did so and lost all control of myself in the dream but the experience was still quite interesting. This door was a portal to the house i grew up in which is thousands of miles from where i currently live. I had not seen the house for many years and it was doing so felt very refreshing.

I found myself in my bathroom and walked into my old room. I wasn't making these decisions myself, I simply went with the flow (semi-lucid). All of the furniture was there just as it was when I was boy but a new family lived in the house, they did not seem to notice my presence. I walked through the house and saw clearly the old cabinet I used to sneak alcohol from. I continued my tour of the house and saw bottles of wine everywhere from the current family. Eventually I returned to the bathroom where I had entered the house and found that the portal was gone and I couldn't go back, but felt little urge to even do so. This is where I woke up.

While I was lucid I did not feel the desire to try to fly into the air or surf a giant wave as I though I would, and did not go to my childhood home on purpose. However, one of my goals of lucid dreaming is to go back to the places I grew up so I guess my subconscious took me there. I do not know why there was so much alcohol in this dream; I have never been much of a drinker. All in all, I am happy that I was lucid however brief the lucidity may have been.