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Last night was a very intense dream. I forgot to mention the dream that I had on the last day of May, it was of my great-aunt who just got out of the hospital for a heart attack, asking me things. It was like she was tying up loose ends. The second dream that night was of a man I know who I liked a lot for a while, and he's about to graduate college. We hung out, talked, and he gave me a letter saying when he graduates he's going to live by the ocean, and that I can visit him. When I read it, it was being read in his voice, I couldn't actually read the words. He was very sweet, his voice is so gentle and beautiful. We talk sometimes, but I haven't been talking to him lately. I think I'll tell him hello today.

My dream last night was about my great-aunt, and that I was getting updates through my email about her, and I got one at 2-something AM that said she had passed away. I told my family, and wasn't hysterical or anything, and I just felt at peace about all of it, knowing she's alright now. I figure this either happened last night or I'm preparing myself for when it does. (edit: she's okay, we talked to her today)

The most intense part of the dream, was when I was in my current house in my bedroom. Something kept trying to get in, and I kept saying Christian prayers to keep it out. It would get the door open slightly, and it was a miasma of dark blue/purple and it gave off intensely bad energy. I'm not Christian, and don't believe any of it, but I felt that I had somehow attracted it because of my beliefs. I think it could do this, make you question yourself, throw off terrible energy, trying to find your weaknesses, mess with your mind. I had people there helping me, I think they were friends of mine... and it eventually went away. But we could see it through this small screen near the end, and it was like a blue screen with lots of picture noise. It was a bald person with a face you wouldn't really remember, and it kept trying to turn into people I knew. it was very strange. But something was off with every person it tried to appear as, so we knew it was just messing with our emotions. (edit: I didn't have time to add this earlier, but I've had other dreams of bald people chasing me and trying to harm me, also people you wouldn't really remember their face, just nondescript guys. They're always slender, Caucasian adult men, usually in a black dress suit. I can remember three dreams of them: One, I was outside at night at my old house, and he was chasing me, about to stab me. I got inside in time & he couldn't enter, they never can but they try. Another time, a few of them were trying to force themselves inside the front door, and my friend T, who I'm not close to at all, was helping me press our bodies against the door to keep them out. The third time I was exploring some strange underground basement, and they were EVERYWHERE, almost guarding the place. One saw me, and he sure was fast. This one had on black sunglasses. I got away like I always do...)

Eventually, the sun rose, and so I went outside and met up with some friends of mine I haven't seen in a while. It was nice, we were lying on the pavement and hanging out outside my old elementary school. I wanted to go into the back hallways and get something from the snack machines, but it was scary and dark, and felt wrong. Nobody would come with me for some reason, so I forgot about it, my friend was about to go downtown to do some clerical work (?) and invited me to go, so we started to head that way and then I woke up.

Although this wasn't the right location, I did at least successfully find/conjure/whatever NewArtemis. Forgot all about swapping gestures and keywords, but it's all good... dry spell broken!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #99: Walking the Path

I'm walking a beautiful nature trail. I sense that this is a place of peace and sanctuary outside of a hospital. I remind myself that I need to be sure that I'm not dreaming and I quickly realize that this is a dream.

I hear two female voices from the trail up ahead and somehow I know that this is NewArtemis and her cousin. (No clue whether she even has a cousin IWL.) Art's cousin appears first, with Art trailing maybe 15 feet behind. "Come on!" calls Cousin. "You were right! It worked!"

Cousin walks right past me, saying, "Hey! I'm [NewArtemis]'s cousin. She was so nervous this wouldn't work. She's been spinning her ring nonstop. That's what she does when she's nervous." With that, Cousin disappears from the scene, never to return.

"Hey, [NewArtemis]!" I say, giving her a hug. "Good to finally see you!" ("Finally see you" is a little weird since I've encountered Art's DC a bunch of times -- was I implying this was "the real her" for the first time? Or just flapping my gums?)

"Did you just break your dry spell, CL?"

"I did!" We continue walking in the direction Art and Cousin were going, which has me doubling back toward wherever I came from. "Dude, I'm trying so hard to remember what I was supposed to do when we met up. I remember parasailing but I don't think that's right."

She rubs her forehead or kind of scratches her head. "I don't remember anything either. Definitely not that we're supposed to go parasailing." (Art called this one right -- the parasailing thing was Task of the Month, not anything we'd talked about.)

I hear road noise from nearby and I make some kind of comment about wondering where it's coming from. The scene shifts to where we're walking through the corridor of a hospital. I remember something I wanted to ask. "Hey, is it true what your cousin said? That you spin your ring when you're nervous?"

She shakes her head. "No, that's total bullshit. My ring is kind of loose in the winter though." On the nature trail it felt like spring to me, and I'm able to remember that IWL it's summer.

Art holds up her hands to demonstrate and I see that she's wearing rings on four or five of her fingers. Then she kind of wiggles her hands and now she has even more rings, including a thumb ring. She does this ring reconfiguration trick a few more times and I think it looks super cool. I wonder whether she's got the right number of fingers but she's moving around too much for me to count.

We come to a T-junction where another hall comes from the left to meet the one that we're walking. I see my two boys E and R running off down the hall to make mischief. Art asks why we wound up here of all places rather than the Alamo. I say that I don't know. The dream ends.

Dream recall from today's naps. Today is the false awakening day, and also glitch day.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some video game and there was location in forest.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in some dark city place.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at different room at home, i was doing some things and then went to sleep. Family was distracting me and i couldn't fall asleep, everyone was moving furniture around and bed was becoming smaller and smaller. Then i went to different room and was doing some other stuff. Then back in bedroom furniture placement was again messed up. I finally went to bed and for some reason i was hoping to meet Chandelier again. And so it happened, there was loud noise for a few seconds, then it repeated again, and again this time with image getting through, and again and then it was here. I was surprised that it worked but then...
I wake up in another room, my hands are weird so i am dreaming, but before i can get up, my vision freezes and desyncs from everything else i feel, i am confused.
Wake up again, the lights are on, but aren't on, like some kind of lighting glitch? I get up and...
Then there are like four more short false awakenings with similar glitches, variations and furniture changes, after that i wake up properly.

To cut a long story short I have been trying WILDs lately. I can see it will be useful to learn and that I have an idea of how to do it, as I would like to get more routine LDs and practice more.

Today I did get quite far. I started with counting breaths to 300, then went into a mantra meditation known as John Main meditation. I got to a point where I was getting moving images. Didn't quite make it to sleep paralysis and then decided to go to sleep normally. I dreamt one of my sisters gave me a surprise visit in my flat. After waking up I was thinking about asking her by text if it really happened or was it a figment of my imagination, then I lay down on my other side. I could hear a ringing in my ears and let it get stronger - it sounded like motorbike humming. Next thing I had some moving imagery of a motorbike and it going out of control. Next thing I was in a dream, but didn't realise it (my penis was in front of me, but in 2D and flat). Had I realised it would have been actually a DILD, induced because of the WILD process. Early days, but I can see this progressing with practice.

In this dream I was part of a huge project creating documentation for the military. My two bosses was the same as in real life, but I had many coworkers whom I had never met before. There were a number of coworkers on this project who were graduate students from a reasearch university, and even in the dream they were new coworkers to me. What was interesting was that in this dream I was significantly younger than in real life - in fact I was younger than these graduate students, and pretty shy around them, trying to impress. However, I was still a major player in the project, often acting as my boss's representative, which was inconsistent with my dream age, more consistent with my actual level of seniority where I will informally at times act that way with my boss's blessing on less important conference calls and such.

So we were building huge amounts of documentation for the military. (This reminds me of my recent other dreams of creating huge amounts of documents on a large ship. The military part of this dream is probably due to my having interpreted someone else's dream about military last evening before going to bed.) I remember this dream as being long, but now I only remember some significant parts. In one of them we are having an informal meeting in what looked like a dorm room: the graduate students, my Italian American boss who is the less influential of my two bosses - more of a project manager) and myself, and one of the graduate students was saying, "we have all this documentation planned, but what about the shopper's guide? We usually do a shoppers guide for this type of project." Me: "I cannot say. You should really ask our government lead, he is the boss, and he is paying you for this project, so you should ask him whether to do this document." Grad student (this one seemed to be like a leader of the bunch, and in a previous scene he and I had been thrown together, and I was now a bit less shy around him - he was cute.): "Yes, but what do you think? Would you like us to make a shoppers guide? Would you think it useful?" Me: "I think a shoppers guide could be useful. However, I don't make the decisions and I am not the one who pays you, so my opinion is not what you should be seeking." My Italian American boss/team lead: "What she is saying is that she does not have the cojones."

In a later scene I realized that a document that my government lead asked me to prepare was actually a version of the shoppers guide. So I went to tell the grad students, and I also said "When dealing with the military, proper terminology is important. This is not the shoppers guide. This is called the acquisitions plan."

I also remember some scene that seemed to be part of the same dream where I was out in a parking lot. It was raining, and I had to retrieve something from a locker in the parking lot.

I have the sense that there was much more to this dream. I think the scene with my government lead telling me to work on the acquisitions plan was an actual dream scene, not just a memory, for example. Also the scene of being thrown together in some task with the graduate student, which made me less shy around him. I also remember walking down a hallway side by side with the grad student.

Analysis: I think I am dreaming dreams of creating huge amounts of documentation because I am having a sense of not being creative enough in my work and just creating documents but not actually creating something. I am thinking as a solution I should start making bread or crocheting at home again to get an outlet which produces more tangible non written results.

06/01/13

Templars in the Shadows
I am in a strange place. I look around to see where I am. I don't recognize the place. I leave the small room I find myself in to find I am in a large gathering hall. There are quite a few people there. All of them are Assassins. I see a reflection and I realize I am also dressed as an Assassin, so I fit right in. I wonder why I might be there. I start to wander among the Assassins to see if I can find out. I finally spot a familiar face. Ezio is off to my right talking to an Assassin I don't recognize.

I keep looking around and I spot an Assassin that looks off somehow. I get closer to him and I see he seems to be surrounded by an aura of dark energy. That's not normal for an Assassin. I get closer to the strange Assassin. I catch a glimpse of his eyes. They are solid black. That is definitely wrong. He pays no attention to me. He seems to be focused on Ezio. He moves silently up behind Ezio. No one seems to be taking notice of him. Apparently no one else can see the dark energy. He is standing right behind Ezio now. He is about to stab Ezio with his hidden blade but I get him first. The dark energy Assassin collapses, dead. Someone calls to Ezio to look out and someone grabs me from behind. Apparently they think I'm the attacker here... Ezio turns around and looks at me. The other Assassins are telling Ezio I was trying to kill him. Ezio just looks puzzled. He says no, that's Raven, there must be some other explanation. One of the other Assassins points at the dead Assassin and says I just killed him. As if on cue, the dead Assassin changes into smoke and disappears. Assassins are all staring. I hear people muttering, asking what that was. Ezio wants to know what that was. I tell him it was a shadow Templar in disguise. He had been about to stab Ezio in the back. Ezio says that doesn't make sense, either. Ezio says he just recruited that guy, and when he checked him out he was definitely not a Templar. I wonder if maybe the dark energy can somehow fool Ezio's eagle vision. Since he's not used to seeing it. I wonder how to test that theory. I would have to find another disguised shadow Templar. But where would I find one? I look around the room. There are quite a few Assassins, but none of them look out of place. No sign of dark... wait... I spot someone in the corner with a dark energy aura. A female Assassin who is trying to blend with the rest of the group.

I get closer to Ezio. A couple other Assassins don't seem to want me too close to Ezio, they block my way. Ezio comes over closer to me. I point over to where the shadow Templar is and ask Ezio if he sees anything out of place over there. The shadow Templar is with a group of four Assassins. Ezio looks over there and says he only sees a group of five Assassins. Another Assassin tells Ezio not to trust me, what happened to the dead Assassin is just proof of my evil tricks. Ezio doesn't pay any attention to him. He asks me what he should be looking for. I tell him dark energy, one of them is a shadow Templar in disguise. And it's a good disguise. Ezio looks over there for a bit longer. An Assassin pulls me away from Ezio and tells him that the traitor is right here, I am clearly the Templar here. Ezio says no, he is sure I'm no Templar. The other Assassin starts to object again but it is clear Ezio isn't paying any attention to him. Ezio just looks at him until he lets go of my arm and backs off looking frustrated. Ezio turns his attention back to the group of Assassins I pointed out. The question is how to get Ezio to see dark energy. I am focused on that goal when I think of the song Unforgiven II by Metallica. I take this key and I bury it in you... the key to seeing dark energy. Ezio finally says he does see something. The woman, second from the right, has a dark aura... but why didn't he see that sooner? I tell him it can take time to see dark energy when you're not used to it. He starts to go over to the shadow Templar. I tell him to wait, now that he sees them he needs the energy that can destroy them. In a pocket of my robes I find a Witchblade with a light energy crystal which I give to Ezio. He puts it on and then goes over to the small group of five Assassins and I follow him. He directly addresses the shadow Templar. The shadow Templar tries to act casually but looks a bit worried. She points at me and says she can't believe someone she thought was an Assassin had turned traitor like that. Ezio says I am no traitor... and he can see what she is. She backs away a step but then laughs. She gives up all pretense of being an Assassin. She says there is no way the Assassins can win with the power she and the Templars have now. She tries to attack Ezio but he is too fast and stabs her with his hidden blade. She laughs and says she can't be killed. Then the gem in the Witchblade activates and charges the blade with light energy. The shadow Templar stops laughing and says that is impossible just before she collapses and disappears in a puff of smoke. Ezio looks over at me and asks if I see any more. I look around and I don't. I tell Ezio that, and add that now that he has seen one he should be able to see them a lot more easily. He asks where these Templars are coming from. I tell him I can answer his questions but not now, I am about to wake up. He looks at me strangely then I wake.

It sure is frustrating when you wake up and know you had a very involved dream with lots of action but then it slips away and you can only recall a fragment. I try desperately to hold onto the memory when I wake but it still slips away.

Last night I dreamt that I was helping our lecturer grade papers from a test we had written (that I had written myself). That was odd. Had a had a bit more awareness maybe I would have realised that was odd.

I was in a library with my cousin and a guy from the building where I used to live. We all kinda grew up together, although I kinda of drifted apart when I was about 13 or 14 (I'm 22 now and I've known the people in the building since I was around 8) while my cousin remained really close friends with all of them.

Anyway, I remember trying to look at the guy, but I couldn't see him clearly because I was not wearing my glasses. It looked like he was pointing something at me, so I jumped to the floor... right before he fired a gun at me. My cousin (who's really tall and pretty strong - the guy is also tall, but not strong - I'm a hobbit) tackled the guy, got up and he had this kind of stake on his hand, but it was bigger than a stake. Anyway, he hit the guy with it and then he sunk the stake on the floor, but also the guy's t-shirt, so that'd be stuck there.

I told my cousin that it'd have been better to have stabbed the dude than his t-shirt, but my cousin looked super sad about having to beat the guy. Then, he told me that the guy was on drugs and that he even had put cocaine on his eyes. I told him he'd get blind because of that, my cousin got even sadder, so I told him that I didn't mean that.

The guy was still moving, so we decided to run. There were many stairs and I always jump down stairs in my dreams... so that's what I did. When I got to the last floor, it was a lobby and there was a bit of a line to get out through the revolving door. I saw a character from One Tree Hill sitting on the floor (I had a OTH marathon very recently), so I joined him. We were friends in my dream, so we left the building together.

He took me to this dining place, it was really cheap, but I think there was tasty food. I remember being happy with what we got. Then, we went to the mall and there were two more people with us. As we were walking, I made a wrong turn and ended up at a blank wall where I thought there was a corridor. I thought "oh, I always do this at this mall, damn!" I often have dreams where I'm at a mall, so maybe I'd been there before? I don't remember, but it's possible.

The four of us were walking around, having fun and laughing, then suddenly, the mall changed. It was still the same mall, but the stores had changed places and the corridors had also moved. I looked back to my friends and there was only one person there, he seemed confused too.

I looked around, looked back at him and said "This is a dream. But there's something wrong with it. Something is corrupting the dream." This friend of mine (I don't know him in real life and, from what I can remember of his face, which is very little, I think that he looked like me) was still freaking out, he wanted to know what was going on. He believed me that it was a dream, but he wanted to know why it had changed so abruptly.

Then, this other person showed up, I think it was a girl, but can't be sure... and I also think that she looked like me. She pointed at this wall where there was a curtain, she opened the curtain and there was a huge tv screen on the wall. I couldn't see clearly what was there, but it was paused and the screen was blue. There was stuff written there, but I couldn't read it, I was too far from it. Anyway, this girl said "There. You have to watch this. The dream changed because he wanted to give you this message." and then I woke up.

It was VERY creepy and I woke up with my heart beating super fast.

I was at my mum's house.

Mum, sister, grandparents and aunt were there.

It was night.

I was burning things in my room.

For some reason, there was a giant chemical equation in my room, and it was actually a physical thing.

I brought it downstairs and showed every one but they said that I shouldn't burn it because it would cause
an explosion or something.

I then took it outside to the garden and went back inside.
A while after that I heard an explosion and it turned out that one of the letters (that were in circles) had exploded.

I then walked into a town near the village I live in, but instead, it had a LOT more shops, and the hill where the shops
are were steeper.
I walked to the bottom of the street and found there were loads of theme park rides and water slides etc.
I didn't go on them yet and instead walked up the street.
I walked down again, and heard someone say that you should buy something from the music shop because he's running out
of money or having a child or something, and outside was a girl from my school (although I'm not in school anymore),
which I immediately knew was the daughter of the music shop owner.

I then decided to go on the rides, although, one of them had shut down and there was a pile of rubble in the entrance
blocking anyone from getting through, there was also police tape in front of it, but instead, it was yellow.

I then went (I think) on a water slide. The slide was huge, and REALLY tall. At the end of the slide, the nice
50-ish year old coronation street type woman told me that I would want to buy protection, and bat, or a stick, or something
at the stall/market/shop at the end of the slide, but that was pointless because you couldn't reach it till' you had
finished the ride. I then saw a girl and her father beside me on the slide, the dad was carrying a black baseball bat
looking foam thing. As we got closer to the bottom, I could see big pictures of a hippo, a crocodile and giraffe, each
picture had people in foam coloured suits trying to stop us reaching the bottom, in between the slop of the slide
and the flat bit of the end was water, so I had jump over. After doing this, the dad hit and made the people in the middle
crocodile picture disappeared so they could run through. When I tried to run through, I got about 3/4 of the way through
until the people in the hippo picture grabbed me and I flashed back to the entrances of the ride.

Well, last night was a bit dissappointing. I had finally started into deep sleep around midnight I believe, when out of no where my dad
came upstairs and flipped my lights on. I guess he was checking I wasn't doing any late night programming but come on! Anyways, it
got me all out of rythm so last night I can't recall anything.

However on a positive note, today I was watching some youtube and low and behold, an ad came up that was actually useful! It
took me to a place that deals with binaural beats, and they have a product called EquiSynch. The beats that I use I simply ripped
from youtube and di myself, but according to this Equisynch these ones have been professionally developed into individual sessions
that you can use. I downloaded the free demo (which I plan on keeping btw) and if it goes well I will most likely end up purchasing the
entire thing. I'm not sure yet what all the different sessions do, but I am very excited to get started with this demo.

Also, I don't know if I had mentioned this, but I acquired a pair of Sleep Phones during the school year. They are really great and I use them every
night. I am super pumped to try out Equisynch with my Sleep Phones! I'll keep updating on how it goes, and if it helps me get back in the swing of
things.

See ya

This is another dream that took place in pretty cool surroundings. It was a type of canyon sort of mountain, but not completely like dessert, it was green in some places. At first, I thought that it was just a small ridge sort of thing so I attempted to climb it, but when I looked up the mountain I could see it was pretty damn high. I had already climbed up a pretty good distance and now I couldn't get back down, so I began to sort of panic. I panicked for a bit and then thought " maybe I could open my eyes and this is a dream ". I think this could have actually led into having a lucid dream, but I still wasn't completely sure I was so I wasn't lucid. By the time I figured out I was having a dream I was in bed with my eyes open.

However, I accidentally skipped a bit. Before the part with climbing up the mountain happened, I remember I was traveling on some trails under it. While I was doing this apparently Mr. Tom Cruise thought this was the time to drop by and came and smiled and passed some conversation with me. I somehow took some pictures of him on my phone, I don't remember if I asked him to or just somehow did it secretly. He left, and then I remember that the next day I think in what was school I tried to show one of my friends pictures that I took of him to prove that I had seen him but I couldn't find them, checking on both phones. But I knew that I actually did see Tom Cruise.

Anyways, this was another dream that took place in really cool surroundings. I plan to flesh out and describe the locations I have seen so that I might be able to visit them in later lucid dreams, and who knows, maybe Tom Cruise might be hanging around there again. What a damn fabulous bastard.

After leaving the cage i realize that i have traveled through time, i see two men both in their 30s, and i notice that one of them is one of my professors at the University but younger, I ask them what year is it and they respond 1986 , i am at the entrance to a mansion but not the front door ... seemed a balcony and i came through the window. They hesitate but finally let me in, we walk silently through the corridors because the mansion belongs to an old lady who can not see me.
They tell me to go down a staircase alone, i do it and after that i am in a transitional floor where i stand on a platform in front of me and are stairs that lead to the lower floor.
I notice that the lady of the manor is downstairs and she noticed my presence so she comes up the stairs ... I panic and try to hide myself in a lot of toys but does not work and I got caught, I woke up after that.

01/05/2013

I had a long non lucid about these horrible worms that I started finding in my bathroom on the wall. They looked a bit like see-through leeches and were really hard to see against the tiles because they were almost completely clear. I realized they crawled into my brain on a night and affected my thoughts. They also could make you pregnant. The baby wasn't genetically half worm but they could affect your body somehow and create a pregnancy... it was weird.

My mum appaered from nowhere and said they were a parasitic worm from Africa that would eat your organs from the inside. I knew she was wrong because all they did was crawl into your brain (which is apparently not such an issue for my dream self ). I started catching them and taking them up the road to a little stream and letting them go. I thought it would be cruel to kill them. I then learned that they had originally come from the stream and the couple living in the house next to it had been moving them to the drain by my house so they would stop attacking them. The woman had just had a baby and they weren't sure if it was the mans child or if the worms made it. The woman was also really sick because the worms had been upsetting and controlling her for so long.

She showed me voice recordings the worms made for her during the night in order to taunt her. They were talking and sounded like the worm/bug things from men in black lol. I though I could prove that invertebrates had incredible intelligence with the tape recordings and got pretty excited for a bit. But then I forgot all about my scientific discovery She also showed me recordings they'd left for me and I got scared when I realized I was their new target.

Then suddenly couple were getting married and I was watching the wedding. The man stopped the wedding and said he couldn't go through with it. He was angry the baby girl might not be his. I could see so much hate in him I realized the worms were controlling him. He threw his daughter to the ground. She looked like a rubber pig shaped dog toy for some reason but blood came out of her ear and I realized he'd really hurt her. I was so angry but had to remember he wasn't doing it - the worms were.

I still didn't want to kill them though and still was trying to think of ways to get them out of the house without killing then. The only way to kill them was to burn them and I thought that was too violent. I then noticed my tummy looked a bit bigger than normal and thought I might be worm-pregnant, but woke up before I found out.

I was in place similar to dream 2 from this: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/chec...dungeon-46944/ , and was doing some things around the dungeon, then i was discussing some dreaming related things with somebody and inducing sleep on someone else.

LUCID

I became lucid while standing in the dining area of my apartment. There was a rap song playing by rick ross I believe. I thought anything I think of is true in the dream. With this thought rick ross started to chant om mani padme hum just by thinking of it. Then I thought I wanna hear a talk, then something important was said but I can't remember at the moment.