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6/9/13

DILD

Notes: This was a fairly long dream but I only remember bits. The first dream is unrelated to the lucid one.

Ben, a few other people, and I were loaded onto a school bus and taken to a crazy obstacle course survival place. There were a few options of destinations and one of the most dangerous was chosen for us...the lava world. It had a giant mountain that needed to be scaled. The second the bus stopped we bolted off. I cant recall the first few obstacles but eventually we hit the side of the mountain that needed climbing. It was made of some viscous white foam and I had to struggle not to drown, let alone make upward progress. Eventually I made it to the top and I had to go down this giant ramp. I ended up being launched hundreds of feet and missing my target. After some gaps of memory we made it back to the buses.

The next dream I was sitting in a room with IG, SD, and a few other garage people. I was hanging on some bed and then eventually went on the computer to look something up. SD shared the seat with me and we started to hold each other a little bit. I kissed her on the cheek and she got more into it. Eventually she was sitting behind me and reached around to undo my fly. I put the breaks on because IG was there also and another garage person saw this and helped to separate us.

I left and went into the hallway. I saw two absolutely gorgeous girls and I became lucid. They were two blonde 10's. We had some fun for a little bit and the group came out of the room and started going somewhere. I decided to join them. We started to get attacked by some group of people. I used hand to hand combat to fight them off. After around 3 people I tried to get wolverine claws. I couldn't get them to appear and people kept coming. I would try in the brief moments between enemies. I could pretend I had them and swipe at enemies as if I did. However, I always had to resort to real punches after a bit. It sort of worked once and I had 3 thin black blades spreading outward from between my fingers, but it wasn't very satisfying. I tried to fly over them a few times also, but the roof was low and I could never maintain the correct height to fly over them.

I guided out group to hide in a giant closet. It was pitch black and I was about to ambush a few enemies from there. The group went on and I stopped for a bit. I tried to help my control and repeated the phrase, "I do not exist in a place that does not exist." I decided to try and meditate for a bit. But I was scared to close my eyes. I did it eyes open, but I was in a crowed hallway so it was difficult. I started to walk forward again and I lost the dream.

Two fragments and a dreamlet that I can't be bothered to write down here as they're already in my Dreamkeeper app.

wrote it all out earlier and had logged me out when tried to post . so just short version now was sleeping got phone call got woken to tell me they had told person on phone i was sleeping (this actually happened but thought it was part of dream till i properly awoke and got told) in dream got up lots of newborn puppies in one of the bedrooms lot looked like my dog but mini versions then family friend vistited with her newborn baby and brought gifts trying to analyse my self could be new start ,news of birth ,pregnancy ?

1. [non-lucid]
I wanted to be able to teleport to florida instead of by plane because the flight is pretty long, so I went and found a place that uses magical gems to perform all sorts of magic, was in a cylindrical building, there I met a woman that asked me what type of magician I wanted to be, she cycled through the magic gems where they appeared in this big round hole in the wall showing the gems spells and perks. I chose the blue gem I think, it was called Jesus for no apparent reason.

Now she told me that in order to use the Jesus Gem I must collect them from around the area using a magic map, they seemed very easy to find as I remember finding a ruby in the middle of a road floating in the air shiney and glowing red.

There was also another way of obtaining gems in the fight areana in which I fight an amount of bad guys and get gems if i succeed, I was pretty damn good at it from what I remember.
Sidenote: The bad guys wore a black robe with a soft white belt

I then went back to see her, she wasnt best pleased because I was only collecting ruby's and she was low on silver gems. I had collected 10 ruby's, as I could see by how full the coloured jars were that she was pointing at on the wall. The dream ends.

Woke up at 3:54 and again at 6:// (pretty sure I did a two part dream)

Last night I woke up 4 times to record some keywords of dreams. This morning I remembered only the last dream. I have felt very hungover today and I think I might have roused myself from sleep too many times last night. Will go easier tonight. If I have an LD, I expect I will wake up thoroughly from excitement so I'll let some NLDs go by tonight without recording, to catch up on sleep.

Had another lucid today. It happened after a particularly crazy and long NLD that skipped around quite a bit, but still managed to keep the same plot line. But I'll get right to it. I was at my workplace, and I was frustrated because the dream wasn't going my way. Somebody tried to interview me, and I said "Fuck off, I'm not interested. This is just a dream anyway." The interviewer asked me what I meant and I responded: "A dream, you know, not real. I mean Barry (from Archer, the tv show) just turned into a shark-cloud for fucks sake!". He asked me who Barry was and I turned around and pointed and said "That's Barry right there!". Now looking at Barry, I realized he was back in human form and went to beat the shit out of him (If you watch Archer you'll understand my hatred of him). But before I could get there I veered off, thinking "not worth it this is just a dream." I sat down at a workbench wondering why I wasn't lucid, and remembered to do an RC. I plugged my nose and took a deep breath in and I could breathe, though it was difficult (my real life nose is a little stuffy from allergies). I double checked and realized, oh, this really is a dream, and became lucid. I quickly started to study my hands, and looking up everything became crystal clear. I looked back at my hands but the dream was getting blurry. I tried taking off the safety glasses and ear muffs I was wearing, but the dream was fading and I woke up. I think the inability to stabilize was due to both my anger, and just being at the end of my REM cycle.

But 2 LD's in my first week isn't bad.

A first person dream, I am running, frantic, up an angular spiral staircase. When I reach a landing I run through an open door, into a bedroom painted black, with posters plastered onto the shiny black walls. To my immediate right is a small brown end-table, it is cluttered. Beside it is an unmade bed with a young man sitting on the edge.
I rush at him and pant "I need to get out of here! I need to escape!". He complies and gets up immediately, taking hold of my left wrist. He turns it over to expose my inner arm and I try to twist away, consciously attempting to hide old scars of self harm. The young man holds fast, however, and grabs a sharp pocket-knife off his cluttered end-table.
He holds my arm out, exposing my inner arm and makes a large, diagonal and mostly vertical, cut into my wrist. I brace myself for blood and pain but neither ever comes. For a moment I think that I can see fat and tissue inside the cut, before I realize that it is expanding and opening wide, turning inside out. In a flash of light everything seems to flip inside out, and then get sucked inwards towards my cut, even my own point of view/field of vision. Then I wake up.

Note*
This dream didn't come off as terribly nightmarish or awful to me. I felt no ill intent from the young man. I consciously try to keep my scars out of sight and mind of anyone that isn't myself. They don't particularly haunt me or serve as a daunting reminder of my past. They're simply there, and if anything have always represented a comfortable way out.

This is a dream I had a few nights ago:

In my town there is a petrol station on the corner of a cross road and I dreamt that the petrol station was now a small white wooden chapel. It didn't really have a main large room it was more like lots of small, home like rooms, but it was definitely a chapel. I went in and I was much younger than I am now (16), in the dream I was about 8 years old and dressed like Alice from Alice in wonderland, in a dress, long blonde hair the ribbon and everything...

Anyway I was with a friend who I don't know in real life but I knew very well in my dream, he was a young boy, also dressed in very posh clothing, and we both ran through all the rooms right to the back room of the chapel which was a small toilet. I had an urge to move one of the tiles from the wall of the bathroom which revealed a wooden box, probably the size of a shoe box, but it had no openings.

Next thing I know I'm in a forest. I was almost as if everyone knew what this forest was as if it was like a tourist attraction but I was in there for another reason. In my dream I was fully aware that there was a murderer in the forest dressed as someone like the Game Maker from the Hunger Games, and another murderer assistant person dressed in a scraggly dress, with boots and a rabbits head on her head. They were both after me and my young friend in the forest. We still had posession of the box and were running in all directions trying to lose them in the forest.

Eventually we ended up running into them directly, I dropped the box and that was when I woke up..

The thing I'm most curious about is the fact that in my dream it's like I have a completely different mind. I know things in my dreams like facts and locations and people that I don't know in real life. Like I know them from other dreams. But I don't know them or can't remember them in real life. It's like I'm a totally different person in my dreams but still me..

does anyone else have this?

Dream recall from today's nap, haven't had intense entry into WILD like that before, haha, fits that i recently had talk in chat about not experiencing much vibrations.

I am in my bed, after a while everything starts shaking and i have dream feeling, i just go with it and shaking becomes even more intense, like an earthquake, so intense that it throws me into air and almost off the bed, making me open eyes. I take control of the situation and stop them. I am in my room, looks pretty close to my room in waking life. I go to balcony, rub hands and jump off, i feel wings and start the flight, i look around and notice that i can actually see base of my wings this time, i easily change color of them a few times, stopping at black. Then i fly near some building and about to go with summoning, but dream fades out and i wake up.

To bed at 11pm, Woke up around 5:50am

In this dream I was in an elevator. The door opened and an attractive thin, tall, blond, young caucasian woman stepped in. I asked her "Going Up?" She: "Does not matter." And she stepped to the side of the elevator where there was a spacious card table and several chairs lined up, and she started shuffling a deck of cards, setting up for a poker game. This did not phase me - I was not questioning things yet. Apparently my mind has no problem with poker games in the elevator.

Then I looked at the elevator buttons to make sure my floor was pressed. The floor I wanted was 6, which is where my office is at in reall life. The woman had pressed 10 (though she had stated it did not matter, and clearly intended to just stay in the elevator to play poker).

Suddenly I noticed that the elevator button numbers were out of order. I decided to do a reality check, to look away and look back and see if the numbers change. Out of some reason the reality check was not working properly, but I thought to myself, "Skrew that, I don't need a reality check to confirm this is a dream. I know this is a dream." When I thought that, the numbers rearranged themselves (though I have a sense they were still out of order, but in a different way). The dream started fading. The vividness was low, and I did not have the presence of mind to fight it, to stabilize.

When I woke up, I tried falling right back to sleep in a DEILD, but was not successful, and I remembered several dreams from earlier that night, and had an urge to write them down - I had not written them down yet. I remembered to reality check only after I wrote them down, but yes, I am awake.

Earlier Dream 1: Learning Hebrew - under 21 need an escort In this dream I was at the Jewish Community Center, and I was supposed to learn the phrase in Hebrew that I am under 21 and thus need an escort into the building. Dream did not explain why I needed to learn this phrase though I am not under 21, 20 year olds don't need escorts, and the people at the JCC understand English of course. But I did not question any of that. In my dream the phrase was supposedly in Hebrew, but in hindsight it was more like Spanish, and I understood most of it. However, out of some reason I said "This is too hard for me. Luckily my learning this phrase is just optional." My older son was with me, while I was learning this phrase. We were in the lobby of the JCC. My older son was going to go back to his school, and someone at the JCC reminded him to bring back a bottled drink for his teacher from the cafeteria, which in my dream was something he regularly did.

Earlier Dream 2: Room Size Aquarium, Fish with Issues, Running out of Water In this dream I was looking at our aquarium which in the dream was room sized (in reality it is 29 gallons). I noticed that some fish were made out of paper but swimming, some had their tails bitten off, and some were mostly eaten, but all were still swimming. I was concerned about a guppy with tail bitten off because I knew that that guppy had been ok the previous day (I actually have this guppy and he is ok). I went around the corner to another ventage point on the room sized aquarium, and there the aquarium was almost out of water. I realized it was my responsibility to refill it somehow.

Earlier Dream 3: Failed to Attend Work Paid Training While Out of Town In this dream I was out of town for three one day long IT courses, a training that had been paid for by my work, and somehow I managed to fail to attend any of the courses. I was worried about that, because I did not want to waste my company's money and they had paid for the training. I wondered whether I could make up the courses at m\home, and pretend to my company that I had taken them while out of town.

Yep. fell asleep while reconstructing my 3rd remembered dream last night and only just discovered my journal is minus that one...and I can't remember it now. None were vivid or long...despite taking 100gms of B6 (my second try with B6)
I'm giving up on an alarm. My fumbling with it just disperses any dream I might have had. I need to self condition to wake naturally
I tried WILDing again on my sofa. Same feeling of deadness...same feeling of almost getting there...of course, it could be wishful thinking. I'll keep trying. The prospect of HI etc doesn't scare me...so i don't know why I'm not yet crossing the threshold.

Sleep Pattern:

Timings:
Time Awake - 12:00-02:30
Lights Out - 02:30
Sleep - ~3:00

No attempts or methods, just trying to fall asleep.

First Recalled Awakening ~ 9:00

Don't fully remember, but I think I woke up. I really need to start writing these posts as I get up instead of getting to sleep...

Next Recalled Awakening - ~11:00
Last Recalled Awakening - ~11:45
Up - 12:00

Modifiers the Day Before:
-DnD.

Modifiers Going to Sleep:
-Still sick...
-Computer and phone...

Modifiers Getting Up:
-Alarm at 12:00

Dreams:
1) Semi-lucid. I am being recruited into an army in a non-our world. I am aware that this is a dream, but still don't question the story and follow along. I packed a bag but forgot clothes, so I go back to get some. In the meantime, I come across my DCs scrambling around backstage, out of character. (I remember the implication of them being out of the roles they were supposed to, as I apologized to them for messing up the routine).

-Time Skip-

A girl from my high school is next to me in a movie theater, and I put my arm around her. She seems surprised, though not unhappy. Still semi-lucid.

2) Driving down a highway I have never been down before, having a bit of trouble making all the lane changes and turns, realize it is a dream. Pull the wheel up and the car flies vertically.

I was riding in an elevator. I was then in a room talking to this girl acquaintance who's about to go to prom. She was wearing a badge around her neck, it was "red leaf" in Chinese. It's a restaurant name, and I asked her why she was wearing it. She told me that everyone went to that restaurant as dinner before prom. I stood in the room, looking at the other side of the room where people were eating. I was then dancing with PW, we were just twirling around the room holding hands. I asked her why we didn't have something fun like that last year. She said there was, but we didn't go because she didn't want our relationship to get any further. I was then sitting at a table, talking to other people, talking about something else.

First WILD
I woke myself up four hours after resting to attempt a WILD. For the most part, it worked, as I slowly felt paralysis overcome me. Thereafter, sounds of static enveloped my hearing. Finally, I began seeing the sound, if that makes any sense. It was as though a spectrogram was hooked up to my vision, yet in all of this I still couldn't move.

So I sat here in static land, vaguely aware of my body just waiting. I obviously wasn't thinking because rather than engage my sense of feeling and try and actually move my dreambody, I decided to take myself out of paralysis. If its anything that this WILD taught me, it's patience and that I should always attempt to think my decisions out.

Second WILD
After I got out of paralysis, I figured I might as well try another WILD after thinking over the last one and began relaxing myself back into it. This one had more waiting to it, as I just laid there. This time, sleep paralysis didn't come around, and there was a momentary blackout period that I went through. At this point, I must had fallen asleep, due to this large, square game board with buildings on it.

I was still waiting for sleep paralysis to roll around as I watched (and did not question) these two entities play on the board. Judging by the conversation going back and forth, it was a father and his son playing a game on it, as they had no body. The game consisted of throwing a large ball at the right buildings to do as much damage as possible. The father taunted his son for he had the highest score as his son tried to beat him.

But then I heard a new voice, that sounded muffled, like as though it were coming from a walkie-talkie. I somehow developed a body and flew underneath the board as the voice started guiding through relaxation and sleep paralysis. My vision shifted back to a first-person perspective. It was then that I once again felt and heard vibrations. A tunnel developed, and the voice cautioned that I should stay calm. Breathing perfectly and right as I was about to travel through it, the most peculiar thing happened.

In an instant, my chest felt like it dropped as I was no longer in control of my breathing, and from my toes all the way up to my head, a quick wave traveled in me. Simultaneously, I heard a deep, roaring sound that can only be described as the crackling heard after lightning. But all this happened because I woke up. It's like when you're dreaming and someone suddenly shakes you out of it. Disappointed that the WILD failed, I decided to just try and get some sleep.

Short Semi-Lucid
I don't know how it happened, but after falling asleep I found myself in a pitch black area. I knew something was up and came to the conclusion I was dreaming. So I decided to do a few things. First on the list was to create a spaceship. I turned around and saw only part of this huge behemoth I created. It was clear, too clear. I could see every detail in it and if I kept looking at it I thought I'd go mad. But when I averted my gaze, I found myself in the rings of what had to have been Saturn. Huge asteroids began flying towards me, and rather than stabilizing my dream, I woke up. It was all very brief and probably only lasted around thirty seconds.

Defending the City
Once again, falling asleep, I dreamt I was in large metropolis of some sorts. I was on the roof of a high-rise surround by other, taller buildings. The technology and architecture looked like it was in the future, with computers and holographic displays. Judging by the large amounts of people, there was a celebration going on. Two people, a hefty guy who looked like he was in the military and a shorter, younger guy with his hair up in a ponytail stood out among the crowd. I was chatting with them when out of nowhere an earthquake shakes the entire place. After it ended, a few people gasped as they looked out onto the ocean off in the distance. Some Lovecraftian horror began shambling forth. It was indescribable, yet I felt no fear.

I know that the two guys and I had fought it, but I have no recollection of the weapons we used. Apparently, every week some creature either emerges from the sea or flies down to terrorize the city. Why that was, was not known. "Weeks" in my dream passed like minutes, as we fought more and more of the huge creatures. The last one came once again from the sea. It swam around the docks before morphing into a gigantic, destructive 'thing'. But once we killed it, there were no more.

I went to the intelligence department of the city where everything was recorded and archived and pulled up the footage of the last creature. It had spoken about why it was attacking the city though I vaguely remember the message. It had something to do with the expansion of the metropolis.

Through a Portal
After I heard the audio clip, my dream began to develop more surreal qualities about it. I went through some portal and watched a few medieval peasants build a village, then, out of nowhere, I was stopped by a dentist and told my wisdom teeth are coming through. I felt the back part of my gums with my tongue and confirmed that I indeed needed to get them removed. It was there that my dream ended.

Whoa! I had another Lucid Dream! Wait.. better do a Reality Check.... counts fingers, tugs on pointer finger... Ok I'm really awake this time.

Saturday, June 8th, 2013
Well, after sleeping for 5 hours, waking up and going back to sleep... nothing. Slept soundly for another couple of hours, woke up, went back to bed but I didn't go to sleep right away, I laid awake for a while then curled up with my back to the sunlight coming in the window. I didn't think I had fallen asleep so I must've had a false awakening because I got up and started fiddling with my knitting stuff. I found my crochet hook set but a few of the holes where the hooks should have gone, were filled with pencils, pens and other items, even some small crocheted bits of yarn. I pulled all of these out and started hunting for my loose crochet hooks to put them back. I found a small bunch of them, put a few in, hunted around some more and picked up the set again but it was full of the pencils and pens again. Every time I found a hook, the set was jammed with the other objects again instead. After putting the same hook back 3 times, I thought quietly, "This does not make any sense..." That was when I did a Reality Check. It almost didn't work though! I counted my fingers and I did indeed count 5 fingers... and one thumb, that made six. I tried to stretch out my pointer finger but it wouldn't stretch at first... I counted again, made sure that I was dreaming then I focused and tugged on my finger again. This time it stretched out perfectly. As I sat on my bed in my room I tried to imagine that I had a Snickers candy bar and took a bite but all I chomped on was air. I went back to pulling on my fingers, stretching each one out and letting them slowly morph back to normal. That helped, Then I sat in kind of a half lotus position trying to float upwards off my bed. But I couldn't seem to do that either. I know why I didn't just leave my room, because I could distinctly hear my parents voices talking right outside my door (even though my mom is currently in another state: Tenessee) and I was afraid of sleepwalking or finding out that I was actually awake... I was also not wearing anything which would have been quite embarassing. Plus, in taking the time to get dressed I might have lost the dream. So as I sat there on my bed trying to float, I noticed a golfball sized lamp on my bedroom wall, it looked straight out of a Sims game. It seemed to be getting larger, (from golfball sized to base-ball sized to bowling-ball sized) as I stared at it and it gave off a weirdly bright bluish white light. I was vaguely aware that either the bed was shaking or I was rocking back and forth. The luminescent globe had reached the alarming size of a beach-ball when I finally looked away. I looked down at my hands, counted and tugged my fingers to make sure I was still in a dream and still lucid. When I looked up again, the light was gone. I was glad since the light gave me the willies. I went back to my attempts to float off my bed, but in the process of trying to focus, I accidentally closed my eyes. This I knew was an immediate mistake as it caused me to lose the dream. It was a wacky feeling though, feeling my position shift from sitting upright in a lotus position, to lying down on my side curled up under a blanket.