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5:50AM - DEILD - 2 of 2

I wake naturally from a dream a few minutes before the alarm. I don't move keep a clear mind and relax my body. I feel the change and reach out with my mind. I get instant vibrations but before I can transition out of body a dream scene envelopes me.

I am walking down a street with a version of my mom next to me. I see a pop up screen before my face and my mom immediately says, "Your subconscious has been locked out. (of this dream). You'll need to pay to get it back." The pop up shows a dollar amount of $7.99 and some text. I am crestfallen and I ask my mom, "But how am I dreaming now?"
"It's just your ego.", is her only reply. I totally believe all of this and know that money is useless in a dream. I'll have to pay later. I allow the dream to continue non-lucid.

With that out of the way we walk down the street together and I point out a couple of rows of plant growing out of the asphalt. It seems that someone planted them there like a garden. The alarm goes off and I wake up.

LUCID

*I became lucid by noticing that everywhere I looked a jewel would appear. After that I kind of just went with the flow of dream. I also stopped and had a moment of clarity thinking wow all of this is a creation of my mind.

*I flew around and explored a huge city. I ended up becoming really horny and getting a BJ from like three different chicks. haha. This seems to happened if I don't go into the lucid dream with a goal in mind.

*I realized I was dreaming while being out to eat. I remember the goal I had in mind to meditation. I attempted to find a clear open sky to practice. I started to meditate but quickly woke up.

I have no time to proof read so I know there are huge typos. I apologize and will edit later. I just never have enough time anymore.

I started with MILD but was having difficulty visualizing. Switched to mantra for a bit then only a few cycles of SSILD.


#190 - 3:30AM - SSILD/WILD - 1 of 2

I feel the familiar feeling of transition like a chemical change in my mind. I am in total SP and there are zero vibrations. I can't move or transition out of body. I try Monroe's 180 method but it feels like I just rolled over on my face. I know this is a false sensation. I try rolling but at a moderate speed. Every time I spin I hear a mechanical roaring. I pause, spin again, pause, then try rolling out and through the walls of the house. I feel like I roll out into the backyard and circle round back to my bed. I wait a bit and get into some resemblance of a lying down lotus position and meditate with the mantra, "I am dreaming. I am lucid when I dream." I clear my mind and relax into the SP. After a moment or two I slow bring my feet out to touch the floor. Now I am standing but completely blind. I slowly open my eyes and see the bed room door. I am back in bed. I transition again and blindly continue into the living room. I pause and try to stabilize by feeling the floor. It's not helping my blindness so I just continue on outside. I feel cool air on my skin as I walk into the street. I continue walking and peering into the darkness waiting for the dream to form.

Suddenly, I am walking with a group of men my age and younger. I am lucid but I lose control a little and get swept up in the dream. It feels like HI and a little disconnected but I am controlling the flow. I become excited and yell out. I see several cars parked near a short rock fence. I hop over it and run towards a two door red convertible. I yell out, "Shotgun!" and hop into the passenger side. A couple of guy were following behind me with the same idea. One jumped on top of me and the other almost landed on the other guy but corrected himself to jump in the back seat. Darkness.

The dream becomes more vivid now and we are riding down a highway. I feel the wind on my face and lean out over the door. There are pine or cedar tress on either side of us. I whoop, holler and howl, listening to the dreamy distortion of my voice. I say, "You know what guys? We should get real crazy. Let's go rob someone." I look over at the driver for the first time and notice that he looks like a 1950's greaser. I don't find this strange at all as I wait for him to reply. He doesn't. He just continues to drive not looking at me or saying a word. He is expressionless in every way. This gives me pause and pull in my craziness for a moment. I think about my goal of finding NyxCC. I wonder where she is and how to get there from this point.

I stare straight ahead down and endless highway surrounded by a starless empty void. Suddenly one of the guys in the back yells out, "Reno, Nevada!" At the instant a strange tombstone shaped building with a huge neon sign in front of it materializes before my eyes with a burst of energy. I see tendrils of electricity cascade down the building and fade away. For a moment I am mesmerize as I have never experienced this in a dream before. I recover quickly and say to the driver, "Is that were Nyx lives? Reno Nevada?" He just shrugs in reply never looking at me. I accept that we are somehow in Reno, Nevada now. "You know were she lives? Can you take me there?" The driver nods and we make a right turn into a residential area. The night is extra dark save for a few houses with porch lights. Not wanting to get sucked into darkness, I point at well lit house. "Is that it?" The driver nods but takes me to the house next to it.

I get out and there is a strange garage like building shaped like an old hotrod with flames painted on the side. I get out of the car and walk to the car-building feeling unsure. When I open the door there is only darkness inside. I reach inside and slap around until I hit a light switch. It's just a hollow cream colored tube.

I turn around and see a house with red painted siding only about 10 or so feet away. I enter the front door and see a small cozy living room with a lamp and cough and tv set. The floors are hardwood and the room is fully furnished. I don't linger or pay any attention to the room. There is a door across the room and I enter.

The bedroom lights up as I enter but the light is very dim. I look up and see a square shaped light fixture. There is a small child like young woman asleep in here bed. I move over and sit on the edge of the bed. I shake her a bit saying, "Nyx, wake up." She looks confused for a moment and sits up. I notice she has shoulder length light brown to dirty blond hair and she is wearing something white. But I try to focus on her face to see what she looks like. It's a little blurry but I get a good enough look. I focus mostly on her nose. It's sort of button like and celestial shaped. I say, "Wake up! You are dreaming. This is a dream." She smiles pleasantly but looks a little confused still. I continue, "I'm Xanous... from dream views." I smile, "Hi." Comprehension dawns on her face and she seems a little embarrassed. I am not sure but I think I said, "Are you Nyx?" She nods yes. "Ok here is my code word and sign." I hesitate for a bit when I realize I forgot what it was. Then I remember and say the word and signal. "Ok what's mine?"
She replies, "Uh...um...well... I forgot." I give her a moment and I think she said something odd that didn't makes sense. Then I say, "You're not really Nyx are you?" I don't remember her reply but she doesn't seem to argue. We have more dialog but I can't remember much. She says, "You think you are legally blind but you are not." I feel shocked that she would know about the dream blindness I had at the start of the dream. She says something else that sounded like gibberish so I decide it's time to go. "Well I am going to go wake up now so that I can remember this." I step out the bedroom door that now leads outside only. I yell back, "You take care of yourself." and close the door behind me.

I look up at the full moon in the sky through tree limbs without leaves. I play at the limbs and start to fly but stop. Then, I think of transitioning into a werewolf but remember I want to test my teleport idea to get to China. I focus on going to China and try to stretch my body to that location. I feel myself get impossibly long then a blind of darkness.

Now, I am flying in a spinning vortex full of various star symbols and odd, broken structures with a rainbow like nebula in the back drop. I chat, "China China Chinatown." over and over as I watch the swirling images. Suddenly I realize I wanted to remember the dream. I feel like I can barely remember the start of it and begin to panic. I really need to wake up!

I plug my nose to hold my breath but I blow through. I laugh at myself a little and realize I am back in my bed stuck in SP. I try moving but only get phantom movements. I think how I just want to make a DJ entry in my tablet. I dream I am doing just that but realize I am still dreaming and it wont be there later.

I now I really hold my breath. It hurts and feels like a long time. I ex-hail but find I am still in SP. This time I suck in hard holding my breath. I commit myself to hold it until I just can't stand it any longer. It feels like an impossibly long time and hurts. I see a computer pop-up loading screen and watch as the bar gets longer. I wonder if I can die like this. Then I realize I will only pass out and start breathing again. Then I wonder what happens when you pass out in a dream. The bar fills up and I have to breath. I ex-hail long and hard and realize I am now awake.

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Dream quality and recall: I continue to be very sleepy, although recall today was a bit better.

WBTB, snooze and recall: Decided against WBTB (lazy), but set the final alarm for a bit earlier. I had what I thought was an interesting dream in the last 30 mins of sleep so kept on hitting the snooze button, and tried to go back there to continue with the story. That messed up my recall a bit, but I still enjoyed it.

Dream1: We are on the street and a friend of mine says something that irritates me. It hit her with a NG magazine. DCs around me stare at me with disapproval. They also think I am a man hitting a woman. A girl from India comes and I begin explaining myself to her.

She starts giving my friend some creepy advice and then continues to say that "you (not sure who she is addressing) should do some lucid meditation, as one learns by leaps and bounds"

"Red and cinnamon are after all two of many (40?) hues....of the penumbra"???

This dream was really cool, but bf was snoring so loudly, I just couldn't hold on to it for more info.

Dream2: A class meeting, girls only this time, all the usual classmates that are DS, but instead of realizing this is a dream I engage in nonsense conversations. One of the classmates is married to a guy that has to do with chicken production and I comment on some movies I have seem about that. Another female friend of mine has a a girlfriend and buys her some lemonade. I feel jealous.

Dream 3(snooze fragmented and mini-Ld):

I am flying over the street and try to avoid a dangerous individual. Other DCs start running very fast when they are close to him.

I am sitting on a table, looking at some food and want to rescue a burrito from ending up in the trash. This guy acts very agressively and does not allow me to get my burrito. I am forced to go with him. (Snooze)

He is dangerous and most likely has killed someone, and the police is after him. Despite all that, I feel some sympathy towards him and we are friends. He wants us to go to his apartment. I have some alarming thoughts of why am I going to his place, and what are we going to do there, but dismiss them. We reach the street where he lives. I suspect undercover cops have parked in front of the place. Doesn't he know that his apartment is the first place the cops will look for him? He sees the lights of his place are on, so we go back. (Snooze)

He decides to highjack a bus so that we can drive to my place. I really don't want us to go there. I am also worried that he is a reckless driver, so go to the back seat. (Snooze)

I am in the bus/car with him and am looking for my burrito, but it seems like I have changed clothes, have a different handbag and the burrito is gone. I take some time to look around, knowing that this is a dream. The story in my mind lasted pretty long and I find it really cool. I think about reporting this dream and contemplate about my feelings for this guy, I conclude I have the Stockholm syndrome...

I wake up

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Progress with this months goals (as of this morning):

- Do 100 RCs (6/100) <<<<<<Terrible!
- notice real life DS 100 times and RC (4/100)
- 10 proper WBTB attempts -> days (3/10)
- 10 morning RCs (1/10)
- 2 proper WILD attempts (0/2)
- task flexibility
- journal flexibility

LDs: 5 (official count)
micro-lds: 1 (not counted)
suspicious events: 1 (not counted)

I'm in Pousa ( is my village) near Celeste's bakery, it's late and i'm alone, i'm waiting for my friends and i know is a day of the week in wich i go out so it must be arround 10 pm.

Is taking them too long to arrive do i decide to go to the village elementary school, for some reason i think that will be happening something interesting their, when i'm almost their ( i'm in the opposite side of the road) from de other side of the road i hear someone calling me... It's the garbage lady and she ask me to pick up a cat that is on the floor , i look to my right side and really is a cat on the floor , is a baby cat and is all dirty and wet .

I pick up the cat by the neck , i look back and i see that the garbage lady already crossed the road and she takes the cat from me. She seems fascinated with the way i was holding the cat ( by the neck ) , she puts him on a dumpster, she looks at me and she sees i'm worried about the well being of the cat so she says :
-" Don't worry... i will say to tomorrow's garbage man to be careful so he doesn't hurts the cat."
She walks away and i'm looking to the dumpster... suddenly the cat is no longer a cat, is a human baby and the lid of the dumpster is about to to crush him . I run and i stop the lid , i pick up the baby and hold him in my arms, the garbage lady watchs from the distance...she seems relieved.

I know that this baby can not stay there so i took him with me to a friends house, i don't remember getting to her house.
I'm in my friends house , I'm lying in bed with the baby and my friend is sitting next to me. I'm trying to convinces her to look after the baby for some days but she can't, she as to make a trip in the next day.

Beneath the blankets I'm moving a wad of bills with my hands, my friend asks me about what i'm doing so i show her a wad of 210 euros bills (WTF ??) ...suddenly her parents arrive...they tell her something but i couldn't understand so i ask her about what they said. She tells me that they have to visit her father's water mine that is beneath his house.

In that moment i understand that i need to keep the baby ... i look at him and he has the most cute face in the world

((This was orginally a very detailsd dream, but as soon as I woke up, all of the details faded. I wrote down one thing in my dj)) I am the milkman.

Last night, I can't remember most of the dream, oddly enough, which almost never happens, until this part. You know that show The Voice? If you're not from the US, it's a talent show where people go on, sing, and they get voted on/off or whatever....
It was like I was watching the show, from inside the TV, if this makes sense. I was hovering above the contestants, watching each of them sing... nobody took notice that there was a floating girl hanging out above them.
Then the stage lights became gradually brighter and brighter, and the crowd's applause became louder and louder, and a voice said "this is the loudest that they have ever cheered..." and the lights became a blinding white with the roaring applause.
And then there were J's eyes, covering the entire scene, looking at me. They were moving around like normal eyes, like he was taking my image into his mind, looking me over. His eyes were huge, if it were on a TV screen it would have taken up the entire screen. It showed his eyes and eyebrows, his skin was glowing and so were his eyes. His eyes were so beautiful, and strong, I could feel his energy through them. I woke up because I was so overwhelmed, it was like I had gotten an electrical shock.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was exploring some city.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in some mansion-like place and was searching for something, some rooms were using pink color excessively.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some fighting game, there was rainbow golem character i wanted to get but to get it i needed to activate and protect some color golems. I activated one and it was pretty powerful, dealing with all kinds of enemies easily but one last enemy managed to destroy him right before getting destroyed. I was disappointed and wanted to restart the game but for some reason restart option was missing. Soon i found a way to restart it using some external hardware.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was watching MC UHC game. The map was very small and only four people were playing, also it was premade and there were some kind of stone bunkers some players started in.

I was in my friend's hous, became lucid, saw 3 dc near me - 2 young men and 1 old woman. I decided to make TOTM and became speak in gibberish with the woman - she responded in gibberish too. I turn to one of the men - spoke like bla-blo-blu-bra-bro-bru - he answered in gibberish for a moment, but then said in english - 'I don't know'. I thought that that DC was clever and continued speaking in gibberish. That smart guy said -"it means whats your name' - in russian. I answered - no, you are wrong! and i began to summon a big dinosaur egg on my palm. The egg was like hen's one, i decided to make it bigger and at the size of ostrich one, that smart DC said - "you are a bit to crash into a cat". I thought that its a noncense, because i didn't move. I saw a small lighting near my feet, my egg jumped itself, fell and broken. I was upset and awoke in a moment.

LUCID

*The dream started lucid at my brothers apartment. My friend from work was there. I remember telling her in real life that I was going meet up with in a lucid dream and obtain information I don't know about her. I also remember telling her about going to a hindu temple to experience the energy. Then we started to drive there talking about random things. We ended up in north irving in a huge shopping I use to live by. At this point she was on a skateboard and I was on a scooter. (I hate scooters but I love skateboarding haha) I remember doing all these awesome tricks. Then I notice she was gone and I needed to find her.


I noticed that the wind was really strong. So I made the wind stop completely through sheer will. Then I thought I have to find her again. So I checked this office building and yelling her name. She then walked up out of no where. She seemed to be really worried about two girls and how they were lost. She didn't even look me in my eye because she was so caught in her worrying. Then as she was talking about her situation she walked off.

Then I ended up at my apartment sitting on the couch with her watching harry potter. She was so caught up in the movie that she really didn't pay attention to what I was saying to her. I notice that she looked really young and had braces.

Then the scence changes again and I was walking out of my bedroom. I remember that I wanted to look inside of a book and see what kind of pictures would appear. I went outside to the staircase and willed a book into existence. This book was think light blue paper back. I opened it up and it all seemed to be about wild life. Animals eatting other animals, so yea I put that book down. Then I will another one into existence. This book will old, very anicent with chinese writing in the front. I opened the book, it had black pages with white chalk chinese symbols. I thought this is so acurate that I must have been chinese in a past life. This is what I felt. Then I read a passage in english and it said "When the true self meets the slave" , this made alot of sense to me. I woke up asap to write this down.

I woke up, only to find out that I wasn't really awake after doing a RC (Yeah, I know, Instinct.), anyway, I decided to proceed with the normal start to any Lucid Dream I have in this condition, swear to my sub-conscious and then fly out burning all Dream Characters in my path. But this time it was different.. They were ready for me


So this ended up to be a fight, Dreamers vs Anti-Dreamers, it went on for what seemed like a month until we eventually killed all Anti Dreamers. I eventually woke up, felt pretty good

Red = Dream
Blue = Lucid

So, my second night of dream recall, I'm feeling good, although I was unable to go to sleep when I tried 'meditating' and telling myself I would lucid dream.

Setting: Supermarket

I'm standing in a supermarket, looking toward a big pile of soft drinks, two teenagers run past saying something along the lines of 'take all you can? Sweet'. They grab two large bottles each. I walk over there, we're another person says something and grabs one. (At this point I realised they were referring to the soft drink being 'free'). I look for the 'sign' saying they are free, but can't find it.

Dream 2:
Setting: Building

I'm in the army, talking to someone who appears to be a friend, we both have a bottle of Cola (can't remember what brand or type of cola, it was just dark). We randomly transition to running in the mud (outside, daytime, raining), we stop and sit in some benches, I go to take a drink of my cola, and we friend freaks, trying to stop me pointing at the 'commander'. So we hide our soft drinks in our shirt, and get up and run. As we turn (we seem to be running through a maze of venches), my friend nicks the bench with his leg, and drops the cola. The commander sees, and the dream ends.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , Side notes.

Watermelons:
Time: logged at about 10:30 AM, around 9-10 hours after falling asleep

Dream Summary: I'm in a metallic hallway, i'm on a space ship. I'm a space marine from the movie "Aliens" and well, we're defending against aliens. We start fighting them off, but they keep coming and my squad starts to back off, i tell them something and they get back in the fight and we win.

The dream scene then changes to a farm, we're on a gravel road, we have a UTV beside us with some gear, my squad is still here with me. We're still on the look out for aliens but it would be no use because our weapons are gone. Anyway,i see a watermelon patch in front of us so i decide to go get one, my squad decides to go get some as well but they start walking the other way. I come back with a watermelon and eat a slice, my squad is gone and probably never coming back.

If i remember correctly, a man comes to assist me and gives me some information on the surrounding area. The only thing i remember after this is i made my way to this rich mans house, he sells furniture. There are people all around his house trying to bid on the furniture he is selling outside. I'm looking around inside his house. The people dress like they are high ranking officials from the middle ages. This guys house also looks somewhat odd and not like i've seen before. The next thing i remember from this is i'm crawling through a tunnel and to a trapdoor under the place on the gravel road i was originally. I think i had a gun in my hand as i climb through, i'm hiding from the rich furniture person. I remember that my goal at the time was to make a watermelon farm and sell them at the local market to earn money.

The next thing i remember is i'm on the UTV waging a war against the people of the town or something like that. And the last thing i remember, i'm landing on a battleship.

My thoughts: I didn't remember much since i logged it so late after i woke up. As a result, a decent amount is missing.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #103: Morgan Freeman

I'm in a library, laying down by some bookshelves and wearing nothing but some boxer shorts. A young, rather wimpy-looking guy with dark hair and glasses is looking through some books about thirty feet away, pretending not to notice me. I quickly throw my clothes on. I have no idea why I was unclothed, but I feel like I should explain myself to this guy.

I throw together a cover story, approach the guy and explain, "Don't worry! That part of the library is just where I like to recall any sexy dreams that I recently had." He visibly cringes. I cringe too. What in the world made me think that this was a good "explanation"? I feel very confused, both about my own dull-wittedness and the whole situation.

Embarrassed beyond belief, I mumble an apology and just sort of slink away into a different part of the library. After stewing in my shame for a few seconds, the strong emotion feels weird to me and I realize with great relief that I'm dreaming.

No longer so defensive and inwardly-focused, I examine my surroundings. This part of the library is broad and open, with a floor of pure white marble, and a high, vaulted white ceiling. About fifty feet away is some kind of railing that surrounds a view of a lower floor. I walk toward the railing to check out this lower floor, but I'm distracted when I find myself walking next to Morgan Freeman. He's much shorter than I'd imagined (no taller than 5-foot-6) and moves slowly, as if decrepit and unwell.

"You're Morgan Freeman," I say. Astonishingly, I speak these words in Morgan Freeman's voice!

"I am."

"Heeeeyyyyyyy," I say, testing out my amazing new voice. I do a theatrical hand-wave and really pile on the dramatic reading. "All of this... is a dream!"

He nods, smiling faintly. "Very nice."

"Everything sounds a lot better with this voice," I say. "How's this work? Is this dream teaching me how to talk like you? Am I still going to be able to sound like this when I wake up?"

He stops, giving me a cross look. "No."

I think for a moment about my goals. I can remember my primary goal of getting to the Alamo to catch up with Art, but I forget the Task of the Month and don't think to talk gibberish to Morgan Freeman. I'm planning on phasing through a wall in order to get outside or enter the void.

Morgan Freeman seems to sense that I'm about to leave and turns urgently toward me, suddenly speaking very rapidly. "Wait! Before you go, I need to tell you something that you have to do. You need to find Patricia [??some last name??] and you need to tell her about..." His voice becomes garbled and the scene breaks down. I expect to enter the void and transition from there to the Alamo but instead I wake up.

(I do know one Patricia but the last name had more syllables than hers does. I'm still stumped by this last part.)

I just got back from our annual house boating/kayaking/camping trip on Lake Powell. I had really wanted a lucid dream while I was out, but we played really hard, and I slept very hard. We were up by 4:30 every morning, which also doesn't help in having LDs since most of my LDs occur after that time when I have a chance to sleep in a bit. I had a few dream fragments. One was about one of my friends from the trip. Two were about Tom DeLonge (apparently I can't get him out of my head). I'm pretty sure others dreams involved kayaking or hiking, but I didn't write any of them down, so they have pretty much all faded.

Now that I'm back I have got to work at doing the Task of the Month.