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June 23, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (too exhausted to stay awake for my WILD attempt )

Dream Frag:

I was in a car with someone and I told him that I wanted to go home, but we kept driving around in circles. I would look down at my clothes and they would change everytime I looked down (do you think this was my dream sign??? Uh...yeah!). It didn't seem to concern me that my clothes kept changing, I just wanted to go home...never did make it home .


Note: One of my famous recurring dreams about being lost and not being able to find home.

So I keep having dreams about my evening and weekends job, which has been a little frustrating because I don't really like spending my waking hours there! Tonight, I woke up from another dream about work around 6 AM and attempted a WBTB, where I had this WILD.

I was back in the same scene where the previous dream left off, but at least this time I knew it was a dream. I looked around, seeing the whole store around me and letting the images solidify. Now, I had to have a little fun with it! To my left, I could see a manager and a group of coworkers gathering for a short meeting. I went over to join them, glancing down quickly to make sure that I was in my work uniform. Remembering the task of the month, I decided to rip it off. I didn't even get that far as my clothes simply disappeared. There was no discernible reaction from my dream coworkers. I started to walk away to see if I could find someone else who might react. I glanced down again and realized that I was now wearing a very skimpy blue bikini. Oddly enough, it seemed to fit me very well -- that really should not work on my body type. I started removing the bikini top, but that's when one of the the dogs jumped on the bed and woke me up.

Sunday 23rd June

I was on the back of a motorbike, we were dodging in and out of cars going very fast and my vision was blurry, I was also in 3rd person view so anybody who has played GTA IV will know what I mean. We went into a tunnel, in this tunnel the walls were made of huge glass panes and there was the sea all around it. The police pulled us over in this tunnel and told us to get off the bike. This is the point I became lucid, I don't actually remember becoming lucid I just was. I wasn't properly aware. These policemen are going on and I'm like 'F*ck this, this is a dream.' I got one policeman and smashed his face into the huge window, it crack a little, I then pushed him out the glass smashed and he fell into the sea. He lie there not moving, the other officer weeps to me "So, you're going to leave him to die"
"Yeah" I say. He spawns a speedboat, just like GTA and drives literally 2m to pick his colleague up.

Then I hear two mopeds riding towards me. Its two people I know in real life. They both step off take there helmets off and one of them says to me "Do you want a fight?"
"Come on then" I respond. I couldn't think of my goals as I wasn't that aware so I thought I may as well. One of them comes running towards me, I think of something really ugly, it was this picture I seen the night before in real life and I shouted when he got close "LOOK DOWN!" He looked down and I DDT'd him onto this like messed up disease thing. He got up and laughed and said "Yeah, that was kinda funny." I noticed the other person was on the tunnel above as I looked up and I could see the roof dipping a bit where he was walking. So I decided I would climb up to this level. I went back to where the glass was smashed earlier and stepped out. I was dangling on the edge of a skyscraper.



Kind of like that, without the gloves. I was like 'Oh no, oh no I don't want to fall forget his I'm climbing back in' I began to pull myself up and thought 'What if this is real life, I haven't done a reality check' I go for the nose plug and I could breathe thankfully. I climb back in, go to summon a car and bang I wake up. I begin telling my brother about my dream. THEN, I wake up again to really tell him about my dream, this time it wasn't an FA!

Monday 24th June

I'm just going to write the notes I wrote down with a little expansion.

Dream 1

I was in a room with 3 other people and were playing a song called Lil B - Wonton Soup. We were all doing homework. Then my grandad came round and bought us all some supplies, could be due to playing
The Last Of Us alot recently. I thanked him and then he left, then after my friends left, then someone chucked me a bag through the door with a bunch of washing that was unwashed and left for me to do. I walked outside the front door with my brother and he chucked a snowball at me, it was really starting to annoy me, my sister then walked into a random persons house then awkwardly walked back out. My nan comes driving round in her car and asks me to look out for this person who threw a huge snowball into her car.

Dream 2

I was turning into Iron Man. I was given this hoverboard which attached to my feet, then the next thing I know my hands were given this rocket thing, then a load of other gadgets along with it.

Dream 3

I was on a plane sitting down ready to go on a 32 hour flight somewhere. I was sitting on the right of the plane on myself with my brother and his friend behind me. This man in front of us started asking me to stop turning round because I was disturbing his child. I was not happy about this as I didn't understand how it was disturbing his child. He then said he was getting up to go complain tot the captain. So off he went and left. The guy who was sitting in the middle seats closest to me said 'This guy is a PATHETIC IDIOT. You were doing nothing wrong at all.' The captain comes back and announces that everyone on the left hand side had to move to the right. There were moans and groans as everyone walked past him. People were smashing into him as they walked past, I walked past and knocked him and said 'prick!' I was on the right side now and I sat down with two of my friends from school, we had better seats now and we had a table. We started singing a song and talking about how Birmingham MC's are actually doing better than London atm. This made me want to listen to music so I went into my bag to get my headphones and they were not there. I was mortified.

I've been trying SSILD for a few days now, and I've had 3 nights in a row of brief lucidity; pretty awesome coming from a month long dry spell. Last nights was decently long, however, and I finally managed to finish a basic task for June; speaking gibberish to a DC.

I was working for a driving range that was auspiciously located on the top of a Skyscraper in New York City. I clocked in, and then drove a golf cart up a spiral ramp to the top of the tower. The inside of the skyscraper was totally gutted, and the interior was a skeletal structure of red, rusting rebar. I could see shadowy figures moving in the darkness of the building as I went up and up, but I told myself that as long as I kept the cart moving they wouldn't bother me.

Finally I reached the top of the building, and parked my car next to a door that lead to the roof. As I twisted the knob and opened, I found myself at a gorgeous golf course, with a range straight ahead. I looked around, and for seemingly miles the green rolling hills of the course sprawled ahead of me; the city had vanished.

I began to set up the range, but realized I didn't have any balls for the customers to hit! I went back inside the door that was now lying flat against the ground, and reentered the skyscraper. As I descended the ramp once more, a horrible grinding noise came from the cart, and I came to a sharp stop as the wheels locked. Instantly I broke into a panic, as I knew the shadows would descend upon me shortly.

I tried to fix it, but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't find the engine. I knew I was in trouble. Suddenly, two very ugly women, looking to be of incestuous backgrounds, lumbered out of the darkness; smiling and sniggering. I told them to get back, and in my fear I said this must be a dream! I plugged my nose and reality checked (my new favorite thing ever), and I realized that this was indeed a dream!

The two women stood there menacingly, but grew weary when they realized I was lucid now. I took a few moments to remember what the basic task was, and then remembered that it was to shout gibberish at a DC.

They took a step towards me.

"ACKAJOOBIJOOBIMUMBO!"

Crumpling in fear, the two women begged for me to stop. I looked closely and realized that their eyes had become the shining eyes of standard anime shows.

This time, in a booming Gandalf voice that made the whole building shake,

"SHANTANATABUMBABA!"

The women screamed and writhed and then began to glow; turning completely into japanese anime hotties. They were completely under my control, so I forced them to their knees and commanded them to give me my first ever lucid oral sex (winning!). It didn't last long though, as my REM cycle naturally ended.


It was definitely one of the most exciting lucids I have had to date! Can't wait to keep trying this SSILD stuff.

So I've decided to do a 30-day challenge of using the SSILD technique. I have experimented with the technique before with somewhat mixed success. So this time I'm going to use nothing but SSILD for the next 30 days and record how many LD's and FA's I get. So here we go:

Day 3

Technically this should be day 4, but Saturday night I only got 4 hours of sleep, so I didn't even bother to attempt a lucid dream.

Tonight, however, I went to bed at about 12, but because my back was killing me for some reason, I didn't get to sleep until about 1. I woke up at 6:00, went to the bathroom, and then did the cycles before I fell asleep. To be honest, my dream recall was a little hazy, but I do remember one very hazy non-lucid dream, one FA and one LD.

1. I was at Target getting some supplies for some party with my friend. The line was ridiculously long (gotta love those old ladies and their checks...), so me and my friend decided to grab some Nerf guns and fight. These guns, though, were ridiculously overpowered, and they shot the bullets so hard they were able to leave cracks in the concrete walls. I figured that it wouldn't be good to destroy this Target (plus I couldn't imagine how much pain those babies could inflict), but my friend insisted and started chasing me with it. I was hiding behind aisles trying not to get shot until...

2. My mom woke me up in the morning. I got up and walked over to my closet while she told me some news or some story about something. I realized however, that my room looked wrong, like there was a mirror next to my closet that wasn't there IWL. I did a noise plug RC and found that I was dreaming, but as soon as I did, the scene went black. I tried rubbing my hands together, shouting, "lights on," and finally spinning around.

I don't remember exactly what happened next. I think I woke up, but managed to stay completely still and perform a DEILD, but whether that awakening was true or if I was lucid from the start of the next dream, I'm not sure.

3. I was lucid. I started flying off the ground without really thinking about it. I decided to go with it and lifted myself higher. I slowly rose to about 20 feet, and then I picked up speed until I got about 100 feet in the air. There were tons of power lines in my way, probably the biggest mess of power cables I'd ever seen, but I dodged them all fairly easily. I then set myself horizontally and prepared to take off. It took me a couple tries to get the right technique. I first tried Hancock style with my arms back, but it kind of made me pitch down towards the ground. Finally, I got it with both hands outstretched. I flew faster than any other time I had tried to fly in a dream (usually I just poke along at a really slow pace, like my flying engine is just a trolling motor). I managed to lift myself higher until I got to space. I continued to fly, while the planets rotated behind me, kind of like the background in the Flintstones. I continued this until my phone vibrating woke me up.

Day 3: LD - 1, FA - 1
Total: LD - 3, FA - 1

Here's the current situation: I've been out all day and I'm physcially and mentally tired. Luckily I'll go to bed early so I'll get about 10 hours of sleep.

My plan for tonight is to figure out a way to get lucid in a dream (DILD). I've re-read the ADA tutorial and I noticed that I did it improperly for a long time. I'm changing this right now as I'm trying to be aware of everything that happens while I'm writing this entry. I can even notice how my fingers hit the keyboard.

When I go to bed I'll meditate for about 20 minutes, trying to completely clear my mind. And when my mind is clear I'll go to bed.

There's nothing to win and nothing to loose, I won't be mad if I don't get lucid as I'll try to get rid of my ego. If I don't get lucid it simply means I have to change something, there's no mistake.

In case I don't get lucid, I'll write down exactly what I dreamed of, how I felt when I wake up and basically anything that I can notice. That way I'll be able to figure out what I need to change.

One thing is important though, and I just figured this out while writing a PM to Windy: I will do the opposite of what I'd normally do now. Instead of thinking about getting aware in my dreams before going to bed (after meditation), this time I'll just try to be myself in my dreams. My real self is doing ADA all the time so by not trying to change myself I should have a pretty decent chance of getting lucid
Also this takes care of the self-fulfilling prophecy of telling myself to wake up in the morning to write down my dreams even though I should be able to wake myself up after my LD's (which basically makes me expect to not get lucid in the end).

Let's see if just completely being myself and stopping my ego will be the solution.

I tried to have lucid dreams last night for the first time officially using RCs throughout the day and repeating my mantra "I will realise that I am dreaming, I will trust my reality checks" (changed it after what happened last night).

Dream 1: woke up within dream, had recorded a video on my phone that I didn't remember recording of myself explaining that I had seen something weird in my room.. the video then turned to my face and recorded something running by behind me, a tall white naked figure

Dream 2: I had saved earth somehow, was in outer space, had to say goodbye to somebody I was in love with in the dream - who was female - and head back to earth

Dream 3: lived in my ex boyfriend's mom's old house - she has passed away in WL - we realised we had never thrown our neighbours a welcome party therefore did and they were insulted with how non-chtristian we were,of random animals running around the house *** just remembered that this dream was connected to the first one - the room from dream 1 was in this house

Dream 4: I did reality checks but was in bed in my dream and decided I wasn't dreaming even though I was able to breathe with my nose plugged and push my thumb through my hand, I now realise also that I was alone in bed which I am not - I live with my boyfriend, I decided to try anyways but couldn't remember any of the monthly tasks haha... I may have tried to sit on an egg... but broke it? Hard to recall.
That is all!

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer/shooter game and there were fights with some huge bizarre creatures, then later i was using some editor to search particular sprite in the spritesheet, finding that there are even bigger creatures than the ones i fought.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was flying with some characters on some kind of air balloon construction, we were discussing something and there was also small dragon with us. We done our mission in the country and we were escaping it. Then the balloon got hit by something and we were forced to land. We use fuel to make construction flammable. Then there's cutscene where some scientist is searching for team and laughing. Then back to balloon construction, that small dragon transforms into human form for some reason and then firebreathes at the construction, setting it on fire. Then we leave.

Not much at the moment but I'm concentrating on WILD & WBTB + WILD at this time...and I'm inching forwards. During every attempt I'm noticing subtle differences...i seem to be getting better at the delicate art of ignoring thinking, rather than trying to stop thinking...and that's when the "rushes" come.

I've been getting good advice from KingYoshi and I've looked through gab's WILD technique. I didn't realise that we have natural REM periods during the day as well as the night...Doh! I've just been rolling into bed at any time of the day...I really need to pin down my REM periods accurately

For the first time last night I think I made the error of falling fully asleep during a WILD attempt. Unusually, the "rushes" were refusing to appear. I did a reality check with my eyes shut, then opened them and so much time had passed that I must have been asleep

All I got last night was one dream with a blatant dream sign* which involved me having a bed in a room where an *office meeting was being held and apparently collapsing onto the bed...and waking later to find some comedian had put ladies fluffy slippers on my feet...are you sure brain? I have this mental image of my addled old brain, struggling to cobble together a dream scenario with wisps of steam coming out the top of it.

I perhaps should try gab's idea of constructing my own dream scenario in-situ to help my own brain along "Here...take this you poor wrinkled old thing...now, hold it steady because here I come." I think I get visualisations...one was a solitary painted flower...nice, but nothing to really hang onto

This is a fascinating journey...Why should I really want to rush the preliminaries?

2 Fragments. 1st before WBTB, 2nd afterwards:

• I am at home with my roommate. An old friend is with us. My roommate is playing video games, while the friend is trying to fool him and making jokes at his expense, I am a passive observer. I have to laugh at some of the jokes, but for some I think they are not funny and this goes too far. I think to myself 'give him some peace'. The friend pretends to leave the apartment, but opens and then shuts the door without leaving, another 'funny' joke. There are 3 doors in the floor, 2 of them make a loud noise when used.
  
  The apartment is the same as my home, apart from the 3rd door. In the dream I notice it but I take it for granted and not as a weird circumstance. Pretty random fragment, nothing too weird or significant.
  
  
• I am in the front passenger seat of a car. The seat is big and soft and comfortable, so is the car. A girl I once dated is driving. We are in Copenhagen, Noerrebro, I see a long and big street ahead of us with two big crossroads and traffic lights. I tell her 'to the right is the place where [name of a friend] lives', she nods disinterested, feel like she does not really notice me talking. The seat belt sits very tight and makes it hard to breathe, I loosen it a bit, but it doesn't help. I try to tell her that I would love to 'do' her again once, if she is interested. I tell her 'no one would know, this is a dream anyways, let's just have sex, in the end it doesn't matter'. Still she seems like (or pretends to(?)) not really noticing me. I get upset and louder and say: 'Hey you know, it's a dream, all of this is not really real, not even you'. Suddenly she looks at me, says nothing but everything is shaking and crumbling, I feel that it is due to her anger. I think to myself 'I shouldn't have said that, of course no one likes to hear they don't exist...' I slowly start to believe my own words, that it is all a dream, so i gain lucidity. But by the moment that I am convinced of dreaming, it is too late; everything has fallen apart already due to knowing it is not real, then I wake up.
  
  Weird, this girl used to troll around in my subconscious for quite a while, but it is rather long time ago. Also how the hell did I not get lucid in a situation, where I try to convince someone that it's a dream. This was pure non-lucid, as there was no active lucid dream time, although I convinced myself to be dreaming, which kinda caused it to end.

I am outside of Colosseum in Rome when i realized i was dreaming. I jumped up to some old stone blocks to get up on the walls of Colosseum. Now i am at the top of Colosseum, and i let myself fall backwards back to the ground, in order to be able to completely trust the dream. I didn't feel the impact to the ground at all. I start walking along a cozy street, where i found i fountain and i drank some water. Weirdly it helped against my thirst. I continue walking along the street, until i found a tiny store. The store had a ice cream fridge, and three sodas on a shelf. I ask a lady in the chair behind the counter how much it will cost, she said three euros. I felt in my pocket and found 10 euros. I give the soda to the man in the counter, but he got a phone call and brought the soda with him. I didn't care so much, i just walked out of the store cause i have a lot to do.

I walk a bit until i realize, i am in my own town. I am just over the buss-station when i hear the horns from the TARDIS from doctor who. The sound is coming from the park close to the buss-station and i ran to it. When i arrive at the park, the TARDIS is already gone. I can now see the TARDIS at the buss-station which i had just left, but now there are a bunch of daleks there as well. I jump up in the air and got shot in the foot by a dalek, it hurted like hell. I fly further and further up and the daleks keeps on trying to shoot me. I use my powers to bring them down to the ground. I start accelerating and i am now going too fast, that made me woke up.

In this dream I had all the parts to build a car from scratch only it was not really a car, it stood for something else, and I think I knew that on some level even in the dream. I rember that I was not in a hurry to put it together, and in the end it was mostly parts still, but I had a better understanding of these parts. I wish I remembered more, I know there was more to it. Oh, I also recall that some people approach the problem backward, but that is also a valid approach.

1. [non-lucid]
I'm on a ship doing gymnastic swinging off the ships ropes and sails while in a sword/fist fight, (probably with a pirate)(I remember thinking: don't fall off the ship as I went quite high) this went on for about 5 minutes.

The pirate knocked me to the floor, I struggled to get up as he attempted the finishing blow, then all of a sudden I was saved (by a bullet?) at the last second by the actual crew of the ship who where held hostage I assume by my attacker.

Captain Jack Sparrow took the ship the wrong way or something, then left the ship

Were on land in some sort of town square (There's a yellow haze on everything as the sun shines down, like a sort of sepia tone), the ground laid with bumpy light-grey cobblestone, there's a cobblestone and wood building to the right, there's a cobblestone road going straight with a dock along it and buildings, there's a building in front of to the left, I think there's a well in the center of the town with a stall across from it. we are searching for Captain Jack Sparrow after he ran away.

Times:
Sleep: 11:10 Attempted DILD
Alarm: 3:00 I hadn't slept before 3 anyway
Wake: 8:00 - 9:00
Got up: 9://

I can remember little extracts from my dream:

Firstly that someone came to our house to buy DVDs from us, sort of like the CEX store in town. One DVD we sold was Stargate season 1 and 2, joined together, making something like £30.

Stargate then traveled over to my next dream, where I felt intrigued by it one day. Looking through the boxes to see how many seasons there were. I somehow saw Quatre and Trowa from Gundam Wing in the series ~ Strange..!

Sunday 6/23/13

Last night bed 12:30?

DR 2:23 Some problem on DV, Linkzelda involved.

DR 7:42 There is a magic pen. It has two pieces and one of them can disappear and then appear back. It's for real, no trick. This was much more detailed, but this is all I wrote down.