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Date: 08 July

Pre bed: 100mg B6

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Sleep quality and recall: I have been sleep deprived for a number of days in a row, so I really needed my sleep. As soon as my more memorable rebound began (after 4.5 hrs of sleep and an involuntary WBTB), I went directly into a lucid, took key notes only, went back to bed to have another chain of lds. Sleep was the priority so only took brief notes. Also due to deeper sleep in which I think these LDs occurred plus them being one after the other, I was going deeper into the dreamworld and some details were lost.

Early dream: I am in some house and think about a family friend who's visiting in the dream. She will sleep in a particular room, I am now in the room and examine two beds, and a very long couch and make some comments about that. Soon she comes in and we start talking. I am very happy to see her, so I hug her and kiss her on the cheek, one side only, and she does exactly the same, which I find a bit strange. She has short ginger/copper hair, a really beautiful color and looks much younger and as if she has lost some weight compared to rl.

Fragment: my dad was involved. I just remember cleaning something outside, wearing a short top which makes me feel uneasy as some guys are staring at me, so I go inside.

LD1: My first memory is that I am standing and possibly I wake in this bed in a room that vaguely reminds me of my first room. It is dark and there is a sense of creepiness and I explore around as the room changes to a larger apartment. Unfortunately, I don't have much memory of what I looked at in the first part of this ld. This took some time and then I look out if the window and see some strange graffiti. This whole thing is moving and it looks like a picture of graffiti next to another picture of graffiti, below and above each more graffiti pictures and some people there as well. It looks insane/trippy. There seems to be some story developing as outside on the street and to the right some kind of danger is making these people on the graffiti window want to run away. I briefly wonder about what kind of supp I took this night and remember it was the B6, which slightly worries me. (I tend to have more aggressive/chaser dreams with it). Yet, I try to control my reaction as I really don't want to spend the ld running from this thing.

I concentrate on other items in the room. Some kind of a cupboard or whatever, I just see thousands of tiny objects, each one is different and unique. I am literally overwhelmed with detail and unable to remember any particular item. The images remain stable. While this is extremely interesting and I enjoy examining these items, I realize that one can sink to uncontrollable depths due to indulging and decide to move on. I see a glass door and just pass through it as if it is nothing, and wonder a bit about that. I also briefly check out my reflection on this glass door. This room is also very dark and I really don't feel like exploring in this condition as I begin to worry I might meet something I am not going to like.

I try to back off but then get paranoid that I am summoning something as I keep on staring at the darkness behind a door. Soon something begins to form there and comes towards me. Luckily, I only managed to get some grey formless furniture to appear from the door and come towards me. As it gets in my proximity, I instinctively lift it with my mind, and hold it in the air for a while. This reminds me of various tasks that were included in the competition, and I go through my own tasks, but most of them involve some DCs. The only one that I remember I can do here is to transform into a tiger. I simply think of that, and possibly because I am so deep into the dream, it is quite easy. I immediately find myself on fours, and check if my paws are those of a tiger, they are! The only problem I seem to have is with my head/neck. There is some tension and I am unable to look ahead as my head is facing the floor. I am trying to fix this but it doesn't work much and I experience all kinds of weird sensations, connected to vision, my body, floating, etc.

I think this is how the dream ends. I wake up feeling very sleepy (some 5 hrs after bed), take some key notes and review in mind as not to forget. I also think that there was another task that I can do without DCs, swallow fireworks. I fall asleep again.

LD2: I find myself in what looks like my first room again, some floating feeling again, and I am in a normal upright position. Something about this whole thing feels weird as I am thinking what the hell am I doing here, I realize this is a dream just like some time ago. The room is dark again and I remember how this is not an issue for Xanous anymore, but it certainly bothers me, it is just unpleasant, and not just the darkness, but rather the whole atmosphere.

I remember that I don't have to be confined to using conventional means so decide I will use a flashlight to help me. (I had previously thought about this) I look around and there are all kinds of things on the furniture but no flashlight. At this time, I remember that there was this other no DC fireworks task that I can still do and look for some fireworks among the objects, but don't find any. My memory is a bit vague as to what I do afterwards. After spending some more time looking around, I finally gather the courage to risk and phase through the wall or some furniture on the wall. It swallows me and I float in the void.

LD3 fragment: I am in some other room but this time it is daytime. I am examining the surroundings, very enthusiastic, but don't remember almost anything. I want to go outside so I carefully climb on the window and try to cross over to the street. As I do, I feel as if I am phasing, but do some movements to emerge through this invisible sticky water-like material, and hold on to the dream. I lose my balance and fall forward, ending up in the void, where I am floating and rolling at the same time.

LD4: I suddenly find myself in a room, that slightly looks like that of bf. Bf is to my left and we are discussing something. I am facing a wardrobe with a mirror and notice that am wearing a long Chinese dress. It looks a bit strange since I can't figure out why am I dressed like that. I take a closer look in the mirror. Not only that but I just look ridiculous, it is oversize, my hair is kind of weird too. This is a dream. OK, so finally I can do TOTM. I hug my bf's DC, hold like that for a while, then wait for a reaction. He doesn't do anything just breathes and there are some hissing-like sounds coming from him. He finally manages to whisper the word "something". I step back and look at him. While I consider him to be my bf he is a different DC now, more like Nicolas D'Agosto.

There is something unpleasant about him, but his proximity triggers some sexual desires on my part and I start thinking of what to do. I tell myself that it is ok to do that if I want to and think about DV and how people are fine with it, and how I am going to report that...So I am very close to him, both of us with clothes and I am struggling with myself as he just waits there. Two opposing forces are acting on me until I finally manage to move away and just observe him for a bit.

I remeber other tasks with DCs - "assign a DC", I feel like there's no sense in doing that, then "ask a DC". This one sounds good so I decide to go ahead and ask him where my phone is. (I lost a phone at home). He is totally dumb and doesn't say anything just assumes some strange waiting for me to jump on him kind of position. The dream fades?

LD5: I am in my high school and bf's mom is also there.I am still lucid but this is extremely hard now as I feel I am sinking deeper into sleep. I am mostly worried that all lucid memories will be totally lost as I haven't journaled and try to remember how many lds I had before. I count four. I continue down the corridor, float and fly up the stars in yet another float/fly style with my hands locked like in a prayer/or like I am swimming. As I float up, I just remember the ld with the tiger transformation and the issues I had with my head. I can somehow compare the experiences and sensations during both events (transformation and current float moving).

My floating is somewhat hard to control not in terms of where I am going but in terms of how I'm seeing. It's like I am in weightlessness turning over randomly, seeing the world upside down, sideways, etc. As I am trying to figure out a solution for these problems, the dream fades, and I if I recall correctly I float in a similar way in the void. Or maybe not. I spent so many dream ends shortly floating in the void that night, it is getting hard to distinguish those.

LD6: I wake up my first room, on the bed, it is dark. I get a bit tired of this scenario. This time I am lying on the bed while some sort of indigo/dark blue energy is attacking me. This does not feel nice at all as I literally sense this thing is energetically feeding on me. I wake up from the nasty feeling.

These dreams took around 30-40 mins of sleep. After waking up, I take some brief notes. The last dream left me a bit distressed so even though I need my sleep badly I am reluctant to immediately fall asleep. I try to dissipate the mood, then go into more unmemorable deep sleep.

LD7: There was another LD that I vaguely as I lost lucidity at some point and then had 3 NLDs. I remember two lucid fragments: one where I was checking out shadows - my own shadow and that of someone else and some objects. I was excited to have finally noticed this. I conclude that the shadows are very realistic and on this occasion there is no difference from RL, at least according to my dream logic at the moment. I also remember organizing an erotic scene, but it got interrupted by other dream themes.

Other dreams: I remember having three NLDs that were cool and interesting, but unfortunately cannot recall as much as I would like to.

NLD: I am having a tiger that I take care of. For some reason this tiger is activated into life and then made to hibernate by being drained and filled with liquids like water and blood. It is a good tiger and I wonder why did I decide to switch it off by taking life away from it. Someone tells me that the more you do that to these types of animals the worse they get every time they come back. The give a list of symptoms that will develop over time, the first one being aggression. I am worried about my tiger and want to bring it to life as soon as I can tomorrow. At the same time, it seems I have another animal, that is some kind of leopard that morphs into a dalmatian/leopard with the head of a bull terrier. This animal already suffers from side effects of the process and is ultra aggressive. I try to lock it in a room and think what esle to do.

NLD: I come across a beautifully decorated box. If contains two strangely shaped crystals, a bit a like the tooth or horn of some animal. These crystals belong to some kind of a ruler/king who has now sold them. They have creepy magic powers that are very strong and can be used to one's advantage
but there's some sort of negative side effect too.

A bit later me and a friend of mine, possibly a classmate go out on a strange street. There is a minor quake and I warn her that there will be another one as this is part of the scenario.

NLD fragment: I am going up some rails that are in the sky. It looks as if I am travelling and want to cross over to Sweden, where there is an invisible track and another one to a nearby location. But who can fly (by himself) for such a long distance?

Comment: The 2-6lds were just following one after the other and I did not touch on my body to DEILD.

decided to start keeping a dream journal again because my recall has been abysmal the past few months.

i do not recall much of the first dream. i remember that the scene was dark and there were several men around. at one point (i do not know if i was awake or still dreaming) i thought to myself that i should try to remember this dream.

later in the night i believe i had a false awakening. i dreamt that i was laying in my bed, and i decided to go back to sleep. my dream began on the bottom floor of a house. i was sort of aware that i was dreaming, and i decided to go up the stairs because it would turn this house into a cool house from one of my favourite dreams (which i had before i started keeping a journal on DV). the house was large and airy with many floors; the top floor was a white gazebo several hundred feet above the ground. i was sitting on a chair in the gazebo and gazing out at the sky. i was still faintly aware that i was dreaming. i tried to give myself a feeling of happiness/euphoria but it did not really work. i became aware of my real-life body and my dream imagery began to fade.

after that i slept fitfully. i would wake up once every half hour or so and return to sleep almost immediately. i had a dream about being at some kind of camp. there was a lot to this dream but i do not recall much. the part i remember took place in a large outdoor pool. it was sunny and warm outside. i asked a man what the temperature was and he said '42 degrees'. i decided to go for a swim but by the time i reached the pool it had been drained. it was full of wet leaves and detritus.

edit: remembered another part of the camp/pool dream. i was with some teenage girls who had some pills that they said were MDMA. most of the pills were pink tablets with imprints but two of them were large black "bars" with white text and hearts on them. i told them i had to analyze the pills before i took them. i recall that i found out the 'bars' were some kind of herbal supplement.

Legend: Lucid, Real Life, Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid

Note to Self:

• Terrible recall
• FILD failed
• Still practicing ADA
• Frustrated

Gym Time:
I was at the gym with some random people,these 2 people were clearly body builders, 1 was wearing a grey shirt and one was wearing a black shirt.

False Awakening:
I woke up and turned straight to my Ipad and was jotting down some small dream details so that I could read them later

i was in an elevator and then a scence changed and there was a dance a guy was making out with a girl. i then went into the elevator confused and woke up

It was another torn world type dream where the civil world seemed to have been abandoned for decades and everything appeared to have been destroyed with nothing but rubble and people struggling to survive.

I was with a group of people and we got together in a warehouse for a meeting or gathering of some sort. Our leader was a woman, medium build, mixed skin and a pretty face. She was kind and promised to help us make the best of this awful situation. I was very attracted to her.

She was scavenging the warehouse for supplies and told us we could help ourselves to anything we want as she bent over to pick up some tools. I was checking out her backside and said to myself "Can I help myself to that?"

I was in a Large slum/ port in Cuba. People kept trying to escape by sea but couldn't due to a curse or something. One man lowered his canoe into the bay, but cracked his head on the brick wall and died. Then there was a riot or something and the police came, all the people started to run. A few blacks would run and trip on their shorts, while the Cubans would keep on running due to belts.

I was on a 1940 German farm with another neighbor. A German soldier came over and enlisted us. I got a tattoo from him, and saw blood droplets come out of my skin. Somehow I ran to avoid being drafted. However I found myself In a prison. I didn't mind too much as there was quite a bit of good looking girls there. Somehow the neighbor busted me out, and we helped a group of 5-6 very tall blond POWs escape. One girl thanked me.

I was at my dads house and the sky was getting cloudy. I said that ive seen it much worse, almost pitch black. Then someone said get inside. I looked up and the sky was closing in from all directions, the clouds were very dark and swirling. Several other people ran down stairs into the basement. I could hear fierce wind outside.

Later I'm in the streets of New York. There was a crashed taxi on the road. My friend and I helped the driver out and she thanked us. Next we all traveled to a secret base that had a circular door. Inside I made a wiring mechanism for the elevator. It worked fine, however the elevator would go side to side. Then I saw a basketball court through the elevator window. I walked over then tried to make a few shots. I missed all, then I decided to walk to a larger court. I said to a player that I needed to score the 11th free throw to win. I then realized I had no clue what free throw we were at so I walked away.

I was hanging out with a group small of people outside of what looked like a childhood home. We were standing in the driveway between two houses. Someone told me that there was an professional escort inside of one of the houses and that she was cleaning herself up in the bathroom because she shit her pants..

I was curious what she looked like because I had heard of her before and I guess I had an appointment with her awhile back but bailed out of it before seeing her.

She came outside and was visibly embarrassed about what happened. Almost to the point of traumatized. She wouldn't talk and just stood of to the side.

I looked at her and couldn't help but notice how attractive she was. She was gorgeous and I thought to myself how much I regretted not showing up to that appointment.

There is a massive shoot out going on. I am carrying a MTAR-21 Carbine in the gunfight. Our team is pushing through the streets and we push the enemy back into a building. I move into the building and sneak up stairs to a window. I jump down two stories and am now behind the enemy. I rush in the back doors and see the last enemies. I unload bullets onto them and kill them. However a few escape. My team and I begin to pursue. We rush downstairs after the enemies and then outside. When we arrive outside they're gone. But we see a wall behind us in which would be hard to climb, so we assume they moved up road. There's a bus waiting and we forcibly board it. I sit down in the back and my teammates sit up front. As we wait for the bus to move we get a sudden shocking surprise. A bomb now goes off on the bus! The two remaining enemies rigged it! After the shock of the explosion, I realize that I'm still alive. The bus is in flames and I'm still on board. I quickly rush to the doors of the bus through the smoke and flames and exit. I'm horribly shocked right now from the explosion. I notice an unaware enemy soldier running away. I rush after him and quickly grab him and I handcuff him. My gun was lost in the explosion. I now take a moment to catch my breath as I celebrate from catching the terrorist. My celebration doesn't last long however, when the suspect breaks his cuffs off and runs away. The other missing enemy soldier soon jumps out and follows him. They climb over the wall and flip me off as they do so. Rather than chase them, I simply return with a double bird flip as they climb over to safety.

The dream transitions into another city night scene. I would spend twenty minutes typing up what all happened but the whole dream was literally me fucking walking. Near the end of my walk, I'm coming up a hill towards home. I notice the most peculiar clouds in the sky. They're red clouds in the night. I walk up the sidewalk and I realize I have no shoes all of a sudden. Home is still a good five minute walk away and I'm exhausted. But I'm not getting getting home just standing around I guess. I continue to walk, intrigued by the red clouds. I soon realize the sun is coming up. It's about dawn, and I realize if I'm not home before my Dad gets up I'm screwed. I finally reach my neighborhood which seems extremely different from what my dream self remembers(it's nothing like real life as normal, but my non-lucid self sees it as different from earlier in the dream). I see a lake, construction, and many new houses. I walk around until I see my Dad. My Dad looks at me in shock, as if he's seen a ghost. He's utterly shocked to see me. He now explains how he hasn't seen my in 20(I think) years. I'm really weirded out, and my Dad tells me to go home and see my Mother. I'm confused, because my Mom and Dad are divorced, but I go with it. I walk to my apparently new house I've never seen before and enter. Even though it's been twenty years I appear to not have aged a day. I think I've warped forward in time. I for some reason have left no future self behind. If you think about it, that would make sense. If you remove yourself from time, you shouldn't be in another. But anyway, I walk in and explain to my Mom that it's me, her son. She is shocked as well. She explains to me about how strict the government has been. She was taken away from her new husband and forced to be with my Dad, and my brothers forced to move out on their own. It's all very strange. I now decide to go upstairs. I enter a bedroom, supposedly my parents'. I see one small bed, windows, and whatnot. I see an alarm clock with red numbers. I now feel very very weird, and I contemplate a reality check, but I instead smile as I become lucid. I turn around and head downstairs. My Mom is coming up the stairs in tears, rambling and rambling on. "Mom, calm down this is a dream!" I say, trying to experiment reactions. My Mother seems to not have heard me. "Mom, calm down this is just a dream!" My Mom now becomes serious-faced and looks at me. She shapes her fingers into a pretend gun and points it at me.
"I'll kill you," she says coldly. I now ignore her and walk outside of the house. I see my Dad walking back up the yard.
"Alright then son, stay out of my fucking house," he says calmly with a warm smile as if it's a good thing.
I now walk down the sidewalk and I remember I have the TOTM to do! Which one do I do first though? I can fly over to the lake and write my name in the sand, but decide to do so later. I now decide to punch a leader first. I imagine Kim Jong Uen is coming down the street. I look around through a crowd of people and see Kim, his dad, and a body guard or two. I say hi and walk up to him. He looks frightened and runs away. His dad and guards seem to not be shocked. His dad shots to him to return. I instead rush after Kim at high speed, quickly catching up and grabbing him. He struggles as I pull on him.
"Come on Kim!" I say. "The media will love this!"
Kim now rips his suit jacket off and begins to run towards the lake. I notice night is already coming, and people are gathering by the lake for something. Kim is running for the tall grass in the shallow end of the lake. I rush again and catch him again. I pull us both to the ground as I notice the people are watching a movie trailer for a live action South Park movie. Really odd and out of place the future is I think as I look back to Kim.
"Take this!" I shout, and I slug him in the face. He shouts in pain, and his body guards are now running towards me, as well as his dad. I run past them them and turn around to face them. I spawn a firework rocket in my hand and I eat it. As I prepare to fire it I awake.

WBTB after 1,5 hours of sleep - MILD

3 step tasks and TOTM

I ride a bike on the forest road in the night. I don't have a bike and I don't like riding a bike. I realize that I'm dreaming. I stop and try to remember what I want to do in LD. Yes, i want to complete TOTM. I need to hug somebody, but there is nobody in the dark forest. I try to summon somebody behind my back. 5 sec later I hear voices coming to my post. I turn around and I see three guys. I run to them and jump to one of them. I hug him hard . Other two guys run quickly away. The guy who left is realy suprised what the hell is going on. When I release him he tells me that he didn't expect this at all. Okay what next, oh yes, I want to teleport to prehistoric times and see a dinosaur. But how? Time machine, I need time machine. How about time machine from this bike? I try to summon screen with the date. It is hard but after like 5 minutes of imagination the screen appears. The date on the screen is 7. 7. 2013. I ride it and set up the date 7. 7. 1989 for start. But nothing happened. Time machine doesn't work. Okay what next? Oh three step tasks... just remember what it was about. Got it: Summon somebody - check, interact with DC - check, eat something - not yet. I see a mill. I go inside. I try to find something to eat. I find nothing. Maybe I could summon something to my pocket. I put my hand in my pocket and take out a package of salted peanuts. I eat one. It's salty, but good. In the saloon room, there are people. Most of them are from my family. I give them some peanuts and go away. In the kitchen I see large cage with parrots and budgies in it. They have chains on their paws, so they can't fly away. The cage is open. I go out from this building. Awekening.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was at home and there was a weird noise coming out from a router(i don't even have router IWL).

Dream 2:

I was apparently typing dreams into dreamviews DJ, remembering ones from earlier(fake memory i guess, or?), i had already had many typed, more that usual, huge walls of text. I decided to reread them while visualizing. One was about some kind of base, which then turned into XCOM-like fight on that base.
As i was reading i was interrupted by family and there was talk about sleeping schedule, but i refused to change it. I was back to checking DJ and was one about battle in AI War and some missile frigates, clearing up the territory. Then i had one lucid dream i was typing as well(Except it was not lucid, but i was thinking it's lucid when was typing), in which i was at home and was ambushed by some robotic drone, but saw it's reflection and punched it away before it could do anything. Before i could finish typing/visualizing, dream ends.

Fishing in prehistoric times

I'm fishing with my friends at prehistoric pond in the night. I catch wierd lookin fish. It looks like fish/dinosaur/reptile animal. It has about 40 cm. We meet prehistoric man, he has bone necklace. He is angry at us, so I make him fear us and he runs away.

Party taste

I'm in the park in the city, where i was born. I get invitation on my iphone to some party. On invitation card there is photo of people whom have attended party before.

A. school

I go in a classroom. I see my desk mate from hightschool and some other girls. I sit next to boy M. and I take off my hoodie.

Night: July 8th
Morning: July 9th
Bedtime: 11:31 PM
Waketime: 6:25 AM

Mantra: I remember my dreams

Start of night:

Woke up at 1:30 AM

Notes- Thoughts (or non-visual dreams) about being aware I'm dreaming in my mind. Odd feeling

Up till 2:01
Up till 3:08
Tossing and Turning
Up till 3:40

Woke 6:25 for work

Remember nothing


End of night


Vividness: None
Thoughts: Maybe tomorrow I can make up for this, weird gap in sleep for almost 2 hours. Wasn't tired, couldn't fall back asleep. I don't take any medication so that doesn't help.

Not a very good night, just about get to sleep with both legs aching.

1.
Nothing, I remember nothing.

In this dream my mother was searching for a daughter of hers who had disappeared years ago. On the other hand she had kidnapped a boy to be her child in return.

Some distant relatives (who don't exist in real life) were visiting from out of town, and they had originally not planned to include my mother in their dinner get togethers because they blamed her for not giving up on finding her daughter. But because my mom had prepared sweets they liked, they included her in all their get togethers after all but as a second tier family member. I remember thinking that those relatives ate too much.

What complicated matters further was the child my mother had kidnapped was a child of those relatives of ours but they did not know that she had him.

In my dream I was talking to this boy, and telling him that his kidnapping was wrong and should have been reported to the police, but that my mom who now was his mom loves him very much. I said that I am to blame too, because I could have reported it to the police but chose not to, because I love him very much too. He said "Yea yea yea, whatever." That is something this boy often says in real life. I hugged him, and he was even more skin and bones than he is in reality, and in reality my son is very skinny - yes, the boy whom my mother had kidnapped in my dream, in reality is my son (and let me assure you no one in our family got kidnapped ever).

The hug was tight, and bittersweet, i felt deep love and remorse. As I hugged my son (whom I believed to be my kidnapped brother) in the dream, we were in a hallway, and there was some sort of bed frame there but not a full bed. The place was a mess. He commented on it why couldn't this bed be reassembled, and why couldn't he sleep here.

I am not sure, but I think I woke up after this.

I staid up a bit longer deliberately once my bed was free before going back to bed, but fell asleep without any awareness and was too tired to even remember right away that I had attempted to WBTB let alone anything after.

fragment: work related fragment. I was talking with people I do not usually interact with at work. They were commenting in an email exchange I had in real life with someone they work with. And they also told me something I did not know that I will need to periodically contact someone (don't know who or why) because a former coworker of mine it was his responsibility, so now it is mine. I said nobody told me, and I was grateful for their advice.

I rode an Aerial lift in my town in the park, understood that it cant be, made RC, jumped and decided to make a portal to Jurassic period . I draw a square on the ground and jumped in it. I wasn't in the jurassic, i was in the same place, but there were ruins around me. The park was like jungles. I saw a big wild cat and it wanted to kill me. It jumped, but i hit him with my arm and it fell down. This action made me awake, but i lied without mooving and soon had a DEILD.
DEILD
I was in the same dream, in the corner i saw abandoned sandbox with wet sank. I went to it and wrote my name АНЯ in a moment the first and the last letters changed their place and it was ЯНА. In real my kid woke me up. End.