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This DJ Entry is a duplicate of this post. I wanted to post in in my DJ to give me motivation to write my dreams here, but as it contains some questions and other informations, I thought posting it in the forum would be more appropriate.
Sorry to the admin and moderators if it's a problem, and feel free to edit/delete it if needed.

Hello,

Intro

This will be my first journal entry, so let me introduce myself and my little experience first.
As you can read in my introduction post, I first signed-up on this website in 2008, short after discovering Lucid Dreaming ! This idea seemed incredible and awesome to me, so I read a lot about it. But unfortunately, I wasn't enough commited to it, and with studies and other things, I rapidly stopped practicing.

Since then I once had a lucid dream without even trying, were I understood I was dreaming because I was driving a "bumper car" on a road (I noticed "wait... it can't work, there is no electricity... Hey, but it must be a dream"), but I got so excited that I woke up after a few seconds !

And last week, as I had a little spare time alone, I thought about Lucid Dreaming and Dreamviews (thanks DV for wishing me my birthday since then, helped me remember this forum ). So I decided to come back, and this time, to be FULLY COMMITED. I started reading some tutorials as I forgot almost everything I read about it back in 2008, but I only read basic ones. [Next thing I will read is the KingYoshi's ADA tutorial, and the long "Naiya's DILD & WILD secrets", that both seem great ways to begin my journey in the dream world ]

Enough history :p ! Now, to the real deal :
During the night of Sunday to Monday, after only three days wandering on DV and on the chat, I had another completely unvoluntary LD (by unvoluntary I mean I did not do any RC as I didn't start practicing it, nor pronounced a mantra etc.) ! So I thought the best thing would be to begin a Dream Journal to help me improve my Dream Recall, and get some feedback and advices about my journey through lucidity.

I will try to keep a color-code for my DJ :
- blue will be a normal dream
- green will be lucid moments
- red will be dream thoughts, like thoughts that helped becoming lucid, or problems and remarks

My first LD

Let's start with my first lucid dream of my DK :

As it's been two days I had this dream, I must say I don't really remember how it started, nor I remembered it well when I woke up this night. But I will try to retranscript what I noted on my cellphone (in an attempt to remember it later) :
I think the dream is pretty mixed-up, as I noted that I dreamt about playing video-games with my brother and some friends, then I was in a restaurant, trying to find somewhere to relieve my bladder, and ended up peeing on a restaurant-table (WTF ? O_o), but got caught and had to clean it up.
The next thing I remember is that I was in my old High School trying to find the exit, and it was night and completely DARK. When I got to the exit, I was on a lawn, but couldn't see anything because it was completely black, and I lost something [my phone I think]. But I couldn't see anything, so I slipt my hand in my backpocket to retrieve my phone, and used the camera light as a torch to search the lawn... and... surprise, I found a cellphone. But before I picked it up, I noticed another one on the ground... and another one just beside it. I began picking phones, and finding more and more phones. Even a tablet ! I thought "yeah, I'm rich now .
Then I noticed a particuliar phone, my girlfriend's one. And the same just beside, and a third time... and... this is when I thought "Wait, I can't find the same phone model 4 times on the ground. Nor can I find so many phones. So... SO THIS IS A DREAM. Oh my god it's a lucid dream, again [again because I remembered having one, once]. I looked around me, and it was no longer night. I could see that I was now in my mom's house garden, just by a birch tree. It was not really clear and vivid but I noticed some details, like this tree and some plants, the house behind etc.
I got really excited, like the first time, so I said to myself "Let's find something cool to do, before I wake up. QUICK ! THINK !"
But I didn't read any good informations on what to do to keep lucidity and stay calm the first time, so the first thing that came to my mind "Let's try to fly". I didn't know how to achieve this, so I just tried to jump as hard as I could. [at this moment I was under the birch, so not really handy]. So I jumped and concentrated a lot ! I did not fly, but I was able to feel myself levitating in the air, like I was able to fight gravity ! It was exciting but there was a problem, like I lost sensation... and suddenly everything became blurry and darker... and I woke up a second later, disappointed that It didn't lasted more !

Needless to say, what woke me was an urge to pee, so I woke up, went to the toilet, and started noting what I remembered on my cellphone. I was disappointed but happy at the same time, as I wasn't expecting a LD so "soon" ! And even if I made a very long Journal Entry, the lucid part of the dream only lasted a few seconds, I'd say 10 or 20 seconds, barely longer than the first time.

Conclusion and questions

The reason I made this post so long is I could have some advices on where to begin looking on this forum to start, what techniques or tutorials or DV Academy courses to follow (I'm thinking about taking a look at gad's DILD classes).
If anybody here has an advice on what I could do to take advantage of this kind of lucidity (I didn't do any RC but noticed strange things. I'm a very pragmatic and scientific person, so if something is "unexplainable", it's not reality ^^. But this kind of lucidity only happned twice), or what I should do to notice I'm dreaming more often. And more importantly, how I could make it lasts and not wake up after 10 seconds


Last but not least, thank you to the people in the Dreamviews IRC chat, and especially gab who told me "reading DV is a very good LDing tool on its own". I guess she was right

I remember being in my living room with my Brother and my Father. We were talking about something. I knew I was dreaming at the start of the dream but didn't bother to do an RC until a bit later. I said to my brother that this is a dream. His response was with anger, so I said I was joking. I think I may have done an RC at this point. I could feel a lot of control over the dream now. The meditation I've being doing has definitely helped me maintain concentration in the dream and stay lucid for longer. I walked into my garden and started to hover upon the grass. I was gradually lifting up, higher and higher. Until I had full control over the flight, I flew over my garden and had a wonderful view of beautiful scenery. I was flying over a colorful forest and saw lovely autumn trees, I saw someone I knew smiling at me while I looked over the beautiful land.. It was truly wonderful. The dream faded away.

I was with my Mother and we were walking down a road, trying to find this Ferry that would take us to France. We were going to go for a day trip there. I lost her so I had to find my own way there. I then remember having to jump onto the Ferry. It was risky but I made it. I went down to the second floor and this is I think were I came to a realization that this was a dream. However, I wanted to carry on with the flow of the dream. My family were together and happy, I hadn't been told much just that we were going to France for a day and that we were going to a restaurant first. The ferry came onto ground and was going through a car park, I was kind of confused so I asked aren't we on a boat? I can't remember the answer though, but we pulled up in front of 'France'. We got out into this car park, apparently the restaurant was in this mall that was close by. We walked towards it. When we got there it was nothing like I expected, I remember seeing McDonalds being spelled differently and on the other side was this 'restaurant'. It was more of a fast food venue. We walked inside and it looked very common. We sat down and I don't remember much more after that other than being back in the Ferry and looking at a leaflet about travelling to new york.

The next thing I remember is being in some town. I saw some of my friends also. I became aware I was dreaming. I remember showing my friends a magic trick. There was this object which I threw at them, then made it disappear. I continued throwing it around the place and making it disappear. They seemed amazed, but not that amazed as I thought they would be. So I tried something else, I walked over to this glass window that had items on show on the other side. I changed the color of these in the click of my fingers. They seemed to think it was cool. So I asked them to give me a color, I remember them saying "Nutella" so I thought of it and changed it to that color. I then remember doing an RC. The dream then shortly ended.

Fragment that I don't know which dream they belong too:

I was back at school, in the ICT building. I was with 2 friend's.

1. [Semi-Lucid]
I'm laying in bed with no covers over me and completely naked, my friend (Nathan) is sat at the side of me in his wheelchair, {I thought to myself, shit I'm naked he's gonna see everything}.
Nathen then turned, stood up (He cant stand IWL and I knew that while in the dream), he then leaned over and started tickling me, (I felt uncomfortable and embarrassed but not as much as I would have been IWL as if my emotions where numbed) I got annoyed so he stopped and sat back down. He then started touching my penis which actually woke me up.

Fragments:
I was going to facetime Alex so all 3 of us could talk with my iPhone.
Me & Nathan had a small fight, some pinching & nail stabbing.

Notable Items & People:
Nathan

2.

fragments:
Was in bed and got told to sit on the edge of the bed.

Notable Items & People:
Mum, Person, Window ledge, Bed blanket, my knees

f - I'm cooking something with beans I think

WBTB - breakfast - 3 hours awake - MILD

Attempt to have sex wtih N.

Appartement. I'm standing on a small open passage from the bedroom to the living room probably. I looks like a student flat. There is a sleeping boy in the bed. I call another guy to tell him if he could asks my ex.exGF N. let she comes to me. After a while she comes. I say to her that I have my iphone frozen because of her number and I want to delete it. She tell me that I do this stuff on purpose every time. I stand infront of her and I look into her eyes. She is beautiful. I think I miss her a bit. She looks at me and say: "Your head is somehow getting bigger" What? I do RC with my wach. Time is 10:33, look away - time 10:34, look away and now the time is 10:40. Oh I'm dreaming! I look at her and I definitely wanna have sex with her. I tell her go to bed and take off your clothes. She goes. I try to stabilize dream by rubbing my hands and shouting STABILIZE DRAEM! Dream is very vivid now. I do half spinning technique to be really sure. Now I cannot wake up I think. Everything is really stable and the room is very colorfull. This is my dream and I'm in control of it I say to myself. I watch her naked in bed. There is this sleeping guy, but he is in the other corner of the big bed, so it's okay . I stand beside the bed infront of her. She takes off my pants and I start having oral sex. After 2 sec awakening. Damn!!!

So I've decided to do a 30-day challenge of using the SSILD technique. I have experimented with the technique before with somewhat mixed success. So this time I'm going to use nothing but SSILD for the next 30 days and record how many LD's and FA's I get. So here we go:

Day 14

(I missed two days, one because I got up really early and one because I went to bed really late.)

Went to bed a little after 1, got up at 5:45, and went back to sleep at 6:00. I woke up at about 9:30. There was one lucid dream followed by a non-lucid, but since I had to be at work at 10:45, I didn't have time to write them down or type them out. And since I just got off work, this is the first chance I've had - 10 hours after I woke up. In other words, I don't remember a lot of the dreams.

1. I was at some party at this big house. I only remember two scenes. In one, I was in this bathroom covered only by a towel. I looked at where I thought the mirror was, and there were two girls looking towards me from the other side of this apparently long bathroom. I wrapped the towel tighter, making sure to cover my, um, private parts... The second scene was my friend opening this refrigerator completely full of Caprisun. Somehow that made me lucid. I didn't try to do anything right off the bat. I just wanted to become more lucid, so I tried doing RC's and focusing on my senses. Unfortunately, I either woke up, had an FA, or the dream went black.

2. I was at my good ol' grocery store that is in every dream that I have, except this time it looked different. The aisles and departments were in the same general area and format, but the ceiling and walls were really high, like at Home Depot, and the aisles and speedways were really wide, like at Walmart. It was closing time and I was supposed to mop, but I also had to take back one of the electric handicapped shopping carts. I dragged the mop head behind me as I drove down each aisle with the cart.

Day 14: LD - 1, FA - 0
TOTAL: LD - 9, FA - 8

I was at a park where some sort of event was going on. I remember watching this huge mechanical cheetah move around.

Then it started. That pain I occasionally get when dreaming. It is centered in the back of my head/top of my neck. I started to panic. I ran up to a man that looked like an official at the event. I told him about my pain. He reached around and started rubbing his finger on the back side of my head where the pain was. This was a huge mistake. every time he ran his finger over the spot, my body tensed and stiffened with pain. The pain was so excruciating I couldn't speak to tell him to stop. Finally I managed to whisper out the word, "Stop."

As soon as I did this I slowly started to awaken. The pain lingered. I reached up with my hand (but now realize it was still my dream hand) and touched the spot. There was a soft lump, like a vein or nerve was pushing out from my head. I tried to wake up faster. I knew from past experience that the pain went away when I was fully awake.

It seemed to take forever, but finally the pain was gone, and I was lying in bed so thankful to finally be pain free.

I have always wondered about this phenomenon. It happens regularly, but not too often (maybe once a year). The pain is always the same intense pain in the same place. But it always goes away when I awaken.

Dream 1:

I was in some militaristic video game, at first WW2 themed but later a bit more modern/futuristic. There was story about some countries that were not on war for a good while, but then one decided to start attacking the city. I apparently just arrived to that city which was getting invaded by enemies and had to retreat from a whole horde of them, allies were holding them off but only long enough for me to ask some people and figure out best way to retreat. I was going through a few cobble streets then into some alley, then arriving into some fence maze. I had to find way through and dodge some enemy squads and an helicopter, getting hit some times and losing HP, in the end i had only 19 left. Eventually allied chinook arrived, i got in and we took off. Then we had to fight enemy chinook and that other helicopter that was attacking me whole time, but soon we managed to fly out of city and end the mission.

Dream 2:

I was in some rich home place and i had multiple brothers and sisters, one of which was some kind of a prince. We were talking about some stuff then i went searching something in internet and there was some gaming site with red-dark visual theme, full of elitists. I thought that i should take a vacation on some island or something.
Then i went to play some RTS video game with one of brothers. It started with two cities, mine's and his, and we had to mine resources and advance through tech tree. We had forcefields that acted like ones from AI War and lost of various buildings, and we were pretty near each other. I was scouting the map also with some units, also the units were created part by part, with some choices in chassis, armor, weapons and such. I started slowly attacking with a few tanks, draining his forcefields, but then suddenly he started spamming his tanks and doing massive attack, almost breaking my main forcefield and destroying bunch of stuff. At the last second i made special unit as my 'hero' unit, which used resources each shot and his shots could 'eat' enemy shots which turned into resources, and also it was very powerful, and with lots of enemies making shots it turned them into enough resources to cover the requirement per shot. It would have been good but i misclicked and turned my hero unit into some weird brown creature that spawned on the other side on the map. Enemy was out of resources tho, as he stopped making tanks, so i was fine.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some FPS where i with some group had to hunt down some people from some gaming company that was really bad. We were traveling around some roads.

Dream 4(fragments):

There was some anime, group of people were exploring forest and there was some group of enemies. They started the fight but then enemies were blasted with blue blast from out of sight.

Dream

I'm coming out of some college building with my friends, we stop to wait from the rest of them in the meantime i look to a glass and i see my reflexion, I'm normal but my hair is bigger and I have reamers in my ears.

After this I'm sitting on some grids, all my classmates are there, we are talking about our grades and two colleagues say they had 13.8 in a test to what i reply that I had 13.2 in the same test.

In the next stage of the dream I'm in a mansion, I'm just looking around, suddenly I have the feeling that my crush is about to get in so hide myself in the stairwell, she goes up the stairs and she starts opening doors like she is looking for something.

I climb the stairs and i see she is in a room, the door is opened, I walk in quietly and i try to scare her with a BOOOH. She doesn't even blink, we both sit on the bed and she says:
-" We need to talk things through!"
I'm really happy for this but this is too good to be true so i reply:
-" I can't, because this is a dream!" ... then I think " WHAT ? WAIT A MINUTE"... I do the nose plug RC and I can breath through.

The girl standing in front of me is now a different one, the dream starts fading so I scream and it works for some seconds but then it starts to fade again, I scream again and the girl starts screaming too and I wake up.

Now this is the really weird/awesome/scary part when i wake up i hear someone laughing behind me and I assume is my little brother laughing at me because I was screaming, I open my eyes and a see a old man sitting on my room's chair, is a old fat man, dressed in a black suit with a white shirt. Now i Know that you are probably thinking I was having a false awakening, well I was not!!! The old man disappeared after 5 seconds and I did a RC , I was awake.

This was really weird because I never heard about nothing like this, this doesn't fit into any category I know, I was scared as shit.

Dream

My older brother just got home from France, everybody is welcoming him, after this we all go to the garden but I leave because I'm feeling really dizzy, I walk below the branch of a tree when i look up again i see my crush.

I'm in a clothes store and i realise my crush from college is there, i look at her but she ignores me, for some reason i'm sitting in a black bad right in the middle of the store. I get up and i start walking towards her, and i ignore her, i walk more three steps and i see a girls that i assume is her older sister.

My crush calls me, she is now sitting on the bed, I sit beside her and we kiss when we stop kissing she is a completely different and I ear someone call for Dinis.

In a next stage of the dream I'm in a bus, I'm looking for a free sit but i can't sit because is raining a lot inside the bus. I arrive in a train station, I know this because i ear a conversation about a train that goes from Brasil too Japan, i look closer around me and this train station really looks like the bus station of my city.

I see a friend of mind, it looks like he is fixing a car, suddenly his girlfriend arrives in a expensive car like a Mercedes and i noticed she is wearing my John Lennon sun glasses and i say it to my friend, when she gets out of the car i ask for them.

One dream about my brothers from when they were smaller (~3 years ago maybe) and one fragment about DV after WBTB:

• I am at my grandmother's house, sitting at the kitchen table. I haven't been around in a long while, possibly the longest while since I moved out from home. So I have this feeling that I am a rare and honored guest.
  
  The father side of my family (father, his wife and my small (half-)siblings) is coming for a visit, as they often do. They all go into the basement to look for me, except my two youngest brothers. I walk along the hall with the familiar tiles. I say hi to them, they look small and sweet, my grandmother sits on a couch right next to them. They don't look at me and act a bit shy, but I know this will pass quickly. It's been a while after all, I think.
  
  I carry the youngest to the big glass slide door leading to the terrace and I can see his reflection in the glass. His arms are soft and still a bit baby-like. He is wearing a sweater with black and white stripes, but no pants. I ask 'how old are you now?', while I'm guessing he is probably 2 right now. Suddenly my other brother (1 1/2 years younger than me) is there and he has to laugh at the whole situation. I ask him 'do you remember when we were so small?' and by thinking about that, I also have to laugh.
  
  Beautiful dream, thank you. Nothing odd or overwhelming, just natural. Vivid in tactile and visual experience. Definitely memorable for me personally.
  
  
• I dream about the DV-forum. There is so much to read. So much information from various sources. I browse the sections I find interesting or entertaining.
  
  The posts are somehow transferred live. I get the messages directly (by reading and telepathically), while they are written and created. I can literally watch a thread or a post while it is being formed. Some contributions are rather redundant, but others are interesting; there is a great variety. I stick to the messages of the members I trust.
  
  Can't remember any particular people, but I would not name names if I could anyways .
  
  Somehow they telepathically try to explain the mechanism of the forum. They show how posts and threads are formed around topics and they explain the best way to pose a question. They try to connect them with each other in the way it makes the most sense. They manually draw lines between posts and topics and they tie them together with bands. So there is a big and interconnected web of meaning and syntax forming in front of me.
  
  This came after WBTB. I know this is a small fragment of a big dream, but this is all I can recall from it. This fragment is the result of me reading a lot on DV the previous day. I like how my subconscious processes my daily actions and hands it back to me in a neat little picture story.

I was having a nonlucid about being in a college class. Suddenly all the students starting moving the desks in little rows in the back of the class, so that we could all see the professor's desk better? Something like that. Anyway, after all the seats were rearranged, it situated me right behind a pretty cute guy! Not what i typically go for; he was a little taller than me, light brown hair with one of those hats like ACDC wears. HE was wearing a red flannel plaid shirt, and had a little goatee. Very reminiscent of the guys back in my college days. he flashed me a couple flirtatious looks, before finally asking me out. I think I gave him my number, I seem to vaguely remember struggling with the number (irl I just got a new iphone and number, so it was hard to remember in the dream lol). After class we walked down the hall together, talking about I can't remember what. Our arms swung to our sides as we walked close, occasionally grazing a finger on the other's hand. I was tempted to just hold his hand, but I didn't want to give away so much before the first date.

That's all i remember from that dream. When I woke up, I was thinking about him. Then I went back into a nonlucid dream about college again. I was headed to a class, when I saw the same guy. I thought to myself "I Just had a dream about this guy!" Yay lucid. I was pretty elated that this DC found me again, and now that I knew it was a dream, I didn't have to play hard to get anymore. I went straight up to him and grabbed him by his stupid flannel collar and kissed him square on the lips. It felt gooooood but I closed my eyes and woke up.

It was time to get up anyway.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Third Person mission:
In this dream, i spectate 4 different people. One person, which i think is me, is guarding something inside this huge machine carrier vehicle. Inside the vehicle is a mech, and behind the mech is me, as i'm guarding, another person lands on the vehicle with his mech, the person gets out and infiltrates the vehicle. He gets to my room and we fight. I can't remember who wins.

The other 2 people i spectate are two people fighting in mechs.

Burned betrayal:
I'm in my house, and my mother is cooking something. As i approach, she then takes a hot pot with boiling water in it and smacks my hand. My hand then gets burned pretty bad. I run out of the house, outside it's night and the sky is abnormally dark.

Dragon Truth:
I'm on a bridge, people dress like they would in the middle ages. It's very crowded. There are various shops scattered around. As i see myself walking, a dragon awakens in a distant land. As it does, i'm forced to go around and tell the truth to people. This means i basically tell them what i really think about them. I remember walking up to some shops and shouting rude comment at people. I also remember getting a glimpse of a dangerous looking person that seemed to be located far away.

Friends piano:
I'm in my room with two friends i know, one is playing some sick dream theater tunes on the piano. After a while of that, another friend calls me up and tells me to meet in front of a store. I get to the store and my friend isn't there but rather, a group of other people i know. The group is being led by a mysterious painted talking face.

Card shopping:
I'm with my cousin, we're in a giant shopping mall, we're on like the 40th floor of this giant building. It's night time and the store is closing and no guards are around. So i tell my friend to steal some yu-gi-oh cards but then these two asian kids come around and they start trolling us. At one point, i'm pretty one of them sprayed some stuff in my face. However, two guards eventually come up and tell us to leave.

Focused dimension power:
It's daytime, and i'm at a park in some big urban city. I'm standing by a fountain, the fountain has tons of pretty girls by it. As i walk around, i eventually see my two friends waving at me from the top of a really tall sky scraper. I start running and make it up there. Once all three of us are out of public view, we unleash our dream powers and i open a dimension portal in which time is infinite. The portal only stays open for a short amount of time, so i quickly send my friend in there while casting various spells to maintain the portal, and as i have about 7 seconds left, i pull him back out.

Foreign Half life:
I'm watching this foreign person play half life 2. I eventually see him stop playing and i get to see his family and what not, he had a pretty chaotic house.

Date: July 8, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (I keep falling asleep during my WILD attempts, so I decided to forgo it tonight)
Total sleep time: 6-7 broken hours of sleep, kept waking up and having a hard time going back to sleep (Damn you insomnia! )

Dream

Dreamed I was doing a research study on how children turn out as adults if they slept in their parents bed for most of their childhood. The results indicated that these children grew up to need much more attention than other children, these children may also be more susceptible to drug and alcohol usage from lack of coping skills, and their parent's marriages failed early due to the lack of sex (I have no idea where this dream came from ).

Frag

Dreamed I had several tattoos covering my entire body but I had no memory of how they got there .