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okay so i was in class then the scenc suddenly changed.we wre at a resrot place and the teachers were getting mad so everyone started having fun and stuff thats all i remember

dream 1: Bears country vacation with issues
We were vacationing in what was Bears country, but someone who knew and liked my husband gave him and my boys a special dispensation that would allow them to wear Green Bay Packers shirts, but shirts only not hats and such. Our car broke down, and the wheels had already been taken off, and I was carrying it with one hand by an open window to the mechanics. My husband was already there. He said the mechanics would fix this for free because they had an agreement with the mechanics that had failed to fix this in our area, but they still needed a valid credit card to run to check our credit, and my husband only had an expired card. So I gave them my card. Even though i was the one lugging the car, and providing the credit card, i looked to my husband for guidance on what to do. I remember thinking that I hated this vacation, but was not going to say anything because I knew the boys loved it.

dream 2: spies and memory wiping
So in this dream we were spies of some sort, or maybe amateurs who had found out spy stuff. I was male, and was traveling in separate cars from my wife. We needed to go through a checkpoint. I went through giving my story, but then circled back because I thought I needed to coach my wife in which story to give. I waited a long time, only to discover she had made it to the other side without my help.

We were given a chance to help the spy network (we had wanted to be involved), however with the understanding that afterwards the memories of our involvement would be erased. Some people could successfully function with partial memory; whereas, for others the destruction of those memories was too much especially after this procedure was done repeatedly, so we were advised to make a living will if we would like to be killed if we became like vegetables after memory erasure.

I woke up and I had it but then it faded and now its gone, still need to work on my recall.

1.
Lost it.

I left school at the end of May. I met this boy 2 years ago at school, we didn't have a close relationship but we were friends. He had a personality that somehow made me smile he was funny and caring and had a flirty side that made me feel special. I have a boyfriend and have been with him for the same amount of time that I have known this other boy. On the last day the other boy gave me a cuddle and that was it. But I keep dreaming about him!

Dream1: we were talking at school, he sat on the edge of a table I was stood infront of him and he pulled me onto his lap. This somewhat felt normal in my dream. I woke up and felt really guilty.

Dream2: the boy was walking me home from school. This never happened in real life. The school didn't look like my school and the location wasn't the same. He was holding my hand and he suddenly stopped swung me around and kissed me passionately we continued to walk lips still attached. I looked at the time said I had to go, he embraced me and gave me another kiss and I ran away. And again this seemed normal. I woke up and again felt guilty and confused.

Last nights dream: it was a party. Not sure what the party was for. But it was at school. Not my school again. I was doing the buffet in the kitchen as the activity started. I was dressed in leggings and a white and black collared top and white converse. Everyone else was wearing dresses and a suit.

The party was quiet, I walked out of the kitchen to see what was going on. Everyone is just sitting at tables in.silence. Then the other boy came running up to me, picked me up and was spinning me around he kept moving around the room, still spinning. All of a sudden he dropped me. I had a cut on my head and a bruise on my knee. I walked into the main.building of the school as if nothing happened.

I was in a library then people turned up next to me and I didn't recognize anyone. A man then turned up and chased us out the room I ran to the boy and he caught me in his arms. I turn around and the man chasing us was gone. I walked away from the boy. He grabbed my arm and said 'let me be beside you' I nodded and continued to walked.

Ended up back in the library because I left something in there. I opened the door and the library was destroyed, books and shelves everywhere. I walked into the room and clambered over the mess the boy held out his hand to support my balance. I found it but the books again tumbles and fall on me. He rushed over and pulled me out. We used the books that were hanging out of shelves as stairs to reach an air vent and crawled through it. The boy went first and the suddenly stopped while crawling through he looked into my eyes and kisses me. I woke up this morning and am becoming more and more confused.

What does.it mean? I used.to have a.crush on him 5 years ago. Are the feelings still there? Because I love my boyfriend..

I was sitting down in what looked like my English class and I had a lot of papers on my desk. There were people around who I recognized but were in other classes and not my original English class. A girl I recognized was coming round and collecting the papers, I told her I hadn't finished them yet, and quickly put my name on them and gave it back to her. She sat next to me and we started talking, I remember her saying that we had to wear our clothes inside out tomorrow and I never knew about this. We were asked to play rock, paper, scissors in pairs, so me and her played, we both did scissors and she said she won and she held my scissors(hand) while trying to prove her point. The teacher told us we had to go for assembly so off we all went, when I got there it wasn't no ordinary assembly. We walked into a cinema... the film was in black and white also. I don't remember watching it but I remember leaving and waiting outside for my friends. A teacher behind me asked me why I was waiting and I explained. I went after a few minutes cause they were taking too long. On my travels home I bumped into some old friends. I knew both of them from 7 years ago. Anyway we talked and one of these friends landed at his home so it was just me and this friend. We talked while I had no idea where we were going. We ended up in this pub, my friend was trying to buy some beer and I remember another friend being around but I don't know who it was. He put the money into this machine and a beer in a glass fell like one of those vending machines. We walked outside and this is where things get a little crazy.. There were these school staff that usually are around in the playground and were grabbing people and bringing them to some small little hut, they tried to take me but I wouldn't let them and dodged their attempt to grab. My friends went along because they said it might be important, I told them not to go and that it was a trap but they didn't listen. There were many of them trying to grab me but I kept dodging and blocking. I'm pretty sure the people that were taken to the hut would transform into school staff and try to grab other people. I tried to get away from here but I ran into the ~boss~ he sorta challenged me to a fight so I did it because I thought I might be able to save everyone. He kept trying to kick me and he fought like a girl, I sped into his chest and flipped him over into an head lock. He soon transformed into a little doll which I threw very far, I then decided that I would destroy the doll just in case. I walked back into my home and saw one of my friends, he said everything was okay now, defeating the boss must of destroyed all of the ~school staff~. I told him and he said that I pretty much saved the world, and that people that were captured were coming out of my shed alive and well. I saw a girl walk out and my friend told her about what I did and she agreed that I saved the world.

Friday 7/12/13

Last night bed 9pm -

DR1 - 11:55 pm - Something about a train ride.

DR2 - 11:55 pm - I'm in a facility. Squatting at an opening in a wall, poking aliens, so they don't climb inside. I go look for some weapons. Come into this very large room, full of shelves with rifles, ammo, shoulder fired granade launchers. I tell the guy "hey, we are fighting aliens, could you give me a nice rifle?". I ask for Kalashnikov. He doesn't have any. So i ask for M16, or any high powered, fast shooting one. He says he has ??? in a room 200 feet under ground. He want's me to go with him to get it. I'm like "have you not seen any aline invasion movies? YOu don't go underground. Maybe that's where they are coming from." But he insist and he leaves.

I envision a large cart or two, full of granades. How that would stop them from coming through that hole very nicely. I start opening cabinets, but don't see granades. There are bazookas, but I can't use them on short distance.

I get out of there to fight some more. When I come back, the place has been compromised. Someones mobil is ringing on the counter. I want to answer it, but I can't authenticate myself and it won't answer the call. Instead, it askes me if I want something? and I push the button "yes". What it does is it locks the cabinets. I found that out, when I try to look for granades again. But I can pry open the doors anyway.

Someone is coming. Some humans in very heavy green armor and face paint. I tell them that to give me some weapons, but they don't see me. I wave, jump, yell, ... nothing. Then I realize, another thing the phone did, is it made the owner - me, invisible. So I pick up a box of ammo and wave it in front of the guys eyes. He can see it. now I write on it and he can see that too.

I walk out again. Aliens are closer now. I fight with one of them, and he kills somebody. I konk him on the forehead and I see I made a dent and he goes down dead. I realize, that forehead is their vulnerable spot. I feel like we can win now.

(Just before bed, watched a few min of movie "Signs", with Mel Gibson. I didn't wanna watch the scary movie and changed the channel, but came back to it, thinking it may give me some intense dream. So it did.)

I'm still trying to do a task in a lucid but I haven't gotten there yet. I'm getting close though

7/6/13 DILD

I was in a basement at someone’s house with Niki. It was storming and there were lots of tornados. I realized that this couldn’t be real, this must be a dream. For a second I thought over if I really wanted to have a lucid or just see where the dream would take me, but then I realized that there was something I wanted to do. I slowly made my way outside, careful to not lose lucidity. When I got outside there were dark clouds and the sun was peeking through. I thought it would be nice to see a rainbow, so I waved my hands across the sky and two or three rainbows appeared. Now I had to try to go back to that place from my dreams. I closed my eyes and pictured it and really focused hard but when I opened my eyes I hadn’t moved. I either woke up or lost lucidity.

7/10/13 DILD

I was following Rachel around this water area and she would sort of wade around in the water and then come out before it got too deep. She started saying things like, “I can do this!” and did something impossible(I don’t remember what). This got me thinking.. I’m in a lucid! “Hey, watch THIS!” I told her. “I can fly!” I put my arms in front of me and imagined me flying and I took off. At first I started to fall back to the ground like I always do, but I visualized flying high and it worked. I soared around up and down like superman. I have NEVER been able to fly with that much control before. The dream was extremely stable and vivid, probably one of the most stable ones I’ve had. I knew I had a task to complete. I thought, “okay I’ll just fly a bit more and then I will try to do my task,” and I was confident that I would be able to do it. Then, “SUNSHINE LOLLIPOPS!” My phone goes off and wakes me up. SO PISSED.

Right now i'm having trouble lucid dreaming. I dream on a nightly basis atleast one everytime. When it is vivid enough or strange things are happening to me i still do not realize i'm dreaming. I can have vivid dreams where i am controlling the dream or flying but its like im just dreaming of the act without lucid dreaming it into the actual act. Any tips?

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in some park, near lake, the view was cool with some weird colors and there were some crows.

Dream 2:

I was in some medical facility and i had to be contained for some reason, on the way i was talking to somebody about someone being pregnant but not the right way and about that someone being close to death because of that. Then i was in very small rusty metallic room with no doors, which was apparently where i should be contained, i was discussing something with somebody and some yummy food was arriving down here by the pipe with speaker, which was 'talking' like Pyro from TF2. I wanted to ask him about something so i said something mimicking Pyro style of 'talking' and i apparently could understand it somehow.
Then i went to PC, which was here as well, and checked some games. There was one 2D platformer with graphically simple levels that looked VR-grid stylish with some glow, it was about very accurate jumping and avoiding spikes. I was also chatting with SilentEternity which was also playing, there were a few modes and level sets. I managed to almost finish one of harder and longer ones, but levels just got so ridiculously hard that i decided to pause that and do something else. It also had support for custom maps according to menu.
I went to some forum that had black background with green text and it was about some FPS game, it included nice window that allowed to start game and join servers right from the site. I randomly got invite into team, and it was for some official match, i was surprised but then just decided 'why not'. The leader of team explained strategy as game was starting and we got prepared to face enemy team. We were in the city and the game was 3vs3, everyone was hiding so it was pretty hard, also gravity was kinda low. I was running around searching, mostly following the plan, and once enemy was detected i was shooting my rifle. Then we ended up arguing since tactic didn't worked out so well.

Dream 3(fragment):

I was playing AI War and there was something about AI Homeworlds.

Dream 4:

I was browsing forum games section of some forum and there were some really hardcore games i decided to join, i ended up talking with creators of the games and discussing "hardcore armor penetration effect" of some weapons. Then in one of forum games one of players characters got killed, freeing up space, so i finally joined it as well from waitlist.

Legend: Lucid, Real Life, Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid

Notes:

Today is not my day, I usually use auto suggestion in order to naturally wake up. Unfortunately, everything has its flaws. I really don't want to use an alarm clock do to it being fairly disturbing. I don't recall anything today, no faces, no emotions, no images,nothing.

Just posting to get into the habit.

I woke up from a nap because a strange male voice called my husband's name. Neither of them were actually present.

My recall has dropped to a new minimum, although I am consistent with my DJ. No dreams yesterday and last night gave only two small fragments from what I know were big dreams. At least I feel there is much more to them.

• Elite district: I'm in a housing complex. The houses are big and they have huge front yards with massive cars. It feels like some kind of elite district, where the educated and financially successful people live. I walk around and ask the people about their dreams. While they are generally polite, no one really seems amused or interested.
  
  There is a lot more, but all other details are foggy. Nevertheless, it shows me that thinking and talking about dreams is active in me, while I'm dreaming.
  
  
• Knife in dream-shoulder hurts: I'm in a small house with many small rooms. They are like small chambers, where the floor and the ceiling are made of wood. There are also wooden shelves. My mother is there at some point in the fragment.
  
  I'm with my brother. It feels like something bad has happened to either or both of us. I hurt him in the stomach and he slowly stabs a knife into my left shoulder. It hurts a lot, but I don't resist it, because I somehow feel like I deserve it. The whole thing makes me sad, I hug him, while he is lying injured (injured by me(?)) on the ground. I tell him that I love him and that I am really sorry.
  
  My brother was also in my DJ-entries from 2 and 4 nights ago. I have no clue what this means and where it comes from, but this one makes me think. This feels like a small fragment of a bigger dream (which perhaps spans several nights lol).

Thursday 7/11/13

Last night bed 1am - 8:45am

Last dream:

I'm on pebbly shore of a shallow lake. Water is clean, see-through. A house I live in is nearby. Someone throws something towards me and it lands in the lake. I see large and small pieces of plastic debree in the water. Walk in there to pull it out. Some of it is in little deeper, like knee high. I don't want to get completely wet, so I walk to the shed and look for a rake. I see all kinds of tools, and find a rake with long handle.

Later
I'm in some kind of control room. We have an earthquake. I put on my laptop to look for news, but screen is black and no internet, because of the quake. We put on the TV. Find some obscure channel in hopes for the news. Major stations are off-line. Then I hear them saying the quake was on San ?? fault line, where San Andreas is. But at the sametime, we see a map of England on the screen. I'm shocked, that the earthqake fas so close to me in SoCal, and that it was the dangerous San Andreas.

I start out at the bottom of the stairwell, with some pistol, and an m4. I exit the room and see this other player, who then, I instantly knew was an alien, but I didn't shoot and he shown me another weapon, an m4 with a silencer, so if need be, I could get sneaky. At the place I'm at, there's a reception desk, and two hallways, I enter the reception area and look for supplies, find nothing and the other player runs away. I exit the reception area and take the opposite hallway from him, and enter a random door. What I entered was a dusty, old, but stable hangar area that has a bunch of cargo and 5-10 humans around. I go up to them to join them, but all of a sudden there's aliens that can run quickly, and others that can run on the walls, and the team gets picked off one by one, until it's just me and two other aliens, a large disfigured one, and another one that leaves anyway. I shoot at the disfigured one with everything I have and drop my guns and go into an office space which has a broken down wall, the alien, I assume, is coming toward me to get me and I wait five seconds until a hear other people talking and run out to them, in which they pick the other aliens off and start walking to this central high-raised area.

In this area there's a place, which I think it could be a control tower, but it's locked off, and what seems to be a small machinery area which is only two stories and probably as big as a garage. I alone go inside this machinery area and go behind a door, and there one is, RIGHT next to be, but it's invisible and I smack it with a large pan that I've apparently been holding for a while a couple times and it's dead, as that happens I see a cloud of dust being quickly entered (which destroys the form so it looks like someone ran through it) and I go up to the roof, of the machinery building only to find a human being? This can't be right, it looked like someone was invisible running up, so I take my chances, and using the pan I jump as high as I can and hit the guy with all my force, he backs up, this is the alien/human that gave me that m4 with the silencer, and I continue to hit him with the pan, killing him, in which makes the humans of the game win.

Humans win and the dream ends, I wake up.

Last night, i dreamt about the latest Rocky Movie where Rocky comes back after years of retirement. Well, he was at a boxing ring and watching a fight. Then some douche is yelling out at the fighters. Rocky tells him to shutup and well they start a fight out in the ring. And ROCKY WINS IT. yeah of course.

The weird parts is that during this all i could do was float around and watch. I couldnt interact it was like watching a movie. And the second part is that the real movie goes nothing like my dream.