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[I had this dream after waking up and not remembering anything, not even solid dream fragments. I threw a bit of a mental bitch fit and I guess Subby gave me this dream as compensation. I'm down with that!]

Apparently I was over at Jasper's place (or he was at mine, which may have been the case as the room was shaped like mine). He and I were playing The Sims 3. I focused in the game and became an observer inside of it. My Sim family was having a party outside and their Toddler was sitting in a high chair. One of the parents looked in its direction because they thought that the game had forced an age transition and the Toddler was turning into a Child, but no such case.

By the time I was done with The Sims 3 Jasper had turned into Luna, an old childhood friend. Luna's older sister may have also been there.

I was sitting down on the floor in front of the bed and Luna was playing with a lighter. Instead of spouting out fire, it was crystal shaped in the stereotypical shape of a diamond (a few of them). If she pulled the lighter back while holding the button down then crystals would appear there, and if she held it higher then the crystals would follow her lead. Well eventually she stopped and but in some movie in my XBox 360 and the two of us laid down together in my bed. After a little bit Luna asked me to set the loop when one of the characters screamed "Gooooooooooo!" When I asked her why she explained that we "might as well be happy." This task proved harder than I expected it to be because I missed at the beginning and we had to keep listening to the characters talk, but Luna was okay with that.

Later on I went into the living room and watched some show with my parents. It was pretty good, though I don't remember much about it. There was one particular character named Emmett, but all I remember from him is that he had high-ish cheekbones. If I remember correctly then in the story, if the characters did something wrong or if they survived for a certain amount of time, then they would be turned into crystal. Near the end of the episode Emmett and one of the others (a female character) knew that it was their time to go and so they awaited their fate with open arms. The episode ended and I went outside.

At first it was at night and it looked like it usually does in Greentree. I must have seen Jason and some other people at some point though. Towards here is a blank in my memory and then the landscape looks more like the area of Pine Plains that my family lived in when I was still attending SPPHS. Jason is with (not "dating with") a girl that goes to my school but who I never talk to. As the three of us are walking down the hill that leads to the trailer park in the SPPHS school district, I notice that neither of them have any of their teeth; apparently they had been doing crystal meth.

By now the sun has come up again and I go back inside to watch another episode of that show. It's showing the opening theme and there is a portrait of Emmett and someone else (perhaps the chick that was crystallized with him). The portrait changed and so the show revealed that Emmett was none other than Adolf Hitler.

non lucid
*I realize that I am taking the long way home. I see my brother taking a shorter way home on his skateboard. I decide to follow him. I am also on a skateboard and it is night.

during the course of the night i found myself travelling. i was among a huge crowd of people, and we were walking along an abandoned freeway. everything was peaceful. i formulated some words, to use as a marker: once society is gone, there will be highways full of love. i started to run soon, as i took a turn down a decrepit offramp. there was a horse chasing me, and i had to jump over this gap. i could barely make it, but it would deter the thing that was chasing me. i remember it as a part of another story; this is where he breaks his legs.

so i make the jump, at the cost of hurting myself, and walk off and away. i remember looking at the trees in front of me, as the sun was setting. i realize: this is an amazing place. it dawns on me. why should i turn away from the sun, from beauty, from comfort? except there were no words in the realization. i'm not about to stick with this shitty storyline where i break my legs and then walk into the forest at dark...

i turn around. the sun gets brighter and brighter; the day goes backwards as more of the meadow i'm in is illuminated. it's breathtaking. i see, appreciate, visualize, create. now, for some place to sit down. i see a spot up on a hill and make towards it. i am enjoying nature around me, the beautiful scene that i've become aware of. if only i had something to eat...

without even wanting it that bad, i see a plate of sandwiches on top of the platform! i near the crest of the hill to see more of the plastic platform that was designed for me. wouldn't you know, there is a copy of super smash bros all set up, with Falco waiting on the screen for me, already picked. i turn around to scope out the little valley below me... it has been set up as an amphitheater. there is a projector which can broadcast smash to a theater-sized screen. wow.

but this isn't all that i want. these things are just secondary. the act of creating was more important. the comforts are no good in comparison. with great power comes great responsibility. i can't settle for this anymore.

i walk around some more, and the dream slips back into non-lucid. i talk to someone about playing a "perfected game," playing around the edges. a perfectionistic game. steven is there. he still plays, although it's a different game--he sprays gunfire into the lockers along the wall, opening various doors. pinging sounds, and different point denominations pop up. that's cool, i guess.

the second dream, steven is driving us along the highway. he's in a big van. we nearly get in an accident; there's some way crazy shit going on. different drivers stop and swerve. we go past a cop, another one... strange he didn't pull us over, but maybe it was because the evasive/risky driving helped us avoid an accident. or maybe it was because there were other things on his mind...

we soon come to a DEAD STOP. people start shouting "GET TO THE GROUND!" There is running. I feel true panic, and helicopters show up, and armed men rappel down the side from ropes. THE TERRORISTS ARE HERE. Except it ends up being a government agency, run rogue. This is authority doing this. Everybody flees. I go to the side of the highway, since I didn't get much chance to run. I tumble down, down, and do my best to hide by curling up into a ball. i wait anxiously, noting the quality of my breath and the way the panic makes me focus.

I've been found. A huge man comes up to me and points a massive gun to my head. "Join us," he says. I look up, and in a fraction of a second, before I can respond, he shoots me.

I'm dead. But I walk and float around as a spirit. The men are burly as hell, straight out of the movies, and their guns are nearly as big as they are. I see them rounding people up. "Join us." At a moment's hesitation, they shoot them in the head. This isn't fair.

I have an awakening. Fuck this. I'm going to do justice to them. I come at one of the soldiers, and we fight for awhile before I realize that I can phase through him, as a ghost. I go to the man who killed me and seize possession of his body. He jerks around in pain and panic. I make him jump off a balcony into the courtyard, and it brings me great pleasure to feel his neck breaking. He is dealt with.

The setting is now a mansion. I float around all ghastly, and I try to hover and levitate. I get mixed success, but can't really escape the pull of gravity. As I float upstairs, I see a creepy-looking house fixture, which may be imbued with the spirit of someone else who lived or died here. There is a face I perceive, and it starts to talk to me, rapidly, in whispers, faster than I can comprehend. I'm scared, but not deterred. As I near the thing the voices intensify, but the dream fades. I fade back into sleep paralysis, and feel my hands, which have fallen asleep over my stomach. Back into reality, at least for a bit. (I got a pretty intense wave of fear writing that, just now.)

A third dream, mostly non-lucid. I am at my grandparents' house. The main arc was the ocean. I go out back and it is beautiful, syrupy and black and calm. I go back in the house and see some waves. They are big, and I wonder if they'll come up to the house. But they don't. I go back in and back out again, and there are surfers on the waves. The prominence of the ocean fades in and out as I perceive it. I am losing this place.

Here is my dad, who is more attached to this view than I am. "This is the last time, isn't it?" One of us says this, the other nods and cries. Maybe it's both of us.

The surfers populate the waves, and they come towards me exultantly. But they won't reach! I go into the neighbor's house, trespassing inadvertently, to try and get a better view. But it doesn't work. Eventually I am wearied, from trying to create the signs, and I have a false awakening. My sister is there; I'm trying to watch a blank TV and create visualizations, crazy black and red lines. It feels like a futile pursuit. "The same kind of people who do this are the ones who stock close." ....But I do other things than stock close, too. She grabs the remote and makes the tv ROTATE back and forth, like a tower fan, which bugs me to no end. I hit her, hard, grabbing the remote, and then kick her once, out of hatred. Immediately I feel guilty. Soon I wake up IRL, knowing almost exactly how much longer I've slept in for.

No pain no gain.

Me and these other DC's are in waiting in this elevated hallway, there's large long windows running down each wall and you can see outside through them and it looks like winter is coming. Then some weird creature looking thing runs from out of nowhere towards us and says it begins now. So I want to get the edge on the competition so I just run towards where the thing came from not knowing what to do. There is a door ahead a little off to the left of the wall, and there is two doors on the ground one behind the other, the other DC's come to the conclusion that one must choose the correct door to proceed, but I know that we have to go open each door and collect and recall things, so I open the first door on the floor, and something comes out, it looks like some creature man, I memorize it, and open the next door as some of the DC's go into the previous door and presumably get stuck. I know it's the vertical door we must go into, so I run to it and enter. The me and about 5 other DC's are in this candy land looking place, and my sister is here too. We find clue written on random things telling us to find things like a scavenger hunt, me and my sister decide to work together, we go into this really small house and read a clue that we need to find a blue dragon wrapped in cellophane, I can't find it but my sister pulls it from the floor, it must've been under the table. So we get out of the really small house and keep searching for stuff on the list, the next things we need to find are all the little action figures, it says that we must search the neighbor play houses of the main character, so we run to the other play houses, and we see the other DC's searching for stuff, this kid we don't like keeps trying to race passed us and get the objects we are searching at the moment so I get physical with him and push him into vacuum and computer boxes and we get ahead and get the the houses, but some one else got the action figures, so we look for something else but everything is found, then we are all called to the front of this place by this creature guy and he determines who has found the most items. I realize it seems I hardly found anything and I notice that one of the people found a red dragon wrapped in cellophane instead of a blue one and they don't even know it's not correct. But luckily my sister won it for us. there was no prize really but I think we will be the only ones let out of this place.

The dream started with me trying to get a job. There were two places I liked. One place called "Suzuki diner" (reference below) and another place called "Big burgers & bucks". I don't get it either.

Anyways, I applied for the Suzuki place, and walked up and down the hill I live on. I'm not sure why, but it was a nice day so I guess I was just enjoying it. After doing that a couple times I walked back down to the place, expecting it to be done. I accidentally walked into the wrong place.

In that place there was a guy holding a guitar. He looked to be 30-ish, he had a beard... actually. Come to think of it, he looks like Steve again! Why do I dream of him so much? Anyways, he said "Oh great! Your here! Come, we're going to do a hand-eye coordination test." He led me to a paper with two thumb-shaped holes in it. I excused myself, because this was not the place I was going to.

Weirdly enough, I walked up my hill again instead of going to the place I meant to go.

And now, it starts getting weird.

I walk up and there's this 40-ish year old lady doing a stripper dance on a telephone pole. I started walking a little faster. She started to strip down her clothes and then I started to run. My house was only a couple blocks away, and I do NOT want to get involved with that.

Now since this was my dream, and I didn't want her to go near me, she started to drift off. Luckily I was far enough away when she finished stripping down. I got home, and I was about to tell my brother about what happened when,

I woke up.

Reference:
"Suzuki" Is a name for a violin book. I was interested in violin a year ago, and I recently went to a garage sale to look at one. So I guess I was thinking of that?

Or, its always an option that its just completely random.

For some odd reason I have had these dreams before, all different but seemingly the same.

The dream starts out where I'm playing with my cousins and talking to them - like I did when I was a kid at my grandma's house or wherever we got together as a family.

Then I start talking to an unfamiliar but friendly voice/character about my family and showing them fake pictures of my family. In the dream of course, they were pictures that I knew of, but now that I am awake I know that they were not real pictures and still in the dream I was questioning about the people in the pictures. The people kind of looked like my real family members but the places and poses in the pictures were very unfamiliar.

There was this one picture where two of my cousins were sleeping together on a couch with pacifiers in their mouths. I remember that the pictures seemed to be moving, like in the Harry Potter books. I was saying things like "isn't she too old to be using that thing in her mouth?" "when was this?" "Where am I?" I looked through dozens of pictures and noticed I was in none of them. In reality, all the photos I have, I am in most of them.

I then put the pictures down and noticed that I had several people around me, all family members. One of my little cousins, who was a baby in the dream but in reality is almost nearly an adult started to hum the Final Fantasy Victory Fanfare several of the games. It reminded me of the VII fanfare and others too.

I felt really cool about this because she had just learned how to walk and couldn't talk much and hummed something from my favorite game series. I then went to tell one of my aunts who also enjoys Final Fantasy. I whispered in her ear so no one else could hear and then she said to me something like "wow, that is really cool Alia" (alia is my name).
And then smiled and then seemed to turn her attention to a scene that was happening in the room from a early child hood video I have when I was a baby.


The moving pictures thing is kind of funny because I have been listening to the Harry potter books audio and thinking about the moving pictures mentioned in the books.

7/30/13 Tuesday

Last night bed around 1am. I figured I can try falling asleep with my Yoga Nidra CD. It's not made to make you fall asleep, but for some reason, it puts me to sleep in 10-15 min, or even less. Don't know if the narrator has hypnotic voice, or really, just mental survey of body is so relaxing. As he speaks, there are pauses, maybe 4 to 8 sec long (different places different length). And without realizing it, i fall asleep, still awake, and I'm startled awake with his voice, only to fall asleep and wake up again. I like the feeling.

DR: I'm in my home town, on the street, where the long time ago burned down movie theater used to stand. A parade is suppose to start in a little while. We see the cars that look like rollercoaster seats assembling.

Someone I know is suppose to be on one of them, so someone droppes off my balck backpack on the sidewalk with my camera. I'm walking there to pick it up. There are some people getting out of a bar that's right there and I'm really worried they will take my backpack. I come to it. It's my old, black backpack, all worned down, filled only half way. I look inside and my camera is there. I go back on the sidewalk, getting ready to take a picture.

After it's over, I walk on the sidewalk towards where we used to live. I'm inside a house with some people I know and I'm so sad, that I have to go back. It's even worse than last time. People ask me about that and I'm just sad.

I keep walking, and a child cries after me from a first floor balcony of a yellow house. I look back, but I know it would be even harder on him if I stoped or said anything to him. I think I was crying. A man and a woman that are standing with the child, I sense they are very kind and fair, but I'm not sure, they are his real parents. They tell me to wait, it's ok for us to say goodby properly. That's when I really start to cry and I appreciate they let us hug.

I just hope I don't have a child in astral that misses me.

Had this dream where my doppelganger was eating the souls of tulpae. It was weird, because every time he killed a tulpa, a credit sequence (like the end of a video game) scrolled over a fractal in my vision.


When I opened my eyes, I was sitting up. I didn't wake up and then sit up. I woke up from the dream IN a sitting position.

No idea what it means.

Dream # 4

Lucid Dream? - YES

Dream Topic - [Lucid Dream] Mad Dream Characters?

Dream Plot - I don't remember when I became Lucid but when I did I found myself at my beach house, with some people that I knew, and some that I didn't. I could tell that they were mad at me so [I am really happy I was able to fly this time] I flew upstairs to try and avoid them. I went to my porch and remembered that it was just a dream so that maybe I could just make them disappear. When I tried this they just got madder and said "Tell us where it is!". I didn't know what to do so I just flew up and out onto the street. They all ran downstairs and 1 said, I can fly too. That 1 flew and started to chase after me. I tried to teleport myself to the city where I usually live, but it wouldn't work. I just kept flying away from them, now trying to teleport myself to the moon. For some reason I was scared to fly to high so I wouldn't just fly to the moon. Then somehow we were all teleported to the moon. Somehow they stopped being mad at me. We were all teleported to one of my old schools. I was actually apologizing to them because they werent real. They all got sad and started to walk down the stairs. That is when I woke up.

> I was CJ from Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas (I think) and I had a ScanGauge II or other meter in the car I drove and I saw that the battery was low so I left the car on to charge the battery, Then the car was out of gas and I got out and talked to someone about it.

> I was outside the house my paternal grandmother lives in and I was trying to be a bit sneaky while cutting the grass around it with a reel mower which is not gas or electric powered. I looked into a window and saw light bulbs on.

> I'm not sure if this is a dream or not but if so, It would've been on subject of my Dad's van getting lower fuel economy around Pittsburgh like it has as of late with poor gas in it.

I had other dreams today but I'm not posting them here.

On a quick starting note I want to register the different approach I will be taking to my DJ. I wanted it to be about the cool adventures and accomplishments I end up having in my lucids making for a mostly entertaining reading experience, because of that I haven't been recording most of my lucids. From now on, every lucid I have will eventually be here, unless of course it involves something I'm not comfortable sharing.

Moving on

30/07/2013 - DILD

I was walking with another guy who like me was a shapeshifter, we were aware of a group of men following us and we decided to make a run for it. They catched up to us and grabbed the guy that was with me, he could shift into a wolf and they wanted him to run with them (similar to the concept of shifters in True Blood), they were bad news and we didn't want nothing to do with them so I told him to escape first, I would divert them and when it was time for me to go I would use my ability to loose them.

I ran but they easily catched up to me everytime. At some point I faked falling and even let out a little scream to make my point more convincing. When they got down on the ground to pick me up and make their capture I quickly ran away thinking about how I would make my shift happen. I just remembered "If I stay calm, have no doubt and just move accordingly I will shift easily". In a fraction of a second I took a little jump into the air and instantly shifted into an owl, from running to flying, no breaks.



I landed on the top of a building of the pretty village I was in. Due to the nature of events, I was lucid. The scenary around me had a very blue feeling and appearence to it, mostly due to all the rooftops of the many houses around being that colour. There wasn't a single soul to be seen on the streets (get it?).

I decided to stabilize. I looked at my hands throughly, they looked mostly normal and along with the scenario they increased in detail and vividness as I inspected them. While I did this I was making affirmations like "Clarity now. I anchor myself to lucidity and the dream". I was satisfied with the feel and added details of the dream but I suddently started to feel like some "wind-like" force was shaking me a little bit back and forth on the top of the building, since it wasn't really windy I wondered what that could be. I would soon find out since... It was precisely 5:30 am and my alarm was waking me up to go to work.

Sweet dreams!

I'm with a friend (NJ) in my work place.
We go downstairs to grab a coffee. I grab some coins for the coffee machine.
I get my coffee and the machine gives me back more money than it should. I take it.
I look at the ground and pick two 10€ bills. I look up and there's a hole on the machine with a massive amount of 10€ bills in it.
I pick some. My friend takes the rest. It's a lot of money.
We knew that there was a robbery where they sabotage the machine.
At first my friend doesn't want to return the money. He reconsiders it. He tells my boss he'll spend 80€ a day untill someone claims it.
I stumble across a lady that owned a coffee house in my old town.
She starts to ask me some questions about my job.
I lose track of the dream or wake up.
Don't know.

I probably bored myself to death and wanted to wake up. Really.. I need to get Lucid.

Dream recall from today's nap. Go figure there were actually some repair works outside that i could hear only barely, and that managed to influence dreams to such extent...

Dream 1(fragments):

I was woken up by loud noise of machinery outside then i tried to fall back to sleep and there was some different weird noise.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was video game about war between two factions, which then turned to be some mission from AM: Air Attack, namely based on second mission but with alot of ground placed high explosives everywhere.

Dream 3:

I was some character in anime and there was a story about some spiritual realm, there were two anime kids and i was helping them and we were on the bridge near huge waterfall. One of us accidentally dropped bottle with some liquid, and as it broke it summoned some weird creatures that we had to fight. We all had some special powers though, one of us could summon weapons.
Then we went to the city and there was some academy place where we practiced those powers, but also we were trying to figure out something. Later i discovered some dimension that was under the academy, which consisted of stairs and platforms floating in the air and was really foggy. There was some entity that was saying something about end of the world, and then it activated something and disappeared. On the way back alot of people from academy came and were blaming me for activating the of the world trigger and then we had to fight more weird creatures from earlier.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was at home and there were alot of some repair works outside, noise and workers that were trying to 'fix' everything. They even came into my room somehow.

July 30, 2013

All I remember from last night was my most recent dream. I think what happened was that we were all driving down to ASP in our vans. once we got there, we stayed in a room with our van too, and there were boys and girls in one room. I didn't like my room so I came to stay in Dani's room instead. Dani and I slept right next to each other and we sat and talked about boys. Hudson and Connor were in the room too (WHY ARE THEY ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS?) and at one point Hudson was like "why are /you/ staying in our room" and Dani and I were like "um because she wants to that's why" and then all I can remember after that was it was night time and we were about to put on either different clothes or pajamas. The end

Ive been getting weird dreams of this girl that I can't even see her face at all & it started to scare me & this dream lasted for 2 weeks, then now this week I have been dreaming of my last ex that I really loved or still do & i don't know if these two dreams are the same, but the thing is her & I had a very good relationship & I was her first love & so she was mine as well. We lasted for a year & broke up for a stupid lie I made before we even dated.we didn't talk for a year & the only times we would talk were for our birthdays or just sometimes have a small chat to catch up. She is a grade lower then me & in two weeks I'll be seeing her every day when school starts. To think of it I'm probably having these dreams because ill be seeing her after a year. But still could these dreams mean something at all? Please help me understand, thank you