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My family is arguing about who can defeat the most monsters.

I'm playing the role of a blonde woman with some kind of investigative background, now working with some kind of crime boss. People keep describing this as "a deal with the devil," me as "the devil's instrument," and so on, though I think of him as basically a decent guy. I meet up with him in a storeroom full of stolen goods waiting to be sold - small scale, everyday objects - and he tells me he doesn't mind if folks think of him as the Devil, it works out to his advantage, because after all, this way, "I am not real." I'm aware there's a double meaning there, it's a metaphor meaning I'm the person who deals with the world directly while he gets to stay in the background, like a ghost, never to be caught; but it's also a reminder that none of this scene is real. Since it's not real, I decide to stop wasting my time here and wake up.

Earlier fragments: following a truck transporting exotic animals; working on a farm picking berries, and getting annoyed at a coworker's spiel on northerner-vs-southerner work ethics; googling for references to Janette DuCharme, under that alias specifically; browsing a Halloween forum.

8/17/2013

Dream 1:

I was in a video game. It was a game that was kind of like a combination of CoD: MW3 and Mount and Blade. I was playing multiplayer with some people. I was an arab trying to kill other arabs on another team to get to a point on their side of the map. The map was also a desert-themed maze thing.

Dream 2:

My dad and I were on my computer at home. We were both listening to music on it. I was listening to music apparently made by Michael from Vsauce, who was pen-named something to do with feminism. My dad said "I don't like that music. Let's listen to something else." I then put on some rock, possibly Breaking Benjamin.

Dream 3:

I was in the school I go to. I was in Italian class, where I was talking to S. C., a girl from actual school in that class. She was flirting with me and stuff. We made a lot of eye contact and she looked cute. I also saw Ty in that class, who is also in the actual class in real life. I might have been talking to her, too. The period ended and I went to my next class.
I went to a science class, probably biology. I didn't actually go into the room, I just looked into it. I went to my Global History class from last year. I found some teacher I didn't know about and some other students. One of them was Ka, from the real school. The teacher said school was over, and I thought it must have been a half day. The dream ends there.

I was thinking somewhat of the movie "Trading Places" in this dream - I saw through the eyes of someone (maybe me) Who did a bet with another person for $1 and that was done in front of some other people, Like towards the end of the movie.

I also saw some dogs get run over by cars across a road maybe by a bus stop and then other dogs went to see if they were alright and they were run over too.

I'm in the garage and the garage is open and there's other students I suppose with me. Then a woman walks in and she's our teacher, she tells us to make art out of blue glass, so we all do. Then she takes us to all these mechanical things in the garage and has me take them apart which I don't like because the stuff is covered in spider webs. Then she says we all have to look busy, and who ever looks least busy will have to stay and won't attend the field trip, so we scatter and try to look busy. The the teachers has us line up and she calls us by name one by one, the last person left will not go she says. It down to me and some boy, then the teacher says spizzle. Me and the boy looks at each other confused, that is neither of our names, then the teachers calls out for spizzle again so me and the boy assume we both aren't going so we show each other what we made out of the blue glass, then the teacher walks up to me and says shes been calling me and I tell her that my name is not spizzle, and she says whatever just get in line. Then we walk down the driveway, I stop and try to see this thing that's off to the side, it is red sticks in a plastic case, the teachers stops me from seeing and says it's just something she dropped the other day. Then we get into a large white van, I sit behind this girl, she turns around and shows me this magnet picture of her, I laugh at it and that offends her so I tell her I only laughed because it looks like she is getting hit by a car and there's a huge ass barn behind her in it...that's funny, but the other passengers in the car give me dirty looks, so I hand the picture back to her and shut up. Then we are suddenly on a tram or small amusement park train type thing and the girl is now in the front seat, we go through doors, and into the main lobby of the place and I see the characters in suit just walking around they ignore us and don't greet us. I get off and leave them and go through doors I assume lead into this amusement place, but then suddenly I am going up stairs, and their is a older man and an older woman, and I have to squeeze through the mess of stacks that are on both sides in the staircase, then I exchange a few words with them and they act as though they are my parents. Then I go through the door to the left at the top and it's roomy but this girl in there starts getting big and growing by the second so I run into the bathroom in that room and the girl now looks like a larvae and she reaches her finger in the bathroom at me to squish me but I yell at her to stop and for some reason she does, then I run out and down the stairs.

DILD - Semi-lucid/lucid

I am driving a public transit bus. I feel unsure of my route and wonder why I am doing this. I look around and see that I have several identical maps of the area with my route marked in red. The top of the map says: RED ROUTE I have a hard time making sense of the map since my route is a straight line with a few intermittent side roads. I keep thinking that I should be following a loop. I feel uncertain about the whole thing but keep on driving. I look to see if I have any passengers and see my older daughter in the back. She says something to me.

I realize as I am driving that the first the bus was a manual transmission but now I am on some sort of stationary bike at the driver seat. Instead of pushing the gas peddle I have to move bike peddles. I mentally switch to gas power but the bus stops moving until I cycle my legs again. I realize this shouldn't be happening but I know this is not real and it doesn't matter.

I keep missing stops and have to quickly pull over to let people on. Some seem aggravated at me and other don't mind having to run behind the bus a little. I feel uncertain where I am taking people and weather I will stop at the correct stops. Again I realize this is not real and as long as I believe I am going right, I will be.

Now I come to an off-road area and feel hopelessly lost. Efrain tells me where I should go but we get on some crazy muddy dirt roads. We hit a huge puddle and water splashes my face. I know this shouldn't have happened but I realize it's all fake anyway. At one point we come through a narrow zigzag pass in-between bluffs. I "feel" the bus stretch and morph to fit though. We continue on and begin driving on docks. I feel this has gone horribly wrong so I use a type of TK to move be bus back on a normal road.

Now I am sitting on a hardwood floor. Ron is stalking to someone about the mice getting away again. There is a small cubby with mouse pads speckled with dirt and hair. Someone says something about the mice taking towels with them. I see a spider web with a normal looking spider on it. As the spider moves I see points of light at the end of its legs. I become fully lucid now and think, dream sign! I do a nose plug and blow through but my sinuses feel clogged.

The dream goes dark and I feel that I am awake lying in bed. I blow out my mouth and then my nose. I realize at that point that I am still holding my nose. I try to move but my physical body jerks hard. I wait trying hold on to the dream state

I am fooled by a FA and my daughter brings my son onto the bed and leaves. This wakes my wife up and she gets annoyed. I realize she has gone to work but when I try to move I wake up.

Super short dream:

A few nights ago, I dreams of this place, it looked like a square and my dog was there. In the ream from days ago, I found him, picked him up and took him with me. Last night, it was like I had left him there. My parents were saying that it was raining and that I should've taken my dog back home that day instead of leaving him there. I felt guilty that I had left him alone, so I went back there. I couldn't find him. A guy who I studied with a couple years ago showed up and told me he was sorry, that they had done everything they could, but my dog had died. I started crying, but then my dog was there again and the guy said he was just kidding. Then he said that my dog had actually gotten really close to dying, and that it had been my fault because I had left him alone in the rain, but they had saved him.

It was a really bad dream.

EDIT

Oh, I just remembered a fragment!

I was on DV and I kept trying to interpret people's dreams, but I always came up with lame stuff, and my interpretations were about one sentence.

Being pulled back, by giant trampoline springs, by Rick, in a gym.

Telling someone how much trouble we got in by saying swear words as a kid.

Two ping pong players! One famous one played by Al Pacino - a documentary.

On the day prior to this dream, I'd been on a bus and noticed an angry looking wasp in the window, which is my ultimate terror. Usually you can run away like a bitch hoping the wasp doesn't sting you, but on a 50 minute bus ride you just have to chill and fight the urge to scream like a little girl and hope the wasp doesn't put you on its shit-list.

So after a night of drinking I should have forgotten all about the wasp, but my dream went like this:
I woke up in my bed (like most of my other dreams have started lately) and behold, the area around my bed is full of wasps. Crawling on the walls, on the pillows, on the blankets, on my face, even on my lips. I wanted to die. I had a slight notion that I was dreaming, but I never have control until I perform my reality check, and with a wasp crawling around on my face, I'd rather try to wake myself up. I attempted forcing my real eyes open, which is like a layer outside of my dream eyes - not sure how to explain it, I'm not even sure I understand it.
So I woke up, and again I was in my bed with wasps around me. At this point I was fully convinced the wasps were actually there and it wasn't a dream, but for good measure I decided to perform a quick reality check. Clenched my nose and tried to breathe, and to my surprise, it actually was a dream. I threw my covers off of me and stormed out of the room. I tried to open the skylight window on the hallway, but it was stuck. I gave it a good punch that pushed it open. I crawled out and flew away to explore.

Dream recall from today's naps, pretty unstable lucidity prolly because i went to nap a bit too late.

Dream 1(fragments):

I am at home and there's some stuff going on, then i realize that i am dreaming, but dream shortly fades out. then i wake up and had to go to bathroom. and wake up again.

Dream 2(fragments):

I wake up at home there's some talk and some stuff going on then i wake up again and realize that i am dreaming, i go to balcony door while rubbing hands but dream still fades out.

Dream 3(fragments):

I am trying to nap but i get interrupted by some talk, then i wake up and and i feel my arms are in different positions than where i see them i realize that i am dreaming and get up, i go to balcony but dream starts fading again, i rub hands and jump off the balcony, but dream fades out completely and i wake up[/COLOR] twice.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was at home and there were zombies invading, there were two more people and one of them was apparently infected, we had a great idea that knocking him unconscious would stop infection(Dream logic!), but it didn't worked that well and later he fully turned into a zombie.

Nothing today. I was up for an hour at night, trying WILD
didnt work.

[HR][/HR]
[B]Saturday, August 17th 2013: "Repetition" (LUCID)
Type: DILD/FA[/B]

I had a fantastic series of false awakenings - three in a row, and lucid in all three of them, but many details have disappeared because the whole thing was followed by completely non-related non-lucid dream. However, this is what I do remember...

Everything happens in the morning hours. It is daytime. I am sitting in my armchair in the living room, and I become lucid by doing an RC on the digital clock under my TV. - Because of the vividness of everything, I can't believe that I'm dreaming, so I repeat the RC two or three more times. I get very excited, stand up, and begin to laugh. I begin recalling some minor things I did last night. Then I turn around and look at the mirror in the living room, which is once again showing a somewhat different reflection. The biggest difference is in the hair, eyebrows, and eyes. Just for the fun of it, I pull on my right ear a little, and the same thing happens in the reflection. Now I point my finger in the mirror and begin laughing. The reflection does the same thing, but again, with minor differences. My facial expression in the mirror is very funny and unusual. As I'm deciding what I should do next, the dream appears to end.

[B][U]FA #1:[/U][/B]

I'm lying on my bed on my right side, and experiencing mild vibrations. After a few moments I become aware that it's a dream, and I just sit up. I push my right index finger through my left palm, and it feels like weak rubber. The finger slightly pushes through the palm. I laugh, and lucidly get out of bed. In my living room I encounter a friend, whom I ask to take me to an intelligent dream character, because I have some questions I need answered. He takes me into the yard, and we stand infront of the door that leads to my storage room. He tells me that this dream character is in there. I briefly see some figure through the door glass, but this is where I "wake up"...

[B][U]FA #2:[/U][/B]

Lying on my bed, once again on my right side, and again experiencing mild vibrations. I am pretty certain I feel my dream body and not my real body, so therefore I just sit up again, and do the finger-through-palm RC. Yup, I am still sleeping, and this is a dream. I get up, go outside, into the yard, and stand in front of the storage room, to attempt myself to generate this dream character. I try to expect many things, but even after two attempts it doesn't work. Now I decide to levitate a bit, which actually works great, as it always does in my dreams. A few moments later, I "wake up" again.

[B][U]FA #3:[/U][/B]

Same scenario. Lying on my bed, right side, mild vibrations. At this point I am 100% sure that it is a false awakening, and at the same time I laugh because it's already the third one. I sit up, do finger-through-palm successfully, and get out of bed. I go outside, into the yard, and I start saying the following out loud. "I will remember all of this. I must remember all of this. All the details I will remember." As I'm saying this, I look closely at the walls and all the details around me. It is very vivid. I laugh. Now I remember something from Patricia Garfield's "Creative Dreaming", and that's the claim that it should be pretty hard to say your name out loud in a lucid dream. In the book it says that this will cause many people to wake up. Now I try to do this, and I say my name out loud. To be honest it does create an unusual feeling perhaps because of some expectation effect, but it does not cause me to wake up. I rub my hands together, and decide to go for a walk. I walk down the street, frequently touching the walls of the houses as a sort of stabilization method. After a few minutes I notice that this town doesn't look like itself anymore. I seem to be in a completely different place. At this point the dream becomes unstable, starts to fade, and eventually turns into a non-lucid dream.

I can only remember bits and pieces.. I'm in some kind of mall I think and there's this giant, cylinder-shaped room with bright lights that are like ads, I think, swirling around the walls, and I see some portal and I get excited, and I think I might jump through the ad or something like that?

At some point I'm playing some kind of modded version of Portal 2 or something like that, and the character you play as is not Chell but some other character that is definitely mute, and Chell is a centaur (which I thoroughly enjoyed, hehe).

At some point I'm sitting at my old kitchen table and my friend is to my right and Jensen Ackles is to my left, along with some other guy that is farther to my right, but I can't remember who he was. We chat for a bit, and I remember thinking that I could now see him as just a guy and not a famous celebrity, and I was happy/proud about that, and then it gets quiet and it feels kind of awkward, and then I talk to Chelsea about the posts about a storm on Tumblr and how we had something that looked like it was going to be bad and then it kind of faded, and I said, about the people on Tumblr, "People died... figuratively." Then we look at the newspaper in front of me on the table and I nearly spit out tea or whatever it was that I was drinking because there are these ad things again and each ad has a picture of the optic of a corrupted core from Portal 2.