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I was sitting in my History classroom and my teacher (who is also the AP Psychiatry teacher) was giving a lecture about lucid dreaming. I began bragging that I knew what it was and that I had actually done it several times, but then I just woke up.

All I remember is trying my new (as far as I know I made it up) finger-biting RC. All I do is bite as hard as I can down on my finger tips, one at a time. I think the reason it works so well is because the pain lasts for a few seconds, so you get a really good sense of "When I do this, it hurts" so when performed in a dream, you are very surprised when it doesn't hurt. ANYWAY: It actually hurt in my dream. I got confused and woke up.

All I remember is an image (I think a still-image as odd as that may seem) of my cats liter box tilted over and a huge pile of cat liter and feces up against the wall. I also remember being VERY angry.

All I remember is eating a bunch of pot cookies with a friend of mine (can't remember who) and he told me to only take 2 but I secretly ate a LOT. I eventually just ran and don't remember anything after that.

My dream started off like this: I was in my house cleaning up and getting food ready because I (somehow) knew that my friend Emmy and her boyfriend Devin were coming over. But, right as I was finishing up, I found myself in the middle of Baltimore City (I live in the county) and I was with my friend Kris. The city actually reminded me more of my neighborhood or Grove street (GTA 5 version) than Baltimore, but I could feel that it was Baltimore. We broke into this Indian boy Ayem's house and started looting, but we heard him pull up, so we ran. Next thing I know, I was back at my house. My friend and her boyfriend arrived. We ate Ice cream and watched a movie in my room. Then, I woke up.

092913 (early morning of) 1130 115 (s mental barrier defeated) IWL 145 son home=woke me. 450 SSILD wake from 2nd LD 730 all times are approximations.
Two mental barriers sex and flonase both defeated! Dream before wbtb: and then unusual nightmare for me perhaps aided by the flonase. Woke up looking at connection between flonase & dreams.

*Please note, anyone deciding to read this, there is a lot of commentary and analysis that may be boring to someone looking from the outside.

First dream of night was non lucid nightmare which I will put at the end. Skipping ahead...

After wake back to bed I have a short DILD. As I am waking up back in bed I tell myself to remember it but opt not to write it down because I felt like I could easily DEILD. I was able to get lucid again but I did forget the first lucid dream. First LD was kind of short anyway I remember that much about it. It wasn't true DEILD because I didn't stay conscious and instead came into a false awakening. In the FA, I
don't remember (my dream body) getting up but I was at the foot of the bed fumbling around near the TV and I look back at the bed and my son is in the bed as well for some reason. I can't remember if he looked much younger since he might sometimes be in our bed when he was a toddler. But there was also a plump, balding guy between my wife and son. He looked nothing like me(I think I got lucky...got the hair from males on my moms side & have no signs of balding so far...). The guy is touching my wifes face WTF , what are you doing man??! Son asks what is wrong and I tell him that guys touching moms face! I go outside disgusted. I'm rifling through a pickup truck that seems to be mine even know I've never owned one and I look at the next driveway over and I see my wife leaning against a car staring at me. This gives me the "aha" lucid moment. I get out of truck...My wife disappears and I realize that I am standing in front of what is supposed to be an approximation of my
childhood home in E. I decide that this could be interesting and do not immediately fly off and I think that I want to look around and see if I can really see that house in this lucid dream. As I look at the house some of the details start materializing. Yep there's those multi colored bricks, and the faux shutters. There's the tree we planted and the little border the tree. I forgot about the shrubs, they were prominent. I think about going inside but nah... I'm usually trying to get out of the house lucid as quick as I can seems to be more adventurous outside. I fly over the nearby intersection with the two convenience stores and over my childhood hometown eventually to my highschool, though many details are missing from the townscape (or I forgot details of the LD). I think of the locker room task the month and think about doing it again. I enter and I'm going through the hallways of the school and no one is around at this point. I try to remember
where the gym is. Do I even remember if I took any physical education classes in high school? I didn't play any school sports that required going to the changing room. Ah, i realize, the gym is where the pep rallies were! ( as my waking memory becomes more clear) but I wake up try to go back into the dream I seem to be to awake.
Earlier non lucid turned nightmare:
Earliest part of the dream I can go back to: I was sitting in a church and we decided to sneak out a little early me and my wife and my mother in law. my mother in law left first through the side entrance on the opposite side of where we were heading me and my wife & I decided to cut through the church out of the opposite side to catch up to her. I told my wife we should have went down the aisle that we were already on we went down the parallel aisle which made it less efficient. I'm always talking about efficiency in waking life and it bothers her and my son usually. For some reason we're trying to catch a bus instead of going out to our car. We see that we just missed the bus because it pulls away and I wonder if my mother in law was on it she is nowhere to be seen. There's another bus
right behind it and it is parking in the parking lot I think that it must be parking in order to wait for the next scheduled time next scheduled pickup. My wife and I walked over to the bus and he starts pushing another vehicle with his bus I can't tell or can't remember if I thought he was helping the other vehicle or pushing it out of malice. Perhaps thinking about the malice aspect lead to the nightmare portion of this dream. Or perhaps the flonase or perhaps my conversation with my son the day before the dream where videos he showed me inspired me to want to have a nightmare which I normally do not look for and which I specifically told my son that the video made me want to have a nightmare. This wasn't really the kind I was looking for though. The video my son showed me IWL was related to Halloween mazes and the end of the dream was much like a dark corridor Halloween maze. Anyway we go up to the bus driver and ask him when the next bus leaves and he says there will be no more at this time of night his bus is out of
service for the night. He showed us on a detailed map where the next bus stop over still has lines running this time of night. It seem like it would be a long walk but we could do it and then perhaps a false memory of being at that other bus stop before and it was a place with a huge parking lot and lots of cars parked in like a commuter parking lot. All these buses were going into the city. What city I do not know but it certainly was no place familiar in waking life. At some point a dangerous pit bull dog is barking and making a fuss from the bus I believe. I think the bus driver is holding the dog back and giving us a chance to run and for some reason at this point it is me and my son(instead of me and wife) and we are both running as fast as we can . My son jumps into a car locks the door and I don't want to have him re open the door so I run into a warehouse the dog follows me but then I lose track of him I start searching for the dog which seems to be a dream sign for
me dogs and I wonder if it's because I'm hearing a dog barking in real life while I am sleeping sometimes we have a few dogs barking but not usually too much. And besides I wear ear plugs usually after my wake back to bed but I can still hear a little bit through the ear plugs. Somehow I have a shotgun double barreled so I can get off two shots with each load. I'm searching for the dog I look under to stall doors sort of like bathroom stalls and probably were bathroom stalls. I don't see anything under the bathroom stall doors and I continue looking down the corridor but then I go back to the two stalls and think how could this dog have disappeared maybe he's sneaky and jumped up on the toilet so I couldn't see him under the door? so I kicked in each door nothing there. I go back into the corridor and wonder where in the heck did he go ? This is some kind of super dog. Then I see that there is another room that I missed before that has those plastic
curtain blades hanging vertically like you have when you walk into a walk in freezer the kind of plastic you push aside to go in for easy ingress and egress but still keeping the cold air in. I finally see the dog facing away from me and I decide to sneak up on him to try to shoot him... Sorry pet lovers I would never do this in waking life unless I thought he was still coming after my son or I. The shot seems to wildly miss or at least it doesn't hurt the dog in the least... I shoot again nothing I reload and try to shoot some more and then I wake up.

A nightmare from over the weekend:

I'm watching a TV show involving something supernatural, and the character in the show is looking at a TV screen with some monster/demon/spirit/etc on the other side of the screen, coming closer, intending to break through. It looks like a white-skinned (literal colorless white) woman with brilliantly red hair and this blazing sparking moving light where its eyes should be. I notice that I can see it not just on my TV but on all the reflective surfaces in the room, and I know it's really trying to break through into the real world. I try holding it back with various protective symbols and calling on various things (not Apollo, curiously, as that's been my go-to nightmare cure recently; possibly it's because this one's not on the theme of darkness like all the others were) but they're not very effective, I have the feeling it's only a matter of time. At the same time, the door at the far end of the hall is open - I came through it earlier - and through it I can see a woman laughing, different from the woman in the screen but I have the feeling they're related. Feeling like I don't have much time, I sprint across the hall, slam the door and lock it. The dream 'camera' zooms in on that image of the lock turning, and closely focuses on the feel of it - and then the scene isn't a nightmare anymore. The thing on the screen is gone, now it's showing the main character saying to his sister, "It's you and me, we're all we've got now."

At some point while I was watching the show (I can't remember whether it was before or after the nightmare part), I thought to myself that watching creepy things every week might impact your dreams.

(Woke up around 5:30, an hour after bed, with a high-pitched ringing in my ears that reminds me a little of TV static, so that was presumably the cause of this. Recall for the rest of the day was terrible.)

Tonight's dreams:

People living in tunnels who have to move due to some imminent danger.

I'm walking through this vast room, mostly filled with a pool of water, cranes are standing in it, and one of the people I'm with comments on the way one of the birds is holding its leg up out of the water, she says she bets it's pointing to something, we should investigate. I disagree, but investigate anyway just to prove the point. I float above the water, and pass various cranes pointing in different directions, meaningless. But at the far side of the room I meet a man, a traveler, who I start talking to and who decides to come with us; he's standing beside this curtained alcove, and through the white curtains I get a glimpse of this beautiful woman sitting on the stone floor in white robes, hair down to the floor, and at first I think she's wearing a mask, something representing the moon, and I think she must be a princess or a priestess. Then I realize that's not a mask, it's her face, beautiful and strange.

3rd person, that traveler and the man who I was in the previous scene are walking down a flight of stairs with a little boy running ahead of them. There's a festival, a sending on of spirits, which are these floating pale lights filling the room, sending them on involves covering them with cloth, and the boy reaches for one of them, but it's acting differently than the others. The traveler says that because this one had been killed, it would be wrong to send her on in that form. The light takes on the image of the little girl it had been, and starts talking to the little boy, calling him Koya, saying he's gotten older. He tells her he's not Koya, sounding frustrated, but one of the older men says quietly to him that she needs him to be the person she's waiting for.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I'm at some airport, but not a conventional one, either it's interplanetary or interdimensional. I was with some girl friends, but I loose them in the crowd. I end up in the restauration area and from there I walk out into an open area that I recognize from another dream I had some day. There's a stage and a girl is rehearsing for a concert later on. I keep walking up a dirt road because nature looks alien: there's a tree with raspberries the size of big apples and the soil looks like a creamy chocolate cake. As I watch the trees, their roots and branches and the river to my left, I notice patterns overlapping. The branches of a certain tree fit precisely against certain stars in the sky.
A guy appears behind me and says "Can you see the patterns, repeated and interconnected?".
"Yes, but if I move to a new position, I stop seeing this overlapping pattern, so it's just coincidental."
"Look again, you'll just see new patterns emerging. No matter what angle you look at things, you will always find repeating and overlapping patterns, just different ones, infinite numbers."
As we keep walking, I know I am dreaming, but it requires no reality check to confirm it or stabilize it. It holds very naturally and very clear. I actually feel that I can stay there forever. I realize how much I could learn if I decide to stay. I am decided to stay and unravel all the secrets of all the universes.
But then I wonder what will happen to the girl body I have left sleeping on a bed... Will "I" enter a coma? Sleep for the rest of "my life"? What about my family and loved ones? I don't worry that I'll miss them, I worry that they'll suffer not understanding what is happening to "me". I feel obliged to come back. (Damn!)
But for now I keep walking with this guy and he takes me to a really nice hostel in the mountain. My room faces a terrace over the river, that connects to other rooms. All is well on this peaceful place, I'm just contemplating nature, when a couple of men in black come out of another room, dragging my friend. When I approach to ask what they're doing, they tell me to go away or they'll take me to. One of them has some kind of weapon that points at me and I wake up.

I'm in a very big room. I and other people are small as rats. I talk with someone, I'm look at him and at some girl. He told me that I shouldn't talk with that girl, because she has weak protective barrier. [Film view]Then some giant entered to the room and told that he has quest and someone must going to the Village of Villagers. Everyone was terrified. "I" want to do that quest. Then camera changes and show the small room with glass walls under the ceiling. In this room were high levels heros, they have shiny armor. One magician riding on a purple dragon. They prepare to fight, but someone told that the humans should do that quest. Then that magician on purple dragon try to fly through glass, but she can't and fall down. [Film view]

Had a super long dream last night, but sadly... I didn't write anything down and now I don't remember much.

I know that there was a lot of driving, a lot of running around, my parents, my cousins, sex with Lea Michele (best part of the dream ) and some fighting/end of the world stuff. You know, the usual.

LUCID
*I realized I was in a dream when I showed this two kids how to fly. For a little while we are flying laughing. Then I notice that something fell out of the sky and fell on the ground. I was scared it might one of the kids who fell while flying but was actually my friend roberto. When I observed closer it was a whole scene of him laying dead next to a totaled car. I thought should I warn him when I wake up? Where is this information coming from?

Then I thought about my goal I wanted to accomplish. I reached in my pocket grabbed my phone, the program set up was different but more or less the appearance was pretty accurate. I dialed the operator by pressing zero and hitting send. I asked to speak with padmasambhava the operator said ok. Then he repeating something back to me that wasn't correct. I thought this guy isn't listening and he seems to be having a bad day. At this point it felt I was talking to a real person for some reason.Lost lucidity, I woke up in my apartment with day light. I had the thought I wish I could be in a lucid dream for ever. False awakening and then woke up foreal.

I've decided to stick with my current SST regime a while longer...in the hope that awareness will obviate the need to stay in bed half the day to achieve LD's. there's definitely no shortage of DS...even from the beginning of the night.

1.30 AM
A dark dream. In some tunnels and feeling scared. (DS) A violent-looking and vaguely troll-like character(DS) emerges from one of the tunnels and passes by the mouth of my tunnel a few times. It was one of those film-like scenarios where a character passes by another person who (so they're both in shot) is obviously in the 1st character's line-of-vision but he doesn't notice (you've all seen them)

I'm hiding (DS) but not very well. He's blathering sinister DC-speak about wanting "to welcome me" (Oh yeah?) I eventually retreat far down the tunnel and I can see him in the distance but he doesn't follow. With the right dose of awareness ("could I have 2 kgs of awareness please... oh, and those nice peaches over there.") I'd have been lucid one hour into the night..

5.35 AM
On board one of several *weird (DS) boats that looked like long thin flat-tops but were somehow filled with female passengers(DS) I'm sorting out where to sit and I'm advised to sit at the rear (there's some sort of drop-down section) because "It's a more stable platform." For what? Am I being launched somewhere?

7.30 AM
Working (DS) in a shipping line office. Some guy is blathering away on the phone to me and I can't understand a blind word he's saying (that's not a dream sign because I'm fairly deaf)

8.30 AM
In an office/factory?? (DS) The workers (DS)...all women as far as I can see (DS) are getting ready to go over and shower/get changed to go home Eventually, (apart from an unlikeable manager, (DS) there's only me and a woman who I apparently didn't get on very well with

There's been a few...I've worked in offices chock-full of middle-aged women (feminine mafias) and I'm now only too aware how women must have felt down, through the ages, working and living in male-dominated societies...but why me Lord...why me?

We were peering up inside some control panel at (TV's??) Weird scenario (DS) and the manager seemed to be suspicious of what we were doing. I think the control panels were Ed's really bad attempts at PC's. It either shows how little info the unconscious has or how bold are their artistic brush-strokes when creating a dream. What are you using to apply the paint Ed...a potato?

Awareness, awareness, awareness, awareness (write it out 10,000 times before home-time Mr Sid)

I was at rangebank, on the the basketball court with some people I knew. I saw a group of people leaving the school, heading towards the car park. As they walked passed, I was making a noise *Hurrrrrrr*. It was directed at them. They didn't like it, and proceeded to do the same thing towards me. They now started throwing things over the fence, towards us. One of the DC's threw a tub of hair wax towards me. I recognised the brand of hair wax, it was dominate (A brand I've used in the passed), expect it was yellow.

I picked it up and said ''you're not getting this back''. They jumped and fence and were hostile towards us. They were not happy on how we treated them and wanted the hair product back. I told them to settle down, and that I would give the product back. The DC that threw the item, looked very familiar and very tall. I asked him if he was one of three names. I only remember one of them, it was Edward I. He responded saying, no he's none of them.

I was now at a random house. I was in the bedroom and could hear someone getting angry and sounded like they were blaming me on not giving them a bed. I opened the door and someone dragging a mattress down the hallway, while the DC that threw the wax earlier, was next to him. I told him in a calm voice, ''What do you need?''. To my surprise he only wanted a pillow.

False Awakening Fail.
I was sitting at my computer, staring at the desktop. It looked very convincing, as I had the same wallpaper. I become a little confused, knowing that I could see the monitor through my sleeping mask. I figured that I probably had them on my head, and not covering my eyes, which was correct. I now put them, and to my surprise, I could see the monitor still, as clear as day. I looked away, back and forth. Nothing changed. Everything went black, and I figured I had turned the computer off. I convinced myself that the monitor was bright enough to be seen through my mask. *Face palm* Can't believe I didn't RC.

I was at Jamie S's house, where he's basketball area is. I think it was Jane's 50th birthday and we had to dress up in costume for it. I was with Jarrod F, Ed (Big brother contestant), Jane and Tim. I remember trying to be more out going to impress Jarrod. Ed had left, and I was trying to take his place. Ed and Jarrod were good friends, and I wanted to better him, if not be similar.

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Ed - Big Brother

I was now in the car with Jarrod and the sky didn't look right. I looked into the distance and saw a volcano. It was shooting smoke and debree out of it. I think there was two volcano's.
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Volcano

We reached out destination, and it was like a town that looked built in an Arabian country, light tan buildings and road. I decided to jump up and grab onto a pole. I was just hanging there for the hell of it. It felt very easy to just hang, as if I was stronger then normal.

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Arabian Town

We were now in a office of some sort. It was myself, Jarrod, and two DC's. One of the DC's was behind the desk and I showed her what was in my bag, so she knew I didn't steal anything. There was strange items in the bag, with one being a quarter full mouth wash bottle. The DC behind the desk said something about the mouthwash, and I said that I don't care if it's out of date, i'd still have it. I think it expried 2011-2012. We were all laughing. I mentioned to her, what would I be like in the bed room then? The moment turned a bit awkward and she didn't hear me the first time, so I repeated myself. It was still awkward.

Dream Fragment:
I was still in the Arabian country and I was part of a game. I think we all had certain super powers. I was being chased.

I'm just gonna get right to the point, I'm gonna spend some time catching up and putting everything from my notebook dream journal (written with pen) onto this online one. So, yeah. And also, some of this might scare you. I got used to it and for that I payed the price.

Part one (I call this one the God complex):
I don't know how I got here, but I'm in some kind of jungle. It's night time and there's some scary noises I can hear. I start running to find some kind of shelter. I can't find a good place so stop where I'll be safe, so I just keep running. Eventually, I hear something move close by. I turn around and see something rustle in the bushes. I keep running. Eventually, the becomes daytime. I'm still running. I'm getting a bit of an adrenaline rush. There's that fear factor I can feel in my gut also. Eventually, I slow down, but I'm still scared for my life. I start thinking about the dream itself and wondering if it's a dream at all. Then, I get to thinking if it'll ever end. If I'll ever see my friends or family again. About middleschool, and highschool, and if I'll ever get back. I think about my friends, and about the times I've spent with them. I start running faster. That fear factor is playing up again. After a little while, it's night time again. Time to look for the shelter that I'll never find. I don't know what it is, but I can feel something watching, like its been there the whole time. I start seeing pairs of red, glowing eyes watching me. No matter how fast I run, they're still there. After a while, it's day time again. And it all happens over, and over, and over, and over. As it goes I miss my friends more, and more, and more, and more, and more until it's a goddamned knife in my back, like its pulling me down. Some time later, I see something. Something big and bright. I walk closer and eventually I see a body of water, the sun reflecting off of it. Just below the horizon are some docks, next to what looks like an oil rig at the center of the body of water. My heart skips a beat, and I'm grateful there's a sig of people. A couple minutes later, I see a few of my friends. I run up and hug them, tell them how fucked up everything was, and they just say "Hey Ian how ya doing?". I know something's wrong, but I don't wanna believe it. All I wanna believe is that it'll all end. Anyways, they pull up their raft, we all climb on, and start moving out to the oil rig. Once we get there, I'm stunned. There's all of my friends, my family, everyone. People from school that I didn't even know that well. It's like a party. There's music, there's dancing. A couple of girls even gave me their phone number. I don't care. I'm just glad to see all of them. To know they're there with me. A little while later, the sun starts setting. I'm leaning on a railing, looking at the horizon where there isn't any land ahead (if you imagine it like a cove, where to the north is the docks and a small village, to the west and south is the jungle, and to the east is a long river that opens up to an ocean). I'm trying to absorb everything. Let it all sink in. But then I notice something. To the east, where the cove opens up to an ocean, the water starts swaying. Eventually, I see a huge wave (gigantic. unbelievably enormous. like it's the end of the world). I start shouting, trying to get everyone to run, but they tell me I'm crazy. They tell me to just relax. And then, once the wave is an eighth of a mile away, they start evacuating, telling every one to go into the hole (you know, like a submarine hole, like a shelter room). They start telling everyone to get in there. (and this is where the endgame hits. the climax. where i know theres no god and if there were, he'd be not a god, but Lucifer himself). I climb into the shelter room. Everything inside looks like the inside of a submarine (metal walls, floor, spinney-wheel kind of door). Theres a few other people there. My parents, the girl I love (who just thinks I might have a crush on her), my best friend, etc. Then it hits. People are still screaming "what do we do?!" when it does. The blast shuts the metal door, and I start crying. Because the people outside didn't make it. But the door gets blown open and we all get sucked out. Eventually, the water level drops back down I get up. There's still puddles of water everywhere. And the bodies, too. Bodies everywhere. My friends, family everyone. A couple people are still alive, but exactly when I get there and touch them, and let them know I'm there, their skin turns soft and pale, and their bodies turn to sand and water. The bodies all turn to sand and water. I find my mom and dad. They're still breathing. I start crying. I know they're gonna leave soon, but I don't want them to go. I reach over and hug them tight, to let them know I'll always love them. Then they melt. To sand and water. They all melt down, everyone. Only when I touch them. The girl I love, my best friend, and its ALL MY FAULT. Then I wake up. This is how I know there's no fucking god. No fucking person that has the slightest bit of good in them would ever make me go through that. If they would, they deserve to burn in hell, the get their insides torn out. Dream or not, that's my scar, and it drove me insane. And everytime I think about it, about what I went through I start crying. I just wish it never happens again as a dream, and that it never happens for real.