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(Welp, haven't posted here in a long time... I guess I was too lazy to type up my handwritten journal :/ )
On another note, I might have had my first lucid today.
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Oct 30 2013 - 2213 to 0500

0240 - I was apparently in my high school (though it looked different). J (an old friend that I haven't seen since... elementary school?) was there and I showed her my list of osu! beatmaps and she got excited over anime for a while, especially Puella Magi Madoka Magika. Well, she paused when she saw Madoka Magika, anyway. A teacher/janitor came by and we pretended to be fixing a poster on the wall. They started moving all the carts so i had to go back to my backpack (which was on a cart but they took it off and tossed it on top of a cabinet or something).

A seahorse sticker backing is on a poster on the wall. I realized that it was a reference to M, my friend. B (a classmate) said it was a Daily 20(?) challenge to find people who got it. She mentioned a difficult class with lots of free courses and I was momentarily confused before I realized she was talking about APCS. Because i got it, she thought I was on the making posters crew. (Or was that J?)

0412 - had a lucid dream, or a non-lucid about lucid dreams. I woke up and it was 0630 or so. I felt really tired even though it was 0630. I thought I slept through the 0500 alarm and was disappointed because I didn't want to give up on CAT. I also thought it was a bit strange that I didn't even wake up when my phone vibrated, because usually I do. And then I thought, "what if this is a dream?" And I pushed my finger through my hand and tried breathing while plugging my nose.

I realized that it was a dream and became excited, though I tried not to be too excited. I kind of failed at staying calm though, because instead of stabilizing, I tried picking up various things like a thin black cone and using it as a wand, and I looked outside and the street was flooded with water. I jumped outside and flew around and came back, and tried walking into the living room, but then I "woke up." Apparently it transitioned into a non-lucid then.

When I "woke up," the room was in disarray. My pillow was on the floor, and strangely my laptop was charging but on the floor as well (it was supposed to be on my desk) and the browser was open to Facebook. I think I was on the floor as well, though I got up and tried putting things back. My mom came down quickly and asked if I were alright, because she heard a thud. I was like "yeah" and said that she should worry more about herself because she was bleeding a bit from her nose. She touched her finger to her nose, but couldn't get at the blood.
And then I woke up for real.

10/28:
Dreamed I went to a Farmer's Market. I was somewhere along the west coast. Anyway, there was a lot of different organic produce at a vegetable stand.
We (me and some friends) stopped by a strawberry patch, where we picked some strawberries that smelled wonderful. They were ripe and juicy. There were a few that weren't quite ripe, so we left them there.
Then we walked down a hilly dirt road to another stand, which specialized in heirloom and rare vegetables and fruits. It was run by 2 guys who looked like hillbillies. They had skin that was leathery from being in the sun so much, and some missing teeth, and one of them was wearing worn out bluejean overalls.
There were purple and yellow tomatoes at the stand. The yellow ones bruised easily. There was also yellow watermelon.

10/29:
I had a dream that there was a very tall skyscraper. I was some sort of emergency medical person or something. Anyway, there was some kind of zombie virus outbreak, and then I was a vampire plotting to secretly take over a few floors of the building, and then I was an EMT again but I was also the janitor. I was trying to stuff as many boxes as I could into a helicopter. Then I was riding in a semitransparent, ghostlike shopping cart that flew between the floors of the building and could pass through walls.

I was an EMT again. We started locking down floors of the building as it was overwhelmed by the outbreak.

Then, suddenly, I was in a helicopter. There was a chef there, and the helicopter was full of canned chickens. The company running the helicopter had a reputation that hinged on fresh chickens, and hadn't expected me to be there, so they were trying to cover it up. They offered me a sample of chicken broth.
Then all of the chickens (canned or not) were gone and there were 2 people dressed in rat mascot costumes in the helicopter. They were apparently members of a punk band. One of them had taken his mascot costume head off, and he had a tattoo on his face. They were talking about how they had saved a lot of lives in the outbreak. Taking the mascot head off was a big deal, since they never took their costumes off.

Then I woke up.

I was in a house that was at the location of my friends house, but the layout was different and stuff around it was changed. I don't remember how, but I realized I was dreaming. I did the noseplug RC. Then, I remembered to stabilize the dream this time. I spun around and then said outloud "I want this dream to be longer than my other ones and to become more vivid" The dream cleared up a bit, and I was surprised and happy as well. I marveled at how this dream was so much more vivid than my other lucid dreams.

I tried to thing so something to do, but I couldn't think of anything. I went out on to the top floor deck. It was more like a platform though because there was no railing. I took a running start and jumped and try to fly, but I just floated to the next floor's deck. I tried the same thing, but the same thing happened.

I noticed the lack of DCs, but didn't pay too much attention to that. I tried to shapeshift in to a Dragon. I couldn't get anything to happen though, and so I tried changing in to other animals. Nothing worked though. I went back inside, but again couldn't think of something to do, so I tried to remember ToTM. I hadn't looked at it since the beginning of the month though, so I couldn't remember it.

After, I wanted to go do...something and I looked for some DCs, but ended up not finding any, and then I woke up

This was my longest lucid and the most realistic/vivid. I wish I had thought of more things to do, and bothered some DCs, but I didn't think about it at the time xD.

I became lucid a few times the night these dreams happened, so I'm not sure what happened exactly, but this is just the part I remember pretty clearly.

I was skiing with my ski team. I decided to go really fast down the hill, so I went down, going faster than normal. At the bottom, I went out of control, and fell and slid on my back on the cement at the bottom of the hill. I got up, and someone asked if I was ok. I got up and said "yeah, I just didn't want to ruin my skis". I took off my skis and walked over to a ski rack, but then I realized that I was dreaming. I did the nose plug RC. Then, I saw a bus and went and got on it because I felt like it, and my ski team was supposed to be on it. We drove for a bit, then I saw that no one on the bus was on my ski team. Then, the dream faded.

I don't know if I woke up, but I'm pretty sure I may have. I really focused on the bus scene though, and suddenly I was back in the bus. I got off the bus and did a RC for fun because it feels sort of cool (noseplug) I saw that I wasn't nearby a ski hill, and was in the middle of a street, but then I woke up

Once again, I'm in a video game-esque world; or at least, the graphics in this world is good ol' early 90's DOS, 256-colors game. We (as in my party, who are comprised of 2D sprites -- looks like we are in an SRPG game) have just hit the Sad Ending, and the female protagonist is going to be lost to another dimension in an act of self sacrifice. Only, she suddenly realizes that she can totally get out of this predicament, and yep, we are suddenly in Good Ending, complete with a big boost in graphics as we hit an FMV sequence. I'm not sure how/why, but now we are flying around on a big airship (that acts as our party's camp, I assume) overlooking mountains and plains, and a pack of birds is celebrating with us. It would not feel out of place in a Final Fantasy FMV sequence. Then blurriness.

Dream two has me acting as the older brother of two poor orphans who I named Kate and Sam. Kate is older (I want to say 8-9 years old), has perfect curls, and is dressed in a patched down jacket that reaches down to her knees. Sam is maybe 4 or 5, carries a teddy bear in one hand (while holding on to Kate with the other) while wearing a faded onesie. They look like pathetically cute ragamuffins.

Oh, and apparently, I'm a ghost in this scenario, and only Kate and Sam can see me. So I go around watching over them as they struggle in the middle of winter in a grim-looking city. At one point, we are in a small market at the meat section, and an old man that resembles/played by Jonathan Banks tries to buy food -- a package of uncooked chicken drumsticks and chicken breasts -- for them, only I Ghost-slap the food out of his hands in anger. Apparently, Dream Knowledge fills me in that this old man is a detective, and I am agitated because I guess he wasn't able to prevent my death/overlooked my murder/I'm a dick.

The dream switches to the outside of an alleyway, and I'm also able to communicate with the detective now. We seem to have put our differences aside, and he even has decided to take in Kate and Sam to watch over as his own. But before we can get to the Happy Ending, we have to take down a mobster nicknamed "Leek," like the vegetable. Apparently, he is the one who is responsible for my death. Sadly, the dream fades before I find out what happens.

Oh no, wait, yes I do -- my subconscious ripped off the plot from The Crow, so I have a pretty good idea what happens.

I had a very strange dream that my clit was bothering me. I looked at it and it was just a little bigger, as if swollen. I looked at it again later and it was MUCH bigger. I told myself it sort of looked like a penis, and sure enough, a "head" was then visible. I was curious if it would FEEL like a mans and if I could climax, so I started whacking off. But there was no hole in the head. Then I noticed sort of gills near my hip bones. A foamy white started accumulating in those gills and I thought "Huh, this is it" (I was feeling no pleasure). But then when I whacked it was more like pumping air and my stomach filled with so much air I was twice my size. I told myself to stop before I exploded I felt a lot of pain from the air so I can only assume I was gassy while I slept. But what a strange way to express that in my dreams!!!!

As far as I can tell, this dream didn't actually go lucid. Recently, I've been telling myself over and over that "I will fly when I dream!" - it seems my subconscious finally picked up on it, even if I wasn't lucid at the time. As for the candy? Maybe I was reliving my completion of the basic TOTM?

I'm in a wooded area with a group of people doing outdoor activities. From a clearing with the remains of a campfire, I've been walking certain paths over and over. The proper path goes to the left, nearly hits the road, turns right, and runs generally parallel to the road, snaking back and forth without ever getting too far from the road. In the clearing, I realize that if I walk straight ahead through a few feet of trees and underbrush, I'll come out on a second path which has a much broader sweep, with a swampy area to the right, eventually hitting the first path right as they cross the road. I like the second path much better and decide to use it.

Now I'm crossing the road. I don't pay attention and get hit by a car. Now I'm walking down a hallway towards a window. I step through the open window and over a small flower garden, coming out in the clearing. I see someone else from my group taking my cut through the trees to the second path and decide that I'm going to take the main path and try to beat him. I start to jog along the path.

When it meets the road and turns to the right, it goes down a long, moderate incline before it starts to snake. As I pass the top of the incline, I leap into the air, hold my arms straight in front of me (Superman style), and glide down the hill. Looking to my right through the trees, I can see the other guy. We're at around the same place, and I still want to beat him. As I glide down the hill, I quickly pick up speed. At the bottom, I "pull up" and am really pleased when I gain some good altitude - probably about ten feet. I don't want to loose too much speed and stall out, so I angle myself just slightly towards the ground and keep going. Ahead of me, the path kinks to the right and back to the left, going around* a tree limb at a bad height, but I fly right over it. As I'm flying I try both Superman arms-in-front as well as pretending my arms are wings and holding them to the side. They both work equally well.

Now I'm at the road crossing. I'm a bit nervous about crossing the road flying, just in case something goes wrong, but I've got enough speed and altitude that I'm confident I'll make it. I get across with no problem. Past the road, the path becomes wider and grassy and forks. I can go either straight ahead and then right, or I can turn immediately right. Somehow I know that ahead-and-right will be fairly flat while immediate-right will be downhill, so I turn right. It's even wider here, probably twenty or thirty feet, straight and smooth (it'd make a great ski run). I go down it faster and faster, picking up more and more speed.

At the bottom I "pull up" and shoot way into the air, higher than the trees, high enough to see both paths clearly, high enough to see the wooded areas as just a big blob of dark green and the paths as blobs of light green. I have a brief thought that I shouldn't be cheating like this, but I don't care. I fly a little high in the air until I see a brown patch that's a building at the end of the trails. I start to descend towards it. It rapidly becomes bigger, though it only becomes slightly more detailed - it looks like a falling-to-earth effect from an old SNES game. As I get closer, I see a brown boxy shape with square child icons moving around inside it, representing the building and the locations of the people inside it.

Now I'm in the house,* in a smallish room. A bunch of kids are moving in and out of the room, trick-or-treating. I know I have to get some of their candy, but I know it'll be easy: all I have to do is put out a container with at least one empty slot, and the next kid to come by will fill it (they have very basic behaviors coded). I put out some kind of flat partitioned container and take a lemon Starburst from one of the corner spots. I end up focusing on the Star Burst and ignoring the rest of the candy. Now I'm chewing the Starburst and holding the empty wrapper, playing with it.

The last two nights i have had two dreams with reoccurring dreams. the first one, i was reading an article about pig farming, and the cruel way the pigs were treated. The mother died after giving birth, or was killed, the piglets desexed immediately, and sold when they were only one day old.
then it was night and i was on a broad, empty street, it was raining and there was a gale blowing the rain sideways. there was a day old piglet being swept along, and i was running after him to try and capture and rescue him, but he was terrified, and tried to get away from me. i finally caught him and wrapped him up in my jacket, squeezing him tight to my chest, until his panicked heart beat slowed down and he realised he was safe.
and then next i was in a boat with a bunch of people, in the compartment below the waterline. as i looked around i recognised some of the faces from pictures in the article i had read. then a reporter asked two of the "animal abusers", two young guys, to recount their story. as they recounted the story it happened, and i became one of the guys. one of the windows burst open and the water came surging in, so strong it pushed them out the other side. but a whale swam past the boat and prevented them from being swept out, and pushed them back into the boat. i was left puzzled, because i didn't know if the boys had actually harmed the whale or done anything wrong.

the next night, i dreamed i was looking after two baby orphaned animals i had rescued a few days ago, one was a black puppy, the other was a lamb or a white poodle i don't remember. i was keeping them in tiny little cages because it was all i had, and when i went to check on the puppy, i found he was covered in his own poo. i asked my host father (currently in real life i am on student exchange, living with a host family, although this man did not resemble my real host father, he was sort of brutish with an unsympathetic face) if he could show me how to give the dog a bath. he chucked the puppy in the bath tub and filled it with water, which was blue like the ocean, and then held him at arms length so he wouldn't splash water on the floor, and told me to do the same and just let him sit in the water. when he left i ignored his instructions, i got into the bath and washed the dog properly. i also gave the lamb/poodle a wash.
then i was a girl on a ship, leaving the docks, we bumped another boat on the way out, causing the ship to rock and my windows to dip below the waterline. when i looked down into the water i could see the dim outline of a whale. i don't really remember what happened next, i think i was swimming in the water trying to find the whale, which might have turned into a dolphin or another sea creature. and then i was on a beach with a group of friends, and in the water was a group of mermaids, we had somehow rescued. one of the mermaids and i fell in love, and we had sex underwater. she told me it was her first time, and she had always worried that she would never have sex, because all of the mermaids were girls. (this doesn't really make sense, since i am a girl, but for some reason all of the mermaids had penises, although different from human penises)

I am leaving this beach with my family because of something in the water most likely sharks because earlier in the day I was reading up on them. I remember getting on a bus with alot of my family members to go to another beach when were passing this crystal clear water which you could see the bottom of the sea floor from like 50 feet down which some of the rocks were red, blue and white but were really ragged. My mom all of a sudden starts saying that she liked the other beach better because the water was sweeter which then we both started laughing together at that fact. Once were getting off the bus at this fancy looking hotel my grandma gets off, my mom and I after paying 20,000 for like a 3 minute ride which then my mom started bitching about saying that we might as well taken a donkey from one beach to another which was also mad funny. Then my grandma started shouting at the couple who stayed in the bus because it started leaving and I dont think they had the cash to pay so the bus driver kept them on the bus so my grandma started shouting which exit it was and kept walking towards the beach.

I am in a large building that is somewhat of an amusement type deal. There are many rooms and each room is a different computer simulation of fantastic things. My family and I get stuck inside the building after hours, and have to wait for it to open up the next day to get out.
I end up going into a bunch of different rooms. The most memorable rooms were the erotic room, and this one computer simulation room where it was a large bay area with giant wooden boats, and the water surrounding the boats were filled with all types of fish and manta rays.
There was a part of this room that was a giant tank, where you walked across the top of it and could see many different whales. It was awe inspiring.
The dream ends where we almost make it back to when the place opens, then my dream ends. There is much more to this dream that I did not put down here.

I am watching episodes of futurama as they go by. In the first and longest episode I watch, I am actually in the show. It is an episode where Fry and leela seem to make some sort of pact that because fry did something, Leela and Him could have a short amount of freetime together, free from the shackles of time.
They are in a theme park going down a slide. Bender does not seem to be able to comprehend the feelings he should be having while on the ride because he is a robot, until he gets to the part of the ride where it is a robot manufacturing part.
Fry and Leela in the meantime get stuck as the ride malfunctions. They are on a platform of metal grating, stuck together above everyone else. Fry loves Leela, and thinks that this is a good time to use the opportunity so that they can spend the time together. She declines.
A lot of stuff happens but eventually all of the Planet Express crew minus Hermes, as well as Zapp end up in a single craft, in the middle of a large dark area. Fry somehow caused the universe to end, and little by little, one by one everyone starts to dissapear except for Fry and Leela. They try to exchange words and he tries to use the power, but she refuses. They are then chased by a monster because their being alive was a mistake of the system. The monster is one that goes after single eyed beings. I am now in the episode and watch as they are being chased. I try to take the costume inside of the space ship they came in on and the episode ends.

I am at an amusement park that is sort of like a theme park where we are in an African country where there are different factions of small black children each wearing their own different uniforms. I end up walking all over the park and decide that it is now a good time to start working out when I get to a large open dirt field with some tall stools and balls that you can train yourself with body weight. I start doing tricep dips as I see a couple of young asian women playing with a rubber ball and kicking it around. They keep hitting the ball near me, and I keep kicking it away while I am doing my exersizes on the tall stools. They seem somewhat impressed with what I am able to do. Eventually they leave and eventually I get tired of working out so I walk around.
I end up in another section of the park where there is a group of african children all dressed in yellow. This part of the park seems pretty dangerous, as they all start to stare at me. I leave quickly.
The park is closing now, and I start to feel as if I should probably leave soon. I see my friend Martinez as I am leaving. I see a hot blonde woman that speaks spanish, and I point Martinez in her direction to hook them up. He goes up to her , as she is up the stairs near the exit, and they start talking in spanish.
I now feel the urge moreso to leave the park, so I do, thus seamlessly transitioning into the next part of the dream.

I successfully attempt a WILD. I feel loud buzzing noises and feel my body pushed down and moved all over the place. I go with the sensations as I am pushed back and forth. I am moving all over the place and I end up back in my room. At one point I even try to float away. Then I wake up and I go to my light switch and try it out. It works. I open my door to a nice starry night. I close i and open it again hoping to get another place, but it is the same scene.
I a so excited that I am in a LD that I do not stabilize and i go outside and take off to the skies. It is beautiful and I see giant pine trees and feel their boughs as I whiz pass them. I am flying to a destination that I am not sure off. My heart is pumping so fast. I realize that I am too excited and i should use stabilization techniques, but I am in the sky. I say the words, but do not use the hand and palm technique. I slowly start to fade, and as i go into the darkness I try spinning my dream body. I wake up in my bed to no avail. I try to DEILD but I can feel my fan on my leg ad the dream is done. I shall try again.

I was having a very tactile dream of \eating food at a large sort of event in a Buffet type style. I d just talked to a man that was sitting on a bench near the end of the line of one of the buffet parts. He was sitting on the bench with his arms around his knees. He looked very sad. It turns out that he lost his newborn that day. His wife went in to labor ad delivered the baby, but the area in which she was having the baby wasn't as clean as it should have been because our super only took a quick look in the area because he was in a rush. he combined his inspection of the birthing area with his inspection of the buffet line all at once because he as short on time, and ultimately this man and his wife's child had paid the ultimate price for negligence in the work area. I remember feeling sad as he cried while he told me the story of his child and how he had lost it. On the bright side the food was very good.
I had gotten there earlier To get some food. i remember that the salad was very good. I had the cucumbers with tomatoes and lettuce, on the salad there was a premade dressing that was somewhat creamy with Parmesan cheese already in it, premixed with the salad. When i went around in line again, I saw Andrea, who had already gotten Chicken Parmesan, except that it was still on the bone. She was trying to give the chicken back because she didn't want in. The dfac worker said that he could take it back if she didn't want it, but he would have to scrape off the cheese and cool it before saving for later. Before that she had tried to give it to me, because I had gone back in line to get seconds. When I came back around in line, I saw the man getting teased by what I thought were his coworkers. He was still very sad that he had lost his child.
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I am with Penton and his supervisor. We are in some sort of grocery store and I do not know that I am dreaming. I join them i going on a lunch break. I do not know what was happening before, but I know that now we are eating with some Asian girl. We are talking to her about how she came back to England to see some people and that she is glad to get to come back and talk with them again. We all start talking to her and each other. We hink that it is awesome that she is able to meet who she wanted to again. It was probably family. We all talk about our backgrounds. Penton says that he too was an only child. In the dream he is married, and invites e over whenever we go back to chill with them, because he can cook food well. I ate a delicious whole mint pudding pie with oreo/chocolate on the outside. I also had some other food. From there we leave her be, because she is till waiting for someone, so we go and leave the eating area, which is in some sort of large grocery store. We follow one of the signs to a frozen meats department. I know this because of the sign. I then WILD into a lucid

I am back in high school again. Foor some reason my fourth grade teacher is now a High school teacher. She was teaching an advanced English class. I knew that it was weird for me to be attending this class because I had already graduated and went to college for a year. I didn't think of it at the time, but that was a moment when i should have RCed. Anyway, the teacher was teaching a bit too fast. we had an assignment that we all had to do which was reading passages and then writing something based on those passages.
I was seated in the third row. For some reason one of the assignments was somewhat of a talent show. I was able to sing a song very well, and I was able to get the d-bag student in the first row to be jealous of my mad skills. I noticed that he had the same wind up pocket watch as I had, except his was all broken up inside. He tried to break my watch but I didn't let him, and then I hit him. he began to cry.
Later on class was ending. I had not finished all of the assignment and I wasn't sure whether it was due that day or not. Two of the over achievers in the class said that they were going to come in after school to finish the assignment. They went to go eat lunch first. i decided that I didn't want to go in because aint nobody got time for that.