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Read about the SSILD technique and tried it. Not sure if this will be a good one for me. Woke up without any alarm. Tried the relaxation cycle. Fell back asleep. Nothing. Tried again and again as I kept waking up during the night. Nothing to report here.
In the early morning hours I dreamt I was back in FL. I met all my friends again. It felt wonderful. We were at Winghouse. Suddenly we were all living in a medieval house (more like a castle). My friends all dressed up as if they would go to a re-enactment. They looked great. It was funny. They all were part of a procession and tell me to go with them. I just stand there and watch them. Suddenly I'm back at the house and the maidservant is telling me in an evil voice "Maybe they will never return from the procession!". I think something might be really wrong and something bad will happen to my friends. So I run through the house, open all these old fashioned locks and when I finally reach the last door I wake up.

Journal Entry non-lucid #4 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I went to sleep hungry for the first dream.
Dream fragment 1 from 8pm-11pm" Disturbing mediators ": I was entering a car race. The authorities at the race were doing background check to make sure that terrorists don't get in. Once we were allowed to come in, they gave us tanks. We had a sargent, and he told us that our mission was to defend a basket of cookies & milk. I didn't complain because I was hungry and I wanted those cookies and milk. All these people appeared and they had cookies and milk. They were from a meditation group. We came out of the tank, and greeted them. I was getting prepared to meditate, but the people that came as a meditation group disturbed everybody else; they played loud and obnoxious music, this horrid version of some dub-step. The girl in charge kept telling them to calm down but they didn't listen.

Dream fragment 2 11pm-3am" Eavesdropping Spider": The earliest memory I have was with me and my dad we were on top of a hill and this women was drunk. A successful women, drunk and belligerent. We didn't want her to do anything reckless and kept telling her not to drive drunk. Later on while we are walking. I found this piece of contraption, it was suppose to control everything in the world. My dad asked me if I could teach him how to work it, I told him I don't know yet and I will find out. There was this manikin and I commanded it by the machine to move back and forth, simple commands at first. Then I started making it dance. My dad said, "what is this? you made it too complicated. How can I learn that?" I kept telling him that he will not understand. I made couch, located in the middle of the street, levitate. I found a key inside of it and I gave it to my dad. My dad's face lit up with happiness. As he was celebrating a spider from the couch ran across my body, a big spider maybe about an inch long. The spider was covered with eyes and its legs were red. It didn't bit me, but it squirmed around me. I finally flicked it and it tried to run. Luckily, I trapped it in a bottle. It stuck it's eye out the bottle like those old unrealistic classical cartoon shows. After the incident with the spider, the environment changed into my house. My sister walked through the door and told me that she was going to see old church friends, and she asked me if I wanted to join her, I replied yes. She had an argument with my dad before we left though. I tried to break the ice by mentioning the eavesdropping spider, which had his little eye popping outside the bottle looking at us. They laughed and forgot about the incident. Me, my sister, and old friend, Big Am, were walking together. We met this random enthusiastic man, we walked with this man and met the couple from "Never Let me go" the guy from Amazing Spiderman worked on that movie. Well I said hi to the couple and we walked away with the enthusiastic man, he was so happy to see us that he introduced us to his wife. She was waiting in line at the post office. For some reason they gave out post office like movie tickets from a window and you wait outside. I said hi and quickly moved because a lot of people were waiting in line. This women asked me if I was in line I said no. She then started handing out grades like teachers do in school. I saw some old friends there and they were upset that they didn't do so well. I was now inside my room and Bt was in the room with me. I was talking about mathematics with her. I told her about the complexity and flexibility of mathematics, precisely Calculus II. she told me she knows. She said it used to be one step or two step to solve a problem, but now you have 5 steps to solve one simple problem. I told her about the class I am going to take Calculus III and how the teacher is a tricky old Asian guy. I made a joke that she didn't quite get I said, "he presents problems like Confucius, a riddle".

I was sitting on a beach with some people who I didn't know, but were apparently my family. There was a black table with a vertical lip around it in front of me. In the table, there were areas of red sand. I noticed that Dan from Extra Credits was sitting to the left of me, and he began explaining that the table was a representation of the world, and that you could push stuff off the edges and it would be gone forever. He said that the people of the desert in the south screwed themselves over by doing this. They lost a huge portion of their land, and basically became an island nation, instead of a huge sprawling desert nation. He also explained how heroes and their legends were localized to very specific areas, but I wasn't listening very hard on that part.

My "father" saw a green X mark on the ground forward and to the left of me, and decided he wanted to dig it up. I don't know if there was anything special there, because I decided to dig up another green X further away from the water's edge. The wind was blowing really hard though, and there was a woman sitting right next to the X. Because of my positioning, I couldn't dig the sand without the wind either blowing it back to where it was or blowing it into the woman.

Next thing I know, I'm underwater open-air restaurant. There were a bunch of naked ladies swimming around, they were waitresses. I wanted to eat, but they only served 2 things, a $40 4 course meal or a $20 sandwich of the remains of the chicken they used to make the 4 course meal, and they fried those. I swam over to a lady with blonde hair and complained about the prices, but she scoffed at me and gave off the vibe that I wasn't rich enough to even be here. I got mad and demanded a seat, and then the dream ended.

today i dreamt i was on a mountain with many vegetation
it was a sunny day, i looked to the mountain peak, and decided to try
to climb that. when i arrived there, i think my mom told me
there was a higher peak than where i wanted to climb.
i looked above again, and i saw there were 2 ways, 1 for a lower peak
and one uphill way where it had more vegetation, that was the highest peak.
so i planned to go there this time. my mom told me it was very hard to reach there.
but after i got there i saw some group of teenagers. sitted under a red umbrella.
they were playing, and i saw 2 kids playing, trying to catch each other, 1 jumped
the high peak to the beach, and i thought to myself. "they are crazy!"
then i lay on the towel and on that shadow, sun wasn't brighting my eyes anymore.
A girl sitted between my legs, and this dream transformed into a wet dream lol.


Dream elements:

-mountain
-sun
-group of teenagers



Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 14 hours

I visit England ? I saw some police with trumpet at their hand. And i saw some sad ugly,stink and sad soul on the street ? Then dream scene changed into some kind of building ( apartment? ) dream about this girl which had crush with me at my-ex workplace and bunch of her friends. I want to meet her outside of that building but i need to finish what i need do in that building first which is : i holding a bowl with noodle in it ( seems like someone just finished ate it) and went up and down stairs quite a lot of time, ( leg exercise? ) second : i need to left some note in someone room before leaving the building.But when i went out of the building and tried to find her she gone. I felt sad and suddenly make sound "meow" and some dream character thought that sound came from real cat. lol. Its quite a lovely dream.

today i dreamt i was rubbing my hands on dream, i was walking somewhere
and telling myself "i want to feel my body here" i was walking somewhere in a random home.
i was touching things and trying to felt them with my body, after trying to touch a few things
i think for a few seconds i was between life and dream world, it was a very weird experience.
it was like, a part of me was a bit on the dream world, but other part was on the real world.
i was in a bedroom with 2 beds now, i wanted to spawn asuna from sword art online.
i wanted to give her a handshake, i thought to myself "Asuna will spawn behind me."
then i turned around and didn't work, she wasn't there.


Dream elements:

-rubbing hands



Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 14 hours

01/10/14 I have nott been posting my LDs for awhile because my home comp is broken, but this one is worth recording. I saw the movie Hansil and Gretil, Witch Hunters, last night. When i became lucid by DILD I took off on a broomstick. I flew around like a witch and threw fireballs at fields of amaranth. Later i almost got hit by a biplane when coming up over a ridge. I decided to change to flying a bi-plane. I did stunts and explored the mountains and hillls and part of my city. A very graphic and awesome dream that lasted perhaps 20 minutes.

I took a nap yesterday since I was beat from barely any sleep the night before and decided to try to WILD. I was very relaxed and had many scenes and thoughts drifting around my head. All of a sudden I found myself somewhere and I 'knew' where I was and what was going on, that feeling you get sometime in a dream that you just know something even though there is no evidence to support it. Anyways WILD: On a hillside with big rocks almost buried. We were fighting waiting to fight the Germans. They would run down the hills and sit on our heads and necks and either fart or pee or both. As soon as the motion started of the dream I woke up realizing what was going on jolted me from the dream. I wont count this as a LD though since it was probably less than 5 seconds.

Last night I tried 5htp as a sleep aid and it seemed to work, I slept a little restless but peacefully. This morning had this pretty vivid dream.

Game of Thrones setting/time. I was in a kingdom and we were on a very steep hill trying to conduct business. I had a couple of flags from other kingdoms I was trying to get up hill. We were the step children of the kingdom, I guess we didn't have it very good. So we were getting made fun of thorough a window from a girl/queen of another kingdom. I went down to the window and ripped the screen off and grabbed her head and pulled it through the screen (game of thrones style). I got a little trash talk out of the way when the body guard came up to me with a spear/weapon, I released her and shut the screen. The lord of our kingdom just got back from the store, he had gotten some portable flooring and some outside chairs I guess to spruce the place up. There were a lot of people sitting around and I helped him get things set up. Moved some of his wood flooring parts and some IKEA chairs onto it. That's about it.

1/11*? + *!!! Wow! Had a great wild. Previously I am fairly sure I wild into a dream of me doing the ssild cycles thinking I'm still awake but not true LD since I didn't realize already asleep but was conscious of my last known condition-attempting a wild in bed...just waiting for a dream to start. I suspect this because of the amount of time that has passed and I get up go to the bathroom and go back to bed. I then think maybe what I experienced right before I woke up was hypnopompic...voices and vibrations. It feels like I may not be too far from REM because it is later in the morning maybe just over 7 hours after first going to bed. Sure enough it doesn't take long to start getting a dreamy feeling and HH audio first I wonder if it is my wife saying something to me or talking in her sleep but then I hear what sounds more like a crowd of people talking. I feel like I'm close and I decide to try to move my dream hands and sure enough I get a glimpse of
my dream hands then a good view of them. But it seems like my dream isn't ready like I am in the void. Could this be delta sleep on the way to REM instead? I recall what Sageous said about having a specific scene in mind on wild attempts. My go to scene is a beach. Visualize a beach but it is not anything like what I wanted. I do closed eye teleporting or changing of the beach scene maybe six to seven times. Most of the first scenes were night time and then I got one with a very odd creature in the water and I say no on earth, but had morning light! Close eyes again and say no I want white sand! I get it and sunny! I decide to go in the buff but at first the ladies are in bikinis. There should be nude waitresses...thank you. I pick one out she looks mildly Polynesian perhaps mixed with white. She is beautiful. We get straight down to intercourse. I have a pre-orgasm like feeling and decide I want to spawn the woman I met two nights ago but then I say no let me do the task of the month - I'm already by a body of water. I only think of the water in my immediate view so as to block out the idea that I can't freeze this body of water or that it may be too big or something. Like in my previous attempt I hold out my hands superhero style and freeze the water and I quickly spawn pointed saw again cutting a hole in the ice super fast pushing the ice down and over under the ice sheet and I quickly spawn fishing pole with bait already attached as planned, drop the line in the hole and very quickly start to feel a tug though not really strong. I fished out a purple fish or eel like creature! I was rushing through this process expecting I may not have too much time and this expectation creates a false awakening what at first I thought was my actual awakening. I was lying in bed recalling my wonderful LD for several minutes before waking into another false awakening in church at the funeral we're going to today! Awesome!

Previously most significant dream I was extremely angry at a company I am dealing with in real life. I do not remember last time I felt this much anger during a dream. No idea where this emotion came from! Perhaps it was due to an underlying fear that something would go wrong with this business and I got a phone call during the dream and my mind thought one of the possible reasons for me receiving a phone call and created the scenario which then brought up the real anger I would have felt in real life if I got that call! I hope this was not a premonition ! It is probably just due to the fear. 97; 96 was short paper journal

somehow got coursed into this killing game where i was part of this huge family and we all had too kill eachother; i had a freeze weapon, we were playing on this call of dutty map...at the end my brother said sorryand he killed me.. i cried about this later to my sister saying youdon't know what its like toloose your whole famiy

I woke up in bed, Rc'd and went lucid. I went downstairs and was actually scared. My house was very dark and spooky looking. I went in the living room and I turned around and my brother was right in my face. I told him to leave and he attacked me. After he left, I found this girl dawn in my living room and did some stuff with her. Then I woke up into another FA. This time, I was in sleep paralysis and I felt like I was being spun around in the air and flying. After I broke free of the SP, I went outside and came across this girl Alice (whom I've mentioned in previous dreams) and she was complaining that she owed her friend five dollars and that was her reason for not "doing stuff" with me. I convinced her that I'd have 5 dollars if she did it and to say the least, it worked . After another FA and RC, I went downstairs and ended up bending dawn over the counter and having some fun with her. Now, of course all of this could've been more detailed, but I think people get the gist of it all.

My friends JT and Tom were out front of my house yelling up to my window. I followed them to some weird abandoned building and we looked around. Nothing interesting really happened.

01.11.14

Last night bed 10:30pm - 7am

Had a lots of dreams.

Dream before last:
I'm in someone elses household. I have my 2 cats with me. The lady of the house tells me, she got a kitten. I'm mad, because they already have 2 cats and those will not like a kitten. Then I see the kitten, and another one, and then another one. So she brought 3 kittens to the house.

There is something about some people that just came being witches. They look normal, but I sense something sinister from them. I don't remember much else, only that they finally showed their true nature and I was fighting them somehow. Or defying.

Last dream at 7am:

I'm in a dark room. It's large and it could be a cellar, or some underground place. The only light coming in is from the stairs going up, on the left.

I'm laying down on some low platform. There are monsters around me. I'm being accused of something. I say yes, I did that, but it was not the way they think. One of them says that I have to die for it. I plea with them, or at least think about pleaing. But then I think that I have never experienced death in dream before and I wouldn't mind experiencing it. So I'm trying to think where I would want to direct him to place the spear. He has it against the middle of my chest. I'm thinking if leg would would be sufficient, but somehow I know it would not.

Last night before bed I went through my old archived dream journal and began reading the several pages of dreams and notes therein. .. Re familiarizing myself with the key metaphors that are generally present in all my dreams. Brushing up on the language so to speak.

The dreamview is not quite so dark as the last dream, in fact though the sky seems clouded over, it is fairly light out. The perception is as if traveling over the landscape above some highways heading west, though I keep throughout the dream looking back to the north again and again.
There were numerous incidents of my phone ringing and me talking to my father who was constantly giving me things to do, distracting me from following the roadway. There were other distractions as well, but do not remember the specifics.
Then I felt a presence, a woman. At first when I saw her, I took her to be someone locally, but I "felt" her presence and knew she represented my inner Self . Of this and in this there arose a lucidity that transcended the rest of the dream playing out around us . She went into a building. It was as if a roadside in, kind of dilapidated, but solid. Nothing like the bombed out buildings of the previous journal entry.
She had a rope tied to a horse which was laying on the floor on its side as if half dead. She was lying back on a couch. I plopped down on the couch next to here feeling as though I missed her and wanted to hug her. I said to her ( in direct transmission of thought as most communication happens in my dreams) that I have neglected her, and needed to pay more attention to her. There was a very warm feeling of love in her and she said to me that Yes, you need to pay more attention to me.

This dream was true and to the point as I had taken it . I have neglected myself the last 2 years to a large degree. Stagnated on the path, but not having left it. The half dead horse she was dragging around likely represents me. Seems I need to get up and pull my own spiritual weight again and start progressing on the path again. The love spoken of is beyond the love of desire, it is as I describe love here:

http://www.dreamviews.com/ask-tell-m...ut-love-2.html

From about 2 days ago..

The dreamscape is a dark, grim set of scenery. Mainly a town and the countryside surrounding it devastated by what appears to be a civil war. Buildings half there, reduced to rubble, others barely habitable. People staying inside mostly, but some bands of armed citizens outside engaged in conversation and normal activities of living.
A variety of ethnic backgrounds present, some of which I would have apprehension, if not fear about normally given the circumstances of their dress and being armed, however I note a peaceful feeling of calm in their presence here.
The dreamview is constantly shifting around the area, following some persons, then others. There is much detail that I do not remember now. The view then shifts to armored military vehicles getting ready to deploy. I feel some need to get their attention, but shift away to follow something else in the dreamview. I am as if flying over the field of vision taking in all the scenery in this dark landscape. No body , just the perception. There is a thought that arises, but I lose it quickly. Then the entire dream begins to fade to a black emptiness that does not have an empty feel to it.
At the point where the fading begins I hear music playing. It is however much more than just hearing. I literally see the music and feel it. The music is above the viewpoint kind of and to the right in the form of whisps of light. This is what was playing:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_QZjJU-mtFU

It was just the refrain that was playing, but it was an experience to be well noted, as it was so vivid and clear

Light up the world

Shine with Me

Love is the answer


Over and over it played.
I actually became awake while it was still playing and the dream was still happening. Opening my eyes into the bedroom the music began to fade slowly till it was gone.

What I do not remember... was the question. However the question my be in another form. Buildings in my dreams represent myself, my current state of being, and perhaps current progress in understanding my true condition. The war torn buildings in this dream may represent crumbling of my progress from neglect and distraction. There were no women in this dream, and this is key. Key, because a woman in my dream usually represents some facet of my inner higher consciousness, God so to speak .
I also note one more item of significance.. that being that in the musical refrain playing there was one word that was different from the actual song. In the dream, it says "Shine with me". In the music by Englan Dan, it is "Shine on me". The feeling was clear in the dream.. that the singing was from the perspectinve of the higher inner consciousness. This word change is very significant