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Just a quick entry mainly for myself! Don't neglect the daytime work! I did have a strong cold Monday night and Tuesday(1 week ago) that didn't help me feel like doing daytime work, but I slacked way too much on my daytime self-awareness work (a la Sageous) and it showed, taking me 8 days to get my next lucid. I strongly believe that after you have the necessary experience and knowledge, that dry spells are either self-induced or related to things changing around you (new job, new task, sickness, travel). Of course consistency is not to be expected when you are first starting off. I am only talking about after you have some significant consistency. For me, partly because I was sick but mainly because I wasn't putting in enough daytime work towards LDing. Looking back, I could have done some quick RRC check-ins no matter how sick I felt.

SSILD, *swinging visualization(motion based) WILD attempt becomes DILD

I was so close to wild this morning but at some point I realized that I was just a little too far from sleep, the most crucial element! So I focused on drifting off and lost awareness but was able to DILD. I was getting my teeth checked for some issue that had been bothering me (only according to my dreaming mind) related to the teeth pushing up against my lips. The dentist took me to the x-ray machine and I mentioned the braces I had as a kid and he asked if I had the old x-rays and I said that I could give him the name of the orthodontist to request them. Anyway, this x-ray machine apparently swings you around the entire office as it x-rays your teeth (you've seen those, right? haha) and I think I was semi-lucid at this point, going around the office in my underwear on this machine. I see this odd guy looking in the window of the office and immediately realize yep, this is a dream, awesome machine (I think my swinging visualization during the wild attempt brought on this amazing x-ray machine/theme park ride thingy). I decide to really look around at all the details of the office (influenced by daytime work where I really look around in wonder) as I am being swung around. I also decide to go nude and made my underwear disappear (no flasher IWL, haha). There are several people working in the office including a good looking receptionist (reminds me of walking past some people dining on an outdoor patio of a restaurant IWL and my thought of all the things I would do if this were a lucid dream right now!..awesome feeling of empowerment.) I remember my goal to fly over some local landmarks and scenery and fly up from the machine (the roof is immaterial...or was it?). In flight my vision started fading and I begin to think that the dream may be ending, visualize the swinging of the x-ray machine, maybe I can go back there and stabilize) but slowly but surely I feel myself returning to my sleeping body. It may have also been the end of my REM cycle, but I want to work on stabilization in moments like the above. 98

1. I was walking down this dam and out of
no where the sky got really dark, despite
it being a sunny day. Then a tornado came
out of no where and I hit the deck. It
actually passed RIGHT over me, but it was
weird because I felt no suction whatsoever
and it was actually kind of funny. Should have
realized this and become lucid.

2.I first remember being at this buffet type place
with only a couple people there. I can distinctly
remember grabbing my plate, then getting a piece
of chicken parm pizza, potato wedges (which the guy
had JUST put out, so they were fresh and yummy), and
then went back to get a piece of chocolate pie. I then
walked outside and realized I had forgotten to pay.
Then I went back inside to do so and everyone working
there was all freaked out for some reason and packing up.
Then the dream got a little less concrete and I remember
going out back and helping some guy replace the water heater,
which I'm not sure what had to do with anything else but yeah.

3. I was at school and in the restroom there were a bunch of people
texting, not too unreasonable. However I then went back to lunch and
the bell rang, and for some reason I was just moving really slow
(happens to me a lot in dreams, despite my best efforts) and I
was late to class. Then the teacher came running out of the room and
said he had the wrong class and told everyone to wait in the cafeteria.
Then a bunch of cops showed up (some of which were my teachers, weird)
and began this big investigation of I'm not sure what. That's about all
I remember.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #182: Office Snacks

I walk into a meeting where most of the attendees are cast members of The Office. I realize that this has to be a dream. Jim Halpert is leading the meeting and as I enter, he says, “Glad you could join us.”

The meeting drones on in the background, but my attention focuses on a large box of snack foods. Each kind of snack food is in its own big cereal bag, clipped shut with a clothespin. Interested, I grab one off the top, remove the clothespin, and open it. The bag has to be unrolled several times (enough times to worry me), eventually unfurling to a length of about two feet.

The bag is full of some form of Chex Mix, and I happily start munching away. As I’m eating, Michael Scott takes the floor and says that “And of course, Pam’s default job will be in engineering.” Most of the meeting stays as a drone as I crunch away on the snacks.

My vision fades out after a bit, but I’m able to keep eating, so I just plow right on ahead. Now the Chex mix that I pull out seems to contain peanut butter on the inside! It’s incredibly delicious and I just keep shoveling it down my pie-hole until the dream ends.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #181: Big Band

As I’m leaving a shopping mall, there’s an announcement that the mall is under lockdown because someone has stolen a baby from a stroller. This all seems too strange to me and I become lucid.

I’m in a large, empty room that looks a bit like a warehouse, a bit like a mall entrance. It’s only half lit but I can make out the ceiling maybe fifty feet above me. I remember that I wanted to make the dream as vivid as possible so I slowly rub my hands together, nothing how real they look and feel. The one difference I notice is that they leave visible streaks across my vision when I move them.

I can’t remember any goals beyond vividness, so I raise my hands to the ceiling and say, “I’ll take whatever you have to give me.” Nothing happens, so I add, “Show me something amazing! Anything!” Again I wait, and I start to feel a twinge of nervousness.

“I think we need more light,” I say, and the light comes up a bit. Now I hear music behind me, like something from a band. I turn and see a large open-air exit from the mall with a big band playing on a set of risers near the exit. I make my way over to the band, only partly able to hear the music. The risers go up about 3 levels and there are maybe 20 or 25 band members there. There doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason to how they’re organized.

The band members are wearing these cool suits with thick, vertical black and white stripes. “Nice suits,” I say. “I’m wearing one too!” And when I hold out my arms, sure enough I’m dressed like I’m part of the band.

On the top level I spot the only female in the group, a woman with dark, curly hair drawn back in a ponytail. I can’t remember what instrument she plays, but she has a cool vibe and smiles at me in acknowledgement. I float up to her level on the riser and we briefly kiss. Afterward I probe at her temples, forehead, and scalp with my fingers as a sort of vividness-enhancing thing. She wrinkles her nose and squeezes her eyes shut when I do this.

Looking out past the risers I see the ocean. I pick her up and carry her with me, floating toward a strange beach where some huge metallic device has somehow permanently trapped a wave just as it crests. A dozen surfers stand happily atop the wave, gliding back and forth while moving neither forward nor back.

As I reach the edge of the water, the woman from the band shifts uncomfortably. “Do you want to go with me or stay here?” I ask. She says that she wants to “stay here”, so I set her down at the shoreline. I float/swim further out into the water, my feet dragging along as I go. Eventually I start swimming, and the visuals fade from the dream. The sensation of swimming continues for a while, though, before the dream ends.

I was back to school. I had to take an exam where the tasks were at both sides of the paper. But tasks were really weird. I had to be a girl on the train. ANd i had to pretend i was innocent, not harmfull. And i had to take pictures of myself, beeign bonded and torchured. But in real i had to destroy the world.. Then i haid to record a music track and enter a competition. I did, i made a metal song then send it to the reviewboard.. and they answered congratulations, you have won the competition even though that people who dont like this genre of music did not vote at all. There was a question, what did euroasian people eat in medieval ages 1437? I wrote cabbage, beans, corn.. which i later deleted because i remembered that Columbus didn't came back from america yet. And some food i made out. Next question was "this is the year of the moon! moon equals a letter I. what is I?" This question was something about meditation, and i didn't know how to answer it. But the strange thing about this exam was the numbering of the questions, they didnt follow as they should, it was like 22,23.. and then no questions and later 28. And then i went to a bar. I overheard two guys talking about metal music scene in my town. One said that here are many metal pubs. And in reallife there is none, so I asked him where were they before? and he answered that a discoclub jungla.. was renovated into a metalbar. I said thanks, im trying to finnish my beer, and a friend from ireland passed me by.. he was drunk already, he went straight into beveragestorage.. and another friend said, well he is wasted.. and i said well that's his problem, he will be even more.. and he brought a beer which i have never seen before. It was our local beer Lasko, but the label was totaly out of order. On the left there were people and ice.. in between there were broken glasses, and on the right there was an elephant in a desert. And usually it is a mountaingoat on greed surface. Then we went into a car, we picked up 2 girls.. but we had a feeling that they are going to kill us. So i stopped the car, we went to take a leak, and we grabed shotguns and sneaked around my car, and bang bang.. shot them trough the carglass.. And then i found 4 thirts. 2white and 2 black, they were all wet. I was trying to get them dry. I found those poles and rope, which are ment for making clothes dry, clothdryers. And i tried to hang those shirts on the rope. I just couldnt. I took the first clothpeg and it was too small to hold the shirt. And then i took the bigger one in a crocodile shape, still to small. And then i saw that there are some blueprints on the shirts. The blueprints were for Davinci's flying machine. Well i have to get them dry i said to myself. I walked to a tree which i was climbing a lot in my childhood. And it was huge. I climbed to the first branch, and i start to hang those shirts on the branch. I hanged 2 out of 4..

As the last few dreams, seemed short, seemed broken and fragmented with things happening as if almost out of order. After waking then holding the dream in a almost dreamlike meditation things cleared up..


The skies were dark and overcast early on it seems. My view is traveling with what seems like three others throughout the dream and its settings save for this first part. At first we I was searching for something or someplace, a booth selling something. We were, I say we now because there is a sense of a second involved in me looking, looking in a small town. Seemed like early spring... cold, a damp sort of. I came to a circle area with buildings around it, a town center perhaps. It was like a fair with people selling things from booths. I find myself in front of a booth with a husband and wife selling spiritual things they have made. I recognize stuff and writings on the stuff but do not buy anything.

The dream shifts to going down, then up hills. Wet and muddy now with great difficulty progress is made. There is much detail to the whole dream but it seems somewhat insignificant all the way through in and of itself. Seem to be in a cart going down the hill struggling to get around and over objects in the path. On foot then going up hill in thick deep mud. We are clearly travelling East and it is as if the whole dream I am seeing from a point ever so slightly just to the west and north of what is happening. At the top of the hill it dries out and sun is actually trying to shine in spots through the trees at the top. There is a hole through the trees to the other side of the top of the hill. But before I get there to the top the dream shifts south and changes.

In a building, like a motel at some sort of convention. Its kind of dim inside. There are windows to the north and east, A door in the south east corner and one we seem to have come in from the south west corner which is standing left open. There is conversation among the three as to where to go next. Then we find an opening , a secret compartment in the west wall near a closet. We seem to find flashlights. They are distributed one to each of us. the three and one more to me, making 4 in total. As I look at them, and to mine in hand I see that they are silver and have like computer keys on them with what looks like characters on them, Chineese perhaps Sanskrit or similar eastern text. I look over and the three are eating their flashlights , which now look like scrolls. I look down at mine and the letter are floating off the body of the flashlight, unrolling like a scroll. I seem to be grabbing up the letters like bits of candy to eat. Dream abruptly changes.

Travelling outside in ever increasingly mountainous terrain. Starts following a paved road, then gravel, till no road exists as we start climbing rocky terrain at continually steeper vertical angles.
Something is chasing us, a large monserous sort of thing. Seems like a dog at first then as other forms as we progress, the constant seems that watever it is it seeks to devour us before we reach our end destination. Teeth, claws and fangs.. growling and hissing it seems to hang on our heels the whole way.
As the summit comes into view things shift to where it seems it is no longer chasing me, but I am behind it chasing it while it chases the other three. I see the three nearly on the top of the mountain peak, with the monster behind them aways, and I am back off and moving behind it. The feeling of threat seems to vanish. dream ends here.

There was more content to the dream outside involving 3 other people and my viewpoint doing yet other things I may elaborate on later as I have time.

Added: The 3 other people plus myself were in a café of sorts. One had a laptop computer and was trying to add a separate screen to it, one that would give a larger perspective. The goal was to have two views at once working together.


This has tremendous meaning related to Dzogchen texts I was refreshing myself on last night before bed. I will comment on later.

I was on a hill with some DC that caught a poison cougar and took its skin.I looked around myself and there was a brick castle, then i realized i was dreaming and said "not again".I went on top of the castle looking for a high cliff to jump off and wake myself up, i jumped and when i hit the ground i would return to where i jumped from until i jumped the third time.I hit the ground and stuck to it like a pancake i could not move for a while but i got up eventually, i started closing my eyes and yelling wake up!But nothing worked.There were some dumpsters and i went to hide behind them but then an old lady picks me up and puts me for wager in a poker game.While there playing im just looking at them not knowing what will happen next.The old lady that picked me up loses and throws me in front of a car, when the car hit me i woke up.

Technically a nightmare, but I was not as scared as I should be, before I went to sleep I prayed for a blessing against fear, and a blessing of protection, so my dream self was actually quite a champ.

Shooting game against girl? on a motorbike, she was really tough and I ended up having to jump into a lake to escape her wrath. I feel like that was a game on a TV, because now I am inside a house with my soulmate, someone else, and a friend who is adding an attachment to the TV for me, and wrapping wires around.

New scene:

I get to a town, it's daylight, I think zombies are around I find a hatchet on the ground, open a door and throw it in at the first person I see
Well now I am arrested, and in a jail cell, that was not a zombie! How rude. This cell is so tight, there are 3 toilets literally next to each other with 3 inmates(myself included) having to stand on the toilets because there is no other room in the cell. One of us slips and feet splash into a toilet

Now I am free again, but I have to make a dangerous trek across the wasteland back to that town. I am with a group of people, who all see to have some sort of special powers. We are motorbiking across this desert. The very last of us in the line is landskiing attached to line on a bike ahead. We pass a group of monster/demon/people and they end up getting the guy who was skiing and tearing him apart. But his special power is that when he dies he tears reality apart and turns into a giant digitized heavenly motorbiker and rides right out of the sky and back into our reality on a dirtbike. How useful.

We make it back to town, and it is nearing dark and we are prepping our safe house because the werewolfs will be out soon. I seem very interested in this process, and I know it is my first time here, so I am unsure of what will happen, but the other guys are seasoned and know their jobs. It's dark now. We have everything closed except for the blinds of one of the windows(bullet proof). It is one of those german style blinds that are on the outside of the window. The window is the size of the entire door frame. It is dark so I can't see out the window but as I start to let the blinds down, they suddenly stop falling down at about my heads height. Upon closer inspection I can see the outline of a werewolf, and the blinds have landed on his head. He puts his hand to the glass and starts using his claw to draw circle motions. So I pull all of the blind string out at once, and back up, and then kick forward toward the glass right at his face to startle him backwards. It does the trick, he pulls back, I release the string and the blinds drop further down.

When I turn around I to head back to the others, I find that I am outside of the complex now... and it's dark. WTF. Anyways I get ripped apart by monsters, and then I have the idea to use the power that the other motorbiker had, and in a semi lucid state I start focusing on breaking reality to fight back the monsters. I summon hundreds of copies of myself to fall out of the sky and blazing speeds, and land on monsters. I start spinning my avatars exceedingly fast like tornados and other effects. But I cannot get back into the house. I know why, because if I use any sort of reality altering trick to get into the house, the monsters will "learn" that same skill, and be able to break in. This goes on for a few moments, but then in my half lucid state I become careless and try to get in. I cannot,, until I use outside of the box thinking. I expand myself around the entire house(I can see the interior briefly), and then expand myself outward to the shape of a giant snowglobe. Then I SHATTER my giant snowglobe, and the snowglobe inside the house on the shelf shatters and I expand from that smaller globe into the house. Along with all my demons. Clever, but deadly.

Everyone dies.

1. [Non-Lucid]
Watching something on TV in a school classroom when someone gets a text message saying that theirs a gas leak and the fire alarm is out. I commented that the fire alarm is out so we should get out of here, everyone agreed and we left.

2. [Non-Lucid] [Vivid]
Was drinking through a really weird straw that was not easy to get much out (the drink tasted like coke), there was no cup either, suddenly got ridiculously excited (it felt good...like it usually does)...woke up in a sticky mess -.-. [Random Lucidity...no?]

3. [Non-Lucid] [Vivid-ish]
On a ship (oil tanker thingy) with a girl, shes driving through waves so I mentioned to not let the ship go side on to the waves as to not capsize.
The waves appear to be getting bigger and bigger until we end up in an ocean of these huge shiny ice blue crystals (some even floating in the air). Now we are having to navigate around them trying not to hit them with the ship.
Not sure if were still in the ship or not but we are still trying to get through this ocean, we end up in a narrow passage.

4. [Non-Lucid]

Fragments:
In some sort of enclosure for an animal

In my dream, I was sitting in my computer room with my brother. There was also a psychologist sitting in a green plastic chair. She Had short straight black hair, and smiled a fake smile.

First she asked my brother if he had any competition lately. My brother didn't know. I suggested tennis.

Then the psychologist turned to me and asked "Remember the demon?"

I think she was referring to an old dream I had ages ago...which freaked me out a bit

I just smiled and laughed at her saying "Haha, we all go through those horror stages!"
In the corner of my eye, I saw my mother stand behind me.

(I became Lucid after my mum entered the room)

The Psychologist was smiling sweetly at me, but I looked into the reflection of a tv behind her. In the reflection she was glaring at me. She looked like she wanted to kill me. She had yellow eyes with flecks running through them.

I then had some kind of seizure and then fell to the floor. I was freaked out so I closed my eyes and pretended to be dead.

Then I woke up at 12:00am in the morning XD Feeling freaked out and scared.

Tips: I have two things to share! One is a concept that I like from the last video I posted, the other is another video that helps with everything. The first one is that your thoughts are like a waterfall. You can either stand under the waterfall or observe the waterfall. Standing under the waterfall is symbolic for being bombarded constantly with thoughts, standing away from the waterfall and observing is symbolic for watching the flow of your thoughts but not getting interactive with them, and having complete awareness of where you are (both mentally and physically, which in a dream would bring awareness). I'm aiming for being able to take myself from under the waterfall for WILD, because once I can do that I'll be able to sit back and watch my thoughts flow into dream without being interactive and getting lost in the flow of the thoughts. Here is a great video! 99% is a bitch. 100% is a breeze. - YouTube



Entry:

1) I'm in a college dorm but it's a lot larger than in movies and reminds me of my houses kitchen, actually we're in the kitchen of the dorm. It's me and my brother with two college guys and a girl. They're trying to find my name for registration, and they start pulling beer out of the freezer and the girl gets really drunk and the guys are trying to take advantage of her but she's not that drunk.

2) I'm with the Avatar and the group (in the same environment I was in in my last Avatar dream) we're in the desert and Aang is trying to find one of the Air Nomads rare temples, we fly up to a desert butte, it looks a lot like this one ( butte landscape - Bing Images ) except that it has entrance holes in it. We enter through one and it's large and empty except two or three Earthbenders sitting on the floor, father and son and someone's who's a family friend. (The scene switches) I see some fire nation soldiers (who look like they're not "current" at all, so this kinda feels like it's in the past) and their general is an older guy I can't recognize. They jump onto the mountain/butte/huge desert hill and as they near openings an Earthbender flies out and stirs up dust and runs around. They attempt to catch him but just as they realize he's a distraction Aang and the group fly out and of an opposite entrance. I'm hanging onto either Aang or riding a flying carpet with Katara. Aang is in front of Katara and the general jumps off of the wall and tries to catch us (I guess we were supposed to not go far because we're on a flying carpet) but Aang speeds up the carpet with Airbending. The fire nation general says "I've gotten no closer to them even though they shouldn't be moving, it would be foolish to continue." And he gives up.

3) I'm in a hotel with my female cousin and both of my siblings. I walk out of the hotel room and just as I get out to the entrance I see a blonde girl staring at me intently. Then my cousin walks up behind me. I tell her (without looking away from the blonde girl) "Go back to the room. Now." but she doesn't listen to me and stands there like a total idiot, I run to the door and lock the door of the hotel. I see the girl going to the second door. "I'm such an idiot." Is what comes across my mind. Just as I turn on my toes to run back to my room the girl opens the door and I sprint. My cousin enters right before me backing into a corner, I lock the door and back away slowly. I notice both of my brothers sleeping. The girl opens the door and I say "How did you do that?" (I should have realized it was a dream.) She continues walking while staring at me. Then her brother and father walk in behind her and I get an adrenaline rush, I attack the girl. As I push her on the bed choking her I see a metal chair in the corner and I reach over and pick it up, then I force one of the legs through her eye but as it kills her she turns into my little brother and he's this horrible shade of death blue. I get furious. I see the three of them trying to escape my rage. Not gonna happen. Her brother has a gun so I run for him. I slam him onto a car, conveniently the cops are there and he tries to shoot me but I point the gun away from me and he shoots his father, then I aim towards his sister and shoot her, with his hands. The cops run over and either shoot or arrest him. Either way I've murdered his family and now I've shown them part of the extent of my rage.

Goals!
- Meeting with Juroara
- Learn more about my personal WILD
- Practice dream control

My first lucid experience was about 3 weeks after initially starting to get into the idea of learning to LD.

I was in an Ice Rink playing hockey with a bunch of old friends, actually it was the group of friends I grew up playing hockey with. Few fights, bumps and bruises as hockey normally brings. We're walking out of the rink and as I was walking down the stairs outside it just hit me, I stopped and said "Holy #%#& I'm dreaming!!" Did a RC by putting thumb through palm, which is different than I normally do irl, I read somewhere that your brain can expect it not to work if you do the same one all the time so I switched it up. I got overly excited and remembered reading about that being too excited can pop you out the dream so I started focusing on my hands, examining them for a minute or so. When I looked up from my hands the landscape had changed to a field. I decided to try the basic dream fantasy of flying, looked up into the sky and just let the ground fall away from me and flew. It was one of the most exciting experiences of my life. It felt so freeing, and a calmness came over me.

For some reason I came across Superman who was teaching others to fly, I suppose because when you think of a person flying you picture him. After flying around for a while i landed and decided to try and summon some people from my past, specifically a women I met in South Korea while I was stationed there, I made a mistake by not pursuing our relationship further than I did and I wanted to apologize. Yes I know it's not real but it would make me feel better. I made the mistake of just trying to sit there and willing them to appear in front of me. Now I know the tricks so next time it'll work.

There were some other aspects that I can't recall and I can't find the piece of paper I wrote it down on, wasn't my normal DJ cause I had re-arranged my room and it wasn't where it should have been. But I just wanted to share this experience so hopefully other beginners can see this and have something to help them not lose hope. Part of me didn't think I'd be able to do it but here it is, and it's motivated me greatly to keep learning and trying new things to help me get there again. The SSILD seems to be what works best for me now.

Non-lucid, this one I can't recall all of it but enough I think to make it worth me getting it out of my head.

I remember being in a car, I think it was stolen and myself and a women where trying to escape from someone. We get to a shack to hide, talk about some things I can't remember, then she tries to make a move on me but she isn't my type so I pull away. Did the routine "don't want to hurt you but we're better as friends" thing and that was it.

Next thing I know I'm in what looks like a gun range, the firing area is normal enough except that there's workbenches and other materials. Downrange however is filled with different sports areas, basketball court, baseball diamond, football field. My dad was there, which makes sense because we both have a CPL and carry a gun irl. Anyways he pulls out some awesome looking new type of automatic rifle, I try telling him to be careful and he replies "I know what I'm doing". He aims downrange, pulls the trigger and starts spinning around like you'd see in a cartoon. I duck to take cover but end up catching three rounds in the shoulder, no pain. I get up and start yelling at him, he just put the rifle down and walks away. Last thing I remember is looking downrange and not shooting the rifle because of kids playing basketball...

This is odd to me because neither my dad or myself would be that ignorant about guns. I was a SGT in the US Army and have had extensive weapon training, he owns a ammo reloading business and is very experienced with guns, so I don't understand why I dreamed that...

There's a set of boxes which, when arranged properly, will display a poem by Rumi; it's a game, a puzzle. Each box is engraved with a few lines, the trick is in figuring out the proper order, and there are hints, such as do not separate the loved ones, send the child to school, don't leave him to wander the shore with the mermaid and her knife. The last part is easy enough - one box ends with a line about water spirits, another box starts with a line about a child, I'll just be sure not to connect those two; but there are quite a few different lines that could be interpreted as 'loved ones.'

A woman is sending a message to her employers, as a result of which the building she's in will be locked down and everyone inside will be killed, including herself and her two assistants. Her assistants are artificially-created humans, and display no emotion, but I'm thinking that the loss of their lives is just as important as any other life.

A woman has just been teleported into a castle, somewhere very dangerous, by someone named Anna, and she's very annoyed about this. Although Anna isn't here, the woman yells about it anyway, on the assumption that Anna will be watching her with magic. It's not just the danger that's upset her; at any other time she would have killed to be able to get into this castle, but right now, she'd been in the middle of something urgent, and she really needs to get back to it, so she looks for the way out. A hooded figure appears and reveals a passage to her, a passage that seems to violate the laws of physics and which is filled with a seemingly endless line of graves, and he tries to speak to her, to guide her into that passage, but she ignores him - she's spotted the main doors. As she walks away from the graves and towards the exit, she passes a box with some marking on it that makes her think about dragons, thinking of them as the product of elemental spirits that gathered together and festered.

There's a crowd of people leaving a castle - although the castle looks historical/fantasy-ish, the clothes the people are wearing are futuristic, as is the glass-enclosed walkway they're leaving through. A woman who works for the castle as a kind of hostess is escorting a small group of people at the head of the crowd, congratulating them for winning a spot on some vessel, and then she says to the rest of the people following them, "Good luck in the race!" By which she means - these people are following the winners because they intend to take their spots by force, and the moment they're beyond the castle's protection it'll be every man for himself.

At the end of the glass walkway, the hostess leaves them, and the people pass through some barrier. The people in the walkway had seemed, not necessarily good-looking, but like people who put a lot of effort into their appearance: well-dressed, well-groomed. Once they pass through the barrier, this changes: they're naked, they look like they haven't bathed or shaved in months, more fat, less muscle. The castle was a kind of retreat, but everything it provided was an illusion; now that they've left, the illusions disappear. The people's reactions vary - most of them are shocked, but there's an old man who seems to have expected this with a sort of I-told-you-so attitude about it. There's a teenage boy with a bad knee who's particularly horrified, as he'd believed his knee had been fixed by the castle; he's complaining to his parents that they might as well have stayed home, at least at home they had servants. The castle had its guests doing a variety of chores, citing the spiritual benefits; now it's clear that was a scam.

A woman's saying, "It must not have been a good reality for Vanessa and Vilya." 'Vanessa' is an alternate version of herself. As she's speaking, I see the two people she's talking about, sitting before a very large fireplace. Vilya suddenly leaps up, as if he's just been hit by some stroke of inspiration, and he rushes to a table set up with a variety of alchemical instruments.

Three people in an underground room, grey stone walls lined with bookshelves. A woman and an old man who she's close to, and a young-looking man who made some kind of deal with them - I'm a disembodied observer, but I recognize him from my most recent lucid dream, as the 'future version of myself' who doesn't actually resemble me at all and who looks more like he's from the past. They've barred the doors in the hopes of giving themselves a little more time before someone arrives to stop them - guards or police or military, something along those lines, they're expecting some specific group and they know it's just a matter of time. But they've come to this room to find something specific, and there are hundreds or thousands of books here and no obvious organization to them. The woman's saying "Wherever (something) it'll take us forever to find it." The young-looking man had been sitting down with his eyes closed; now he opens them. They're glowing yellow, which startles the woman. He says, "I have found it. He has used the Britannica articles-" He continues talking, but I've become distracted by curiosity about that locating technique he just used; I associate it with a search technique I'd used in yesterday's dream.

A few weeks ago I had a dream and in it Keola asked me, "What balloons designs should I practice?" I said "super heroes!"

When I woke up in the morning Keola was sitting in the living room twisting balloons. He had already made made spiderman, the hulk and was working on wolverine. That was really funny. I laughed and told him that I just had a dream about telling him to make superhero balloons.