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Me and mccrae from BB15 are out on this patio, there's this huge bean bag chair that can fit like 15 people, he sits on it and wants me to play this battle ship looking game, but I don't really want to, he begs me and follows me, then some of the room mates in the house looking out the glass door give me angry looks, so I go sit on the bean bag chair and he does to and I agree to play a game with him. I wanna play the blue pieces but her puts it so I have to play the yellow pieces so I get all butt hurt and lay on my side.

My dad is waiting outside to get revenge over something. Me my sister, my half sister, and my niece are all sitting around the kitchen table figuring out what to do, but I'm the only one worried. They're just worried about the chocolate milk bag I'm drinking from like those ones from school. I tell them I don't know where I got it, but it was warm and tasted off but I kept drinking it fro some reason. It will give me HP, so they get pissed that they don't have one in case they lose HP. I tell them I can just steal them some and that I stole them all the time.

I'm in this underground wet place, there's a latter on the wall that leads up. I'm this bald man, I'm wearing a clown mask that is covered in blood, and these three guys are holding guns but don't even need to shoot, me because I'm moving wrong and slamming my head on the floor and against the wall and the men laugh at me. It amuses them, and I'm making grunting noises and am drooling and foaming at the mouth. I try to use the wall to get up, but then they all step down on me with their boots on me to hold me down, so I scream and they laugh more, and then we hear load foot steps coming from down this hallway, his boots are stomping in metal floor. The three men who were fucking with me, ran silently in fear up the latter and leave me twitching and stuck on the floor. I don't know if the man is coming to help me or hurt me.

I'm in the front yard, it's sunny as fuck. There's these cracked brick walls everywhere that usually aren't. My dad is in the yard with me, and I'm trying to hide from him. I ducking with my back against a brick wall. I have aerial view and I see him sneaking over. I run from my hiding spot and he runs after me, I hop the front gate, and steal his gmc jimmy (an suv). I get into it an hope that he left his keys in the car. I find them still in the ignition. I start the car at the car doesn't go fast at first, I try to hurry away before he catches up and gets in the car, I drive and see him running behind me after the car, and I see him stop because the car finally accelerated at a decent speed. Then the jimmy turns into a shitty dirt bike,and it's going so fucking slow. I'm driving through cobble stone streets between houses, and through alleys, I go through a short cut trying to make difficult directions so he can't find while the whole time worried at how slow the bike is going. Then I go through this alley that leads to a driveway with this girl washing her car, I frighten her, but i tell her I'm just trying to get away from someone. Then she points me through some trees to a dirt path, I tell her my bike is slow, she put gas in my bike, and then my bike goes faster, and then I realized it also goes faster when I turn the throttle, I think how dumb that I was just rolling and using the throttle or putting gas. Nor the dirt bike is fast as fuck, and I go down that path the girl pointed me to and it lead straight to my house and my dad is still in the street, so I make a u-turn and he begins chasing me, he's faster now, but I'm faster to, he chases me longer this time, but I still get away.

I decided to take a brief nap and this is what i recalled. I had just recently gotten into a super car, this thing was beautiful i couldnt tell you what model it was but it was sexy af. anyway i decided to take it for a spin down the highway. I drove fast and with precision.. hence "drove it like you stole it" i got down the highway quite a ways and decided to veer off into a different road. i took mental note where i was turning so that i didnt get lost and i could find my way home. this entire time i was in a third person view driving the car which i dont like but its just how it was. i then turned around after travelling that way quite a bit with intentions to get back home before i wreck the vehicle. i started grinding the gears bad, i turned in front of a car and tried taking off briskly, which i did, but didnt shift corrrectly. either way i made it out with out a scratch on the beauty. out of nowhere i started hearing some bikers pulling up next to me and weaving in and out of traffic with me it was pretty awesome. then next thing i know im driving a crotch rocket. and the thing is im not even on it my hand is pushing it kinda like im 4 years old playing with toy cars. the guys pulled up next to me and tried to say something but i couldnt hear them over the roar of the motors. i then noticed my backl tire was completely gone and just the rim was on the pavement. they laughed and said something which i dont remember, then i spoke and they said they couldnt here me over the wierd noise the bike was now making. my brother then wakes me up telling me dinner is ready

Journal Entry Lucid #5 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background:

Dream fragment 1 from 5:00am-6:53am" Obama got jokes?": I watching a YouTube video with my sister. It was Obama he showed up on a stage as if a rock star. He was doing some dance as he walked to the pulpit. He was speaking some sort of weird language. It didn't make any sense. My sister and everybody in the crowd seemed to be enjoying it. I didn't quite understand why they enjoyed it. oh yeah he also jumped on top of someone in the crowd.

Dream fragment 2 from 5:00am-6:53am"Drive to school ": As I was driving to school I saw my friend, BN. The odd thing was that he was in a car with his dad on the wrong side of the street. I said hi to them. The dad looked at me weird. While I was driving away I thought hmm they were on the opposite side. My car turned for some reason and I had to do a quick 360 to make it face the right direction.

Dream 1 from 5:00am-6:53am"Distractions": I spectated a life of an addict. The addict was doing heroin, and lots of it. The mother which was played by my mother was crying, and my sister was also present with her. My mother was crying, saying that she lost her child. I got a glimpse of this heroin they were talking about and it looked like coco powder or chocolate powder. I said that is not heroin, heroin is darker than that. I had enough of this and started to participate in the dream. I became into being in my grandmother room. I turned on the light and saw all these shopping backs. My mother and sister came back home. I walked out and started to get some water from the fridge. My mother was telling me she was disappointed. I thought do they think I am an addict.

I realized it was a dream. It was like my body was vacant, without a mind. I can use my body. I looked at my hands and did a RC, just because. I counted 1,2,3,4,5,6,7, but as I counted I realized that the dream was starting to fade. I quickly resolved the counting by saying I have 7 fingers it is a dream. I started rubbing my hands. The scene went from a dark and dimly lit area to a lively place. It looked like morning and it was at a perfect temperature. As I was about to walk outside through the back door, someone grabs me by the hand. It was my sister. She said, "You have to come with me." I told her no (I was tired of my family distracting me). She said,"I am trying to save you". I thought,"from what? but realized that I should concentrate and ignore her". As I walked outside the house. Their was a beautiful fall tree with orange leaves, along with a nice park like area. I walked pretty far while rubbing my hands. It was crystal clear.

My sister comes outside the house and calls my name. I walked so far that she was the size of my hands from my perspective. I told her to go back inside and mind her own business. She didn't listen and began to walk. I didn't want to baby sit her like I did my dad in the other LD, so I warned her. I told her she better go back inside or I will have to stop her. I got angry and I pointed my hand towards her and tried to use telekinesis to throw her on the wall. I managed to stop her in her tracks but nothing else. Then this alien space ship appeared and it cut her into pieces, it was gory, and even her head got decapitated. I knew it was a DC, so I didn't care. I said, "I warned you, but that wasn't me." I saw her body come back together just like from the game, Prototype.

She said while her voice distorted back and forth from a man to some sort of alien species, "You should have listened to me I am on a whole another level". She jumped in the sky and landed next to me. From looking like the size of my hand she was right in front of me. She transformed into Alex Mercer than into the black guy from Prototype 2. He swung his blade at me. I had a brief thought about Alex Mercer, and my hands transformed into a shield. I thought, "Another distraction". I turned around while rubbing my hands to keep lucidity. The sky was now blood red. It was dark world to live in. I didn't have fear though. As I was walking away. I told him not to bother on attacking me because their is a force field protecting me. I was bluffing, I have never used a force field in dream and didn't know if it will work. He then walks to me and hugs me out of happiness. He said to me," that is exactly why I want to kill you. you know how long I have been waiting for this moment, I wanted to kill someone like you for a long time". I thought "what a dreamer". In prototype when he kills someone he could have their power. He was sad that he had to kill me though. I didn't care because I knew it was a dream. I was just angry that he was distracting me.He picked up a dead solider and he told me that the solider ratted on me. He tossed the dead solider's body on the floor, and he started telling me a story about the virus. He said,"after the virus infected people humans were being sold off to be killed. At last now...(I don't remember what he was saying because I was trying to walk away). I responded that is good. He said "no" in a desperate voice,"they sold us for only one penny!" I woke up instantly.

Reflection: My anger really shined in this dream. The scene transforming, my sister transforming was due to my negative energy. But it is what it is, next time I would handle this type of situation with love. I don't know how though, I don't want to be distracted by DC even if they look like family members.

Journal Entry non-lucid #22 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:10pm-3:20am" Eventually we will die": I was with my little cousin, AL, and I did a reality check. I looked at my hands and looked back but I don't remember if I didn't follow through or it failed. After doing a reality check I got crowded by the dream and went for a ride. I walked around and these old folks were mugging me, giving me all sorts of ugly faces. My mom comes over and asks me to help out the old people. I said no they could help themselves. She looked at me in shock I responded we all get old eventually and we all will die. I thought about the consequence of karma, "this might happen to me when I get old", but my anger took the best of me. I didn't care.

- Also I was doing some math problem and this guy from my class comes over and moves my spot to sit. I didn't seem to mind in the dream though.
- I was also with these ladies and they led me to some hot looking vampire chicks.

I've forgotten completely how I became lucid, but I became lucid at one point and I only remember the following after that, so no point in color-coding.

I'm in my house upstairs with my brother Zach. Once I go lucid, I attempt to recall any dream goal of mine, but struggle with it and eventually give up. Instead, not wanting to waste LD time, I turn to Z (who knows I'm dreaming) and say, "Show me something interesting."

He cooperates and leads me outside. Like my house, the street looks much like it would in waking life, but the sunlight was extremely bright, the grass a vivid bright green, and there just seemed like there was an aura of happiness resting over the dreamworld. I smile, taking in this sight for a moment, and then Zach jumps and takes flight from the ground. I follow him up, and the moment I'm in the air, I notice the area past my street is much different than it should've been. He began flying away in a straight direction and I follow him, looking around at the massive town as I did so. It was completely and utterly random at this point--colorful structures and tall skyscrapers stuck up in every direction, with the woods bordering everything around. My interests are piqued as I wonder what Zach's going to show me.

Eventually we float back down to the ground, in which he leads me into a small, square, basic dark building. Inside the ground is all carpet, the lights are dim, and people are chit-chatting in every direction. It was very dark, but the atmosphere was very welcoming, much like a bar or a small party.

Zach leads me to the left and the right again into a large room where electronic music played in the background with a couple of bars and something interesting in the center--a small tennis court with maybe 3-4 people on each side. Most of the people looked like older teenagers, say around 15-19. They're playing...tennis, but with a few peculiarities. Firstly, they're playing with their hands (much like volleyball). The ball was mostly transparent, but the clear ball was surrounded with an intricate glowing orange design that left a motion blur behind it in the air and was quite easy to see. There seemed to be no way to take score--players just played until they got bored. The biggest difference to this kind of tennis and IWL tennis was the fact that the physics were very trippy. At the weirdest moments the ball would go in slow-motion, or shoot towards the ceiling, or fly past the players towards the wall.

Zach explained to me, "This is dream tennis. Kind of an interesting sport, I think. Do you want to try it out?"

I nod and grin and Zach and I join one of the teams together, and we play a few rounds. At first I mostly suck (no, really, I blatantly made the ball hit the 2-foot-tall net at one point), and I'm teased by my teammates about this, but I eventually (and proudly) get the hang of it. At one point in the middle of the game I question Zach as to why it's not called dream volleyball since you play with your hands. He only says, "I don't know, I didn't make the rules, I'm only a dream character!"

All in all the game and the dream itself was rather strange yet fun, and I totally wouldn't mind playing dream tennis again in a later LD. Eventually I wake up after a few rounds and I DEILD back to sleep, though the contents of the dream that followed are a bit more... private.

On a side-note, I remember a non-lucid dream fragment from earlier in the night where I was playing one of my favorite MMORPGs called Mabinogi, but that's all I can remember from that.

#274 - WILD - 1.29.14 - 4:22

After I wake from the last dream, I have wakefulness for over an hour. The last time I look at the clock it was just around 4:09AM. I finally get my mind to calm down and go straight into WILD using LaBerge's Twin Body Technique.

My head begins to feel wobbly and like it is floating off the pillow. I started the WILD on my left side and roll over to back. I feel a tearing sensation as I separate and hear a sound like metal ripping apart. I pause on my back think about this. OBE's feel so real. I get out of bed easily enough but feel very unstable and can't walk well at first. After a few more steps I seem to be fine. I am blind but I make my way into the living room. I want to stabilize and decide to try clapping. I clap one then a second time and to my surprise, the lights come on. Not only does the living light up but it is daytime outside. I chuckle to myself as I think about The Clapper commercials.

I everything seems really blurry but I decide to go ahead and make my way outside. As I move through the living room I notice there is a strange old TV on a high cart. It's on and the sound is very loud. I'm mildly interested and listen as I pass but all I hear is muffled sounds. I feel like I should be paying attention to it but I really want to get outside. The moment I touch the door and I jolted back to bed.

I DEILD and have to start over. I have the same tearing sensation and metallic sound. Luckily, the living room is already lit and the sun is still up. The same TV is still there blaring sound. Everything is still blurry so I take some time to stabilize by clapping and rubbing my hands. Luckily The Clapper was a one time use. My vision goes to a brown color and I worry about the void or waking up. I focus and the light returns. As I pace around, I ask the dream for a DC. I was wanting to ask some questions and try to probe the dream a little. No one seems to be willing to visit so I let it go for now.

After a moment or two, things get a little more stable. Though my vision was still sub-par, I decide I had spent enough time with this and head for the door. As I pass the TV I plainly hear a voice say, "ANNIHILATE THE HELL OUT OF NASA." I stop and say, "Whaaat?" I sit on the couch and really pay attention to the TV now. I see a news woman with a red blouse and brunette hair and her appearance seems a little outdated. I see the words, "CBS News" bottom of the screen but the sound has gone back to being muffled. I laugh out loud at the whole thing and decide to go ahead and leave.

When I get outside, It looks like late spring and everything us super lush and green. There is way more foliage and trees then my actually neighborhood. I check the temperature and notice it's not hot or cold but feels really nice. Perfect weather. I look for DC's but can't find any so I go for a walk on this spring day. I focus on sensory awareness as I walk. Everything is still a little blurry but I feel so entirely immersed in this reality that I take the time to appreciate where I am. Everything is so life like and has a real 3-Dimensional feel to it. I become overwhelmed with a sense of wonder and excitement that I can't contain. I shout out, "I LOVE LUCID DREAMING! WHOOOO!" I get a stray thought about DJing this experience while I shout out again. "YAAAHO...." My voice get cut off and I suddenly wake up.

Later I dream something about a child. I hear the alarm clock. Instead of the time, it reads, "SXSTUPID" I recognize this dream sign but I am too amused to do anything but laugh. I say, "Sucks stupid? What's that mean?" I fall to the floor laughing. When I look up I see too versions of my brother's wife making faces at me. I wake up.

I have another dream that turned semi[lucid though I thought of it more like a daydream than the dream it actually was. There is road worker blocking the road at a red light. There are no cones or vehicle or lights. Just the guy in the road. I find this odd and try to get over but the traffic is too dense. I make my own way as I drive. I control the dream to build a ramp into a parking garage. I keep consciously adding levels as I go up until I wake.

there is a trailer for team fortress 4 apparently and Nintendo is finally making another starfox game. Though my freind couldn't get any details because the dev team was two janitors and a high school gym teacher. Now I have a gun( it feels scary to have this kind of firepower and I shoot at the linolian floor. I shoot the paint off and now there is a black spot where I shot. My mother suggests I shoot at the wooden floor instead but I am too dumb to realize my mom has a point. THere will be no black spot. But this gun( looks like the gun of the ground glitcher from that youtube video crying pc gamer) wouldn't belong to the heavy who was in the tf4 trailer? hm. ThenI am sitting in bed in Not Sleep Paralysiz vizualixzing eating a strawberry. I had to get up early though. The End

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I start seeing ghosts. First they scare me, but then I become half lucid and lose my fear. Then I establish contact with them. They want my help. They seek a man, indirectly responsible for their deaths. A rich business man, with no moral, responsible for the despair of so many and cause of death of some of them. They want me to help them find him and kill him. I help them find where he lives and I wait by the entrance of his mansion with a bunch of ghosts floating around. When the man arrives home, the ghosts follow him and scare the bejesus out the guy. That's when I come in with a gun, when he is already freaked out by all those scary ghosts. They keep him all curled up on the floor, crying like a baby and ask me to kill him. That's when I'm invaded by a sudden overwhelming compassion for the guy. I can't pull the trigger. The ghosts keep telling me all the horrors he is capable of and pushing me to do it, but I can't. I start crying like a baby, I feel so much compassion for everybody, I can't honestly feel any anger for any being, I am drowning in tears for all the evil people in the world, because they are so ignorant, they don't know what they are doing.
So I tell the ghosts that I won't kill him, that he deserves to go to jail and to learn about the impacts of his actions and to have the opportunity to redeem himself, but I can't kill him. The ghosts are not happy, but they also can't kill him.

good variety last night, much forgotten, still tired

+ playing baseball in the snow, the ball shoots past into the outfield and gets lost in the snow

+ walking through a big place with lots of people, some naked ladies lying around on the ground, checking them out "subtly" as I walk by . Bodies exaggerated in various ways.

+ driving at night, try to pull into a place that it turns out is closed, then suddenly I'm in, a guard calls out something at me, I say in a foreign language "exit!" (to communicate I'm leaving), he calls after me (in FL), "exit?", I say "exit!" and I'm out again.

+ sitting in church, people start dancing in a circle in pairs holding hands, I stand up and look for a free partner, a (redhead?) woman eventually takes my hands and we start moving in the circle

+ soccer goal? (not sure this was a dream or a waking memory of sitting in a restaurant with soccer playing on the TV screens last night)

+ playing a space ship video game, shooting at two other guys playing nearby, I'm just off the edge of their screen shooting individual torpedoes at them who are orbiting a planet, I imagine the key sequences required to do this.

+ I notice a large square hole in the right upper leg of my jeans (about 6 inches on a side), I see a system of multi-layer padding and rollers/cushions underneath, I'm staring at this in confusion for a while, I'm upset my pants are ruined, we try putting various patches over the hole but it won't look good.

+ church scene: there with various young people, there's a screen, someone said "this technology (some name) is a great way of authenticating," it was based around little images.

#273 - WILD - 1.29.14 - 2:59AM

pre-bed: 24oz beer 1 hour before bed.
WBTB G at 2:00AM

I get the feeling like all this is taking way too long and I think about how I have to get up for work soon. I realize that I feel a little odd so I relax. When I do, I shoot straight up. I can feel myself phase through the ceiling and then the roof. Then suddenly, I am sucked back into my body. I begin to feel vibes and try my usual exit but it's not working this time. I visualize walking and climbing stairs but nothing happens. I feel stuck in SP so I wait it out and meditate. I get breathing issues like I need to adjust my head. I feel like my neck is kinked in the wrong way but I can't move so I try to have even breathing and ignore it.

Later I feel my wife touching my hand like she somehow rolled over a little. It bothers me because I feel like it has woke me up a little so I gently scoot over just enough. I realize something felt really odd about my motions but I'm not sure what to do. I worry that I will have to start over so I just lay still.

I hear my wife say something about me talking in my sleep. I start to ask her what I was saying but she continues talking over me. Her voice transforms into some kind of electronic garble as she lazily flops her arm and head on my chest. Before I can react, we both fall off my side of the bed and I yell out, "WHOOOAAA!" I become very afraid of this DC and my first reaction was to react negatively like before. I say, "You are not my real wife." I stop myself myself there as I remember the conversation I recently had with Wurlman in our podcast. I decide to react with love instead. We are still entangled on the floor and I kiss her on the forehead as I say, "I love you babe. I love you. I love you." She doesn't say anything, but shakes her head "yes". The fear is gone but I worry this will turn sexual. I worry because I think of this DC as some kind of strange entity. The feeling I get from it seems off and unnatural. I wake up before anything else happens.

I am in a garage with a bunch of people and vehicles and I have a box of gum. Some man who seems to have a sort of authority comes and visits the garage and the other guys tell him about one of the cars that he was looking at. I think he ask for some gum from me. But he leaves and I follow behind him, and head to another building. I park my bike on the grass, which I do not remember riding, and head inside and sit in a lobby. I believe my mother is there. I am watching out the big glass windows and see a UFO fly across the sky. I forget to point at it until its past the view of the window, so when I do point, all the other people look where I am pointing and see nothing but sky. So I head to the farthest corner of the window to see if I can still see it, but I cannot. Oh well.
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A friend and me are walking around in the evening near some woods. He has a bike with him and we are heading to a tree house. I can sense the presence of a big scary wolf in the tree line near. I ask to ride my friend bike to try a wheelie. I do my wheelie and he says "you're good" or something like that. I can sense the wolfs energy much stronger now, it feels as if it is about to decide to chase us. So we head to the hanging rope ladder at the tree house and start climbing. I get one first and my friend follows closely behind. We are both on the ladder and it feels so wobbly as if it will break and fall at any moment. At the top as I am getting in the entrance, I can see one of the ropes the ladder its hanging onto is about to come lose. Thankfully we both make it inside. I look around and notice the furniture is gone, a couch and recliner. I ask my friend and he says its under the floor. So I go to the edge of the room and lift up the floor and sure enough there is another room underneath and the couch and the chair are hanging on the wall under. Don't remember much more.
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Oh now I am playing some sort of Mario game, but the levels and powerups are unlike anything I have ever seen in a Mario game. At one point I have a whip that auto seeks near targets. Another one is a metal suit powerup that allows me to fly like the cape in Super Mario World. Except when I aim down the metal face on the suit gets all big and scary and full of teeth, and when I aim back up it closes and turns into a normalish face. Weird. As I get to the end of the level I get sucked into the game and it turns into a 3D bonus room where I can search for secrets, but I find none. Feels similar to looking for change under couch cushions as the best description of this bonus room. Don't remember much more.
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ME and my brother and heading through a tunnel, my brother in the lead. He sees a group of 'crabs'? ahead and starts launching explosives at them to clear the path I think. Not sure what happens after I fade away.

I dreamed last night that I attended a dinner party with Yvonne Rainer. As I arrived I got the strangest sense that the others had told her how excited i would be to see her. That embarrassed me for some reason but I was glad that she knew I admired her so much. We spoke, I remember mouths and tongues moving, but I cannot recall words only word like sounds.