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I dreamt that I was watching a movie. I was watching Ender's Game. There was a huge spaceship next to a planet. It was a Bugger planet. The planet seemed to be getting destroyed and so was the ship. The ship ordered an evacuation and pods started evacuating the ship. The ship released a massive nuclear bomb and everything was destroyed except the pods evacuating. The pods landed on a planet and the people started to survive. They then found out that they landed on a Bugger world and were terrified. They started fighting and after, I was watching a flash game. I was supposed to control Ender in a side scroller. The other guy next to my character was T. Harrell. I couldn't control my character and was mad because I lost the perks and upgrades I had.

Iv'e had a couple of dreams when i was much younger about my mother injecting me with something with a syringe.

Dream 1.
We were at my great-grandmothers and there were a bunch of family members of mine there. I couldn't find my mom anywhere. So i go to look in the bedroom, i find my mom and my grandma doing something and i couldn't see what they were doing. My mom looks over her shoulder, she says "hahaha" and starts coming after me. In the front room, i fall down or i got tripped by someone, she injects me with something. I started screaming and pounding on the floor and looked up at everyone and nobody did anything but look at me. and that was it.

Dream 2.
It was me, my boyfriend (at the time), and my mom.
We were at this abandoned broken down house. There was stuff everywhere! My boyfriend was in one of the bedrooms. My mom was in the kitchen area. I went to go see what she was doing and she chased after me with a syringe in her hand. I actually made it to the bedroom where my boyfriend was. I got the door closed on her and my boyfriend tried putting furniture in front of the door to keep her out. It went quiet... Here she comes through another door! She tackles me to the floor and injects me with whatever she had. I cried and rolled around, felt helpless. The end.

Both dreams happened when i was about 16. My mom has always been my best friend and i hate needles!!

24.02.2014

Anger and Disappointment (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wasn't sure wether to post this or not. In fact I wasn't even sure whether to write it down in my personal DreamJournal or not...

(The dream had a bunch of other sequences before this, but I don't remember them)
I went outside, climbed on some building with a ladder to examine something and found my father and some other guy probably the same age as me hanging from that same building. I guess they were climbing around. I know they were hanging there intentionally.
My father said something and I suddenly was filled with rage shouting at him and eventually hit his hands so he fell down.
I left, still having a very aggressive argument with him.

I entered a room that looked like the living room from the apartment I grew up in. A bunch of people were there minding their own business. I was angry and sad and sat down on a couch.
Then my father arrived. He was holding something in his hand, which I knew was something extremely expensive. Appearently he got this for me and planned on giving it to me later as a surprise present.
While he walked towards me and put the thing onto the table next to me he calmly said: "You know, it's been pretty expensive since you live here." And then "Congratulations for being born...".
I felt the disappointment in his voice and started crying. I woke up crying and couldn't stop until several minutes later.

I seldom experienced so much emotions in a dream. Enough to transfer to the waking life...
Yes, I have a rather bad relationship to my father and we had a lot of horrible fights. And yes I'm currently living with my parents and I know I'm kind of a burden. That's probably why it hit me so hard.
What I didn't know at the thime (I actually just found out about it minutes before I wrote this down) my father actually bought something expensive as a surprise present for me I wasn't supposed to know about yet... WTF.
This was probably the most depressing dream I ever had. Fuck, I hate this dream so much.

24.02.2014

Driving on rooftops (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was driving my car on top of narrow rooftops. My mother and sister were in the car too, and I guess we were searching for a parking spot.
At some point we got out and tried to climb over some kind of antenna onto another building.

Today i dreamt i was on the sitting room in my house, i was looking under the glass of the table, situated in the middle of the sitting room.
I found a fairy tail game for PS4. and i thought to myself "Vitor will like this." i smiled then an image of aeriagames site came on my head.
and i saw fairy tail on their site.


Dream elements:

-In my home
-sitting room (of my home)
-Fairy tail

Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 7 hours

Today i dreamt i was on the sitting room in my house, i was looking under the glass of the table, situated in the middle of the sitting room.
I found a fairy tail game for PS4. and i thought to myself "Vitor will like this." i smiled then an image of aeriagames site came on my head.
and i saw fairy tail on their site.


Dream elements:

-In my home
-sitting room (of my home)
-Fairy tail

Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 7 hours

Time unknown hypnopompic hallucination

I wake up to see a humanoid figure kneeling down at my cat, Miitan's level staring at her. My cat is stretched out laying on my husband's legs, not looking at the figure (if she was... that'd be very creepy). The figure is translucent and I can only really see the outline. It seems male to me. So different from my usual hallucinations, which are full of color and depth. I also rarely hallucinate humanoid figures and more often just spiders.

Dream recall at 10:30 am non-lucid

Lingering feeling about a farm after waking up. I felt like I wasn't going to remember any dreams from that night. I wasn't focused on dreaming that night and just wanted to rest. I laid in bed for a while, soaking up the comfort of my nice pillow and blankets, and then suddenly remembered my dream.

I went to my best friend's house, which in my dream world is a farm. I've dreamt it this way before. As always, we start off having a good time, but then we go to the mall with her friends, which like in previous dreams, leads me to going off on my own instead of sticking with the group.

In the dream I feel really self conscious about my looks, everything from the clothes that I'm wearing (which are really layered in the dream) to my hairstyle to my face, which leads me to feeling too embarrassed to hang out with her friends.

We stick around at the entertainment store, in which I point out some Japanese media. At one point I see a よつばと！ box set, thinking how can this be, the creator of the manga doesn't want it to be an anime, but when I pick it up, I realize it's only a box set of the manga.

The next place I go with them is a pet store, which is more of an adoption center. I feel I really want to adopt a dog, but the prices range around $8000. I figure it'd be better to go to a breeder or adopt from a shelter. One of the dogs is strangely the face of a human woman with dark, medium-length crimpy hair and dark skin. One person pets her, but I find it odd. When I went up to her, she insults the way I look.

There's something about a play my friend's friends are going to perform later and we prepare for it, but I don't remember much.

I stay behind as they all head to a different store. I explore the mall. At one point, I reach a museum like area that I've been to with my friend in a previous dream but go to alone in this dream. I'm in line with people from another school and somehow when looking at myself in a mirror, taking off layers, trying to adjust my hair, end up exposing one of my breasts accidentally. I check to see if anyone noticed, and one boy who has dark skin and an afro did notice, but gives an expression that let's me know it's not a big deal and accidents happen.

Somehow I end up hanging out with that boy and his friends. They ask me to participate in their play, but I just can't accept, because I'd feel guilty not participating in my friend's but participating in theirs.

Somehow I make it back to my friend's house and feel guilty for not spending time with her, but hoping she understands. I'd rather just spend time with her one-on-one. She understands. I think about how am I going to get home without a GPS and figure I'll just ask her which way to the highway later.

At some point this girl, who's friends with us in the dream but I don't know in real life, comes through the window to hang out. She's Asian.

I think I see my friend's dad in the dream whom in real life I've never met before, but I don't remember.

Finished recording the dream at 10:50 am.

drempt that i was the star of a play on stage infront of some random audience and was in a scene where this girl was playing me in a mini game of soccer. she was a witch and it wasnt a typical game of soccer. any thing she called out i had to do. like she said grab your balls and if i didnt she would try adn rip em off. so id listen until finally i scored and she starrted to melt and i cupped my hand over her mouth as she bit into my theme so hard and it hurt!! it started bleeding and icouldnt take it so with my other hand i wripped of her pants and started fingering her really agggresively and she moaned and scremeaded till the curtain came down. then we just stopped acting and wen back to being normal people and were like "good job out there"

then i had 30 minutes to learn the rest of the lines of my play but i got lossed and couldnt find the stage again, i could hear it but never found it and it made me mad and sad that i had thrown the 2nd halve of my show away

then i stole a corvette from a biker and followed the biker. he was like "dont change the station from 106.kmel cuz i got my bluetooth head set on and i am almost done with my workout" DJ has got us falling in love again was playing and ireally wanted to change that shit cuz he had nice speakers and i watned to see their potential but i obeyed his order. then i drove the car into a pool

Night of February 24, 2014. Monday.



This seemingly night-long dream sequence keeps repeating at about four different levels. They consist of different ideas but flow in a seemingly important established “system”. Dreaming of a consistent repeating system (often related to a precise physical position you need to be in - or series of positions), “adjusting” to it, and moving through it again, is a fairly common type of dream since earliest memory, though I have never heard anyone else talk about it much. Sometimes it is blissful, other times a bit irritating and repetitive. Sometimes it relates to supposedly going into the “exact same dream” again from where you left off as long as several years ago. It even seems to have something to do with certain folds of the blanket (at certain locations) at times.

The main aspects here…I am trying to mentally emboss a design on the side of the wardrobe. I believe there are several false awakenings. It is like two somewhat oval emblems side by side that have different languages or some such. There is some sort of exotic writing on each, but both different. The one on the right does have something that vaguely resembles a fancy cursive “W”, though, with other smaller patterns. I guess it looks a bit like two different car logos jammed incongruously together.

Also, at times, I am trying to mentally work out the alteration of a waveform and keeping its exact same musical qualities no matter how the tempo is altered (there is software that does this but most is very unsatisfactory - adding annoying and obvious artifacts and obvious “stretching” nuances, especially with drum tracks). It is something like changing the tempo from 115 bpm to 70 bpm and working out the proportion downward by dividing the original by 12 (based on the 12 notes in one octave), in the formula (in this case only) being 70/115 = ?/12, which would supposedly indicate moving 7.3 half-tones (in a granular construct) down to keep the nuances exact. I have not tested this yet, so do not know if it is a viable idea - I have done similar work quite often before, but went by ear mostly. It does not sound very viable - it would be more along the lines of distance from source pitch by percentage, as tempo is not directly related to frequency (in Hz). I know the old sampler keyboards from many years back simply changed the speed of the wave sound, though (both faster and slower, for the entire pitch range), but this was too artificial-sounding (to the point of absurdity - but a nice useless toy for some “musicians”, I guess) to be of much use.

Also, with other several false awakenings, I am mentally creating some sort of “wind tunnel” through the middle of the bed, about a foot up. This has something to do with getting rid of my bad cold (I have not had much of a cold or flu in years - regardless of all the foreign backpackers coming and going to the illegal “hotels” on our street - and did not even feel the “entry” of this one as I usually do). It will supposedly work by sucking up aspects of the virus and pull them into a different dimension.

Through all of this, I am doing some sort of horizontal “slow-motion dance” over an hour or two, whereby my body needs to be in exact positions to maintain the work I am supposedly doing (related to the other three imaginary scenes). I think I am doing this in real life a few times, other times it is only from within my dream.

Dream 1
Not lucid

I find myself outside a hotel. I am there with my brother and my bestfriend along with his sister. We are here for what looks to be a League of Legends convention but when i woke I said Yugioh so not sure which. We went into the hotel and tried to book a room we got one room but as my buddy was getting his room they began to get dificult with us saying they didnt have anymore rooms left but it seemed like they did. They called their managment and talked about some random stuff and then came back around and started to talk to the convention people saying they didnt have enough room. they have enough room for 100,000 people but there was already 500,000 currently booked. We decided to leave and we went to the back side of the hotel and there was a bunch of noise going on inside was a gym with lots of different colored lights and people could be heard in the distance. I was standing out side the doors at a desk and was toying around with some Camera strips and was trying to watermark the develepment strips. I set them out and walked over and saw my brother come out of the gym he and I talked about something and then we headed out some doors.

Dream 2
Not lucid

I found myself on some kind of island with this man. I dont know what he was doing at the time but he reminded me of Tom hanks from the movie cast away like he was stranded on this island. I walk over to the corner of the island and I look down and my stomach is diferent looking. It looked bigger than normal but there was like a cut or something in it and blood was pouring out onto the beach and i was making a line with the blood. I turned around and saw people coming out of the water and one of them walked next to me and we walked over to what was wilson on a stick to what was now a hat on a stick. The person took the hat off and tossed it on the ground and then pumped the stick. It was not a hand sanatizer stand and I was commenting on how i didnt know that was there. Astonished i walked back towards the homeless mans camp to talk to him but when i got there he was crying. I looked over and saw several people i knew trashing his camp. I asked them to stop eating and breaking his camp up. They said No that he didnt deserve it and he just will waste his money on stuff. I said he doesnt and he didnt. They then pointed out that he had fire crackers. I said yes he does but those are cheap and he deserves them if he wants them. He is a nice man and they need to leave him alone. They left him alone finnaly and i went to go find him more stuff. I grabbed a tree and bent it over and flung myself into the air to land on another tree. I kept doing this as i tried to avoid touching the forest floor as i didnt want to get poison ivy. I landed on one tree but my arm was pierced and stuck to a tree. I felt no pain even though a piece of the tree was in my arm. I pulled the sticky spiked branch off my self and jumped to another tree and another and i fell to the forest floor as i was abotu to hit another spikey sticky branch. I made my way out of the forest onto a path.

Dream 3
Not lucid

I came about into this forestry water place and saw a lady practicing with a fishing lure. It was a cat but it was upside down the body was under water but the legs were sticking out of the water like they were floating devices. She also had a giant bee lure that had a big red floaty under it and she would put real bees onto the stomach of that big bee. a fishing contest started and she was using her big bee lure when all of a sudden this tiger comes bolting out of the water and eats the bee the lady jumps into the water and starts fighting and choking out the tiger and pins it up against this wall and uses her fishing pole to choke it more. she finally knocks it out from doing that and gets out I ask the people near me what the hell was that? why was there a tiger in there? they say that its a real challenge the person needs to be ready for anything that’s what makes them the ultimate fisher. hunter is being able to handle whatever is thrown at you. I get confused and decide to leave.

Dream 4

Im in some weird house but all I remember about it is there was an acarde game in the house. Everybody was trying to beat it but nobody could. I walked up looked it over and then shot this same target 4 times in a row and won. everybody was confused because they did the same thing but on the last shot they shot this guy that poped up instead of that small target again.

Dream 5

I was in a kingdom and was the duke or prince to a king. we had another person there with me that was the kings right hand man. we did random stuff but the kings helper was trying to train me to take over for the king. I woke up in waking life but feel back asleep but came back to the same dream. I was talking with the right hand man about how i was trying to talk to different people about my dreams and get better. I told him i was trying to reach out to wakingnomad and ravenknight and he seemed very impressed and was happy i was doing that.

Last night I attempted at using some techniques to trigger lucid dreaming. It was awkward getting into a comfortable position as my hands were starting to ache. I lay with my eyes closed waiting for a moment to start feeling like I was going to drift off to sleep, but that moment never seemed to come. Tony was making noises through the night and tossing and turning which would wake me up, eventually he crawled out of bed and went downstairs which I figured he couldn't sleep and was gonna watch TV and sleep downstairs. I began to feel like I was about to drift away and so I started to move my fingers. I felt tingling sensations throughout the body, but I also felt intense pain in my left arm. I was awoken by the pain, so I tried to move my left arm to a more comfortable position. Again I began to drift off, but each time I felt intense pain in my arms and was awoken. Hours must've gone by where I couldn't get to sleep and every attempt to enter lucidity resulted in me waking in pain and when I tested if I was dreaming I wasn't able to breathe through the nose which confirmed I was awake. All of a sudden I fell asleep without even trying and had mini dreams lasting only a few seconds, maybe a minute each, and I kept on waking up feeling the pain in my arms. None of the dreams were lucid as I was in far too much pain. I can't recall how many short dreams I had but there was only 2 I could remember.

Dream 1

I was in so much pain I crawled out of bed and went downstairs to get my painkillers. I had called a doctor to come to the house and she gave me a timeframe when to come. For some reason I dragged myself outside with a sleeping blanket wrapped around me, feeling intensely tired. It wasn't the street to the house I was living at but back at my old house. A man in the distance was watching me from his garden with an angry look on his face. I felt too exhausted to move and collapsed to the ground, even though I wasn't that bad to collapse I could've stayed standing or sat down to rest but I thought if I collapsed I'd get help faster. The guy pulled a phone from his pocket to call for an ambulance. I lay there with my eyes closed, just wanting to sleep or pass out before the paramedics arrived and made me out to be faking for attention. Paramedics arrived very quickly and were talking with the guy about what he saw, then they came over to me. They shouted at me like they knew I wasn't unconscious and were very annoyed with me. "Come on Melanie!" they shouted. I groaned and opened my eyes slowly. "You don't really expect us to believe that you were asleep do you?" They got fed up with me trying to look worse than I was and went back to the guy and began talking with him again. "I have fibromyalgia" I said, but I was now feeling and sounding extremely tired and struggling to get the words out. "You have what?" they said coming back to me and bending over to hear what I was saying. "Fibromyalgia, I just want to sleep" I said. I managed to wake myself up more and forced my eyes wide open. I looked up at a clock that was hanging on a wall. It was my clock on the living room wall of my old house, and it was showing around 2pm. "My doctor is supposed to be coming" I murmered. "When is she coming?" they asked. I looked at a crumpled note that was in someone else's handwriting, it said 1:30 - 4:30. "Why would you come out here if she is due to come to you anyways?" they asked. Then the dream jumped to a lady who was the doctor with short blonde curly hair wearing a blue uniform and she was in her car driving to the different house call appointments. The dream then ended there.

Dream 2

I was James Bond running through Manchester trying to escape someone. I ran into a square where there were security cameras projecting an image of me running onto the building walls. The shoppers thought it was a celebrity stunt and were shouting out "there's James Bond!" and they were all cheering and clapping. I grabbed hold of a woman in a red dress who I think was my sister or a co-worker and I was saying something desperately to her about needing to get out of there. The dream went rather muddled at that point and then ended.

Dream 3

I dreamt about the cartoon character Jem from Jem and the Holograms, someone ripped a pearl necklace from her neck leaving her upset. This was a very quick dream and ended there.

I'm upset that the pain was preventing me from sleeping properly or from being able to attain lucidity. I'll be calling my doctor today to arrange an appointment for some new medication since what she has given me isn't working.

1. [Non-Lucid] [Kinda Vivid]
Where walking towards an elevator where this kid has pressed the call button, we spot someone going to the shop on past the elevator so we go over for some reason (I think he is Walter Bishop from Fringe).

As I look around the shop I notice a shelf of videos across from me (1 was bright yellow and had the Flubber logo on the spine and the other was very faded and had something written on the spine).

We walk back over to the elevator and the kid is still there, the elevator arrives and the doors open, I am mortified at the state of the insides, (First off it looks like a service elevator, the walls had vertical zigzags painted black, it was grimy and dirty, it was disgusting) the elevator starts to ascend, it slowly jitters and bounces its way up to the next level, at this point I'm pretty scared of the lift getting stuck, luckily we make it to the next floor and the doors open.

2. [Non-Lucid] [Kinda Vivid]
I'm in Minecraft flying around collecting stars which I have no idea of their purpose (the stars where 2D and spinning), this all seems to be happening on a little island I think made of snow, I kept flying behind the scenes and saw bedrock in some places.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I appear to be bobsledding down these narrow snowy courses.

4. [Non-Lucid]
I am very angry at something, I think my Mum.

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Possible dream signs:
Walter, Elevator, Minecraft, Mum

I was in a small house with a woman that told me to watch over her newborn baby while she was gone, i said that i would do it.I was carrying the baby around with me, but i would always forget about it if i put it down somewhere.After forgetting about the baby several times i thought to myself "i have to pay more attention this baby can boost my awareness".Everything got dark and a new scene started to form with me being on a cliff with my friend.We were looking in front of us and saw 3 bridges but there was no way to cross over to them and the baby was on the last bridge where the sealing was going more and more down to crush it.Im not sure if i was lucid at this moment because i suggested to got to the baby by using one of my teleportation techniques which i normally use only in lucid dreams.So i threw a kunai and teleported to its location where me and my friend were fighting some people and then just when the sealing was about to fall on the baby i teleported fast and saved it.While we were walking with the baby back to her mother the baby looked strange and evil.

Terrible to-bed time, like 03:30, I'm slipping again to bad habits. Still managed some recall, though:

+ at my favorite lake on a plastic blow-up raft, I paddle around to the lagoon, across the lagoon a I see alot of other campers, I try to look at them through binoculars but they don't bring the view closer, I think I see someone looking at me through binoculars. The mouth of the lagoon is a river flowing out into the lake, some people are standing at its edge on the other side from our side, I think the river will keep them out of our area

I've leaving the campsite with a few other people and realize I'm lost, I don't see the familiar landmarks, I look towards the lake and up into the hills and think I see the familiar path. I'm on a bike and heading up very steep hills I have to get off to walk it up, there's a handrailing on the right. I "remember" that the lake is in a valley

I emerge into a city street scene, hilly, with cars and streets and buildings. I'm looking for my car, I have a remote(?) and click it (?).

+ I'm following my jr high sweetheart, she's wearing a pink frilly dress, we're outside and it's dark/night, she asks me if I remember the dress, I don't frankly but say I do, I sort of remember that when she wore it before the belt had pokadots and say so. We arrive at a party at her house, the house is filled with people, I'm standing close to her but feel very self-conscious I don't know what to do or to say. She pours a tiny thimble-full of some (alcohol I think) drink for me/us.

+ I arrive in the outdoor room of my college room-mate (male) "F", I jump up to the top of his bunk-bed and sit on the end with my feet hanging down, it is right up against a fence to the neighbor's house, there is a tall bush/tree partially obscuring the view ahead and to the right of the neighbor's house. My friend climbs up and straddles me facing me hugging me, I'm weirded out by this, I wonder if he wants to make out, that's strange, to be polite at one point I nuzzle the side of his head with mine. He says the neighbors actually broke one of their own windows to that they could see his bed better "so that they could see some new things" (referring to he and his girlfriend in bed). I hear some aerosol cans in the neighbor house and it seems like they're getting dressed. F's girlfriend "D" arrives, I notice she has VERY hairy lower legs starting at about the mid-calf down to her feet. Not normal hair but very dark long and spiky looking hair sparse with the skin visible in between. More like little twigs than hair. She starts applying "spray on shoes" to her lower legs and feet, I jump down and look at this I see a pattern of the boots forming on her legs, I say I'm not into trendy shoes I wear the same brand until the manufacturer stops making them, I take off my shoe and show them "like this 846 model here".

Then I'm at a party of grad-school friends, I see some they see me and act like they haven't seen me in years even though I "know they saw me yesterday," we do one of our jokes acting like TV commercial announcers, "NOW how much would you pay?..". Someone tells me to watch the ham/cheese sandwich. I see it up high on top of a cabinet, someone's reaching for it. Someone's preparing frozen snacks, he pours of the contents of a bag onto a platter to be cooked, it's mostly candy, I see a few pieces of pizza and bacon, I think that's not much bacon it's going to be gone soon.

A rollaway bed is being unpacked, looks comfortable, some other camp kids want to climb up on it, I get on it, the bed is on a raft in the water. My wife is telling me something about a box of chocolates which I don't understand, she's saying something about it is wrong for her brother who is diabetic.

Journal Entry non-lucid #43 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I meditated a bit. I said some mantras then off to sleep. I woke up abruptly though so dream recall went to near zero.

Dream fragment 1, Uncategorized time."":
-On some sort of island.
-there was a cat in my house.

I woke up way too early again I ran out of my room to use the bathroom, too much water for WBTB. I just wanted to sleep so I went back to sleep.