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Journal Entry Lucid #12 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I got up around 1:22 and I studied for my chemistry exam. I don't remember thinking about LD. Around 3:45am I got up and went to my room. I listened to some music and I just tried to enjoy the moment. (I did not listen to any Robert Monroe recording because I wasn't aiming to become Lucid.) I told myself don't care about having a LD, just go to sleep and try and remember some dreams. I went to sleep very hungry.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:10am-4:46am" Family's Support and Mewtwo's Cry":
I remember walking around my neighborhood stores. I was eating food with my friend TO, and my teacher. I came back home and I saw my parents come out of the car. My neighbor who didn't look like himself was driving the car. After he parked it, I helped them get the food out the car. I saw a machine that takes the food to my neighbor's house. It went across the beautiful green grass they had. I turn and I see giraffes and antelopes in our hard. They were fighting with each other it was crazy.

I woke up because of my hunger. I felt sad and angry that I woke up. I thought oh man I am going to have a hard time going back to sleep now. I thought for a second about a video I watched, he said to be happy in every thing that you are doing and do it out of love. I manged to ignore my stomach and I laid down laughing about something. The dream happen within seconds maybe.

I think it was just me talking to myself in my imagination at first. Enjoying the time, but it quickly became a disturbing conversation. [COLOR="#0000FF"]I found myself in church having a conversation with this man and BE, old friend. I saw this guy in front of me and he is telling me if I leave, we will fight. He is going crazy yelling at me. I looked at him at peace filled with no emotions of anger like I usually do. I thought this doesn't make sense. I told my self to move to make sure I wasn't imagining it. I managed to move.

Family's Support: I then had the thought this is a dream why haven't I done anything yet. I started acting casual about it and I walked in middle of the room. I started rubbing my hands because I felt like the dream was on the verge of ending. I looked around to make sure it was a dream and not some extreme visualization. I looked at the kids in the room they were running around playing tag without me thinking about it. As I was about to walk out of the room the guy followed me, he said I am getting weak, BE said the same thing. I felt a little weak but I was excited. I kept going I saw some food, I told them to eat some food. I picked it up it was a pink cookie thing it had a taste of donut. I knew I fell asleep hungry and my physical body can't be tricked for long. I told them hey look at this.

I stopped rubbing my hands and I flew up to the ceiling with ease. The church people started gasping and looking at me like I was a monster. I thought about how it felt, this particular flight. It felt like someone picking me up. I didn't feel in control anymore, my legs started rising above me making my head upside down. I thought ok I will work with this. I started swinging my legs to get a circular motion going. I felt nauseous at first but then I could control my whole body now. I stopped my body and landed. My grandmother wasn't as protective anymore, she trusted me. She told me that the church people are not ready to accept me, (I guess a LDer), they seemed to be convinced thought that it was real life. I started to fly again and I was about to try and go through the door, phase. I bumped into it and it changed my direction of flight. My uncle opened the door for me and he said, "go fly, go up, go high". I saw a beautiful horizon, purple and blue with a blend of orange. I don't know how to describe it really. The dream then froze like a computer screen. I couldn't move the body that I see, everything remained motionless. I then entered the VOID.

Mewtwo's Cry: It was pitch dark but I knew that the dream didn't end. I started rubbing my hands. I let go off my lucidity, I let my thought wonder, but I caught it right away. A dream started to form. I see a wasteland, ugly looking thing. I see Mewtwo from Pokemon, my favorite Pokemon when I was a kid. I thought wow dreams could get random. I thought am I going to be mewtwoI started getting closer to it. It was flying around the dystopic landscape. I became him. I then started rubbing my new hands. It was white and I had those three little fingers that Mewtwo had. The sensation though still felt like five fingers. I could still fly too. I kept flying. I saw a lot of legendary Pokemons. They were flying, running and jumping around, attacking each other. Some shooting beam out of their mouths at each other. I said to them, "we should not fight with each other..." (I don't remember exactly what I said after wards but I know it has something to do with the corruption of lords and how we should not follow them). I then stopped mid flight and I pointed both my fingers side ways. I saw my chest as I was doing this and I saw the armor that Mewtwo had, the dream was so consistent. After I put my hand out to the side I made a purple enegry beam that exploded and woke me up.

Became lucid by: DILD

I had the most amazing dream. I was in a relationship with a wonderful younger guy. He has 2 younger boys. He was so sweet and caring towards me through out the whole dream. I didn't want it to stop. The dream was very vivid and lasted for a long time..

This is very puzzling to me because I am not in a relationship nor do I have any intentions of being in a relationship. There is so much going on in my life with my job, building an online business, taking an online course and self healing/ spiritual expansion.
I have no time for anyone new in my life, and I don't want a relationship with someone who has younger kids, mine are all grown up, the youngest being 22.

Recently I have begun doing deep meditation, and am wondering if this is the reason for the dream. Could it be a premonition or my subconscious trying to show me what I am longing to eventually find.

Journal Entry non-lucid #51 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: (Also an extension to the LD I had on the same day): My father wished me a LD. I went to sleep and I told myself I will have a LD but no worries if I don't. I placed an importance on remembering a dream than having a LD.

Dream fragment 1, 8:45pm-1:22 am." Dead Indian Lady": I was walking in a line and we were doing mathematics as we walked. The line ended somewhere and I saw my friend EK. He looked a lot like a mix of Tyler the creator. This guy asked my friend to move something so that he could sit down, but EK ignored him. I asked him to stop doing that and he did. A teacher came inside and told us that we were going to watch a movie. I sat back relaxing. Too many ropes around my chair so I started moving them. It made lots of noise like a metal chain. People stared back at me. I didn't seem to care. This guy behind me flinched and clinched his muscles as if to fight me. I got ready and I realized it was someone I knew and was no longer angry. The teacher started telling a story about a women who was flawless in dancing or singing. I walked out to use the bathroom. Instead I ended up in a old room. It looked like a museum. It had glass case for objects. I kept walking and I saw a room with a women sitting there motionless. She had black hair that was long. I looked at her cloth, it didn't look like anything that is casually worn. I assumed it was Indian cloth, it had yellow orange and brown as main colors. I looked at how still her body is and I said she is dead. A girl came inside. She asked why I stopped. I told her (jokingly) "I don't want to be stuck with an old lady telling me old events". I then looked at the women and said, "I give you my blessings, (acknowledging that she is dead), and I wish you happiness". We walked out together. This guy and girl talked as I overheard them. They said our class lies to get out of class talking about going to the bathroom.



Possible dream sign:

Emotion: Angry (x1),
Context: "Wacky context"

I think if I have one more dream about wandering buildings after this, I'll add it to my dream signs.

3. I’m wandering around a neighborhood and buildings. I run into a guy, and I ask him what these two letters in my ‘interests’ box stand for. In my mind I see a column with my ‘interests’ such as fandoms, hobbies, etc, written in it. I think the last letter was ‘f’. It’s how people find each other there I guess. He tells me the media name and I say ‘oh yeah’.

I wander into a building and am lost. I find a room and think it could be an exit. There’s a young African American girl standing there. I ask her about the room, and she says her mom is in there sleeping because she’s sick. I ask her if that’s all that’s in there, because I’m still hoping for a way out. She silently closes the curtain(?) over the room.

I feel like that scene repeated, like I went through there before. And that I’d seen the girl outside at my old school and talked to her.

Inspiration: Two letters part comes from my PAO system.

4. In a school cafeteria with my friends, the lunchlady tells me the food has already been put away. We manage to find some cookies(?) to eat though.

Lunchlady reminded me unfavorably of Miss L, an old teacher. Or Miss Trunchbull from Matilda. I swear I’ve had a very similar dream before, that or my déjà vu is just on the fritz again. @_@

I added my dreams signs to a memory palace, so I can run through them as a reminder as needed. I have a hard time remembering them all for RC's, so I'm starting with water and trying to increase my awareness of it first.

1. Something about Sollux and thumbs.

Inspiration: I’m continuing my reread of Homestuck and talked to Sollux in the Alterniabound flash game, which made me remember how much I love him. Wish I remembered what the thumbs part was about, lol. Should have made a better trigger for it, because I think I remembered when I first woke up. But hey, it was 2:35 AM.

2. I’m at a store looking at a bunch of anime posters on a rack. I see some from a show I know, but they’re from a series/season I haven’t seen yet. I see one of Hibari and start digging it out. There’s someone else there and they’re helping me get it out of its wrapping so I can see its number.

There are multiple numbers so I end up just looking for the SKU number. I think it said ‘SKA’ but I knew it was the SKU number, so I wrote it down so I could look for the poster online or something.

It’s a bit fuzzy here, but ‘I’ say “Kamikorosenai~” (Don’t bite me to death~”) without the 'de' on the end in a plea for Hibari not to hurt me.

Inspiration: The numbers and letters had to come from my PAO system, which is funny, because I used that very system to remember the SKU part in my dream palace.

Note: Hibari is from the manga/anime Katekyo Hitman Reborn!. ‘Kamikorosu’ (“I’ll bite you to death.”) is his catchphrase. He’s a stickler for rules so maybe he thought I was stealing his poster. 8)

In a small town, ghosts are awakening and they've kidnapped Lily. Us, Ron Weasley, myself and company, march toward their creepified den to put an end to it all. We were partially acting, partially serious, and I put on my best English accent which Ron referred to as terrible.

Upon our march to the den, we are stopped by a fella in a van who offers to sell us some kidnapped animals. I don't know how, exactly, we knew they were kidnapped but I used my wand to grow a tail on him and send him on his way then decided to take care of the issue of animals in the van. They tried to slam the door and get away but I lodged my hand in, demanding to learn where they got the animals from so I could return them. Though I could heal myself, I didn't want to them slamming my fingers off so I paralyzed the door. Eventually they said "Blues Street" and I relinquished, and then they took off and I complained about the cops around and none of them assisting with an obvious crime.

We kept our march to the ghostly den and reached a group of toilets. No one else had any trouble using them but I couldn't figure out how they worked. Then I saw "Creeley," some little kidnapped first year returning to the den with supplies. I called out to him and he panicked. He got through the portal faster than I could follow, but I knew the plot of the story was my character followed the blackmailed Creeley because everyone else was walking into a trap. Unfortunately, I just missed the opportunity. Then I noticed another one, some Tonks-esque lady floating while pissing (in a urinal, at that) and I followed her grabbing onto her hair. Everything went dark, when I came to children were being forced to throw spears at each other, being trained into some malicious army.

And it all started because I wanted to smoke pot.

One of my students has wandered off and I need to find him. He is not wearing shoes and it has started to rain. I set off to find him, walking down a nice grassy hill in the rain. I come to a street, it has no sidewalks, is in somewhat shabby shape and has beautiful mature sycamore trees planted along both sides of it. There are many branches that hang over the road. I start to flap my arms, bird style. With this flapping, I rise into the air and fly from branch to branch. I am singing the mantra of Avalokiteshvara as I fly. I recognize that there is something strange about flying, but rationalize it thinking "I am really only about 10-20 feet off the ground, its not like I am really flying." There is some manner of transition and I am back at the house where the dream began. My student has returned safely.

Just the fact that I had a lucid dream and some recall after a long time of inability is worthy of a journal entry, but it was also an extremely clear and vivid lucid dream with lively colors. I flew around. And as always, I had lots of power but no control, when trying to fly upwards a little I would end up near or above the clouds, lowering a bit almost crashed me into the ground. I know this LD lasted a while but I just don't know what I did. It was at least 10-15 minutes of quality lucid time. There is also a non-lucid part, where I sparred with a girl who I suppose was my girlfriend. Sparring means fighting within the rules of the sport you're practicing (we did Taekwondo sparring. That's it, just some fragments, but I hope that just the effort of typing this will help me get better at LDing.

Have a nice day.

03/04

Dream 1
Not lucid

I arrived at my parent’s house and was in my old room and kept taking off clothing and putting it back on because I didn’t like what I was wearing. I did that several times and finally put a white shirt on and a short sleeved pink button up shirt that has blue strips on it. I went down the stairs and my parents were saying they were going to head out to my grandparent’s house. So they went outside and got into a motor home. They said that I should probably go take a shower first because I smell like a dead animal that I stepped in. I went and took the shower and met back up with them afterwards.

Dream 2
Not Lucid

I was inside a store like target or kohls and some other random people and I decided that we were going to play different sports. But at this moment it was time for laser tag. I set it up and was ready to start playing but a person said I did it wrong as I didn’t give the bear costume to anybody. Also I didn’t pick somebody to be the hostage that ran in front of the bear yelling OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO~!! As they tried to get away from the bear. I grabbed the costume and gave it to a girl and told another girl to be the hostage and they agreed and put it on. We started the round and we looked all over for the other team but they never left base and so we went over there and shot them with our lasers and won the match. After the game the guy next to me tried to smoke his cigarette as we walked out the store but a lady that worked there came up and said he can’t do that and he would get rid of it and then light up another one she came up again and told him yet again he couldn’t do that. He told her that other people were doing it so he could as well. She said no they can’t either I am going to tell them as well but first you need to stop. He finally put it out and vanished from my sight. I went into a bathroom before I left the store and as I walked in the lady was in there with the guy and she was putting out his cigarette in the urinal. She said I told you can’t smoke here. She then left and he was upset about it. I started to go pee but realized I didn’t like this urinal and I wanted to use a different one. I started peeing and walking and aiming for each urinal on the way to not get any on the floor or wall. As I did this I walked past the guy I was with earlier and accidently peed on him as he was in the way he got upset and left and I got closer to the urinal I wanted but as I got to it it vanished. I was still peeing this whole time and now my pee was going up the wall some people started coming in so I aimed to pee on the ground and acted like nothing was going on.

Dream 3
Not Lucid

I went to my grandma’s house and went inside and went towards the bathroom but when I did my parents were in there getting ready for their anniversary. I told them happy anniversary and went out of the room.
Dream 4
Not lucid

I was sitting on a couch with an old friend named Andrew and another random person. We were talking and I brought up that I saw his golden retriever in one of my dreams earlier that night. I was saying how torch was a good dog and was very nice. He also had a cat that was climbing around on the couch.

03/03

Dream 1
Not lucid

I was in a grocery store/ super store. While I was in there I noticed it was a game day as people were playing different games all over. I walked over to one of them which was you had a big list of characters to pick from. People picked the different characters they liked and tried to jump into the game but they couldn’t seem to get into the game. Each person tried and tried till time ran out and then they would get out. It was now my turn as I walked up and looked at the list of characters. I looked at them all and in the bottom right hand corner I saw two characters that looked the same but one had a smile on it. They both looked like a big pile of poop. I picked the one without the smile and the icon vanished and I jumped into the black hole that was in its place. I was in the game and was running towards a row of cubicles hitting points on the wall to get coins. I turned right but it was a dead end I turned around and took another right and came to the exit and left the game. I was now on the outside of the store and came back in through an entrance. As I came back in people were cheering me on as I did really good job and how I had the best time. I told them it was nothing you just need to pick the shitty character to play and then just run straight. I told them I could of did better as wasted 5 seconds by taking the wrong turn instead of just going straight. I then left that game and went towards another game. This one involved rolling a plastic container of like some kind of seasoning. Not a small one but a medium sized container. I saw 1 person go first and they rolled it on the ground and it hit a really low prize and they got it. I noticed there was rock climbing stuff above that and a boat above that in the distance though there were some different prizes like coffee and cinnamon rolls and other things. I rolled and hit the coffee and went over and found out they ran out so I got to pick some waffles or cinnamon rolls I looked around for the prize but couldn’t find the correct sized package. The person behind me got gum and came over and found it and showed me. I got about 2 things of waffles and they got two sticks of gum we were upset as they were horrible prizes. I went over to a table and sat down and was talking with this girl at the table. She was upset and was saying she was upset because her dad died and he was a really nice guy.

Dream 2

I was heading into a class with a wooden chair and as I went in with it realized we weren’t going to be doing it outsie so I was upset that I brought this chair all the way with me.

03/01

Dream 1
Not Lucid
I was in my old bedroom when I looked around and saw a hamster cage I use to have and thought to myself why do I still have that out? My hamsters have been dead for a while so there is no need for it… I look inside and I see movement inside some of the sawdust flakes. I look closer and I see all these baby mice most of which were white. I moved some items under my bed and all of a sudden mice started running out from under my bed. But these mice were different they were brown and big and small and they all had hamburger buns on top and below them as they ran. I pulled my hand back and said what the hell is that! I made a fist and began to slam it down onto the buns killing and squashing all the mice. A few of the first ones got away as I was to slow to catch those ones. I looked under the bed more thinking why was there so many mice….. All of a sudden there was more movement from a box under my bed and a goose comes shooting out and honking at me. I jumped up to my feet and yelled get out of here get out of here! As I motioned it to get out of the house, I followed it down the stairs and to the door. Then I hear some clucking and I see a chicken and I get that to come next to the door as well. I think to myself what is next a stupid alligator?? With the thought still in my head the doorbell rang and as I opened it I saw a alligator at my door. He talks to me telepathically and is saying I’m here to go into your room. But I tell him no, no, no you’re not coming in I’m already getting all the other animals out of my room. He started to head into the house but I slammed the door shut before he got in. I went back upstairs and began to clean my room out more and there was 2 DC’s there a lady and a guy. I was cleaning off my top bunk and the lady looks at the top bunk and says Oh he isn’t going to like this…. I look around real fast moving stuff out of the way asking what is it? What is it? I move it all out of the way and find nothing. And come to the conclusion that she was just messing with me.

Dream 2
Not Lucid

I was in a bar I was talking with people but remember no actual conversations. I hit it off with a girl and went back to a house/apartment place. She seemed kind of like a babysitter.

Dream 3
Not Lucid

I was now at a house and woke up inside a bed. I sat up and there was 3 other people in the room with me laughing about a really bad joke I just told. We talked about zombies and I said a horrible joke. I looked at them as I got out of bed and said “well I’m going to go get roll aids….to stop all these zombie aids…. Get get??? Bahahahaha. They laughed along and then said it was a stupid joke. I agreed and left the room and saw a few people that looked familiar and sat down with them. They were all sweaty and so was I. I thought to myself wow my pants are so sweaty and my back is all sweaty to… I took my shirt off and then thought I should just take my pants off. But I remembered that I wasn’t at home so I best not take my pants off. The other people were like yeah ours are sweaty to. One of the other guys then stripped down and for some reason didn’t have boxers or underpants on and was not butt naked walking around us. I put my hand up and blocked his lower section from my vision and said ahh dude put some pants on… or at least some shorts. So he did and one of the girls was now saying well if he can get naked so can I…. so she stripped down taking off everything and then putting on some short shorts. I thought to myself how weird this was that everybody was just stripping down in front of each other without a care in the world. The last girl started to strip and I said wait wait don’t we need to take showers still? They all agreed and we went separate ways. I went to a bathroom that looked like my old bathroom at my parents house and started to pee in the toilet while I was peeing though different screens popped up in front of me like I was using a phone but I had no phone that I was holding out.
I was having a hard time peeing in the toilet for some reason as my stream wasn’t staying constant. As I looked into the toilet I noticed a staples button the saying “that was easy”. I thought nothing of it and got into the shower and saw a painting. I said to myself oh I need to finish this painting for my brother. It was a giant basketball with purple and other colors around it. I went downstairs and saw my brother and a few other people. I then noticed he was painting a painting that was exactly the same as mine. I then tried to correct him and say you need to make sure the brush stroke is better down here so that it fades better. As I showed him what I talking about.

Dream 4
Not lucid

I was at a neighborhood that reminded me of my grandmas house. There was a group of twenty of us about and so we split into two teams and made a candy bake off. One group made Valintine hearts but they were all super hot and people got addicted and couldn’t help but eat more.. My group on the other hand made things that looked like skittles and had a berry taste which made them not addicted to the other candy anymore. My grandma walked up to me and said she wants me to move in with her I said that I couldn’t as I was soon moving in with my fiancé and would be no point living with them for a few months. She Said to hear her out so I did and she was saying how it would be free to live there and its homemade meals but the catch was that they wouldn’t put up with any of my nonsense. I thougth to myself about what nonsense she was talking about and just got upset about it and said Im not going to live with you if you think I have nonsense.. and I left .

Dream 5
Not Lucid

I was with a group of people in a school like building. I went into a room and several people hiding in there with haloish armor on. I asked them what they were doing but they didn’t respond. I thought oh we must just be hiding from somebody so I went and got behind a fan and a few people came in that dressed like me and came and sat near me. The door then opened and a man came in and said okay lets begin the meeting. Everybody stood up and walked to some seats and sat down.

Just staying in the habbit of writing dream entries but here is all i can recall from last night

I was in a room of some kind and was in a bed with two ladies one was older and the other was suppose to resemble my mother but it didnt look like her but i felt like she was. The older lady next to me kept saying she wanted to do it as she hadnt done it in 20 years and forgot how to. She hopped ontop of my and was taking off her shirt but was asking the lady next to me if it was okay with her if she did this. I was like this makes no sense at all....and woke up...

i d rempt that i took bayley for a walk neaer daniel petersons old house.. when we were there this like entire school was working outat his ohouse. every sports team was in there it was pretty crazy. thhere was this mexican guy with really strong legsandhe could squat like anything. apparently he was in a music video with some other stupid fucking rapper.

anyway....bailey passed out on the ground and i thought she was dead so i picked her up and fcarried her home. i tried to explain to my mom she was dead my mom didn't beleve me and sure neough she was right and bailey came walkking throuh the house. then we got into argument and i yelled at my mom and woke up

No supplements.

Bed: 1015

I woke from this lucid around 130, pretty early for me to have one. I didn't recall for long or take notes on it since it was really just another shorty. So I am trying to remember all of this first thing in the morning. It actually messed up recall of my non lucids since my mind went right to the recall of the lucid.

I was in a kitchen and I don't remember if I was in the refrigerator or not yet. I remember doing a RC on my hand and I think a refrigerator door may have been open, but I really only remember the lucid part. LUCID: I studied my hand for a bit and tried to get the dream a little clearer that way. I ended up reaching into the refrigerator to get a piece of bread that was sitting on a shelf. I studied it looking at the pores. I actually kept thinking to myself about waking up and if I was going to wake up, then would mentally tell my stupid dream self to stop thinking about that. It was a battle of wit with myself. I didn't spin out right away however since I was trying to focus on the slice of bread. I was looking at the pores and nooks and crannies. It was not really focusing much to my surprise. I don't think I really did a good job of this last night. Anyways I took a bite of the bread since I don't ever remember eating anything while I was lucid. Really it was just a bland piece of cardboard, not really any flavor. Shortly after a couple of chews I was out of a dream. I think this was towards the end of a sleep cycle but not positive.

Not great but another lucid none the less and I think I extended the time of this one by about 10 fold of the last one.

I can't recall the logistics of all of it, but pretty much I was in a holiday house with a friend I haven't seen in years. J and I were at the beach and we didn't really get much done since we were only there for the day. I remember packing up to back home when we saw a live video feed of a sharp hunting a bison in the sea. While packing up a was rambling crazy things about sharks and their ability to maneuver in the water. I finished packing up and we walked to where my dad was going to fetch me. I grabbed a red bull on the way out. My friend and I joked that we hardly talked. He let me aso him a dew questions and it turned out that he was studying electrical engineering at Wits and had a contract with an American company which allowed him to go work there occasionally. As we were crossing towards the parking lots there was another shark attack along with a crocodile attack on the beach. There was chaos on the beach but I finally reached my dad.

The second dream revolved around me being at a concert in my junior school. I was sitting in the hall and watching with my friends. I moved from the front of the hall to the back where I could sit alone as there were only 2 seats. Later however, there were 4 or more people alongside me talking to me. I remember Damian fighting with me while we watched. The guy giving the presentation was talking about controlling water as an element and I had hoped he would give me the lecture slides. There was more to this dream which I cannot recall.

My third dream took place in my current house. The dream was complex so I can't completely put all the pieces back together. I was dating Rita from Dexter and she had suffered a huge loss such as losing a child. We were in the kitchen of the main house with an older woman and a young fat girl. Somehow the conversation switched to.the relationship between Rita and I. I tried to dodge the question but the girl became more vulgar and imposing each time she asked it. Rita ran out the door through the rain to the cottage. I followed her but the scene changed completely. I was now in my brothers cottage. People starting getting home and also coming into the cottage. Robyn came in along with my brothers girlfriend. My brother eventually got home and started talking about gym. I noticed he had 2 hats on and found that strange. He took one off and.threw it at me. After talking for a little longer I woke up.