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This one is pretty fuzzy, and I only remember a few flashes other than a part near the middle that I remember better. I remember something sexual towards the beginning of the dream, but only a few brief images. Then there was apparently some villain, but that's really all I remember.

Near the middle of the dream, I was in my house with a large fishtank in front of my fireplace. My cat Trixie was there, along with another cat we had gotten that looked identical. We apparently had just bought two more that ALSO looked the same, but these were specially bred "aquatic" cats. I picked them up out of the carrier they were in and put them into the full fishtank, where they started swimming around underwater, breathing just fine as if they were fish. Trixie and the other normal cat were curious and pawed at the glass. I eventually took the cats out and let them run around the house, but then I got confused and mixed up all the cats. To fix it, I just said Trixie's name and she meowed. My mom, my three little cousins and I just kinda hung out with the cats for a while, and we played with what I think was a remote control helicopter. That's about it.

Some clowds were in my room and they fell down from the seiling. Thought its strange and made RC. remembered about easter egg - summon it under the stairs. I took it and put on the table. It was with some picture. I opened the eggshell and there was ordinary boiled egg. I cut it to explore wat was inside - ordinary boiled vitellus. I gave up the egg and tried to remember other tasks but couldn't.

My gates were opened and i thought that its so strange... i made RC. Thought to transformed into a dragon again. summon pills in my pocket. There were 4 pills and i put them in the mouth. I ate two and must chew others. I felt the transformation. There was a big mirrow and i went to look at myself. I was a woman with the lizard head. I thought that partial transformation is also good. I flew away and was flying above the sea and suddenly landed on the bank. There were some guys and i went with them to cafe.

So I was in it in a way. It works like this. You have to parkour and fight at the same time. The enimes are all medival like with the power of aura and such. You get whatever you want though. Anyways it looked like mirrors edge without all the red-white-ness. You walk up circular stairs, using bars andpipes as shortcuts which you will need to use to reach the boss in time. So yeah it was a bright silver color and sunny feeling when cloudy. There's fog too. There's also traps, one of which I fell into. It loked like a minecraft mod. So yeah. There are freindly and hostile spies that are difficult to distinguish, but when one almost gets me, I get saved twice. So yeah, Super jumping was fun, but I dont remember much else.

Everybody has their off days, right? ;D

Dream - fricking titles how do they work
so let's see

I dreamed somethin' about Granny getting adjusted to bein' in an old folk's home, which is a IWL thing. Bummer, dude. But the interesting bits that I remember aaarreeee~

- reading the titles of books on a bookshelf, which is cool (indicates a good amount of detail)
- gettin' mad at my bro and calling something of his or maybe calling him a "stupid retard" or "stupid retarded" or idk, I felt bad right away and woke up feeling bad and then went OH WAIT I can just go in the other room and apologize in person! and then I was like wait, no, I can't ;-;

there was tons of other stuff but EH. lately my dreams haven't had as much uhh, presence? not so much me making the decisions. I wake up and don't even remember that I was in a dream, which is kinda sucky. geez, what do I call it. I've had dreams where I wasn't lucid but I was still present; maybe not enough to reason out or remember that I'm in a dream, but enough to carefully choose what I'll do next. and other dreams I'm just on auto-pilot and it's irritating. hrmph.

Time to catch my DV up. I gotta be more consistent

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2nd
Morning - Nothing to see here
Afternoon Nap - I was well hidden at the edge of a wheat field. This edge must have been at the top of an incline because I was able to peer out over top of the next area of crops. I felt as if I were waiting for someone/something to show. I definitely felt as though this was special ops stealth mission. (really seeing how the halo novels are seeping into my dreams).

3rd
Morning - Nothing to report

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4th
Morning - Another mission it seems. I had to diffuse a bomb. But in-order to do so I had to seek something out. My mode of transportation had been by helicopter. I can't remember much else.

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In my first dream I was a test subject for GladOs in an Aperture Science lab. I was going through all kinds of trials and tests. Suddenly I see Desirae and I know I'm getting rescued. Glados gets disabled and we think we won. Suddenly, she starts getting her control over the facility back. I started telling Desirae to hurry up and to help me pack. We went to the elevator where we would escape but rooms started changing and the room that we came from became some stairs. I ran into the elevator and Desirae was still packing stuff I told her it's now or never and she was still closing the last briefcase so I grabbed her hair and pulled her in right before the elevator doors closed and we started descending.
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I was in Belen running back home. I was running pretty fast. I was roomates with Katey. She went off to work and I was with a few animals and had found my laptop. I went to sleep and had a dream that I was lucid dreaming. In the dream, I was in an arid desert as a young deer or elk. I started hearing more elks appearing and I suddenly know I'm in the death realm.I hear someone say Cesar is coming and I think it's my uncle. I see another elk and ask why he's here and he doesn't wanna answer. I ask again and he gets mad. I say sorry it's my first time doing this and they tell me I can't be looking so young and so they transform me into a bigger elk. I ask something else and wake up to my dream. I rush to my laptop to write my dream down but there's animals all over my backpack where my laptop is so I yell at them and they move. There's someone at the door and I answer. Suddenly Lieutenants and Captains are doing inspections of the house. It's pretty dirty. The Captain then turns into an elk and starts mowing the front lawn with his antlers. All I care about is remembering the dream so I could write it down.
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I was in my house and talking to Desirae. I ask her if she wants to have sex but she says no that she's gonna go have sex with someone else. I get mad and ask her what she means. She says that she doesn't want to have sex with me but instead wants to go to someone else's house and have sex with them. I get even more upset and tell her to leave and I'll have sex with someone else too. I leave and go to a lake on some plains. I see on the news that there's going to be a meteor falling and a news agency from Venezuela is going to record it. I go along with the news agency and we hop on a homemade boat. We go into a place where there's a lot of shanty homes and downed planes that say something about Atlantis on them. We see a plane take off from under water. We sail around waiting and looking for when the meteor is going to fall. I was with a fat lady and the news reporter. I remember the water splashing on us and it tasted gross. Suddenly, we see the meteor coming in. We record it and it lands and we see it glow as it enters the water. I say it's probably about 20 feet or around 35/40 meters. We go towards where it landed and then the fat lady jumps in and grabs the meteor. It turns out it's bones of a small animal. The bones run away and jump into the water so I grab them again. We decide to head back so we park the boat near one of the planes and start climbing up the shanty houses. The bones suddenly turn into a white rat and Shaniqua. I put shaniqua into a container so I can throw the white rat to the house I need to jump to, where a few people are waiting. When I get back to Shaniqua, I find out I microwaved her for a few seconds. She seems confused and stupid.

Journal Entry Lucid #19 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I slept early, grandma woke me up later around 9. I then gave her medicine and went to bed.

Dream fragment 2 time 9:20pm-unkown"":
I was using a Ipad app that can let you zoom on the earth. I zoomed in and I see the city then the road then I zoomed in and i see a network of more cities and more roads. I zoomed in infinite times and I kept getting more and more. I was no longer using and I pad but my hands. I thought this is strange and I realize it was a dream.

I realized it was a dream. I ended up in one of the cities that I zoomed in at. I started rubbing my hands. I see this military general. He pointed at me. I started pointing somewhere else to distract him. It worked he looked away and started walking away. I thought haha it worked now I could go do what I want. He turned and said, "wait a minute, get him!" He commanded his tanks to point at me. I knew they were no match for me and I didn't want to start a dream war. As a tank started driving towards me. I flicked my hands aggressively and it exploded. I started flying and I saw a lake. I just wanted to compete task so I started flying away. They have already declared war, but I didn't want to fight. I see a higher ranked general show up and he hand shook the other one. I flew down and tried to shake his hand. He looked at me and I woke up The dream was in more details but I got up recalled my dream and went back to sleep without writing it out.

Journal Entry Lucid #18 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: So this is a second LD on the same night. I did a wake back to bed. I think I went to sleep around 3 o clock and woke up around 4 close to five. Well I ate some food, banana PB sandwich. I then meditated for ten min before going to bed. I had some weird dream where I tickled a lizard and it transformed into a monkey. I awoken briefly and went back to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from time: unknown"":
I was in the UK or I thought I was. I sat next to a car to listen to a monk teach, I don't remember any of this part though. I hear someone talking. I thought I need money to get back home. I looked for an ATM. I found one but I realized I need a card to do a transaction. I see a lot of people from my Calc III class walking around. The ATM machines turned into a test taking desks. I see people on the computer. I went back to hear the monk's lectures and he was no longer there. I see people taking test in the dark. I looked for head of administrator of the test so I could take test. She told me to wait and told her students to turn off their computers for us so they won't distract us. They turned it off. The flat screen tv, the computers. She, I will call her head women, took a selfie with her students. I over hear these guys talking about a movie they finished. One guy said, "wow could you believe the ending?", the other responded, "yeah what a twist in the plot". "she got killed in her dreams and she died in real life". This man popped out of nowhere and gave head women an apple, black ugly apple. She ate it. The movie people said that is exactly what happened in the movie. She realized that she was dreaming and she was about to die. I thought that is strange it would most likely be my dream not hers. I started backing up. She looked at me and said it is your FAULT. I kept backing up and I see a group of girls that opposed her, they claimed to be on my side.

I now completely recognized that it was my dream. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize my dream as the girls fought each other. I didn't like all the negativity, and I wanted to use my new superpower telekinesis. I tried to levitate a girl, nothing. I tried again but this time I didn't doubt myself and she started floating. I was in a t-shaped hallway. I took off my shoe so that I could have a stabilization point. I felt the cold floor and it helped stabilize the dream. I then turned around and saw all theses people fighting, all girls btw. With a gesture of my hand flick, one at a time they levitated, about 15 people. I kept flicking my hands and they all levitated, even head women. One girl defined me and floated back down, I said uhh uhh uhh and I levitated her back up. I was happy that more than one person/object can be lifted and can be individually manipulated. I then wanted them out of the hallway. Very gently i opened the door with my mind and took them out.

I see these guys at the end of a hallway and one guy threaten me. I said let's make a lesson out of him. I see a bunch of male rushing out of the room scared. I was in the middle. I stopped everybody at once and levitated them. I saw that I was doing harm when I saw two guys in crunches struggling. I gently lowered them. I couldn't find the guy that threaten me, so I took everybody out of the building gently again. I then went inside and saw a scared man, big bearded man. I thought I could kill him, but then I changed my mind because it is a dream so why should I kill him. I then started flying I doubted myself for a split second and fell, slid across some Japanese building then I gained my flight again. I then remembered what I wanted to do and there was a park right next to me as well. As I was flying I hear a beautiful song being sang. I felt my eyes tearing up as I thought about death as such a beautiful thing as this. I started singing along and I went to the park. Since I didn't stabilize again I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #17 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:10pm-12:53am"":
I was being transported by a sponge bob mobile. At first an actual mobile than I was just flying. It felt weird and euphoric. I see houses, I see mist everywhere. A little sprinkle of water was falling from the sky. And somehow it clicked.

I realized it was a dream. I awoken in my house, grandma's room. It was still night time. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize the dream. I hear a voice say, "One thing is real to you". I thought real? what like the spinning top from inception? I felt like it was talking about my RC and stabilization technique. I walked to the living room, I see my dream grandmother praying. I wanted to feel loved, so I went and hugged her. She tells me you didn't sleep at all, you should get some sleep. I kinda laughed at that in my head, I thought if only she knew what I am now capable of(since it was a dream). I then went to the garage. I see a huge fridge in the middle of the garage. I thought I could turn that into a portal. I wanted to go see Morpheus in the white room to practice telekinesis. I opened it and I see this hot model chick in Alaska or somewhere cold with a beer can the size of her body, like the advertisements. I closed it right away as to not get seduced.

I then remembered all those failed attempts at telekinesis because I want Morpheus to teach me. I then thought I could practice here. I turned and I see my friend TO. He was just observing me. I extended my arm and pointed at an object. I cringed and flexed my muscle to make it levitate. Nothing. I quickly got the doubt, by telling my self to imagine it as if it was easy. I then extended my arm and pointed at the backpack. It just floated towards me. The feeling was strange, it felt like the object was an extension of my arm. I felt the object; back and forth, up and down were just like moving an arm. I then turned and saw a luggage and I wanted to pick up two objects. I felt doubt that I could do it, but I said I could do it and it floated with the flick of my finger. I had two objects floating independently. I started moving one forwards faster than the other. I noticed my friend looking at me. I thought for some reason he is noticing that I am losing lucidity. I started rubbing my hands, of course objects fell. A female came inside the garage and she needed help putting on a glove. My friend looked at me as if I should help her. I thought I get a lot of help from DC, so why not. I go up to her and I started putting on the glove for her. It was a very strange glove. Green highlights, futuristic looking. While doing this I thought this happens a lot before I wake up, distractions. I woke up.

I fell back asleep around 8:30 am. And I had a dream that I was seemingly no longer an alcoholic but able to have fun and party if I wanted too. Then the dream spun into a divergence of reality and obvious non reality- my hallway filled up with water and the bottom dropped out to make it a short pool. I stood looking at the water, feeling a negative presence. I looked up and saw a demon that had black eyes and tried to say something to me but in anger that I was being deceived I yelled at it to go away. "You are a deceiver!, You have no control over me! Get OUT GET OUT GET OUT!" "YOU are Simply a thing of my mind- NOW DISAPPEAR!" And I blew it into dust with my mouth. I then wanting to prove to my self the utter silliness of the situation belly flopped into the pool, and the water felt like condensed air but not wet like water and I levitated myself a few inches from it. I realized the significance of the dream- that I could speak out, when before my voice would become muted and I couldn't hear my self shout. I gained some sort of power this way, mental or spiritual in some way. Between this and the next dream sequence I tried to wake my self up but I couldn't pull myself through to consciences and saw my physical body trying to separate from my spiritual body. It was not going to happen so I let myself slip back into dreaming. Next I remember realizing that I had been on some sort of wild drug and alcohol binge that I could not remember. I had sewed the sides of my arms like I had been sutured for a wound. I realized that this was bad, that I had been completely gone mentally when this happened. I went to my husband and said I know something happened but I cannot remember using or what I did what did I do? He explained to me that at first I was happy and energetic, almost crazy- thinking I could fly and making sounds like a jet engine, then it turned dark. I closed my eyes and I could see flashes of memory almost like circus posters first of the fun and manic episode and then the darkness that took over. He shivered and said that it was something special I could do that. He then said he would remove the stitches from my arm- my father called and I woke up.

I was tossed head long back into the insanity of a nonsensical dream seemingly out of nowhere.

I had two dreams last night. In the first I was Joseph Stalin, talking to Khrushchev about how he will have to be more communist after he succeeds me. I was in my (not Stalin's) house, and Khrushchev was in the hallway next to the computer room. I went to go grab a red star-shaped pin with a sickle and hammer from a box in the living room. Most of the pins in the box were a gold colored castle or something similar, but I found three of the star ones. I gave one to Khrushchev and I gave him a red short-sleeved shirt with a white sickle and hammer on the left breast. I had found three of these shirts, and two of them had something on the back directly across from the sickle and hammer. One had an emblem that said "Christians concerned about communism" or something like that. It had a cross in the middle of a lot of lines outlining a circle with a thin crescent near the bottom.

In the second dream I was in surgery. I was in a small room with about three doctors there. They wore blue clothes and masks like usual. I was wearing a paper gown. My dad was in a corner reading a magazine. They gave me some anesthesia, and dad asked if I could hear him. The anesthesia started to work, but then it subsided. It was an uncomfortable feeling, like something is gently pulling you up while you are going numb, but you don't want to go up. Because it wore off, they had to give me a stronger type before they started surgery. I had the same feeling, except that it didn't subside. As it got stronger I woke up.

4.4.14 Friday

Last night, bed 10:30 - 7:10

Miserable last 2 days IWL. It showed in my dreams on those days. Proly worst dreams ever.

1. My dad is trying to rape me. He gives me a big wet kiss and he holds it forever. I finally break free. My mom is asking what's the matter. I'm so mad, I can't even talk. I finaly whisper it to her.

2. I'm back at home. My mom has a stroke. I wanna call 911, but I know their emergency numbers a fucked up over there and i never know which one to call. Mom hands me a piece of paper with a phone number. She wants me to call an old coleague, who still works at the hospital. I call and get through and I'm telling this man to send an ambulance, mom had a stroke.

3. I'm visiting at home. I came for only a few days, which I only now realized. My best friend is visiting. We spend whole days together. But there is a drama at home. No clue what about. But it made me forget that I have to go back. I'm looking at the plane ticket and I think the flight was today. Turns out it's tomorrow, but I'm not sure, because can't find out what the date is. I feel like shit because I don't want to leave my friend again.


Last night:

DR
I'm on a bus flying very high up in the air. We watch some birds flying around. One looks like like a large black crow. The other one is very similar. Bit larger, skinier, and feathers in wings have wider gaps. I think it's maybe a Thunderbird.

Somehow I have him on a leash, or he gets snagged on some rope and I end up with the other end in my hand. I pulling him gently closer to the open doors of the bus, so we all can get a better look. I don't feel right about doing it.

As he gets closer to the door, he pulls stronger. He gets close the white curtain that's in the door. I want to let him go and I hope he will not get tangled in the curtain. As I let go, the curtain wraps around and the bird is falling. I can hear his screach all the way down. I hope he will not hit the ground.

Little while later, I see something in white wedding dress, that looks like the curtain. It's the bird getting merried. They wave to us and we wave back.

DR
I'm in a camp. Lots of kids. I'm one of the adult councelors. We are deciding what to do for the evening. I suggest hod dogs, beer and a movie. The like the idea.

I have been drinking Kava at night for about 3 months. It blocks alcohol cravings which is wonderful. It also blocks lucidity it seems. Last night I had a dream about my ex Mother -in-Law who takes care of my son most of the time (ugly ex story when I was too young to figure out how to advocate for my rights as a mother) It was most definitely a stress dream, not a lucid. I found out she decided not to bring him for his yearly month long visit and was beyond angry. Where I told her that she had made the wrong choice and I was going to talk to my lawyer and have him reinstated to me. She then disappeared and I couldn't find him and she was no longer a person but some sort of a shriveled up, sick spirit hiding from me. I never got the issue resolved in my dream.

I had my first lucid dream last night! Woo hoo! I was sitting in this cafe when it dawned on me that it wss a dream. I then made the dream more clear by stomping my foot on the ground, and used all the methods I know to stabilize a dream. Then, I went outside, where I spent a few minutes trying to fly. I finally started to levitate, and then I flew out over a city. After flying for a few minutes, I woke up. It was really fun though! I'm so glad I was able to do it.