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April 3, 2014: I and my crew are one of two factions aboard an airplane which is lost due to someone intentionally scrambling the original navigation start position and then making large, frequent unrecorded heading changes. I trust myself and my crew, but not the other faction.

We fly past a deli I recognize and I think I know where I am, but I’m not sure since the direction of flight is still unknown. I want to sleep but I don’t fully trust anyone who might be awake to make decisions or notify me of any maneuvers or position fixes made while I sleep. I wake.

March 26, 2014: This is the last fragment of a longer dream which I can’t remember: I am with a group of five or so people in a crowded place which seems like a street fair, outdoor festival or concert. We need a place to stay...but everything has already been booked. I say to the group that my wife has a place nearby, and we are suddenly there. The woman who plays Bernadette on the Big Bang Theory TV show barges into the ground floor apartment/condo which contains a bunch of things that a male occupant might have in his room, only no one is there at the moment. The door is evidently not locked, and Bernadette enters the apartment. One of the many things the male occupant had in my wife’s apartment was an abnormally long automatic assault rifle, which Bernadette comes out holding/wielding like a professional, but without firing it at all. I wake.

March 23, 2014: I am the driver of a car with two passengers on our way to a hobby shop. The hobby shop is located in a strip mall. I make a right turn off the road intent on going around or past a gas station, as I am not interested in filling up. Somehow, I end up at a gas pump in the gas station anyway.

I get out of the car to tell the black gas station attendant I don’t need/want gas, but he already has the filler hose in his hand so I release the gas cover lever/lock and allow him to put gas in.

Now we are in this hobby shop. My friend Mal S. is the proprietor. My companions and I spend some time in the hobby shop and I leave with several objects in my pocket, one of which looks like a sleeve of electrical wire staples with black plastic insulators which I think actually belongs to one of my companions.

Next, I find myself “at home” but it is strange and not altogether familiar house. My companions are gone, but they left on numerous lights in various rooms. I purposefully wander from room to room and shut off the lights, which all seem to shut off normally in response to their various switches, including a bedside table-lamp with the old-style brown plastic cylinder that you push “through” the bulb holder from one side to the other to operate.

I walk through the house after shutting off the bedroom lamp and I am chewing on a black plastic zip tie like a farmer with a piece of hay in his mouth. I wake.

March 22, 2014: I find myself in a comfortable medical setting. I have just referred someone to the doctor in whose office I am present. I am in the company of a somewhat obese Hispanic female. I am undressed, but not ashamed, and we speak while I get dressed. I do not have to search for my clothes, they are right there, and I step into my underpants, which are more like board shorts.

They want me to go see my own doctor - I’m not sure why. The unseen doctor seems friendly and concerned that my visit to my own physician will make me anxious so they offer me a prescription for a new, mild sedative with which I am not familiar. I say no thank you, but if they give me anything, I’d like Xanax. They are willing to give me a prescription for only two of the Xanax pills, which is fine with me. I wake.

#305 - DEILD - 6:00AM

I awaken around 5:15, try to DEILD but fail, and have a really strange NLD. I awaken from that dream feeling really alert and mentally stimulated. I know that I probably don't have much time to LD and worry that this G night will be a total fail. I quickly quiet my mind and focus on relaxing my body while I take slow deep breaths. With each exhale I feel more and more detached from my physical existence. Before I go too deep, I notice my body is in an awkward position and I am slowly able to adjust without losing any progress. Looking back I wonder if this was my dream body or physical body. I go back to taking deep breaths while focusing on relaxing my body and soon I feel the vibes.


I am now in a lucid dream state and I have my typical OBE feeling. I am able to look to my right but its all dark void. Suddenly I see a light source but it totally engulfs me and I turn away. I am unable to transition or move so I focus on walking then running then high speed inertia. The feel becomes so intense that I have to stop. Next, I visualize walking in my living room and also immediately I find myself there. I see a very disorganized version of my house. There are huge piles of denim on the couches and the dining table is in front of the TV. There are random objects on the table but the thing I note the most are the cats casually lounging on it. Everything is really unstable and blurry but I recall all the stabilization techniques Wurlman and I talked about in the Lucid For Life podcast over the weekend. I focus on the feel of the table as I walk around it. I stop and pet Stella. I look at my hands, clap and even slap myself in the face once. All this seems to have helped greatly so I stop and look around a bit more. I think about going outside but I feel like the dream will collapse if I try it so I decide to linger inside a little longer.

When I look toward the kitchen I feel a presence there staring at me. I shout out, "Who's there? Show yourself." Nothing happens so I move to the kitchen but when I do it darkens out as if the presence there wants to remain hidden and unseen. This causes the dream to become very unstable but I focus my vision on the living room and re-stabilize. I see a book case full of old NES game cartridges. I become interested and pick one out. I look and see the movie picture of Fievel Goes West on it. I read the title out loud and see "Fievel Goes Japanese". Then, "Japanese" turns to "Japanapedia". I let this last word roll out of my mouth feeling amused.

At this point I partially wake up but am fully locked into SP. My impulse reaction is to fight it but I relax and focus on DEILD. In an instant, I am in another dream scene, standing on the porch of my parents old house. I feel compelled to enter and when I do find myself sensing that same presence as before. I can feel it's eyes on me just watching. It doesn't seem evil nor benign but I am highly annoyed. I feel intruded on and want to discover who or what this is. I rush to the dining room where I sense the feeling is coming from, but as I get close the void over takes me and I find myself in SP again. As I begin to DEILD and wait for the next dream I am suddenly pulled back into physical existence by the sound of the alarm.

Dreams I had this month or a month ago that I remember.
#0
[Dream training]

I was in a room with students around me. Than I left them to go to a invited party with my family. My brother and my mom and I entered the room. It was filled with tables with food on them. I was like yay! I wanted to eat some dessert with strawberries. But I saw that the foods were rotten and old. So I was like why are there old foods here!? My middle school teacher from years ago was assisting with the party and said something i don't recall. Than that's when my brother said that putting rotten food out was a stupid idea. That's when i began walking and saw a tall young man say to me. Hey, I remember you. i remembered the guy from a pizza dream of mine. He was so tall that i was like woah. Than jumped holding on to him. Than I let go and left that scene. I was taken into a small room where i was told my assignment was to get out. I looked behind me and saw a bear standing on his feet. I tried to trick the bear by telling it that there was food somewhere else and he left. Than I jumped way up onto something. I saw string and climbing material on the floor. I was high up and was told my next assignment was to get down first. There were other girls beside me trying to win. But I manged to get down first and won. After that I woke up I think....

#1

[The scary girl]

I was dreaming something I don't remember...than I walked into a room where it was a rectangle and there were tables around. A middle aged man offered me some wine and I told him no. I don't drink wine. Than I ran out the room and started walking. That's when I felt like someone was following me. A girl was behind me and when i got in the middle of the room I could see a girls picture on the floor. Than she started to laugh in a evil manner. I moved quickly and ran up some stairs. I could see a dark room with a figure of a person inside. It scared me so I ran again and the girl started to chase me. Saying I would never get out. When I was running through the hall I saw a room where there was a man who looked like Abraham Lincoln butchering a person on a table with two others. The girl cried out I would never escape. But I flew and tried to get out through the walls and I did. I tried to get on a train i saw but I was pulled back in the building. So I tried to fly through the roof. When i touched the roof and the girl was right behind me i appeared on my bed. Couldn't move until I tried to wake myself up and i did.

#2
[The stomach stab again...]
I appeared in a narrow long room with a red carpet after exiting a bathroom. I could see a picture of a blond lady with a pony tail. A voice spoke like a news reporter saying that Jenny was in trouble of being chased by bad men who wanted to kill her. I than proceeded to turn than walk. I could see a boy in a wooden seat. With a cup of clear blue water to his side. He wore a mask of that troll face picture i see on the internet and there was a small blue fire like thing floating above him. Another voice spoke saying "This boy waited for God and died from a terrible sickness." I was kind of scared than so I tried to get out the building but that's when small childlike Goku from dragon ball gt came out of no where and grabbed me. Than I felt someone stabbing my stomach. That's when I thought of my old dream with the little girl who did the same. Than a voice spoke saying I wouldn't escape. But I managed to escape goku's grip and that's when i woke up.

#3
[Ending to a dream]
I was at a school walking in a line with other students. When suddenly a huge guy from the line grabbed me than threw me to the floor. After that he stomped on my head. I could feel the pain in my dream. Than i appeared on my bed and a dark figure grabbed me and threw me under the bed and started beating me. After that i woke up and I was shaking in real life at times. So I started playing the 3ds to feel better and felt better a few minutes later. I've never had a scary nightmare like that. But I think I had that dream cause i was focusing on my head a lot the current week. Since sometimes i get anxiety when i see scary stuff on the news...-w-

#4
[In The Library]
I was in the Library with my sister and my nephew. There were other people around doing their own business. My sister turned to me and asked me to help her find a book for my young nephew. As I looked I saw a little girl behind my nephew. I than knew that I was dreaming and felt that she was the girl who liked to stab my stomach. So I said to her " get away from my nephew!." and she disappeared a bit. My sister came up to me and asked what was wrong. I told her we have to get out of here quick. That's when people started to leave the library like it was closing down. So we began to leave but the little girl came up to me and was telling me not to go. I said get away from me! as i followed the crowd through the hall. She said said she wouldn't let me. So I was like I believe in Jehovah! I don't believe in ghosts. And that's when she let go and i reached the outside. Outside i got on the bus but suddenly a boy ran up to me and said something i don't remember. I said no! Just leave me alone!. Than he said fine! I'll never bother you again! and left. On the bus I saw a girl crying for him in the third person and than saw words on the bus floor which looked like a song or poetry. Saying something about missing somebody. : P

Friday night 4/11/14

Some sort of apocalypse
zombies? inside a one-floored building
escape building with friends
into parking
lot cars on fire?

nighttime
get in car and try to drive off
one exit, missed it, stuck in a corner
get out of car
monsters chase us
I have a type of flail to fend them off

Saturday Night 4/12/14

Fragments:
in the west
hunting down next targets
django like feel
fun dream - wish i had remembered more. only remembered it today

Sunday Night 4/13/14

Dream 1:
in my house/room
saw a vacation trip online
tell friends
they dont want to go

i play music
i sing king of leon's "sex on fire"



Dream 2:
not sure if apart of one, but had a separate feel

In a neighborhood- small streets, no cars, kind of poor
accidentally reported an instagram post of a stretched out jerry seinfeld's face on my phone
messaged her because i felt bad

she responded saying not to worry
she also had written some poor english as a translation from korean

i wanted to speak with her face to face
went to her neighborhood, very close-by
saw a house that was build to look like a cat, more korean written on it. (not her house)

transition into night
neighborhood felt like a laser tag arena or something, a maze, movie set, large game board, some sort of contest
remember a PA system coming from the ceiling
statues of humans ( felt like monopoly peices) holding real popcorn bags

her house was kind of high on a hill in the neighborhood
tried to climb up it
wanted to give her something
part of the set broke off that i was trying to grab onto to climb up

her father and her came out of the house
dad told her to stay inside?
she fell down the set into a crevice

i was blamed, but i quickly forgot
wanted to grab a bag of popcorn from the statues' hands
others wanted popcorn too, was a race

Dream 2(?):
In church, brother was there

church ends
drive home
was sunday night (like irl)

brother talks about cat girlfriend got, how to bring it up right
old man says some broad comment like usual, thinks hes smart
brother agrees but isnt rude

I'm tied up in a chair, and this guy who was interrogating me is now struggling with another guy who wants to get me out. The guy on the rescue mission was carrying a needle, and during the struggle, the contents of the needle wind up getting sprayed into the air - they're behind me at the time, so I don't see it, but I can feel the spray, and I don't hear them fighting anymore.

The guy on the rescue mission's been captured. It turns out he got a small dose of the contents himself during the fight. This will cause something that we refer to as 'hunger', and he believes this is something he'll be able to use, to focus on his enemies. Having experienced it myself in the past, I know he's mistaken, and that it'll make it more difficult for him to think clearly.

We're both taken out of the building. Outside, we're in a junkyard, and there are a few men with guns escorting us. The guy on the failed rescue mission is starting to have a hard time walking, and one of the guards is shouting at him about it. I'm remembering a time in the past when I'd been out of it and he'd carried me. I'm aware I should do the same for him now, but I don't. I don't want to be associated with him.

Switching to third person, there's a kid watching us from a distance, out of sight. He leaves, gets on a computer and reports what he saw to a woman who I think of as the mother of my POV character, though she looks too young for it - long brown hair, upper-class British accent. In the kid's report to her, he mentions a "guy that you call the Judge" who's holed up in the woods nearby.

4.14.14

Hell week is behind me (both jobs ridiculously busy, to the point of it not being fun). I'll still be getting up at 2am to get to work by 3, but I'm hoping for normal or close to normal sleep time. As long as I figure out how to go to bed at 6pm.

Last night, bed 10:20pm - 7:40am

DR1

I'm in a huge at least 2 story house. We are expecting a nuclear attack, so we are making preparations. Me with some kids are getting some built-in closets ready with blankets, aluminum foil?, testing the doors and stuff.

I'm suddenly sensing that an explosion went off. I'm yelling at others "It's happening, it's happening"! I'm ushering them into the closets. I know we have very short time till the shock wave gets to us. But I'm mostly worried about the heat and that's what I'm hoping the aluminum foil and blankets will protect us from. Even if there will be inferno all around, even in hallways, we hope to survive in the closet and not get too hot to die.

I know I'm on borrowed time and the heat and shock wave can kill me at any moment. My whole body is tense and I'm prepared to die. But I have to finish putting people in the closets. I'm also grabbing 3 cats and putting them inside, but they are getting out of there, being oblivious to the danger.

We are all in the closet and we are shutting our eyes tight as not to get blinded by the super bright light of the explosion. Even so, the darkness is getting brighter and brighter and I'm worried. I put my hand on my eyes and it's still getting brighter.

Quite intense dream with lots of emotions. Not much fear at all, more just an urgency to get everybody to safety without regard if I make it or not.


DR2

I'm at work. I'm new here. It's some kind of a high/tech office building. I'm walking through our supply room. I't huge like a hangar. Lots of windows on the right hand side.

Lots of boxes stacked up. There is one column of cardboard boxes taller than others. It's like 3 stories high. I'm amazed, how can it stand without falling over. As I'm walking back towards the entrance, I see a ton of other supplies and even large equipment. Lot's of it is suspende or stacked up in the air.

I get a bad feeling about an earthqake and I speed up. I'm getting kinda freaked out now thinking that this is really not a good place to be during an earthquake.

I get outside and I'm walking on the ground floor by the main gate. A tall and skinny column made out of styrofoam is holding up some smaller roof. But it felt down and someone is trying to make it stand up and support the roof again. he is doing it wrong and the styrofoam column snaps into 3 pieces. I pick them up and I'm helping this other person to put the support beam back in it's place. But as soon as I pick them up, this other person runs away, leaving me there holding the pieces, which makes it look like I did it.

Now I'm inside in the lobby. There are a few desks with at least 2 receptionists. I'm deciding which one to tell about the snapped beam. I pick one of them and I don't wanna rat anybody out, but with her questioning the truth comes out, that someone else broke it and I was just trying to help put it back.

Then we sit in the lobby in comfy sofas and chairs and we are talking and joking and laughing and I think to myself, how nice it would be to have a friend like this. We are leaving now, everybody is putting on dark long winter coats.


DR 3
I'm visiting OP. She is not as tall as I remember her? We are walking and talking inside her place and I kinda feel intruding, unwelcomed. I say that I had poured some glasses of vodka. She doesn't say it, but I learn somehow that she has a cold and fever and stuff. So I say we don't have to drink, I don't like vodka anyway.


I'm glad my recall is good. I know it fluctuates so not really upset over dry spells, but it sure does feel good to remember. Thank you.

NON LUCID
*Liz was talking to somebody about how she throws away old food over her balcony. I thought that she really disgusting.

*I woke up and realized that my girlfriend was about to take a shower and that I needed to get to work soon. So I made a cup of coffee hung out for a bit which seemed like ten minutes. Then came up with the idea that I should smoke of cannabis before work just so I can enjoy myself. I never been high at work and wondered what this would be like plus I was in a really good mood. I took two hits from the bowl and started to feel really good. I thought wow I don't this much being in the bowl. Then it hit me I need to wake up. I guess you say I had a moment because I woke myself up to ACTUALLY go to work!

*Something to do with a huge office building.

April 14, 2014. Possible WILD. A fairly long LD, considering how I normally wake up in a few seconds.
I'm in bed. I do the nose plug RC and I can breathe. I remember my promise to just focus on stabilizing, and I do so. I feel the room around me and try to focus just on that. I actually look around the room this time. I have some trouble with the eyes, and am not sure whether I opened my dream eyes or real eyes. At some point I just close my eyes and look through them.

My bedsheets are blue and white. I think there is a desk and a bookshelf. The balcony is still there. I rub my hands and walk outside. There is snow on the ground and on the balcony. The snow is crisp and cold. I start to jump off the balcony but remember that I'm not doing any of that this time. I move back inside my room. I decide to look for Dream Drops and a remote. I look down at myself (which I've never really done before) and find that I'm wearing a white dress blouse and black pants. Concert attire. I feel around my pants pockets but they're empty at first. I'm like "come on, I know I have a dream drop somewhere" and roll my fingers around my pocket until I find one. It's a red gummy candy. I eat it. It tastes like strawberry. The vividity of the dream slightly increases. Not sure though. I can't find a remote control.

I hear the vacuum cleaner running outside, assume that my brother is using it, and decide to go chat with him. I leave my room, but there's no one in the kitchen. Must be in the waking world, then. I go to the living room and see a guy's top hat underneath the window. I poke my head through the glass and say hello. He says hello. He looks like one of those Jewish guys who live in the neighborhood.

I ask, "What's your name?"
He says, "Henry."
"Henry?"
"Harlem."
"So, Henry Harlem, then?"
"Yeah."

I feel the dream slipping away and try to focus back on the dream environment to no avail. I awaken to the sound of a vacuum cleaner in the kitchen my brother running on a treadmill in the living room.

I'm choosing some flowers to bring home, but every time I collect one from the grass, it withers in a second.
I think I'm really bad, as I should take care of life, instead of ruin the grass, so I come back and put again the flowers in their place.
Amazingly the flowers stick again to the grass and they seem happy to be back.
But then a pitbull comes and eats them.
I try to chase him, but he starts to chase me. So my dog comes and as she is fighting to keep the pitbull away from me, she communicates mind to mind with me and asks me to go and buy a 'blank pistol'.
I go and in the meanwhile I also buy just one shoe with iron heel.
When I get back to the fight my dog already won, so I put her the leash and we go home.

Yesterday afternoon, I watched the movie "Waking Life". The main character uses his watch to tell if he's dreaming, so I thought I could try and do the same. I always wear an analog watch and I spent the afternoon checking it for any clue that I was dreaming. Unlike all the other reality checks I've done, this one tranferred into my dreams on the same night. Only it was weird because all of the analog clocks I checked in the dream behaved normally, so I didn't become lucid. I'll put a lot of emphasis on the timing, since it was impressingly accurate. Well, here goes the dream.

I was in my Genetics class, last period before lunch, and it was almost time to finish. I glanced at my watch to see it was 1.55 pm. Now, since I live a while away from my University, I need to get the underground and then the train to get home, and because I only have a train every hour, I go out of the class a few minutes before 2 o'clock.

It was 2 pm when the class finished. I knew I had to run if I wanted to make it to the train, so I hurried. Once on the underground, I got off a couple of stops before mine, assuming I had time to go to a swimming pool there was very near. I don't know why. When I got into the pool, I checked another clock, another analog one that was hanging on a wall, and found it was 2.15 pm (the train is due at 2.18). Freaking out, I looked for another clock, and in this second one it was 2.10. I assumed the former was wrong, calmed myself down and told myself I still had time (it would've been impossible to make it to the train either way, but we all know how dreams work). I also thought if I was to lose the train, I would spend an hour in the pool waiting for the next one. I came out of the pool soon afterwards and the dream finished.

I woke up at about 5.30 am. I've got used to waking at this time, whether or not I have to go to class. I wrote down my dream (so, it wasn't a false awakening) and then went back to sleep telling myself "next time I'm dreaming, I'm going to realise I am dreaming". Next thing I know, I'm startled by my sister's alarm clock. We share a room, I'm a light sleeper but it takes her forever to wake up, so when her alarm goes off, I'm always startled. After waking, I lied back and tried to remember the last dream. I only have a vague memory of being spinning around in an attempt to stabilise the dream, as if I had been lucid. But nothing else.

I only have one question: do analog clocks behave normally in dreams and so RCs can only be done with digital ones?

4/14/2014
9:12 AM

Over the past few days I’ve been having a number of lucid dreams.
Friday:
I went to bed at around 4 PM. I started having a normal dream, but after a while I realized that I was dreaming and decided that I wanted to wake of. I sat up in my bed and did a nose reality check which passed. I thought “I’m dreaming! I can do anything I want to now.” I felt dizzy and woke up immediately after.
Saturday:
I fell asleep at 11:00 PM. I had a bunch of LD fragments that night.
In the first, “I woke up” and thought, “If I were dreaming, I could float right now.” I floated, but, being the fail I am turned upside down while floating! Lol. I then woke up or went into my next dream (I don’t really remember the transition for any of these.) In the second, I floated again. I went up a little high, fell fast, but at the very end I fell slowly. In my third dream, I was typing something into my computer (a google search to be exact) but the letters kept getting mixed up. That’s how I knew I was dreaming, and woke up right after. Note that for all three of these I was in my bedroom at night and I felt dizzy. I also have a memory of opening my closet and trying to get to a beach, but I’m not sure which fragment it was from.
Sunday:
I went to bed a little past midnight. I started dreaming in my kitchen. My mother had woken me up to do something, and a man we knew was sitting in the kitchen, along with my dad. I looked at the clock on our stove and noticed that the time said 2:12 AM. I thought “Wow, I had no idea I woke up so early.” I glanced at the cable box for our kitchen T.V and saw that the time was different. I thought this was odd, so I looked back at the stove and sure enough, the time was messed up. I felt myself getting dizzy again, and knowing that this meant I would wake up I stopped moving and let the feeling pass. (I read guides on dream stabilization; which helped a lot. I then went to my back door (in the kitchen) and thought “I want a beach”. A beach popped up when I opened it. The water wasn’t clear, so I commanded it to be clear. It then turned into this gorgeous see-through tropical water (it reverted to unclear shortly after). I could feel the sun on me. I saw that some of my friends were there, but I wanted to be alone on the beach. My best friend then called out that she was drowning, so I thought “anyone who is drowning will be pushed to shore by the next wave.” I’m pretty sure it worked, but after that I lost lucidity.

Morning of April 14, 2014. Monday.



This was a very nice and peaceful dream and it lasted longer on average than other dreams of this type, though not as nice and relaxing as my recent tidal wave dreams that seemed like healing sessions as well as this dream did (mostly as water is autosymbolism for REM sleep and the absence of emotion and the release of physical tension). It is very vivid and my dream self is rendered as corporeal, enjoying all the nice giant snakes swimming around in the ocean. There are at least six or seven of them. They move their bodies about in complex patterns, rolling in the water, seemingly enjoying themselves. The head of the black and red one, which is about as big as a car, comes very close to my face and then turns and goes about its business.

I am mostly, at least at the beginning, on a European powerboat. I am not sure if it is around dawn or dusk at first. It may be dusk, as I did listen to the Charlie Pride song, “The Snakes Crawl at Night” probably too many times as a child. “When the sun goes down, then the snakes will pla-ay…” though he was not actually talking about snakes in the song at all, but when you are that young, you do not understand a lot of things.

I like these giant snakes, especially the black and red and purple ones. They are fun to play with and ride around on and are more assertive and confident over normal-sized ones (an association with the movie “Dinosaurus” seen several times as a child, though it was a brontosaurus that the boy rode, not a giant snake), which sometimes just slither off or hide. I am reminded of Cecil, from “Beany and Cecil”, which I used to watch on my older sister Marilyn’s television as a child.

Eventually, there are less and less giant snakes and I assume they are swimming off into the sunset, which is quite beautiful.

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Obviously, not all snake dreams are healing dreams, but the fact that I was lucid in this case utilizes that understanding, as my conscious self identity is inherently extant to a viable degree in such dreams. For me, snakes and snakelike creatures have often been autosymbolism for stomach cramps due to the similarity of the shape and coiling as with the human intestine. However, they are often in more realistic scenarios as simply the waking alert factor of RAS modulation that even monkeys probably dream of as such (and I doubt monkeys ever dream of snakes as healing factors or as representing other monkeys).

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