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Morning of July 16, 2014. Wednesday.



Zsuzsanna and our family and I appear to be living on Barolin Street though it seems more like my Cubitis bedroom inside at one point. There is no fence as on Barolin Street and the house is much closer to the road (Highway Seventeen) than the Cubitis house was, so it is an interesting new composite as is usually the case.

I have this unusual heightened sense of mortality for some reason, especially at one point where I am lying on the bed near the windows. It seems to relate to our bedroom’s closeness to the main road and the steady traffic. However, it also seems to relate to airplanes that fly over now and then. This dream soon seems to be directly influenced and “scripted” by noises outside, including at least two low-flying airplanes.

The airplane in my dream is flying south (assuming Cubitis - but north if assuming Barolin Street). It is fairly loud and seems to land in an area of town I cannot fully see as it moves down behind the buildings, though it does not seem to be landing in the right area. I hold the anticipatory impression that there will be a crash landing. Even though it is likely in the distance, perhaps two to four miles away, there is an explosion that affects all of the cars on the road just outside, which are also all going south, the explosion’s repercussions being like some sort of domino effect. It is unusual in that the airplane’s explosion seems to mildly threaten our house with debris or fire even though it is supposedly far away. Not only that, each and every car’s engine explodes very quickly and smoothy in a series (south to north) and yet not a single person is hurt. They just get out of their car and look around. Of course, they cannot drive their car anymore at this point. Only the one part of the front of the car looks a bit damaged or different, in some cases, only larger and more squarish.

This scene repeats a little later but this time with a little more detail. It is almost as if this happens on a regular basis since we seem to know what to do in going into a different room in the house for a short time. After the explosions, I look outside and see all the people standing near the cars (all on the right side) and very similar minor damage to each front, all cars in an even row, equidistant, and all similar models. After I wake, I hear an airplane flying overhead after a short time in reality, thus there is not much to this dream other than RAS mediation triggered by real low-flying airplanes - even though it would otherwise be typical autosymbolism related to vestibular system ambiguity, which is why I also typically “expect crash landings” in the dream state regarding subliminal associations with the usual waking start or falling sensation as such. Additionally, the people on the right of their car relates to waking symbolism most often being to the right.

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+ sliding down a super steep sandy hill to an ocean beach where I walk out to catch a glimpse of the special lobsters and get attacked by gangsters. I'm standing at the top of the hill observing the beach/ocean and wondering if I can get down this hill. I run/slide down and decide it's not so hard. I see the water and the shore and wonder if I should swim diagonally from the point near me to the far side of the shore, or just walk along the shore, which is faster, I see a diagonal path through the water. Out on the rocks in the water on the far side of the beach I see two special/prized old lobsters. Some thugs get angry and jump me.

+ jumping through windows in a restaurant avoiding/fighting thugs. I'm indoors and looking for a way out, I see a window with a screen door over a sink, I hop up open the window push out the screen and do a front flip out of the window.

+ the sterling silver tea set is on the ground outside the garage door where anybody could steal it, I move it inside the garage and make space for it. What was it doing outside, anyway?

+ a girl has the remote control for the satellite launch, it takes a few circles overhead before it's pointing the right direction and heads for space. It's about 1 meter square and full of tubes and space-y looking things.

+ (movie?) a guy is talking about the alien raining-fire attack, he hid under a low platform but his friends were only two wet spots left on the ground because they didn't make it in in time

+ The movie theatre interrupts the movie before the end to announce someone lost a watch, everyone in the theater has to help, I find it, I see a patron dressed up as an alien with boobs on her neck. It's a fairly normal looking and sized movie theater, it's still fairly dark inside when they interrupt the movie it's not entirely clear if it's finished yet, we're looking for the watch, I bend down and peer between various rows of seats, against the left wall of the theater I see a watch on the ground, it's a ladies watch with diamonds in the face and a diamond studded band, I hold it in my hand and look for an usher, I find one and give it to him. I see people sitting in the theather, including a woman with an alien costume which is a strange neck attachment making her neck look very tall and impossibly thin in places, she pulls this down to reveal two magnificent breasts, one on each side of her neck, I look at her a few times.

+ Standing in an outdoor area, I walk right up to the tall, beautiful star, who is standing to the side by herself, she is one of three beautiful stars (of some program?) and boldly kiss her for a while. I take her upper lip between mine and just feel it there for a while sort of moaning in pleasure, it feels absolutely fantastic, I wake up with my pillow between my lips I want to DEILD and just relax and re-enter the dream but non-lucid:

+ re-enter dream and now she's furious with me, she walks into an outdoor restaurant and complains about me to her friend, I see her yelling and pointing/gesturing towards me, when her friend glances back at me I give her a cocky wave, maybe I can get with her friend instead, they stay inside and sit down. I float through to the front observing a strange woman served on white cushions, she demands that everything served to hear is super sterile and clean. She is sitting / lying on a white couch to the right of a round table, there is a mirror image of her or another woman to the left of the table, a round white cushion with beige circumference appears and she moves to sit on top of that, I'm hovering above her looking down she stretches out on the couch with her feet towards the top and some pills appear on the couch in a pattern, she sweeps them up and swallows them.

I'm back in the outdoor area and encounter the tall beautiful star again, she's wearing different clothes (a nice tight clingy sweater?) she's not angry with me, I kiss her again lightly a few times and decide to move on before she gets angry again, and say "I'll see you later," I'm going to look for one of the 2 other stars, I see one with another guy she seems crazy/mad so I decide to move on.

+ I'm walking in what seems like a lobby of a movie theater or a casino-carnival, I wander into a room with tables of clear plastic-topped packages of food like caviar (orange and black, on bread), I pick a package up and keep looking around, I realize this is a corporate party and it's not my company, I'm concerned someone will notice I don't belong and kick me out but nobody does, there aren't very many people, I see a woman at the front seated at the table preparing some of the dishes, some of them look like big pans of beans and I say "mmmm". I eat the caviar. I'm walking around the lobby and see an advertisement for a "bourbon bar" and think that sounds good but I can't drink because I'm driving. Farther along I see a huge open carnival area with people playing games and making lots of noise in the distance (sort of like a Circus-Circus play area with lots of game booths). I hear/imagine a booth is a girl booth where you can win some girls to take back to your room.

Walking back I pass a booth with two pale naked Japanese ladies writing around and touching themselves, there is a totally white/pale man there he's the game organizer, I see long hair on the body of the girl to the right but realize it's just hair that has come loose from her hairdo and is lying loose on top of her body, I see the girl on the left is "wide open" and apparently using her fingers.

Non-lucid
Lucid


First dream I had during the night was a dream of me scrolling the DV forums (wish I did a RC then) and after that I woke up

Second dream, I went roller skating and saw a guy I know from school in it, one thing I noticed was that I was EXTREMELY short as well. Somewhere in the dream I went off with some random guy with long sandy blond hair, talking about something whilst walking amongst beams and ropes. During our walk, he managed to slip and fall and broke an arm.

Next, I appeared in a massive house, I had a pet tiger who didn't look like a regular tiger, he was fat and round and had a head was the size of a boulder and he often growled like a dog. Somewhere during that part of the dream, I got upset over something (can't recall what) and I started seeing copies of the same person and I thought they were stalking me.

Later in the dream, someone gave me a tour of a room where they head heaps of pets (from cats, dogs, a pelican (who was super aggressive). Next I was in my front room of my house with heaps of birds and somehow ended up in my room. I went to turn on a light and it lit up some kind of billboard hanging on my wall and I thought, that's not what the light is suppose to do, tried to do finger through hand, didn't go through, but as soon as I plugged my nose and breathed out

"I'm dreaming!" I think. I stop myself, since I became a little excited and my dream started fading. I shouted "stabilize!" but the dream faded out

Woke up in my bed, with my laptop sitting there (false awakening), thought that can't be right, did the nose plug again-

- I became lucid again. But as soon as I plugged my nose and became lucid, I started falling into nowhere. I saw text flying past me, then it went grey and I just kept falling and falling, I tried to concentrate on teleporting somewhere by imagining a door to the Great Hall in Hogwarts, I even tried demanding vocally "take me to Hogwarts!", which didn't work so I thought what else can I do in a lucid, jokingly thought sex, then a sound of a voice message being activated intruded my dream with someone starting to talk about sex and I thought "I don't want this" and I felt myself losing lucidity as well so I forced myself awake.

Woke up, and saw the remains of my dream being sucked away right before my eyes at the speed of light. It was a failed attempt at controlling, I'm still unsure if I dreamt of being lucid at one point, but I definitely became aware at some stage. The only good thing is that I managed to get a RC into my dream, which is something I'm quite proud of. It means I'm getting there . Will try again tonight.

A large group of people, including me and my family, are going to battle. We are on a cliff, and far below us is a rapidly flowing river. Across the river on a cliff opposite us is the enemy. I have several wooden spears which I throw with all my might, but fall short of their destination and into the water. Frustrated, I pick up a bow and arrow. I have trouble loading the arrow, so I duck down for protection as sharp objects come showering down around me. Soon I am ready to shoot, but I never get the chance. A dark, strong man whose face I never get a good look at is on our side of the cliff, even though I know he is the enemy. He's asking around, and looking for certain people but I don't understand why. He finds Hiro Nakamura (I was watching Heroes last night), and starts stabbing and slashing at him with his sword. Hiro's terrified screams leave me paralyzed and unable to think. This happens to be a very inconvenient moment for my mind to go blank, because the man stands up and walks toward me. He stops right in front of me, and looks down. I realize I'm the person he's looking for, but when I deny it he turns to my sister. He draws his sword, and when I realize what he's about to do, I rush over to her and beg the man to take me instead. I can't let my sister get hurt; especially not because of me. His response to my begging is, "You'll do." His words bring me relief, and then horror as I realize what's about to happen to me. He makes me lie on my stomach and then I feel the sword cutting through my arm. The feeling is not painful, but more of a cool, tingling, burning feeling. I decide that the knife must be so sharp I can barely feel it. It's still not a pleasant experience at all and I'm relieved when the man leaves. I go into the bathroom and start speaking french. A lady is in there, and gives me a funny look. The bathroom is bright, neat and cheerful with walls that are painted red. I see a mirror in front of me, but I don't look into it because I don't want to see my injured arm. I worry that if I see the extent of the damage, then I will start to feel the pain that should come with it.

#336 - DILD - 1:30AM

In this LD my recall is really bad and my lucidity was in and out. I really struggled to remember what I could. Plus about an hour before this 3 times from dreaming about some dreaming study and having a since of duel existence. I woke up nose plugging and slightly panicked.


I am at my cousin Jared's wedding. I am a groom's man and we are getting dressed. I have a tux on but I can't find my shoes. It turns out that no one ordered them for me. Jared is super pissed off that I'm not ready and I'm pissed off I don't have shoes. I rush around trying to find some that will work. I am about to run to the store but Bill Cosby talks me out of it and we decide on some shoes I find laying around. Once I begin to feel better, I realize my cousin is already married. I have a lucid moment but the dream goes nuts and I am fooled by FA

I am on the docks near some type of small wooden ferry. There's this African American couple there. The man is telling the woman about how he quit his job, sold everything, and gave up religion to be with her. The couple shares a joint but after each hit their lips look odd like they are pulling apart briefly. They kiss and start doing some tribal dance. The woman takes off her shirt and I watch her spin her nipple tassels around. I feel awkward about this and have a lucid moment again but the dream shifts and I lose it.

I am sitting in some room with Kid Cudi and Spencer from work. We are passing around odd looking vaporizers filled with weed. I hear the song "Just What I Am" by Cudi playing. Some of these look like parts from work and I gain lucidity for longer than a few seconds. I think that I had some goal in mind but I can't recall it. Not know what else to do, I decide dream weed might really be interesting. I ask Spencer for a really big hit but both men seem hesitant. I also have to pry the strange vaporizer from Spencer's hand. I take a long deep hit and let it out. I am surprised how little vapor I see exhale. Almost immediately I have a deep psychedelic experience as the scene fades and swirls away. I say some mantra to remember to maintain lucidity as I let the dream change. It doesn't help.



I am standing in a kitchen with Bill Cosby and kids help cook a meal. There is talk about about meeting Claire Huxtable. The overall premise is that Clair is to be the new step mom. At some point this re-ignites lucidity and I am excited to summon Clair but the name I use is Chloe. I turn around and rush outside. It seems I was cooking in a small diner not the Cosby's kitchen. As I make my way outside the large glass pane windows, the dream starts to fade a bit but I fully expect to see Claire. I turn and see her standing there smiling at me. I take her hand and rub it for stability but it's not working. Darkness seeps in and her arm stretches into something inhuman and vanishes. There is brief void but I don't wake. Again, I am fooled by FA.



I am in the living room talking to my wife. I say to her, "I met Chloe Huxtable. And you know what? She's really nice."
My wife replies with a playful but sarcastic, "Uh yeaah." I wake up.

I felt this LD was weak and unfocused so I went ahead and did a caffeine WBTB. I don't recall anymore lucidity but I did have an eventful NLD.

Long story short... I was fighting a demon like I was John Constantine. I had a magical old woman with me and she was able to turn weak ordinary play weapons into something that would work against the demon. I found a cheap toy bow and around and with a "blessing" she turned it into a magical gold weapon. I find a piece of bamboo and it changes accordingly. I only injure the demon but now I see that its just a possessed old woman. The magical holy woman tells me that Jesus cares for all and want to bless this woman. I hold the possessed woman tightly and say things to cast out the demon. Part of me wonders if the demon is trying to trick me so I stay on guard as I speak the name of Jesus.

No recall. Just some vague fragments. Something to do with my cat bringing an animal into the house and me trying to catch it.

Dream 1
Recorded at 9;00am

I'm at the end of Blaxland, near Roberts house. I may be with someone not sure. I either say out loud or think about, this is where Robert got his rape on, jokingly. I lift up the concrete pillar which is covering the hole to a sewer. As I lift the concrete pillar if breaks in half. I try and put it back together how it used to be and hope that it wouldn't cave in if someone was to walk over it. I push into it to see if it could handle my weight but it starts to cave in. It's now in multiple pieces and can't be fixed. I still try and put it back together as well as I can so people that are walking will know there's a hole underneath the broke pillar.

I'm walking back to Blaxland house and I see my brother in the distance, he's walking towards me and has something in his hands. He is taking it over to Rita and Bruce's house, which isn't in this street In RL but is in this dream. I see my cousin Jackie walk over and my brother has a short convocation. They were talking about something that happened earlier between the two.

Dream Fragment
Recorded at 4:40am

On the UG forums and someone has made a thread that will probably get deleted due to rules and regulations.

Side Notes

I awaken to let the dog outside and am up for about 10 mins. As I go back to sleep I add SSILD to my routine. I don't get lucid, but the dream seems a bit different then normally, not sure what it was though.

Today I slept throughout many shorter and longer phases, until this morning I actually became lucid in a dream, pretty much right at the start, used the nose pinch reality check.
I was in a long corridor, and as typical for my dreams the building style was rather unique, while I remember the feeling and the looks, I'm not really sure how to describe that. What can say though is that it was rather dark and there were green colors around, with light primarily coming through the ceiling from the outside at one end of the corridor. I also remember my girlfriend being behind one of the doors, but there was no real interaction. I stopped for a moment, and closely thought about what I should do now, and I came to all the right conclusions I long since had in real life, YES, FINALLY!
Well, I went through the corridor, I think away from the bright spot, into some kind of staircase room, there was a small window at the sloped ceiling which I wanted to open so I could fly outside where I would do my stuff.

Just that right here my friggin alarm rings, because of my apprenticeship, and it rips me out of the first all around promising lucid I had in 2 years. I can hardly express my anger in words, and I shall not try for the sake of keeping the cursing in bay.

July 15, 2014

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I don't remember any dreams, again D:
I had vague impressions of fragments when I woke up, but had forgotten them already by the time I was awake enough to write them down.

Non-lucid
I'm with Kendra and Karim. Kendra's wearing a gray hoodie and has blonde streaks in her dark hair. We're all talking and enjoying ourselves. I must have said something because Kendra got incredibly mad at me. I've never even seen her mad. She yelled at me. I walked away in fear. She rushed after me, and pins me up against a wall with a pipe. I cower in fear. She gets close to my face. I squirm, and escape her grip.
I run into a building, all the way to the top floor. I can hear her coming for me. I open a window. Hanging between the building's rooftops are green sheets pulled tight between the buildings. I grab one and climb across to the other building's open window. I begin thinking about asking Drew when he saw the movie "Submarine". I don't dare look down. I climb through the window and look back. Kendra's at the other window, seething.
Then, I wake up.

Non-Lucid
I'm in my living room with mom and AJ when a commercial for "Wolf Children" comes on TV. It mainly showcases clips from the snow scene. It showed them howling. It was dubbed in English! A better dubbing than the original English! "Why are they redubbing it in English?" I ask.
"Why are they only showing the snow scene?" AJ asks.
"I like this one better!" I say. "Let's go get it!" I look at mom; she smiles and nods.
The scene cuts to a mall. There aren't that many people around. I'm standing at the entrance to the store that sells the movie. Before I go in, I look back at mom, who had fallen behind.
I go in without her. There's a long, windy hallway I walk through before I step into a small room.
It's decorated oddly. There's a case with a glass front and a chair behind it, but that's the only normal thing here. In the corner directly across from the case is a glass tank built into the floor. A half-capsized rowboat sits in the smooth water, not creating a single ripple. Fake waterside plants line the edge of the tank and a partial tree looms above that! In fact, fake plants practically fill the room!
I found it fitting seeing as Wolf Children features a lot of nature. I also think it's creepy, as an alligator could call this room home.
I walk to the case and peer in. Sitting upon other things I didn't care about, was the movie. I grabbed it, and started to walk out when I noticed a chubby, balding, bespectacled man in the doorway, slowly walking towards me with a creepy grin on his face. I easily walk around him. The man follows me down the curvy hallway. He's catching up too!I quickly run out into the mall with my prize in hand. Mom catches me and says "Let's go." worriedly, as if she knew a creepy guy was chasing me. I look back to find him in the doorway. He's not smiling any more, now he looks angry.
Then, I wake up.

Okay guys, last night I had quiet a clear dream which was really detailed.

1. Premiere

I'm with some friends standing in a cinema and it seems the whole school is there too, we're watching a new film that just came out and I'm curious which film it is. I look back and see a large sign: "THE EXPENDABLES III", what follows is a conversation with my friends. (little back story, IRL about a year ago when I was returning home from a week in England with school we saw the film 'The expendables II' and I joked with a friend about how silly and predictable the story was.)

Me: "Really? Man remember last time we watched one of those movies? It sucked!"

Friend: "Yeah, it was so bad... I can't believe we're watching this again."

Me: "You know, I bet the story is going to be almost identical to the first two."

After that we got inside and we took a seat, the room was enormous I'd say it was a football field wide and deep. I sat next to my friends somewhere on the left side high and I noticed my mother sitting some rows behind me. I acted like I hadn't seen her and tried to do things that might impress her, like having a talk with some of the teachers or something. Suddenly a teacher stood up and gave some of us a heart, it looked like a piece of grilled chicken and had it in my mouth before I even knew what it was. When he said we had to dissect it I took it out of my mouth but half of it was already bitten away and I felt ashamed I wouldn't be able to impress my mother.

2. The clean up

I'm somewhere in an office building and know that I've done some bad things and the police is behind me. I think I was involved in a shooting with the police before where an officer was killed but my friend had shot him, he was gone and the police thought I had killed him. I run around and get in a small office without windows and a single computer against the wall. I don't know exactly what I did but I think I was trying to clear my name of any convictions and evidence before the police would arrive.

I think I will set my alarm one hour earlier tomorrow as I now can sleep quiet quickly and I think I need a bit more time for techniques like SSILD/WILD/DILD and falling back asleep again in the morning. Alarm will be set at 06:00.

Good night everyone!

07.15.2014

We're Apparently NOT Going to Church (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting on the front lawn of someone's house with my dad and a bunch of his friends. They're all drinking and acting stupid. It reminds me of King of the Hill, so to pass the time I assign each of the characters to one of these men based on personality.

Suddenly, an old woman walks up to the very front of the yard near the road. She pulls down her pants and begins to pee. "Oh, no," I exclaim, turning away and shielding my eyes.

"OH NO!" the men echo. They jump up and run away.

Shaking my head, I stand up and walk in the general direction they scurried off to. On the way, I come across my aunt. The tone of the dream completely changes here. Despite the fact that my aunt seems estatic about something, there is an unsettling atmosphere that I can't quite shake. "I just saw your father!" she tells me.

I suddenly remember that my dad is dead. How was I just talking to him? I have vague thoughts about it being a dream, but for some reason I don't seriously question it. My aunt tells me that she believes God has sent him here so that we can see him again. Since I don't believe in God, or at least not the one she believes in, I'm a bit more skeptical. "How do you know it's really him?" I ask. "What if it's the Devil?" I don't believe in the Devil either, but I do believe in dark spirits and I want my aunt to be cautious.

"Pfft! Why would he be the Devil?"

"I don't know. You said yourself that the Devil likes to try to hurt people."

We walk over to where my dad is standing and begin to talk to him. "So," I begin, "What's it really like out in the great unknown?"

He grins. "Oh, it's a real tea-bake," he says with a laugh that makes me think he's referring to something inappropriate to annoy me.

I stare at him blankly. "I have no idea what that is."

He laughs louder. "It's a lesbian joke!"

I have to refrain from face-palming. Is now really the time for this kind of game? "No, for real! What's it like?"

"Okay, okay. I'll tell you." He pauses and tries to look serious. "The Night Team and the Day Team run around shooting each other with Nerf guns!" He laughs at his own joke as I groan in frustration.

"Why can't you just give me a straight answer!" All of this seems exactly like something he would do, but I'm still not 100% convinced that this is really my dad.

We've been walking as we spoke. There are other people walking with us now, people I don't recognize. I assume they are my dad's friends. They're all crying at the sight of him. I haven't been paying attention to where we're going, but now I see we're coming upon a small white church with a long line of people outside the open door. I think I ask where we're going.

My dad says, in a weird run-on sentence that confuses me, "Guess where we're not going to the chur-uurrch!" The last three words he says in a somewhat creepy sing-song voice.

Bewildered, I repeat, "Guess where we're not going---?"

He interrupts, again in his sing-song voice, "to the chur--uurrch!"

The unsettled feeling I've had since coming across my aunt grows even stronger. I can tell that something big is about to happen.

But suddenly my alarm goes off and it's time to wake up.

So I may have accidentally altered my perception of time when I am awake to be the same as the perception of time that you have when you are lucid. Long story short days are going by like minutes. Anyone know how to fix this?

Quick note: I think I have been using MILD as a dream incubation technique, and that using it actually causes my dreams to be weirder, as well as inserting elements that are meant to be incongruent. For instance, focused on the statement, "I want to be lucid in my next dream" and fell asleep. First thing, a friend of mine approaches with a book on "How to be lucid in your next dream." I promptly ignore this information and proceed along my non-lucid path to delusion.