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I started out nonlucid, and I don't remember what I was doing before all this started: I was walking down some sidewalk in some neighborhood on a really sunny day, when something breezed past me on a bicycle. I looked to my left, and saw him turn to look at me briefly and smile before continuing on. He had to be like 8 feet tall, and gorgeous. Oh hell yeah. I started after him, but lost him. He zipped around the corner. I didn't see this part, but he got off his bike and started walking down the street. Only now instead of 8 feet, he was over 50 feet tall. And resembled a cartoon Homer Simpson. His feet thudded as he walked down the block, parallel to the one I was walking down. He didn't seem to notice me, but he morphed into a couple different gigantic forms before settling on a 50 foot naked black woman, stomping around this one house. I was suddenly filled with this urge to fly up and smack her on her shiny brown butt cheeks lol. As I flew upward, I realized I was dreaming!

I immediately landed and remembered the task about asking a DC to tell me a word in a foreign language. A young boy appeared, and I asked him to tell me a word in a foreign language. He said something garbled, and I asked him what it meant. He looked at me with a huge grin and, shaking his head, he replied, "I do not know!" I asked him for another one, same answer. So I flew off and found a young black girl sitting with her mom outside their house. Funny, it was night time now. I asked her for a foreign word and she said something that could only be described as tongue and throat clicks. I asked her what that meant and she said, "Go the way of Jesus."

I thought of the eyeball task right after that, and thought about going into their house and finding a bathroom mirror for the task. But before I went in, I decided to recap the basic task so I'd remember it better when I woke up. It was a good plan and a bad plan. I took the time to recall it, but then woke up before going into the house. Oh well, next time

August 04, 2014

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All I remember was that I was going to my grandpa's old mansion (he sold it a few years ago) for a grand party of some sort. I was with my mom and dad and brothers, in the car on the way there. We had been staying at my grandpa's other house on the edge of town because it was less crowded. I remember that I had this gorgeous red dress, and my makeup was perfect, but when I looked at my reflection in the car-door window, I noticed that my hair was a fracking NEST. It was so messy. I frantically tried to fix it, but nothing was working.

My mom told me it was fine and that no one would be looking at my hair, but it was SO noticeable. It's not like I'd worn the wrong shoes, which people really wouldn't have seen, because my dress was floor-length. It was right there on top of my face, which people would be looking at. I was mortified as I walked through the front doors, and then I woke up.

1. I was outside, at some kind of air force base. I was standing near a building/hangar next to some military guy. I looked up at the sky and noticed it was deep yellow/ dark orange in color. I had been talking to the military officer for a few minutes about something, but I dont remember what.
Just then, I head the sound of many aircraft engines high above me. The sound was extremely loud and startled me. I looked up into the sky and saw 4 or 5 giant planes flying over. 3 of which had an odd shape to them. These 3 aircraft had only 1 wing and had to shape of a regular airplane, but cut in half. It looked perfectly fine however, like it was some type of new design. The other 2 planes were regular cargo planes, but huge in size still. At this point, I thought something was wrong, and I thought that maybe a war was starting or that we were being invaded. I looked around and thought everything too vivid to be a dream(Dang, just missed it!).
I thought about the situation that I was in, but I still thought that it was all real. The officer I was standing next to told me to go inside. The sound of the plane's engines above still roaring in my ears. As I went inside, I recall going into some sort of commercial waiting area, it was like an indoor hangar, but commercial. The place was filled with people, some of which I knew. I walked around for a minute and my dad appeared. We chilled around inside. We both walked over to a small jellyfish tank inside. As we stood next to it, we noticed something inside of the tank that my dad said we should take out (I dont recall what it was). I then picked up a very small white rod/string, and it was really thick and had the shape of a carrot. It was really thick on one end, and thin on the other. I stuck this in the tank in order to distract the jellyfish and attract them to my rod. The plan was for my dad to get whatever was inside of the tank while the jellyfish came to my rod. As expected, the small light purple jellyfish swam over to my rod. When the got right up on it I accidentally dropped the rod into the water. The jellyfish got into a group and picked up the small rod and dragged it to the bottom.
At this point, me and my dad didn't care about what was inside the tank anymore, and we just watched the jellyfish with curiosity. I noticed there were many small red roses inside of the tank, and they were a little smaller than each jellyfish, which were already the size of the tip of a thumb. All of a sudden, everything inside of the tank started disintegrating, the roses and everything, just crumbling to dust before our eyes. The only things not disintegrating were the jellyfish, just going on about their way. I left the tank in fear, not knowing what had just happened and continued walking around.
I walked into a big, almost empty hanger, which had an interior of all black. I found my english teacher Mrs. Bay standing in a corner next to what seemed like a black roller coaster type of ride. The ride started from inside the hangar and continued inside of a tunnel. I walked up to Mrs. Bay and she told me that I needed to pay for the tickets. I remembered that I had bought weed earlier and knew that I wouldnt be able to buy anymore for a long time because of the expense of these 2 tickets I was about to buy. I bought the tickets and continued on my way.

2.(This might have been an earlier part of the previous dream ^^^^, and Im pretty sure it is, but I dont feel like putting it into the right order anyways so Im putting it down here.)
I was inside the big commercial hangar still, and I came across some type of food table/make you own type of thing. This table had on top of it all sorts of boxed foods. To the left of this table was a cart, which had many boxes that each contained a flavor- just a flavor of something. I remember seeing the flavor blueberry in the cart on one of the lower levels. The employees of this hangar told us that we had to mix a drink of our choice with one of these flavors(wtf). I picked out Sprite as my drink, and I wanted to mix it with the flavor Sprite as well(lol) but I knew that wasn't an option. I decided was going to lock in my choice with the blueberry flavoring.
After this I went to some sort of academic part of this building. I went upstairs and saw that there were lockers everywhere. There were also windows at the end of every hall. The sky was still a deep yellow'dark orange and it shined through these windows giving an the same color of tint to everything it shined on. To me it felt like it was late in the after noon, but I wasn't for sure. Somebody had been following me upstairs into this school like area, and for some reason other than that, I decided to hide somewhere in the hall I had just walked into. I told the guy that was following me soon after that he could hide with me, because I knew some pretty good spots. He followed closely behind me. As I walked deeper into the hallway and was nearing the end of it, I decided to hide behind a small pillar that was on the hall(like a part of the wall).
To my surprise, a girl was already hiding there, and she was really cute. I looked around and all the other students that had been hiding in this hallway popped out. There must have been at least 15 students hiding in places in this hall. I said hi to everyone and with there being no other places to hide, I suggested to my friend that we hide inside of the lockers. Some other students had already done that, but there were still plenty of lockers that we could hide in. These lockers were huge, maybe 3 to 4 feet wide, and a few feet deep. I opened one up(<<< lol One Up), and as I was about to get inside and close the locker door, a really angry man came into the hallway -who Im assuming was a teacher- and saw all of us.
He told us, "Those who feel that the shouldn't be a part of this- leave now!". I got out of the locker and started making my way back down and out of the hallway. As I walked past the angry teacher I saw him yelling directly into the face of a student next to him. I wondered why no one else left when he basically gave us a, "get out of jail free" pass, because only I, and maybe 3 or 4 other students left when he did.

3. I was inside of my house, and in my downstairs living room. Only the kitchen lights were on. As I walked down my hallway about to enter the kitchen, a GIANT pile of weed blocked my way. Im talking pounds of weed. I looked ahead of me and, sitting in a chair, was my old friend Chase Carr. I realized it was him who had brought all of this good stuff over, and he also gave me a bag the size of 1.5 grams for me personally. As I was about to talk to him I heard my dad start opening the back door from outside. I knew I was about to be in big trouble.
I grabbed as much as I could carry from the huge pile of weed in the middle of the floor and hurried it upstairs. There was still alot of the weed all over the floor, but I ran upstairs regardless and decided to let Chase deal with my dad. As I ran upstairs and into my room I looked at the small 1.5 gram bag. The strain inside of the bag was "Sky Cannabis" and it was written on the bag. I took this as "Sky OG' because "Sky cannabis" doesn't exist as a strain name.
I started packing all of the weed that I had brought up into my room into my drawers. I think I recall hearing my dad yelling downstairs because he saw the rest of it that I didn't pick up.

4. I was in a grocery store, casually walking around. I came over to the bakery section and there were 2 or 3 bakers out in buyer section, in the middle of the floor, making giant donuts in these blue tubs. Each donut was the size of each tub it was made in, so only one donut fit inside of each tub. I continued watching these bakers, all of who were girls wearing hair nets. I got up close to see exactly how they were making these donuts.
They would fill each giant tub full of dough, and then they would make a decent size hole in the middle of it. Then they would pour the filling of the donut into this hole. I assumed that after they baked these giant tubs of dough, that they would cut them into smaller donuts, regular size. The baker to the left of the one I was watching up front, had a slightly smaller tub, filled with all blue dough. This dough was deep blue in color, and the baker preparing the tub to be baked was having some problems. Right before she would pour in the filling, her dough would pop up from the bottom of the tub, and the dough was supposed to be at the very bottom before you could put in the filling. Eventually the baker got the dough to stay at the bottom of the stub and she poured in the filling.

Dream fragment:
1. Holly's bf pushing her daughter on billy cart.

2. I'm with Dad at the parkway shops and we are loading stuff into the back of our car. I see Dean's ute park near by. Dean and GGrant walk over and GG says something to me.

3. I can hear eminems music. Myself and brother are In a room.

I decided to start reading Stephen Laberge's book, 'Exploring the world of lucid dreaming' because I think it might contain some interesting things about MILD and auto-suggestion. Also, as I just saw the 100th anniversary of WW1 outside my window on the old WW1 cemetery. Don't know why I wanted to say that but I think it's quiet weird to think so many people died back then at this place.

1. Fragment

I really don't remember anything of this dream other than the bits I wrote down this morning. It had something to do with drugs, me wearing blue clothing and being both awake and asleep

2. Largest cake in the world

I'm in my garage and I have to transport a cake to a certain location, I know it's for the royal family of Belgium because I start seeing the King in some flashbacks. I use my bike but there's one problem, the cake is 15 meters wide and so heavy it nearly crushes my bike as I somehow put it on the back. I have a lot of trouble keeping my balance as I'm driving down the street and after some time the cake falls of. When I put it back on the bike the cake has gotten smaller, it's now 2 meters wide and I can actually transport it now. When I get to the party I don't really know what happens but when the party ends 2 biker/gothic women take some people hostage (including me) and we have to dance on weird music while also wearing these weird clothes... Oh yeah, the house is suddenly filled with nails so walking away would be painfull.

3. Cats on the loose

I'm standing infront of my house and see 5 cats sitting on a row on the sidewalk. 2 of them are my pets and the others I don't know. I quickly grab the two and put them inside but then I notice how most of the lower part of the house is missing. I see it as renovation and think it's normal but then I notice holes in the door I entered through with the cats must've gone through. And a weird man comes to me and says something but I don't remember what.

EDIT: Looks like something weird happened during posting this entry, it doesn't register the comments which I would've liked cause I appreciate the interest of others but it tells me "Acces denied" when I try to like.

Dream one:
Trying to get into a large house that I'm sure is a location I've been to in previous dreams. There's no spare key, mum explains that it's a special key that would cost over a hundred pounds to duplicate.

My big brother is behind me also trying to get into the house. I manage to find a different door and get in, but I lock the door behind me and run around closing a variety of other doors and windows. I don't recall why I wanted to lock him out...

Dream two:
A seemingly endless cycle of trying to get to work on time (or at least no later than I already am!)

Fixing my bike, putting my shoes on only to find the shoelaces need replacing, waking up at midday, desperately needing the loo just as I'm about to leave, not being able to find my keys, getting lost as I run the whole way to work (it's about 25 miles) getting to work and finding it's locked. Really the whole repertoire of rubbish anxiety dream nonsense!

Fragment:
For some reason I'm in a somewhat erotic tryst with a girl who seems to be quite keen on trying to fit me in anywhere except the most obvious option. Not the most unpleasant dream I've ever had, but still a little frustrating

Shame I start only now, when most of it is forgotten. But the lucid was just a mini-moment again - since I RCed - I count it for the comp, but not for my LD-count.

LD #1: Getting lucid at the end of a dream, in a garden, doing a nose-pinch afterwards. Sorry for the unspectacularness of it all...

Going to do a longer WBTB tonight, and really think about how to DEILD.

Dream #1: Also with a garden, but that was not the same dream, it was behind a building I worked in and I went exploring it. I was in search for the cafeteria, and chanced upon it. With some of my beloved ruins to climb through...
The story was about a huge building-complex and me new there to work. But the garden was good!

Fragment #1: At a party with some people I didn't see in ages.

I always seemed to dream more about people from the past - even in that past - like not of my boyfriend, but of before ones, but going on - so not because of me wanting somebody old back or something. Same with friends.
Anyway - I had so much more upon waking - but was frustrated by again just a hunch of an LD - very...

I can't recall my first dream because I didn't write it down. But in my last dream I actually tried getting lucid.(Which I haven't been doing recently) In my dream I was with my dad and he poured a plate of rice I got back into the pot. He said it was cause I ate already. I was lucid at that time and hid behind my dream guide who I noticed in the living room.(Cause my dad started acting violent) I was too anxious though and appeared in SP. I tried to wake up but it failed and a portal opened in front of me. It showed a quick clip of something happening. When it stopped a invisible person tried going inside me. I thought it was my dream guide at first but didn't let it get in me cause whenever that thing goes in me I have a nightmare about a scary little girl. (Although the invisible person felt kind of taller and big cause it sat on me at first)After that I saw a really bright light and everything turned white and I fell into a dark abyss filled with black/gray clouds. I thought I was going to die but remembered reading that when you fall into a dark hole like that you can use it to recreate the dream scape. So I relaxed and thought about a anime setting somewhere in japan. A boy appeared in the abyss and I pointed at him as I was falling. After that I was in a college or store or campus where there was another guy. I followed him out and wanted to see if it was a real dreamer or not.(can't hurt to try) I told him this was a dream and to get lucid but the more I told him he ignored me. I looked around and saw lots of kids around and came up with the conclusion it was a school. I told him I didn't want to come here and as he was looking for something in his bag he said he wanted to go to Japan. I said "Why would you want to go there"? Than remembered I wanted to go to a anime setting that was like Japan. Than I woke up.

On another note, Today I met my nephews puppy and found a sync between I and him maybe.(Not on purpose) A few days ago I had a dream I was in my house with him and a puppy with the same appearance and collar like the one in real life. There was another dog there too but it was not a puppy. It was a small fat dog. XD

A lot of stuff happened, and I had more than one dream, but I think this is all from the same one.


PART 1: I was living in a home similar to my apartment. My 9yo brother and mom were there, as well as another adult and another kid. I can't remember the whole story, but there was some kind of conflict within the family. The final part involved me putting my brother to bed and saying something comforting. I heard my mom go, "STOP," from her room.


PART 2: I was in my grandma's backyard at night with some other guy. He pointed out a big and bright red star cluster thing and said it was Israel (which is a star cluster according to dream logic, I guess) and that it was normally not visible were we were (a city). I thought to myself, I wonder if I can see the Pleiades from here? Sure enough, there was a smaller blue cluster nearby.

Suddenly, and I shit you not, the "Pleiades" start shifting around until they formed a large rectangular pattern in the sky, which proceeded to zoom away. "Holy shit, holy fuck, HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!" I said. I'm not saying it was aliens, but it was aliens.

But wait, I thought, I might be dreaming. I pinched my nose and sure enough, I could breathe. I was disappointed, but my attention quickly shifted to the fact that I was now lucid, and I remembered that I needed to keep the dream stable. My vision became narrow. There were two black bars above and below where my vision was, and I could see my glasses in front of my face. I felt like I couldn't fully open my eyes. I figured I may as well summon a girl while I was "there". It took a few attempts, but I finally summoned one.

My vision returned and the dream felt stabilized. I ended up in a house where two people were going at it on the floor. The one on top (not sure if it was a guy) moved out of my way, giving me full access to the girl. However, I had quite a bit of trouble entering her. No matter how much I tried to manually "open" her, my dream logic porn dick would not go in. I did manage to get inside of her once, but it was uncomfortable.

After that, I woke up, but I took me several seconds to fully realize it.

TL;DR Domestic conflict, aliens, and I finally got lucid for more than fifteen fucking seconds.


I just got an idea. If I were to see a UFO or some other paranormal thing in waking life like I did here, I would do a reality check just to make sure I wasn't dreaming (again, like I did here). What happens to you in waking life can affect dream events. So, if I watch a lot of YouTube videos about UFOs and whatnot, I might dream about them more, thus increasing the likelihood of me doing a reality check and becoming lucid.

It seems like it might work. I'll try this tonight. What do you think?

School Dream 1:

I was at my old high school but it was a University. I was attending some kind of writing class with one of my buddies and we were about to take some kind of test/give a presentation I'm not sure which. I wasn't worried about it though. The teacher asked us, "Do any of you know how to RhymE?" nobody raised their hands but me, odd. "GOOd, do any of you know how to RAP?" These two guys in a corner raised their hands. "GOOD, we will now have a RAP BATTLE". How unconventional, I thought. I woke up.

School Dream 2:

Back at the same school, I was walking around the classroom when I saw these papers on the ground. They had my name on them so I picked them up. A teacher walked over to me and said, "Oh, those are mine". I handed them over. She said that she and a couple other teachers were going to evaluate how awesome I am, well, not in those words but basically that's what she said. I suddenly felt this strong urge to shit, like I was going to have violent diarrhea. I ran to find a bathroom and I saw the men's bathroom next to the women's bathroom. I thought to myself, "If only this was a dream I could go explore the women's bathroom >: D. I wonder if it's the same as in my dreams". I went into the men's bathroom and there were a dozen guys in there shitting violently, poop was everywhere, was disgusting. There were also no stalls, just toilets that were overflowing and covered in shit. I woke up, didn't really have to poo, just a weird and gross dream.

Military Dream 1:

I was at some kind of military convention in a large, domed building. They were preparing us for going to war. We were all given guns and tanks and special, secret technology. Near the end of the convention this lady was making people put on a new eye technology that was supposed to be like google glass but with contact lenses. It hurt when she put it in. She also had a cute Asian assistant that kept flirting with me. I talked with the cute assistant for a couple minutes after the eye technology was installed and I noticed that she had a guilty look on her face. The convention was over and everybody went outside, it was night time, the air was cold and crisp. Street lamps lit up the parking lot with an eerie orange glow. For some reason those lights make me feel uncomfortable. I looked around for a car and noticed that I had no car there. I decided it was time to walk home, wherever that was. These two other guys were walking the same way as me when they started talking about how hungry they were for Blood. It started to snow. One of the guys began devouring the other in the most brutal way, biting his face off and chewing on him while he licked the blood up. The screams were terrible. I started climbing over fences to put as much distance between myself and that bloody scene as I could. The dude that ate the other guy broke into a house and started playing with the owner's dog, he was really happy.


I kept walking until I got to an outdoor mall. There were beautiful, bright, multicolored lights everywhere and large neon signs. Outdoor food vendors, clothing vendors. It reminded me of Hong Kong for some reason, or maybe the shopping district in the beginning of Final Fantasy 7. I noticed that I was turning into a vampire too, it was the eye technology that the woman installed. I looked around and saw a group of other military people that had been damned as well. I joined them. We talked until I woke up.

Military Dream 2:

This dream started in the countryside. There were golden fields off in the distance with a few green trees dispersed randomly. We were waiting for a train to pick us up. I noticed that a lot of my old friends were with me. We were all dressed up in this uniform

They were all cheerful and jovial; joking, laughing, playing. The train arrived, except it was just a really long minecart. We jumped in and it took off. One of the guys lit up a cigarette, another lit up a joint. Some of the guys acted as though they didn't want to be around it so they moved to the other side of this long minecart. Then they all jumped out and started walking on water, I decided it must be ice. They lit their own cigarettes with the water then started running after the minecart. Only one of them made it back, he had been one of my best friends in childhood. We kicked back and relaxed. The minecart began to go under these tremendous caverns. Their interiors shimmered with turquoise and gold. I decided that I wanted to live in one of them. My friend said that he would live in a neighboring one. I felt like I was in a real world minecraft because of the impossible structures and how colossal and magnificent they were. I woke up soon after we passed the impossible caverns.

Lucid Dream 1:

I was getting pretty frustrated at this point because I had been trying really hard to MILD all night long so I decided it was time to go for the sure thing, a WILD. The first thing that came into clear focus was actually the dreamviews homepage. I saw that and then jumped back from the computer and did a little fist pump. Now that I was in the dream I thought to myself, okay now it's time to find a famous dreamer. It was night time but all the lights were on so that was good. The first person that came to my head was Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. (he was a dreamer, right?). So I started walking around my house, asking random people where martin luther king was. I started to notice that some kind of party was happening since there were at least 30 people walking around. The first guy I saw told me, "He's not here right now". I went in the backyard and accidentally slammed the door on one guy's dog (I didn't hurt it, I just trapped it inside). I told him, "It's okay man, it's just a dream!". I made a can fly in the air just to be sure. But anyways, I asked a group of people that were sitting at a table outside and one of them said, "He was just here 10 minutes ago, he'll be back". Everything turned black, dream ended, DEILD'd. Still in the backyard, so I went to the front yard and Tom green was there smoking a joint with other comedians. I asked them where Mr. King was and they just laughed. I then mentally pled to my dream master, Mr. God, "Please help me on this one Mr. God". I turned around and there was a shadowy figure standing in a bush. Stephen King walked out. I said to him, "Mr. King! I love your books very much" and I gave him a big hug. He just nodded and smiled then acted like he had places to be so he hurried inside to the party. I was content with that, after all he writes his books based on ideas he gets in dreams and he describes his writing process as a wakeful dream state.

With a big grin on my face I casually walked down to the street, still looking for martin luther king. A bunch of famous black actors started showing up in limos and 50k$++ clothes. I asked them where martin luther king was and they just ignored me. I saw one guy that had his back turned and thought, this might be it! The guy turned around and he was Mike Tyson. I said to him, "You're not martin luther king >: (". A little frustrated, I decided to mess around with the DC's a little. I made time slow down for one lady that was dancing, looked pretty cool actually. Then I made her speed up really fast and left her like that. I saw another lady that had completely ignored me before and I made flames erupt out of my hands and I set her dress on fire. She didn't seem to mind, she just looked at me as though I was some kind of weirdo. A little tired of my search, I just saw down and relaxed while I watched all the beautiful people going into the party. Eventually woke up, half-heartedly tried to DEILD for a couple seconds then got up.

I had read on lucid dreaming years ago. In starting a dream journal I decided to try again, I gave up before from too many failures. The only thing I remembered reading was about using a trigger object as a dream sign. I told myself to dream clearly, remember it clearly, and to see a backwards 2 to trigger. I hadn't known about reality checks and didn't use any. This was last night..

I was talking to a tall man in front of a shop on the street. His skin was dark, almost as dark as his black leather jacket. He wore a dark blue shirt, jeans, and scuffed black leather boots. I can't remember the full conversation, but we began talking about two of something. The severity of the number dawned on me, so I looked at the window (a scenario I had imagined while awake) and sure enough I saw a large reflection of a 2.

"I'm dreaming! It actually worked!" I said. The man looked at me blankly as I had interrupted him. The whole scenery just went blank and the ground turned into fluffy clouds that were shaded pink and gold as the distance went on. I was aware that I was not in control of the terrain when a large stone wall shot up next to me, roughly 3 stories tall. I didn't want to waste time, I flew up/jumped uponto the wall. I made my clothes changed into an archer type style, a brown leather tunic with a green shirt underneath (it reminded me of Link from the game Zelda) I began to sing a lovely song, my dark brown hair fell golden from my roots to the ends of my hair, growing elbow length. I smiled and felt excited at how easy these changed were and how video-game-like.

Suddenly large vines scaled up the large wall, starting thin and then thickening as the vines arched off of the top of the wall and shot out into the distance, traveling though the end of that distance which was all cloud fluff. They became 2 feet or more thick, resembling what you see in Jack and The Beanstalk movies. I excitedly lept onto one of the vines and slid down the dip of it, running upward as it arose.. this was when my perspective changed to a 3rd person view and I saw myself run into the distance.

I lost my control and can't remember more from there. I dreamed on, but it was very nonsensical and not worth writing because the memory is so fragmented. I'll try again tonight and try to perfect some stability before running my imagination rampant.

I'm browsing DreamViews on my PC. I think that I am currently doing my WBTB.
There is something important I need to ask ~ Dreamer ~, but I cannot quite remember what it is.
I have the private message site open, trying to remember what it is I wanted to say.
Then, I spot some movement from the corner of my eye.
I could have sworn that ~ Dreamer ~'s Avatar just winked at me.


After some initial confusion, I think that she must have changed her Avatar to an animated gif, which does just that.
I think it is a pretty hilarious idea, because it is going to catch people off guard.
It might get people to RC if they notice...
I try to increase my awareness, given what just happened.
Hmm...
That avatar does look somewhat suspicious.
I poke it with my finger.
The avatar giggles and moves further into the screen a little.

"... Hello?"

The avatar then proceeds to climb outside of the screen and eventually ends up on my desk, still giggling.
It is so cute. But I resist the urge to poke it again.
The avatar points towards my left. I turn around.
~ Dreamer ~ is standing right next to me!
This comes as one hell of a shock. I immediately stand up.
I was in a semi-lucid state, but now, in the blink of an eye, I am fully lucid.

I run my fingers over the palm of my left hand to check my senses.
Everything is crystal clear. I can feel the individual patterns on my skin.
I haven't had a dream this clear in some time...
Oh... right... Dreamer!

"Hi..."

Really? That's all that I can come up with? "Hi"?
Well, I suppose I'm still a bit in shock from her sudden appearance.
She smiles.

"Hi Hyu."

I try to calm down a little. I point at my monitor.
Her voice is very soft, so I decide to reply softly as well.

"That was one hell of a trick."
"Which trick?"

I look at my monitors, and they are all blank now, with a purple haze around the corners.
This has happened many times before. I don't worry about it.
There is no sign of the Avatar.

"You made me realize that I am dreaming."
"Yes."

This is amazing! And the dream is so vivid and clear!

"Hyu, do you remember my dare?"

I wouldn't have remembered that on my own.
Lucid Dares

"I am to confront Faye."
"Yes. It is time to solve this once and for all."
"Yes... it is."

But you're right here in my dream.
I want to talk with you about all sorts of things.

"Go now. Faye awaits you."

She points towards the door leading out of my room. It becomes clear that Faye awaits me behind it.
I suppose ~ Dreamer ~ has a better grasp on priorities than I do. She is right.
The dream is so clear and stable, I need to use it to confront Faye.

"Thank you!"

~ Dreamer ~ winks at me, just like her avatar did, and then slowly fades away. Wow... what an amazing encounter.
I approach the door, but hesitate a moment before opening it.
I assert again that the dream is perfectly stable, and that my head is clear.
Yes, I am. Though I'm not entirely sure what to say yet. But that's okay, I'll figure it out on the fly.
I open the door with confidence, expecting to encounter Faye behind it.


To my surprise, this new room that I've just entered looks like some sort of an interrogation room.
One table, two chairs facing each other, and a big, probably one sided mirror.
Faye sits in one of the chairs waiting for me.
I'm not off to a good start. Not only does Faye look like Kate again, but I really dislike that this is an interrogation room.
I can understand why this happened though. It must have been caused by my determination to get answers from her.
I sit in the other chair and try to smile.

"Hello Faye."

She doesn't answer. She just stares down at her hands which are on the desk.
That's alright. I'll talk for now.
I recall positive memories we shared together. I retell those stories. (Unfortunately I don't remember this part of the conversation well)
But I can't seem to get any reaction out of her.
I gently grab her hands. She finally looks me in the eyes.

"I miss you Faye."
"We had so much fun together. I want to go on adventures with you again."
"..."
"The Faye that you remember is dead."
"..."
"I understand... What do you want?"
"No. You don't understand. And what I want..."

She smiles.

"I will destroy you. I will destroy us both."

She plays with a butterfly knife a little, then shows me the palm of her left hand, and then cuts right across it.
I can feel the cut in my left hand clearly. I look at it, and I have the same wound Faye has. We're both bleeding a little.

"You and I we are the same. We've always been."
"What has changed?"
"There is darkness within you. I am that darkness now."
"Nothing you do can stop me now."

This is not what I wanted to hear. But I suppose deep down, I already knew that things would never return to the way they were.
She also made it quite clear that I cannot remove her by force. What do I do now?
... first of all, I need a change of scenery. This interrogation room is inappropriate, it probably plays right into her hands.
Teraluna it is. I stand up and use the wing technique to teleport to Riven. Faye follows me. We are on a bridge close to Yuya's place.
She's no longer looking like Kate. She's looking the same way she did when we first met. She shows me her knife and says.

"I will never let you be with Yuya again."

I can see Yuya in the distance. She reads my thoughts. I make it clear that now is not a good moment to come over. She understands.
I look at the horizon. The gas giant that we are orbiting is experiencing a huge storm. It is quite beautiful.
This change of scenery was a good idea. I feel refreshed. And I know what I have to do...

"Oh Faye..."
"When I look at you, I remember all the good times we've had together."
"I will cherish those memories. I'll always remember you as the person you were, not as the person you have become."
"Whatever it is you are trying to do. It is not going to work."

I just smile. It is a genuine smile. I truly do cherish those memories.
And what I am about to say is going to hurt. But I know that it is the only way out.

"Faye... you are right. You always are. You and I, we are the same. And there is darkness within me... I do understand that."
"You do not... you have no idea. It will destroy you. I will destroy you."
"I know."
"No."
"You see, I've done a terrible thing."
"..."
"I didn't see what was wrong. I couldn't understand. So I have channelled all that darkness; all what was wrong, into a single dream character."
"You're making this up..."
"I needed for it to have a face. So that I could clearly identify..."
"These lies will not work on me!"
"Faye, I am sorry. I did not do this consciously. But it is all clear to me now."
"You are all that remains of that darkness. I will have to let you go..."
"No... I am your dream guide!"

Her voice has become faint. I can see fear and sadness in her now.
Is this truly the explanation I believe in?

"Faye is no longer here... My dream guide is dead."

I touch her face... one last time. I look deeply into her eyes. I can see nothing within them. You are no longer Faye.
Was it my fault that she ended up like this? Or was it beyond my control? I will never know.
But this is the only choice I have left. I take a step back... and then I let go...

"Goodbye Faye..."

She closes her eyes... and slowly fades into dust. The wind takes her away until nothing is left. Faye is gone.
Have I done the right thing? Was this really the only way?
Yuya approaches and hugs me. I hold her tightly.
I can feel her thoughts, her emotions, how helpless she felt, because this is not something she could help me with.
This was something I needed to solve on my own.

"Did I do the right thing?"

She gently answers:

"What do you think?"
"I think so... but I cannot shake the feeling that I may have taken the only path, rather than the right one."
"When there is only one path, is it not by definition always the right one?"
"Well..."
"Worry not. This was the choice you needed to make."

And suddenly I feel such relief. Like all the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My dreams are mine again.
Yuya rarely gives me such a straight up answer. Instead she helps me to find my own.
But this time I needed to hear it from her.
I am so happy to be with her again.

We walk through her gardens, knowing that my dream will soon end. That is fine. I am exhausted.
I know that I can now visit Yuya again whenever I desire. That is what is most important.
But Faye is gone. Forever.

Lucid

I was walking with my dad down a sandy road with buildings either side. I suddenly become aware that I'm dreaming, I think through doing an awareness exercise in my thoughts. I go on all fours and run like that because it's faster, and my body seems perfectly adapted to run like that.
People started running away and screaming because evidently I'd turned into some kind of beast which could run on its legs and fists. There was a sexy asian lady running away directly in front of me and I caught up and pushed her over. And then I did something I'm proud of myself for. I told myself not to waste another lucid on sex and turned away.
Behind me was the corridor of my house in Poland, so I ran down it, a human again. At the living room I turned right and saw the front door. I knew it was summer outside because there were windows all around, so I concentrated on there being a desert behind our front door, rushed to it and opened it. What I saw instead was our snow-covered front garden, because for some reason my mind seems to have big trouble leaving my house and the surrounding area in my lucids.
I think, "nevermind" and go outside, remember that I need to stabilise lucids (haven't had some for a while) and I throw myself onto the ground and feel all over it, inspecting a grassy patch on the ground. After a few seconds I get back up and think it'd be cool to do something I haven't tried in lucids before, and I remember that super strength is one of the dream powers I read about on DV. I grab the big metal flag pole in the middle of our front garden and pull it out of the ground, then I proceed to toss it across the garden. Not satisfied, I then uproot the tree in the middle of the garden too and throw it about fifteen metres across the garden as well, feeling exceedingly badass.
Then one of my family members points to one of the neighbouring houses so I decide to try to jump on its roof, which is about three storeys up and about 20 metres away. I already suspect it's not going to work, since I have massive trouble with flying in my dreams. Of course, probably partly due to my expectation, when I jump up I only fly up about 3 metres and drop back down on the ground. I try again with the same effect.
Then I wake up in my hallway and lose lucidity to a false awakening.

6:27 AM: My mom is driving me to school in the city (I never went to a school in the city!). We are running a bit late (. . . skipping some NL details, getting to the good stuff ). Once she drops me off and heads to work, I realize I have forgotten my lunch (a caramel and chocolate protein bar) and my bite guard (in case I want to take a lucid nap!). I turn and run back to the drop-off area, scanning the busy thoroughfare for my mom. Students and people are moving all over the place. I finally see her; she is moving back in my direction carrying my book bag. I think of several things to say, and one seems most appropriate: "You brought my bag." (Please don't try to make sense of this!)

She replies, "At least you said that." She seems grateful. Now that I have my things, I am heading (finally) towards school, when all of these emergency personnel get in my way. Seems there has been some sort of accident. I have to thread around behind them. As I do so, it occurs to me that I have no idea what my school is like on the inside. I know it isn't the first day, and I marvel that I have been on autopilot so much at school! I am excited to see what this new school will be like! I then nose pinch, in order to be certain I am not dreaming.

Ah, I see. I look around and notice a friend from WL. In WL he is a very towering guy, and he looks the same in this dream. I ask him, "So even this isn't real." It's more of a statement than a question.

He looks at me and nods. He then proceeds to say something deep that I have now forgotten. I decide that this DC is legit and ask him some more questions.

"Does the dream world contain stability?" I ask. "Does it contain stable locations?"

He shakes his head. "You create and control dreams."

"What is the most important aspect of dream knowledge?" I ask.

He looks at me as though he is a bit surprised or nonplussed. He then points at me, as though the answer is obvious.

"You mean controlling myself?" I ask.

"I mean controlling your mind," he replies.

We are now somehow in a small, empty diner. I ask him if he can help me control my mind. He nods and extends his hand. I take it and he proceeds to hurl me into the air towards the ceiling. I turn in the air and fall to the ground. My shin bangs one of the diner tables. This actually feels just like I imagine it would in WL--painful. I tell him so. He makes a face (like I am being a whiner) and points to a more open area.

As I am moving, however, it dawns on me that even pain in the dream world isn't real, and as I think this, the feeling evaporates. I realize I can't be harmed. In a moment, I remember Mancon's guide for flying (in particular, let the clouds suck you into the sky). I try this briefly but don't have time to work it properly as my pal has already grabbed me again and tossed me into the air. I now fly into a whirling ceiling fan and smack against the blades. This does not hurt, however.

My friend continues to sling me by my arm into the air. A voice comes over the PA telling me to come to the dean's office, but I realize I do not have to go, as I am dreaming. The theme from Mortal Kombat begins to play.





I am mid air (and mid-fan) when I awake. My heart is pounding and I assume the adrenaline pushed me out of sleep.

Non-lucid, Lucid

.../The further memory I have, I'm in an abandoned farm where its owner is a little nasty guy who didn't take a shower for months, he looks dirty and covered in sweat. His partner gets in place and takes off a sort of leather necklace he's wearing. It's like he hasn't take that thing off for months. I don't like what I see. He goes out where all the vegetation has grown without control. I remember it used to be a beautiful place, I'm sort of disappointed. There are three big dogs out there, when I see a lion hunting down one of them. It takes the dog from the neck and takes it away. I follow the lion until my hand becomes its mouth and now I'm holding the dying dog. I let it on the floor, but it's too late. I put it where the cubs can start to eat it/...

.../Now I'm in a car, with a friend of mine who recently I got to know he loved a Japanese TV series form the early 80's named Sankuokai. He's obsessed with the series and pretends this car is a space ship, although he's driving it backwards. I get concerned we can have an accident because of he's driving too fast. Finally I got to turn the car by changing the position I'm sitting on it. It's better to see things the right way. We get to the end of the road. We get out the car and see some hills in front of us. I remember this city was build upon what was going to be a huge burial ground in ancient times. I tell him, this place is a huge burial ground. Then I turn and see a known cemetery from WL which uses to be in my dreams. I point it and tell him that some disgusting things use to happen in that place when I'm dreaming it. It hits my head all of the sudden, what about if it's actually one of those dreams!? I look at my hand and I confirm it. I tell him laughing, actually it's a god damn dream. He doesn't seem to care. Another pal gets in, and they both start talking. I leave them and go to the cemetery, thinking about my sex drive that uses to screw things up. I walk next to the main gate, when it turns into a window and I see a couple sitting on a table. They don't look interesting, although I think perhaps I should force them to have sex in front of me, I'm sick of my sex drive. I ask them to do it, they don't seem to react. I take their clothes off and put the woman on the man. They start doing something although it's not enough. I'm starting to find the scene more disgusting than exiting. Another woman gets into the room. She looks like she has some sort of skin infection. It's getting worse, but I don't care. I want them to play dirty things in front of me. I lift her skirt, and the spectacle is too disgusting, because she seems to have a serious STI. I give up, I cannot see more of it. I go to the next room. There's a couple of friends from school times, they look better, at least they were the classic lovely picture. I'm not excited at all, I just one to fulfill what I wanted to do at the beginning, so I command them again to have sex in front of me. I help them to take their clothes off, it gets better although I don't feel excited, it's just fun to see that I can control it. I leave them in their game when an ex girlfriend, who appeared somewhere in a previous dream, gets into the scene. She start doing her hotter stuff, but what she says is disturbing me. I try to stop her but she's in ecstasy covered with slobber on a table next to a window. I'm surprised I didn't wake up with all the sex stuff happening around. I'm pleased I didn't wake up trying to control the dream, although I'm disturbed with all the disgusting stuff/...

* Woke up before the alarm clock went off. And couldn't go back to sleep.