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Morning of September 3, 2014. Wednesday.



This was a typical “I cannot assemble it” dream where almost every possible wrong result occurs at one point or another; a recurring theme but with the dreams themselves usually quite different - but usually long and monotonous. Sometimes they have “resets” (with variant repeats) two or more times in a night which then seem to go on for several hours.

The location seems to be a larger version of the Barolin Street house. An unknown East Indian male of about twenty-five has brought a metal floor fan package to our house, possibly as a Christmas present, as I have a vague perception of a Christmas tree in the background at one point. However, it is possibly a present for a relative of mine (even though it seems we will sometimes be using it as well) - he just wants me to assemble it first. What follows is pure tedium.

Some of the events that occur and repeat in various ways include:

Screws and smaller pieces falling from one of the hollow cylinders. Trying to work out which part is connected to whatever other part. Having an awareness that some of the parts may or may not be missing. Looking around for any instructions which did not seem to come with the box. Putting parts together and then realizing it is wrong and having to dismantle the parts again. Finding a piece that appears to be broken or made wrongly, but not being sure it is. Realizing that the product is probably just junk and not feasible as a working appliance.

The other male eventually seems pessimistic about his purchase and mentions something a few times about returning it, but I do my best to try to resolve the issue by assembling the metal floor fan as correctly as possible; parts which seem to be for a rather large and high one (perhaps too high for the intended room). Near the end of my dream, I have two larger hollow cylindrical parts together (one partly within another) and seem to be making progress, but there is a wobbly miniature-cage-like section that sort of partly hangs from near the middle by the implied power and speed control buttons. I have a concern about someone being electrocuted if it is not assembled properly. (The connected sections also seem to be a foundation for a fan that would stand too high to be of any use.) One of the last things that happens is that more screws of various lengths and a few other smaller metal pieces slide and fall out from the inside of what I had pieced together thus far.

There is a scene where there is broken glass on the floor, potentially hazardous - one piece being fairly large and jagged. I hand a larger piece to the other male and he deposes of it. It came from a drinking glass that had fallen from a table earlier, I think. (Another recent dream featured broken glass - dreams for me often repeat one aspect or feature in a completely different scenario, but often only once or twice.)

One other situation involves looking for the instruction booklet now and then. At one point, it appears we have finally found it, but it turns out to be some sort of catalog or promotional guidebook showing the entire product line of the company, mostly industrial appliances. I get the idea of assembling it from looking at the box, but that does not help either due to all the atypical internal parts.

There are a lot of ways to look at this dream. I am not really a fan of typical dream symbolism or alternate meanings (pun intended) unless specifically personally obvious, as this type of dream seems mostly a result of a focus on attempting to build something without the reasoning abilities which dreams usually lack and as such - may not even have any deeper meaning - many people make the mistake of thinking all dreams have “messages” or deeper meaning when many do not (and likely most if you do not do actual dream work or have a “direct line” to dream memory or layered associations, which almost always - at least for me, have impersonal and quite trivial precognitive, postcognitive, or the usual remote-viewing elements - a vestigial aspect I have always believed in from the overwhelming proof, from when the once natural “universal awareness” that animals, even insects have - in being too much to absorb for day to day mundane tasks for humans - thus this universal awareness eventually changed to include other levels of mind (including what some people call the subconscious, which is not a static system as often promoted but dynamic, and as such I do not believe in what people usually call the “subconscious” by reference and supposed aspects of such) - though while still having potential for supraconscious links).

In other words, and somewhat obviously - trying to build or assemble something in a dream (even a vivid one) is automatically (and quite naturally) much the same as trying to assemble something while utterly inebriated and only using half a brain, so any “failure” in such a dream means not much more in terms of the real world than my amazing stunts of success - where I once brought Earth back into its proper orbit with bottle rockets tied down over the highway (though that does remain one of my favorite childhood dreams).

Again, some plays one might see typically: “not having any fans” (or not making fans), “concerned about glasses being broken” (I do not wear or need glasses), “seeking instructions” but being shown only advertising of ideas not needed by present company, “power being caged in” (or variations of control or higher power being caged), and several others.

On an additional note, as a fan often represents the Merkaba (or a half of the Merkaba) it could also relate to wasted lucidity potential.

Dream - Lucid

I was at the house I grew up in by myself. I went into the dining room, where I was apparently cooking something on the table. I noticed that there was a puzzle on the table next to whatever I was cooking, and it was on fire. There were other things on fire as well. I froze, trying to figure out what to do. I decided to just pour water on it. I did, and it put the fire out. I examined the puzzle pieces on the table to see if they looked burnt, but they didn't; they looked completely untouched. Upon further examination, I thought I saw some small black spots on the pieces that had been burning, but I may have been looking too hard.

I was telling someone about the fire, saying that my cat had also caught on fire (I don't remember this happening in the first part but I remembered it as I was talking on the phone as if it did actually occur, if that makes sense). I believe I was on the phone. I told them that I had poured water on the flames to douse them.

~

I was working at the bakery, but it wasn't anything like the bakery IWL. It actually looked more like a food court place at a college that I worked at very briefly. Cherie' was working there with me. We were there at night closing. We were cleaning the floors.

There was a point where I was on a computer, filling out this thing to send my friends free socks. I could pick the color and everything. For one of the pairs I sent, I picked a muted teal color. I sent some to a guy I knew in college named Mason. I also sent some to my mom and Jeremiah. I "remembered" my mom loving them. I finished sending them. I asked Jeremiah, who was on a computer, if he had received the socks yet. I don't remember his answer. I hoped that everyone liked the socks.

~

I went back into the coffee shop, because apparently, I was switching jobs again. I think I had already gotten hired. I was there to talk to the managers. I went inside, and it looked so much different than IWL. It was more long-ways, with a back counter that was also quite long. The floors, walls, and ceilings were dark-colored. It was quite busy. I was sitting at a table close to the counter. I then got up and for some reason, a lady that was sitting by the wall started to spout off her order to me. She wanted an Italian sandwich, and she was also telling me about how much meat she wanted on it or something. She asked what breads were good, but she used a different wording. I told her we had white and wheat, but I really liked the Italian 5-grain. I don't remember which bread she got, but I got up and went behind the counter. I had no idea how to fill her order. Why had I even taken it?

One of the managers, a middle-aged man with dark hair and a dark beard, then came up to me. He seemed super fake-friendly to me. I told him I had worked there when the previous owners owned it, and it was like he didn't even hear what I said. He completely ignored me and started talking. He was talking slowly and looking away from me as he talked. We started to walk back to a back office. At some point, I met his wife who also owned the shop now.

We were then back out in the cafe', and I was sitting down at the same table again. The guy and his wife were both there now. I wondered if this was an interview, or if I already had the job; I couldn't remember. I also wondered if that woman had ever gotten her sandwich. She was still there at any rate. I imagined that she had probably complained. I then again told the guy that I had been there when the shop first opened, and I was there for four years. He said
"Oh really?" He really didn't seem that interested.
I then asked him what hours I would work, if I would open or close. He said I'd mainly be closing. I told him I didn't really like closing, but I preferred mornings. I then asked him what their operating hours were, and he said 7am-11pm. Ugh, closing that late? Really? Eff that.

I then was getting up to leave, and I had my doubts about them hiring me. They really didn't seem too interested in me, and I had made that comment about closing.

I was then walking somewhere in a back alley with Dallas. I was really pissed about the owners being such arrogant dicks.
"What a faggot!" I said very angrily as we walking. I threw something down on the ground. (IWL I don't ever use the word "faggot". It's interesting that I chose it here.)
"You'll just have to get another job," said Dallas. He handed me a paper restaurant cup of soda. I threw that on the ground, and it was very satisfying for some reason; it hit the ground just the right way and made just the right noise. I said again
"What a faggot!" I was really pissed.

I woke up from this dream kind of confused. I didn't open my eyes, but kept them closed as I thought about why I would quit my bakery job because I love it. I didn't want to work at the coffee shop again. After a little bit, I started to realize that I had been dreaming, and that wasn't really what was happening. I felt immensely relieved.

~

I was supposed to start work at that coffee shop, but for some reason, I had to get surgery on my lower back first. It had something to do with being inside this weird, cylindrical room with some big metal pole inside of it. It was some kind of mixer or something? I'm honestly not sure, but to operate it, I had to get something in my lower back fixed.

I was then in the cylindrical room, holding onto the metal pole. There was something on the bottom of the pole, some kind of platform or something, that I was standing on. It started to go up. I was quite close to the wall, and hoped that I didn't get squished or hurt.

I then decided not to get the surgery. Why bother? I didn't really want that job anyway. The airport called me and I cancelled my flight to Switzerland, which was apparently where I would have to get the surgery. I still wanted the meds though; they had already written me a prescription for three types of meds, one being a pain killer. Mk went to pick them up for me. She texted me something about them as she was doing so, asking me a question about them so she made sure she got the right things.

I then received a phone call. I looked at my phone, and it was from a country called "Nigiri". I knew that was where my connecting flight was supposed to be. I answered, and the guy on the other line had a very thick accent. He was trying to confirm my flight, which was boarding at that time, and I told him I had cancelled it. He had me hold on for a second, then he told me that it would be a $15 cancellation fee. I told him that I had cancelled the other flight earlier, and I had gotten no such fee. I don't think we said anything else.

I then was talking to Mk via text again. She was asking me which dog breed she should pick out. She gave me two options. I picked one, and then she came in with two dachsunds that were mixed with some other breed. I was playing with them and hugging them. They were so cute and fun!

I then was driving to the liquor store. It was a Sunday afternoon (liquor stores are closed here on Sundays IWL), and the parking lot was packed full. I had to drive around to the side to find a place to park. I figured it was the after-church crowd.

Dream 1

I'm with Josh and Daryl either on bikes together or in a car, travelling down a dirt road. I see James Graham in front of us, in his ute. He's tormenting another person that is in a larger car. I think James felt as if the other driver was hogging the road, but it didn't seem that way from where I am. I tell Josh that it would be funny if I drove passed him or next to him to annoy him, and that I would end up on one of his YouTube videos. As I go passed both cars, they all stop on the side of the road. I turn back to see why and notice that people are walking in my direction.
Eventually some of the people reach where I am. The first person I see if Michelle Sinclaire. I don't say hi to her and wait for her to say it first, but we both hold our ground. The scene changes a little and I can now see Jarred Frase. I envy this guys skill at picking up the ladies and hope that I could be one of his apprentices. Jarred walks over towards a door.

I have a False Awakening either before or after this dream. I'm in my bed and I hear Daryl and Dad in the kitchen talking to one another. I start recording my previous dream with my voice recorder.

Dream 2

I'm In my rumpus room and 1up has written out on a white board a method to become lucid. If consisted of listening to something upon falling asleep. There was 3 steps.
The pictures he had drawn in step one had someone laying down and shooting fire out of their mouths. Im unsure on the others steps drawings but step 2 had music artists written down. Some notable ones were skrillex and slipknot. Im sitting on the ground for some reason and Rachel, Josh and Ruby are with me. I try to make Ruby feel less left out by making her part of what we're doing.

The scene changes and a group of people who're meant to be my primary school teachers, are not them. Some are famous people and some randoms. I remember seeing karl stefanovic as one of the teachers, except his hair was more curly and fuller. They all begin singing a song that has the word FUCK in it. It's a common word of the song. They feel they're breaking the rules, and shouldn't be singing such a song due to being primary school teachers, but they're having a good laugh about it and don't care.

Scene changes and I'm now with a female. Someone comes to the door and makes the female feel loved. The man leaves shortly after. I can see the man near a car at night and he's talking to the father of the female who is on the front of his boat. I over hear them and realise the father had paid or made the man to act as if he was interested in his daughter.

I'm now on the boat which feels like it's made out of blow up material which is filled with air. As I'm moving around I'm acting about how the owner of the boat (a large man) struggled to move around the boat and would almost fall overboard in the process. I think I fall down a hole or the scene changes.

I'm in another room with a black man (think his from the beats by dre review on YouTube that I watched this morning). Two more black men come into the room. I have a feeling they have bad intentions. I think I call the first guy that's with me a nigger in a friendly way. I may have even said "what's up niggers" to the other two guys. There's some strange stuff on the walls.

Dream Fragment

An X Factor dream. It's down to the bottom 2, with one about to be eliminated from the show. Tee and another strong contender are standing on stage to wait the announcement of their fate. I find this crazy as they're both great singers and shouldn't be here. Tee gets eliminated.

Tuesday,3rd of September 2014

Moon Cycle: 54% Illuminated (First Quarter) in Sagittarius (8 days old)

Tarot Card of the Day: Two of Pentacles

Mayan Calender Date: Blue Galactic Hand


This DILD occoured in the latter REM cycles before a WBTB,using MILD.
The duration of sleep was approximately 6 hours from 11:45pm until 5:45am.
Manta used: "Tonight I will have lucid dreams, and I will remember them."


Colour code: Non - Lucid
Lucid


I found myself on the 3rd floor of a enormous brightly lit airport resembling Dubai International with my Mother and Russel Brand.
We are in transit, and Russel has just smuggled a small portion of drugs onto and off of the plane, mule style.
There's frantic activity all around us as we and many others wait impatiently for the two large metal lifts to descend through the transparent glass shafts to transport us to the roof, where the airport departure runway lays.

Suddenly the lights start to flicker and a piercingly loud siren sounds. I look up through wide adrenalized eyes at the transparent shaft where the lifts now shake, shudder and gyrate up down and side to side violently, with the people shrieking and screaming inside...presumably in pain.
Chaos erupts, and everyone begins to panic...many running around as a headless chickens would.

"They have control of the power supply!" a middle aged woman shouts at the top of her lungs, trembling in fear.
I can hear the poor souls in the lift crying loudly in agony for someone to switch the power off.
I echo their pleads and begin to shout the same.
"Turn the power OFF!!!!"

"Shut the f'ck up!There's nothing we can do....Run for your lives!",a security guard hollers.

I grab my quivering mothers by the hand and we begin to run toward a large convenience store where I catch sight of a green emergency exit symbol hanging overhead.
I notice that I'm unable to pick up pace and my stride length remains short as I attempt to sprint faster,albeit unsuccessfully. (Dreamsign)

The omnipresent bolt of lucidity strikes me, and an immediate calm percolates the entire dreamscape.
I turn to my mom and a she possesses a golden luster which radiates outward like some sort of halo. A modest smile creeps into the corners of her mouth. I feel a tremendous relief and give her a kiss on the forehead.
I remain calm and decide not to perform ant dream stabilization technique since my visual field is acceptably vivid*.
I examine the surrounding dreamscape. We stand in bright cavernous passage, with the beige tiles gleaming and shining squeaky clean beneath our feet.
Many empty craft and clothing stores line the left and right hand side, displaying their products through large square glass windows.
The emergency exit lay at the very end of the passage,inside a large convenience store.
A closed liquor store was located directly to my right,and outside stood a medium sized circular metal trash can.

I recalled the Task of the month and expected to find a fortune cookie beneath the trash can, which I did.
I unwrapped the small cookie from its thin transparent plastic cover and broke it in half to reveal a stone/tan colored piece of folded paper.
Unfolding the paper proved to be rather difficult and, to my dismay,revealed nothing but a blank surface.
Then, on closer inspection, strange symbols and words seemed to magically transcribe themselves onto the sheet...similar to the invisible ink scene in Harry Potter.
I could only compare the inscriptions having a resemblance to a combination of Greek,Arabic and Hieroglyphs.
Similar but not identical.

I discarded the paper and figured i'd try again, looking in the same spot.
Lo and behold I found second specimen, and upon opening I had the same experience with the magical emergence of the text.
This time it was in English.

"BROMIOIDE",I uttered out loud.(Pronounced BRO-MEE-OH-IDE)
I turned the sheet over, hoping to find a meaning.

As I focused on the opposite blank side "PZ33" slowly manifested itself, surrounded by a rectangular border
It then faded away as quickly as it appeared.
I began to chant the word and letter-digit combination out aloud in order to ingrain it into my pre-frontal cortex so I could remember it in waking life.

The story doesn't end there, an I continue into a fairly fun and abstract adventure,leading to an abrupt false awakening through a dream meditation...more of which i'll post in Part 2.

Very excited to have completed my first TOTM
Whoohoo!

03.09.2014

Racing with a Blue Ferrari (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I joined a group that was some sort of mafia or at least, something pretty illegal was going on, as we were hiding or something. Actually, I did not belong to said mafia, but I was there visiting for a reason.

We were hiding in some underground abandoned factories and the place was huge, as well as pretty much empty.







I was making some deals with then, but apparently, it was all about cash transactions and despite the situation, said transactions were legally done.

I was given a blue Ferreri and I was going to drive it to test it out, but when I was about to drive, I noticed that it was manual instead of automatic. Since I knew I am in Europe now and I have to learn to drive manual, I felt it would be a great opportunity, even though a Ferrari did not seem the best car to learn with, as I wanted to take good care of it.







I pretty was able to drive it, not very fast as I was not used to manual transmission, but I was still able to drive it. Someone decided to challenge me to a race, and I had no other option than to accept, even though I was worried for the car, I figured that I would reset the dream to an early stage of it if I crashed (note, I was NOT lucid, but this is a common occurance in my dreams, as I am always sem-lucid on my"non-lucid" dreams.)

My wife encouraged to race and she told me I would learn vey fast that way and know how to use manual transmission in no time. So I drove downhill in a not very busy street. It was at night and there were a lot of people aorund. I parket my Ferrari and went to meet with some friends to tell them about the race, but when I wanted to get ready, I could not find my Ferrari. Apparently, it was stolen but my wife had an APP on her phone to be able to find it.

The APP said that a 15 years old boy stole my car and that so far, he had no tickets but he was playing a Frank Sinatra song (what the??? Talk about random. I do not listen to his songs. I would not even recognize him if I saw him on the street, I just knowthe name.)

I figure it would be a pain to recover it, so I just would reset the dream, but when I was about to, I had a False Awakening at my parent's place and my mom woke me up. She was tucking me in bed and saying for me to be focused if my dad was right or not, as he was sick and he was not going to go to work.

I had another False Awakening at the clock said it was 10:45 AM... I was surprised I slept so much, since I always wake up much earlier. As I was going to write down the dream, I woke up for real.

Seduced...me?...at my age? No, it's not what you think...

The past few days have been desolate. My worst enemy is the pain I experience if I lay down more than about three hours. It forces me to move when I wake and it completely buggers up dream recall (although the dreams have been very faded anyway). Really I've gone backwards this week.

So, I've changed tactics. Although I wake up spontaneously after a dream, I've gone back to using an alarm. That way I can wake up after 2-3 hours and move around for a bit and that should help (multiple WBTB's I suppose) Also, although I'm working well on ADA etc... maybe it's too well (my brains even more wrinkled than most of yours and it might be feeling overwhelmed)

So it's back to basics. Some ADA and definitely some recall and more pre-bed preparation first thing at night and during WBTB's (read a bit of Deberge maybe and run through a plan (keeping it simple and straight to the point) We'll see.

Nothing from the first quarter so I did a WBTB at 6.00

7.00
I'm in a zoo somewhere and it's dark (can't see an animal anywhere so why did I assume it was a zoo?) Some youths are running around and I sense that they're up to no good so I keep out of the way. Then I'm suddenly on a boat.

It's apparently a Nile cruise boat? We're passing large vessels and moving quite fast...dangerously even. the captain executes a reckless turning manoeuvre and we seem to be heading back.

I heard someone say "Look at those huge ships" and suddenly we're moving down a busy main road in a city centre with not a drop of water in sight..

...and the seduction? It's that strumpet Fiona WILD...I can't resist her. It's getting now that I only have to lay awake for more than 10 minutes and I start to get SP in my hands and arms. I know by now that it's a false ride but I actually started getting flashes of blue colour (rather than the usual forest-green). I swear that, if I ever get a dream scenario pop up it will be in the middle of Sherwood Forest.

So I fell for it...45 minutes later my REM finished and it was "slam thump thank you chump" for me again I'm afraid. Will I ever learn? No I won't...she's such a sexy momma and I'll take what I can get...

22:43 pre-bedtime 3mg melatonin to help reset sleep schedule

00:00 Wednesday 2014-09-03

04:30

+ I'm in an ocean-view apartment with my wife, I go to the front door to look out at the ocean, I will look through a tall narrow window, I want to smell the ocean air as well. I do not want to go out on the street. I get to the window and open it and look out, far away is a bright beautiful blue ocean scene, there is lots of driftwood in the water looking like little toothpicks at this distance. I go out into an entrance area and look all around it, it is as wide as the house but very short, just a meter or two, I see some sparse furniture like a chair and a vase(?), I want to take a picture of this area and send it to my sister but that's silly because she helped us move in and already saw the place.

I turn around and look back into the apartment. I'm amazed at how huge our apartment is. It is a large carpeted (white/beige) expanse that is actually the street view of the court my childhood home is located on, the view is part outdoors, part indoors. Turning to my left I see/know there's an attachment there and another entire home is located through that entryway, (there's some thought about this and my dad says to keep things the way they are?)

+ I've returned to company N after being only 2 weeks at company B. I feel rather bad about leaving company B, I don't want to face B's president, but some other people have also left to return to N including childhood friend ChBnr. I'm sitting in a group with JW from company N. Maybe I can receive double salary for a while?

+ serving ice cream to an (indian?) man. I'm speaking and offering a choice of chocolate <this>, chocolate <that>, Funky Monkey. He says he wants probably the chocolate one the fruity one is too sweet and I agree with this, I have a scoop in my hand and a large, open multi-gallon container of ice cream in front of me.

+ in an inside location, no room for the group, they could sleep in the elevator that's going up to the right, they don't want to, there may be a red mat at the top for them to sleep on

+ different options for getting back out chip design: there are various simulators but we could just get the real design back from the foundry right away, and if so what's the point of the other options?

+ talking to the neighbors of childhood home, I was amazed to find that after all these years, the mother there was originally from <my country>, and tried to remember/pronounce the name of her city several times

more dreams but they're buried deeply, didn't want to dig for them at the possible expense of insomnia.

Well sh*t, insomnia anyway
05:30 get up eat bowl of cereal
07:45 breakfast duty

09:00? back to bed, exhausted, fall asleep pretty quickly

12:45 still exhausted but decide to get up

Lots of dreams but just too tired to remember them:

+(f) entering a forbidden hallway with guards down at the other end who come running to me

+(f) in a house giving a ring as a present to a woman

+(f) outdoors in a garden fussing with a hose some threatening guy comes by

and lots more but they faded away

three rubbish wee fragments only.....

1) opening the cupboard in the kitchen to get fish food - the tub wasn't there.....

2) a creepy old man all naked doing a terrifying dance.

3) Rolf Harris on the telly (I was thinking that that wasn't right....)

I was for some reason visiting this womans house, I was at a table, and she was writing something down. I read it and it had something explicit written on it. I said "you are joking yes?" and she said, ofcourse. Then she said Im going out now, and I said ok I'll mind your cat (I dont know how this makes any sense). Then she said I don't think thats a good idea sorry. So I said ok I'll go with you. Then she started putting surf boards on top of her car. I said what are you doing we don't need all those? And she said yeah ok I usually take them all but your right. So I get in the car and i dont know what happened but I cant remember where I was but I wanted to go back to my place again, so I go to catch a bus. I said to the bus driver where are we going cause I need to be in the city, he didn't seem to know really, so i said do you want me to drive (not sure why i would do this either) He said yeah ok you drive. So I start driving the bus lol. I ask him is this stop near the city? He said yeah, it was along some highway turn off (he lied, it was no-where near) So I pull into the stop. There is all these other taxis and buses. But they need to be booked, I line up and tell the information desk (or whatever it was) I need to go into the city. So she says "by bus?" I said yes how long will that take. And she says "oh about 6 hours". I said 6 hours?! Then I walked back to where the buses and taxis were. Every taxi had a number on it like "635265", each number I guess related to an order. One taxi guy was parked in the other lane and had a note on his car which said "I really have no idea what I am doing". I thought he must not have an order for anyone so I could ask him to take me into the city. This is about the time I woke up....

Took a nice nap this afternoon. There was an interesting start, as I had some trouble transitioning, and I kind of got stuck between the real and dream worlds - distinctly hearing my roommate typing away on his keyboard but also interacting with my DCs at the same time. I kind of went back and forth in and out of sleep, until I finally got a nice long dream.

I don't remember exactly how everything pieced together, but I had three distinct scenes. First, I was at work, working the support desk at my college's computer lab. An Asian girl and her 2 friends walked up and asked for help with her computer. I tried to take a look at it, but she suddenly came around the desk, leaned her head on my shoulder, and started flirting with me. I asked her to back up, but she moved in closer. I remembered that it was just a dream, so I shouted at her "You're not even real!" and ran away.

The next scene was in some kind of warehouse. I was in the back trying to figure out what to do in my lucid. I remembered the TOTMs. I decided to start with the Expecto Patronum one. I first tried with just twirling my hand in the air and shouting "Expecto Patronum", but nothing happened. OK, maybe I need a wand of some kind. I happened to find a plastic straw. Well, gotta make do with what you've got. I spun the straw in the air and shouted the words, and this time I saw a trail of smoke run in a line across the floor. I tried once again, and this time the line of smoke was larger and more noticeable. I tried one last time, this time moving the "wand" in the air until I saw a blue aura around it. "Expecto Patronum!" The blue smoke shot to the ground, and suddenly a long snake appeared along the smoke line on the ground. The snake was about 15 feet long and started to move toward me. I tried to go around on the other side of it, but its mouth suddenly turned into the mouth of a crocodile and snapped at me. I dodged out of the way and kept walking.

Finally, there was a scene where I was looking for a fortune cookie for another TOTM. Well, I'll probably find one in this kitchen. I walked through a door into the kitchen at my old house. I walked to the sink, and sure enough, there was a fortune cookie there. I opened it up and ate half of it before reading the inside. I pulled out the paper and unraveled it. All it said was the word "Help". Help? That's it? I looked inside the cookie to see 3 more papers bunched up inside. I took out the first one. "Me." And the second one. "I'm." Finally, I read the last paper. "A cookie." Okay, genius, you got me... I then proceeded to rip up the papers and eat the other half of the cookie before eventually waking up.

Well finally I dreamt something, though I don't think this was a positive dream and not Lucid. I have only been asleep a few hours to write this. Some of it could even be embarassing.

A few things I remember I was watching a movie where some people were playing a video game backwards, but they were in the video game and they had to go through it in rewind. Quite a weird movie. I had some ginger beer with me. But I decided to go outside and go for a walk. I was walking along this warf by the ocean and there was some ships. At the end there was like this pirate ship that was coming in where people could swim by it. Someone asked me about it a small child. I said that's where everyone can swim I think. Somehow I was trying to help these people with their boat. Somehow while I was in the boat it took off lol. I didn't want that but then accepted it and thought okay I am now on a boat ride, great. So I helped steer the boat, then when it stopped I went to change position and there was some confusion and we couldn't figure out which position we were going in next, and it was with some friends I knew she just said with a look of amusement and apathy, I really don't mind which position we go in. So I dived into the water and decided I had enough and went to the land. She came with me.

As we were walking along the shop. I walked by the guy with a gun. I looked over at him and wondered why he was loading bullets into his gun. Out of no-where he aimed it at me and shot the gun. The bullet didn't fire out of it. He said something to me I think he was telling me to shut up (it was something he didn't like I can't remember) I just said okay. And he loaded my bullets in his gun and implied that I was chicken. So I went right up to his gun and said. I'm not afraid of getting shot, that's not why I agreed with you. I thought this is it, he's going to shoot me for sure now. Instead of shooting me directly, he aimed it at my stomach and shot several rounds in my gut and into my groin. I felt the rounds go off and into my stomach very realistic. He made a joke about me no longer being able to have kids and left. This is when I felt a sharp pain in my stomach and obviously groin and I felt the blood start coming out.

I sort of knew it was a dream, because I tried to change the dream and go back to before I was shot, without success, but it didn't work. I wasn't really Lucid though. So I went to one of the rest rooms, and I pulled 2 bullets out of my stomach. I thought this isn't really that bad. But I was thinking down below is going to have to be more careful and I was thinking hospital. The restroom was full of people. No privacy. So I decided to go out.

When I woke up, I was just glad to have everything intact and to not be shot. Very glad! It's that wave of relief you get when you wake up from something you just didn't want to happen. This is an interesting psychological phenomenon when you get a bad dream that you feel relieved, and then you apreciate what you have.

If I look back at it now. The dream seems to be about sacrifice, or about having courage in the face of danger. Even though I was willing to avoid conflict to make the agressor happy. When I got accused of something, that's when I stood infront of the gun and said very directly I'm not afraid. In my eyes I was making a statement, but now I'm thinking if it's better to let that slide, in the face of getting shot, or if it would be worth the statement morally. When I reason about it now. I should have been more responsible for my safety.

Other than that, I'm not sure what the movie I was watching meant. Pirate boats seem to be a bit of a theme in my dreams. I'm often in something to do with boats. Which is suprising.

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

I wake up from a dream and look at the blackness behind my eyelids. There is a web of lines. I focuse on it and try to make it more clear and vivid. The web becomes a solid, vivid, white color and starts to spin. I'm at an outdoor theater and could see my Dad and Step Mom trying to talk to me. I can't understand what they are saying so I lose interest and turn away. I reach into my pocket and pull out a fortune cookie. I open it up and try to read the fortune. It reads "It's been known for ions that..." I struggle to read the last part but it's faded away. I try to flip the paper over to read another fortune but all of the fortunes are incomplete or too hard to read. The paper becomes bigger as I flip it over a few times. Suddenly, I see clearly on the paper a color advertisement for a rapper named Goo-Goo Giddy who is going on tour. I show a random DC this, feigning excitement, to see if they are interested. I don't see any interest. I wake up.

I'll work on my new-found DEILD technique, hoping it works with consistency.

Non lucid - but VERY vivid.

Sitting in a spacious airy room. The pal who was in my dream yesterday was there. My mum was in a chair opposite me, She had a big present in her hands that looked like a wrapped sweetie. I turned to my friend and asked him if my member of staff had been away too long for her lunch. He reckoned she'd only been away 15 mins. I then saw her through a glass door to my right. I went through and she followed me through a wee corridor to the left.

Dream drifted away to some rubbish aboot Dragons and flying aboot - not sure if it was mebbe a computer game or a film or something.

Then me and said employee were sitting on a settee watching my brains version of 'The Phantom Menace' on a really big telly. Yoda (who was aboot seven foot high, really skinny and had big dark stupid looking eyebrows) was standing behind a podium of some sort talking to three aliens. There was no sound and my employee remarked to me - 'Yoda is really rubbish in the Phantom Menace isn't he' The three aliens walked toward Yoda. The one of the left was obese and had a green head with a face on the back.

Fragment - I asked a man if he'd like a drink - He said 'Aye, I'll hae a Peter please'
I said - 'A Peter? - no problem' feeling a wee bit confused as I had no idea what a Peter was....

DC's are great, even when i'm non lucid!

The frag that I recall most vividly was one of a planet. I was once more getting a cosmic tour from an outside entity, but this one was unusual as we were focused in on a single planet rather than learning the arrangement of stars and planets.

The planet looked something like this, with large craters, but an earth-like surface, and no polar ice. Yesterday, I just so happened to doodle that looked a lot like the planet that I saw in the dream. (Day residue?) It was because of the familiarity to this one that I became ever so slightly lucid in this dream.
After teaching me a bunch of facts about the planet, the entity put me into orbit around it. I seemed to be able to look around, and I orbited the planet rather quickly, completing an orbit in about a minute. I was orbiting rather far from the planet, if I were in a my body, I would have been able to block it out with both hands. The planet orbited a single star or a very close multi-star system and as far as I could tell, had no moons.
The imagery was very vivid, particularly the sun. I wish I could say more but nothing really happened. I just orbited the planet and felt very peaceful for awhile.

Something about high school. Cannot recall what.

Something about walking around my new college campus. I walked to the edge and found this prefab home.The door was wide open. I walked in and found Manei. The dream blurred out and I woke up.

Dream - Lucid

I was looking into my room at the house I grew up in. It was full of spider webs. There were also 4 huge spiders in the webs, one closer to the doorway and three off to the left. There was no way I was going in there. There was then a guy standing next to me. He said what he would do if he felt a spider crawling on him, (when he said that he crawled his fingers on my shoulder), he would just let it crawl until it started to make a web, then he'd take it off, letting the string of web carry the spider somewhere else. I pictured myself freaking out if there was a spider on me, like I've done before. Yeah, no spiders are gonna crawl on me for that long if I can help it.

There was more to this dream, something about a wedding ceremony. I think it was Dallas and I's wedding, even though we were already married. It was like something to make it more "official", even though we were already legally married. There were many people. I thought about my name changing. I feel like we were outside in the daytime.

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I was with my old supervisor, Laura. We were wandering around to different places. We were playing softball in one of the places. She was telling me about how in high school everyone thought she was dumb, and she didn't really have many friends. I then thought about this. I wondered about her boyfriend in high school. I pictured her in high school walking on a softball field. I said something to her about how I used to play softball, but she said she knew I didn't play for school, because she was on the school softball team and I wasn't. No, I didn't play for school, that was correct, but I don't think I said anything back to her after that.

Then, we were somewhere else, in some building. My nephew, Gary, came up to us and asked if we'd take him to the bathroom. I asked someone who was there with him if that was ok, and they said yes. We then went to take him in the bathroom. I asked him if he had to pee or poop, and he said poop. The "bathroom" was just a wooden room with a wooden seat with a hole cut out, There was no drain or water or anything; the waste would just go onto the floor. I started to tell him maybe he shouldn't go there, but it was too late. He was pooping. I saw it on the floor. Another kid had done it close to us too, a little to the back left of us, so I guess it would be fine.

Then, it was like I was playing Nintendo Nightmare, only with much better graphics due to a setting on there that I or someone else had turned on. It was like I was playing it in an arcade. I was in the Legend of Zelda world the whole time I was playing. I gathered some rupees and killed some enemies.

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It was like I was playing Tomodachi Life. It was like viewing one of the islander's drams. There was a pickle and a banana standing on a grey concrete brick surface beside a lava pit. I said to them
"Pickle, you're a dork! That's why you and banana get to have lunch."
I guess "get to have lunch" meant "jump in the lava". It could have gone more than one way. They could have jumped over the lava pit or into it, but it was randomized which one would occur.

My alarm then went off and woke me up.