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In reality, I have stopped smoking cigarette since June 17th, 2014.

In some of my dreams lately, I'm smoking and it's always a trigger to try and become lucid, but last night I couldn't convince myself that I was dreaming despite reality checks. I don't remember all of the reality checks that I did, but I know I tried looking at my hands and at the time and at my phone and surroundings and felt convinced I was not dreaming. I may have even tried plugging my nose, all I remember is that nothing I tried worked to convince myself I was dreaming. Yet I was dreaming.

Maybe I just need to learn some more effective Reality Checks

November 15, 2014

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I was on a train with my dad, and there was some sort of trouble. He had to get off the train so he could get some gas for his car, for some reason. He would rive the car to the next stop and get back on the train. We were going through the Midwest on our way to the West Coast (having gotten on the train in New York)

When he got off the train, I went to sit with an older, friendly looking hiker.


I spaced out and someone else had joined us. We all became friends, and there was a long break stop. They wanted to get some fresh air, so they got off the train and I stayed to watch all their stuff. But the train only stopped for like a minute and left without them! I was worried, because I still had all their stuff and was wondering how they would get back to where they needed to go...

There was a point where it was night time, and the train was on a super elevated rail above a fairly large city. It may or may not have been the Big City on my dream map, but I don't think it was. If felt more like a different coastal city I often dreamt about when I was a kid. Anyways, all the pretty lights were going by, and the buildings were all so colorfully lit. It was fascinating and I just watched it for the longest time.

Eventually I got to the destination, got off the train with my lost companions' things, and found my mom and brothers waiting for me. I called my dad to let him know I had gotten off the train (it was actually a few stops before I had planned to arrive at)

My dream reminded me of the book The Odyssey so that is what I am calling it. If you don't know the plot of The Odyssey don't worry about it; it has no significance in the dream.

The setting of this dream was medieval/wild west/modern. People wore medieval armor and carried swords, but they usually also had guns like winchesters, revolvers, etc. Besides that, things were modern. There were phones, trains, cars, etc.

I was an older brother, and my younger brother had sworn an oath against me or something. He might have been a step-brother or something. It was not a love-hate relationship though, it was a hate-hate-hate relationship. He used anything he could to ruin things for me. He would lie, cheat, steal and manipulate his way into ruining my day and taking my things.

Fast forward awhile, until we were both well into our twenties and living on our own (I think we were kids before, or younger adults). I was doing pretty well for myself. This part is really hazy, but I knew he did something really bad.

Fast forward another 20 years or so. I had grey hair now, and I was doing very well. I had a wife and kids, and a very nice house. My brother hadn't done anything for a long time. One day, him and a bunch of scary looking wild west type people showed up at my house and evicted me. They had legal leverage as well as force, and they would probably kill me if I refused. So they smashed my house, and kicked me out (my family didn't play a big part in the dream, I only saw them like twice). He wanted the house, and he wanted to ruin my livelihood, but he also had some kind of scheme for himself and for some reason a key part of it was me going into "foreclosure".

I moved to some island. It was about the size of an estate. I could build a nice grand house, a dock, and I could have a nice life going in no time. There was also a WWII tank on the island for some reason. It was fully functional except for the gun, which was malfunctioning. Suddenly I realized there was a modern tank next to me (I was in the old one). A voice came out of it, "Hey, I just want to talk". It was my brother. He said, "You see, foreclosure means you can't own any property, so unfortunately I can't let you live here". I was already enraged at the fact that he would even show his face near me, but when he said this I came close to attacking him. Until I realized he had a modern tank (with the gun functioning) and a band of really scary looking 1800s dudes with guns.

So I left, and went to some family gathering on my wife's side of the family. There, I realized, was my salvation. I gathered up willing members of her family, and my friend, who had his own posse of people. We got our weapons and prepared to take back what was mine.

It turned into a massive horse-back wild west gunfight, but everyone had armor. Somehow I lost my horse and as I was running over a bridge I saw one of my guys bleeding out on the ground. I splashed some water on the wound, which apparently made it better, and continued. I eventually reached my brother's hide-out. He only had one goon left, but that guy had a dagger and was about to kill two of my guys. I ran up and hit him in the head with an axe I was holding. Then, I saw my brother, and all his servants. Some of them had wronged me, but the worst of them were traitors who I had trusted. They were just sneering. For some reason there were also people who were not involved in the conflict. They were just bystanders, but they were in the group of people that I was fighting. I charged, swinging my axe left and right until there was only my brother left (and the bystanders, of course.... strangely, they didn't seem to care that there was a bloody battle going on right in front of them). For some reason I randomly forgave him, and decided that instead of killing him I would just banish him from my life forever.

I don't remember much, so...

I know I was with my parents. We're going to NY in January, and I think I was dreaming about that. We got into a building and we had made reservations. The doorman told us to take the elevator cause the doctor (?) was waiting for us. So we took the elevator, and it was really old. It kinda broke down, the doors opened. There were lots of people outside. They were trying to open a door to the stairs, but they couldn't and they were desperate. Finally, I saw a corridor that would lead us to reception area, where there were also some restaurants.

We left the elevator, got to the reception area and sat down. Lots of people were there, it looked a but like an airport. Then, this man showed up. I knew he was evil. Suddenly, I knew I had to leave, so I started taking my stuff (which, for some reason, included random pieces of clothes I had put on a chair and my laptop). This being (?) opened a hole at the wall for me, so I told my parents to go first and I'd keep the evil man busy. I dunno what I told him, but he finally agreed to let us leave, but I'd have to take a woman with me. She was his partner? ally? Something. Anyway, she left the shower wearing a towel, so I showed her I had taken some stuff already, including a hairbrush. She was mad, not at me, but she was all "that bastard cheated on me and left that stupid hairbrush here and there's pee on it". So I took my dog, that showed up there out of the blue, and ran away.

I became spontaneously lucid in a dream. When this happened everything went black and I couldn’t see anything. Not sure what to do next, so I asked for my son to give me a hug. Instantly, I heard, “Sure dad!” My son is a 6 foot huge, blonde, Scandinavian man, solid as a rock. He gets those traits from his mom’s side of the family. In the darkness I put my arms around his arms, with my finger tips barely touching behind his back, and then he hugged me back. It felt exactly the same hugging him, as it does in the waking world. We stood there hugging. I ask him if sees anything, because I couldn’t. He said he couldn’t see anything either and he had no idea where we were. We continued to hug for about a minute trying to figure out where we were. I didn’t mention we were dreaming, because things always seem to fall apart when I mention that to dream figures. I woke up as soon as the lights came back on. I saw him for an instant! I’ll ask him if he had similar dream (when he wakes up). I’m going to pick him up a Timmies hot chocolate first.

i have been having some time travel dreams lately. i was lucid or partially lucid this morning. basically all i remember was this being standing up and had no eyes. it was pretty creepy...

I was in a field. There are many people. It's really crowded. There was a young prince we're supposed to protect/attack. A child? There's a decoy.

The "prince" was on a runaway horse, and it went directly to traffic/the highway. I chased after it (not sure how; skateboard?). I was able to get rescue him and avoid dangerous cars. We kept going.

The prince is a puppy (or some sort of small animal). I was in a forest-like area. People are making offerings there for safety and wishes. I wished that the pet/prince have a peaceful life in a farm. Something about organic.

I was talking with a small group of people. One is the scientist Reina. We were in an area close to the Pasig river. We were talking of making river "buses" to go throughout Manila. Reina said this isn't viable.

I woke up in the middle of the night and remembered a couple of fragments. That's all.

Well... wow

I can't recall how or why, but I became completely lucid while in a black void. There seemed to be no visuals,no auditory input, no senses whatsoever. I couldn't sense my dream or waking body. Now I wasn't scared at all because I knew I was experiencing some dream-related phenomenon.
I thought that perhaps I could manifest a dreaming scenario, but all attempts failed. My attempts to manifest anything completely failed. I eventually decided to wait until something happened.
I stayed in the void for at least a minute before something happened. A large stone grey-brown column appeared beneath me, and my body slowly manifested. The column was carved, like one in a building IWL, but was broken off on the top and jagged. I was sitting atop the column, unable to move. I was in a meditative position.
I decided to meditate and focus on breath when I realized I couldn't feel breathing. I somehow figured that I must be in a deep sleep and therefore cannot feel my breathing. This could offer explanation for the failure of Nose Pinches.
"I must be in Nrem. I must be at the very bottom of the cycle... to get lucid here is very rare. That's probably also the reason the dream is not manifesting."
This went on for about two minutes total.

FA. I can't recall what happened. I woke up in my college dorm that for some reason was this beautiful oriental pagoda. I was writing notes in different sizes to my parents.

Ma'lady:
I was looking at my reflection it looked pretty real I performed a couple reality checks they didn't work. This Video Game world is pretty real!
I walk down a sidepath and a guy that looks like from my school says "My' Lady." When we crosspaths I say "I'm a guy so....."
he turns around "Really, huh?"
I get up the stairs some girls where posting there Ideas for weapons for the game. I was thinking of one, its a chain thing you hit people with I belive its called a wip.
All of the sudden they go ape $#!+ did they get a achivement or sumthing?
I walk over there wondering what happened then all of the sudden the lights turn off I get kind of scared the lights turn on but they flicker a bit. Then all of the sudden the elevator and entrance door start knocking hard. Are those the rumored zombies to be added in this game?
No it was...Co-Producer of the game!
The girls hiding in the worst hiding spot ever chairs (chainsaws lol) were whimpering in fear the Co-Producer had Military people behind him they wearn't in the game..."Do I a search their may be more people."
Timeskip -
They find me and start talking about being the Producer or Principal I'm horrible at paying attention...
They need my codes for somereason I give it up to them.
He is now Producer/Principal...this is either good or bad.
The guy had a evil smirk on his face.
(Oh remember my last entry it wasn't a LD I can't recall if it was or wasn't...)

non-dream dream lucid

Would be the perfect WBTB actually.

Nonetheless I do remember a dream, just not with too much detail.

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I am in a store, running around.
A DC is with me as well, telling me what to do.
I remember walking out of the store and it's during night, but the parking lot is well lit by the lights?

Non lucid dull stuff...

Climbing u a heather covered wee hill with a couple of others, I was worried about ticks. I reached the top and there was a gravel track at the top.

The recycling box at the shop was completely full after a few hours, I was cheesed off and wondering how that could have happened.

Serving a lady at my shop, my wee boy was beside me. She was buying a shirt, I asked her if she needed a bag for 5p as per new Scottish regulations , she said she had her own, it was one of our green ones and had a sticky label on it. I bagged the shirt up , there was a pound coin under the bag. - This dream qualifies as the most boring and real life typical dream I have ever had!

Standing outside with my barber. I was eating half a roll. My barbers car was a big black thing and was parked beside us. Two old woman got into his car. My barber peered through the drivers window and said 'Will you be ok to wait a wee while - I'm fell hungry.' The ladies replied 'But we're freezing, can we stay in here?'

wow

I got on a school bus and quickly took my seat. The bus continue to move, there was a person three seats behind me. We began talking about future accomplishments and how to go about them. Then we discuss about smoking and I ask him why was he interested since he knew it would only end up killing him. He said didn't mind the harmful effects. A kid one seat beside me was looking at me with disgust. I don't hate people smoke, I just don't see the point I said. That's when the bus stop and both of the kids I were talking to left. Then another kid sat next to me and ask me what are good ways to fall asleep faster? He proclaimed that he wanted to take a quick nap before his stop arrives. I began to tell him to close his eyes and to think about any question that can keep him guessing while also lying completely down. He ask me can he move while being in this process. I told him yes, but try not to move much. He smiled, and not long he fell asleep. The bus has stop, it was my time to leave. The bus driver got up and gave me a handshake, telling me he heard some great things in school about me. I thought he was joking because I recalled before in this dream that I had got in trouble. I pat him on the back and left. When I got off I was instantly inside my father room. I notice this and began wondering if this is a dream? I knew something was wrong because usually I would have t walk a long way to get to the house. I look at my fingers and realize they are bleeding with precise cuts on the very tip of them. That's not right, when has this ever happen? I quickly took off the short sleeve button shirt as I never recalled having it. But when I did take the shirt off my arms came off as well. That's when I lost the lucidity and began smashing my head against the wall for some reason. I soon woke up. Lucidity Time: 8 seconds

non-dream dream lucid

Stayed up a long time again due to Desert Bus for Hope. (Damn they have a nice stream layout this year and I've seen some awesome stream layouts.)

I started up my WBTB clock (goes off 4 hours after its started up regardless of when its started up) and went to sleep.

Woke up once, 2 hours before the clock, and immediately went back to sleep, woke up again 4 mins before the alarm and closed it.

I then practiced SSILD cycles, and went back to sleep.

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I recall jumping in between falling shipping containers. I then recall gliding down a curved rail that almost looks like a spring.
I am then on a menu where OverTheGun is talking about saving the birds or something like that.
I am looking through a container with a glass window.

Eventually I'm in my back yard, the game having ended. It's very similar to IWL except the house is longer and there's more trees. Everything's also very blue strangely enough.

I'm here with the DCs from the ending of the game, sitting in a ditch. There's a bunch of kittens here.
I am talking to one DC, and then I start getting aware.
I start looking around almost immediately.
I then realize I'm dreaming, and I continue to look around for a bit, looking at how real everything looks. I feel the grass and I hear what it sounds like. I then say "I'm dreaming". I then realize that I'm probably about to wake up soon, so I tell the DCs that I'm about to wake up.

Everything starts getting really blurry, and I get pulled out of the dream. I then feel myself in my bed.

"Don't move! You can still continue! Just think about the dream lightly!"
I lay there for a few seconds, before a DEILD begins.

I'm in my basement after the DEILD, and I look around.
My mom is there, and I yell "I'M DREAMING!" right out of the Stanley parable.

My mom comes over and asks what's up, and i tell her "I'm dreaming right now". She starts hugging me and telling me "You're alright!". I feel the dream start to destabilize.

I tell her "The dream is destabilizing!" and I start rubbing my hands together. I can feel my hands rubbing together bug it feels very blurry as well.

It comes back but its slow. I then get up and look around, and everything looks crystal clear. The basement is much larger than IWL and there's more wood than normal. Most of my vision is taken up by mom though, oddly enough. I ask her "What is the best dream stabilization technique for me?". She doesn't talk, but instead she just grabs me by the nose and pulls me forward towards the steps.

We start walking up the steps and I recall the other LD where I woke up walking up the steps. I start thinking "This is bad shit, don't go up there!" but by doing this the dream is destroyed and I wake up.

I DEILD again.

I open my eyes in my kitchen, on a bed. Already strange as obviously there isn't a bed hovering in my kitchen IWL, and even if there was, you wouldn't want to sleep there.

I look around and everything is blurry but I notice that the walls of the kitchen are of the same siding that the living room is made out of. It's very dark brown. I get up and do a nose pinch RC, and I can breath through, noticing the same effect from the last LD. Interestingly I don't slip while doing it as well.

I then walk into the living room. Most of the stuff from IWL is here except it has a Victorian style. I look around again and everything is blurry, but I notice that if I stair at the same scene for more than a few seconds, that it becomes crystal clear. Clearer than IWL.

I walk into the hallway, and I look around again.
It's almost identical to the hallway IWL. There's a vacuum cleaner in the corner, and the white shelf from IWL isn't there. I walk towards the bathroom door, but I don't open it.

I notice a towel on the vacuum cleaner, and I look at it. I look at how real it is. I can look at every single thread on the towel with surprising accuracy.

I start walking towards the end of the hallway where the steps are, and everything feels completely real. To the point where the omnipresent dream feeling goes away and I have to actually verbally remind myself that I'm dreaming.

I then say "This is why you don't just become lucid from any random dream, THIS. Look how friggin real everything looks!". I look at the gate that blocks off the stairs (not that I was planning to go down them). I then turn around and walk back to the living room where everything fades and I wake up again.

I start doing DEILD again but I can feel my breathing this time. I then think about it for a bit before deciding to just get up.

I then start writing this down.

Spoiler for Temp:

temporary things:

I only remember fragments of this dream. I don't remember how they fit together.

running down a metal spring > standing beside a storage container > standing in the night > OTG switching character > end up beating the game. Apparently the end of the game is set in my back yard lol.


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I am in the back yard and everything is all blue, all of a sudden I become more aware, and then I realize I'm dreaming, just because the environment I know isn't part of real life. The DCs from the dream are here. I don't even remember their names except that a few were kittens.

I just kinda lay in a ditch in the back yard (which isn't here iwl) and I can feel the grass. Then the dream starts to fade, and I'm in my bed.

"Don't move! You can still enter a dream!"
I wait for a few seconds and eventually a dream begins.


I'm in a bed. I'm in my kitchen oddly, I get up. I think "yeah these aren't a part of my kitchen. Just to confirm I nose pinched. Everything around me looked completely real, completely immersive. However, moving around into unfamiliar places made my vision blurry. Looking at a scene for only a few seconds made everything crystal clear.
I'm not sure if this is how it works, or if I was supposed to be like this in the dream.

I walk into my hallway.
There's what looks to be a vacuum cleaner with a green towel on it. I look at the green towel and I can see every cloth on the towel. I then look back into the living room, but it's blurry so I turn back to the hallway.

I walk towards the steps, and the gate is closed. I look around again and everything feels completely real.

"You see, this is why you don't just become lucid from dream scenes, THIS."
I then notice that the omnipresent dreamy feeling kinda fades away at this point, and I actually have to remind myself that it's a dream.

I wasn't here to go down the stairs, so I turned around back into my living room when the dream destabilizes, and I'm back in my bed. The dream exited more forcefully and I can feel myself breathing.


I decide not to have another DEILD, and I get up.

Jings! - I dreamt a whole night of rubbish!!! all non lucid..

1) Watching a Scottish sketch show - think it was meant to be 'Naked Video'. They had a guest star - a young Elton John! - It looked nothing like Elton John, he was also Scottish, and had a weird pork pie white hat jammed on his head. As I recall, he didn't sing but said a wee rhyme. There was a sketch set on an aeroplane which was amusing at the time, but its gone now.

2) On a train, there was an announcement that a female celebrity had just died, I had never heard of her. I said to someone that I listened to Radio 4 that morning and she wasn't mentioned.

3) Lighting up a fag in my car, then remembering that I wasn't smoking in my new car! (which is true IRL) I wound the window right down and hoped the car wouldnae stink.

4) Looking through a box of complete crap somewhere. There was a woman behind me.
She said 'Most of the people died, apart from a few who found shelter.'
I said nothing a picked up a wee round piece of crap covered in blue cellophane - it had a wee screw through the middle
She said 'See? - that man died because someone put a screw through the middle'
I threw the piece of junk back in the box....

5) In a supermarket or something. I was supposed to package up various items and present them to people. I found a black cotton jacket, there were two items in it, some rubbishy thing and also a set of keys with a snapped key ring. For some reason I remembered who it belonged to and ran down the aisle to meet them. there were about four people standing about and I handed the keys to the man, I don't think they said anything. I went back to where I started thinking that I maybe wasn't supposed to have done that. I then stood looking at a load of shelves filled with fruit and tried to remember what I was supposed to do.....