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Couldn't recall any dreams on the 28th but today i recalled one. I was at school and i was walking to my car after school. I saw a lot of people i knew but i kept to myself the way there. Suddenly i turned away from my car and started walking down the side walk on the side of my school. It seemed like everyone was walking. Then on what i assume was a mega phone someone yelled, "If you have a green colored pencil run!" and a friend of mine who's in my art class went sprinting and then i woke up. I unfortunately couldn't remember more because my mom woke me up early.

One:

I was in high school, and it was the last day before spring break. After class the teacher kept a few of us in the room, and asked us to beta read some fiction that other students wrote. She laid all the stories out in a vertical row on this bar thing, and we went up and picked one each. Mary, a friend of mine from high school, picked up the weird Zoolander fanfic, which was the one I wanted. So instead I picked the erotic MA rated story, figuring I could learn a thing or two about writing that sort of thing. As I was flipping through it, I realized it was HORRIBLY BAD. Like, they used the most disturbing terminology to describe penises and I just kept laughing. So I put it in my bag and left the room.

Before I left the school, I realized I was on my period (ugh) so I ran into the restroom to get a tampon real quick, and I noticed the restroom was DISGUSTING. Like, there were puddles of pee all over the floor and stuff. I nope'd on out of there and went into the men's restroom instead, and it was super clean. Which was weird, because usually the stereotype is the other way around. So as I left the restroom, I put on my headphones and put my mp3 player and my iPod in my pocket, and walked down the hall. I bumped into Misha Collins, but I kept calling him Castiel, and we walked out into the parking lot together, talking about things. It was raining outside and he lamented over the fact that he couldn't put his headphones on like me because he was afraid the rain would short circuit them and that his iPod couldn't fit in his pocket. He was totally bitching about it. I was like "Dude, they totally fit in your pocket..." and showed him that I had both that and my phone in my pocket. This just blew his mind for some reason. We parted ways in the parking lot and I headed out to my car.

Two:

Mom was headed on a road trip to see grandma, and I was pissed because she wouldn't let me come along. So as she drove off, I grabbed on to the car and just sat on top of the trunk while she drove along. I have no idea how she didn't notice me there.

The road trip was super long, and a few times I fell off and had to grab onto the bumper to keep from hitting the road, so by the time we got there, I was tired as hell. She pulled in down the gravel path and stopped and got out, and was pissed off that I'd hitched a ride like that. She was also screaming about how I could've died. I replied that she was a horrible driver because if she had looked in ANY of her mirrors she would've seen me. I walked around the property by myself.

Three:

Something about Cory withdrawing $100 from the bank account and using it to buy some little thing, and I got angry because he kept taking money out of the account so he could spend it on things without me knowing. He was also late from work a lot so I was accusing him of horrible shit.

Four:

Something involving Seru getting really pissed and drop kicking some dude. I remember feeling tense and thinking WTF. Also at some point I noticed my nail polish was completely wiped clean. I just stared at my nails all weirded out. It was the first dream of the night, and by the time I finished remembering the other dreams, I totally forgot most of this one.

Got to bed really late and had no hope of getting lucid, but somehow it worked out! Woke up several times and the last bit was lucid!

-WILD into my livingroom, feeling very prickly. I feel like all my hair is standing on end and really hard, like plastic. In some spots the hairs feel like plastic hooks like on velcro. Sounds are really loud and clear and things feel freaky. I push through this and float out the front door before immediately thinking of the moon rock eating task. I zip back inside the open door and down a hallway. I hear my daughter whining and getting closer quickly. I reach a table at a corner of the hall and it has a bowl of rocks on it, among other junk. I look through the bowl and find a grey rock filled with holes which I KNOW is a moon rock. It feels really hard and I'm hesitant to bite it, but I do so carefully. It hurts my teeth a lot but finally breaks in half. I try to chew the half in my mouth but it won't break up anymore. It tastes like salt and minerals. I finally just swallow it like a pill. When I turn around, my daughter has crawled around the corner and is watching me. I grab her and phase out of the house through the window. I figure she's gonna follow me anyway and I might as well take her with me. This turns into a long non-lucid about live action D&D in my grandma's old back yard, very fun.

-DEILD back in (an actual chain! It's been so long! ) to my living room and Lk is there walking around. It feels odd and very real and I'm not QUITE sure I'm dreaming so I do an RC and sure enough I am. Lk has some kind of problem going on or some kind a question he needs answered and we both know that H can answer it. I tell Lk this and he agrees. I figure H is coming over, but Lk just sits down and gets on the phone with him. I refuse to give up on H coming here, so I decide to help it along with my expectation powers. I think to myself that they're just talking on the phone while he drives this way. I walk towards the door that leads to the car port and I see headlights pull up into it. I walk out and H is in the driver's seat of a big, nice SUV which I think is white. He gets out and I move stuff out of his way so he can get to the door. As he goes in I stay really close to him and put off an intimate vibe and he leans down and kisses me on the forehead... I'll take it lol. This devolves into a NLD where we all try to figure out the problem or whatever it was.

I'm gonna count that kiss persuasion as mind control because I didn't use any language or signals etc.

Morning of August 29, 2015. Saturday.



The above image is solely representative of a dream and is not meant to imply or reflect any aspect or opinion of a real location.

There is a rural church that comes to mind. It seems I had actually gone there for a time until I realized it was futile (this faux history is only in my dream). I am not sure where it is, though I get an impression it may be in one of the New England states in America. This is a brand new concept that was unveiled to me in my dream’s otherwise meandering forms. Even after waking, I feel as if I have a subtle piece of someone else’s memory somehow, though this is not logical at all because I doubt there was such a church that became like this one.

The church used to have a cross on the front above the entrance. This cross has since transformed into a trident over time, perhaps a year or two. I am astounded by this concept and altered imagery, as it had never crossed my mind at any point before in my life, or perhaps it is because I had not given much thought to the cross in the first place (and I had never been to any church in my life other than for a couple funerals). The only real difference between the cross and the trident is the extended and raised arms - otherwise they are nearly the same. As such, one might think it to be a symbol for praise (to the sky above) or even ascension. Instead, on one level, it is damaging, perhaps; the pitchfork. There can be a fork in a road and there can also be crossroads.How can something “speak” so intimately for the first time? Has it “spoken” before?

This dream left me with a very odd “new” feeling and it certainly can be said that hardly any dreams do that for me these days, at least not in this particular unique way - as if it was “not me” in even the slightest way (related to the idea or faux memory), since it seemed completely “outside” of myself for whatever reason, almost as if I was looking into the mind of another for the first time (though I do not know whom).

Any personal associations likely arose from “Percy Jackson: Sea of Monsters” (in which the trident is associated with the hero) - seen just previously - and the aforementioned absentminded confusion between “fork in the road” and “crossroads”. My dream self can be identified with Percy Jackson and forming a stronghold of differentiated and more intimate and viable spirituality; perhaps a “new house” to explore without the prior scorn of the general populace.

I'm gonna skip just about all of this since it was all very awkward. Let's just say that one of my friends wanted me to help them relieve some stress and sonic the hedgehog was getting a different kind of chili dog than he usually does. I lucidly woke myself up from both dreams when things weren't going my way.

'Twas laughing all the way when I wrote this in my private DJ. I know some people like to post their sex dreams and even I do it every so often, but only when I feel comfortable with the dreams, as funny as they were, I am not comfortable.

I was at church. There was going to be some sort of children's ceremony, possibly a baptism. I was waiting with a stroller. The child in the stroller at some point said "Terrific". I was amazed, since this child did not look old enough to use such a word. It turned out that the child was five, though she did not look it, but I still thought she was terrific. I called her mom over to tell her how amazed I was by her daughter, only to discover that the mother paid only attention to her son, and ignored her daughter! The woman who plaid the mom in the dream in reality is a church member, but she has no son, has two daughters, who are both older already, and luckily does not ignore either one.

I have a suspicion I remembered another dream upon waking up but did not immediately write it down, and forgot!

Sleeping: August 6th 2015, 11:30 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: August 7th 2015, 5:40 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening

I couldn't remember when did this start, but I was in a my school's canteen. Everything was normal and loud around me. I was sitting on a table with someone else at opposite side, nobody else. It was quite serious conversation on what he had been doing. This included mentioning of his guilt and such also, until I noticed something weird. I slid my index finger from left to right, in front of him. Called out a window which included information that he had 4,294,967,295 HP. Maximum of UInt32 variable. I acknowledged that and continued the serious conversation with him. He continued speaking on his guilty topic, including how and why he 'hacked' his life.

Not sooner than that, he started trying to punch me. I quickly jumped out of table and mentioned how it wasn't possible for me to fight. He came out and continued. Most of punches came in slow rate as there were always another sentences after it. Of course, I did talk too, and tried fighting back. It went on until we found what we were doing was complete nonsense. We got back to our table and sat down. Continued this gruesome conversation. He also said he wanted me to tell this to police for some reason. I kept asking him why, but I never understood why he would even. It was unreasonable. It continued to the point where he decided to leave, telling me that I couldn't help him feel any emotionally better. I struggled to say anything, but told him I'll think about this favor. He walked out, thanked me for at least talking with him.

I decided to go back to home, and I was then there. However, I walked into door at side of my home instead. I unlocked the door and walked in. Everything looked like a mixture of my usual house and my cousins' house somewhere far away. I walked into the bedroom and lied down to the bed. Stretching my arms out above my head and kept thinking about what happened. Until then, I heard someone's car parking at my house, then came in my home. They, which I assumed it was my family member/cousin, walked in and warned me about how suspicious I was. "They suspected you being able to teleport around places since that case." I just nodded then continued feeling strange in my bed. He/she walked out and did their things as they would do in daily life.

Soon afterwards, I woke up. Recalled this and related "suspected teleport" to one of my other dreams. Actually, two. I still struggle to remember what that guy said and what I said to that guy. Who was that guy, also? That wasn't friend, wasn't stranger either. Name that popped up in my head when I was wondering was only "Reflection of myself"/"Cloned Reflection". I can only relate them to something I have yet to interpret. All those quotes from my other dreams.

I'm leaving note of "something along these lines" type of messages I might have said to that dream character. Included what he might have said to me.

• Why would you even do this?
• I know, I won't be matching against you anyways.
• What's the point? There's no point doing this.
• YOU are crazy. Stop thinking too much.
• I don't understand what you're even trying to tell me right now.
• Stop your attempt to help me. You're not making me feel any better. In fact, WORSE.
• This is my darkest secret, but please tell them. At least make some signs, please.
• I'll think about it.
• Thanks, that's enough.
• etc.

There are much more than this, and these are just something I could thought of. I didn't remember who said which also.

Related dreams

• Pre-Journal Entry - Unknown Date - Home of success

First dream

With my friends we were breaking into some kind of government offices. We were going to the archives, to take some information we needed. We were wandering the building, and then we were in a corridor leading to the archives. There was an office to our left - there was no one inside. The only thing that have drawn my attention was an aquarium. Then there was an intersecting corridor, also to the left, and directors office, also on the left side. The only room to the right were the archives.

The dimmensions might have been different, and the aquarium office could've been closer to the corridor. The way down from the aquarium office could've been closed by door without ways to open it.

First time, we moved into the aquarium office. I looked at random fishes swimming in jelly-like substance. Then we got into the intersection with another corridor. The guards were going that way, and they shot us as soon as they saw us.

Then the dream repeated. We moved into aquarium office, and went to the intersection. There were no guards this time, but as we moved closer to directors office a woman went out of it - she was a tall brunette woman with brown eyes. She was wearing a long, dark blue dress. When my friends saw her, they have immediately died for some unknown reason.

And the dream repeated again. We moved out of aquarium office (each time random fishes were swimming in jelly-like substance), head for the directors office and entered it. There was an elderly woman inside. She was friendly for us, and told us to have a seat, while she'll make some coffee.

Again repeat. We moved out of aquarium office, and head for directors office. On the way we saw that brunette woman, she had some weapon, and killed the elderly woman with it. Then we found some guns, and show her down. We finally reached the archives, and looked for information we needed.

First dream fragment

With my younger sister we were tidying the attic, to make ourselves bedrooms up there. Each time I walked close to the ladder, I almost fallen down.

Second dream fragmend

I was entering my classroom, found a good place to sit, and sat down.

Early alarms, wine before bed = bad recall. Dreams were longer, but just tiny fragments remembered.

+(f) in a busy office, pushing tons of paperwork around, a lawsuit?

+(f) one (or two?) of my ex-GFs as younger girls on TV shows, faces distorted & wrong, SB was not accepted

+(f) the guy was jamming on the improvised guitar in the boy scouts(?), I hear another patrol call my name they need my help

+(f) young boy (midget?) grocery store checkout clerk helps be with my items

- I was in a bathroom, except the bathroom was mostly empty space and didn't have what you'd usually see in one (toilet, bathtub). My little brother was sleeping on the floor, socks littered all around him. I tried maneuvering around, but it was was really messy.

- I was thinking about the sampler I would be releasing soon. I'd already gotten some "good" clips (one was a C7 double). I was thinking about doing a C9 triple since I'd already gotten dbl down. It was going to be difficult getting clips from now on (for whatever reason); I'd probably only be able to get one per session.

- I was messaging a girl that felt like Usagi. Her name was Bree (same name as athegirl from my semi-lucid ... hmm ...) and she had a profile picture of a girl with bunny ears. I asked her what the secret behind her ears was, but for no response back. Apparently, she was a spammer.

- There are three people in a car: a man, and a woman with her child. The car's windows are a bright white, such that I can't see beyond them. Apparently the man and woman are getting married against their will. The man is a bit hesitant; he feels sorry about what's happening. The woman re-assures him that it's fine, and that she wouldn't be able to make it through (something) without his help.

Haven't had much luck with getting lucid these past couple of weeks. Though, I've managed 3-4 lucids this month already so I'm fine with it.

Points:
- 1 NLD (1pt)
- WBTB (2pt)

COMP TOTAL: 85

Driving down the highway with my mom in the driver's seat, we're talking about things. You know, the usual update stuff that doesn't change much from week to week. My girlfriend comes up in the conversation at some point and my mom get's really jealous. I can tell she's really upset over something. She stops talking and just steps on the gas. Okay, so she's upset, that's fine I think as I watch the scenery whip by faster and faster.

I look over at her and she's practically in tears now as we pass 100 mph. I start to feel uncomfortable as she drives faster and faster. She and I are pretty well connected, and without saying a word, I just know that she's thinking, "If I can't have him, no one will" and that she's going to crash the car and kill us both. At this point we're going over 120 mph and I don't know what to do about this situation. I consider taking the wheel and spinning the car out of control to a stop, but since we're going so fast, that could be just as deadly as whatever she has planned. That's actually the only thing I think to do other than ride it out.

Maybe if I just sit here peacefully she'll have a change of heart before it's too late... I quietly hope as the situation gets super tense for me. I see a turn in the road with no guard rail, and a huge cliff over the edge. This must be where she's headed. That's okay though, we still have a few seconds for her to change her mind. No sooner do I think that than the car careens off the road and over the cliff. My stomach sinks, my hair stands on end, and I look out the window. Several hundred feet below I can hardly see the ground it's so far away. This is it, this is how my end finally comes I think as it dawns on me that there's no way out of this one.

Despite the distance, in a matter of seconds the car smashes into rocks below. The dash smashes my head and everything goes black after a brief white flash.

Gradually, some color starts to fade into my awareness and I find myself standing amidst massive crystals of every color, all arranged immaculately and beautifully. The most amazing sight I've ever seen! It all feels so peaceful as well.

I walk through the crystals as I sense some purpose for me. I don't know precisely what I am supposed to do, but I do know that I can't just stay put and kick off my shoes just yet. So I walk through a breathtaking crystal maze with glowing lights coming from just about every crystal. I don't know what I'm looking for, but I'm looking for something.

I reach a huge palace and dozens of really nice people greet me. They're all strangely familiar, yet I can't quite place how I know them. Also, they all seem so peaceful and happy, like everything is perfect, and they have no worries. They call out to me and we exchange small talk for a bit. It comes up that I can really do anything I want now. I think about this for a second and decide that the best thing I can do is show the example of someone attaining enlightenment, and refocus my mind on the spiritual path.

Everything starts to blur for a bit, and I reappear clearly firing a rocket at someone who is trying to steal a huge diamond from a bank. As I fire the rocket, I realize it's my mom! Somehow I manage to stop it from killing her and run over. She looks at me hesitantly, as I do the same to her. I don't know if I can let my guard down around her anymore after she just killed me. She apologizes for killing me and we talk about what happened after I died. She tells me that she survived the crash, but I didn't. It was deemed an accident, but she was really distraught over it for a long time. I tell her that it's okay, I forgive her. But it still might take me some time before I get in the car with her again.

She's okay with that.

My recall has been slack but I feel like I've been LDing left and right.

I recall being in what felt like my grandparents' house. (Man, I am sick of dreaming of this place.) But at the same time it was like some post apocolyptic setting with destroyed concrete and bent rebar everywhere.

There also seemed to be a lot of water. Seeping through the cracks in the fractured concrete pavement. Puddles of water. A mist and/or a light rain occurring. Everything was blue. I recall I was flying above the rubble and debris and I landed in the area that felt like my grandparents house. I found I was unable to take off agian.

I figured it was because I fly using fire jets and maybe the humidity was preventing them from working. I thought about how this was a dream so the logic of water-beats-fire didn't have to apply and I should be able to fly anywhere.

I recall an old lady was there. She wasn't my mom, or my grandmother. She said that she was a photographer and she wanted to take my portrait. She told me to go into the bathroom and get fixed up first. I walked into the bathroom. The mirror was cracked and the entire bathroom was tipped on a 10-15 degree angle.

I looked in the mirror and saw that I was my waking life self. Hmm... odd... Usually the dream makes me look totally different. I figured it was a dream portrait and therefore I should change into my dream self. I made myself vanish and re-appear.

I was hideous. I had these grayish brown blobs hanging down from my forehead and my nose was five times its normal size and oozing snot. My body was ribcage thin, but I had a round circular belly and really skinny legs. I was making some kind of wheezing sound involuntarily.

Oops. I hate it when dreams do that. I get that it some kind of message about how I view myself. It's not one that I like, but it's a message that I need to acknowledge nonetheless.

I then managed to change over to my dream self properly. I almost had it but I was really short and out of proportion. I think my face was very tall as well. My head was two or three feet high without being any wider than a standard human head. I began stretching and squeezing various parts of my body and forming it into a recognizable human form. (Complete with cartoonish stretch and squish sounds).

After some tinkering I got myself to look right. I remember blinking repeatedly and my eye color kept alternating from side to side. Usually the right eye is the blue one, or at least that's the way i remember it. At one point I even got both eyes to be brown. That was weird. I was never able to do that before...

I then began thinking about how ugly my default appearance is sometimes, and how beautiful it is others. I was worried that my DCs see me as some kind of freak. I then remembered how Manei and Marcus make appearance mistakes. Like at least the dozen times Manei has had a mustache...

I lost the dream when the lady came in and asked me to take my picture.

Okay, so first I was in a zombie apocalypse, and I realized there was a good zombie. I realized I was safe from him. Then I somehow found a witch's house and drove the witch away. I remember that there was a sock that if I put it on my right foot, it would signal someone or something. I had a false memory that I had been there before, and looked under a rug to see a trapdoor to the basement. I wanted to go down there, but I didn't wanna fall. I looked to the right to see a little play area. There were a lot of rooms and to get to the next room, you had to complete a task. When I got to the room, I realized the room was now at Disneyworld. At some point I became lucid, but I don't remember when.. The rooms vaguely reminded me of the horror movie Cube. I saw my friend Irie, who's a lot shorter than me, but I made her taller than me (idk why). I made it to the top room (after some science experiments XD) and tried to imagine there was a nice penthouse on top of the rooms. I tried to break the ceiling Minecraft style but I got an error saying I couldn't. I decided to go on a couple of rides. Then I had a couple of false awakenings and did a reality check with both of them, but didn't have any control. but then I woke up for real.

The first lucid was interesting. Starrts out with me on a bus talking to my friend and his dad. I'm flipping through my DJ on the bus about to fall asleep, go to bed wake up in my basement and wonder if im dreaming, RC but I have 5 fingers, so I go back to sleep in my dream. I wake up in a new dream and am immediately lucid, I talk to three girls around me asking them to become my teachers, but it doesn;t work and I wake up.


My next lucid is crazy, I'm at a ski resort and get "beamed" down from the top of the mountain to the bottom via green light. My dad and I pick ourselves up out the snow, and head into a sauna. I realize i'm dreaming. I walk out of this sauna and see a woman, I try to enforce sexy time with her and fly into the air and we have our fun up there, which was quite enjoyable. i see a castle in my peripherals and lose lucidity, and transition into a NLD where I talk to my brother about shared dreams and dream journals so maybe a semi lucid.

My third lucid was great too. I'm walking down the woods on a path tht leads to the road. I make it to the road and immediately ask the first person who passes me if I can use their camel to hitch a ride, even offering to pay them twenty bucks. They decline, and another group comes through which is more friendly. They say they will "take me" to where I need to go free of charge. I tell the girl who is with me that, "This is what I love about life. Crossing paths and meeting interesting people who are kind and like minded." I follow this girl until we get to a town, and I see a friend from high school who is getting undressed and I go in fro a hug and immediately become lucid. I walk into the bathroom and ask the dream to show me something I need to know, and begin to search for that thing in the dresser drawers in the bathroom, but only find a hair brace. I try to manipulate the air around me by doing hand motions a la avatar aang but instead I end up pushing the steam and water that was in the shower. I walk outside and try to TK the DC's but I make the swiping moiton with my hands and nothing happens. Then I wake up

Keep trying WILD hoping to get acclimatised to sensations.

Tryed resting in heart chakra as noticed sensation of jumping back to head area on returning to wakefulness.