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Note: This is a school day, so I only really have time to make this basic. I'll come back later on and describe this in more detail.

In the English class, and the first paragraph of the essay was not due, and instead we were meant to do something else . . . something to do with commas. There were two whiteboards that the teacher was writing on, and she told us she wanted us to make sure we wrote in cursive.

She had put a "top 10 students" for that class, and I was the third. Girl from my old high school was number two, and then a boy that I sit beside (who's actually kinda bad at writing) was number one. I remember the girl from the old high school was putting an answer or something on the board.

Then I was back home, but we (my mother, Dakota, Jon, and I) all lived in this other place, not sure where. Dakota had a new phone, and he was trying it out in the lunch room/kitchen. We ended up finding the bread rolls and eating a few.

First Lucid Dream since I joined this forum! Score!! Ok, LD was short lived though. I saw a contest about testing how long you can stay in an LD, which I'm not sure how you count time in a dream, but I know for a fact this one only lasted a few minutes tops.

The beginning of this dream was weird though. I don't think this was a WILD technique...maybe it was, IDK, but it definitely involved WBTD (?) the wake up and go back to sleep thing. So, my boyfriend was snoring real loud, which pissed me off because I was sleeping so well before he came to bed. I got up and went to sleep on the couch. From there, I started getting real comfortable, sleeping on my side, facing the back of the couch; my back to the living room. So the reason I'm not sure if this is a WILD is because I didn't intentionally stay conscious while falling into a dream. I just remember the very beginning of the dream because it started with me laying on the couch trying to go to sleep. But I kept hearing these voices in the living room, like soft murmurings and it terrified me that "something" might be in the room with me. I lied there on the couch trying to ignore this creepy feeling that I wasn't alone and tried to go to sleep...in the dream. I remember I thought I heard my dog come into the living room. I thought I felt her brush past me in the dream and I heard her dog collar jingling, but I still lied on the couch too scared to move because I still thought there was "something" in the room. This must have gone on for almost an hour (in real time because I didn't realize I was dreaming until later) until I heard my boyfriend getting up and showering like he was getting ready for work. In my dream, I registered that as extremely odd that he'd be up in the middle of the night trying to shower, but I didn't say anything. At that point, I got the courage to get off the couch because if my boyfriend was up then, it must have been safe to do the same (haha, dream logic!).

When I woke up, I was still in my apartment, kind of. The dream environment didn't really shift on me, however it was understood in my dream that the apartment belonged to my friend, Amy. She had some of her relatives over, like a small family reunion, there was music and snack food and what not. I went to the back of the apartment to the bedroom. I passed my boyfriend, who'd just gotten out of the shower, naked with a towel wrapped around his head (he has long dreads). When I got to the bedroom, I "remembered" that I was back there to retrieve this little baby boy, about 12 months old. He was absolutely adorable and a smart baby. He was naked but a diaper, mixed and brown curly hair. I remember he was playing near the nightstand where I keep all of my remotes and chargers and other electrical devices. I picked him up, but he got his foot entwined in the wiring. I told him to shake his foot loose, and he did. I remember being impressed by that. As I'm carrying the baby back to his mom, that's when I realized that I was dreaming!

Sometimes, when I have an LD, I tell all the characters in the dream about it. Especially if I'm about to wake up, I often say goodbye to the characters; but in some cases, like this one, I just keep that little bit of info to myself. I remember thinking, "Yes! An LD! Finally!" I did a little happy dance in my head and started thinking about how I could manipulate this dream. There wasn't much to work with, but I knew I could turn that around. And then...ultimate disappointment. The apartment in which the dream was set was on the 4th or 5th floor of a building. Amy and her relatives were outside on the front porch, which was facing the courtyard, next to the stairwell. From the bottom of the stairwell, I heard this CREEPY ASS VOICE calling my name.... It sent chills through my body and my immediate emotion was a combination of fear and anger. I thought, "My first LD in three weeks and this son-of-a-bitch dream is trying to turn into a nightmare!!!"

So, I thought to myself, this is NOT how it's about to go down. I did what I do best...well, actually I can't even say that honestly because I kind of suck at Summoning, but whenever I have a LD it's my automatic go-to. I say I suck at it because, I can always summon someone it's just that sometimes it's not the person I wanted. So, I have a list of people I like to call on consistently, this group of people are collectively called the Guardians. You can think of them sort of like the Avengers, they're simply characters from a story I am currently writing. It's hard to successfully summon them because they aren't real people and the only thing I have as a visual of them are photos I've pulled off the internet (in most cases). Anyway, the first person that came to mind to Summon (and I had to be quick before this dream turned into a Nightmare on me) was a boy named Will. 17, black hair, blue eyes, tall. However, I didn't focus hard enough because I was limited on time and I was scared of the Voice at the bottom of the stairwell. There came a knock at the door. One of the relatives opened the door and someone in jeans and a blue hoodie with the hood drawn over the head, face in shadow appeared at the threshold. So, I'm thinking at this point that this figure that showed could have been one of two people, this dream could have gone one of two ways: a) The figure could have been Will, who I summoned and then all would be right in the world; b) the figure could have been the evil Voice at the bottom of the stair well and I'd be forced to deal with this nightmare all by myself. Fortunately for me, it wasn't B, but neither really was it A. Because my summoning didn't go to plan, the person that arrived was a blond haired guy with tattoos on his face (nice, colorful tattoos at that, had to appreciate the art), but it wasn't my Will. However! He said he was a messenger and this is the message he brought: "The guardians are coming."

At that point, I awoke. Tsk.

- On a bus, I think I was escaping something. Images of a forum discussion but can't remember what I was reading, but something to do with why I was on the bus.
- The bus stopped and I got out. I was in Germany during the second world war and knew I had to pretend to be German or I would get into trouble. I walked quickly and crossed a road dodging several vans and another bus. Then a German officer came up beside me and started talking to me in German, somehow I could understand what he was saying but I can't speak a word of German. I remembered a few words and mumbled and he seems satisfied that I was really not English.

- Then I was in a canteen and there were several round tables. I was with someone (?from school) who sat at one table and I knew that I was not important enough to sit there. I sat at a different table and waited. Then other people arrived and sat down, I think they were people from my school days. I was given a drink but it was only half full and everyone else had a full cup and I thought I didn't deserve any more. The we were given a piece of quiche and it was very tough. I ate mine and my daughter was at the table by now and she tried hers, we were the only two to eat any.

STILL NO MORE LUCID DREAMS!!!

Morning of September 21, 2015. Monday.



This is a long dream with a clear and maintained perspective, though never lucid. I am in Brazil and speaking Brazilian Portuguese throughout, though there is also a consistent awareness that everything translates into English in “real time”. It starts out in a slum near some markets at the top of a higher hill though I eventually find my way to a different area where a Caucasian male (probably in his early thirties) is attempting to sell a pickup truck to an older Brazilian male. I interrupt their conversation, saying that I can sell him the truck he needs. I tell him to wait where he is and I will bring it around (from behind a building at an intersection). No truck exists yet, though I know I can just manifest one and sell it to him (again, even though I have no lucid awareness).

I go to an area out of sight from the other males and see at least one outdoor cafe. There are a lot of people around. I mentally focus and a dark blue pickup truck appears, and some people are somewhat surprised. I drive it back the short distance to the other males and show it to the potential buyer. He seems interested but I tell him I have another one I can show him. It seems important that the truck can be driven on an incline and this vehicle may not be powerful enough.

I go around and mentally will another pickup truck into existence. This one is smaller and of an orange color but it is a newer model than the previous. When I take it to the potential buyer though, the bed is apparently too small to hold as much as he needs it to. I then remember that modern new products are not only not made very well (or made to last very long), but that there has been a problematic trend towards miniaturization of everything. I tell him that I will go and bring back a third pickup truck which I am sure he will find suitable.

I go around to the cafe area again to create a pickup truck out of thin air for the third time. This one is a red one from the 1950s. When I bring it around (being careful not to hit any of the obstacles coming out of the parking lot and into the street again), I notice that instead of a cab, the front now looks a bit like an oversized steering area of my old Red Flyer wagon and the seating area is external. Still, I am able to control it and steer it without falling off the front, though it is an odd way to drive a vehicle, almost reminiscent of a stage coach. The potential buyer looks at the bed and I notice a lot of pillow stuffing in the back covered partly with an old worn dark green tarpaulin. This seems a bit annoying and is evidence it had been used a lot previously, but after a few minutes, the older male wants to buy it, because it is large enough and useful, and he needs one right away to carry on with his jobs. He asks me how much and I say “a hundred and fifty dollars”. He pays me in Brazilian Real. His son gives it to him and he gives it to me. It is in a small thin envelope that looks like it may hold airplane tickets instead.

At this point, the other male that was first trying to sell him a truck looks at me and says that he cannot believe it, though he does not seem angry. He probably wonders where I got all the trucks. I have a slight concern that the people on the other side of the buildings will reveal that my trucks came out of nowhere like magic, which may bring about confusion or gossip. I decide to leave the region for now.

From here, my dream shifts, though remains in the same general setting. There are soon many more people around. I am aware of an unknown female of about forty holding a penknife up to her throat as she is walking around. It seems she may be intent on committing suicide as well as perhaps infecting other people with her blood and I know that I need to be away from any blood spray, though nothing actually happens and I am able to leave the area without incident.

There are some curious plays on lucid dreaming (even though I am not lucid at any point) and sleep in this dream. Firstly, there is the creation of three vehicles to drive (out of mind power alone) that even have “beds”. The last truck’s bed even has pillow stuffing under a cover (which I do not even catch represents the sleeping process itself). The “interpretation” is, that although I am creating vehicles to steer out of nothing (with the enhanced change and focus on the Red Flyer’s steering section), I still do not become lucid even when my dream relates to metaphorically “driving the bed”. I find this dream very amusing, including with the “Brazilian Real” as the currency used. One hundred and fifty dollars relates to Dunbar’s number. “By using the average human brain size and extrapolating from the results of primates, he (Dunbar) proposed that humans can only comfortably maintain 150 stable relationships”. The small envelope that looks like it is for airplane tickets probably is a nod to the waking process (or leaving my dream). I am not sure about the woman at the end unless she simply represents cutting off the dream state.

9.20.15

sleep 3pm 11pm

No matter how long I sleep, this is just not doing it for me. Feels like I slept only 2-3 hrs. Maybe because when I'm waking up is when normal people go to sleep and my body knows it.

DR
My cats are fighting some animal. It looks like a snake. They get beat up, but they win. At the end, I escort the animal which now looks like a wolf from Avatar the movie, to his home. I do this so he gets home safely. He is all nice now, but I can feel the pent up energy inside of him. I have him on a leash so people don't get scared by him, but we communicate verbally and he is inteligent. On the way there there are some people and 3 racoons cross our path. One has babies hanging on her. We get to a place that looks like nobody is there, just the nature. I ask him if this is suitable for him and I hope it's not too far from his real home where he came from.

DR
I'm in a huge house. It's raining and hose starts to move. It's being taken with a current. We are all in a large room with glass ceiling and glass all over. When the house slovs down for a moment, I tell everybody to get to smaller room without glass. We get to the kitchen by the main entry. I have everybody pack a backpack. I tell kids to pack anything they see. Some clothes, a toy, a book. We didn't have many things right there so I just wanted them to take whatever we had.

Someone tells me to tell my parent and what time is it over there. i look and it's 3 pm or 3 am. I tell them that with speed of information, by now they must know about the floods.

When the house stopps, we are in downtow. We get out and with other people from other houses we watch houses collaps. We stopped by an imposing, very old, tall, scary church. I know that is our new place, near the church, since that's where the house stopped. But then as buildings nearby collaps, the enormously tall statues on the church, toggether with it's walls start to crumble and fall. Same happens to our house.

Suddenly we are moving again. I look to the front and we are on the bus. It's taking us to safety. There are people in middle of the road measuring the road divider stripes, since they were washed away.

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

I've been reading a lot of manga, I've never ready any before so I ended up spending something like 20 hours during the weekend just reading. Completely sucked me in >_<
My dreams last night were kind of a reflection of this, the events in the book were happening in front of me, I don't think I was really in the story, probably just reading it O_O.

Edit: found that I wrote down some notes on my dream last night and I just found them. I was being driven by my friend near my old intermediate school, I had an exam that started in 4 minutes and there were lots of police cars on the road.

My recall has been abominable lately, completely lost my ability to recall any dreams. I wake up and try to cement the dream to memory before going back to sleep. The next time I wake up I have no memory of the dream :/ don't know why it's changed suddenly.

Well I don't recall being lucid in a while but I am remembering my dreams so I guess it's only a matter of time.

This dream was from Saturday September 19, 2015, these are a bunch of fragments, but one turns out to make me say HUMMM.

It started in the yard of someones house where I picked up two pecans to eat....while they were getting ready.... after that we get in the car and I start driving...
....

Started driving on the expressway we see a police car driving on the opposite side, suddenly they turn around. But doesn't stop us, but speed past. Then we see another car hiding behind some trees....dream switch

The last fragment......I was working with other people cooking in a kitchen (could have been a jail idk) getting ready to prepare a meal....But there is a man standing their giving orders. I was making buffalo chicken dip (I had never had this) He was yelling out the recipe..."tear 6 doughnuts...add 2 cups of milk...add another 100 ml of milk...get the sourdough bread break it open. While this guy is yelling I'm cooking with someone else cause I remember us tasting the doughnuts before adding the liquid. When we grab the sourdough bread to open it...the inside was spinach and cheese. ......I wake up.

***Weird thing that happened to me today, I attended a bridal shower and most of the food was spicy. Hot wings and strips from Zaxby's, and ta da ..buffalo chicken dip. lol I finally got a chance to taste some for the first time

I have been trying to have a DILD again for almost 2 weeks now without luck, then a weird thing just happened!


I just woke up from a nap when I dreamed I was lucid and controlling the dream, but I actually wasn't. It feels so weird and confusing!
I have a current health issue in real life (nothing dangerous) that has been bothering me. In the dream it was worse with odd unrealistic things happening to me, and I was trying to find a solution through a lucid dream.
I went back in time (I'm actually not good at changing scenes yet, but I was more skilled in the dream), and I was like I'm going to change this part and it would change, and I saw some dream characters that I believed I knew as grown ups (remember I'm in the past), but of course I know now I don't that I'm awake. Then I reached the doctor dream character I was looking for, and I started to think that I will ask him about what I feel, and my subconscious will answer. I was aware that he was just a dream character, and I didn't care to act awkwardly asking him what I need believing that he will answer me. While asking him and my confidence building up that I can make him answer, the dream faded and I woke up, and I think for a brief moment before I woke up I realized I was dreaming, but it was too late. I'm still confused!

My memory of this dream is so fuzzy for the beginning. I remember being somewhere with my family and I think we were ordering pizza. Than the thought of becoming a pizza delivery person probably came up. But my family was making jokes about how my brother wouldn't be able to do the job or something like that. So confusing. Anyways after whatever happened occured I ended up in my house living room and my father and younger brother were behind me. Somehow, I realized it was a dream and decided to bring Eye into the dream.

He appeared before me and I said hi to him happily. Than I followed him to a room.It was an unfamiliar room with white walls and wooden flooring. There was a nice window where you could see it was the second floor too. Looking outside i could see a balcony cover that made me think about my neighbor's house above me and how when you look out the window it can look that way. There my father came in with pizza and i noticed even my cousin was now there.

I watched Eye for a bit but his attitude was somewhat different. He told me that he didn't have time for me and to leave him alone. Than went out the room so i followed him. He ended up going to my old room and shutting the door .I said "Fine" than went upstairs where i saw my dad.My dad had brought out a bowl of fresh tangerines in water,that were huge, like a egg plant size and peeled.

Than Eye appeared, probably because i thought about how i wanted him around again.He looked like he was in a casual whatever mood when i was happily staring at him. He noted how happy i was holding the bowl of tangerines and than he lay down i think. He than told me that just because i would sacrifice myself doesn't mean he would. I didn't like his tone of voice so i left the house where i found my uncle and a few people.There were these girls there and after looking up and seeing Eye through the window, I felt like annoying him. So i told the girls, since my uncle brought out more tangerines, that we should throw them at Eye through the window.We started throwing them like crazy than i ran.

I thought he would come out and chase us but he didn't. I just ended up running for nothing. Strangely enough there was a little mouse running with me as well. I stopped and walked back though than notice Eye walked out. But i decided to ignore him and eat the good looking tangerines as i curiously cut them with a knife.I know Eye said something to me but i dont remember what it was since i wasn't paying much attention to him.

I also recall a part where I was lucid, probably happened somewhere in the beginning. I was riding on my uncles back cause I ordered him to take me away from dcs that were armed with guns.We ended up getting away and I flew off as the scenery began to change to pitch black.Think Dawn was around and asked me what I was doing when I decided to ride my uncles back too. But im unsure.

And one more DEILD
Admittedly it was, once more, somewhat accidental but I learned from it anyways
I feel like "staying still" is was overrated for DEILD; maybe it's more about staying relaxed.
Very simplistic dream: only the things that were relevant to the dream were there; the rest was either sky or grass.

Lucidity: 6/10
Control: 5.5/10
Vivacity: 7/10

I woke up from a dream about me driving through a perilous road--habitat for anacondas, gators and all kinds of stuff you don't want to get stuck with. My dog, I notice, has been sleeping onto my arm. Worried about it cutting off my blood stream, I pull my arm free... wouldn't want to wake up with a dead, half decayed hand now would I. Anyways, I roll over and I think about both DEILDing and MILDing but I dismiss them both: I'll wake up another time during the night, anyway. The thought of lucid dreaming triggered another, though.
As I lay there on my bed I question,If I were on a window's sill, high up in a building and there was a giant, floors high fence which stood in my view," I visualize the scene, "If in a dream I let myself fall straight down form that window and I used the momentum from my fall to redress into a flight, would I make it high enough to soar past the fence?
Before I know it, a dream has formed. I stand there on that window's sill, looking straight down at the weathered concrete ground. Further into my view is a slanted, grassy hill on which is planted an enormous white fence. With no hesitation I let myself fall head first towards the ground, holding my arms wide like they were wings... as the wind striking my face accelerate I pull my head up, riding the wind current like a roller coaster until after a few seconds, I finally reach the top of the fence. I barely make it, but I fly just above the fence. As I carefully observe the great sensations that come with flying, I reach a road. I drop some height to fly between the cars on this one road in the middle of some kind of never ending plain. As my attention focuses on the road itself the cars disappear. I play around at a few meter's height, driving around the now wavy road. Eventually I remember that I had goals... Yes right, the TotM, I think, Uh... race a plane, was it? (that 's actually just a suggestion for the TotM, which I'll vote for soon).
I need to find an airport. As I try to think of ways to find one I notice another road branching off the one I'm flying above. At its end, I notice, is a bunch of bulky buildings towering above the emptiness of the plain. An airport, surely. I take that turn and after a few seconds. I reach the airport. I land there and find a plane which is preparing for take off. As soon as I focus my attention to it the rest of the airport disappears; all that remains is the plane and the driveway meant for take off. The plane accelerates and I take off again. I see it gaining distance over me and speed up but once the plane reaches a certain height, it storms into the sky in also sonic boom, soon out of my view. I try to catch up but quickly I realize that it'll be in vain, might as well do something else. I land back into the drive way ... But my recall ends here, I wake up soon after, I think.

Got one hell of a insomniac episode and ended up waiting for sunrise browsing youtube with a very sleepy Eli. He conviced me to try sleeping around 5-6 am and I walked out of bed with a cotton mouth around 10.

I'm with my mom and my little sister in my new mom's car, in the center of my town. It's reasonably sunny and the streets are moderatly busy, but there's roadworks everywhere so we need to find another way to go home. We ended up finding a little, less used street around town, with dingy bush around it and a lot of dirt and dust. The only problem is that someone put an automated gate on it. I get out of the car and open the gate, but my mother take forever and a half to start the car back up, because she's chatting away with my sister. I have to put myself against the gate to it doesn't close again, and it keep hitting my hip trying to close. Luckily it's mostly a metallic mesh over a flimsy frame, so it's more annoying that anything. The car finally start moving, and because the road is very narrow, the wheel go by so close to my feet that I feel the road dipping under the weight of the car.
Later, we recieve the owner of the automated gate, a brown haired, scraggy woman who angrily tell us that we fucked up her gate and that will be very costly to repair. My sister promptly tell her that that is all my fault. because is it.
We're all back in the car, going to a unclosed parking space where a market is taking place. As we're getting inside, my mother turn around completly on her seat and start chattering with my sister again, and despite my more and more fratic call, she keep the car going and we drive right in a shelf full of small blue boxes. We all get out of the care and this is again all my fault. Because of course it is. We start picking things up with the help of a blonde haired woman, the blue boxes are now colorful vegetables, it's a mess. Somewhere during all this I'm lost one of my shoes, a bright red slipper. I see it in the garden catastrophe and take it, but it transform into a brown, dirty, dusty thing that propably was a shoe in a past life. My real slipper is in a basement close by, but the entryway is very narrow and I'm afraid I won't be able to get out of it. I beg my sister to retrieve it for me, and she take a sweet ass time accepting.

Strangely enough, I have a very good relationship with both my mom and my sister. Grated, they do call me all the time to tell me about all their problems... or, for my sister, when she's bored and want some company.

Mama was talking on the phone to one of her friends--or perhaps in person to someone else--about how she had always hated the thought of imaginary friends. They had always made her uncomfortable, and I knew for sure I could never tell her about Augustus, my tulpa (not that I had particularly wanted to, anyway). Augustus was standing beside me, but of course I was the only one to see him.

[There is a point in the dream, right here, where I feel like more stuff was going on but I cannot remember what it was.]

I was trying to eat me a snack before Dakota and Jon got home from their trip to their mom's/cousin's/whoever's, and I know that the snack I was trying to eat was a sandwich. I think it had two balogna slices on there and a lot of mayo--or at least that's all I can remember. I ate it in the kitchen by the microwave and watched as dozens of roaches scurried every which way. I heard their car doors close outside but didn't try to hide the sandwich, and then they came in.

Mama was sitting on the couch in the living room and listening to "our" adventures at the place they had went to. Apparently Dakota and Jon had taken "me" with them (though I didn't remember that at all--was it a clone, perhaps, or had I just sort of "switched" into a new dream character?). They said that Dakota's mom and her boyfriend had started off cool and said that they were going to make Halloween "all about me," [as in me, and not her--I'm not sure why Halloween would be all about me haha] but after that they just sort of left and did their own thing. Apparently everyone there was pretty crappy, too, and Mama said that she could tell everyone there just sucked.

Later on, the two of them were in my bedroom, and I think they were about to smoke pot. They opened my door and set a chair at the entrance, and then proceeded to try to barricade us in by placing numerous blankets on there (including the small red one that they had used in real life for a while, and my black one with white and gray). In hindsight it didn't make sense; why do that when you could just close the door?

Dakota and Jon were talking about a television show that they had seen over at the place they had been. It was apparently based off a bunch of kids at a law school and lasted an hour long. The acting sucked--or at least that's what I thought they were getting at. They said "the gays sucked, the lesbies sucked, the trannies sucked, everybody sucked." Despite that, Dakota had apparently attempted to watch all of the episodes, but he was only able to catch one.

Romeo sort of crawled under the blankets and chairs that blocked off my doorway from the hallway, and when Dakota seen that and looked at him he said, "I like it when Romeo walks around like he cares about himself," or something like that.

i am in the livingroom of my old house. a girl i once have a thing with is there and i come near to her and our faces come closer. she rubs her cheek on mine i kiss her but now the looks very unhappy. i think i got bad mood after this because i stood right next to my mum and my brother. she made fried eggs and made me 4 without asking. i demonstrade and eat the one egg thats on my plate. i want to eat the other ones that are on the plate of my brother but when i get the plate its already empty and i get angry again...
transition
i am in a dark kitchen and take some food on my plate. i leave the kitchen and find myself in a backyard with some construction trailers where people life in etc. i sit there at a table and eat my food. i nearly eat everything up except of a steak but i am full alrdy and have a bad feeling that i put it on my plate so i need to eat it. i get lucid dont know why because of the food or the location? i stand up but still take the steak and eat it up. there is not that much of meat but more bone. i enter the kitchen again and my mum is cooking. i hug her and thank her and leave the room on the other side. i am outside and its raining. i dont want it to rain so i close my eyes and say now its sunny. i open my eyes again but its still night but no rain atleast. i want to make the clouds go away and point on them and just expect them to go and they do. i want the sun to go up and on the horizon its getting lighter but i dont manage to see the sun. then the moon rises and i think close enough. i can control the speed and the location where it rises. there are some clouds again and i want to see the moon without clouds so i push away the clouds around the moon because i now want to fly there and once had a dream where i fly in clouds and everything got grey and i woke up so this time no clouds. i start flying and this time the moon is getting bigger and bigger and comes closer. suddenly everything gets white around me and i see a circle that seems to be the moon. everything looks like drawn. the gravity flipps and i find myself on the moon. it still looks like a bad drawing with a pencil. i look up and can see shortly the earth but its not like the typical image like everyone knows "the earth seen from the moon" but more a little planet with something around maby like a logo or something. i dont look closer and start to look around what is there. there is drawn a line with something i walk by the line and find a backpack. i think about to take it with me but then decide i dont need one because i am in a dream and everything i need is just behind me. i look behind and see, that oh what wonder, i am wearing a backpack already so nevermind i think. i put it back on the ground and walk a little bit further the line and found something different i dont remember. i look up and see some people that look like guys from startrek with their uniforms. i think about if they are friend or foe but i have the feelings they dont like me. 2 of them approach me slowly and start shooting with their laserweapons. i find a supersmall little lasergun and start shooting. after every shot i need to reload her with the typical shootgun mechanism. they are now near me and are 3 guys. we shoot on each other but i often miss and the laserbeams that hit seems to have no effect. i expect that left of me is a bigger rifle, look there but instead there is a lasershootgun. close enough i think take it and start shooting on the nearest guy. i hit him now and then and after some time i think he normaly should bleed or something and with the next shot his face turn red and he starts bleeding. somehow the situation changes and we dont fight anymore. i put the shotgun on my left site and expect it to hold to the backpack and it does. one of them tells me how i should take a savepoint maby for the weapons or something? i need something therefor they tell me. i pick up another small gun and take it with me but wake up then.

9.19.15

This was last night:

1. I'm on a set of a TV show. It seems like I won it as a prize. The show is not being taped anymore, but actors got together to give me that experience.

Lots of thing are happening. One thing is - we are all sitting on something like a log ride and we are going down the stairs. The actors are singing the theme song "I'll be there for you" and when we reach certain point, D Messing shows up as a surprise.

2. I'm listening to radio and singing to the songs, but when country song comes on, Ophelia changes it, saying nope.

I'm showing some guy how to kiss by kissing him. I keep opening my mouth and Ophelia laughs saying that's not how you do it. Then I say ok, you could also add tongue and again I show it to the guy eactly how.

3. I'm running away from doing my duties at work. I hide in an abandoned building, sit down, read a book and pet 2 cats. I look out through hole in the wall and the guy from work is peeking his head out, spying on me.


This today:

1. I'm suppose to be working somewhere outside. I'll ask someone where did the others went and he tells me. I start walking there but I forgot my shoes and other things. So this guys gives me a ride in his beatup old red sportscar. It stars to snow and at the crossroad, we crash by going straight, not turning.

I turn around and see a huge explosion. I tell everybody to look. Now there are airplains in the air, helicopters. I see that it was a missile that detonated. I see bombs being dropped at that town in distance. Another missile starts to fall down, but then it's engins engage and it flies over us to the distance. Troop helicopters are dropping troops.

We go to higher ground and see that enemy troops took up positions everywhere. We try to hide and get away, but they are stationed everywhere now, with field tents, trucks, armor...

Placeholder, more detail to come later

wake at about 4.5 hours.
1 hour trying to BTS.
Up for WBTB
About another 2 hours BTS. Try SSILD, following the breath. Finally fall asleep and dream.

+ LD #142 (my young kids, going to school, coins in pockets). in the grocery store, contemplating the somewhat strange eggs, see naked girls riding in the grocery carts ("that's strange, normally they cover up when they do that"), get the urge to fly, don't get off the ground but I try again, I see people jump into the air in front of me and freeze, get lucid, the world turns greyscale, then the void, I try to open my dream eyes but waking eyes open, back to sleep

+ LD #143 running through the frat house, having sex with a woman who's bothering me/stalking me, basement door, stairs, scene fades to me saying "then I teleport them to a different location and have sex with them" and I find myself in bed with a naked beautiful blonde spread out before me, get lucid, sexy time ensues, it's stable and awesome, I say "we're stuck here forever! We'll never get out of here!" (experiment with pretend expectation to prolong LDs, like people who are afraid and can't wake up and seem to have really long LDs that way by getting "stuck" in FA loops). It's starting to look like my best LD sex *ever* AND THEN THE ALARM GOES OFF! It probably is the best so far in fact. Wow.