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1) I walked through a large door out of a large building onto a playing field, it was night time and foggy. I could see a group of young people walking out of the main entrance probably after a night out. I wantred to get away from them so wandered into the fog, then thought I might get lost so started to walk back. Then I was flying above the field and the people were all playing football below me, they kicked the ball up to me and I tried to kick it but missed. I was flying around and noticed I was wearing a red cagool. Then I met an old friend and was at her head height, she was very friendly and said hello with a big smile, and I thought I'm flying she must be really tall! Next thing I was back down at her feet and then I forget what happened.

2) I was cycling down a London street, really enjoying myself becasue the road was empty and I could go fast. I went over various roundabouts, then went up onto the pavement and stopped in a very clever way next to a man. I was pleased with how carefully I had come to a stop. I cycled off the pavement again.

3) A fragment of a memory about running around naked with some other people and climbing up a drainpipe and coming out in a room on the first floor having vlimbed through a very narrow crack.

4) A very rich, famous, overweight rather camp man was taking myself and my children shopping (I think he was a bit like one of my old patients). He was very nice. We got into his large back limosine, then we were walking up a bridge across the Thames and down on the other side and into a shop where we were going to buy Easter eggs. I asked my wife when Easter was. I chose an egg and ate a bit of it because I was so hungry and it tasted amazing.

5) Lying on the floor looking under a cupboard trying to work out how to fix a corner of skirting board because the last bit of wood wouldn't quite fit. Then a TV screen appeared in the cupboard and there was an old film on it and I stared at the screen. A woman walked in and lay down beside me I felt like I knew her but I didn't recognise her, I told her that I wasn't really watching the film.

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Tonight, at 23:00 hrs EST (11:00 pm), I had my first lucid dream!!

(I know it was 11 because I have a reality check app on my iphone and the first nighttime check reminder goes off at 11, and as you'll see below, I woke soon after the second check went off a half hour later)

The dream: I was walking with some dream-friends (people I don't really know in real life, just dream "extras" and we were outside of a small shopping mall in a parking lot when something (I know now it was the "ding!" sound of my reality check) made me look at the sky. Something seemed off, and I thought, "Am I dreaming?"

I suddenly realized that yes, I WAS DREAMING, and the scenery surged into focus around me. It was exhilarating but I managed to keep my cool, remembering that excitement can cause the dream to collapse. I very calmly concentrated and rubbed my hands together and the focus improved.

I took a moment to take in the scenery. I've been playing lots of Grand Theft Auto V lately, and the scenery was definitely influenced by the game: beyond the parking lot was a gently sloping hill covered with amber grass, and beyond that was a freeway and a city skyline, and the sky was a beautiful cloudless blue. It was a warm day, and it felt good.

I turned to my "dream friends" and noticed my wife was with them. I took her hand and we smiled at each other and I told my friends to wait for us. I decided to just relax and enjoy it, don't get crazy with it yet, and to just explore.

And so we spent a while wandering through this shopping mall, browsing in stores and just enjoying being in this amazing situation. I was astounded with how real it all seemed.

At one point we bumped into my mom who was there doing shopping and I told her I finally achieved lucidity. She was ecstatic and started yelling and congratulating me (she gets carried away in real life like this too) and I politely had to tell her to calm down or the dream would fall apart. She congratulated me anyway and as she walked away she called out "Golden Glow, son! Golden Glow!" (this is an inside joke between us referring to an awful orange soft drink made locally in Port Dover, Canada at a lakeside restaurant. At the time it seemed odd that she should say that, but it later had a kind of meaning)

The last store we wandered into was a video game store, and I remember browsing the titles before we left.

We stepped outside and the air suddenly got a very yellowish tint to it... a golden glow, and I realized the dream was starting to collapse. I rubbed my hands together some more and the glow went away.

We walked to our car and to our dream friends and I looked at the sky. It was still blue but I remember thinking "I wonder if I can change the sky's color?" I concentrated a little and the sky turned purple.

It was then that I saw a man in his boxer shorts standing at the edge of the parking lot. He was wearing a white unicorn mask and holding a hand lettered sign that read "dream". I thought, "Oh man, can't get any more obvious than that!" Hahahah!

Then the dream did start to collapse. The golden glow came in and distorted everything, and despite rubbing my hands together it wouldn't stay together.

I had a few seconds of being in both the dream world and the waking world at the same time, when my reality check "dinged!" again, and I plopped right back into my body.

I grabbed my phone and opened the voice memo app and recorded as much as I could remember.

It's so weird: it was an exhilarating experience, but like any dream parts of it are missing, and I almost feel like it didn't happen. But I KNOW it did, and that is an astounding feeling. In my two other posts here I've discussed my uphill battle against bad dream clarity and recall, so you can understand how good this made me feel.

I'm not sure when I'll have my next lucid dream, but I know it will happen. I cracked through the veil!

Had this LD sometime this week, breaking a 2 week dry spell so will post it now. Just moved back to college and my dreaming has been pretty bad since the start so this was a nice LD to come across

I beomce lucid in my appartment and see my friends T and Z. I tell them I'm dreaming and put my hands on T's shoulders and tell him were in a dream. I fly out through the window then get stuck and think fuck it, I want to enter sage mode a la Higat. I close my eyes and sit down with the intention but I wake up. Next time i Need to tap into the energy of the dream and the "i can do wahtever i want" feeling that comes with it

-A scene formed of a beach. On the cement like platform there was a blonde girl sitting with her dog that resembled my deceased pet dog max. A white tiger walked up to her on the beach wearing a dog mask and to the side of the tiger was jadegreen's dream self. The lady shrieked and than the dog began to guard the lady. Fighting the tiger off.

Than another scene bubbled forth and I was watching Jade's dream self walking into a bedroom with the white tiger. A narrator that seemed like a news reporter mentioned that now a days people kept tigers as pets. Than the scene shifted and I was now in my kitchen cleaning a sink that looked like it had a faucet of a lion or creature.

My mom came in looking for something in the kitchen drawer and mentioned something. Maybe how it was time to go to bed. Thats when I looked at the calendar and the month was March. I also noticed markings on it. When I was going to look at it more though it fell on the floor so I just left it there.

I than walked to my room but felt lonely so I decided to go downstairs. I was greeted by Max and walked to where my mom's room is but in the dream I thought it was my younger's brothers room. Max stood on his two feet and put his ear to the door barking.I asked him what was wrong than turned to see my brother in the room next door on his computer.

I pet max than decided to go back up stairs. As I was walking to my room I looked to the sliding mirror door and saw what looked like a barbie toy where you play with its hair. Behind it was a small shadow. I asked myself why my mom had put that there than ran downstairs to my older brother's room. Except it was my parents bedroom in the dream.

I felt like I was having a panic attack and asked my mom if I could stay with them for a bit. They let me but what was annoying was they were asking why I ended up big such a fearful child.





-I was going to drink water from a wine glass.

-My cousin that moved approached me when i was laying down and told me my younger brother's 3DS was dropped by mistake. I told him it didn't matter because he didn't really play it anyways. He could also use my older brother's red 3DS.

-I had a false awakening where my older brother and younger brother were present. My younger brother went to get a cup with me from the kitchen cabinet than I noticed my older brother laughing. I turned to him and ask him "Whats so funny? What did you whisper something to me in my ear when i was asleep so that it would happen in my dream?" My younger brother than sighed and told me to not pay attention to him.


I was surrounded by lots of men in men kimonos and they were cheering because Dawn had mentioned that It was a men's party. I made a shout out trying to include myself in the party but than all of the guys began disappearing till it was only me and Dawn left. I than followed him and jumped out a window to where he was. I landed on a dome like structure and noticed a creature crawling on the ground.


A girl that reminded me of Manei appeared and was controlling the path of the yellow worm like creature with a staff. I asked her if the creature bites and she said no so i hopped onto the ground than ran for it. I ended up being in a building where Dawn was flaunting how good he looked to movie directors and that he was going to release an inside scoop of his new show and that he was going to answer the secret question if he was gay or not.

Next thing i remember is sitting down eating ribs and salad. My younger brother was next to me and i kept flinging food to him by mistake. As I was eating my older sister mentioned how Dawn grew sad,skinny and lost weight cause the fame got to his head. Than she mentioned how a person should stick with the old main characters and stop introducing new characters. There were images of characters appearing as she was telling me this.

One of the images had a creature that looked like a small white blob with eyes. It could change colors from blue to red depending on how it feels and the temperature. The creature turned blue because it felt bad and wanted to be on the side of the main character again.

-I was inside my house but felt like leaving. I didnt like how a certain dc made me feel. The doors opened slowly because i doubted i would be able to geet out before it touched me.

-I was with anime male characters with swords inside a huge castle like dojo. They asked me if i wanted to join so i said yes. But when they were battling the monster they told me to stand back than a huge wind blew me so i ran behind a wall. Also noticing how my form was changing.


-I had a false awakening where I got out the bathroom and it was pitch black. I looked at the sliding mirror door and saw I was hideous.(There was a dim glow that allowed me to see the reflection)I looked fat than to my regular size. Someone opened the other door behind me and I shouted for them not to come in. The door closed after a bit of waiting than I ran to the bathroom where I sat in the tub moping that someone saw me naked. Hoping it wasnt my dad.


-Last thing i recall happening in my dream was playing a zelda windwaker like game. And observing a river that was small and muddy. There were also alligators in it
I flew past them and one chased me so i picked up a wooden tree branch and used it to push the alligator away. There was also this orange goop like substance in the river.

I was out on the road with the roundabout going into ***** **** and we were outside this vehicle (truck, I believe) and my dad and 2 of his friends were there. They were talking about LDing, my dad's 2 friends said that they had been LDing since they were 3 and my dad said he was since he was in Year 12. They then asked me and said if I did and I said yes and they asked for how long, then I said since last year then quit then start again on 25th of August. They asked if I had one I said no. They asked (again) if I did the finger one and the guy who asked was flicking is index and middle finger up and down.

I hate having dreams that are talking about LDing and I don't even recognise it XD

It was a long dream involving a visit to some relatives. I was semi-lucid because i noticed some things that were off, and then i had a false awakening.

I was in my bed, sunlight coming from my window, but my bedroom was different, stuff being out of place and i could see my father in the kitchen. I looked at my hand and noticed 6 fingers! "This is a dream!" so i try to calm down and concentrate on my hand. Got rid of the sixth finger, then i made my index grow in length and to the other side of the room!. Surprised how far my finger went i look back at my hand and it became a girl's, with short fingers, a ring and a wristband. I get them to grow longer and then i get an idea: let's try to grow breasts! So i look under my shirt and concentrate on my chest but i think the excitement was too much at this point (i forgot to stabilize yet again ) and i lost it.

I am at my grandmother's house. The family is over for what I assume is my sister's birthday party. There is cake and relatives are over. Then, a friend of mine comes over. We shall call her A.

Now A and I have a history. We have been close friends for a while and I have always had some feelings for her. I asked her out several weeks ago, she did not want to change our relationship. I tried to convince her otherwise but did so in a horrible way and came off horribly. I eventually apologized, things returned to normal.

But in the dream, she comes over. I hug all of my individual relatives goodbye, and then we walk back to her jeep. Suddenly, another guy appears. He is somewhat handsome, and we shall call him E. I have never met nor seen him before, yet he climbs inside the jeep with us. I sense that he likes A, and I don't like that. I also sense that she may feel the same, but I am unsure. I keep her distracted from him for most of the car ride, I succeed in causing her to ignore him. He sits in the back while we are up front talking. I assume we are going to the movie theater, and eventually we arrive there. It is night and there are street lights illuminating the parking lot.

We get out and begin walking towards the back entrance to the theater, for some reason. It is an upward slope and blacktop. I am in the front, A is beside me, but slightly behind. E is behind us and tries to talk to us, but I attempt to steal the attention. Eventually conversation is swayed into my relationship with A. I cannot remember exactly what I said, but it was something that struck her silent and made her trail into deep thought, while I was smiling beside her.

We go inside of the theater, only to find that it is actually a hospital. I see a passed away relative there, my aunt, who had left us late last year. She is happy to see me and greets A. We walk around, talking, and then things fade.

#468 - DILD - 1:52AM

****DRY SPELL OVER!*****

Thanks to some kind words from my dream buddy I was able to get some lucidity last night. It's nothing to get super excited about, but it's good to be back in action.

Originally Posted by bemistaken

Hey buddy! As you once told me...you are not broke! You are the same gifted Xanous that you have always been.

Thanks B!

I am hovering over a really strange looking tepee with some people I think of as close friends. The tepee seems to me made from various bits of material and I have contributed a large section at top. Someone has attached a zipper at top and there is some excitement about how well it fits.

I am on the ground. I look around and become introspective. My younger daughter are standing around a large camp fire near the base of the giant tepee. She is talking to me but I don't understand her words. Suddenly, I just know that I am lucid. I tell her this might be a dream. I say "might" because a part of me is hoping she is really in the dream with me and I want to guide her into lucidity. I wonder if two minds could really be in one dream. I give her some time to think this over. She seems confused at first and looks around deep in thought. I float up off the ground a bit and say, "Look, Dalynn. I am flying."
She seems to understand for just a moment, but then it slips away and she says, "Wow how are you doing that?" Before I can reply she start jumping around making silly sounds.
I don't say anything. I just try to show off how I can fly, but I can only move around my making swimming motions. I hate it at first and I become very frustrated how goofy I must look. The dream breaks apart and I wake up.

I'll be brief in parts with this next dream because It was super long and I missed lucidity anyway.

I am a criminal in the depression era with some woman. It was almost a Bonny and Clyde senario, but we were con artist not back robbers. There we some long thing about a pond shop scheme. During a bank run we tricked people to turn in jewels and hand guns and we got a lot of money from it.
At one point we are driving down a street that looks more modern. I ask the woman what year it is. She dismisses me but I really think it looks like the late 80's. I tell her the cars just look more sporty, but she says nothing. I see an airplane in the sky. It is unmarked and very strangle looking with red glowing lines. It was very sci-fi. I don't think it's possible, but out of habit I say, "This might be a dream." I do a nose plug, but somehow I think it failed. I look around and the dream is very clear. I feel my eye are wide open. I know that dreams tend to be more blurry than this. With that thought the dream blurs a great deal and fades out to a new scene.
I am at some counter in a store with the woman. Another woman walks in with a folding fan and lays it on a counter. There is a dark skinned boy printed on it. I say something about the Muslim boy and the boy starts talking to me. He goes on about having sex with that "crotchety old woman".
I assume he's talking about the woman I am with. I say, "Well my cock gets hard and she's there to help it. What else would I do?"
The boy says, "Oh common you can do better than that."
Then I hear a narrator say, "And those acid trips flashback happened for the next 14 years."
There is laughter and I laugh along. I now feel as though I have been watching something on TV. I say, "That's funny, but I wish I could remember the set up for that joke."
The scene fade away with the audience laughter.

I am now in some basement looking at an attractive young woman tied up to some pipes along the wall. As the view passes close I notice she is severely retarded. She starts singing about being a retarded give tied up in the basement. I wake up.

I really wish I got up and went to my computer at 3AM to write down the first one, because now I don't remember the important parts. Either way, I was in some forest and between two trees, there was some dark screen. On the screen there was a message written in fire somehow? I can't remember what it said now though, damn it. I don't think it was anything important, but it would have been cool to still know.

But now for the sorta scary part.

There was this next part where I was talking to a friend who apparently had died.

He had returned for a little while to talk to me and a few others. The screen between the trees was apparently the portal back to the afterlife for him, so I stopped him before he went through it and said "Wait, the entire world needs to know, what happens when you die?"

He then said to me "I'm not allowed to tell you."

But he was allowed to reveal one thing.

He said something like "Death really is only a transition to another plane of existence" or something like that. For the record, I'm not exactly religious, so that was a little freaky.

Next, this other dream was still connected somehow, even though I think I had it later.

I was still in the forest, but in a clearing. And I saw a UFO above some trees, and everyone else saw it too. It looked like the stereotypical saucer shape and had glowing red lights underneath. When it flew away, it was super fast and was gone almost instantly. Looking at the people around me at this point, and I see that maybe I'm at some campground. Strange.

The last one was about me running around some school field with a water bottle for some reason. I remember there were 3 of them and I had the smallest one and I was trying to get the other bigger ones. I remember drinking all the water out of one, and it tasted oddly good somehow, even though water obviously has no taste really.

Sheesh, what a weird bunch of dreams.

I recall multiple dreams from tonight. I got up immediately to record them before I forgot.

Dream #1: Pirate Ship (Vivid, not lucid)

I was walking up to this lake/swamp area. Pennsatucky/Doggett (from Orange is the New Black) was with me. We found an old abandoned, half-sunk pirate ship in this lake area, so we decide to explore it. I remember how disgusted we were treading the swampy water to climb onto the ship. There was moss and seaweed and all kinds of "growth" on the rotten wood of the ship. There wasn't anything of interest on the ship, until Pennsatucky opened this latch to a hidden box and found a bomb. Now, the dream got into some weird time paradox at this point, where another Pennsatucky jumped out of this hidden box and activated the bomb. Me and the first Pennsatucky took off running so we wouldn't get blown to bits. We're running back and it turns out that the swampy lake was in my backyard. We run inside my house, but the interior turned into my Granny B's house. We hide behind tables and furniture because we only had 10 seconds (and there was an actual 10 second, real life count down in the dream) before the bomb went off. Eventually it exploded and took down the second Pennsatucky with it. Some weird other stuff occurred afterwards. Once the bomb went off, the dream began to loose its vividness. I just remember my family hosting a party for a bunch of 17th-18th century Asian (Japanese?) royalty. I was telling them about the bomb explosion. I think if I'd kept sleeping and retained the vividness, it would have become lucid.

Dream# 2: Baseball team (Memorable)

This dream was mostly hazy until the very end. All I remember is that my boyfriend had joined a pro baseball team (looked like Red Sox; I recall talking to a girlfriend about the Red Sox earlier today), and he let me travel with him and the team from baseball practice to one of the games. He was kinda embarrassed of me. He kept his distance so he could "bro out." I remember that the coach didn't like me because in my dream, I was openly bisexual and that went against his beliefs. He didn't feel comfortable with me travelling with them, so I had my father drive me to the baseball game. When I got in my dad's truck (because suddenly we were just outside my parents' house heading to the baseball game) my dad was backing out and heading down our neighborhood street, but he was on his phone texting. He wasn't paying attention to the road and almost had a head on collision with an 18-wheeler. My heart was drumming so fast. I screamed at my dad to pay attention to the road and he swerved to avoid hitting the 18-wheeler. I told him that next time, I was going to yank the wheel and he lectured me that i was overreacting. I woke up.

Dream# 3: Game Night (Vivid; lucid)

So, about a week ago, I posted an entry in my DJ about having a dream about Christian Grey, that I'd woken up and gone back to sleep and continued the dream. That dream took place in my Granny P's house, where I was preparing a game night for friends, while giving Christian the cold shoulder because we were mad at each other.

So, this dream I just had was interesting because it was also a continuation, but with a twist; it eventually led to a successful WILD. The dream took place in my Granny P's house. We were having a game night (haha, and the baseball team from the previous dream were there!). I remember looking around at the people there. The dream was incredibly detailed, which is usually how I enter lucid dream via DILD, by observing the room and noticing the detail, but this time I didn't just yet. I was just disappointed that none of the guys in there were cute. So, we continue playing some ice-breaker game to get to know everyone at the party and as we're scrambling around looking for our respective partners, I recall thinking, "Hey, this looks like the dream from when I was ignoring Christian at game night." As I was thinking this, I could feel myself waking up, so I thought again, "Well, maybe I can just try to recall this dream, turn it lucid and summon Christian in to the dream." lol, like I actually had a game plan to enter into another lucid dream as I was dreaming.

So, I was laying on the couch in the dark fully awake, just didn't open my eyes because I was trying to focus. I didn't move, I just waited for my body to fall back to sleep, focusing on the game night dream. Eventually I did fall back into a dream, which was incredibly weird because I've never gone from complete consciousness to seeing my mind create a dream. It was so weird! I just remember seeing nothingness and then a light that molded into a window. I was inside a house looking out through a kitchen window into a backyard where I saw two young boys playing. They were playing with a ball, throwing it at each other and into a small basketball hoop (like one make from Little Tykes). The only weird thing about this dream is that the motion was off. My motion was fine; it was fluid and free, but the boys' movement was...odd. It was like flipping through a hand-made picture book, creating motion from static images. It was also odd because it was incredibly short-lived and I had no control over that dream.

Dream #4: False Awakening (Lucid, but I don't know how to explain the end)

Haha!! Ok, so this is also incredibly hilarious. Just now, I had to google how to explain what I was trying to convey in my lucid dream, about creating motion from static images. Well, right after waking up from my lucid dream, I had a FA. I thought I had gotten off the couch to come to this website to type up the dream and I remember in this FA that I had to google how to explain this weird motion for the lucid dream. Ha! Prophesying much? Anyway, in the FA, I go back to the couch and lay down and I kinda wake up, but I'm still...not fully awake. I think I'm still in the dream, just realizing that I'm in the dream (????). I ask myself, "Did I really get off the couch just now, or was that a dream?" I'm moving my hands around, looking around the living room, but my eyes are closed, so it's dark and I see nothing, I just know what my living room looks like, so I think I'm looking at my living room. It's weird. I enter into full consciousness in my dream and I check my arms. I can't move them because I'm asleep but I feel my dream arms waving about. It's weird, I honestly don't know how to explain it. It's like I'm half dreaming. I can feel my arms moving in my dream, but I know they're not really moving as I lay there sleeping on the couch. So I just accept the fact that I'm still trying to sleep and I lay there in my dream (and real life) until I enter another dream.

Dream #5: Cat on Meds

So, I have another FA. It's daylight now and I'm laying on my couch. There is a cat at my feet, sleeping on the couch with me. (Last night, I actually fell asleep with my neighbor's small dog at my feet; I'm dog sitting ATM). So, in this dream, this cat that I apparently own has to take her meds in the morning. I reach over to the coffee table where her medicine is and I'm reading the instructions. I feed her two pills and she chews it up and spits it out and then scoops it up with her nose and carries it to her food bowl to eat later. I remember lecturing her for making a mess on the couch and I woke up.

Now I'm here typing this up. At least I hope I am because I've had enough FA's for the night. o_0

No snake involved in last night dream, have an adventure instead.

I am in a east-european village, all stone and narrow muddy paths, with an overcast sky and chilling atmosphere. There isn't many people in the street, save for a black carriage without horses and a older gentleman with sweeping white hair. I walk to him and he hands me a curved sword. I tie it to my waist and go on to the center of the village; I need to go throught it to reach a castle looming on a hill. I put the sword to good use as a group of bandits attacked me with a knife that looks like it's made from a rasor blade monted on a oyster knife's handle. I know that this thing is made to slit throat and I dispatch them. I then go to the inn, it's pretty packed but I can't put my weapon away; I feel a painful pressure everytime I try.
I head out and finaly reach the castle. A pack of giant wolves is waiting for me, some of them with brlood red fur. I slay the ones who attack me, before one of the survivor take me on his back to enter the castle. What's left of the pack is following us, I notice that they're all brown, and somme of them have ribbon around their necks. I get off my wolf companion and walck up some stairs with an white wolf playfully nipping at my heels*. I become aware that someone is narrating what I'm doing, but I don't pay close attention to it.
The celling is lower and lower, I have to go to a big door that open in a high-celing room that seem to cover all the back of the castle. I swich on the light and see an enormous cat I think is mine** an go to the over side of the room, which is full all light thanks to gigantic windows. I can see the slab grey sea, an manucured lawn and a blue pool.
I subdue the light so my wolfs can come with me and find a deckchair to lounge on. My family join me, and I use mind power to lock the door going into the dark room for their safety. My grand mother start complaining about it and the windows start slamming open because of a strong wind. I try to keep them closed with my mind, but I can't until I make microscopic holes in the glass panel, "so the salt can go through" as my grand-mother say.

The dream flicker and I'm buying clothes with my sister before waking up.

*an habit of my sister's dog, who does have white fur.
**which is funny, because the mighty kitty is mighty in his mind but not much in his size.

A bedroom

I wake in a moonlit room. To my left is a window. I know I'm dreaming because the window shade is wrong. It should be vertical blinds in waking life but here they are horizontal. Reliable old dreamsign. I sit up and take in the room, but there's not much to see. A bed and four walls. Only the window is of interest. The blinds have conveniently disappeared. I fly and phase through the window.

Outside is more of the same. It's a rather common scene in my dreams. A lone house in the middle of a gray desert. Just flat wasteland as far as the eye can see. There are no stars in the sky, but it's not quite pitch black. Just a shade lighter of ambient moonlight. I turn to my right and see that, at least The Moon is out.

I gaze at The Moon, wistfully. Hello, Old Friend. Just you and me again tonight, huh?

Light, windows, The Sun, and The Moon all play an important role in my dreams. It's how I establish a scene and my orientation. Obviously, the light indicates if it is day or night. I prefer to be outside in dreams because the visuals are bigger and there's more room in which to play. But there's more to it. My dreams tend to be at night, so usually the Moon is out. And I can stare at the Moon and notice its features more so than the Sun, so I suppose I've developed a greater rapport with the Moon. The Sun and The Moon always rise in the East, so whichever direction I find them is East. I don't know if it is a coincidence, but I usually find them to my right when I start to examine a scene. That means I'm usually facing North to begin a scene. If I venture away from my starting point, I tend to travel East because doing so keeps the Sun or Moon in my field of vision. I think maintaining this sense of orientation helps to keep a scene stable, so that, for example, things don't disappear when I look away from them. Moreover, the heavenly spheres and cardinal directions have cultural and mythical connotations, which might enrich the storytelling in subconscious ways, and that is welcome. And as a practical matter, it helps me rebuild the scene in my imagination during recall.

Still looking at The Moon, I continue to reflect on the scene and my mood. This time, aloud: "Why is it so empty?"

No answer. But as I look at The Moon, I think of The Man In The Moon and remark how the white face of The Moon might be like the white face of a clown. And instantly, I make the connection: Pagliaccio.

I turn around and there he is, Pagliaccio, the sad clown. He is dressed in a white silky outfit with puffy cottonball-like adornments in place of buttons. He wears a white dunce cap. His face is all white except for a single black tear under one eye. I call him Pagli, or sometimes Paggy but that's my poor reading of Italian. In other contexts, he would be more recognized as Pierrot, but I prefer Pagliaccio because that particular incarnation is more nuanced and specific, relatable.

He looks up at me with the same wistful look with which I looked at The Moon. He doesn't say anything. He doesn't have to. I know what he's thinking. Vesti la giubba. Ridi, Pagliaccio. It means, Put on the costume. Laugh, Clown.

I am overcome by emotion and the dream ends. I try to introspect. What is this emotion I am feeling? Compassion. For Pagli? For the character? Is he not me? Compassion for myself? Pagliaccio non son. It means, I am not The Clown. But maybe I am still The Fool. Vesti la giubba. Put on the costume. You must put on a show. For who? There's no one in my dreams but me and versions of me. Is that why it's so empty? Am I too insular? Sigh, I'm ruminating.

Ridi, Pagliaccio. Laugh, Clown. It really means, Laugh at your pain, because that is your role as The Clown and that's what the audience expects. It doesn't mean to laugh as some kind of therapy. At least, that's not the literal meaning. But maybe it is the ironic meaning? But who is the audience, anyway? What is the theater of dreams all about? How long should play at this game of Questions?

Pagliaccio non son. I am not The Clown. It really means, I am not acting right now. And also doubly, You shouldn't take me for a fool. No, Pagli, you're no fool. You mean something. I'm not sure what. For now, I'll take you at your word, Old Friend. Ridi, Pagliaccio. Laugh, Clown. It might not be therapy for the character, but it is catharsis for the audience. Aren't I both?

I recall a girl from my school standing in a tunnel, looking through an opening. It was day time outside, causing the tunnel to become brightly illuminated by the shining sunlight. She was in her uniform, and I was standing in a corner wondering what she was so mesmerised about. Within seconds, I woke up.

So i woke up, always wanna WBTB lol after i wake up, so i put some calming melodies/music to let me fall asleep, had 2-3 times Sleep paralysis and couldnt get through so i woke up again and again, till the time where i was like ok now i can do it and get in SP anytime i want and then enter the dream scene, i did ... so i was near some beach park, no idea was trying to have fun around u know, catch some ladies etc, but wasnt easy lol so i woke up 1-2 times and re-entered my last dream was a dream with my bro surrounded by like 10 ppl came and ask me to give em my euro coins u know 2 euro / 1 euro etc and i told them ok ill drop on the air and u choose [words or numbers] u win if you guess right, then i run lol and there was that guy from Youtube Vitalyzdtv trynna catch me and i jumped above a Fence (flied) did a flip and entered into a big game soccer field with that red sand while he wanna catch me and he got stuck on a fence and i asked, u believe in god? he said yes, u believe in jesus and prophet mohammed? he told yes i believe peace be upon them
then i trolled him by saying.. "haha you in a dream and u got pranked i am the camera and laughed and i flied back and decide to wake up lol.

dats it