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Went to bed a bit before midnight. Really had issues falling asleep, took me at least until 01:00. I set the alarm for 06:45.

Presentations
I'm in a classroom. The presentations of our project groups are about to start. The lecturer asks me to present for our group. I tell him that someone else in our group has already prepared to present. The lecturer asks me to present anyway. My voice changes just a little bit, I guess it breaks a little. I ask him why. He backs off, seeming a bit intimidated. I go up to my group to tell them and we laugh about it a little. In my head I've got the joke ready that that's the advantage to being black: it's easy to scare white people. I don't make the joke.

We're on the 2nd floor of a building. The walls on two sides have arched holes in them so you can look outside. There's some parkour going on. It looks like a live video. One guy falls from the 2nd floor. I take a look over the edge. The guy was lucky. He's still hanging on to an edge just a bit below, so he didn't tumble all the way down. A teacher for a different course then decides to stand on an object which was used in this particular parkour run, to prevent more people from doing it. It's presentation time again. The first teacher ends up buying us all food, but only some of us get to choose. He makes a girl take orders from all of us. Everyone is shouting and I suggest that she writes it down, cause she's not gonna remember that many orders. My friend is sitting next to me. He complains that it's unfair that some people get to choose their orders and others don't.


I had another dream but I don't really have the time or energy right now to go into it. It involved my Indonesian classmates, a train station, drugs and being late for an appointment with my thesis supervisor. The dream sucked

01/10/16 I have still been having tons of lucids but have been focused much more on Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu so I totally have blown off my DJ. That is bad form and stingy of me. The two most recent (this morning) are ones I need to document and maybe that will spur me to start sharing my lucids with you guys again.

I became aware of laying in bed in the dark and attempted to remember where I was sleeping. It seemed like my mom's old house on Wallace and somehow that did not make sense. I pondered that and realized someone was in the next bed over. The room was really too small for two beds. I guessed it was my cousin over there, and he started to move about. I asked him what the F$#k was going on. He told me his parents were there to help me go to work. I didn't think that made much sense so I got up. I went down stairs into my mom's basement. Well that was a big clue as my mom's house did not have a basement. There was a bunch of fish tanks on racks down there. Now that is something from my past but should have been at my dad's house. I am starting to understand that this is a dream. I kind of knew it at first, but this settles it.

One of my dream signs is tropical fish that are not inside the fish tank. I stare at them during the day, and in my dreams my brains tosses in pretty fish in front of me, but often neglects to put them in water. I check and sure enough the tanks look wrong and the fish move beyond the confines of the glass. Fully lucid now. I explored the fish laboratory when I was approached by two men who seemed to not be regular DCs. They seemed like astral entities. I point blank asked them if they were part of my dream or if they were actual entities. They did not deny being entities and started walking with me.

I decided that I really needed to behave myself, as way too often I am a dumb ass in my lucids despite being aware and do things like seek out sex despite other entities being present. In fact I have often enough tried to get sexual with the entities themselves. It is not that I rationally decide to act this way, but being in a dream lowers my inhibitions way worse than alcohol. I have had my assorted Dream Guides blow me off for months at a time after bad incidences, and even was banned from entering the main astral city for some time. I was going to be on my best behavior, as it has been many weeks since I have been approached.

I quietly walked around what I suspected was some sort of astral landscape, perhaps a city or a training area. There were lots of people so maybe The City. I walked up a street that was sort of like a fair grounds. I started to explain to the two entities how I could tell the difference between my own dream imagery and the real substance/life forms of their realm. I demonstrated that my own DCs could be summoned and would act exactly as I wanted. I imagined two women walking up and they appeared. The men watched me curiously as if wondering what I was getting at. I told one of the women to give me a hat, and suggested it was in her bag. She pulled a hat out of her bag and put it on my head. I told her to kiss me. She immediately gave me a kiss. I became aware that the men had basically raised there eyebrows (emotionally not imagery) like," here he goes again." I stopped myself and thanked the DC for the hat and she disappeared.

I walk down another street and go into a large building. this looks a lot like a casino and has a large buffet table with all sorts of food. We are walking past this huge buffet and I am not at all sure if I can take food, as these people do have some sort of value exchange like our currency system that I honestly barely begin to understand. I get the feeling from one of the men that taking a single tiny item is ok. I select a deviled egg looking thing and eat it. OMG! Dream food is almost always bland and only about 10-20% like real life. This has a strong pleasant flavor and agreeable texture; it is clearly the best dream food I have ever tasted. It actually took me a few moments to chew it up and swallow it.

I asked one of the men what was up, if they were keeping an eye on me and going to follow me to watch what I do. I got the feeling (emotional communication) that that was in fact the truth and he just kind of shrugged, like "well you got it." The next area had a lot of people who were now interested in me. I talked with some young guys about how to me this was a dream and that my body was somewhere else. Some of them thought that was curious and asked me what I could do. I have noticed that The City has gravity and almost no one ever floats or flies around, and that when I do it exhausts me and is difficult. I stepped up onto thin air and sat floating above the ground. they did not seem impressed. The street had a tall fence along one side and I said I could jump over the tall fence. They told me that I could not jump any higher up the fence than them. Several boys started jumping up onto the fence and back down. I pictured with confidence how I was going to easily leap all the way up on top of it. I jumped and went no higher than them. Ok, confidence. I jumped again and grabbed the top, but ran up against an energy barrier that was the classic power lines I have run into hundreds of times. I have learned by now that they mark off areas and are not meant to be f%$ked with, and I am supposed to be on my best behavior. I jumped down and kind of mumbled, something about f$%k this.

When I walked away from the crowd one of the men with me pointed out a building and told me it was "the whore house" and I got the feeling he was letting me know that a well behaved man would go there if when visiting The City he felt the need to be a pervert. I have run into this topic one time before, and was surprised at the idea that this place would have prostitutes. At that point (another dream long ago) it was explained that I have no currency and while I can summon handfuls of money it was not real and could not be traded for services. So, I showed little interest in this building and kept walking. I found something that looked like colored chalk and started tossing bits of it at things for no good reason other than perhaps boredom. I noticed a lady going around marking things with the stuff.

I realized that I had drifted off of my good behavior a bit and that throwing anything randomly at other things was no way to stay out of trouble. I did my hand mudra exercise and slowly recited the English alphabet. As near as I can tell I got it correct. I then walked up to a food cart of some sort and it had these wonderful looking wrap sort of things I really wanted one but did not reach for one. One of the men came up to me and in a very friendly manner put his hand on my shoulder. He asked me, "So have you decided that you want to be a part of this instead of running around acting like a berserk crazy person?"

I told him, "I certainly never have intended to be berserk or crazy, and I do desperately want to be part of this. I am overwhelmed with how amazing this place is. The food tasted almost 100% real and the buildings are almost completely stable and persistent in their visuals (they do shift some if you watch closely)." I looked at a near by building and after a moment one of the lines shifted, but still it was clearly way more stable than I would get in my own dream imagery. I looked at the building next to me which seemed to be some sort of real estate office as it had pictures hanging of houses and such. The texture and the color of the blue paint was very impressive.

I realized I needed to stabilize again and summoned a flip top lighter to my hand and focused in on the details and started to toy with the flip top until I felt stable. Me and the man started walking up this street, but before long the dream became unstable. I tried again to stabilize but somehow got pulled back to my body and realized I was now laying in my bed. I decided to wake up and record the event. Dur~20-30 min.

DJ Log: January 11, 2016 – 6:30AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am standing near a fast food restaurant and realize that I have to use the bathroom. I walk inside and find the restroom door. When I walk through the door, it leads back outside into a chain-link fenced in area behind the restaurant. I walk up to this ring of strange looking toilets that are unusually high on a pedestal and have no walls around them. They are more like small sinks and they have foot pads beside them and no seat of any kind. There is a little stick figure illustration showing how to stand up and squat over it. I look around for a moment and see that there are several people walking around a car wash just ahead of me and everyone in the drive-thru is just outside the fence. There is no possibility of privacy here, but I really have to go. There are some other people using these things, so I figure it can’t be that bad after all. Looking around a bit more, I stop and think to myself, “This is just a dream. I don’t have to worry about anyone watching me poop.” I try to climb on top of one of the toilet things, but it is almost impossible to balance myself on the foot pads and get my pants off at the same time. I step back down and take off my pants, then climb back up. Realizing that I forgot to remove my undies, I struggle for a bit to take them off, then I end up waking up.

11.01.2016

I Live To Serve Her & Flirting With a Girl (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m on my way to open at work, and the parking lot, if it’s even considered one, is so grandiose that getting from point A to B would seem to take a long time, but it didn’t. I see a large gray stoned wall that looks like stone doors of some sort. I’m wearing some gray dress pants, and a gray shirt as well, though, before the encounter with a certain dream character, it felt as if I was wearing a green shirt instead.

I’m in a fairly active mood, and feel so energetic that it slowly bleeds into how I interact with people. The first entity within my peripheral vision was an Asian male that’s probably in his early 20s as me that looks like a parking lot attendant I know. I’m not fixated so much on him other than the fact that he’s wearing a bright, lime shirt, and black shorts.

He’s just strolling around, I guess, and as I’m moving forward, I encounter a blonde female with a heavy foreign accent. She’s wearing a white vest, and some black pants/shorts. She has her hair tied up in a ponytail, and as I get closer to her, she professes to me, in a manner of jest:

“You should live to serve me,” and smiles. As I’m trying to process the words, I was looking at her reaction to really see if she’s just joking around

But I couldn’t shake off the feeling that there was something between the lines of said profession.

I basically shrug it off while retaining a transient smile, and go inside the doors that start to open up. It’s this spacious garage with all sorts of stuff that I didn’t bother paying attention to. The two main colors that came to mind were brown mixed with a bit of dark violet, and this light turquoise color that has this chalky overtone to it.

I see two girls that I’ll nickname Bail and ArtGirl10; the former of darker skin complexion, and the other that’s lighter. I fixate on the latter, and she says I look different physically. For some odd reason, I get a surge of motivation to start flirting with her physically. I go up to her, smile, and take my finger to rub her nose.

She giggles for a bit and asks where I got the shirt, because apparently, it costs like $70 bucks online. I have an “uhh” moment, and we part ways after that. Meanwhile, Bail says, “3 XXX,” and I feel I’m shifted into another dream.

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11.01.2016

Shaking Hands to Break Gregarious Tension (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m inside of a house that is dark brown mostly pertaining to the walls and ceiling, and golden for the flooring; a little nuances of brown blotched in as well. I can see that there’s this indirect gregarious tension with my presence in here, but the individuals remain quiet while trying to find something to distract themselves from making it explicitly awkward.

To dissipate the tension, I took the decency to start shaking hands with everyone, and they all naturally complied. I reached to the point where I interacted with an obese female that’s wearing this black dress with some dark pink flowers surrounding it along with a fancy black hat as if it was 1930s style, or something.

I started to hug her for a bit, and as I’m trying to release my grasp, I awkwardly touched the gap towards her armpit, and eventually to the muscles that would connect to the top left region of her breasts. I try to pretend that I didn’t notice this, and see seems fairly nonchalant in this being done. I turn around immediately, and proceeded to move forward, and then to the right to go into another room.

The entrance to the room that I have to turn to the right once more involves this dark red drapery that hangs to the sides like “Y Y.” I see there are some chairs that are dark red for the base and back rest, and bordered with golden colors. I go inside to immediately sit, and just reveled in being alone while feeling I’m waiting for someone, or some event to take place.

Oh, what the heck, I'll also post here some of my dreams. Not every one tho.

#1 Poor little wasps
I saw behind the curtain of the window some dark little shadow-dots. I thought there was flies. When I looked at them it turned out that there are little wasps in a row. Without any thoughts I opened the window and tried to expel (?) them. It was winter and big snowflakes was falling down, also to my room. Then I started to feel bad for them but I didn't stop. Snowflakes started to stick to the wasps, then they was slowed down. I knew that they will die because of the snow, I realised that they was just waiting there for the better weather. I felt so guilty and sad, I woke up after that :c However dream was really beautiful visually. Vivid colors (yellow, white and blue) etc.

#2 Jelly-kittens
I was on my bed and on the little piece of paper I had 4-6 tiny little cats (1cm) which was alive but made of some transparent gel. They was standing in the circle. They was kinda sticky. I was responsible for them. They ate wood chips which gave to them. THEN equally small dinosaur came over! And he tried to eat or hurt my kittens. So I automatically hit him with tiny stick. Unfortunatelly one of the cats was glued to him. Also rest of them dropped of my duvet and I couldn't find them. When I did there was less of them (3-4?). And on the end of the dream (which is a little blurry) I lost them all. So guilty and sadness as well again. I wouldn't be a good mother ._.'

Ok, rest of these are boring/private. I'll add here only some interesting stuff (when I'll be bored probably) and LDs.

I was in the woods behind my house, and it was the summer time. I had a strawberry with me, and put it in a bird feeder for the butterflies to eat. I remember seeing a cardinal nearby, and imitating it's song. I walk farther into the woods, and see a pond. It starts closing in on me, and before I can get wet, I cling onto a tree, and climb up it. My dad then picks me up, and saves me from the water.
I am with one of my cousins near a pond, and we are fishing. He tells me that he is going to go in the water, and I am going to fish him out. I do that, but he comes out as a fish. A little bit later, all the fish turn into dogs, either small or big. They move into two different sides, the small dogs and the big dogs. The scene transforms into my basement, and I am on the small dogs side, ready to fight. My sister is on the big dogs side. We start throwing balls at each other, and my mom yells from upstairs at us to be quiet. We stop fighting, and the dogs aren't there anymore. I notice my parakeet, Sunny, laying as though sick dressed up in miniature clothes. I pick her up and take off the clothes, and she turns into Hermione. Ron and Lavender Brown are there too, and Hermione is refusing to talk to either of them. I walk into what is normally the exercise room in my house, but it is a dance room for Hogwarts. The song is about dementors, and everyone is dancing.

D1: I was at my house and was going to have some people over. I acquired some acid and was planning to get high with them and have a party. My parents? or someone told me to keep the house clean, otherwise I'd be in big trouble. So I took the acid, and next thing I know, the house is a complete mess and I remember nothing. So I quickly clean it up. At one point the cops come looking for me so I go to my ultimate hiding place, under the water bed(this was at old house) and hide under there underneath a blanket, but I think they still managed to find me because they tore the house apart looking for me.

D2: I don't know if I was asked this question or if I myself asked it, but the question was, "If you could go back to one day in your life, what would it be?" And I just wanted to go back to a happy childhood day, so I picked the day I had my birthday party at the roller rink. Next thing I know, I'm like 10? years old and I'm in my room getting ready for the big day. For some reason I'm hanging up pictures of Santa Claus. I never made it to the roller rink, darn it.

D3: I was back in high school. I was quite enjoying it, but I was in the main lobby doing something, like baking muffins or something random, and I started to get super dizzy. I went to the health room and there was a guy before me who asked to go outside and they let him go. When I asked, the nurse said, "I'll schedule an appointment with your primary care doctor" and I said, "No, I need to get outside right now!" and she just kept saying, "I'm sorry but you'll have to make an apt with your doctor" and I said "I've already seen my doctor!" "You have?" she said. "Yes! I have a condition called Vestibular Migraine and it makes me dizzy and I need to get outside right now because I feel as though I'm going to pass out." At this point I was crying. I think she finally let me out.

Seems I can't even escape getting dizzy in my dream life.

D4: Then, I woke up but then was in "half sleep" and I was back in my high school just enjoying seeing it again, walking down the hallways. There were 4 locker hallways and some of them had string lights on them, it was kinda pretty. I remember trying to find my 2015-16 planner that I lost. Also, I remember walking by a classroom and hearing a teacher shout, "Laura!", as if she wanted to say hi and introduce me as a former student, and I didn't want to be seen so a ran away and hid in one of the hallways.

I had quite a few non-lucid dreams this night and these are my favourites:

Little space journey
I was on a space ship with a few people but only one of the persons was known to me, an old friend. At the moment we were in a hangar of a space station and I could get a glimpse of the exterior of our ship.
It had huge but very thin wings each with multiple turbines integrated to it. A blue flame shot out of the backside and later I noticed that the wings are actually very flexible and consist of multiple parts hold together.
Now comes the really interesting part. My friend and me are supposed to travel to the smaller station out in space first and the transportation method was quite risky to say the least.... it was a box.... just a box.
You could enter the white metal box and then they would shoot us towards the station so we can reach the entrance.
After entering it took barely a second and we were pushed out. The box was circling like crazy but who cared? We had zero gravity and safely floated in the middle. In this moment we both got a pretty worrying
thought. We remembered that being in space without any suit or other protection would make you overheat as you can't transfer your heat to anything in the vacuum. But both our suits and the box looked allright so
we stayed relaxed and enjoyed the journey.

The dark lord
I started off in a big, gloomy room. The red light was actually fairly pleasant but some persons that surrounded me were not. Not all of them seemed suspicious, just the ones that were doing business in the darker
corners of the room. I looked up at the ceiling and noticed that I was directly under the roof when I suddenly had some kind of vision. A beautiful city at night with lakes and a huge tower in the background could be seen
but the two persons near the bridge were even more interesting. One sat on the ground, completely covered by an orange-yellow hood while the other one had a robe turning his back towards my inner eye.
The person on the ground said that they were absolutely sure that the dark lord was here in the city and the person on the bridge agreed. Still he had to add that he had no idea how to find him.

Maybe this will be my task once? Who knows...

The way back home
There was not much to see out here. Wide grass fields, some poor fences, a few gravel paths and this little house in front of me. Two strangers accompanied me on my way home. However we would actually find that.
Suddenly I sensed some presence at my right and a masked figure stood at the edge of the house. The fact that it was holding a revolver towards me didn't make anything better. Luckily I have some pretty reliable
"plot armor" in my dreams and the guy simply didn't manage to use the gun against me. I was really wondering why it took so long before one of the strangers threw a few stones at him making him collapse.
Well, that was easier than expected....
The other stranger told me to take some of the stones with me so that we could mark ways we already visited. Not sure if this is helpful. I mean, we are in the wilderness, not a labyrinth.

Some activities i did before going to sleep. When it was already dark at night i went out with my bicycle for a ride so see some scenarios. I seem to enjoy more of the awareness at night, and that helped me in my dreams tonight.
Then, before going to sleep, i meditated one hour aproximately in Zazen. That helped me a lot in vividness of my dreams and restfulness of mind in my dreams, at the last moment of a dream that actually helped me got lucid.

I fell asleep at about 3:00 AM. In my first dream I was at a supermarket. In front of the cashiers, in the same building, there were many shops. In one of those shops there was a woman who kept a tablet that was mine, she said for safety. I wanted to go in and talk to her but the shop was closed. Then i talked to a cashier, and she said that there was no problem that she would give me one (apparently she trusted my word). So he passed the tablet through the laser and she asked me for 15 pesos. I told her that was why i wanted to speak to that woman. There was nothing wrong with my tablet and now i have to pay 15 pesos for nothing. But ok i payed it. Then she bagged it and while she did that we talked about a football match of this morning (which nothing happened in waking life, actually before going to bed i was thinking about football and Argentinean team, something i haven't done for like 2 years). She asked me if i saw the football match of Argentina this morning and i said no, i don't watch football anymore. She was surprised, a man who doesn't watch football, but i wasn't surprised of her, i know that some people are ignorant enough that think everyone will have the same habits. She was with another woman, and for not being rude i said that i haven't watched a single match since Argentina lost the world cup on 2014, she said that she couldn't believe i (actually she did but she said that probably for my tenacy. I actually wasn't interested anymore, it's just a business, that doesn't attract me).

I went out the supermarket and took a walk in the city. I crossed a street and i saw my grandmother in a car, like working as a taxi driver. I go to the square (scenario i had seen in my bicycle ride before going to sleep). I was heading from a supermarket called Vea to another one, more close to center of the city, called Top. I don't recall so much what happened there. But after that i headed with my mother to a street where there is a school. I saw a small square and next to it the entrance to a garden (street mitre). My mother passed it but wanted to show it to me, and i pointed out that it was behind. She kept going anyways and we went to the end of the street. The building were each time more ... antique, they were like gothic style (the houses were like 2 meters tall, and made of stone, fine stone), and the place looked like a town more than a city. In a street there were some old men playing or washing and i asked my mother if she could stop so i could see them. She did 100 meters more and stopped at the end of the street. I asked her if she could go back. She didn't answer me. I asked her if i could drive. She was staring at me. I told her "It will be ok, it's a lucid dream, im aware" but with compassion (not with conceit like happens other times i get lucid. This is probably a nice effect of the meditation). My dream starts to fade and i find myself awake, but i stay still, thinking that i could return to the dream again. Anyways i was in a bad postion (not awful like other times, but wasn't good either). I thought about the DEILD technique so i stood for a while like that. Then i thought about writing the dream and do a WBTB but i didn't since i would remember the dream. I fell asleep again, i continued in the same dream, but i wasn't lucid. It was like the dream would prolonge for like 10 minutes. So i continued dreaming. We headed with the car to our left. We go to the end of the street where there was a river going down. I got out of the car and my mother was already with his boyfriend so i left them and went on my own. I got myself inside some ruins and jungle. I saw there was no escape from that point onwards so i had to go back and surround that place, go through a river "gate" and there i could continue. I saw there was a big stone, and water flowed below that. It wasn't very dangerous since nobody could fall there, but one could put a hand there. Anyways one wouldn't want to since there were a lot of insects there and a lot of moss. Suddenly i see the boyfriend of my mother coming and he puts a hand in the water and he drinks it. Then he shouts, "i drank some of the water you drink" (like saying to my mother) i told him that is not the water she drinks, this one has insects. He didn't listened to me, probably he heard me. I go back and im ready to go to the river. I was at the spot where the car was (i was to the left of that place). I jump out of some big squared stones and i see to my right (i was in front of the car, so same direction as i was before) and i see a beautiful landscape. The skies were blue, but that blue was covered with purple, orange and yellow. There were some trees, very tall, like 20 or 30 meters of altitude. It was like the earth if it would have evolved spiritually, with no pollution or anything like it. The tree looked like weirwood of game of thrones, but it was taller, and when i saw it and the sky behind it it was a lovely mix of colours. The place was the andino, at the end of Bv Roca, i was standing to the left of what would be that place. By the way, when i was coming down the big squared stones i thought about the benefits of giving up adictions, that it is neccesary, then i saw that beautiful landscape.

DILD 1-
I woke up to these two big guys invading the house. I tried to stop them but couldn't. I woke up in my bed. Frustrated I forgot to RC again, I did a nose plug. It sort of felt like I could breathe through but I wasn't sure. I got up and walked to the kitchen where I saw a former male co-worker of mine. I went outside into the night and jumped up to fly. I only got a couple of stories into the air when I saw a couple of kids leaving the house, one with money in his hand. I found that he was walking towards me so I lowered myself to the ground. I approached him and grabbed the money from his hand, which amounted to like, two dollars. "My money! My money! My money!" I thought. Then, it hit me that I had dream goals that I intended "What's my dream goal?! What's my dream goal?!" I thought. I woke up.

DILD 2-
I woke up in my bed to find that I could see though the blanket that was over my head better than usual. I got up to walk around. The layout of the house was similar yet seemed a bit different. I tried to do a little jump into the void as an RC. I jumped into the void. I tried to imagine the ocean but the house I was at faded back into view. I remembered to phase through a solid object. I saw the front door and tried to phase though it head on but couldn't. I grabbed the door handle and pulled it towards me until I was able to phase through it. I went outside into the daylight and shifted my attention to summoning a dv member. I tried summoning Ginsan in my eyesight but couldn't. Then I put my hand behind my back and started callin for a random dv member, growing increasingly frustrated that I couldn't summon anybody. I woke up.

First had a fragment about some weird British comedy show, like Monty Python. It involved these weird horses…

Spoiler for NSFW:

...made entirely of testicles…

...running through the streets, disrupting traffic.

I did a WBTB and then fell back asleep. I’m in my house and quickly realize I’m dreaming. I plug my nose to RC just to make sure, and then stabilize by rubbing my hands and (for some reason) licking my fingers. I get right to work on doing some tasks for the competition. I start with flying, of course, since that’s usually the easiest for me. I’m in the upstairs hallway and try to lift myself off the ground. It’s somewhat difficult for some reason, so I decide to move to my parents’ bedroom, where the ceilings are much higher, giving me more room to fly around. Sure enough, flying is a lot easier, and I stay in the air for quite a while.

There’s a bit of a gap in my memory, but I’m now downstairs on my porch. All the furniture is gone, it’s just the walls and the carpet. I decide to phase through the door, so I get a running start and push my way through. It feels like I’m going through a slab of jelly, but I do make it to the other side. I head back inside, but my mom stops to ask me what I’m doing. I don’t really know how to explain it to her, so I just shrug my shoulders and walk off.

I remembered a lot more of this lucid when I woke up afterwards, but I quickly fell back asleep and forgot a good portion of it. I feel like I did more tasks, but I can’t think of them at the moment, so I guess this’ll have to do.

1 Fragment - 0.5 pt
WBTB - 2 pts
DILD - 10 pts
RC/Stabilization - 1 pt
Fly + 1st-Step - 5+5 = 10 pts
Fully Phase through Solid Object - 10 pts
Interact w/ DC - 2 pts

Night 1 Total - 35.5 pts
Competition Total - 35.5 pts

I went to bed around midnight quite tired, but my awareness just would not let me fall into unconscious sleep. My wife came to bed late and woke me up. In retrospect it felt like I was WILDing from bed time. A case of dolphin's "all night awareness" I believe.

early:

+ I'm standing in a house, on a stairway, I see my father walking up from a higher landing up other stairs. He is naked, and his "stuff" is vaguely visible, so I turn away to preserve his modesty.

I'm in my parent's bedroom, my mother is talking to me, she wants me to take a look at some letter that my sister brought by. I'm upset at her for talking to me because I'm trying to fall asleep (!). I take a look at it and there are some cards and a piece of paper but it seems not to be of any importance.

+ (f) I'm viewing a scrolling list of some sort, reading it, it's important.

+ (f) I'm thinking about fitting into zero area spaces between lines and the intersections of planes.

I waken and realize these were dreams and spent some more time floating in "awake" awareness until the next bunch of dreams:

+ I awaken in bed to a sudden "bang" sound. I'm in my adult home, but sleeping in my son S1's bedroom but with my head by the window in the corner. I pull up the covers and try to feign sleep. It's son S2 who's up and making noise, coming out of the master bedroom into the hallway. He announces: "Guess who's going to Prom!?" This is odd since I know he's University age.

+ There are two young men, there is a narrator voice, it is vaguely sexual in some way, the young men are singing, something they say sounds like "fantasy." There is a track from where they are that runs along the right wall of the room, and little round things are rolling down this track. They are very small (1/4 inch) round thumbtacks with tiny x-rated scenes painted on them. There's a bunch of them stuck on to the wall by my bed. I'm pulling them out and seeing the holes left behind. Son S2 comes in and starts looking at them and I'm trying to hide them. I pull the bed away from the wall and there are more there stuck in the wall running along the floorboards.

LDs:

later:

+ LD#164 I'm the same bedroom as the previous dream (adult home son S1's bedroom), it is dimly lit. My wife is there and there are the same x-rated little thumbtacks stuck in the wall again, she is looking at them and saying "what are those?" I'm trying to pick them up and hide them, piling them on the bed, I ask her some question to distract her, then I have a feeling that this is an absurd situation and didn't I already deal with this? and get fully lucid, quick nose pinch confirms. The dream gets a bit unstable right away, dizzy/fading but quick hand rub brings it nicely back into focus. I remember TOTM basic I (read the title of a book) and go to the bookcase up against the wall and pull off a book and look at it, reading is difficult but I see "winnie". Then I'm looking through some book flipping through the pages and I see a bunch of colorful complex stick figures. No matter how fast I flip the pages there is always a clear picture there, I'm amazed that my mind can produce the images so quickly.

I walk out into the hallway, and there seated on the floor next to son S2's bedroom door are my sons, aged about 3 and 5. I call them to me and get hugs from both of them, that was really nice. I walk down the hallway and turn into the family room, I walk to the bookshelf to check out more books since I want to make sure I get TOTM and I just want to try reading books. I decide I can order some food from the kitchen. I walk back to the family room entrance looking into the kitchen and am about to formulate an order and decide I'm rather just summon it myself directly. At first I call for pepperoni pizza but decide I want a Round Table King Arthur Supreme [my favorite chain pizza…mmm]. I think about extending my arms into the "aether" and grabbing it like Merlin does with Logrus magic in Zelazny's Amber books. My hands don't come back with a pizza but I glance down on to a table and see an open pizza box with a pepperoni pizza in it. I take a slice and eat. One of my kids comes in and eats some as well. I have the thought that this is a long, stable LD and that this is due to my daytime mindfulness work.

Back to the bookshelf, I take a book from the middle section and open it and can't make any sense out of the title or the contents. I rationalize this via thinking "oh this is from my wife's German books collection" [false]. Then I go to the right section and think I see my old college Astronomy textbook. I take it out and open it, and at first I get the impression that I can understand words, but then everything seems to be abstract geometrical shapes.

I've had enough of reading so I walk towards the living room. On the way there I get the idea to summon MaSt for some "fun." I'm calling out her name "M St…., M St…, M St…" and am walking around the (totally empty) living room. I walk by the light switches and try to operate them to make the room lighter. It doesn't work and I continue walking around the room, but give a quick thought to "be lighter" and notice that there is a bit more light.

Then I notice that the wall on the side of the entry way is all glass [DS] and I can see two local neighbor kids outside, a boy and a girl. I make a gesture for them to approach. I then see them again and their faces are a bit different. I go outside and there are a few more people here. Another man/woman pair whom I think are also very young / kids at first but as I approach them they seem more like fully mature adults but are just very short, they walk away from me. I turn back towards my house and there is a woman there whom I see in passing has a very large dark birthmark on her face. I will her face to be clear and briefly notice it happening but head back in to the living room.

There is a young man there now seated on a bench and we exchange a few words. I decide to tell him what's going on. I walk past him and say "you are a dream character within my lucid dream!". He says "What!? NO!" and comes at me aggressively. I push him back and decide we'll fight and I pull out my lightsaber from my "utility belt" and turn it on. Sigh, weak translucent colors again. We both have light sabers and are vaguely swinging them around. I tell him to turn up the opacity on his as I want to do to get fully operational light sabers. Then he backs into a TV in an entertainment center cabinet and disappears into the picture tube. I stick my saber in there and swish it around, I want to see the TV set ripped apart in molten metal effects but instead I just get a bit of static popping up on the screen.

I go back to walking in a circle around the empty living room and calling for M St… to appear, holding my hand behind my back, but the dream slowly fades.

I feel myself in bed, with something on top of my eyes. But I don't want to open my eyes for fear of fully waking up. I try to slowly open my eyes. Then suddenly…

+ a new bright scene instantly appears. I'm lying on my back on a medical table against a wall in a very brightly lit medical procedure room. There is a black female middle aged nurse at the food of my bed, I'm pulling her on top of me and down for a kiss, I manage a quick kiss and want to make out with her but she pulls away, saying that I don't look good from my condition, and that "we've already done it today anyway". She walks along the side of my bed around to my head. She asks if I've decided to go ahead with the treatment, and asks me for the diagnosis. I notice I'm in a medium-large sized room with many patients on medical tables and many people attending to them. There is a person on a table nearby with someone standing next to him. I hear myself mumbling some medical terms that seem nonsense except I recognize the word "cortex."

The nurse then inserts some thick needle object slowly into the area beneath my left eyebrow and above my eyelid. It feels like the skin the needle is going through is very thick and it moves very slowly, it's quite painful. It also feels like there is some sort of hard clamp placed over the needle holding in it place. Something clicks and I roll off of the bed/cart and am lucid, a quick nose pinch confirms. I'm in caveman right away and looking for a suitable female. Everyone in this room seems old/ugly. I'm walking out of this room and the black nurse is pursuing me but I call back to her "you already had your chance."

I think what to do/where to go and I realize there must be a particular kind of doctor nearby and see an entrance to a waiting room and enter. There are a lot of people here too. I find a suitable DC sitting in a chair and kneel down in front of her. A male relative/friend of hers has his arms firmly around her shoulders.

Spoiler for sexy time:

I put a hand over each breast outside her shirt and start massaging her nipples between thumb and index finger round and round in circles,

while I'm reassuring her that the doctor knows exactly how to treat people like her so it will all be fine. After about 10-15 seconds,
the dream fades.

I wake happy at the very nice sequence of LDs and achieving TOTM.

I just want some restful sleep at this point and try to release any lingering awareness so I'll fall asleep quickly.

I sleep and dream some more. A number of scenes, mostly fragmented, some excerpts:

+(f) walking in a hallway I realize I'm walking along former colleague DeHo, who lives in SC. I say "hi" and lean over to give her arm a friendly bump but instead I brush her breast by mistake. I feel a bit embarrassed and she leans a bit away from me. We talk about the weather a little bit?

+ (f) I'm trying to get an ice cream vendor to explain something to me and they're not cooperating.

+ (f) at my kid's birthday party, there are a lot of kids, how shall we ferry them all to the next destination? We'll need several cars, I can't see how this is possible. Also something about serving them ice cream.

+(f) traveling with a girlfriend? She slides up to me on a seat and it's very cozy.

+ (f) I'm sitting down in a dim location on a bench with a girl I know is ElWa (grad school colleague). I sense her husband GrBa is watching us from the shadows. I put my arm on her bare leg and feel some stubble. I wonder what else is hairy. I know it's her but saying her name would somehow ruin the situation.

Bed @ 2330
Woke @ 0330

Fragment: I'm at home, thinking about Apollo 13 and Mission Control


Woke @ 0645

Driver on the lawn
I look out one of the front windows of my house and see a guy in a pickup truck (white, with a blue logo on the side) drive from right to left across my yard leaving tire tracks in the grass. Part of me is annoyed, while part is curious: how did he get through the bushes on the right side of the property? And just what does he think he's doing? Now it's another day. I look up and see the same guy in the same truck drive across the lawn in the same way, now leaving a second set of tire tracks. Incensed, I get up to run outside to try to get more info about who he is and try to figure out how to stop him.

Now I'm outside. There's no sign of the truck, but there is some heavy stuff around the yard that hadn't been there before, including a few traffic barrels and some kind of heavy concrete thing with chain coming out of it. I decide to use these things to block off one side of my lawn so he can't drive through it again.


Armed intruders
I'm in my garage at night working on some kind of project. An unexpected movement, seen out of the corner of my eye, makes me instinctively grab a piece of nearby scrap wood and whirl to face it. The movement turns out to have been some kind of small animal that snuck in, so I relax. As I turn back around to whatever I was doing, I see a young woman coming towards me. I brandish the scrap wood in a defensive posture. I realize the wood is much lighter than I'd expected, and it won't actually make for a great weapon, but she won't know that. Unfortunately, she pulls out a small handgun, and I doubt my ability to rush and club her. I duck behind a pillar, but not before I see two men, also with guns out, starting to flank me. I know there's no way I can keep the pillar between myself and all three of them, so I get as low as I can, put down the wood, and put my hands behind my head - partly as protection, partly as a sign of surrender. The woman reaches me first and points her gun at my head. I offer a quick prayer to commit my soul to God and stare at her, waiting for her to pull the trigger but hoping she won't.

Now I'm alone, and I have the gun from one of the guys. At first glance it looks to be a small revolver. When I open the cylinder, I see that it has more than one ring of bullets; wow. As I look more at them, I realize the bullets are a variety of shapes, sizes and lengths. Further examination shows that, instead of being arranged in multiple rings, the bullets are actually arranged in triangular groups of three, so each third round is closer to the center than the others. I wonder how the guy could keep track of which bullet is where. When I close the cylinder again, I see that he'd put pieces of masking tape on the outside with labels showing which bullet was in which spot.


Discount pizza
I'm going through my mail and run across yet another flier from my <company>. I'm a little annoyed: they've been sending these things out for days now. The strangest thing about it is that each flier is addressed to a different person. Yesterday it came to my wife, and today it came to Robert, a guy at church I've said 'hi' to once or twice. As I look over it, I see a note saying that this is the last flier, and tomorrow they'll get back to their regular business of <something>. I'm relieved. As I go to throw away the flier, I see a bunch of tiny coupons along the bottom. One catches my eyes: $78 off an order from a local pizza place I've never heard of. I show it to my wife, who's in the process of putting some random leftovers into the oven, and suggest that we could do pizza for dinner tonight. I know we've had pizza recently, but we're running really low on leftovers, and it's hard to turn away free pizza. She agrees.

Now I'm at my computer pulling up their website. I wonder if I'll have to create an account, and I wonder if it'll be a problem that the flier was sent to Robert and not to me. When the site comes up, it says "Hello Nazrax" in the corner, and I'm surprised - I don't remember coming here before. Oh well. I look around for a place to put a coupon code but I can't find one. I look back at the flier and see it says to call them up, talk to Rebecca, and ask her to associate coupon code 147xx with my forum account. On the web page, I notice that my name is a link, and I click it to see if it goes to a forum profile.

Now I'm eating a really good sandwich I'd ordered from them while I was trying to figure out how to get the discount. My hands are a bit greasy, so I ask my wife to make the call.


Alien transformation
A woman is investigating something on another planet. Now she's been captured and is in an enemy spacecraft. She sees another woman trapped in a strange field, being raised up into something, and dashes over to her, jumping into the field herself, trying to save her. Now they're in it together, rising up into a hole in the ceiling. A strange glowy black sphere comes down to them. I have the feeling they're going to become psychically conjoined.

Now she's somewhere else, being examined by her own people. Sure enough, she's now aware of the other woman's thoughts; but she's also been turned into a cat woman with yellowish fur. She's very unhappy about everything, including her new instincts, but someone points out that <important person>'s main bodyguard is a cat woman.

At the store and someone complains. It makes the cashier lady cry. The cashier is really passive but she has to write down the interaction and it shows on a screen I can see. She writes that she basically told the customer that she was the boss and he had to listen. I was going to take a picture and show D because I thought it was funny but I remembered I only had an old fashioned flip phone. Everyone started calling their S.O’s so I called mine even though we were in the same store. We had to be secretive about it. I felt very in love with him. I saw a certain man twice in two roles, I figured he was a filler like in movies.
Hailey called and there was a lot of silence on the phone. She was upset. She told me she talked to a psychic who told her that the toilet is a symbol for how she looks down on other women and it’s true. I told her some people do that to make themselves feel better. I’m walking through a building. I say goodbye in my head and hang up. I forget to say it out loud so she texts me “ok?” I go to text her back but never finish.
D and I stay at a hotel. Our room has only double beds. Every room has stickers of football mascots. I see the back of a dolphin one on someone’s door. We have a partial ocean view, but the weather is wild and we basically have a raging waterfall and river right outside our door. I go to the shower and my mom is there, she starts talking about Alesia while I’m trying to use a homemade product.

Al.W. drew a funny picture.

A male and female are captured and trying to escape. They take a chance because they’ve had enough. They slide down a hill and the guy complains because he gets rug burn from his shirt. The girl thinks he’s whiny. At the bottom the girl sees a detached train car that says “resources” when she goes in it blows up because it was a trap. That was sneaky of the enemy. A little dog runs toward the guy, it’s badly burnt but it survives.

I dreamed of being lucid and playing Mario with team members on DV. Someone posted in response to a criticism : “excuse us while we try to figure out our ass from our head.”

I tried to pee like a man but couldn’t, and it ended up getting everywhere.

In the woods and it’s very crowded. There are tents everywhere and lot of people. I see a big grizzly bear walking around and I’m really stressed out about it. I want to warn people but I’m not sure of the bear’s intentions and I don’t want to aggravate it. Why isn’t it hibernating anyway? I also see a moose and the moose comes toward me, it gets very close and it kinda makes me nervous because i’m not sure if it’s aggravated or not.

Danielle was complaining about a headache

FA/hypnagogic imagery. I was frustrated that I was tired but couldn't fall asleep and then woke up and realized I had been asleep

So I was doing a WBTB + WILD combination and I was focusing on the "hypnagog speckles and shapes" and suddenly I was in a room what I imagined earlier, a young woman told me to drink from a wierd liquid (grey, treacly smthing and it had a bad taste too, I can still recall ) because thus I will be lucid. I drank a sip and she was right! The room became more realistic as the feeling of being there as well. So I drank the whole glass. It didn't become better but it was already pretty realistic.

All of a sudden I was again in my bed. But I had FAs before so I didn't have to do RC-s, I knew it's a dream. I just lift my hand and it felt really weird. I started to rolling sideways, not intentionally, I just wasn't entirely in dream state and I was afraid that if I move, I'll be awaken. So I was just rolling sideways for a really long time and the same time it was kinda like falling.

Next thing, I'm again in my bed, my eyes are closed and I'm afraid to open due to awakening. A little bit later I'm in the sky and a guy grabs me and fly with me. The whole experience was soo weird. But the DCs were really kind and helpfull and after all, it was a semi-LD, or to be more accurate I was fully lucid just the dream/dreams was/were not entirely dreams.