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Edit: Just remembered another fragment. I was on MSN and I accepted a contact request from someone. There was some weird thank-you note from him.

Had some dream where my ear lobe was extremely itchy, to the point of it being painful

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Was in some car with some random people. We were talking about relationships and kissing, I think.

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I think I started in my old school in Mrs. G's classroom. I was supposed to be doing this math test, and it all seemed very easy. There was only one last section at the back that seemed easy, so I decided to leave the class and go somewhere with KA. I stood up and walked to the door, thinking I could complete it as I walked.

The questions ended up being hard. It was a match-up sort of thing, and none of them seemed to match. I only managed to work about two of them out. I hadn't brought a calculator, thinking it would be easy, but I was regretting it now. I decided I should just go outside with KA and try to do it without Mrs. G. seeing me.

Outside there was some sort of festival, and there were many people looking up to a stage. The stage had various schools performing songs. This particular school (seemingly a high school) was doing a song that we do at our school. I started singing along with it, and thinking that we could do much better. The vice principal of my current school (who was apparently the principal of the old school in this dream) marched up to me with an angered face, and ordered me to the other side of the school.

As I walked away, the path led into some quaint little courtyard with a fountain in the middle. I figured I could do the math test here, and took the crumpled and folded paper out of my pocket. But it was hard without a calculator, and I just wasn't getting it.

I went to the principal's office, and the normal principal from my old school was there. I had some chocolate in my hand, and I guessed that my mom had sent them to her. I placed them on the table, and saw a little box of calculators. I snatched one, hoping she didn't notice, and stuffed it into my pocket.

As I walked out, I saw my mother wearing some plastic gloves. I was confused, and then she told me that she had lost her job and became the janitor there. "WHAT?!?!??!" I exclaimed. I was confused as hell, and also shocked and embarrassed. I didn't want my mother being the janitor here!

Before the dream ended, I looked down to see that I seemed to be wearing ninja clothes. I had all black on, even a face mask. I took the face mask off, and it ended.

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I was at KR's house apparently. It had something to do with Katamari Damacy. I think I was rolling up stuff or something, but the neighbor had apparently complained, and now we were being evicted. KR was freaking out like mad, but I didn't mind; I just rolled up some more stuff.

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I was at school. We were having a class party to celebrate the coming of the holidays, seemingly. But I was at my old school. Mrs. G was there along with all the others from my old school.

I started off in a hallway with a fridge and a few tables. This was the food area, I guess. I was looking through the fridge and noticed all the goods: they had giant packets of skittles, a huge tray full of mini nestle chocolates, and some other things. I was really excited about this. I stuffed my bag full with as many kitkats and coffee crisps and skittles as I could.

Then we started playing a mix of Capture the Flag and some other game, or something. We were planning out the teams. KE and KA and I think AL were there. Our "flags" were bottles of pop. My team had a nearly empty bottle of Spritz-Up (or something similar), and the other team had a half empty bottle of diet Spritz-Up. I drank almost all of the rest of our bottle, but it was warm and flat, so it was kind of gross. I then grabbed the other team's bottle and took a huge gulp. KE made a huge deal of this and grabbed the bottle and chugged the rest of it down. We then noticed a bottle of Crush Cream Soda there, and so I grabbed it and started drinking it. KE wrestled it from me and chugged the whole bottle just to prove her point.

At some point I looked in the fridge to see what else there was, and noticed that it had the broken up dark chocolate and a giant toblerone bar (just like IRL). I took them out and put them on the snack counter.

I also, at some point, was looking at the skittles packs. They were little boxes, more like the skittles gum packs. I noticed that the price on them was outrageous, ranging from $60 - $90. As I took them out of my bag again, they turned into giant apple-peach things; they had the shape of an apple, but the texture and juiciness of a peach. They were all bitten and half eaten. I noticed the price tag on some of them, and put them back in the fridge.

Somehow I ended up outside, near DU St. and PA St. Apparently I was supposed to get home, and was waiting for the bus. There were numerous people, apparently from the school party, waiting too. They made a huge line up across the block. I decided that I wanted to stuff more chocolate into my bag. I was somewhat in control at this point, and started marching up a hill on the sidewalk. I could feel that odd dream gravity that always makes running and walking so hard for me. But I made nothing of it and trudged on through the snow.

I finally came to the intersection of PA St. and AN St. I was waiting to cross the street since there were no street lights. When all of the cars stopped, I rushed across. Then, at the other side, I realized that I had somehow forgotten my backpack on the other side of the street, near the bus shelter. I waited yet again for a chance to cross, and another chance to cross back.

I ended up back at the school. I was going through the hallway and was greeted by the old class in the younger grades. I walked past them and up the main stairwell. The stairwell was different, made of many small but winding steps. DA was there, apparently getting something for his parents. He was muttering under his breath about how stupid they were. I wanted to get back to that fridge and taste some of the chocolates and candies. Then, my leg was itchy, but my hand from IRL scratched it, and so the dream ended (!@$%, I wanted my candy -.-).

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Had some dream where two blue silhouettes were talking to each other. They were saying that in their dreams, one would cut the other's body open, and their inner soul would come out, or something like that.

I was at school. I was in some sort of room, waiting for something. JO was sitting across the small room. There were a few others there, I think my mother included. I said something to him, and just stared him in the eyes.

I ended up in front of him. I ran my fingers through his hair and just stared at him. And eventually I kissed the top of his head, and we just held each other.

Some time passed, and I don't remember exactly what happened, but we ended up outside. We were looking at some sort of rink that seemed to be covered in a bouncy castle. There was some fair of sorts at the school.

We went back inside, and then we heard some sort of dilemma. As we looking outside, the bouncy castle had been deflated and ripped in the middle, and fireworks were coming out of it. "Some moron was using fireworks in there," I muttered with a bit of a laugh.

I ended up inside with him again. We were in a quaint little lodge, in a tiny room with a small bed. JO was lying on it, sprawled out with only his socks and underwear on. I took off my socks and pants, leaving a purple shirt on, and then climbed in. I just lay there and hugged him and kissed his head. Somehow we got onto a conversation about my boobs, but this dream ended here.

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I was with some people. We were looking for something I think, and we were near RA field. There was apparently some barn with foster animals there, so we decided to go visit it.

When we got there, there were some people helping out, and many stray cats. I was handed some sort of pamphlet that had instructions on making breast milk come out of your breasts. I read the instructions, and they were sure strange; one of them included eating raw eggs. I wondered why the hell she was giving this to me, but I shrugged it off.

Then I was back in the hallway of what was apparently my school (thought it was more like a hallway leading to a bedroom). I was about to sleep on a windowledge when a girl, seemingly LO, came barging around the hallway. It was a bit crazy already, and she just took it to the next level. She started dancing around and screaming. Then the whole breast milk thing came in; she grabbed her breasts out of her shirt and yelled, "DAMN I WISH THESE WERE BIGGER!!!!!!". Then she squeezed milk out of them and shot them like guns (I kid you not). I wondered how big she would want them, since they were already pretty huge.

I was then in some giant chamber, much like a part of a TR game that I played a really long time ago. I had gotten stuck in this spot in the game. It was a big blueish rocky room with random broken pillars in the middle of it. The only difference was that I had some sort of elevator thing that could be controlled by my weight.

Apparently we were supposed to have a band practice in the upstairs part. I asked the teachers if that was so, but they wouldn't give me a clear response. I started to gripe about how I would have such a hard time getting my instrument up there.

Eventually I went on that little elevator, just to see what was at the top. When I lifted my weight a bit, the elevator would go up, and if I stood heavily on it, it would drop down. The thing seemed to be made of paper. I seemed to have needed to wait a bit at the top for some reason, and I stood there, juggling my weight.

Eventually I ended up at the top. Somehow it became art class, even though Mrs. BN and Mrs. BT were there. We were about to start. Someone was beside me and Mrs. BT asked if he was a good artist. I then looked for my sketchbook and realized that I didn't have my bag with me. I asked if I could go get it.

I rushed downstairs, and back to that room I had attempted to sleep in. There were a bunch of fridges and cabinets now. I looked high and low for my sketchbook, but could not find it. I looked into one of the fridges, and there were books in it for some reason (most notably a series that caught my eye, called "The Asian Kid". Creative name no? It had a fancy blue cover with a picture of some asian boy on it). There were also numerous yellow books.

I gave up looking in that room and rushed backed to the "art class" to check if it was somewhere there. It wasn't, and I was getting annoyed. I then woke up to realize that my sketchbook was safely resting on my computer table.

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I was in that room again, lying on a large bed, trying to sleep it seemed. I was hoping that JO would come back, but instead I had random girls lying on the bed with me (to my disappointment).

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I was somewhere, sort of cuddling with some people, I think. I think I might have been lucid, but can't remember it well. I was trying to "turn" the people in other people. But it was one of those situations where I'm sort of half dreaming, about to wake up. I want them to change, and hoping the looking away from them will change them. But they won't change. And if I closed my eyes, then I would end up waking up. I ended up closing my eyes. Damnit.

I was at the LA. Seems like my class was there or something, but I had to get home. I was biking around the place a bit, doing something with some other people. I had to get home, and I planned to bike to the subway. But then I thought that maybe I should just bike all the way home; it wasn't that far. I started biking around the grass a bit and found that it felt so easy. But it seemed kind of strange too, since I knew that I wasn't that strong of a biker. But I shrugged it off and thought nothing of it.

I later ended up at school. BE was there, don't remember much else.

Then I was at some sort of office that seemed to be a workplace. I was in the elevator with some people, waiting to get to the fifth floor. The elevator seemed to get stuck in between some of the floors, since it was taking forever and the number at the top was just hovering at one number. I told some middle-aged lady and she didn't think much of it; she just held down a button. Then I felt the elevator drop and thud, bringing us back to the first floor.

At first there was some sort of quest or game. I remember nothing about it, but I know that it was something fairly grand and long and adventurous, and made me worry a fair deal. But I can't remember what it is.

Then I was walking down the street. I was afraid of getting my period or something. I felt something wet between my legs, and so I was trying to get home and find a pad.

I was at school at some point, but I can't remember much, other than JO was there.

I was at some point at some warehouse too.

I remember sitting beside V. I was just looking at him. He was looking off into the distance. I decided to kiss him. I ran my lips over his cheek; it was so soft. I couldn't seem to get my lips away from him; I ran over and over his face, and eventually gave him a little sort of lick-kiss over his mouth. Then the dream ended.

I started off at some house party. There were a bunch of people from school. Inside the front door there was a living room with a hallway and an ice cream freezer. The freezer was filled with those industrial sized tubs. Someone was serving it. I was trying to decided between getting mint chocolate chip, chocolate chip cookie dough, and something else (I think orange?). I could have two flavors, so I took the mint chocolate chip and cookie dough. As the person was lifting the tubs out of the freezer, I decided to not wait and to just stick my hand in to them and gouge out a handful of each flavor. They were freakin delicious.

Then I looked back at the living room. JO and some others were there. They were saying something, and I randomly did a dive roll and sang a line from the song Express Yourself by Madonna. Everyone just looked at me funny. I laughed awkwardly and raised an eyebrow and said "No? I guess not then." I then proceeded to sing the first verse of the song, but I screwed up a lot of the notes, and my voice was really blocked up. JO looked at me in the eyes, but then just laughed along with everyone else. "I know, I sing shitty," I said.

Then I was apparently at school, in some giant room that seemed to be some sort of auditorium. They were planning a concert, but they were barely playing any songs that I played. I asked the teacher if there was even a point of me being there, and she told me I could just skip the whole day. I then saw some of the performance; apparently it was some sort of presentation to the feeder school. A few people dressed in big blue gowns were singing on the stage, and then it disappeared.

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I was in a mall; it resembled DU mall's food court. IR was there in the distance getting some food. Can't remember much else that happened.

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I was with my mom and some others, and they were saying that I should be getting my period soon. I looked at them puzzled and wondered why they even cared, or how they would know. I told them it's usually later in the month, but then they pointed to some marking on my calendar. I repeated that it was later, and my mom said that it must have been an approximate date.

I was on some sort of rollercoaster it seemed. I was just sort of floating around and watching the environment around me. I saw a football game going on. Some people from my old school were talking about it.

Then my vision became sort of like a fb interface. Then VA's chat popped up in my window, and we started talking. He started talking about lucid dreaming to me. I told him that I already knew what it was. He mentioned something about falling asleep into it, and I told him that I couldn't WILD. He then mentioned that he had a DILD once.

Then I was browsing DV and saw my DJ. Then SA starting chatting to me too, and she gave me a link to DV. She asked if it was my account. It was. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell her it was; surely it couldn't hurt, but do I really want someone looking at what goes through my mind? What if they decipher the meanings, or decipher them wrongly? I was quite puzzled.

I chatted with someone else too, but I can't remember who.

Eventually I ended up in this sort of back yard of some cottage. It was snowy and wintery, but yet I wasn't cold. I was apparently part of some choir, so I started singing. I did pretty horrible. I apologized and said that I didn't know the song, and someone retorted that I should know it. I then went to get the sheet music for a song that I apparently knew. I sang it decently. That was the end of the dream.

Edit: Just remembered another fragment.

Can't remember where I was, but I think AN was maybe there. Someone, I think KA, asked, "So how many people DO like you then?" I shrugged and told her I didn't know. I said that AN seemed to, but who could be sure of everyone else? saw flashes of a few other people, and then it ended

It started off as some Tomb Raider style game, but eventually it changed.

I was in some room, seemed to be a living room of sorts. The walls were beige. I was with KR and I think KA. I needed a phone number for some reason and asked KR for it. She handed me some random phone number so I took it and called it.

The number was some sort of spam hacker thing. I called it, and it asked me for something. I wanted to hang up but I wouldn't for some reason. Somehow I knew that this person was going to hack my email and take over my computer.

Eventually I got away from the phone, but I was constantly worried about that hacker. I scolded myself for being an idiot and not checking the number for anything strange first.

Then it called back, but I didn't actually hear the phone ring or pick it up. The voice was just sort of talking to me and nagging me. It was trying to get me to say my email, and though I was tempted, I wouldn't give it up. I was scared shitless by this person. Even though I didn't know I was dreaming, I started taking control. I imagined a pencil in my hands. I started bending it, taking slight note of the fact that it was bendable and not breaking. I slowly bent it more and more, expecting to feel that snap... and so it did snap. I then used the two bits of pencil and blindly stabbed in front of me. I couldn't see the person, but I could feel it sort of dissipating against my attacks. We fought, and I felt it trying to defend itself and lash out at me again. At the last moment before I woke up, a quick picture of MI passed before my eyes.

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Though it doesn't seem scary, it actually really was scary. Surely you know how exaggerated dream emotions can be. I guess you can call this my first nightmare in quite a while.

I was at the ranch again. I was going out on some ride where we where supposed to warm up the horses. We walk through some winding trail in the snowy forest. I was worried that I was doing something wrong. I looked down at FL's neck and noticed that her mane didn't seem to be there. But it didn't bother me, and I bent down to hug and kiss her warm, soft neck.

Then I realized that I was the only one mounted, while everyone else was on foot leading their horses. Shit, I thought, what if they notice that I wasn't doing it right? I jumped off, hoping that somehow they wouldn't have seen me. The dream ended there.

I was at what was apparently KA's house. It was in some spacious basement. KE and KR were there. We were all hungry and looking for something to eat. I looked in the fridge and saw a cup of chocolate pudding. I really wanted it but didn't impose on it. Then KA was beside me, pulling out a jar of powdered mango pudding from the cupboard above.

"I don't like mango pudding... I hate mangoes!" I groaned.
"Well that's all we have."
"Can't I just find something else?"

I can't remember whether or not she said yes, but either way that chocolate pudding was mine. I grabbed it from the fridge and grabbed a spoon and peeled off the top sticker. It was some delicious stuff.

Eventually we ended up going upstairs and outside for some reason. It was a strange, almost barren and grey city. I remember going up to a concrete building.

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I was outside in some city. There was some girl dressed in black and pink. I was supposed to kiss her or something, but it never happened.

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I was with KR. He was going on the bus with me. We were supposed to make out with each other or something, but we didn't want to do it in public. We waited to get to a more secluded area with the bus. We were passing through a quiet neighbourhood, and I jumped out (didn't clue in to me that I just jumped right through the door, lmao). This caused me to wake up.

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I was at some random house. I think it was a camp of some sort; I was trying to figure out if I had forgotten anything. My mom was there at some point. Then it ended.

I was on the subway with MA and KA. We were supposed to go to MA's house or something. When we were about to board the bus, we had trouble deciding which one to go on. KA said she wanted to go on one that was a 2 hour long bus ride to go to the airport or something like that. We got on it but then I said it was ridiculous. We then got on another bus.

I think eventually we were at the subway again, debating over whose house to go to. MA said we could go to her house, and I really wanted to (at one point in the dream I did slightly wonder why I would even bother hanging out with her) for some reason. But KA kept saying that we should go to her house. Eventually we got on a bus but it ended up being the one to KA's house; I got annoyed and made us switch directions.

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I was eating popcorn, and was about to get the cheese flavoring. The dream then faded.

I had a FA. My ear was itchy, so I randomly got a q-tip and scratched my ear with it. When I took it out, the q-tip was covered with a layer of yellow waxy gunk. It ended there.

Had some other dreams, but I forgot them.

I was in some random building, or city, with AN. We were playing some sort of game or something where I had to run away from him. I don't remember much, but I remember seeing a city at nighttime. There were streetcars going through some street, and there was a park with trees behind it.

The last I remember of it I actually managed to get away from him, and I was hiding in that building.

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I had a few other dreams, but totally forgot them by now

My first dream was lucid, but I don't remember what happened. It faded right when I got lucid, but I DEILDed into a new one.

I was sort of detached from the dream, more like watching a screen than being in it. I tried to visualize stuff so that I would be more immersed in it. I wanted to try to share dreams with AN and make him lucid. I started yelling his name and yelling to get lucid. I then tried to visualize myself going through a door and expecting to find his dreams in there, but it wasn't really working. I wasn't really in the dream, more just like visualizing it and pretending I was there. At one point I was in the dream I think, but I was losing control and starting to do other things.

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I was at the ranch again. I was in the corral with ME, KR, some of KR's apparent friends, KI, DE, and some other random staff. They were closing up for the day or something. KI had just come to ride WO. I said hi to her in a shy manner, and she ignored me. Usually she talks to me, I thought. She was the type of person that would ask me why I hadn't been there since the winter last year. But she remained silent.

KR then gave me a piggyback ride and we ran around the muddy corral like that. She was wearing her faded blue skinny jeans and her converse sneakers and glasses. Eventually I hopped off.

I spent some time running around the pens for one reason or another, trying to avoid something. I think KA was there at one point too. Eventually I returned to the corral.

In the corral there was this white horse that was saddled up. I knew somehow that it wasn't meant to be ridden at all, but the corral was empty, so I took it quietly through the barn to the entrance. I then mounted and urged it into a gentle lope. It didn't want to lope much, and wouldn't go faster when I squeezed it. It was peaceful and enjoyable still. I only rode up the driveway. I saw a bunch of stores when I looked past it. I decided it wasn't a good idea to go further, and rode the horse back to the barn. I dismounted and took it through the barn again. I was scared that there was someone on the other side. When I got there I think ME and DE were there; I tried to go and pretended not to take notice of them. They didn't say anything, and I was quite grateful for that. The dream then ended.

I was in a car with SA and some other random people. I think the car was red. I think there were two SAs. I couldn't stop looking at him. The dream didn't last too long.

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Some fragment where I wanted a banana. I grabbed a bunch from my living room and tore one off. It somehow ended up splitting the skin on three different bananas. There were then two other bananas that were opened. I was worried that I shouldn't leave them open, but I didn't want to eat them either. I attempted to arrange the skin on them again to try to close them. The dream faded.

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I was getting up to go to the bathroom when I noticed this big spider hanging out on my door. I wasn't that freaked out, but pretty disgusted. I wanted to leave it there and let my mom or my cats deal with it, but I was scared of it creeping into my room or something stupid like that. The dream ended.