non-lucid

Date: 7/20/2013

I was taking a bath in a bathroom. Unknown place. Yellow lightning. Put a porn magazine on the window. I think I put it on the tub filled with water earlier. I felt arrogant or snobbish. Travel. I was in a place near the sea. Reminds me of San Carlos. Sarisa. Asked the guy I was with if they're also edible here. He said yes, uninterested. Yellow Ranger. Fell in the sea and was captured by someone. Another female. Held hostage. Saw a shrimp. She acquired it. Hid from the person who captured her and morphed into shrimp so she can swim. House. The kitchen area behind the divider. The person who captured her went looking. She swam away. I was her, the captive's, body. Like something she shed off. I hid her, then a shrimp, under my shirt as I walked past the woman and went to the living room. Light in the kitchen was on. White. Dark in the living room. I thought that the shrimp can swim higher to avoid the person. Decided to push her out the window to help her escape. Remember thinking of meeting Blue Ranger. Admired him. Cook fest? San Carlos? I was with a cute guy. Taller than me. We were to bring mom a plate of food. We were in some sort of mini forest. She was lying down on a bench? On her side with her face away from us. She was topless. The guy told me he wouldn't want to see her torso and we should just leave the food. I agreed. After we put down the meal, I called her name so she'll know there's food. She turned her head to acknowledge? Or her whole body? Didn't see her front. We left and I ruffled the guy's hair. I noticed he's almost Caucasian. We parted ways. A scene. My brother's cooking. It's smoking like a barbecue outdoors. He cooks better than me. Watched the family eat. On the road. The side area has very light traffic and there's a guy, Robin Padilla, who gives directions or tells the person who asks how the traffic is ahead. There's an inconvenient bump that separates this lane.

Notes: Very messy. No rhyme or reason. Dream between 4 am and 6 am.

Objective Context: Ate huge shrimps yesterday. Lots of cooking and food. Used 2nd floor bathroom.

Associations to the Dream Setting: San Carlos - very memorable place albeit small. Also connects to another island via boat. The road - the bridge near Quiapo church, where Pasig jeeps come out. Also memorable. Reminds me of a crush, Le. Also travel to Shaw.

Feeling(s) Experienced in the Dream: Envious, curious, happy excited, snobbish, worried.

What Does the Dream Compensate: Lack of travel?

Date: 7/1/2013

I was with a lot of people. It was night and dark in the forest. We were walking around, and we're in the aftermath of an earthquake. We walked to the beach area, and we watched both sunrise and sunset across the beach. The sky is very orange. I looked directly at the two suns. Sunset has a yellow or orange core, sunrise is white. I was chasing a person. I was going to assassinate him. We were in a factory and a hospital. I keep changing my clothing to hide. I saw stairs going up, very prone to assassination. At one point, I became a nurse and a patient at the same time, looking from the patient POV and seeing the real nursr barely catching the me-nurse. I also sped down the stairs and out the window. Name: Natasha. I was running from someone, in the engg college, corner. Hid in the dark but the hairy guy in a suit still saw me, looking at me as he runs past. I then chased him. He became Prof X with working legs, and I'm a morphing Putty Patrol. I shot cannons at him at the CSL ground floor area.

Associations to the Dream Setting: Balulan beach, hospital, engg bldg USLS

Feeling(s) Experienced in the Dream: excitement, awe, wonder,

Date: 6/30/2013

I was in a mansion with other pairs of teams. There was a contest. It was break time, and one was practicing or showing off. White-haired middle-aged, toned guy. Reminds me of Spike from Buffy. Arc'd around the mansion, but failed to land back on top. Fell on the pool. Wide arc. I told a fellow call back others five to 10. It's 10 to 10. Heck just call them in now. Challenge for the pair of four teams explained. Skydive. Someone told me that they used to skydive without vacuum shoot. M&ms, smaller before, tried to eat while skydiving? We won. Brought home the prize. A magical fish caught in some sacred place. Going home. Scenery going back, like walking backwards. Mountains, domain of the monkey and eagle people. Ended up in the relatively peaceful and beautiful river nation. Big brother told me we will release it. We walked along a straight and narrow path. We passed by people. He asked me what's wrong. I told him I can barely see. I held the fish inside a transparent plastic bag. I asked him if it's even alive. He said yes. It looks like a koi fish, but bluish. It moved a bit. We arrived in an area with lots of waterways, but lookee more like canals. I asked if it's clean and if the fish will survive. He said yes. I saw other fishes swimming. Underneath, it is teeming with life. I pulled off the double-plastic bag, and had to go down near the water to release it. I said a short prayer to it that it should bless us for releasing it. I put it on the water, but it's dry. The surface of the water is hard. I saw a toy arrow near the fish. I didn't see it fly but there are boys nearby with bows. I saw the fish clam up, its fins turning into claw-like figures, covering itself, and its mouth looks more like a mosasaur's. Its color turned pale white, monster like, but I wasn't afraid of it. I was afraid FOR it. I took it back in my arms and went back up. One kid taunted me. I leaned on him and he fell on the "river." I kicked one kid. My arms are hard to move. Big brother chastised me for picking a fight.

Notes: Thought "I am able... to freely remember... my dreams" with bamboo breath before sleeping, and thought it while doing daily chores.

Objective Context: toy story 3. raining. no glasses back in manila- thought.

Age of Dream Ego:

Age Associated with the Dream Setting:

Associations to the Dream Setting: Lord of the Rings, the halfling's home. Manapla.

Feeling(s) Experienced in the Dream: Excitement, adventure, worry, frustration, anger

What Does the Dream Compensate:

Associations to Figures, Symbols in the Dream: Big brother- conscience and responsibility Sacred fish- prize/goal, to be protected, earned, changes Home- not place for my goals, distorts my goals, restricted

Date: 6/23/2013


Dream Text: I was in a mall. I wanted to go to the lower floors but I went to the 2nd floor instead. I was thinking whether to take the stairs or the elevator going down. I decided to use the stairs, but I can't recall walking down. Suddenly, I'm on the ground floor. I was walking down to the 1st lower ground (under the ground floor) and used a radio or toy walkie talkie to tell dad I'm there. The security guard told me it's actually a parking lot. Had to go back and take a different path going down. I arrived on the 2nd ground floor, where I was supposed to go. It is filled with toys. I also found rock candies of various colors. I chewed some blue and gray ones. I found two big crystals, a beautiful aquamarine, with a semi-transparent shell, and beautiful blue and white colors inside. It reflects another stone or crystal and showed the eagle of the other stone flying. I can't identify the other darker stone, but it seems to have an image of a superimposer eagle portrait.

Notes: I remember a lot of walking

Objective Context: I wanted to go to the mall. I kept thinking of my crystals back in Manila.

Age of Dream Ego:

Age Associated with the Dream Setting:

Associations to the Dream Setting: I've been there before in another dream.

Feeling(s) Experienced in the Dream: Excitement

What Does the Dream Compensate: Being stuck in the hospital unable to go anywhere.

Date: 6/16/2013

I was back Manila and there was a lot of things I want to do. I was in the Quiapo area. I keep forgetting to text Lico that I will be back that night. I was in our home, in the back. There was a gate or entrance in the back. I needed a battery, and Bern or Jade was cooking something to charge a battery. I went inside the kitchen and found a fire cooking in the corner, near the small window. I pointed it out and worried that it might explode. Nobody's paying attention. I went to the living room and took the baby outside. I went around the house. Also, mom and sis are supposedly going to Manila for the weekend, but I plan to stay behind in Manila. I was also thinking of going to a PATAS or LGBT event. Night. A bar area, like the one near Blue Wave near MOA. I met some people, unknown in real life. Met one cute guy I supposedly met earlier.

Feeling(s) Experienced in the Dream: anxiety, excitement

Chase. We are being chased in an unknown place. A squatters area in an Asian city. I separated from the rest and thought I lost them.

I came upon a playground surrounded sparsely by trees. I hid on the slide. A kid saw me. From nearby, I saw one of our pursuers, a guy who was wearing a kingly red-and-white robe and a crown, pretending not to see me. He was waiting for the right moment to catch me.

CR. Korean. Eyes. Question..

"Atlas, probe"

I was in our college. I was given a plant. I brought it home. I got lost in a 'forest.' (more like 'woods' but forest came to mind in the dream) I was supposed to plant it there, but I left it in school.

I looked around. There were people going to their school in the 'forest.' I was nude. I was momentarily conscious and then forgot all about it. I saw a small car with a small woman driving it. I asked her for a favor: if she can take me to the college to get something. I looked at the back of the small car and saw that people are riding it as well, I think as a favor, going back to town. She seemed to agree. I entered through the left side of the driver's seat; she was on the right side. I can barely fit, and it took some effort to get my left leg in the car. I accidentally hit the side mirror while adjusting myself, and I had to adjust it; the driver said it's okay, and adjusted it a bit.

When we arrived in the city (reminds me of the BPI along Lacson St.) with some buildings, we got out of the car, but I realized we passed by the location I need to go to. It seems it's not exactly in the school, but some location a bit outside of it. She said she'll accompany me for a while. We climbed over some gravel, and I realized how quick she is thanks to her size. I had to struggle to keep up. I thought of something like "I maintain that smaller people have advantages." (Probably from the quote from Shengji Yang).

Home town. I was in our store at home. Aunts and relatives were there. One in particular asked me how I live as a gay person; somehow, they know that I am. I felt relieved at this. They asked how I'm doing, and I answered fine. It was sort of a coming out Q&A. I thought that I'm gonna post about it on Facebook. I was tired. I went to sleep in the house.

Sept. 3, 2013

Chowking, a fastfood resto. I was ordering food from our hometown. I was going out with a bunch of people near the beach.

There's a line of tables and chairs for eating. The left side is for straight guys, the middle line is for gays, and the one on the right is for girls. I was going around, talking to everyone and anyone, but I think only with the straight guys. 'Fran?'

I was near the beach, elevated a few meters above the sea level. A calamansi plant grew on the salty waters near the cemented elevation (reminds me of the bridge in our hometown). It grew tall and reached a little beyond the elevation, but I heard or knew that the taste is bitter.

1. I was in a mall. I took the escalator going down. I lied down on it and looked up to a psychedelic sky, blue, black, yellow, white, all blending in. I can't tell if it was night or day. I took pictures every 'step' of the way down. Lightning, photos, angles or angels. When I reached the bottom step, I thought of someone I tried to court recently (2 months ago), and I felt jealous.

2. I was wandering aimlessly around the mall. I can't seem to reach my destination, but I don't even know what my destination is. There was an escalator going up, but I didn't think it will lead me to my unknown destination. I just keep walking, jumping even. I didn't feel frustrated. I seemed to be enjoying just walking around aimlessly.

NOTE: I meditated before going to sleep for 15 minutes and watched the hypnagogic images. This might have influenced the psychedelic sky. I also thought of that person I tried to court before sleeping. Wrote a short interpretation of the dream in my notebook which proved enlightening.

Sept. 1, 2013

I was in college. School exam. I missed the two days of exam, but I didn't really care. It's like, okay, I missed it, moving on.

Logging in on a computer. "Fee pe." I keep writing the wrong password or wrong name.

I was eating. I became Ray. An aunt arrived (around 60 years old and above, unfamiliar face). She barely acknowledged him/me (watching as third person). We ate food. She liked the food (nilaga) that I cooked. There was another woman with her, longer hair, same age. I invited her to eat, she just said it's okay, she's full, apparently from eating somewhere else prior. She looked bored, or maybe looks down at me.

I was in a school or building, 2nd or 3rd floor. It was a sunny day. We noticed that the nearby river is starting to rise. I ran like hell immediately, but others didn't seem to understand that it's about to flood. I told everyone to run as well, but I think I was the only one to leave. Everyone else didn't know better.

The water suddenly retreated, and next came the heavy rain. The sunny sky suddenly turned gray. I was running along a path that looked like a dried-up river. Then in front of me, I saw water rolling in like a wave from the sea. I was in a playground by then. I thought it's too low. There's a set of cube blocks forming a pyramid near a building. I climbed up. I found there are two people (kids? teens?) up there, holding each other to keep warm. I held tightly to them to keep warm as well. They didn't seem to mind.

8.30.2013

I was back to school. I was in my hometown. I was preparing for exams. Printed something, my schedule. Quick bathroom bath and dump. I took a car or vehicle to school. I checked my schedule while on the way.

I arrived, and mom caught up to me to give me my schedule. I asked my seatmate to hold my schedule while I get the schedule from mom (I know, it's confusing). I went back and found that my seatmate thought it was my exam paper and proceeded to pass it forward (even though we haven't started yet). His other seatmate was about to pass it along when I picked it up from his hands.

'Woke up.' I heard the radio say that it's already 8 a.m. I panicked. I thought I was gonna be late for my exam. I thought, wait, is it the second day of our three-day exams? I checked the clock and to be sure, it's almost 8 a.m.! Then I thought about the exam 'yesterday.' I can't remember finishing taking it or even taking the two other exams that day. Did I just go home and forgot about the rest of the exams? I don't know.

8.29.2013

3 ... political groups or beliefs. Town. heroes.

Really bloody battle in a school. There is a group of students making a difference. There was one guy whose eyes were gouged. I saw a building ruined. Dystopian mood. The students were looking at the aftermath of the bloody battle. A hero was hiding below the building. They heard him sing?

Hospital. Engineering building?

8.25.2013

Morning:

Time travel. A group. Go back in time. Forest. Guitar. Weapon. Top view. Shooting. Battle field.

Afternoon:

Room, bed, based on my ... to my side, above. I initially thought I was having an OBE. I moved to my side and I was tingling all over. I thought maybe I was out of my body already, or maybe I'm still awake. Unfamiliar room. Dark room. I looked out the window, with vertical bars, also strange, unfamiliar. Greyish sky. I tried flying out of the room. My arms went through the spaces beside the bars, but I couldn't go through like a ghost. So I thought I was still awake. Mirror. Black small thing. Tech... Comm...

Ran away from the room. I was chasing someone or someone was chasing me. I visualized a chain on the person's hands, and it clamped him down on the floor. He looked orcish. I ran and climbed up a wall. It reminds me of third-person dungeon computer games. Wide area. Like a castle. I climbed up the gate, and on top of something like a roof support (but it's not connected to the roof), there's a female warrior. I talked to her, asked what's going on. She seems okay to me, but another female warrior/guardian arrived, jumping on top of other supports, and rudely told me to go back. I taunted her, calling her names, like AngeliTina.

... woke up...

Airport. Police. Time. 3 p.m. or 1 p.m. There's a plane crash. Don't care about my flight, which is at 7:49 p.m. I was too early. Then I started wondering: why am I going back to my hometown? Then a memory popped up of a high school classmate telling me that it's his birthday next Saturday or Sunday, and he'd want me to be there.

I was in our hometown. I was online. Suddenly, mom asked if I can buy something (food called laswa) from the store. I exploded, asking why she's asking me to do this when she just came from the store this morning. She replied calmly and reasonably that they don't cook it that early, and they should have it by now. I was still mad, wondering aloud why buy that particular food in the first place. I replied that I'l just finish something on the computer or Twitter, and I was also eating.

I hurried to finish something on Twitter because I felt that she's going to leave already. I went out to find she did. I angrily said that I said I'll just finish whatever I was doing. It was afternoon. Found my sister and asked about mom. It was night. Found mom still within ear shot at the corner, and called out to her. She paused and looked back, asking what is it. She looked unsure and went back. I also wondered why my sister was there, and since she's there, why didn't she buy the food. Mom arrived. We talked. I asked sister if she has work. She said something about resting and a buy-back scheme with her work, that after she worked a number of years (five?), she can rest for a bit (vacation?), and store the value of her work. She can then just return for her work in the future, or the company can buy it from her for a certain amount. I thought of a way to make it a good investment scheme.