psychoTR2

I'm not entirely sure if this is the correct way to start a journal, but there wasn't any other button, so here goes

October 17, 2012

Did a lot of research on Lucid Dreaming before going to bed at 8:45, with my little brother watching TV on the top bunk until 9:00.

In the meantime, waiting for him to go to bed, I listened a bit to Subliminal Lucid 2.0 from the Audio Aid section. At 9:00, I started the song over, made sure it was at a comfortable volume, and listened to it while I recited my mantra in an undertone for about 5 minutes: "(inhale) I have control (exhale) over my dreams." I noticed that I felt my body getting heavy, but the fan that was on was distracting me, so I shut it off and started over.

Since Subliminal Lucid is intended for use before sleep, I shut it off and recited my mantra. I noticed this time that I didn't have the "halfdreams" I usually do, the ones not as vivid as a REM dream, but more so than a daydream. It took longer than usual to fall asleep.

I remember my first dream was very short, it was of me being in the living room, and my grandmother being on the phone, my cousing sitting in a chair. He starts to complain about how I spend all of my time on the computer, kinda like he used to. Aware of my grandmother being on the phone, I yell at him: "What the hell does it matter to you how I spend my Saturdays?" That's all of that particular snippet.

My next dream wasn't all that clear, clearer than the first, but it certainly wasn't lucid. It involved being at school, and dealing with a couple of bullies that mess with me in real life. They said they wanted to meet up with me sometime during school. Then, they started jeering at me.

I pushed one of them, then kneed him in the crotch for some reason. Then, I pushed the other one into the corner and held him up against the wall. I noticed that they were surprisingly light and weak. I could take them anytime!

I walked away and went on with my school routine, but noticed (after the dream)that all of my classrooms looked different than they do in real life, they're in different places as well. Around 4th/5th period, I confront the bullies in the middle of the school. He starts to say something to me, but then he dissapears, along with the other bully. I look around, and turn to see a friend of mine in front of me, where the bully had been. He started yelling at me about how much of a nerd I was, like any bully would. I think that's when it ended.

I had my mind set, as well, on trying to DEILD, and awoke twice, but both times, before I knew what I was doing, I opened my eyes, or moved a bit. Then, I fell asleep and woke up as I normally do, at 5:00 AM. So, no lucidity so far.