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Howzit,

So I found myself in prison one again, I was on the landing just hanging around and wasting time when a guy came up to me, it was Chris Taylor, a lad I went to school with, but as a man..! He was agitated about something, but wouldn't say what, I figured out that he was pissed off 'cos it was my release date and Joy was coming to get me, he apparently had a thing for Joy..! All of a sudden for no reason and with no questioning from myself, the scene changed to a bar-b-q in a very large garden..! It was still in the prison, though it was more like a gated community than a prison..! Someone had made a makeshift fire in a compost bag, with bricks round the outer edge and the coals in the centre..! Suddenly three hefty black guys came along and started shouting about who had stolen their compost..! Brazen as you like, the guy next to me owned up and when they asked why, he said 'well I had a bag of sand to make it in, but I wanted a black bar-b-q'..! They reached over the fence and dragged him over, it was spiked at the top, so this did him no favours, one had a ball hammer and one had a sledge hammer, they took him over the road to a space of waste land where we could all see..! Everyone assumed they were going to hit him with the hammers, but what happened next beggars belief..! They forced him down onto all fours, took the ball hammer, spun it round and placed the but end of the hammer between his arse cheeks and took a swing with the sledge hammer..! They made contact, but not fully and so they tried again, once more they missed, but in the act of trying they were hurting him none the less..! I got up to leave and realised I was still imprisoned, but wanted no more of what was happening, I knew though that if they saw me try to leave that they would then start on me..! I walked to a clear spot, checked no one was watching, then I looked to the sky and took off..! Much in the same was Neo does at the end of the movie..!

I think then that I feel into sleep proper as I didn't wake immediately or at least I don't remember waking..! The next thing I know is the dog waking me for the toilet..!

Prison will now be added to my dream signs..!

Cheers, Nicho..!

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Swapping colour codes Real Life and Dreams

I'd given my Dad my Christmas money to save for me, but when I asked for it he said he'd spent it, which left me no money for Christmas and everyone was going away in an RV, which is strange 'cos I'm British..! We don't really have them here..! I tried to come in through the door and he shut it on my fingers, painfully too and so I started arguing with him..! At this point, my cousin came down the stairs and said I'd have to fight him, at first I was a little afraid, but when I punched him, I knocked him clean out..! My other cousin then came down to see what was going on and said I'd have to fight him now too..! I was more weary this time as he seemed huge to me, but I hit him and ran..! I noticed I had no shoes on and was looking for something to put on when I noticed a pile of shoes, among them were a pair of inline skates..! I grabbed and put them on, then set off down the road, I was very skilled as I flew at great speed..!

I remember my Mother having a house changed up in the back garden, also when I escaped on the skates I came to a fair ground, but it was closed, it's a familiar fair ground dream wise, and the rides are totally impossible and very extreme, I have actually ridden the coaster and it is not to be sniffed at..!

Cheers, Nicho..!

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The past two nights I have slept right through, which is really unusual for me..! Normally I wake up numerous times before sleeping proper, sometimes as many as 8 to 10 times a night, it sounds a lot 'cos it is..!
So anyway, when I wake, I usually use it as an opportunity to WBTB, but sleeping through robbed me of this option..! I'm not too upset, it was nice to sleep for once (twice) and I did still dream..! The mistake I made though was not recording my dream when I woke up..! I still have vague feelings, but no solid imagery..!

I remember there was some flying involved, I'm not surprised I remember that, I always seem to recall flying dreams, my mother was there and so was Joy..! I recall a drug theme, trying to get some, but unable to, which is usually the case..!

So, this entry is just to keep my motivation up (simple continuity), I would normally forget, as I did and then just give up..! I'm determined not to do that this time, we'll see..!

Cheers, Nicho..!

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Last night I dreamt I was lucid. I was actually flying with another person, who then told me I was lucid. When he landed, he got someone to chainsaw his legs off so that it looked like he was stood in the ground. They asked if I wanted to try and I said yes. As he was about to cut my legs, I lost my nerve and said "how can I be sure I'm lucid.?" They told me to fly up again and that lucidity was the only way I could do this. I was really scared as he went to cut my legs and I was screaming, then as he brought the chainsaw down and made contact, he made a buzzing sound with his mouth and the chainsaw was fake. They all found this extremely funny at my expense.

I had other more recall too, getting trapped under a crane jib in the mud and thinking I was dead, being in the public toilets and finding someones shopping, which I helped myself to. They we're all shoes, loads of them and not good ones either. The best I could find were rigger boots. A young lad taking the piss out of two gays in a cubicle, when i asked him what they were doing, he made the hand to mouth motion that is universal for blow job. We both laughed at them, shouted fags and ran out off.


As a side note, my dream recall has been terrible of late, however for the last few nights I've been watching two short videos just before bed that combine suggestion and subliminal messages and my recall has jumped right up again, including last nights dream of being lucid. So I'm gonna stick with that for a while. If you want a link, drop me a line.

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I guess you get to an age where you no longer have nightmares, just bad dreams or dreams you didn't like. At least that's the way I see it now. So last night, I had a nightmare - bad dream - of sorts.
I went to bed really late, like 3am, woke up around 5am and as I didn't recall any dream for DEILD, I got up for about an hour.

For some reason I found myself in Joanne's house, living there with her, which would never happen in a million lifetimes.

Spoiler for why I hate Joanne.:

Joanne is the mother of my son Jordan, when I was a teen, I was of an unsavoury character and I spent quite a bit of time in prison. Whilst I was in prison, Joanne found a new boyfriend and at some point, she allowed him to beat my son, 2 at the time, to within an inch of his life. He is now a quadriplegic and only just short of brain dead. So I don't know why I would dream of her, let alone be living with her.

So I found myself living with Joanne, but for some reason another girl named Kate, who I was also seeing turned up, Joanne was out and so I let her in, but then Joanne returned. I explained who Kate was and that she was here and Joanne was fine with it - she always was a soft touch - however Kate wasn't too impressed though she made the most of it with a brave face. After they had spoken, Kate commented that she didn't know what to make of her now she knew she was Irish. I explained she wasn't Irish, in fact she was Scunthorpe born and bred, I said that she puts accents on to try and make herself more interesting to other people, to give herself some kind of personality if you like.

I decided to go out on my bike, but for some reason I didn't take my helmet, I had a hooded top on and thought that would at least keep the police off my back. I was speeding down the road when all of a sudden the steelwork of a building with a jet engine in the centre flew past me at incredible speed almost knocking me off my bike in it's wake. As I turned the bend I saw Carl from Poker waving me down and signalling the police were about. I was going quite fast and when I started to slow down, I noticed for the first time that there was snow on the ground and I had to be really careful. I got off the bike and stood talking to Carl and someone who resembled Shackles.
Shackles or his dream equivalent was saying how he rode all the time and how good he was, when I asked him what he was riding though, he said he's retired for now, which I thought was an odd thing to follow up with.

Scene change - We only own a shower and a very small back yard. Since forever, Diesel and Dutchess have been a nightmare to bathe, also not very fond of water in general. Well just recently, the past couple of summers, we've managed to get Diesel in the water with the aid of sticks, which he calls balls and is obsessed with, to the point that recently he has actually been swimming for a couple of seconds at a time. So yesterday was the hottest it's been this year and I got the idea to take them to the lake and give them a good bath. It was quite funny, but I think they actually both enjoyed it.

Joy and I were walking the dogs down the riverside and we found a place to bathe them. Dutchess went first as she is the least bother, usually just stands stock still until it's over, unlike Diesel who fights me all the way. Afterwards she was swimming in the water when she noticed a seal or sea lion, we'll say seal, she got out to play with it. It seemed to get nasty real quick and I shouted for her to come away from it, as soon as I said this, Dutchess turned into a seal, jumped in the water and started to swim with the seal. Joy then shouted that there were at least four or five of them. The whole scene had a feeling of dread about it, I told Dutchess to get out of the water which she did, as a dog again. As soon as the seals left, I got Diesel to come to me, I was stood in waist deep water with him and I was shouting for Joy to look, as I walked about in the water it got deeper and all of a sudden I stood on something sharp, Diesel was now panicking and I had to hold his head above the water and look at my foot at the same time. There was a yellow drawing pin stuck in my foot and it had some sort of logo on it, though I don't recall what.

We left the river side when both Diesel and Dutchess ran off in different directions, we panicked as we watched both of them encounter accidents, I saw Dutchess get hit by a car, and Joy said something had happened to Diesel, although she didn't say what, they were both lying on the floor immobile. Dutchess was crying and trying to move, but she could only inch along the floor on her belly, Diesel was having fits and convulsions. I didn't know which way to run. Diesel was closest by far, then someone shouted that Dutchess wasn't going to make it and I broke off towards Diesel. As I reached him, he was still fitting and as I moved in closer he fell down a shallow hole. I climbed in to get him and I noticed he'd turned completely grey - something I've dreamt before - I picked him up and cradled him, I was crying as I climbed out of the hole and thinking that I now had to get to Dutchess as quick as possible. I set off towards her, but I never made it. I woke proper at 8am shouting out loud "What an awful bloody dream...!"

I was inn some sort of casino or strip club, it was very exclusive. I was already drunk after playing poker and so I booked a room, put some cash in my pocket and then left the rest and my card in my room, there were 4 of us, 2 girls and 2 boys, I don't recall who. One of the girls was making out with another girl and so not to be outdone, the other girl in our party whispered a proposition to the waitress who nodded in agreement, she then proceeded to dip her fingers in her drink, put her hand up the waitresses dress and started to pleasure her, everyone was so shocked that the room fell silent as we all watched as she brought her to orgasm. I lost my room key and when I approached the manager, he offered no assistance, stating that I could just say I had a room, even though I'd signed a register and the 3 others iin my group also had rooms.

Scene change.
I'm walking down a riverside and as I observe, I see a large dark shape moving beneath the surface, I considered altering my course but it disappeared and so I continued on, I then thought that if I stood on a wasps nest and had to jump in the water, I'd maybe have that to deal with then, so I was at a loss as to what to do. I also thought that if I jumped in the water, the wasps would just attack Joy, even though she wasn't there and I'd have to climb out again to rescue her. I woke up to Joy asking me "Do you want one of these snickers?" She stated she never spoke, I was starving and so I went downstairs for a bowl of cereal.

Scene change.
I was in a snooker hall or at least some place that had a number of snooker tables, I was waiting for a game, Matty Walker was there and we were eating curry, hot curry. When a table became free and I started to get the balls out, I noticed that they were all brown, I went round the other tables and collected all the right balls for a game.

Scene change.
Joy and I were jogging (yeah right) along a sloping path with a high drop to one side, I'd decided that when it was low enough, I was going to jump down and get a lead on her, as soon as this occurred to me, Joy jumped down, it was way too high and she landed awkwardly on her ankle and fell, she didn't yell out or cry (yeah right), but she said "I think I've twisted my ankle. I told her to pull up her tracksuit leg and her bone was literally sticking out of her leg.

Spoiler for Broken ankle:

Similar to this, but higher up...!

She then proceeded to wiggle it about with her hand saying "Do you think it's broke?" I woke up proper.

On a side note, I've just noticed how my recall is getting better...!

I'll start with my first problem, the other half. She's started moaning about my WBTB routine and how it's disrupting her sleeping pattern - not that she has one, between you and I - and as a result, I've lost a little focus even after experiencing my first lucid dream, although I woke immediately, as I've come to understand is usual for most everyone.
Does anyone know of an alarm app for the Galaxy S2 that only plays through the headphones as even though my phones are in, the alarm also plays out loud and that is what's waking her, I must admit, it would piss me off too, but I can't find any option to change it, thanks for any advice in advance.

Now, onto the dream fragments, I've recently bought myself a new bike, a DRZ 400sm and I've been practising wheelies - IRL - so in my dream, I found myself on the back wheel like a boss. I mean I was in a shopping centre and flying round on the back wheel, up and down the escalators, round the people and through the shops, it seemed to go on for about half an hour and not once did I drop the front wheel, it was awesome, wish I'd got lucid in that one. There was another where I came home and caught my partner snorting drugs and I kicked off with her, I smacked her round the face - I don't hit my partner - and her daughter was there, she called the cops, but when they came and I hid, they both said that I'd left, even though they both knew where I was, weird.

So, I'm going to redouble my efforts as my little taste of lucidity has got me all worked up, just need to figure out how to wake at night without waking her, Joy, I'll use her name from now on as a lot of my dreams feature her. Reality checks are quite exhaustive living with her, so I only ever do them if I've not seen her for 2 hours or more now. Does that sound good to you lot, otherwise my reality checks would just be going through the motions right..?

Cheers,
Nicho...!

So, I'm really excited right now, let me lay it out for you, before I do though, I must warn you, it's nothing special.

On Friday, after a couple of nights with little or no sleep, I decided to take some Valium, my partner gets them as a prescription, so I 'nicked' a few of hers - don't tell her - and off to bed I went. I slept like a baby, as you can imagine and I dreamt of an old friend named Clint Diaso , I woke up and attempted to DEILD, but as I lay there I became more and more clear headed and so I got up to try my hand at WBTB. Neither worked.

Now, this is where it gets interesting, I don't know if it was the remnants of the sleeping tablets and I can't for the life of me remember what the dream was about, but what I do remember is at one point, the scene changed, right in front of my very eyes. I didn't need to do a reality check due to the fact that as soon as it happened, I asked myself if this was normal or was it a dream, then BOOM, I became lucid - I think - everything turned super, mega, hyper HD and I remembered the hand rubbing technique, unfortunately I then woke up rubbing my hands together.

Now as you can imagine, this excites me no end, I thought the lucid dream was something that would elude me forever, I'm older than I imagine most on here - maybe not, but the profiles I've read all belong to youngsters - and I always wondered if it's possible to teach an old dog new tricks, if you get my meaning.

So I'm reaching out to you folks for any encouragement and/or advice. Is this something that is normal, has it happened to anyone else, can I count that as a lucid dream, do you think it may have been a result of the valium in my system - no I'm not going to steal all her tablets, lol, she'd kill me - and is it usual to wake up still trying to stabilise your dreams. Any advice and pointers will be greatly received and I thank you all in advance.

Nicho...!

I was at poker last night and I had quite a lot to drink. I didn't dream (that I remember), but I did win poker. Both the league game and the cash game.

So, as stated, I lost focus for a short while, but after experiencing sleep paralysis once more, I will be redoubling my efforts.

I need to stay on track and focused.

I did dream, but lost recall. Went to sleep listening to binural beats (Theta), may have felt a little bit of sleep paralysis, but nothing further.