non-lucid

My parents went on vacation and left me home for a few days. In that time I did allot of internet research. I looked up several things most likely unsuited for a teenager. Why I cared to do so i have yet to figure out.

My parents came home and I did my usual my parents are home routine. I hid in my room to reduce the amount of interaction as much as possible. After Awhile my father called me and was holding a thick packet of information on what I looked up.

On that list, where several torture devices and other violent things. I looked through it and was relieved he didn't see anything to awkward. I explained that I wanted info on those items and dad didn't take to well with it. The dream ends there.



This dream might show that i have a need to clear my thoughts of hatred and anger and other violent things.

I was with my dad in some outdoor area and the subject of going to a hot spring came up. Considering that i have always been a private person who doesn't wish to experience things with many other people,, I of course disliked the idea.

I felt anxiety and I also felt embarrassed. I didn't like the idea of taking my cloths off in front of any human being let alone my father. The dreams ends there.



I think this represents the hard time I have getting myself to get close to my father. I feel no need to do so of course, but my dreams of late tell me otherwise.