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8-2-2016

I dreamed that I was playing a video game called Splatoozle. It was a colorful 16bit looking game with a black background. The title screen had a pink picture of Discord from My Little Pony. The point of the game was to move a curser up and down on the screen to avoid obstacles as the screen panned from left to right.

8-3-2016

Dream One- I was in the old part of Downtown Hic town with my boyfriend. We walked to the corner of the street where there was a lawyer's office. The office was "Thompson & (Something I can't remember)" The two sides that face the roads were full glass window walls in a golden or amber colored glass. My boyfriend and I are talking about the upcoming elections, and I say we should talk to this lawyer about how he feels the elections will go with the candidates supposedly having so many legal issues. We leave the corner, and cross the street. There's a large grand staircase that we walk down to a tunnel under the road, and I wake up.

Dream Two- My boyfriend and I are driving home and it's snowing. Snow plows have plowed the roads in our neighborhood, but they pushed all that snow to the entrance of the neighborhood making snow walls blocking the way in. My boyfriend, A, floors the pedal and hits the snow wall at a high speed causing the jeep to jump right over the snow wall. We get home and I start to call into work letting them know I can't get out of the neighborhood to come in to work. As the phone rings, it starts to rain outside and I can see the rain melting the snow. I think I might be able to make it into work in an hour or two if the snow keeps melting at that rate. I wake up

Dream Three (Fragment)- I am at my aunt's house with my boyfriend. somehow I end up giving birth to a baby boy. I'm laying in a bed holding this baby boy and expecting a second baby to be born any moment and I am not sure how to tell everyone that I am having a second baby as well, nor do I know how I know there's a second one on the way. I briefly wonder how I am going to explain conceiving two babies at the same time. One key "dream sign" in this is that my boyfriend was happy about the baby. In real life he doesn't want any children of his own, or even to adopt any more kids, especially not babies.

Dream One- I am walking through an old town with HUGE houses that look a combination of Greek temples and old southern plantations. It's very overcast, like it could storm at any moment. I walk down a street that divides the ruins of one particularly huge house that is nothing more than broken columns and a half crumbled wall. As I walk through that ruin, I feel very scared and creeped out. the whole place just feels wrong and I do not want to be there. I notice a huge cartoonish concrete lyre on the right side of the ruins. It's probably a good twenty feet or more high, but looks very rounded and unrealistic. I even have the thought that it reminds me of Lyra's cutie mark from My Little Pony. I hurry the rest of the way through the ruins to another dark street that goes between a couple more of the huge houses, these are in fairly good shape and look very lived in. A young man runs up from behind me on his hands and knees kind of like you see Tarzan moving around in the Disney movie. The guy has grey and green striped hair in a bowl cut and is wearing black and white stripes like Beetle Juice. He reminds me a lot of Amaimon from Blue Exorcist crossed with Beetle Juice. I instantly feel a connection to him, he reminds me of someone in the family I care about, but I can't put my finger on who. I know he's not one of my kids, but I feel like it's super important to my happiness that I make him happy. He's upset and sad because I didn't take him to prom like I said I would. I look up into the stormy clouds and they start to swirl. I close my eyes and step forwards, willing myself back in time. I am at the house I lived in in highschool, and I see the guy in the driveway on two feet like a normal person, holding flowers. He's very happy to see me, and runs towards me. I hold up a hand in a, "hold on" motion, and he stops long enough for me to dig out the key and open the door to the house. I apologize for not being ready for prom yet, but promise him it'll only take me a few minutes to get ready. He's so excited he drops back on all fours and launches at me with his tongue hanging out. In mid leap, he transforms from this person into our 5 month old puppy Artemis. I fall over giggling as Arty goes crazy licking my face and wagging his whole body. The world spins around me, and I am sitting in a movie rental place looking at pictures of Artemis on my phone giggling as how sweet and cute a puppy he is.

Dream Two - I am in a futuristic city now. I am male, and dressed in Assassin's Creed style garb. my view switches pretty constantly from first person to seeing myself as if watching the action on a tv. First I am trying to snipe a group of nazis on a round platform. They have an arc of the covenant and I am trying to steal it from them. My first attempt only kills one of them, and the rest parade off the round platform and down a ramp too fast for me to catch them. I restart the challenge, this time sniping three of them, but again the rest parade down the ramp in a tight group to rush away the arc before I can intercept. I go through my inventory and find that I have only an old handgun that looks straight out of the civil war, some throwing knives, and a dagger. I think that it's stupid I have a hidden blade bracer but can't use my hidden blade yet as that is my favorite assassins creed weapon. I try chasing the parade with my dagger equipped, and manage to kill another two nazis, but there are still at least 5 more carrying it away. I consider how the ramp spirals down and down and down in what seems like an unending corkscrew. I think maybe I can jump off the side and land farther down the corkscrew to head them off. I give this a shot, but I end up just falling, and falling, and falling unable to angle myself to latch back onto the corkscrew. Finally I am able to get a hand out enough to swing myself around to the ramp below the hand hold. When I land it depletes my health to only one bar and turns my vision red. I think to myself I am going to have to restart because I am dieing, but I wake up instead.

And just because I like to show off my fur babies, a picture of Artemis is attached

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Only one dream to recall from last night. It starts with me going out to my car. For some reason my mom is visiting and we're going out to the car to chat where no one can hear us. My daughter follows up though. I get in the passengers seat, and my mom in the drivers seat and my daughter climbs around the car in our laps, on the floor, where ever she wants to go. I can't remember what we talked about, but the windows were rolled down and I heard someone yelling out for me. I climb out of the car, and go towards the back of the house where the yelling is coming from. I can see through the windows of the basement that my friend A is standing in the basement door calling out for me. I start to finish walking around the basement to go talk to him, but then a side door that doesn't exist in reality opens and a guy from work is in the side door asking me where I keep the cat food. I walk into the basement to find two guys from work in my basement trying to feed my cats, only they've given the cats three tubs of water each and no food! I also freak out because the cats are in really tall cat cages and the cages are dirty. I tell them I can clean the cages myself and not to worry about them, and then scurry around trying to clean the floors of the cages and empty the water from the tubs so I can put food in them. Unfortunately the water spills all over the concrete floor in the basement, and then there's a TON of water and it's pouring in through the back wall. I realize then that instead of walls, the basement in my dream has chain link fencing around it. Then I see that I have notifications on my phone for facebook. I check them, and A has commented on 21 of my pictures. I'm wondering what the fuck he's commenting on all those pictures for, and go to see what they are pictures of. It turns out they're screen shots from the movie The Never Ending Story and he's commenting what act and scene the shots are taking place. I think this is weird, and don't even bother looking at more than the first two. My phone keeps beeping with more notifications but I ignore it and walk over to a laptop computer sitting on a coffee table. I look at the screen, and it's old school my little pony stuff from when I was a kid, like the tv show. I watch as the ponies on the screen let out war screams and go into battle against one another. I think the "seahorses" look pretty weird like snakes, then I wake up.

First night in a long while with decent recall. I really want to get back into my dreams, but it's hard lately for me to remember them with so much else on my mind.

Dream One: I walk into Toys R Us with my family, or at least thats what I think it it at the first part of the dream. We see a stack of boxes for dolls and doll accessories. My husband runs over with my daughter and starts getting very excited that his little girl needs to have her own special "dollie" to dress up. I grab a buggy and push it over to the stack and look. There are three kinds of boxes, all the same shape. One type of box has the doll inside, one has a doll sized wardrobe to put all the dolls clothes in, and the third one has a whole bunch of doll clothes. Each are $65. I try to tell my husband we can't spend that kind of money on the doll and all it's accessories when we don't even know if she will play with it or not, but he insists that it's Christmas and she needs it. I say fine whatever and let him grab the boxes. He ends up knocking them all down though, and having to pick them all up. While I'm standing there waiting for him to finish, I spot a pile of sticks on a shelf. Curious why they are there, I walk over. Turns out they're actually toys and decorations made of natural sticks and twigs. I think this is very cool and back to nature-ish, and then notice that there are also blinds for windows made the same way, and twig like brooms. One broom has purple heather mixed in with the bristles and I think to my self how wonderful it must be to make your house smell pretty when you sweep as well as how it seemed almost too pagan for a mainstream store.

Dream Two (Fragment): All I can remember of this dream is being in a house with a plastic chandelier (ripped straight from a book I was reading last night lol) and a blond guy. In the dream he was very quiet and distant just standing in a corner and watching me. I wanted very much to be standing beside him and even to lean on him, but in the dream I felt too ashamed to look at him. After waking I realized I think this was K, my "dream guide" or "dream guy" or whatever he is

Dream Three: I am at the lake and looking for my best friend C. I can't find her, and I step out onto the porch to grab some extra chairs for my party guests. Through the window I can see C walking out of the water. I open the door and yell out to her that it's November and she's going to freeze. She tells me that since I wasn't getting in the water when I had talked big about doing it, she was getting in for me. She walks up the shore and I go off looking for a towel and mumble about how they don't keep towels at the lake in the winter time. I never find a towel, but somehow C ends up with one anyways and she's laying on the table, maybe asleep. Suddenly, my cousins arrive and are mad that I am there with friends b/c they want the cabin that night. My party guests tell them to leave because we're already here, and I freak out hoping my cousins aren't mad and feel guilty b/c my cousins wanted to use the cabin but I had used t instead.

Dream Four: My husband and I are at a birthday party for kids. We're watching someone else's little girl as well as our own two kids. The party is over and we're leaving, but the little girl is asleep. We try calling her mom to come get her, but the mother wants to meet us someone to pick her up instead. We go back to the lake cabin to drop something off, and then I drive home in my work car and my husband drives home in our family car. Instead of going home though, we go to my grandpa who died last year's house. When we get there, I don't see the little girl, and my husband tells me he left her at the cabin for her mom to pick up because she was asleep. I panic because you can't leave a five your old by herself even if she's asleep! I jump in my car and start to drive to the cabin hoping she was asleep and ok and hadn't woken up and gotten scared or lost or hurt. I woke up before I get there.

Dream Five: I am at a friends house, but it's a two story house instead of her real house. I see a girl run by crying, and my friend is chasing her. When the friend stops chasing her, I go to ask her whats wrong and find out whats going on. The girl tells me that the friend is trying to get her to sleep with her (yes, both girls in this case) because the girl's husband is sleeping with my friends other girl friend. I leave feeling sad because I knew the girl friend has mentioned interest in me, but I feel not so special to see her chasing other girls as well. I wake up as I go outside.

Dream One (Fragment): I am in a school gym, lining up in a line and trying to figure out an excuse not to participate

Dream Two: This dream starts out with me being outside a small old house. It's a small house, and pretty old and run down. It might even be a trailer that's falling apart. There are woods behind it, and a gravel drive way with an old squarish blue grey car from the early 90s in the drive. I have a couple of friends hanging out near the woods, and I walk over towards them to say hey. They're talking, but I can't really find any point to jump in on the conversation, so for a while I'm just half listening half looking around and feeling uncomfortable because I don't know this place very well. My friends decide to go inside for a bit, and I start to follow them inside. on the way inside I gravitate towards my friend Chas and decide to just hoover near her because I'm sure she's just as uncomfortable in the group as I am, and we can sort of be each other's moral support. There are pictures on the walls, and I recognize a child in some of the pictures as being a cute guy I sort of know, but not really. We'll call him W. It soon becomes clear through conversation that this house belongs to W's grandmother. We walk through a living room, across a short hall and into a kitchen. The grandmother is there, a short lady in her late 50s to early 60s with graying blond hair (or maybe it's dyed blond and was grey) She smiles bigly at me, and shakes my hand and introduces herself to me. I smile back and try to be as nice and sweet as I can, even though I'm really uncomfortable with strangers touching me. Then I start feeling a bit claustrophobic because there are so many of us in this tiny kitchen. The grandmother seems to be aware of my discomfort and tells me that we should go sit in the living room where there's more room. She never lets go of my hand after she shakes it, instead she holds it and leads me back to the living room. In the hall, she stops for a moment to open a door to a room where W is playing a video game, and tells him that he should join us in the living room. He declines, and I am reminded that W doesn't really talk to me much. Some days he acts like he's happy to talk to me, others like he doesn't care to even acknowledge my presence. In the living room I sit down on a couch, and the grandmother lets go of my hand when I am seated and sits in another chair across from me. My friend Chas has apparently followed us, and she sits down to my right on the couch as well. We start chatting about the pictures on the walls, and the grandmother starts telling us about them. It's then that I realize she also has a couple pictures of me when I was little on the walls. I point them out, and ask her why she has them. She looks at me with teary eyes and tells me that my mother gave them to her. I ask her why my mom would give a complete stranger pictures of me, and she starts crying. She tells me that she is my real biological grandmother, and that while my family wouldn't let her and my other blood relatives on that side of the family see me, they at least sent them pictures so they could see how I grew up. I can't think of any other possible explanation for these pictures being in her possession, but this one seems so far fetched I start questioning her. I ask her why I didn't know about her, and why my family wouldn't let them see me, and she tells me that it's because my family wanted me to fit in with them, and if I knew I only half belonged there I would never feel like I fit in. I reason this is somewhat true, because even thinking I belonged to both sides of my family, I've always been a black sheep in the family. So then I ask why W has never said anything to me, because if he's her grandson and I'm her granddaughter that would make us cousins. She explains that he holds a bit of a grudge against me for never choosing to be part of this family, even though I didn't know I belonged. Everything seems so overwhelming suddenly. I start crying, there's a whole family I didn't know I had, and a lot of the social anxiety I have with these friends because W and I don't get along swimmingly suddenly seems to make sense. I feel like it's not fair, because I've tried so hard to be nothing but nice and friendly and fun, and its like W wants to be friends one moment, and couldn't care less the next. Seeing as how these friends are always bringing him up when we hang out, I feel like that tension causes problems in those friendships as well because I can't carry in on those conversations. I wonder if this is why I never fit in with my dads family, because I'm not really family at all, or is it my mothers family that I don't belong in? And why wouldn't they tell me when it became apparent that I still didn't fit in so that I couldn't find the place where I do? My friend Chas hugs me, and starts whispering to me that it's ok. Then she asks me why I am crying, how does this make me feel? and it's only then that I realize omg, this guy I thought was cute is my cousin! Yuck! then I start giggling, and I tell them I'm ok, but really I'm mostly making myself laugh because I don't want to deal with it all at once. Chas says I need some fresh air, and helps me outside where I can breathe and get away for a bit. Outside it's a bit chilly, but not cold. I gaze at the woods for a bit, and just let my mind wander as I take in the fresh air and feel the wind and just let my senses and surroundings take me in. After a short bit, I'm ready to go back inside, and Chas and I head back in. Everyone is in the kitchen again, and the grandmother jumps out of her seat the moment she seems us, and she asks me if I would mind being inducted into their family. I'm confused for a moment, asking her if I misunderstood about being a relative, and she says no, that I am a member of the family, but that she wants me to join in on their magical bond as well. I agree to, happy to not only find a family, but to also find more open minded people as my own family doesn't much care for pagan life or any aspects of it. She calls W into the room, and tells him that I'm finally going to join their circle, and unlike earlier in the dream, he suddenly seems really happy about it. He tells us he'll be right back, and rushes back to the room he had been playing games in before. Then I notice my friends are all filing into the living room and the grandmother is pulling a kitchen chair into the middle of the hallway. She tells me to have a seat, but when I start to turn around and sit in it, she tells me to straddle the chair because I will need the back to lay my head on. I do as she says, and W comes back into the hall with a small bucket full of water. Grandma has another chair now, and she's siting it so that it is touching the chair I am sitting in, and when W sits down in the other chair he is behind me, with a leg on each side of my chair. He tells me to relax, and that he's going to dip my hair in the water. I feel a bit uncomfortable at first, but I love water, and when he pulls my head back gently, the moment my hair enters the water I feel a thousand times more calm. He gently cups water over my head, and gets even the hair next to my scalp that won't reach in the bucket wet, then wrings the extra water out and sets the bucket down. He then tilts me forwards and tells me to lay my head against the chair back, and I do so. He places his thumbs on either side of my neck, and gently starts to massage up my neck, and then to my scalp. At this point he tells me that I am relaxed, and that he's going to hypnotize me and ask me a few questions. I suddenly panic, what if I say something stupid? Worse, what if I admit I found him cute while I'm hypnotized?! They wouldn't want me in the family if they knew I thought a cousin was cute, even if I didn't know he was my cousin when I formed that opinion! I start to turn my head and tell him no, but I'm so groggy my head feels super heavy and I can only partially turn. I see his face, and he smiles as he reaches forwards and turns my head back around and helps me settle it back on my arms, "Shhhhh. It's ok, trust me. " and then I feel like I'm falling asleep. but I keep blinking groggily, like I'm half awake and half asleep. I catch little bits of what he's asking and what I'm saying, but I can't make sense of it because I'm so sleepy. I'm so comfortable and relaxed, I just want to sleep there forever. Suddenly I am more aware in the dream and think I've woken up. W is still behind me, but now he's leaned against my back with his arms around me and he's telling me that it's ok, he's going to move me to a bed now where I can sleep. I ask what happened and what I said, and he smiles mischievously and tells me we'll talk about that later. His strong arms pull me gently to my feet, but he holds me against him so I'm more leaning on him that standing on my own legs. He helps me walk to the room where he was playing video games earlier, and there's a double bed there with tall bannisters and a patchwork quilt. He lifts me and places me on the bed, and I'm so tired and groggy I can barely move to thank him. He brushes my hair away from my face, and then he starts to pet my hair and speak soothingly again. I go back through that phase where I am too tired to understand what he's saying, I'm just so comfortable and relaxed I want to stay curled up there with him petting my hair for eternity. Then I start to waken in the dream world again, and he's not there anymore. instead my husband is next to the bed, and he's angry but he's trying to cover it with a mask of concern. He's asking me if I am hurting, and I tell him no why would I be? He takes my arm and shows me several welts that are crisscrossing on the bottom of it. He tells me that they did this to me, and when he tried to stop them they said I had consented and I would be ok because they wouldn't hurt me. I look at the welts, and they look like they WOULD have hurt, but they don't and I don't even remember getting them, so I tell him it's ok, I'm not really hurt. I was passed out when the actual pain would have occurred and I don't feel anything now. The skin wasn't broken, so the welts would fade in a couple hours and it'd be like they never happened. He seems unhappy, and he tells me I need to go home, but I don't want to go home, and I tell him as much. He looks like he's about to cry, but then W walks in and smiles. I close my eyes feeling suddenly like even if my husband is there, I don't have to stress, because if I don't want to go home or if I don't want him around, I will have help enforcing my will. Then I wake up for real, but when I do, I am in sleep paralysis, only without any old hag syndrome, instead I'm frozen in a state of pure bliss I don't know how long I was in that state, but when I finally found my body moving and twitching awake, I felt like I'd gotten way more sleep than I did. I went back to sleep though, in hopes of continuing the dream. I didn't, and when I woke up I was double tired, lol.

Only fragments, but it's better than nothing.

Dream One: I'm arguing with my husband. He's saying that he's going to leave me right away, and he has a girlfriend. I'm only upset because I worry that him leaving now is going to mess my kids up in school, and I tell him I won't allow him to leave until summer break. I tell him I'm not happy with being together this long either, but it's what we have to do for our kids, then make a bunch of violent threats of what I'll do if he doesn't grow up and take care of his kids.

Dream Two: I'm standing in our living room and marveling at how clean it is, and wondering where all the big toys that don't fit in the toy boxes are because I'd never been able to find room for them.

Dream Three: I'm at pokemon night. I'm hanging out with some of the friends I'm finally starting to make. My son wants to go to get food from Taco Bell, so we head out to the car to leave. For some reason S and D, and one other totally random guy that isn't anyone I know in waking life wants to go with us. We all go to get in the car, but then when I open the door to buckle my son in, D (who's actually an adult that my son likes to hang out with there) is sitting in my sons car seat. I realize then that my car only has one passenger seat and two kids seats. I reason that it's ok for D to sit in one of the kids seats because he's really skinny, and S can sit in the passenger seat, then my son in the other kids seat and me in the drivers seat, there's just no room for the 3rd dude that I don't know. I try to explain this to them all, and they just seem to feel like I don't want them to go because if they can't all go together they don't want to go. Somehow the car becomes a table and we're all sitting at a table now. D lays his head on the table like he's tired or not feeling well, and my son throws a doll blanket over D's head. Then he picks up a naked barbie on the table and starts poking D's head under the doll blanket. The random dude asks where the doll and blanket came from, and I say that they are my daughters toys and she must have left them in the car. Then S lifts the blanket and D looks up, smiles, then flips the blanket back over his head, making it obvious he's not really sleeping, just joking around. I think to myself about sliding the naked barbie under the blanket and making a joke about how a naked barbie is all the action he'll get, but then I don't because I start over analyzing it. I know I'd make a joke like that with my brother and several of my friends, but I wonder because I don't know him well enough if he'd take it too personally and not get that it is a joke. Not sure what to do at this point because I worry my normal personality would be too mean, I decide instead to get up and walk away. I wake up as soon as I get out of my chair.

In last nights dream there was something about a town and dead people. Like everyone who died had to be buried really quick and no one was embalmed or anything b/c if someone wasn't buried fast enough then there would be a curse on the town that would kill everyone. An old lady with long gray hair and bent over and a very very wrinkly face was telling me all this. There were lots of thumping sounds coming from an empty room and I asked if the dead could come back to life to kill us and she assured me they couldn't. Then I left afraid, and saw the ocean and got in a car and wondered if I'd lived there long enough that if I died after I left if I would curse everyone. I woke up.

I was dead tired yesterday to the point of falling asleep on the couch while trying to read, so I went to bad several hours earlier than usual. I ended up having a LOT of dreams, but while I remembered them really well each time I woke from them, I was too tired to take notes and can only really remember one VERY awesome one, but I'm journaling it anyways because it made me feel good when I had it ^_^

The dream starts out with me being in a trailer, it looks a good deal like my dads trailer when I was growing up, but the floor plan was reversed. I think in the dream I was a younger girl, probably around 10-15. There's another girl there with me who is also around that age, as well as my mother, a lady I work with, and someone in long black hooded robes that covered them completely. The person in the robes is saying that I have been chosen to pilot a mecha suit as I was born with great magical powers. So I get really excited, and as soon as the person in robes leaves and my mom and the lady I work with (we'll call her W) say they're tired and going to bed, I sneak out.The other girl follows me and asks me what I'm going. I insist that if I'm going to pilot a mobile suit and fight demons in the war then I'm going to need practice! She follows me but is trying to talk me out of it when I climb into W's mobile suit and start piloting it. I find that it's totally easy, I'm not having to pull any levers or anything, I am able to control the entire thing with my mind. I laugh and refer to the matrix and feeling like Neo for some reason. Then I creep through the woods in my giant suit and see a park, I decide I can't step in the park or I'll ruin the grass, so I take the suit back to the field next to the trailer and kneel it down so I can hop out. When I get out I start walking towards the park again, and notice there's a small ten foot cliff that I'll have to jump from to get into the park. I take a deep breath and remind myself that like Neo, I will be fine as long as I remember that the distance is just in my mind. I jump, and I'm ok! The other girl is yelling at me from the cliff though that I'm going to get hurt and to get back up there. Apparently it's night and the demons run wild at night and it's really not safe out. I try to explain to her that I'll be ok because I believe I can fight them, but she reminds me that I need a mobile suit to fight them and to get back up there with the mobile suit. I sigh and comply, a new idea forming in my head. I manage to jump super high back up onto the cliff, and start telling her that I want to run away with he mobile and start fighting the demons on my own, skipping all the official training and everything. She tells me I'm crazy and I won't have anything to eat and I don't know anything about survival in the wild. I'm pretty over confident at the time though, and there's no talking me out of it, so the girl offers me some seeds that look like Pumpkin seeds, only some are black and some are white. I ask her what they are, and she says they're pokemon seeds created as a promotion for the video games. Apparently they grow plants that will make black and white beans depending on the color of the seed that was planted. She says I should plant them and I'll have something to eat when they grow. Then the porch light comes on in the trailer, and W comes out. me and the other girl panic because we know we're going to get in trouble if we're caught out here. I tell her to hide in the brush, and I hop back into the mobile suit and then hide inside it into the brush. W and my mom get into the truck with the mobile suits trailer on the back and start to drive through the field, but they stop right in front of us, and my mom jumps out saying something's wrong because the trailer feels too lite. I hold my breath hoping they don't check, but of course they do and of course there's no mobile suit on the trailer, so they start freaking out. I decide to come clean and climb out of the thicket I was hiding in in the mobile suit. I hop out, and they start giving me the third degree for stealing the mobile suit and ask me what the hell I was thinking, and I tell them my plan on running off to fight demons on my own They laugh and ask me how I plan to survive on my own with no food, and I argue that I would eat the beans from the seeds the other girl gave me. They tell me the seeds would take weeks to grow and I'd never last that long without food. I insist that it won't take so long if I use my magic on the seeds, and they laugh and tell me again that It'll take forever. I get mad and want to prove my point so I drop down on the ground and push a seed into the earth, then cup my hands over it and will it to grow. It does, growing about six inches straight up out of the earth with the seed cap on top of the stalk and then little thin curly roots grow up as well with teeny tiny leaves... it's beautiful. The girl my age is marveled and amazed and wants to know how I did it, so I try to show her, but it won't grow anymore for her. So I try myself, and it grows again! Then my daughter wakes me up, lol.

I am dreaming a lot but still having trouble remembering exactly what happened in them like I used to

Dream One (Fragment): I'm with a guy, and I think we're in a car and driving around some city and get out a few times to get food or something but I can't remember. all I really remember is that he was taking me away, helping me escape something or some one. I was constantly checking behind me to make sure I wasn't found.

Dream Two (Fragment): I was following a man who was looking for his fiance. She was supposed to be in a church, but it was much bigger and fancier than I expected it to be and there were a lot of people walking towards it all dressed in tuxes and fancy dresses. Inside, the mans fiance was Madam Red from Black Butler.

Dream Three: there's a pond with a truck parked in the center and a ramp that leads out of the water into the truck. There are little numbered egg shaped holes all up the ramp. Suddenly I start laying eggs! For some reason I am sure that the eggs are supposed to go into the little holes. I start putting the eggs in the holes and then start freaking out because I'm running out of holes to put the eggs in but I feel like I can't stop laying them. I climb into the drivers seat of the truck and try crossing my legs to stop the eggs from coming out, but I can feel them pushing out and I can't resist the feeling like I need to push them out instead of blocking them. I reach down between my legs and two eggs pop out into my hand. I'm starting to question this suddenly. Why Don't I have pants on? Why am I laying eggs? What do I do with them? Another egg pops out, and someone walks up to the truck and I hold out the eggs to them and then think, "Wait... who would want to touch these eggs?! It's pretty gross considering they came from my body... then I wake up and can't help but find the dream funny.

Dream Four: I open a box and find a black and cream cameo pin, but instead of having a face in it like the cameo pins my mother owns, it has a night scene with mountains, a huge star in the sky, and a woman reaching out to the star. There's a note in the box saying something cheesy but sweet about me being the star someone was reaching for, and that whenever I feel down to remember that to this person I am a star, and if I need something to reach for that person would love to be my star as well. The note goes on to describe that while neither of us are in a position to be with the other, like stars we will outlast the current events and find our chance to shine. I run my fingers lightly over the cameo and feel very happy and like I can get past anything. Then the phone rings and I answer it. It's my BFF Ambies and she's asking me if I talked to someone. The person she wants to know if I've talked to is the one who gave me this pin, so I say yes, and she tries to console me telling me she's so sorry it had to be this way. I don't understand why She's consoling me, and say as much, that I'm happy and don't need consoling. Then she tells me that the person was supposed to tell me that he didn't want to see or talk to me anymore, and to leave no room for any misinterpretation. I run my finger nail along the cameo pin and then tell her that's not what he said at all, and she tells me that's what he was supposed to say and asked what did he say? And I think about reading the note to her, but then wake up.

I know I dreamed last night, but rather than laying in bed and remembering the dream I just jumped right out of bed and started my day... and lost everything. Still journaling to make myself expect it and maybe remember to remember before getting out of bed, lol.

I didn't have time to write this yesterday as my day started early and was busy. As a result, I only remember one dream when I had remembered two upon waking.

Dream One: I'm with my husband visiting a friend who lives far away and is getting divorced. In the dream we are getting into our car to follow her to the lake. Instead of going to the lake though, she stops at a little building and wants to show me that this is where she's moving out to. She goes inside an apartment, but I stay outside and notice that her husband has followed us. In the dream I am afraid he'll see that she's living here so I tell him we just stopped to use the bathroom and to go on ahead and we'll meet him at the lake. He doesn't want to go though. I start arguing with him, he's worried because he knows she wants to leave him and he just wants to be close to her. I'm telling him that he's smoothering her and making it worse and to just go ahead. The whole time I am freaking out that she's going to come out of her apartment and he'll see where she's moving too and she'll never escape him. He tried to go into the ladies bathroom nearby and I literally flip out on him because I know she's not in there but want him to think she is. I start screaming and pushing him and telling him he's fucking crazy trying to go into the girls bathroom and that if he doesn't get fucking lost now I'm going to kick his ass. I start unloading that he's making my best friend miserable and he's just being a fucking cry baby about everything, that if he really cared he'd have made an effort when their marriage went south to begin with, not waited until she was already one foot out the door to do something about it. The building apparently has a mcdonalds in it and I am shoving him among the tables and people are staring at this huge fiasco I'm making, literally ripping the poor guy apart for every little thing he's done to hurt my friend... just to hide the fact that she's going somewhere else. He starts crying and finally says he'll leave. He walks out the door and I feel relieved and start to walk towards my friends apartment door again. When I walk past the bathrooms though, someone comes out of one and my first thought is, "Could that be Kurasawa?" but when I look up he's not Kurasawa, he's just some average guy. My friend comes out of her apartment and I tell her it's a good thing she didn't come out earlier and start to relay the previous events to her, but when we get into the mcdonalds the average guy from the bathrooms stops us. He asks where we are going, and we tell him the lake. Then he tells us he has a boat and he can follow us then take us for a ride in his boat. We politely decline telling him we're going with our husbands, but he insists he can take our husbands as well. I wake up.

Dream One: I'm standing at my kitchen window looking out at the pasture while I talk on the phone. The clouds look very strange. My husband is talking about something, but I just keep looking at these clouds and how they're swirling and I think to myself they look like they're creating a tornado. Then they do make a tornado and I start yelling at my kids to get in the basement now. I'm sure at this point I am talking to my best friend Ambies on the phone, and I tell her I have to get the kids downstairs. I rush the kids down the stairs and then look out the storm door in the basement. There's debris flying everywhere but we're safe inside. I suddenly worry aloud that a cloud is forming in the direction of J's house, and then hang up with Ambies to call him and warn him. Then as I am on the phone with him I notice the clouds start bouncing in the sky. They literally drop to the ground with a great splash and then float quickly back to the top and drop again. I watch them do this a few times, and then I notice there are black dots in the pasture moving towards the house. They're people! I go out a side door that doesn't exist in waking life and rush down the hill towards the people. They're in various outfits of the past. There are cavemen and nomadic warrior and knights and so forth and so on. They all look quite stunned and bewildered, but no one tries to attack anyone, it's like they're too in awe and amazed by this different time to be hostile. I tell them all that it isn't safe outside and they need to get inside the house, and they follow me. Once inside the storm quiets and the people of the past begin trying to come up with a plan to get home. I walk around trying to check on everyone. I remember seeing a couple of guys stringing bows and a man sharpening a sword.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm in a shop that's round ad two stories. I'm descending some stairs that are circular and go around the wall. The whole shop is filled with those crystal prisms that throw rainbows all over the place as well as necklaces and bracelets and such made of glass beads. It's beautiful. I talk to the cashier about something but I don't remember what.

Dream Three (Fragment): This dream is a bit harder to remember. I was somewhere, I think I started out inside a store ad walked outside where I found Ambies and J. Ambies doesn't say much to me, but J does say something I just can't remember what. I go back inside, but I think I was supposed to go back to them at some point because they were waiting on me. Inside the store, I find a display set up with all kinds of nail polish and fake nails and such. For some reason I think this is important. I stop because I want to find the perfect colors and paint my nails so that something magical would happen. Like I'm either thinking that I can make a spell and weave painting my nails into some sort of ritual, or I'm thinking that I can use certain colors to direct and increase my energy flow when I try to summon something into my life. At first I think I can use some sort of cherry blossom pattern in pink and black, then I think it'd be too hard to do on my own nails. I decide instead to look for some blank fake ails and try to paint them then apply them so I can use my right hand on both sides. I am unable to find blank ones though, all I can find are ones with patterns already on them. I walk around the display several ties and notice all kinds of colors and paint brushes and such but can't find the blank nails I'm looking for. Someone says something to me, but I don't remember what it is, I think they were hurrying me along and it might have been my friend D. I tell him that I am looking for something and I will be there soon. I keep looking until I wake up.

I went to bed way too late last night.

Dream One(Fragment): I'm at the lake, on the pier, playing with Pokemon cards.

That was hardly worth an entry, lol. But maybe entries everyday again will fix my recall and all.

I keep forgetting my vitamins so my recall is terrible. Plus Insomnia is rearing it's head again. Oh well, PLus side is I'm not having dreams I don't understand anymore lol.

Dream One(Fragment): I'm in a group of people who are fighting over a puzzle. There are two sides that are fighting over it, and say fuck it I don't want a stupid puzzle. Then I turn around and walk off.

Dream Two(Fragment): I'm trying to talk on a phone, but the person can't hear me. I put the phone down, and see that it's broken into a bunch of pieces. I start to put it back together, then decide it's not worth the effort and I really don't care to try to talk on it.

These dreams were all about apathy, lol. Not a usual subject in my dreams, but I'm pretty sure I know where this is coming from... too much talk with my bestie about efforts wasted in life.

Insomnia again, so just a couple of fragments.

Dream One(Fragment): One of my friends, D, was cutting down and moving big trees. I was amazed that he was actually picking up this gigantic logs trees and carrying them rather than cutting them into small pieces to move them.

Dream Two(Fragment): I'm standing at a door with my kids and a baby and my bff. We can't get through the door because it's locked, so I grab a bag of Fruit loops out of my purse and throw one on the ground. There's a pop and a bright flash, and we can get through the door. Then I realize that the Fruit loops are like Flo powder from the Harry Potter series and I start throwing Fruit loops on the ground and yelling places to go. It works a couple times, but then it doesn't work anymore and I get frustrated.