lucid

I woke up in the back of an SUV. I noticed there was another girl beside me, and I had no clue how either of us got there. I looked outside and noticed that it was early pre-dawn, the sun wasn't quite up yet but it was light enough to see and it was quite foggy. I could see the buildings of a big city very close, and wondered how in the world I got so far from home and in the position I was now in. I asked myself if I could see those building so clearly from my home town, and logically realized that no, I could not. Then I see that one of the buildings is actually upside down, it's hanging from the sky instead of rising up from the ground. I'm dreaming!

I open the SUV and disregard the other woman, she's just a dream character, and not in any danger. Looking around I am in the middle of a very busy city street, but not a big city with big buildings, a small city with only one and two story buildings. I decide that because I am finally lucid for the first time in months, I need to go find K. I start walking down the street to my right. I notice the people I am walking past all look like monsters, there's a girl with medusa hair, a ghost, and some zombies. I am not afraid though. I stand as straight as I can and picture myself in a fantasy game style tattered leather dress with a dagger by my side and light leather armor. I figure if everyone else looks like monsters I might as well look like a hero for my dream. A guy who looks like a young slender man waves at me and I politely say hello but keep walking towards what looks like a cinema.

Everyone else walking the direction I am is going in there, but I can hear screams coming from inside as I get closer. I know there is something scary in there, something so scary it is scaring even the monsters around me. I stop and consider if I should go in or not. If I encounter something scary, K might come save like he used to do for my nightmare. Then again, it's been a very long time since he's had to save me from a nightmare. He may not show up and I may scare myself awake. I decide not to risk cutting the lucid dream short and turn back towards the SUV.

I see a glass jar candle on a ledge and take the lid off from it. I start walking again, this time throwing the lid in the air and catching it so I can focus on something and not get caught up in the dream events surrounding me. After several tosses though, I realize I threw it too far forwards and I'm not going to catch it. My first instinct is to lunge forwards so I can catch it, but I stop myself because I feel like I can feel my body sleeping, and if make such a big exaggerated movement I think I might lunge out of my bed and wake myself up.

The lid hits the ground and rolls to the left,striking the bottom of a bar counter. My lucidity is slipping here because I don't realize it's odd for a bar to be outside instead of in a building. I start walking towards the bar with the intent to ask the bartender if she has seen K. She is really busy though, and I am recognize that there are at least 3 people shouting their orders at her or trying to get her attention and it's very unlikely she'll have time to talk to me.

I turn back to the street and keep walking. I pass the SUV, now walking towards the big city buildings, and see another less busy bar. This one has stairs behind it and a bridge that connects the bar to another building. The stairs are butted up against the bar and there are railings not walls, so I go half way up the stairs and wait for the bartender to walk towards the back of the bar. When he grabs some bottles from under the stairs I call out to him and ask, "Hey man, I'm looking for someone. Can you help me?" his response is very half assed and he's not really paying any attention to me, "Aren't we all? I'm busy." Undeterred I continue, "His name is K. Do you know him?" at the name, the bar tender's head shoots up and he looks at me startled. "What business do you have with K? Are you a younger woman? You're not very pretty." I'm annoyed, I'm not going to argue because I wouldn't consider myself attractive either. "No, I'm not pretty and I'm probably middle aged, but I need to find K. Do you know where he is?" The bar tender shakes his head, "It's none of my business." and starts to turn around. "Wait, I'll pay you!" I tell myself there's a pocket in the dress I am wearing with cash in it and so there is. I hold out first a $5 and a $10 and the bartender scoffs. I imagine the ten becoming a $20, and then the five becoming a $50. The bartender takes the money and tells me to look in the building across the bridge,in the dark hallway, the first door on my right. I thank him and go up the stairs and across the bridge.

I see a dark hallways to the left, not even inside the building yet, and think this must be it. A guy is walking out of the door on the right as I approach the hall. He has blood around his mouth and covering his arms up to the elbows and is wiping his mouth on his shirt. He jumps when he see's me, and takes a step backwards, "Who are you?" "I'm looking for K. is he in there?" "What do you want with him?" "My name is B, I've been looking for him." He opens the door, but doesn't let his guard down, watching me the entire time instead of actually turning his head in the direction of inside the room. "Yo K, there's some girl out here looking for you."

And I wake up for real this time -_-

Dream One- I am a horse running through the desert. I have a bad back ankle on my right side. There is an old man chasing me, and I am terrified of him. I see a gift shop and run inside. I change myself back into a human before the old man makes it into the store. My human form has one of those foot and ankle braces on the right foot. The gift shop keeper stares at me wide eyed and in disbelief. I hope he doesn't tell the old man what happened, but don't take the time to tell him anything because I want to try to get out and away from the shop before the old man can see which direction I go in. I walk out the front door of the shop just as the old man is walking in. He doesn't pay me any mind because he is looking for a horse not a girl. As soon as he is inside and out of sight I dart around a corner and wake up.

Dream Two- I am in a pool with my boyfriend. The pool looks more like a race track with lanes that go around it though, not like a big open pool. There's also a few water slides you have to climb up and slide down. oddly enough the water flows UP the one side of the slides and down the other, but I don't think anything of it in the dream. I am nervous about going around the track as in the dream I am very visibly pregnant. My boyfriend tells me not to worry about it, I don't have to go around and on the water slides if I am worried about it causing trouble for me and the baby. He helps me get out of the pool, and I call out that we need some paper towels. A woman and a little boy come running with a package of 18 rolls of paper towels and I find myself thinking that is way more than we needed. The woman asks me how far along I am, and I admit to her that I am 25 (?) weeks. I wake up and have to check my stomach really quick b/c I do NOT want to be pregnant and the dream freaked me out a bit lol

Dream Three- My boyfriend and I call the real estate agent that sold us our house last year to ask her some sort of question, though I can't remember now what that question was. She says on the phone she will be right over, and then there's a knock at the door. It's her, that fast. She is about 100 lbs heavier than she was when she sold us the house. She walks straight to the table and drops down a clip board and a bunch of papers. She informs us that she was going back over our paper work and we had sold our shed and the fracking rights to the back 10 yards of our property to the real estate agency when we bought the house, so they were going to remove the shed and set up a miniature fracking operation in our back yard. I flip out, and run out the back door where I see lots of people. There are some people I work at the furniture plant there, and then other people that look like construction workers and contractors. They are pulling a shed off our property on a big truck and trailer, and they are cutting down the tiny woods behind the house. I don't mind the trees coming down as we had talked about taking them down anyways, but I am super pissed about the shed. I tell her they can't take the shed because my boyfriend wanted to make a forge and smithy of it. She tells me they can because I sold it to them. I demand to see the paperwork and she takes me back into the house. She pulls out first a signature card from work, and I triumphantly point out that my signature is NOT on it. Then she gets flustered and pulls out more papers, these unfortunately with my signature on them. I tell her those are the papers she said sold the ground and airspace rights over our house to us, and she tells me we should have read the paper work ourselves rather than trust her. I start to get really, realy mad, and that is when I realize I am dreaming. Like a switch being flipped, I calm down instantly and just walk back out the back door. This isn't real and I don't need to worry about it anymore. I want to fly away, so I try flapping my arms like wings. I can't get off the ground that way, but notice that my shadow is cast on the ground in front of me. I envision big black feathered wings sprouting out of my back and flapping. I lift off the ground about 6-10 feet, but can't get any higher than that. I go over to one of the few remaining trees in the yard. I flap up to a branch, grab it and climb on top. then I flap up a few feet from there and repeat the process. They are about to cut that tree down though, so I fly over to the neighbor's tree to continue trying to get up higher in the air. At the top of the Neighbor's tree I remember that I am supposed to be searching for Kurasawa whenever I before lucid. I look out over the neighborhood in the direction of the dark creepy house he had been in the last two lucid dreams. The house is not there, instead there's a whole city beyond our neighborhood complete with a HUGE hospital building. Since it's the thing that draws my attention most in the landscape I decide to fly to it and look for him there. I land in front of the hospital, and they have a reception window outside like a movie theater might have. There are three ladies inside the window. I tell them I am looking for Kurasawa and ask them if he is there. the receptionist in the middle asks me if I am talking about Kurasawa Kusuki? I tell her I do not know his last name, I'm just looking for Kurasawa. She picks up the phone and calls Kurasawa and tells him that he has a visitor, then asks him if he can meet me in Tiffany's office. She tells me that he will see me, and that Tiffany's office is the second door on the left. I go through the big doors, and find a second door on the left, but it's the wrong office. An Asian girl asks me if she can help me, and I tell her who I am looking for and what the receptionist told me. The girl offers to take me to the right office, and I thank her profusely. She leads me onto an elevator with glass on two sides that allows me to look out over the city as the elevator goes up. It's so beautiful because it's now night time and the city lights are sparkling. Suddenly the girl starts waving her hands at me, then says something. I snap out of my trance looking at the city and tell her I am sorry for zoning out. She laughs and starts singing Gangnam Style while bobbing up and down like an umpaloompa. I can't help laughing at the silliness, and she smiles and tells me that I shouldn't be so serious and I should have a little fun. The elevator dings, and we walk off. I feel like I am starting to wake up, but I try so hard to make it to the right office. I find the second door on the left, and walk in. I wake up, but I keep my eyes closed trying to DEILD. I see a flash of Kurasawa in seafoam green scrubs walking down a hall, but then go into another dream instead.

Dream Four- I am sitting on a swing in the middle of a pond. The swing set is made of thick wood beams placed in the water in the corners of a square. The top of the swing set is three more large beams filling in three sides of the square. The swings themselves are just ropes suspended from the beams, threaded through wooden planks for the seats, and knotted off so they won't pull out of the hole. To my right sits Kylo Ren from Star Wars, and then to his right, on a swing on a side beam sits my brother. We are talking, but the conversation doesn't really interest me. Instead I am focused on my show on the water. I practice making wings appear, though I am not lucid enough to understand why or how I can do this. This time the wings are smaller and look like "bumble bee fairy" wings from the sims 3. My brother and Kylo Ren are both super excited to see this, and are plotting different ways I can use my wings to help them with things. I wake up.

Dream Fragment Five- I am looking at a fridge that has a little mini-fridge inside it where the crisper drawers should be and thinking that seems redundant.

6-12-2013

Dream Two- I'm on my way to my cousin's house at night. I haven't talked to her in years, but I find out she lives in the neighborhood in front of my neighborhood so I want to go visit her. "her" neighborhood is really a trailer park, but in the dream she lives in a real house, much bigger than mine, and the trailers and modular homes are all gone and just forest surrounding her. I ring the doorbell and she opens the door, happy to see me. We stand in the doorway because she is about to leave, she even has a baby in her arms and on her hip dressed in a puffy baby coat. She asks me to go with her because she is wanting to check out the local churches. I tell her I'd be happy to show her to the closest churches, and that there's a really creepy old house in the neighborhood behind her house (there isn't really, but this detail from my last lucid popped up, the house of the woman who has Kurasawa held prisoner) She tells me that she has heard about the house but it sounds way too creepy and she'd rather not go there. We get into a black SUV and I make small talk on the way to the closest church, letting her know I live nearby and how to get to my house from hers. As we are pulling into the church parking lot I notice a guy I work with, we'll call him E, walking through the parking lot. I roll down the window closest to me and call out to him. He comes over and asks what we are doing there, and I tell him about my cousin wanting to see the church. He tells me it's closed and locked, he had just tried the door and was leaving. My cousin says, "That's ok, we can just drive around it and maybe look in the windows?" and I agree. We end up parking the SUV and getting out to look in the windows to see what the Sunday school class rooms look like. We notice a playground behind where we park the SUV as well, and decide to go check it out to see if it's the kind of place she could see her baby playing at when he got a little older. At the playground, I turn to look at my cousin but she's no longer my cousin, but my best friend from high school with whom I lost touch a few years ago. It occurs to me that I am dreaming, no reality checks necessary. I tell my cousin turned friend that I am dreaming, but she is confused. She asks me what I am talking about. I grab her hand and lead her towards the church again, explaining that I am dreaming and I can control this world, so I can get her into the church, "Watch, E said the doors were locked and closed, but when we get to them they will be unlocked, or even wide open for us!" and sure enough, getting there they are wide open, and lead to a Victorian style hallway painted in blue and white filigree. I tell her to stay there where she's safe and can't get in the way, that I have to find Kurasawa because in my last lucid I had learned he was being held by someone. My friend doesn't want to stay by herself though, and the baby has vanished as if it never existed, so I break down and tell her she can come with me but follow me and just don't distract me. First I run out of the church and towards a small wooded area. Though only a few feet wide the wooded area is thick with brush and trees and looks impossible to get through, but I maintain my faith in the dream that when I get there the way will be open to me. Sure enough, when I get there I see a small path that I couldn't see before. On the other side of the wooded area is a large field surrounded by wooded borders like the one behind my house. I look out around the field looking for the house where Kurasawa is kept, but I don't see it. I curse and then run up the edge of the field, screaming at the top of my lungs, "Where are you? Evil witch who has Kurasawa, I know you are around here somewhere! Please, let me find the Witch!" I briefly wonder to myself why I am calling her a witch. I am a witch, and I know witches are not inherently evil. All the same I feel like the title fits her. Another path opens up in the wooded area, and I cut through it to find myself on top of a grassy hill over looking a mountain valley in the bright sunlight. No sign of the house I am looking for though. I turn left and see a pile of very large and smooth stones. I pull my friend in that direction and say out loud, "When I get to the other side of the rocks we will find a tunnel through them" Sure enough, on the other side of the rocks is a tunnel into the ground like what you'd expect to see in a fairy hill. We go through the dark hole, and it curves to the left with stairs taking us down. After a short sharply curved tunnel maybe six feet long, we find our selves out on a beach at sunset. I throw my hands up and then down in exasperation. "I'm never going to find him before I wake up at this rate!" My friend calls out to me, "Hey look! There's another tunnel here! should we try going through it?" I turn around to look, and yes, there is a tunnel, this one looks man made in the stone and I have a really good feeling about it. I run into the tunnel, grabbing her hand as I go by to pull her with me. At this point she turns into a little dark haired girl, she reminds me of Sailor Saturn from Sailor Moon, but I don't worry about it because I am still fully aware that it is a dream and that kind of thing just happens in dreams. The tunnel is another short one, maybe 6 feet long. It empties into a large square stone room with arched wooden doors all around the room and a man in knights armor standing guard in the middle. I tell the girl with me to stay here and not to grab the guards attention while I try to figure out where to go next. I panic a bit at first because I have no clue what door to go through, nor how to tell which one is right. I know I can try blindly trusting the door to lead to him, but that hasn't been working so well this dream. I really only worry this all for a split second though before I feel it, the pull I get when Kurasawa is nearby. I turn to my left where I feel the pull coming from, and say out loud, "There!" There is no door at that part of the wall though, and I don't know what the doors will lead to the right place, so I decide the best way to get right there without chancing a dream reroute is to just go through the wall. So I steel myself, and punch the stone wall as hard as I can. The stone crumbles around my fist leaving a roundish hole about 6 feet in diameter in the wall. The room I opened was small and stone. There's a door to the right and a twin sized bed on the left. I can see the covers pulled over a rather tall form sitting up on the bed and hear x-rated noises from the bed. I walk over and pull the sheet off the bed, and there's a very short and thin blonde on top of a dude with short dark hair getting it on. The girl screams and grabs the sheet as it falls, pulling it around her and flattening herself on the bed in an attempt to get away from me. I am really confused because I feel like I am right on top of Kurasawa, but the guy on the bed is not him, nor is the girl. The guys hair on one side (even his eyebrow) keeps flashing between black and blonde like strobe light and it is extremely distracting. I shake my head and turn to the small woman because she doesn't confused me as much and I know it's a woman holding Kurasawa from the last lucid I had. I yank the sheet off of her again, this time I am way more powerful than her and she's terrified. "I am looking for a man with long blonde hair and crystal blue eyes, Where is he?" She smirks at me, "Why would I tell you anything? You interrupted us, and I'm not about reward you for it." I reach down and begin touching and caressing her like a lover might, and she her nicer this time, "Please, tell me where Kurasawa is. I know he's here, I can feel him." She makes an almost pur like sound and moans that he's in the basement underneath us if I had just taken the time to feel for him instead of throwing my weight around I would have known that. I put one arm behind her and the other hand is looped between her legs to lift her off the bed. She cries out upset that I stopped her from being pleasured again, but I ignore her this time and will the floor beneath me to allow us to slowly sink through. In the room below us there are hundreds of people just kind of moping about looking completely hopeless and like they have given up on life entirely. Kurasawa calls out my name from behind me, and I drop the blonde woman on the floor like a sack of potatoes. I turn and see him, and can't help but run up and hug him. "I found you!" There's a noise behind me, and I turn back to the blonde chic that I dropped on the floor. She's the only naked person in the whole room, and while most of the people don't notice her, there is a guard in armor who saw us drop from the ceiling. He says something about how no one is allowed to be naked or make love down here, that all prisoners must save themselves for the witch. The girl gets all mad and haughty and says she IS one of the witches, but the guard doesn't recognize her. I know there is more to this dream, but when I woke up I couldn't remember any of it. I only had the feeling like a lot happened but it's just not there for me to recall

Dream One- I am hearing a story from someone about a girl I work with, we'll call her K, being in a changing room. She tried on a pair of tight pants and steps out to see what someone thinks. When she does, another girl from work, we'll call B, falls to the floor and crawls to her feet clawing up at her leg in some sort of terrifying urge to worship and destroy her at the same time. It was a very odd fragment, that made no sense.

6-11-16

All I remember is seeing a row of five small cherry trees with bright pink blossoms all over them planted along the back of my house.

6-10-16

Just a fragment, something about a convention and a speaker where I am earning something I didn't know before. Maybe it was UFO related? I couldn't remember anything but the room and the speaker dressed in light brown when I woke from the dream.

Dream one- I can't get my kids to sleep tonight, and I'm getting really frustrated and tired. the medicine I am on for my chest pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall asleep standing up, and they just won't sleep. My son asks for water, he's drank the first round I gave him already and just can't sleep without more water. I grudgingly get up and walk into the kitchen to refill his water bottle. My mom is standing in the kitchen with my former step brother, getting water from the fridge as I came in to do. I set the bottle down, really agitated that she's over so late and unannounced when I am already struggling to get the kids to bed as it is. "What the hell are you doing here?" I grumble. She replies, "I was in the neighborhood, and Dylan was thirsty, so I let myself in to get him a drink. I didn't think you'd mind!" I start to bring my hands up to my head in an expression of frustration and anger, then stop. My hands look weird, and she doesn't have a key to my house. I realize it's a dream, and try counting my fingers. I have five on the right hand, but seven on the left, and one of those seven is huge and misshapen. I shake my head, relieved, and tell her, "Never mind, this is just a dream. You can do what ever the fuck you want, I'm out of here." then I run through the kitchen and into the living room where I jump through the window. The window never seems to change, but I am able to pass right through it as if it doesn't exist. Part of me is still really unsure though. I know this is a dream, logically it can't be real, but my god it feels so real. usually my lucids still have a sort of muted dreamy quality to them. There may be one or two senses that I am focusing on, but all my others are normally quiet. Not this time, this time I smell the dirt and the grass, I see everything as real as life, I can feel the breeze and hear distant stormy noises, I can even feel my full weight of my feet on the ground below me. I think I'm going to try to force the unreal feeling by flying, but I can't get my feet to stay off the ground because I am struggling so much with how real it all feels. I notice the neighbors across the street have a trampoline in their front yard, and decide to try using that to launch myself into the air to fly. I run over and climb on, just to be completely blown away again by how much I can FEEL in the dream. I'm not just feeling the trampoline under my feet, I can feel the weave of the cloth moving below my feet, my hair moving around my face as I jump, and even the whole electric fear falling feeling in my arms and chest b/c I hate free falls. I try jumping higher and higher, noticing there's a trampoline in their back yard as well. I think maybe I can jump from one to the other and then take off in flight from the second trampoline since I can't get myself in the air on the first one. I jump to the second trampoline, and still can't get skyward. I decide to jump off the trampoline, the ground impact not hurting will surely break the whole "this is too real to be a dream" feeling, I land on the ground, feet first, with the impact throwing me slightly off balance so I end up on my hands and feet rather awkwardly and painfully. That totally didn't work as planned. I realize I have wasted a lot of dream time trying to force control of the dream, and I want to use my lucids to search for Kurasawa as much as possible, so I give up on control. I look for someone to ask about him, to find a direction to go. The neighbor has come out of her house, she's a middle aged black lady in the dream but I have never actually seen these neighbors in the whole year I have lived here. I walk towards her, and she stops as if a bit confused as to who I am and why I am in her yard jumping on her trampolines. I try to create a picture of Kurasawa to show her, but as hard as I try the square "picture" I am trying to draw into existence won't show up. I remind myself that I don't need to be able to see it, I just have to convince my brain that SHE can see it, and hold the air as if I am holding the picture. This works, and the lady stops, clearly in recognition, then takes an involuntary step backwards. "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, but I am looking for someone. Have you seen this guy? and can you tell me what direction I can find him in?" She shakes her head, and takes a couple of steps back as I take a couple of steps towards her. She ducks under her clothes line, and starts retreating to her back porch. I follow her, imploring her, "I know you've seen him. I can tell you recognize the picture. Please tell me where I can find him!" She continues to shake her head, climbs the steps of her porch, then turns back to me. She takes a deep breath, then points behind her house, deeper into the neighborhood and up a hill (In the real neighborhood, the hill goes down not up like in the dream). I can't remember her exact words now, but they were something like, "He's up there, where she keeps all the ones she uses to control people. I can't help you." I start to ask her who "she" is, but the lady hurries inside her house as if she's afraid to be outside any longer. I walk up onto the porch as if to follow her, wondering on my way up the steps who "she" might be. Is "She" one of the goddesses I have dreamed about in the last year? Could she be the goddess Bridge that I have found myself calling my patron in dreams? Is she my own sub conscience? Why is she holding onto him? Is she trying to control me with him? On the porch I look out over the neighborhood and up the hill in the direction the lady had pointed. I can see lots of houses of the neighborhood, even some of the modular homes in the subdivision they built adjacent to ours. I notice the corner of a house tucked in behind those modular homes, and it just sticks out to me as important. It just FEELS like Kurasawa is there. I zoom my vision in on the corner, and it's as if I am not only looking through binoculars, but also pushing the houses between me and it aside to see the full house in better detail. At that moment, the overcast sky comes to life in a stormy rage. Thunder growls, lightning crackles, and the wind whips all around me as the sky gets darker and darker until all I see is black. Thunder claps, and instead of lightening lighting up the area, my vision flashes with clips of newspaper too fast for me to read. I realize that I am losing control, possibly even the whole dream it's self. I can actually remember in the dream that there were thunder storms called for, and I am sure this is the storm arriving in the waking reality and bleeding over into the dream reality. I try to cover my ears to block it out, too panicked to realize that dream hands can't block out waking life sounds. I fall, spinning, through the blackness and wake up.

Dream Two- I am on some sort of beach trip with many of the coworkers I interact with the most. The whole dream is very confusing because it jumps back and forth in time. One of the girls I work with has a new white car that is super fancy and all kinds of expensive. She is very proud and protective of it. We've got a really rickety house that we've all rented with many rooms. Every family has their own room. My boyfriend and kids are playing video games, but I want to explore the area. I go outside and find a forest oddly nearby. The forest looks almost dead and abandoned, but as I walk through it I hear my boss telling us about it as we unpack in the shack (like a memory I guess) and then I watch as he talks about the legend of faeries and elves bringing the forest to life, the forest in fact does come to life. I can even see the little fairies flitting around making it glow and grow. I twirl and dance through the forest like a cheesy movie scene just enjoying the magic of it. Then I am walking into a little beach shop with my kids, boyfriend, and boss. I need to pee, so I find the bathroom. As I am pulling up my drawers a lady and her handicapped daughter literally break the lock on the door to get in. Realizing the girl's disability though, I try to be as understanding as possible and just jerk my pants apologizing that I must be taking too long. The lady grunts to me that they just couldn't wait anymore because her daughter is special, then starts to use the restroom right in front of me. I stumble around looking for a sink to wash my hands, and when I can't find one the woman calls me an idiot for not realizing there just isn't one and getting out of her way. The daughter is grimmacing at her mom's rude behavior though, and keeps giving me apologetic looks. I bow to the daughter slightly and tell her I am sorry to have caused her any trouble, and that I think she is far more special in a far better way than her mother could ever understand. She seems to get that I am telling her that she is a way sweeter, better mannered person than her mother, and nods. I am grateful that she gets I am bad with words, but think highly of her for putting up with such a mother. I scramble out of the bathroom and my exhusband is in the shop. He starts fussing and yelling at me for who even knows what, I can't remember. My boss comes over and tries to get in the middle to defend me and my character, and I feel awful about it. I run outside and hop in my coworker's brand new fancy smancy car. My exhusband follows me, climbs in the car, and starts berating me again, this time getting so angry he's flinging his arms and fists animatedly around the car hitting the windows and dash and seats (he's not a violent person, so in the dream it didn't seem dangerous even though it sounds like it was lol) I show him out of the car as hard as I can, and tell him to get lost. He storms off after slamming the door, and I realize the car is in shambles around me. He's busted the seats open and dented both interior and exterior. I start crying again as my coworker comes out freaking out over her car. She cries too. At some point we start laughing about how funny it is to see the car looking so bad if you aren't attached to the situation. Then, I wake up.

My boyfriend and I are renting a couple of trailers on a lot in the back of a rural "neighborhood" One trailer, the one we are living in, is really old and just looks ugly and worn. The other trailer is very nice, but we don't live in it because the bathtub is broken. (An interesting parallel to our real life, we own our home, but the bathtub has cracks in it from before we purchased it. We've fiber glassed it over, but that patch is on it's way out after just a few months) I am walking around the nicer trailer, thinking that the tub shouldn't keep us from living in it instead because it still has a really ritzy shower system in the other bathroom, and it's just so much nicer than the place we were living in. I find myself in the room with a shower, and it's HUGE. The shower isn't even like a shower, but rather looks like a giant kiddie pool that gets about a foot or two deep at the most. It's probably five feet wide and at least ten feet long, complete with 4 shower heads and a seat like ridge all around it so you can sit in the shower and soak your feet in the kiddie pool like basin. I notice a large pipe like tunnel that leads out of the shower at the seat level, and crawl through it. It leads out to the front yard, to a multiple level pebble step waterfall. I go back inside the front door and walk back to the bathroom, and notice there is a little tv and advertisement demo on the wall as if the trailer was a showcase model meant to be walked through and not lived it. It shows a video about how you can turn the shower into a small swimming pool by pushing a button to activate some sort of low gravity field. It looks really cool, and I call my boyfriend in to see it. Only when he gets there, I can't get it to show the right video, it just keeps showing youtube like commercials that you can "skip add" but never loading the right video. I get aggravated and just walk away, this time through a door that wasn't by the pipe tunnel before. the door leads into a sauna that the pipe helps provide steam for, then there's another door. I go through the other door and find that it's a sun room surrounded by windows with two white metal chairs and white metal shelves that I imagine would make a lovely sun room for growing plants in. I then walk out a door that leads to the front yard, and the pebble step water fall is much bigger, it is more like a porch now with stepping stones so you don't get your feet wet. I make another round inside through the front door, this time not stopping to really look at anything in particular, but just walk steadily through admiring the whole set up. When I make it outside this time, there is a water slide leading from the shower through the sauna and sun rooms, then out to a giant pool in the front yard. I stop and look incredulously at the water slide. I speak to myself out loud, "Ok, that waterslide was definitely NOT there before. I must be dreaming!" I turn around to look at the front yard in front of me again, and realize that now instead of being a few steps above the ground level, the pebble porch is a full 15 feet high. My son runs out of the sun room dressed in his swimsuit and jumps off the edge of the porch into the now huge pool below me screaming, "Cannon ball!" all the way down. I want to jump, but even knowing it's a dream I am kind of scared to, so instead I decide to fly instead. It's been so long since I have had a lucid that I struggle with control a bit, finding myself unable to create wings. I decide to flap my arms instead, and find that I can only get a few feet off the ground before I float back down to the ground. I decide to take a different approach, and pretend that I am riding an invisible horse instead. That lifts me off the ground, and the invisible horse jumps from the porch landing safely on the ground with no jolt or hint that it was a 15 foot drop. The horse is running towards the road, and I notice a Knight on horseback with shoulder length brown hair. I think that I am going to catch up with him and get some fighting training, but he spurs his horse on, apparently terrified of the witch on an invisible mount. I think that I am going to ride behind some houses that he is riding in front of so he won't see me closing in on him, but after about three houses I remember that I've been trying to obtain lucidity for a reason and that as much fun as all this is, I need to get back on track. I stop the still invisible horse, and make it cease to exist. On my own two feet again, I look around for someone nearby. I can see the trailer turned house turned water park now in the distance, and a gorgeous lady with dark coffee skin and a bright red and white spotted bathing suit is only about ten feet from me walking towards the water park. I rush over to her and ask her if she knows where I can find Kurasawa. She tells me she doesn't know anyone by that exact name, but there is someone two houses over that has a similar name. I thank her and tell her she looks cute in her bathing suit. I run two houses down and knock on the door. A man in his twenties with tan skin, a mole by his mouth, and a curly almost afro-like but smaller hairstyle answers the door. There's a toddler holding onto his legs. I tell him that I am looking for Kurasawa, and ask him if he knows him. In the dream though I am losing lucidity. I am able to give Kurasawa a last night, but I can't for the life of me remember what it was now. The man picks up the little boy and holds him in the air above his head as he replies to me that he "does know a Kurasawa (different last name than I mentioned, but I can't remember this one either) who is going to college (some where I can't remember)." Lucidity is slipping, and I realize it because the last names aren't the same, and I am trying to remember how to focus and hold onto that lucidity. I close my eyes, and see news paper text on my eye lids, but instead of trying to read them I freak out that I might wake up now that my eyes are closed and too much like my physical self lying in bed. I open my eyes, and I'm now standing in the dude's kitchen, but I feel dizzy, like the whole world ins spinning around me. I mutter something about no, the names aren't the same, that's going to wake me up, and then I open my eyes to my dark room.

I can't recall any dreams before or after that last night, my recall has been terrible since I haven't been actively journaling in years. all I can remember about the last names is that the one I mentioned had a K in the beginning and an R somewhere in the middle or end. I remember the one the dude with the toddler mentioned had a M in the beginning and an S in the middle. Just adding that in in case it is important later

I noticed I didn't have this dream online, and it is one of the most current and frustrating K dreams I have had, so I wanted to go over my oddly very detailed dream notes and vivid memory of the dream and make an official dream journal memory I could go back over later, even when my dream notes have been lost.

I am going down the street where some of my paternal extended family lives. I see lights up in the sky, flying in very choreographed patterns. I am sure they are UFOs and near by. I half walk half run towards the lights. In a usually vacant field is a floating eyeball of fire, just like the eye in lord of the rings, complete with a lava tower beneath it and what looks like lava pooling out from around it on the ground. There are two girls with me, one's name is Melissa but I don't really know her or anyone like her in waking life, the other I don't even have a dream name for. The eye and lava tower become a man in a white robe with a giant eyeball mask on his head. He's running towards us throwing fire balls at us, and I happen to dodge and catch one of the robe sleeves throwing him off balance and knocking his mask off. Under the mask, he's just a nasty sweaty guy with a seriously runny nose. The runny boogers are so bad they are trailing a couple of feet down from his nose and when he tries to catch his balance sans the mask, the boogers whip out to land across my arm. Gross! We break into an empty home nearby to wash up a bit, and I take off the jacket I am wearing that got snot on it. The home owners are returning, so we run out the back door and through the woods behind the house. I briefly worry about my jacket that I left behind linking me to the break in, but my dream brain quickly stops caring. On the other side of the woods, we find a graveyard and it's sunrise. there's a truck parked out on a maintenance path, and there's a form standing outside the truck. When we get closer to the truck I realize the form is K, but his face and body are all swollen up from some sort of crazy allergic reaction to something. I wake up.

I fall back asleep thinking of the previous dream, and this time find myself walking back through the same graveyard. I am following K, though he is far ahead of me, and he quickly arrives at a house. I try to speak to him, but he is scrambling around and basically blowing me off muttering about dream research he has to do. He isn't swollen up anymore, and he looks older, haggard even. I go downstairs upset and trying to just get away from this unusual rejection. Downstairs, the basement of this house is filled to the brim with boxes and all kinds of old bikes and random junk. I manage to squeeze my way through over and around all the mess to a window. I open the window and climb through to find myself in the front yard. There's a yard sale going on in the front yard, and there are people that my dream self knew as friends sitting on the steps chatting, as well as a couple of little dogs running around the yard amid the items displayed for sale. K has walked out the front door and is still mumbling about dream research. I tell him that we are in a dream right now, and we could research better together if we could just find each other! The sudden admission that I am in a dream causes me to have a false awakening. I wake up with my cheek on a dark wooden floor facing a set of stained glass front doors. I walk towards and through those doors, and as I do the new looking floors age and become worn out looking as well as the rest of the house. When I am out in the neighborhood, I decide that K's house from earlier in the dream will be in this neighborhood, I just have to walk in the direction that feels right. I find the house with the yard sale, and K is on the front porch still. There is a rolling chair on the sidewalk near the steps he is standing and the friends are sitting on. I sit down in the rolling chair and tell him my name and the city and state I live in. He says something about "Faust" and "Curro", I am confused because his words sound muffled and distorted. I ask him to repeat them and I reach for a laptop on the ground nearby thinking I will look the words up as he tells them to me. Once again, his words are muffled and distorted and I wake up trying to concentrate on them too hard.

K was very out of character in this dream. Instead of the usual calm, collected, bad ass who always seems like he has everything under control and can protect me from anything my dreams throw at me, his allergic reaction and almost frantic mumbling about dream research made him seem very weak and very much a mess incapable of even caring for himself. In the end, he was able to kind of pull himself together and actually try to accomplish something, but even then the lack of clarity in his words and voice was very different from usual. I've contemplated that this was not really a K dream, but then no one has ever had the same feel as K in dreams, and there was no mistaking it in this dream. I have also wondered if perhaps I somehow made it into one of those random dreams we all have where our stresses and anxieties take over and we just fall apart where he was unable to control himself, assuming that K is another dreamer and not just a special dc. Then there's always the chance that my own fears and anxieties over hardly ever dreaming of K anymore caused me to dream that he was falling apart.

Dream One - I'm at a concert inside of a mall waiting on my ex husband to bring my kids to me. There's loud music, lots of people really close together, and fog machines making everything look hazy. I'm trying to look around for them, but the crowd is so thick I can't see through it and have to start walking around the outside perimeter hoping to catch a glimpse of them when they get there. I walk around a group of six or seven people and see my kids and their dad behind them. I walk up and say hey, and apologize for not being able to see them through the crowd, I hope they didn't wait long. My ex husband leaves, and I show my kids some sort of meter that I have in my hand that I got from hot topic. It's linked to the concert somehow, that whenever you attend the concerts with this meter it gets you free merchandise credit. I have two more meters in my pocket, one for each kid. We talk about all the cool pokemon and pony merch they have and start planning what we want to spend our concert attendance points on as we walk out of the large concert room and into the main mall. The mall is bigger than any mall I have ever seen, and I've been to a pretty big one in DC when I was a kid. As we are walking through we see lots of stores already closed up for the night. We go down an escalator, and there's another escalator across from it. Music starts playing, and a slightly heavier than average woman in a sexy tight red dress starts dancing through the mall. She's wearing some sort of paper mache TV mask that makes her look like she has an old TV from the sixties for a head. She's singing as she dances about how much she loves shopping and how wonderful the mall stores are. We hurry towards the exit of the mall and I wake up.

Dream Two - I'm heading out to my car in a big parking lot outside of a medium sized building. I think it might be a school or college that I am leaving, perhaps some sort of educational convention. There's a lady and a dude who are waiting on rides and I offer to take them home so they don't have to wait. Both accept my offer, and my car is parked in one of the first few parking spaces so we don't walk far. I decide to take the T tops off and ride them home in style. I get in the car, and the man gets in the passengers seat and I start driving off. I realize the lady got distracted and didn't get in the car when I hear her yelling at me to wait while she chases down the car. Unfortunately I had just pulled onto the main road when she was close enough to hear. I try to stop and put the car in reverse as there is nothing coming, but as soon as I start backing up the car a bunch of other cars start coming up the hill behind us and honking their horns at me for driving like an idiot. I ignore them and back right back into the parking lot anyways. The lady is no longer there. I drive a circle back through the parking lot looking for her, and finally find her back at the front of the building waiting on her ride. I try to apologize, but she's not mad at all. She thanks me for forgetting her, and tells me that by staying there a little longer a great opportunity opened up for her. She doesn't elaborate on what the opportunity is. I offer again to take her home, and she says she needs to stay there another half our or so, I can take her home only if I am willing to wait that half our. I don't want to wait, I want to get home. The man I was giving a ride home to starts talking, and while I can't remember what he said, I got really aggravated and annoyed by it. I stop the car just before I leave the parking lot and tell him to get out. he argues, and I start cursing and yelling at him until he gets out and slams the door. I drive off and wake up.

Dream Three - I am once again leaving a college, this time on foot. There's a hill very much like the one at my late Grandma W's house that I am walking up. I look at my hand and think it looks weird. I start counting my fingers, and realize I have 8 on one hand. That's not right, I count again. Once more, 8 fingers. I realize I MUST be dreaming! I try to concentrate once more on my hands, now curious how I can have 8 fingers and it look almost normal. This time however, I only have the normal 5 fingers, and decide that maybe my counting is off in dreams and not so much that my hand actually had 8 fingers. At first I continue walking up the hill, then decide that I am not going to continue the path of the dream, I am going to go out looking for K instead. I turn right and head towards an older building that I recognize from a dream in the past. In the dream I am pretty sure I had seen K in that building before so it's a good place to start looking. Lucidity starts slipping but not completely. The building has different little shops in it, one of them being some sort of bass pro shops home store that I have never dreamed of before. I walk into the bass pro shop home store as it looks like the main entrance, and then go up some stairs into a little office lobby. There are different little office doors with different titles on them, one of the is the Faerie Arcane office. I knock on that door, thinking that K must have something to do with magic that we meet in dreams as we do. Lucidity is mostly gone, but I at least follow my purpose to find K. The door swings open when I knock and there are three ladies in the office. All three are middle aged, with tons of makeup and jewelry and their hair styled with tons of hair spray and gel. One is at a desk, and the other two are standing in the corners, and they are all chatting fervently. They turn and look at me, the one at the desk demanding to know what I want. I tell them I want to speak with the faerie arcane office about someone I am seeking, and they tell me they are too busy and I will have to come back tomorrow. I close the door disappointed, and start walking out of the building. I wake up.

Dream Four - My boy friend and I are working. I realize it's getting about time for our doctors appointments so I got to tell him it's time to leave. He tells me his appointment isn't until three, even though I am so sure it's at 2:30. We leave anyways. I don't remember any drive, it's like we are just suddenly there. The building looks like a grocery store building, however it has a neon purple sign on the front that says, "Mydera's" I also notice my exhusband and his new wife and their families chilling out on the roof of the building. I have a brief flash back memory of putting the "Mydera's" sign on the building in The Sims 3, then we get out of the car and walk in. We are late for my boyfriend appointment, it was in fact at 2:30 not 3:00. Also, the appointment I thought was there was with a different doctor an hour away and there's no way to make it there in time. We decide instead to go into the movie theater in the building. There are rows of sofas and love seats instead of movie chairs, and the movie screen has Splatoon on it. Everyone in the theatre is playing on the same screen, but the screen doesn't split off into individual character views, it just shows the whole stage making it impossible to tell who you are and where you are going. I get frustrated that I can't figure out which character I am or see around most of the stage and that frustration wakes me up.

Dream Five - I am at work inspecting a chair. There are two slubs on the outback of this chair. One at the top and one at the bottom. My boyfriend comes up behind me as I place red tape on the slubs and asks what I put the tape on there for. I tell him there are slubs in the fabric, then he sarcastically replies, "No, those are fine, they're supposed to be there!" I shake my head and then set down my red tape. If my boyfriend is there then it must be lunch time. He's putting huge pickle chips on a hamburger. The pickles look weird, they are all huge and lumpy. Realizing they don't look right wakes me up.

My daughter who was visiting family out of state had to go to the er last night for a sparkler burn. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep b/c I felt just awful about being four hours away, even though she was only at the hospital for an hour and was just fine, it was just a precautionary measure on the part of my family to take her to the ER and be checked. So I took 5htp as well as a couple of Benedryl to help me sleep. Having had the dream of K a few nights ago, I also took a prenatal vitamin to help build back my dream recall. Usually I have to take the vitamins a week straight to get good recall, but I guess mixed with the medicine and the attempt to take notes the vitamin worked immediately. I also got about 10 hours of sleep thanks to the medicine, where as I am normally lucky to get 8 full hours. I also had a few almost dreams early in the night where I was awake enough to hear my boyfriend on the computer, but still seeing little movies behind my eyes. The moment I would acknowledge however that I must be falling asleep, I'd wake up fully and not even remember anything other than, "I was dreaming of splat rollers" or something equally vague. All in all though, it was far more productive a dream night than I anticipated. If I am able to keep up with my dream journal, I won't expect such good results most of the time lol.

Last night I was lucid for a few short moments. First lucid in a month or so I think. Today I started reality checking again so hopefully I will be lucid again soon I've really been slacking since the beginning of summer and none of my goals are being accomplished and I feel like I'm getting no where lol.

The first part of the dream I can remember, I am on a road next to a little forested area with a pond. For some reason I'm chilling out with Eliza Thornberry from the Wild Thornberries. She tells me that the animals in the area are sad because their pond where they get water is polluted. I walk into the forrest area to the small pond to see if I can clean it up, and I see HUGE oak leaves in the water. A little dog with long hair that I actually saw at Petsmart a couple days ago is trying to drink from the water, but keeps licking leaves in the attempt. I try to move the leaves, but find that when I scoop all the leaves out of the pond there are dark blue Milk crates sunk in the water. Upon closer inspection, I find that the milk crates are full of green and rotting raw steaks that are breaking into little pieces and polluting the water with nasty germs and bacteria. I tell Eliza that there's nothing I can do, and she tries to argue, "But what about the animals?!" and I tell her that it's beyond my ability to clean and I start walking up the street. As I walk up the street I stop and think for a moment that I'm crazy for walking up a street in the dark. Then I realize I might be dreaming. I reach up and pinch my nose, I can breathe! At this point I get excited, "This is a dream!" then before I can do anything about it, a girl comes running at me yelling about something. I'm ignoring her thought bc I know this is a dream and I don't want to deal with her I want to do something, but she won't be ignored! She is reaching out at me and grabs at me, I pull back and then panic for a moment. I close my eyes and tell myself it's ok, K will rescue me so there's nothing to worry about. I feel hands clawing at my face and shoulders. I try to tell myself the girl is going to turn into K, but the clawing continues and when I open my eyes the girl is in fact a boy, but he's not K. I decide to try and run away. I quickly think I can run into a wall to skip out of this dream and into another one where I might find K. The street I'm running on actually looks like the high school I went to now, but I don't remember when the scene shift happened. I try to run through a wall, and instead I find myself faltering and getting dizzy, tripping, and falling against the wall. When I hit the wall the room spins and it feel like the wall becomes the floor and while I can see my fist against the wall in front of my face, I know I'm waking up and I curse and bang my fist against the wall. Then everything goes black and I wake up.

I haven't been taking my vitamins like I should, so my dreams are so blurry and fragmented it's crazy when I even have them. But here goes, lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm standing on the pier at the lake talking to my friend J. He's talking about how babies are being born with clear skin and insides, and that there is a small glowing blue orb inside each baby. He says my best friend Ambies is worried that I am going to want to have one because I like strange and paranormal stuff, but she really thinks it's a bad idea. I try to reassure him I don't want anymore babies, not even see through babies with blue orbs all the while He's really worried that I'm lying to him.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm running down a hill past some shops. I suddenly realize there is a big body of water and I'm about to run right into it. I reach out and grab a tree and use the momentum to swing myself around the tree and turn around before I end up in the water. I slide on the hill side though and manage to scrape up my leg as I fall. I get up and start jogging slower this time up the hill. A man with dark hair comes out of one of the shops and asks me if I am ok. I say yeah, and ask why he thought something was wrong. He frowns and says he saw me fall and just wanted to check on me. I thank him for his concern and then wake up.

Dream Three (Semi-lucid): I am bareback on a horse with my arms wrapped around a woman. I realize it's my neighbor, and we're riding the horse over by my dads house. I feel us slipping and I start to freak out that I'm going to get hurt, but then I realize I won't get hurt this is just a dream. I'm not hit by that euphoric wave of OMG this is a dream! but I still understand I can control the situation. I let go of the neighbor and grab the horses mane instead. When I do this the neighbor vanishes and I'm laying flat on the horses back hugging it's neck and mane for dear life whispering shhh shhh until it stops and I slide slowly around it's neck and look at it face to face. I decide it's a pretty horse, but I want to change it. So I think about it being a unicorn, and it's fore head glows and a horn grows on it. I climb back up and ride the horse only a minute or so more to see if it's any different riding a unicorn. Then I decide I'm lonely. I close my eyes and let myself slide off the horse, trying to imagine where L might be with the thought that I'm going to find him and hang out with him. I open my eyes and find myself in a brown carpeted room with golden yellow walls and lots of Manga, alone. I try to close my eyes and imagine falling again to L's side. I find myself in a grassy area with a short wooden table like you see in Anime all the time. There's a woman in a kimono having tea with a man, and then there's L walking towards them. For a moment my lucidity slips and I start to go have tea, but halfway to the table I realize this is still a dream. I change my course and run to L and jump on him. I start yelling, "I'm Lucid! L we're dreaming and I'm lucid. Listen to me, I am lucid and you need to be too!" But of course I must not have been very lucid or I wouldn't be trying to convince the DC he was dreaming lol. He tells me it's ok, he knows, then he leans in and kisses me. I kiss him back a bit shyly of course, but then I'm like what the hell, I'm only dreaming anyways, I'm going to make out with him, lol. Then he shoves his tongue in my mouth and we end up rolling around on the grass making out. A few times I got super excited and realized I'd wake up if I didn't stop so I had to push him back and calm myself down. This is definitely progress for me, because I struggle with waking up when I get too excited. I know I'll never talk to Kurasawa for long if I don't learn to get past it because he tends to end my dreams quickly by kissing me when we meet lol. I am disappointed though that I didn't go looking for him, but finding him will be easier if I work on my control and stabilization anyways.

It started with me being in a store and my BFF called me telling me she was on her way down to NC. She was so upset that she just couldn't stay in Ohio anymore. It was like the middle of the night, but she drove down here to hang out and just get away from Ohio. I stepped out of the store and she was in the parking lot, so we went back inside together. Inside, she was alternating between laughing loudly and suddenly bursting into tears. I wish that T had been there to help her, and suddenly he was. He asked her what was wrong, and she told him that she just had to get away from Ohio and burst into tears. So he grabs her elbow and tells her to come on, he's got someone she needed to see. So we start walking to the registers, and I have some things in my arms to buy (can't remember what they were though) So at the registers stand the Blond J she hung out with in highschool. You see him and say his name, then he opens his arms and she runs into them and just breaks down in the biggest sobs ever. He wraps his arms around her, then walks her out of the store to console her. Tracy stays with me while I check out, then I go outside and he offers to give me a ride home. When I accept, we get into my grandma's truck and suddenly I just know this is a dream. Realizing I'm dreaming I am scared that I'll wake up and everything goes black. I reach to my side to grab my cell phone, and find that the phone I grab is a flip phone, I'm still dreaming! So I look through my contacts, and I find L's number (which I don't really have, lol) and call him. I tell him to meet me at the bus stop in front of Walmart. Then I tell Tracy to stop the truck at the buss stop so I can get out and wait. He's not wanting to stop because it's dark and late and he says it's dangerous for me to be alone in town at night and the bus wouldn't run until daytime so I wouldn't have anyone to pick me up. I told him I was sure then jumped out o the truck. The buss stop was more like those smokers chambers at the local college, not a buss stop. All glass and benches, covered so you won't get rained on. As I walk towards the bus stop it's becoming day, and I curse dream time and say out loud, "NO!!! It's still supposed to be night!!!" and the dream goes back to night time So then I go to sit on the bench and it disappears! I remind myself it's a dream and it's still there even if I can't see it, mentally not out loud this time. The bench reappears and I sit on it. I look to the left towards walmart and across an empty parking lot. Then I see someone walking alone the empty parking lot towards the bus stop. It's a short little guy with a bald head and he looks kind of Asian. I realize this is supposed to be L coming to visit me, so I jump up and run up to him. On closer inspection he looks old too, and I'm thinking really?! THIS is supposed to be L? My brain couldn't have been more wrong! So I try calling out to the DC and yell his name at him, "L!" and suddenly he stretches taller and his face shifts and he looks all the world like high school L but with short hair. I am ecstatic that it worked, and he smiles really big at me so I run up and hug him. It gets a little odd when after I hug him he lets his hands linger on my waist. I remember our conversation last night, so I tell him to come here and pull him towards the buss stop. I stop right out side the bus stop and lean back against the glass while he catches his balance after me pulling him so hard in that direction. Then he asks me why I brought him here and if I wanted to talk, I tell him that I could wake up at any minute so there's no time for that now. Then I reach up and gently pull his head down to mine and kiss him. And of course everytime I kiss a DC I wake up, so that's where it ended, lol.

My bff and I had talked the night I had this dream about how she kissed L once, and I asked her if he was a good kisser. She couldn't remember. For some reason I forgot I actually wanted to ask L why I keep seeing him in my dreams because all I could remember was the conversation my bff and I had that night and not having the answer to my question, lmao. It's sooo hard to remember my waking world plans when I'm dreaming, things I decide on weeks in advanced are totally forgotten for things I passingly wonder about the night before >.< I'm totally kicking myself for that

I didn't imagine I'd have such good luck the first night trying to dream again, lol. The last dream is a lucid, the first one... is almost lucid?

Dream One: I'm walking through the hall, I think I'm looking for my older brother... except I don't have an older brother, lol. A Guy with long dark hair is behind me, he reaches out his hand to me and tells me he can help me find who I'm looking for, but because we're asleep I'll have to follow him into the land of nod to reach him. I take his hand, and he walks me through a wall. Once we make it through the wall, everything takes on a darker shadowier appearance. I get cold, really really cold and start shivering. The man leads me to a bed, and he tells me that I need to lay down b/c I'm sick and I have to be healed first. He pulls the bed covers down, and I crawl into the bed, then he pulls the covers over me. I instantly feel so much warmer. He walks around the foot of the bed, grabs something off a dresser at the lower right corner of the bed, then walks back up on the right side of the bed. I'm laying on the left side, so he sit son the right side and leans towards me. In his hand is what looks like one of those little tag readers that my kids have, but he's calling it a thermometer. He lifts my arm, and pokes my under arm with the little pen thing. It beeps and some lights go from red to yellow to green. Then he takes it back to the dresser and sets it down, and grabs my cell phone of from the dresser. He brings my cell phone to me, and lifts the covers of the bed. He then pulls up my nightgown so that everything below my belly button is exposed. He sets the phone between my belly button and pubic bone, and makes it start vibrating continuously. He then pulls my underwear down and starts gently blowing on me. It's really weird, but still exciting and I almost wake up fading to the black and then appearing right back in the dream scene. First I realize my stomach ache is actually gone now (I really had a stomach ache when I went to bed last night). Then I realize that I'm laying in that bed with my covers on, and there's no one there. I see a picture on the wall of the pokemon Dratini, and I kind of find it funny because I know this is a dream world and I'm dreaming of pokemon. I don't however realize I can control the dream at this point. I notice that I'm already dressed, and decide to walk around in this land of nod to find the older brother (that I don't have, lol) I walk through the door into the hallway, and I see my grandmother. Then I see a pudgy little child with a buzz cut, he was definitely younger than my son who is 5, but seemed older or maybe just smarter than my daughter at 3. Anyways, I start to walk towards the child, and then he/it turns dark green, and smiles with big creepy fangs and his eyes turn completely white and glow. It runs towards me super fast like it's about to attack me. I wake up freaked out.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm walking through the woods with my mom. A Yellow and black snake slithers past us, then there are tons of them all over the path. Mom is freaking out because she's terrified of snakes, but I keep trying to tell her they are harmless garter snakes (I've only seen grey garter snakes, but I looked it up and sure enough there are garter snakes that look like they did in the dream )

Dream Three (Lucid!): The dream starts out with me walking on a country road by a local country restaurant. I'm pushing a bike, apparently I can't ride it because I'm carrying something and I'm afraid I'll drop or spill it if I do. I'm staring at the ground, and I notice the shadow of a guy with long hair walking towards me, I don't look up or anything just keep walking. I notice the same shadow comes up from behind me, and I stop to look up at why I'm being followed. The guy is very thin, and has dark hair to his shoulders. I ask him why he's following me, and he asks if I don't remember him. I say no, an he starts saying we were good friends. I don't recognize him, so I ell him he must be mistaken. Then he starts telling me a bunch of embarrassing stuff that only my best friends would know, and I tell him to shut up I believe him and I do not want to be embarrassed anymore. He laughs, and somehow the bike is gone but I don't notice it. The guy takes my hand and leads me into a yard, and I know this is my yard somehow. He walks me over to the house, and we climb up a ladder onto the roof and sit on the roof for a bit. I know we talked, I just can't remember what about. Then he says we should get down, and we jump off the roof into the backyard, and he takes my hand and pulls me to face him, then grabs the other hand. He smiles like he's got nothing to say, maybe he just enjoys standing there looking at each other. Then I hear a noise from the right, and it's a couple of police officers. They're saying he needs to come with them for questioning. I ask why, and they say they need a dna sample and to ask him about some crime. I don't want them to take him though, so I reach into my pocket and pull out a knife. I grab the guys hand and cut the tip of his finger, then tell them there's their DNA sample, take it and get lost. They refuse however, saying that he has to come to the station in person so they can take a sterile sample. He ruffles my hair, and tells me to relax its ok. Then he tells the police that he needs to step inside for a moment and he'll be happy to come along. He walks inside the house, and I'm standing there not sure what to do for a moment, then I decide to follow. I took too long however, and he passes me inside the hall on my way inside. He says he'll see me later, and tells me he left something for me inside the bedroom. The police grab each of his arms, and lead him out. I walk back to the bedroom, that has a double bed against the right wall, and a computer desk against the back wall as well as another one against the left wall. On the desks and the bed and the monitors are big pieces of printer paper, all with the words, "I love you" written on them. My husband walks into the room, and so does my daughter. My husband comments on the notes, he says something like how they were over kill and there were so many of them making a mess. He doesn't seem angry though like he should be. I start flipping through the papers on the desk, and I find a paper with the name Kelly written on it, and I wonder if my name in this dream is supposed to be Kelly. That's when I realize I'm dreaming. I start looking around now, admiring the dream scape. I notice that the speakers on the desk have on of my friends names written on it, and I haven't talked to this friend in years so I wonder why his name is on it. Then my daughter starts saying, "Carry me, carry!" so I pick her up, and tell her Mommy is dreaming! I remind myself I need to do something that's on my goal list, but I can't remember what's on my goal list. I decide I'm going to try to grow wings and a tail and a scythe since I've done it in a previous dream, but the scythe wasn't right. I wanted to perfect it. I walk to a door, and realize I'm supposed to be on the second floor of this house. I tell myself when I open the door, it's going to lead to a balcony (even though I know I hadn't seen one earlier in the dream). It works, and I'm on a balcony with a swing when I walk out the door. I set my daughter down and tell her mommy had to go try to work on her dream goals, and she says, "Awwwwww, okay." all dejectedly, it was cute and sad, but I wasn't going to let a dc ruin my lucid, even if it was my daughter. First I try to imagine what having wings would feel like, but I just can't concentrate enough. I then think I'll stand on the swing and swing it so I can feel the wind passing over my body and pretend I'm already flying. That doesn't help me grow those wings. Then I'm like, Screw it, I'm just going to jump off this balcony and if I don't fly then I'll crash. I look off the edge of the Balcony though and realize it's concrete. I worry that if I hit concrete it'll make me wake up. I walk to the far right of the balcony, and see grass and bushes below there. I decide that a jump from this height into those bushes would result in broken bones at the worst, and I won't wake up from bones broken in a dream. I jump, and I do fly! But there's no wings, instead I'm flying like superman minus the cape, lol. I realize that my legs are dragging though, so I try to pick them up and balance myself like if I was trying to float on my belly in a pool. Then I decide I want wings still, but I can't get them to appear still. Annoyed, I see a orange cliff ahead and decide to fly as high up it as I can, and then try to imagine how my wings would feel if I was diving towards the ground from that height and flexed them to glide away from the ground at the last minute. This sort of works, only I can feel my wings, I just can't see them. They're invisible wings! I fly around in circles a bit, and a cat is below me and chases my shadow all cute like. Then I realize I've been wasting a lot of time, if I want to see the dream guy again before the dream is over, I have to go. I keep worrying that I'm going to wake up at any time, but push on anyways. I fly back towards the house, then past it towards the restaurant, then past that to another orange cliff, as if the entire dream scape is surrounded by these orange cliffs. I see a gap in the cliff about four feet wide, and fly towards it. Inside the gap is a set of stairs, but I fly up them rather than walking them. The cat is still chasing my shadow, so at the top of the stairs I pull a door out of the cliff to block the stairs so the cat can't follow me and distract me. To get any deeper into the cap though, I have to go through a door as well myself. I try to imagine my scythe, but can't see it. I decide that since I can feel my wings but not see them, the scythe too is invisible, and I can make the motions like I'm cutting the door and it'll work... and it does, I bust the door down with the invisible scythe, and step through. Inside I can see the guy from earlier signing some papers and the cops are just lounging on a couple of couches. The guy smiles at me and tells me he knew I'd come to find him, and that he's done giving his blood sample so he can leave now. I tell him that I'm worried that the dream is about to end, and that I was hoping for some sort of romantic action before it ends. He laughs at me, and tells me there's a bedroom in the back. I look back, and for some reason I'm sure if I go back there I'm going to see myself in sleeping in bed with my husband and I won't be dreaming anymore. I tell him I'm scared I'm going to wake up if I go back there, and then I do wake up.

Usually In my dreams I lean more towards wanting romantic interactions rather than lusty ones, but last night apparently was a different story, lol. Still, other than being slightly out of the norm for me, these were pretty fun dreams to have. It's been a while since I was lucid, and while I didn't do anything of any importance (finding Kurasawa, or trying to share a dream with my BFF, etc etc) I at least got a chance to get away and de-stress a bit rather than being at the whim of my dreams and nightmares.

Dream One: I'm at the grocery store, and there's a jerky aisle! Like a whole aisle full of jerky. I freaking LOVE jerky, but for the last year or so meat has tended to make me sick Of course being a dream I didn't think about this, and I found some pork jerky or something and wanted to try it. So for whatever reason I break a piece off and taste it. Then I notice, after I swallow that the package says it needs to be cooked. Ooops. I hope I didn't just make myself sick. Then I see some little weenie shaped jerkys, on closer inspection the package actually says "Hot dog jerky" and I decide to buy some for my kids to try, they love hotdogs. Then the neighbors kids are there, and they're saying, "Dude! Hog dog jerky! I want some!" SO I buy them some too, and I buy myself some pickled sausages (it's been years since I've been able to eat those, lol) I drive home, and not only MY kids are in the car with me, but the neighbors kids too Then I park the car and get out and start to open my pickled sausage, and my husband complains that I parked wrong, so I give him the keys and tell him to repark it if he doesn't like it. He does, but the neighbors kids want to ride in the car with my husband driving, so the one neighbor kid hands me his jerky, and I start eating it forgetting that it wasn't mine. Then I have to apologize when they get the car parked. I woke up mid apology.

Dream Two: I was going outside to get in my car, but I can't find my car. It's not parked where it should it! I'm walking all over the yard looking for it, and I can't find it. Then OTHER (different set of neighbors from first dream) neighbor steps out with his youngest and they're going to get in their van, but when they notice me walking around looking lost. They stop to help me find my car, and eventually we find it parked in the middle of the turn around in the road. It should have been obvious from the start though. Dream Logic. Then a car comes flying down the road, it's the neighbors oldest son. He and the other other neighbors son are apparently fixing up a car to drive when they get their licenses.

Dream Three: We're at McDonalds, my husband kids, and I. First we need to go through the drive through, and there's a long line. So my husband says the lines too long and he wants to wait. But then the line is empty and he still won't pull forwards into the drive through lane! Then a car pulls into it and there's a line again. I make him line up, and then he drives the wrong way and ends up behind the building instead of in the drive through. Then when we finally make it to the drive through window, he orders half our food, then stats driving forwards because their menu is placed AFTER the window instead of before, and the lady thinks we're done ordering and starts taking the order of the person behind us. I get angry and jump out of the car and tell my husband he has three seconds to tell me what he wants or he's not eating! Then I walk back to the window and tell her I wasn't finished with our order and give her the rest of the order. Then we're told to pull around and wait. Finally when our food is ready, we go inside to eat it, lol. Then they're having a trivia contest for the little kids and they're asking star wards and Indiana Jones questions, so my son is all over it! He ends up winning a thousand dollar scholarship. I think we should come to every trivia night at McDonalds to see if he can pay his way through college in scholarships, lol. Then I wake up.

Dream Four (DILD!):The dream starts off on the shore of the river at the cabin my dads family owns. Somehow though, it's an island. I'm with a man and his family of like 4 kids. We're trying to build a fire, but the wind is blowing too hard and keeps blowing the fire out before we can really get it started. A little 10 year old boy in glasses tries to build a wind shield out of a sheet, and it ends up acting as a sail and carrying all the wood off into the river -_- The oldest kid doesn't even look like a kid, more like in his early twenties, but definitely not my age yet. He's got long hair and looks a lot like Johnny Depp:

(totally took that from a facebook page of a fan club, so hoping it shows up, lol.
Anyways, he takes his shirt off and runs into the river to retrieve the wood. I follow to help him drag it in because it looks heavy, but he'd able to bring it all in without my help . Then when we get back to shore, he asks his dad what happened to Molly. TUrns out Molly is a little girl around 5, and she's fallen asleep and they've put her inside some wagon and the other kids were taking her up to the cabin to bed. So the Johnny Depp guy goes up to the cabin too, and I stay down with the dad trying to figure out how to build the camp fire. Then I get this great idea. I can transmute some wood into a shape that will block the window but be heavy enough to to blow off! I start looking around for dry wood, and then step on something warm and round. At first I think it's a snake, then I realize it's just a water hose. I tell myself I shouldn't think of it being a snake or it might turn into one. Then the dad suggests I get the kids to help me look for wood, and I think that's a good idea and go up the hill. I see some pretty flowers on the hill, and i stop to admire them. There's a rose like flower that's got pink on the ends of the petals, and a creamy pale orange color in the center. The petals fall off when I touch it though. So I move on to the next flower, a pretty purple flower that's shaped like a daylily, but it has yellow and white streaks running up and down the petals. I think to myself I should take a picture with my phone, but then realize that'd be silly because it won't come out of the dream into waking life. That's when I stop and say, "That's right! I'm in a lucid dream! I can't let the dream suck me in!" And then I'm lucid No need to reality check, I just KNOW. At first I think I'm going to go inside the cabin and try to walk through the wall to find Kurasawa. Then I stop myself and remind myself that I want to practice my dream control because once I'm good at controlling my dreams I'll not struggle so much to find Kurasawa. It's better to practice I think, than waste dream after dream chasing after him and having my efforts be blocked by my lack of control. So I think back on my goals, and remember that the small goal I've set for myself and been reminding myself of before sleeping at night is to grow cat ears and a tail. So I Imagine that I have ears and a tail and I can feel them. I never physically touched them to be sure they were there, but I just KNEW they were... and I swished my tail a few times and felt the wind whip around it so I am very sure I succeeded. Then I remember the guy who looks like Johnny Depp inside, and the whole thing with getting the kids to find wood. So I walk inside and start telling all the little DC kids to go gather wood with their dads so I can transmute it like Edward Elric. The kids all run out the door to do as I asked, and I make my way into the room with all the beds and sleeping bags where the Johnny Depp guy is. He doesn't look like Johnny Depp anymore, he's short and hefty with glasses, and now looks very Asian. Time to practice more control! I close my eyes and imagine him looking like Johnny Depp and being a head taller than me. Suddenly I feel his hand on my back, and he dips me back and starts kissing me, then making out with me. My eyes are still closed though, lol. Then he starts scraping his tongue against my teeth and drooling in my mouth. YUCK! I push him off me, and he looks like Johnny Depp alright, but he's totally dumb and still sticking his tongue in and out of his mouth like he's still kissing me. I think to myself Dream Characters really ARE stupid, I'm not doing this again. Then my phone goes off and wakes me up!

I'm going back to bed in a bit as it's only 5 am and I usually sleep until sometime between 10 and noon, but I just woke from a dream I wanted to write down asap!

Dream One (Fragment): Pictures of water parks are flashing before me and I am to choose which one I want to go to. Rules and times are being explained for each.

Dreams 2+: The earliest point I can remember I am standing with my kids behind me, my husband to my left, and a woman in a pencil skirt in front of me to my right. We're in a room with white walls, a pale blue office building style carpet, and double glass doors in front of us. We're preparing for an attack. A Buzzer sounds, and suddenly I see Dinosaurs running through the building. A T-Rex is the first to head our way. I start shooting at it through the double glass doors with my gun that fires like the Fammas I use in COD Black Ops. I nearly empty my clip on the damn thing before it finally goes down. My little boy is super curious about what's going on, and he starts to move forwards in front of me, I yell at him to stand back, just as a bunch of raptors come running in. I empty my clip on two of them, my husband takes one down and the lady takes one down. Another one gets past us though and gets my daughter. I panic for a split second, then think I might be able to find some sort of way to heal her if I move through the building. I start walking forwards, and this anime like chic with lavender hair and a white jump suit (think Rei from Evangellion (spelled?)) hands me a set of tweezers. Somehow, this sparks lucidity! I tell myself I'm just dreaming, so I'm going to pretend that these tweezers are some sort of medical secret weapon that can cure anything! Another T-Rex comes up some stairs towards me. I empty my clip on him, and breifly panic because I don't know how to change the clip in the gun or even if I have a spare! I try to calm down and tell myself again, this is a dream, all I have to do is pretend! I pull on the bottom handle of the gun, and this is apparently the clip. It slides out, and I pop it back in and tell myself that reloaded it. It worked like a charm Then a dino with a hard rounded head starts charging up the stairs. I try firing at it, but it closes it's eyes and it's skin and head are too hard to pierce with bullets! I retreat back to the room with my kids and husband, and hand the tweezers to the lady who is in there. She picks up my daughter and rushes her deeper into the room we were in away from the Dinos to miraculously cure her. My son decides to be a pain in the ass, and keeps moving in front of me and I am so scared he's going to be dino lunch. I tell him that if he doesn't get his butt behind me on the count of three, I'm going to drop this gun and spank his butt! Then I count, he cries on 1 and 2, but then scurries behind me just as I say three. Another one of the dinos with the hard skin and head comes charging in. I'm firing at him, but his eyes are closed. I empty my clip in him, as does my husband. I'm thinking this is the end while I reload my gun again, but it opens it's eyes at the last second and I shoot it's eyeballs to bits and it falls over dead. I decide I'm tired of this crap, and I'm out of here! I try to use the gun to cut a hole in the wall like in they do floors in the movies, but apparently the gun has lost it's bullets and is now firing paint balls. Fuck. I use the gun as a ram then and just bust a hole in the wall and tell myself that when I climb through that hole I'll come out at home. I come through at home, and my kids follow me. I tell them to go to the kitchen with Daddy, but they want to follow me and won't go! I want to find Kurasawa though, and I really don't want them around for that, so I run down the hall and lock myself in the bathroom, ha ha. I take the gun and break another hole in the wall. At first all I feel through the hole is ivy like I'm going outside into some sort of garden. I step back and take a moment to tell myself, "When I step through that hole, I'm going to come out in Kurasawa's dream. Not his house or a garden, but in his dream." I start through the hole again. I'm immediately overwhelmed by a strong but good manly smell. Like a whole bunch of mens scented soaps and body sprays all mixed together. The air is comfortable and warm, not cold or uneasy if that makes any sense. I know I've done it, I'm somehow Where I wanted to be. The carpets are dark blue, there's some blue green chairs and a couch, also the walls are a tan color and it looks like I'm in a trailer. I turn right because it looks like I'm on the far left end of this place. There's a kitchen where a couple of guys are goofing off getting beers, pouring shots, and eating/throwing food. They look college aged. They turn to look at me, and one of them asks who I am, I tell him I'm looking for Kurasawa and he just accepts this and they ignore me, lol. I walk down the hall by the kitchen, and walk into the first room on my left. As soon as I step in, I can just feel him there. There are a couple of twin beds, and I see him on the one farthest from me, laying down reading a magazine. I rush over towards him as fast as I can, and he sits up startled. He reaches out towards me and grabs my waist to pull me closer for a hug. A PSP game falls off the bed, and I notice there's a phone number written on it that starts with 718. I try to hug Kurasawa back but I end up getting too excited and wake up.

No worries though, I keep my eyes closed and I try to re imagine my trip through the wall into the living room and then down the hall to Kurasawa.It works and I fall asleep right back into the dream. This time he laughs and tells me welcome back. I smile at him, but refuse to get close enough to touch him, and tell him that I need to be detached from the situation or I'm going to wake up again! Then I remember the PSP game that fell to the floor. I pick it up and start to look at it again. It's bright orange and has a silhouette of a child carrying an umbrella on it. the numbers are now ***, the first three digits of my own area code. This reminds me that I wanted to ask Kurasawa where he is. I ask him if we're in Hic town (the nickname for what passes for a city in my county, lol) He says no, we're actually closer to C (a big city about an hour away) Then he reaches out for me again, and pulls me onto the bed so I'm straddling his legs. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me close before laying back so that now I'm laying on top of him. This embarrasses me a bit and I end up Blushing which is pretty out of character for me and the first sign that I am losing lucidity. A girl walks into the room, She's the girl friend of one of the guys in the kitchen. The guy is following her. He has long black hair half down his back, and he's topless. He's talking, but he doesn't sound very smart and also sounds kind of brutish as if he doesn't care about anyone elses opinions or thoughts and thinks he's always right. Kurasawa sits up, nearly knocking me off him in the process, and tells me he wants to show me something.He slides his legs out from under me, careful not to let me fall, the takes my hand and starts pulling me to the hallway. We make it out into the hallways, and he opens his front door. I'm astounded. It looks like there's a river right outside his door. Like you'd have to get in a boat to step out the front door! I'm marveling over this and how I didn't know such a place existed so nearby. He laughs, and so do the guys in the kitchen, so I turn to look at them and see whats so funny. He tells me it's just a parking lot, nothing amazing about it. I try to explain what I'm seeing, a river, and he tells me it's been raining for a few days (it really has in my area, lol) and that the parking lot just has some standing water in it, no big deal. When I turn again to look I see a parking lot with an inch or so of water sitting in big puddles here and there and not the river I saw before. I briefly wonder if the difference was in my perception and remember the shared dreams that were posted in a "to the moon!" thread and how they would be different in little ways but still obviously shared dreams. I brush off this thought though, and don't regain my lucidity. Kurasawa takes me across the parking lot and through a couple of decorative trees, onto a little black metal gazebo. From there I can see the lake. I realize now that we're on the lake, and wonder which lake it is as there are two in the area he claims we're in. I randomly want to show my BFF, so we walk back intot he parking lot, and I hear one of the guys ask where someone is. The reply is that he's at the LT Office and I think he must work with my husband. Then I ask Kurasawa to take me back to look at the water because I don't want to remember life right now. So he takes me back, but this time on the way we pass a bush covered in Ivy and I recall the ivy the first time I tried to climb though into his place (dream? house? world? lol) then a few steps later and we pass a bronze statue of a cartoony man who's caught a cartoonish catfish. The fish part is a fountain though and is spitting water. Back on the gazebo, Kurasawa puts an arm on my waist pulling me close to him and the other arm on my head to hold me against his chest and the dream fades out as I watch the tiny waves rippling across the water.

Dreams from after going back to bed

Dream 1, 2, and 3 (fragments) I dream of purchasing several pony figurines in the Alicorn shape like princess Celestia. One was a green pony, one was an orange pony, and one was a pink and purple pony. It so weird because they were all three pretty much the same dream of driving up to a yard sale and finding this pony, the only difference was the color of the pony in each dream.

Dream 4 (Fragment): I was in a long and drawn out battle against some sort of shadowy demon like creature. I don't know how the fights started, but there were there rounds. The thing would press it's self into a flat black shadow and float around on the ground and then hoover in the sky. It would pop up to rush at me, or spit acid at me or shoot little disk shaped shadow balls at me. I was armed with a dagger and a steak knife of all things, so I didn't have much to work with. I could also tense my entire body up and growl out like an anime character "RAWR!" any my skin would crystallize for a quick moment so the monsters acid and attacks would have no effect on me (that's gotta be from reading Deadman Wonderland yesterday). I would leap on the demon and sink my knives into it then swish them around and cut it into think slices over and over again, but it kept regenerating. Still, somehow I managed to win all three rounds and at the end of the third it disappeared into a screaming cloud of ash. I remember thinking the whole time that it was just playing with me because it should have been harder to beat than it was and it should have attacked more. Also there were points where it didn't attack at all, just threw pictures of anime at me, lol.

Dream 5: I was talking to a guy with tan skin and long dark hair in a button up shirt and dress pants. He was sipping coffee and telling me something about how he almost went too far, but thought it would be too cruel a punishment? He really seemed like the nice almost hippie peace loving guy who would bury himself in books, not the kind of person who would punish others or do something that might even be remotely cruel. I think he also said something about looking through yearbooks to find past students.

Dream 6: My husband is playing Call of Duty with a friend of mine that my husband doesn't get along with in real life. I'm trying to talk to that friend at the same time on a set of head phones. He's saying he hasn't gotten any pictures of me since high school seven year ago, and wants a picture. I tell him I have tons on my facebook, but he wants one he doesn't have to get online to see. I tell him that next time he sees me he should just take a picture then. He wants to know when he'll see me again, and I tell him at exams tomorrow... and for some reason my dream self seems to think I'm back in high school and have end of semester testing the next day. He laughs and says the match is over, can't he just swing by now? I say sure, and he walks in. My husband is hungry and goes to the kitchen, so my friend and I sit down on the floor to hang out. Some how he ends up getting sad, so I try to hug him to comfort him, and he ends up latching onto me and laying me down and just holding me like I'm a stuffed animal he's sleeping with or something. This startles me awake and even though I haven't seem him in over a year I feel really awkward, lol.

I'm walking on the street to some sort of ball or festival dance or something. My best friend is with me. I notice that all the girls around us are wearing long pretty dresses, but my BFF is wearing dress pants and I'm wearing a mini skirt and tank top. We don't fit in at all. To make it even more obvious that we don't fit in, all the other girls are wearing these bright neon pins in the shapes of butterflies and dragon flies on big bows. I decide I want one of those pins because the tank top I'm wearing is white with neon colored butterflies. I Pull my BFF to this little store beside the road where I think I can buy them. The store is up on a hill, so we had to walk up the driveway/parking lot to get to it. I walk in and start holding bows with butterflies up to my dress to see how they look. I settle on a pretty pink one, and then discover that it's not a pin, but a hair bow on a clip. At first I try to clip it to my spaghetti strap, but then I decide to put it in my hair where it belongs. I turn around and there's a long mirror behind us so I start trying to put it in my hair. I start marveling over how pretty and long my hair is. It's straight and halfway down my back. In real life my hair is short and very naturally curly, when it's as long as half down my back it curls so much that it barely grazes my shoulder. Anyways, I start wondering why I didn't grow my hair out this long sooner, then I remember that I've been trying to grow my hair out. It's just that my hair doesn't grow that fast! This has to be a dream! I immediately drop the hair bow and walk out the door. My bff follows me and asks what's wrong. I tell her I'm dreaming, and I'm lucid right now! I tell her to call Kurasawa for me and tell him to meet me in a little gypsy like tent nearby that looks like something a palm reader would be working out of. Then I walk off and leave her b/c dream character Ambies isn't the real thing and I didn't want to waste my time with her. I walk over to the tent, and find that it's got a fire inside of it, and it's not really a tent at all, but some sort of decorative fireplace that only looked like a tent from the distance. I feel kind of disappointed, but there's a building nearby and I think I can go in there to wait. At this point I lose my lucidity though I see my husband inside and he wants me to go somewhere or do something, and I tell him I can't because I'm waiting for Kurasawa. He gets all mad and jealous about the fact that I'm waiting for some other guy, and then I can't remember the rest of what happened.

Yay for lucidity though! lol I'm noticing I can't stand being inside when I find that I'm lucid. I guess since that second lucid I had where I was trapped inside and couldn't open doors because I was afraid they would be locked. Now I feel like every time I'm lucid I have to go outside to do anything, or else I'll be trapped inside in a "normal" world. Every lucid I've had in the last month has been like, "Yay! I'm dreaming!" *walk to the door* I might make it a goal to stay INSIDE during a lucid to break that habit and train myself to be comfortable with my lucidity where ever I am.

Woo Hoo, a lucid last night Even though I've probably had like 15 of these in the last four months, the magic never wears off!

Dream One: I'm securing a robot into a space ship. The robot isn't very happy about this, but he understands that he has done something wrong and this is the punishment by law not my choice. I'm sad because this robot is my friend and I don't want to send him away. He starts talking about how lonely he will be and how bored he will be with nothing to do but star at an empty space ship.Then, that when his punishment is over, no one he knows will still be left on earth. I want to do whatever I can to lesson his pain, so I go grab all of my favorite books. I bring them back to him and tell the robot that These are my favorite books. I'm sorry I have to send him off, but I hope that when he reads them he knows that back on earth we love and miss him. Then my husband gets a phone call. Hoping it's a reprieve for the robot, I rush over to see what's going on. He tells me that Kanone (Spiral the melody of logic, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-GaR...eature=related ) is in trouble and needs help, but no one knows where he is. I realize the robot probably knows where he is. So I go unbuckle the robot from it's space ship, and ask him if he knows where Kanone is. He says there are several places he could be, but he can check them all. I'm so grateful, and I tell him that if he does save someone, then his sins of accidentally killing someone will be nullified and he won't have to leave. I wake up. I can point out the origin of many of these elements. I watched the toonami April fools clips before bed, then read Star Wars The Clone Wars Secret Missions bk2 to the kids before bed... that's got to be where the robot and space ship came from. As for Kanone, Well Spiral sits on the book shelf over the foot of my bed, I see it (and all the Characters faces) every night before bed, lol. I think Kanone was the character to invade because he's my favorite :p

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm driving through the small town we live in.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm hanging out with a bunch of guys, and they're all either gay or bi. I'm watching them all flirt with each other and laughing because they are so much fun to hang out with and totally no pressure. But then one of the Bi one starts hitting on me, and I'm not too comfortable with it. He makes the comment that with my short hair I can style it and be a cute girl or I can just brush it and look like a cute guy, and that makes me extra fun. There's a car at some point and we're all piling into it. We were also comparing pictures on cell phones and I forgot I had porn on mine and they all saw it

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm in my room at the house I lived in as a teen. My aunt is there, and we're sitting on the floor looking at my cousin's pokemon cards that he was getting rid of. I decide I'm just going to go ahead and offer to buy all of them from the kid because I feel bad for him trying to save money for a PS3.

Dream Five (Lucid): I wake up in my bed. I slowly open my eyes, and just lay back and relax a bit longer, I always hate waking up and want to go back to sleep, lol. Then I notice I can hear something, so I roll over so I can see the foot of the bed. The TV is on. There is a commercial on for Pokemon Trading cards. I think that's weird and funny because I just had a dream about Pokemon cards, what a coincidence. Then I stop and think, wait, why is the TV on? I can't fall asleep with a TV on. Could this be a dream? Maybe someone turned the TV on... It feels really realistic... But then dreams often are so super real it's crazy. (The fact that the room is my OLD room from when I was a teenager and I don't even HAVE a TV in my room now didn't register) So I get up, and I start walking down the hallway. I think I need to reality check, so I try to plug my nose, I can still breathe. Then I question it, wait... am I pinching hard enough? Maybe I'm awake and I'm just not pinching hard enough. So I decide to try another one and count my fingers. I'm making it into the living room now and I'm counting on one hand, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven... then I start to move to the other hand and stop myself... seven? Seven fingers on one hand? Really? COOL! My grandma is sitting in a chair to my right, I turn to her and hold my hand out, "Check it out Grandma! I'm lucid dreaming! See? I have seven fingers!" She's a spoil sport and just says, "If you say so." I'm still doubting myself at this point too, thinking there's a small possibility that I might be awake (forgetting the fact I haven't lived in that house for seven years, lol.) But I decide I've done my reality checks and they failed, I just have to trust myself and DO SOMETHING. But I haven't had any lucids in so long, I can't even remember what my goals are and what I should do. So I decide that instead of trying anything big, I'm just going to try to get past my skepticism and take a risk. I walk to the front door and open it. Everything looks like it should (for that house). All the houses are in the right place as is the street. I feel really self conscious about the fact that I'm in a night gown still, but I tell myself this is a dream, it doesn't matter. I try to close my eyes and imagine myself in shorts and a t shirt. Doesn't work, so I just tell myself fuck it, it'll turn into a shirt and T shirt if I just keep moving and just assume that it is jeans and a T shirt. I walk out side, and down the front walk to the drive way. By this point my clothes are in fact jeans and a T shirt, just because I assumed they would be, yay! There are a couple of vans parked in the driveway. My cousins are in one, and my nephews in another, and my neighbors (from my current house) in yet another. Everyone is getting out of the vans like they're there for a visit. I wave, but don't want to quit moving and get sucked back into the dream scape. My aunt yells hello, so I yell hello back, then tell her, "Can't hang out yet, I'm in a lucid dream!" and she replies, "I know you are!" to which I laugh and say, "Of course you know, your just a dream character! You knew I was dreaming even before I did I bet!" (referring to seeing her in the previous dream) Then I make it to the road, start walking up it, and realize all my dream characters are following me. Even the neighbors in their yards are leaving to follow me.. Now that I'm awake I consider it pretty creepy having a 15+ dream character mob behind you, but in the dream I was like, "Oh, they're following me so we can do a musical number about the joys of lucid dreaming!" Suddenly I realize this is a good time to remind myself I'm dreaming, because I could way too easily get sucked back into the dream thinking about musical numbers, lol. I look up into the sky, now remembering that I am in fact dreaming. I see a flock of birds and I decide to try and shoot them with my fingers. I don't want to kill them or anything, just see if I can make them disappear because I've heard that you can make DCs disappear by pointing at them. I point at the birds. Nothing happens. I say, "Pow!" nothing happens. I consider doing the same to the DC in front of me, because they're all catching up now... but I reconsider, even if this is just a dream, I don't want to see any blood and gore if I mess up! So instead I briefly wonder if I need to stabilize, remembering that Ophelia had told me in the Lucid dreaming class that stabilizing might help my control. But then the only stabilizing method I can remember is the one where you crawl on the ground, and I really don't want to crawl on the road, lol. SO Instead I decide I'm going to try to make a Mcdonalds appear at the end of the road. I imagine a mcdonalds being there, but when I open my eyes what I get is a floating brown and yellow rounded cartoonish building (like this block set: http://img.auctiva.com/imgdata/4/0/5...3312892_tp.jpg ) and it has giant floating cookies for steps to climb to it. I start to climb, but then change my mind and turn back to the dream characters. I tell them, "I gotta go guys, I'm going to try and do something productive with this dream and I have a LOT of questions to ask someone." Then I grab the nearest DC, who happens to be a fat balding guy, and tell him, "Do me a favor when you leave ok? Tell Kurasawa I am Lucid and I need to talk to him. He can find me here at this McDonalds I just made." The dream character says, "Aight." then leaves (I'm in the south, everyone has a redneck accent, even me. Mines at least not as bad as most because people still refuse to believe that I am from here b/c according to them I have a "yankee" accent, but according to my friends up north my accent is most definitely southern, lol.) I start trying to climb the cookies, and it's just not working. They're wiggling and tipping too much. I get mad, and just reach up and grab the bottom of the door frame of this McDonalds and give it a good tug downwards. It falls to the ground, but suddenly looks like a kids play house. No way am I going to be able to fit in there, let alone me and Kurasawa. I grab the edges and start pulling and stretching it. I have to stretch it wide first, then I have to stretch the top to make it tall enough, then it's only like 6 inches deep, so I have to push on the back to stretch it out. There's no McDonalds furniture or people or cookware inside, and I'm annoyed. All that's in there is a little pink table with purple chairs and a regular white oven. I remember thinking that shiny white oven looks so out of place in this very pink and purple play house. That's about the time my kids woke me up.

Note to self, review Lucid goals at least twice a week from this point on, even if not Reality Checking on a daily bases b/c of being on vacation. Apparently it doesn't have to be the main thing on my brain for it to happen, lol.