Mydera

Last night was a bunch of random mess dreams because I took Nyquil before bed (my cold goes from being tolerable, to better, to bad... I can't wait for it to actually go away and stop faking me out!) The nyquill knocked me out so hard that I fell asleep trying to get my daughter to sleep, before I even put her in her bed. But, I managed to have my first ever lucid where I stayed int he dream long enough to control it and everything It was AWESOME!

Dream One: The earliest point of this dream I can remember I am at my great aunts house. She has a couple of shirts with butterflies on them and a matching pair of plaid shorts. She's giving them to me because she thought I'd like them. I really do love them and wonder how she had such good taste as older people usually don't pick out stuff younger people like very well. I get in my grandma's truck and we are on our way home. We pass a house that has some sort of plastic fence like structure and Grandma asks me about it. I explain it's to keep the kids in the yard without having to worry about small critters and nosy neighbors bothering them. I briefly think I'd love to have something like that so I could keep the neighborhood kids out of our yard and keep my kids from seeing them and wanting to play with them. Then Grandma starts talking about her old house, the one I grew up in that she had to sell back in 2007. She starts saying that it was the house my grandfather built (I know he designed it, and it was their dream home, but she was only able to buy it after he died and she used his life insurance to buy it) and she was saying that if the people who bought it ever wanted to demolish it she wouldn't stand for it. She says this several times before I wake up. It's dark when I wake up and I am so sleepy I fall immediately back to sleep without noticing my daughter is still in the bed with me.

Dream Two: In this dream I am a teacher at a school for special needs children. I am trying to get a little girl to sleep (the little girl is a special needs child I grew up with at my school. She tried to hug me once, and ended up knocking me down and breaking my arm. I was always a bit nervous around her after that, sort of scared I'd get hurt again. In the dream though I'm much bigger and she's still small so I'm not afraid of her) Me and another teacher are trying to get her to sleep, but she keeps wiggling and moving. The other teacher tells me that she's already given the girl two milligrams of Mirror Mist (whatever that is? At least my dream made up a pretty name, lol) and that if she doesn't go to sleep soon we'll have to give her something else. Then I wake up and realize that my daughter is asleep in my bed and the wiggling and kicking I felt was my daughter wiggling and kicking me because she didn't have enough room to sprawl out wedged between my husband and me. I put her in her bed, so throws her arms and legs out taking up the whole bed, and doesn't make anymore noise the rest of the night

Dream Three: I'm in a cab with a guy, I think to myself he reminds me of the architect guy in how I met your mother, and it's been a few years since I've seen that show. I don't know who he is, but he acts like my friend so I play along. We get out of the cab and we're at a bar. When we walk in everyone looks right at us. The place is dark and there are multicolored lights flying all over the place like a dance club or something. I notice the music playing is Sailor Moon! And I'm wearing a sailor moon back pack! Awesome, no wonder everyone is staring at me. I'm either the coolest person in this place, or the lamest. We make our way to a seat in the back of the club, and there's a little girl with pink hair there. I say hey to her like I know her, and she starts saying she wants to wear a costume too, and points to a stage. Suddenly the bar is actually an amphitheater, and it's located at the lake in front of my dad's family's cabin. I tell the little girl to shhh, that we are wearing costumes, normal people costumes. I tell her this is a disguise so people won't know she's really a sailor scout! She seems happy with this response, and I realize she's Rini, Sailor Mini Moon! (Sorry peeps, I grew up on the dubs, never saw the subs!) Then the little girl starts to go bug a girl a few chairs over. She wants a drink, and the girl is saying she'll get it, but Rini wants to get it herself. The girl gets mad and tells Rini she's impossible, then I call to Rini and tell her she should ask me for a drink and wink to her hoping she'll get the idea that I will let her do it herself. She comes back over, but before I get her a drink Sailor moon calls from the stage that there is a demon at this concert! Then she calls to Rini asking her if she wants to exercise it. Rini says no, she is thirsty and needs a drink, but sailor moon isn't paying attention because she just goes on saying, "You don't want to do it because you are the demon! I'm going to sing a beautiful song to exercise you!" and then she sings a song. I remember thinking in the dream that the song was so pretty, and I grab hands with the guys sitting beside me. The guy on my left is my husband and he squeezes my hand, and i in response squeeze the hand in my left. I turn to see who it is, and its someone I don't know, but he reminds me of this Cherokee guy I had a crush on in high school. He smiles weakly at me, and I feel sad for him. I turn to look behind us because I see some flashes of color. There are several native american looking guys dressed in nothing but body paint walking behind us into a large gate. I get the feeling that behind the gate is some sort of promised land, or some place special to these people. The guy follows my gaze and looks at the gate longingly. I squeeze his hand and bring my face to his ear and whisper to him "you'll get there some day, I know you will!" A tear falls from his eyes and he says thank you, he hopes so. Then the song is over, and my husband isn't happy my face is so close to another man. I try to play it off, and the whole crowd starts lineing up. Suddenly I'm part of a class, and my husband and the other guy who was holding my hand are fighting. The teacher yells at them, "All right, the two of you are going to jail! This is the last time your going to fight like this!" Then I wake up again.

Dream Four (LUCID!): I'm in the car with my husband. I think we're going to a store. Instead, we end up at a house with an old man. We get out of the car, and my husband is carrying a box, telling me he has to drop this off. The old man lets us inside, and my husband gives him the box. The old man opens the box, and inside it are my kids favorite DVDs. My husband is saying these are movies we don't want anymore and that he hopes the old man's grand kids will enjoy them. I get mad and tell my husband those are the kids favorite DVDs, how dare he give them away without consulting me first, because I would never have allowed it in the first place! Then I storm out of the room and outside. Somehow, as I'm storming off into the woods, I realize wait, am I dreaming? I stop in the middle of the road, and think to myself, this has to be a dream. I don't remember how we got in the car, the kids aren't with us, this must be a dream! I decide to test it out and run through the woods. When I run the woods fly by me like a tunnel or like the flying stars screen saver from the computer I had as a kid. It's awesome. I stop, and decide this is a dream, so I'm going to look for K. Then I think to myself, before I do, I'm going to go back to that house, see what I look like, and try to dress nice and tell my husband off while I'm at it! I run back through the woods again, getting that tunnel vision woods again. I notice the trees look black, and the background looks brown, similar to a note book I have. It's really cool. I stop and I'm in front of the house again. There's a tricycle in the yard against the house. Thinking I'm going to test this dream thing one more time to be sure, I push the trike against the wall thinking to myself, "It's going to go right through the wall as long as I believe it will." And it does! It gives me a bit of resistance when there's only an inch or two of the seat left to pass through the wall, but i give it a good push and it completely disappears into the wall. SO FREAKING AWESOME! Then I remember I'm mad. I storm inside and find my husband sitting in a recliner chair, and I walk right up to him and tell him, "Your just a dream. I don't have to put up with your crap right now! I'm not even going to bother fussing at you for giving away those dvds because you're not worth it. Instead, I'm going to dress up and go find someone who makes me happy in my dreams!" I then try to concentrate on changing my clothes. I can't seem to do it. It feels like my bandana is different, but I can't change my shirt and pants. I look in a mirror. I'm wearing a blue checkered print shirt that has puffy sleeves and the front is all sewn with elastic (i think the term is smocked?) so it's clingy but stretchy. The shirt doesn't cover my stretch marks and that bugs me, I try again to put on my favorite black dress that also has smocking but as it's a dress it doesn't show any belly! No luck, so I'm just like, fuck it, it's a dream, no biggie if I look weird. I'm sure I've worn even weirder in my dreams. I walk over to the telephone, it's one of the old kin that you set the receiver in little hooks above the rounded square phone. Luckily the numbers are buttons not rotary! I pick it up. I want to call K, so I wonder how I can. I decide I'll just press the numbers that correspond with the letters in his name. Oddly enough, it's actually the right number of digits in real life. The phone rings, and then I hear him say, "Hello?" I say, "Hey it's me!" he sounds confused for a minute, "Who? Wait, M...? B is that you?!" (note here, my real name starts with an M, but I go by a shortened version of my middle name, which is why dream peeps always refer to me as B ) I excitedly reply, "Yes! I'm lucid! I'm actually lucid dreaming right now! Can I come visit you?" his voice on the other line says, "Sure! I'd love to see you!" I'm thrilled. Then I realize, I'm not exactly sure how to get there, so I ask the telephone, "Hey wait, can you like come and get me or something? I don't know how to get there!" There's silence. The phone is dead. I start to think he probably doesn't have a car and can't come get me. The I realize this is a dream, why would he need a car? I hang up the phone, and then decide to walk outside and try to figure something out. I start to walk, and remember that supposedly you can make someone or something appear in a dream if you expect it to be around the next corner or something. So I decide to try and give it a shot. The trees become a wall, but then I realize that all the trees are walls, so I am suddenly in an endless hallway. Crap, how can I reach a corner if the hallway is endless?! Then I remember the trike, and think, "what if I walk through the wall expecting his house to be on the other side?" It's worth a shot, so I start to put my hand through the hall first, not wanting to faceplant in it. It's like the mirror scene in the matrix at first, the wall wobbles in round circles like thick gooey water. It looks weird because the walls are yellow and brown pin stripped wall paper, really ugly, lol. Then I step right through it and I'm standing in a kitchen. It's got linoleum floors made to look like tile, but obviously fake. Theres a stove and fridge and sink on the wall I just walked through, then in the middle of the room is a table with three chairs facing a tv on the far right wall. I see a guy sitting at the table. My first thought is it's no K. I just don't get that feeling that it's him. Something seems off. But I notice my hands are filthy, they've got wall paper goop on them still even thought it's not anywhere on the rest of me. The guy says hey, and i say hey back. I walk to the Sink and see no hand soap, but there is some green dish detergent so I decide to use that to wash my hands. I notice then that his hair is much, MUCH shorter than it should be. I ask him as I wash my hands, "why's your hair so short?" He responds without looking at me, just staring at the TV, "it's easier for spying." My dream self knows this make sense, if your a spy you want to be as unmemorable as possible. I don't recall him being a spy though. I dry my hands and go to look at him once more. I notice his hair has turned bright pink! My jaw drops for a second, then I remind myself this is a dream, and something's definitely not right here. I walk over to the chair he's sitting in and I as K if he knows this is a dream. He says yes. I ask him if he is lucid. He says no. He doesn't even look at me, just stares at the TV. I'm really frustrated because I think I walked through that wall expecting to find K, so he should be K, but he isn't. He doesn't feel like him, he doesn't look like him, he doesn't act like him. WHat did I do wrong? Then I think maybe it is K, but because it's a dream I've got to get through to him to wake him up or something. I decide to straddle him in the chair, that'll get his attention. No luck. I grab his face with my hands and pull it up to look at me and not the TV. He has a blank look like he's looking right through me. The chair suddenly has rollers and he rolls the chair towards the tv. Frustrated, I lean backwards so my head is upside down and I can see what he's looking at. It's the stupid TV! I close my eyes tightly because I'm getting so frustrated. I wanted to get lucid so I could get some answers from K, but I'm getting no where even though I'm supposed to be in control. Suddenly I lose everything. I 'm no longer in the chair, I'm just seeing black and swirling colors. I realize I'm awake just seeing swirling colors of my eyes closed. Damn. But wow! That was an amazing experience. I can not wait for my next lucid! I'm going to try not to waste it looking for K and answers, but instead see what other cool things I can do. I feel so bold and empowered in the dream, like it didn't matter what I said so I could tell anyone exactly how I felt and do whatever I wanted. And, I was totally blown away by how real it all felt. I really felt like I was awake, even though I knew I was dreaming, everything was so real. Enough random squeals of how awesome this was, I'm sure most peeps on this sight are past that sense of wonderment. Last time I'll say it, this was awesome