lucid

It has been a long time since I have had any lucid dreams.

Last night / this morning I was having a dream and woke up. I decided to do a reality check so I looked at the clock and noted the time. I then looked away, looked back and the time was way off. I did it a third time to see a different number and I realized I was dreaming.

I remember the false awakening was so realistic. I tried to reason with myself that it was so realistic I must be awake. Not sure why I remembered to do the reality check but glad I did.

I don't think the lucid dream part lasted very long. I remember vague parts of it like trying to jump up in the air and fly but it didn't work. I also remember entering a room and trying to create people. I was successful to a degree.... I don't remember the people having detail like faces, they were more like mannequins.

I also remember tying to "Spin" to keep myself in the lucid dream. I believe I was successful.

So I haven't been sleeping well lately. I also have not been having LD's for a while.

I had two very brief ones over the course of the last week. I wrote about one already. The next day I also had a very brief one.

I went to bed about 3-4 am and couldn't sleep. I stared into the blackness and tried to get some visuals going.

After a few hours of nothing I began to see bright colors, vivid techni-colors like walls. I imagined it like a tunnel and tried to create an opening like a circle at the other end.

I could see through the tunnel and on the other end was my dream space. I had been thinking earlier in the night about dreaming I was in Florida by the pool.

There it was right through the color tunnel. I managed to reach it and could feel myself split between my physical body and dream body. I was by the pool and in bed.

It switched over to me just being by the pool. I was very excited. The dream wasn't fully formed. Everything was blank or unfinished. I remember jumping into the pool of water then going over to the side of the pool and picturing a girl there.

She was there but she had no features. No face, just a blank body. I remember reaching over to her to bring her closer to me and the dream started to fade and then my consciousness slipped fully back into my body.

As I lied in bed sleepless I began to slip off into small patches of sleep and wake back up again. At first I didn't notice but I began to recall having dreams. They weren't long. I must have been falling asleep for short periods of time like 5-15 mins tops then waking back up again.

I tried to focus on the blackness and tried to "spin" my vision. Like a mini-galaxy I spun what little white there was around and around. It is a little hazy what happened next but I think I opened another "portal" and entered a LD state.

I recall getting out of bed and walking up the stairs on the inside of my house. I know it was my house because as I walked up to the third floor I looked at the wall and saw there was no window. In my house there are two windows there and I saw they were absent. I remembered realizing it was SUPPOSED to be there. I was forming the dream around me and just had not added the windows.

I walked into the third floor apt looking for people but no one was there and once again the place was not "fully formed yet". The place was being "built" around me.

I don't recall much else except the fact that the LD wasn't very long and it faded away like the other.

I sent my daughter off to school then laid back down to try to get some sleep but it still wouldnt come.

Eventually I started to drift off into very small periods of sleep again (only a few minutes each) however they were semi-lucid dreams. I was lucid to a certain degree and only had control over my own actions, not the environment.

I must have had about 10 of these mini segmented LDs before I finally just got out of bed.

It has been a long time since I have had a LD. This morning I had several.

I wish I had taken the time to write them down because I can't recall them very well anymore.

I was dreaming about something absurd and unrealistic. I woke up briefly at around 7:30 am and was very frustrated. I remember thinking how bizarre the dream was and how sad it was that I couldn't realize it was a dream while I was dreaming it.

I was dreaming that I was part of a football team. We were a professional team but we were stuck playing at a really small local school field. It was upsetting me that we were there. The dream shifted into something else and I think I was doing road maintenance??? That is when I woke up frustrated.


I then went back to sleep.

I re-entered the dream and then I remember questioning the situation and I believe I did a reality check. I realized I was dreaming.

I was dreaming that I was part of a football team. We were a professional team but we were stuck playing at a really small local school field. It was upsetting me that we were there. The dream shifted into something else and I think I was doing road maintenance??? That is when I woke up frustrated.

I was very lightly sleeping at this point. I remember trying to fly however I couldn't fly very high, I was more hovering over the ground.

I did not have any control over the environment and could not create the world around me. However I was aware I was dreaming and everything was very realistic.

I remember a few different occasions I got overly excited about the fact I was have a LD but for the first time ever I remembered to SPIN!!!!

I started to wake up and felt myself in both my bed and in the dream state. But I kept thinking "SPIN SPIN SPIN SPIN SPIN" and my dream body spun faster and faster and faster.... and eventually I was back dreaming again!!!

Very excited about this as it was not only a first time having this happen but it happened several times during my LD this am.

One time was odd. I remember starting to wake up and things became like static on an old tv. I was between worlds and kept thinking SPIN SPIN SPIN SPIN and when I was back in the dream state... It was all static.

It weirded me out so I woke my body up to make sure I could still wake up... Did so and then fell back asleep.

This was all very low level LD states. It was a very light sleep and the LD and dream states slipped away several times. However the landmark of me remembering to "SPIN" is great.

If I can recall what I was dreaming about I will add to this later. I just recall trying to "Fly" on a few occasions but barely getting any lift and floating around more than anything else.

I had a very odd LD situation happen this morning.

My daughter leaves for school around 7 am so I am up at that point but then fell back asleep. I have tenants that decided to move out this morning so they woke me up again and again and again after that.

At some point I fell back asleep, realized I was dreaming, got very excited and tried to interact with someone in my dream and woke up.

But then I remember lying in bed and something didn't feel right. So I do what I have been trying to train myself to do... see if I could fall out of bed like fluid. I remember feeling like I was moving but not really... then I slid out of bed, hit the floor and when it didn't hurt I realized I was still sleeping and stood right up.

I do what I always tend to do in this situation, I flew up through my ceiling and tried to enter the second floor of my house. I remember having to rip through something and made it to the second floor but I woke right up.

I fell back asleep and had a very odd non lucid dream where I was second in charge of this company. (I watched horrible bosses a few days back and think I was incorporating part of that.) It was actually a really great dream and I remember waking up because I had to go to the bathroom and muttering, "No... damn it. Why did that have to be a dream?"

I used the bathroom, laid back down, put in ear plugs and tried to fall back asleep but never did.

I figured I would log it in because I promised myself I would keep track of them all no matter how short they are.

I had a friend stay over last night so I wasn't really expecting to have anything interesting to journal today. However once I was alone I decided to lay down and give try to fall back asleep.

I put on a movie and lay in bed and slowly I started to drift off.

What happened then was a complete surprise. My bod started to slowly tingle. I don't remember if it ever began to vibrate.

I started to feel myself turning in my bed to weird angles and positions. It felt completely "normal" at first but then I decided to try "waking myself up" and seeing what happened. To my surprise I woke myself up and realized I had been in a very light sleep and dreaming of myself turning.

I fell back asleep and began turning and shifting positions until I basically melted off the bed and onto the floor. I remember thinking how it should have hurt hitting the floor and that the angle I was positioned in was awkward and too tight a space. I should not have been able to fit in there and it should have hurt badly.

I realized I was dreaming and struggled to stay asleep but was successful. I remember my eyes were closed and was afraid if I opened them I would wake myself up.

I slightly opened them to find myself up against the wall near a window in my room looking down on my bed. I was still asleep. I tried to see if I could see myself sleeping but remember it was very blurry.

I floated up the wall and plunged up into the ceiling and into the second floor of my house. I remember it was "blank" and I defined the area of what it should look like as I walked around.

Looking at the color of the paint on the walls told me that I was in the past because the color is different now. So I focused on the paint colors and the walls changed to various different colors until they settled on what I recalled the colors should currently be.

I noticed that the second floor had no people and no furniture. It was empty. In real life there are people living there and it is fully furnished.

I walked around the apt. for a while and don't recall exactly what happened next.

I remember waking up and falling back asleep several times but I was fully confident that I would return to my lucid state.

Next thing I can remember I was floating outside of my house however it was the house I grew up in during childhood. There were no people, just houses.

It felt so intense. I felt so connected to everything. I remember seeing a person at that time and I said two things to him.

1. "I realize that I will never be any more than I already am"
2. - I can't recall the exact words but it had something to do with me being connected to everything. I think the idea was that I was already more than just one person.

I rose up in the air floating / flying and laughed as I realized I had full control over the world around me. The feeling was so intense that I remember fearing I would become crazy and possibly lost in this world. (I think this realization and validation through a person in my dream state shot me into a level four dream)

I don't recall if I actually woke myself up to make sure that I could or not. I may have but it was only for a moment and I was right back in the same situation flying. If I did or not, something reassured me that I would be ok and I continued my dreaming.

I flew up into the air and decided to fly to the moon. I remember seeing it small and ahead of me and as I approached it grew no bigger. It was the size of a small asteroid. I knew this wasn't correct so I tried to change it's shape to what I knew the moon was supposed to look like. I tried to give it craters and increase it's size.

I don't think I was fully successful. I remember looking around and seeing dot's all over the place, I suppose they were stars.

It reminded me of my "sandbox mode" dreams that I had yesterday. Except things were "real" not made of color. I was trying to create the world around me as I went and was doing a better job of it... but not hitting the mark exactly.

I woke up and ended up falling back asleep into a regular dream. I was in a mall area with my family. I recall trying to buy some things at the register but something rang in at the wrong price. I complained to the cashier and we looked at the prices on the register tape. The prices were ambiguous. We couldn't tell.

The cashier went to get the manager and he came over and refused to do anything about it because he was literally about to go on vacation THAT MOMENT. SO he walked off and left.

I remember being angry and telling him I would be calling to complain to the people who ran the place and I made sure he knew my name.

I went out in the parking lot full of cars and it occurred to me that I could fly. I remember just lifting up and flying around the parking lot. Landing and flying around some more.

I think I was lucid at this point but it faded in and out. The next thing I remember was seeing a huge amusement park in the parking lot. With a crazy big huge gigantically large roller coaster. It was so abnormally large, towering up into the sky, that there was no way I was going to get onto it.

I think my mother told me at that point it was closed and I felt some relief that it wasn't an option.


The lucid portions of my dreams were so intense. I feel like it was "part two - intermediate level" from my dream yesterday. These are a brand new type of lucid dreams. Ones where I am creating the world from my imagination rather than them appearing already fully developed.

I watched some videos last night on the five stages of lucid dreams and I am quite sure this had an influence on my dreams. He talked about touring space and alien planets. It never occurred to me before that I could fly myself up into space.

Based on the level theory he presents I have a vague idea of what may be happening.

Yesterday, I was not sure if what I was experiencing was an OOBE because of how different it was.

But now I believe what may be happening is I am jumping right into "Level Four" lucid dreams and encountering a "blank slate" situation. This would explain why I am entering a dream state that seems empty and why I have to create the environment around me ahead of time.

Waking up and falling back asleep into normal dreams where I attain lucidity by realize I am dreaming, brings me back into a lower level lucid dream where the environment is already established and I am able to move around in it.

Then that lucidity eventually brings me back to a level 4 LD where I flew into space and created the moon and stars myself.

This makes sense because of my conversation with that person. It validated that I was in a LD and it pushed me into the next level. I remember feeling so intense that I may be going crazy. This is similar to "breaking through" where the last time I did it I reached a level four dream state also.

Totally amazing. The entire experience was from approx 10 am to 12 pm noon.

So I figured it's 11 am, perfect time to lay back down and re-try to enter a LD state. After the weird ones i Had earlier today... what the hell.

Laid down, shut my eyes and nothing happened for a while. Then I found myself standing in the middle of what I assumed was "my room" and couldn't remember getting up. So I remember thinking, "I'm dreaming" do something, jump! I did but didn't float. So I said fuck it and just threw myself into the air like superman and it worked.

I thought I was in my own house (I wasn't) so I jumped up into the air again and tried to float through the floors but it didn't work. I think I woke myself back up at that point and fell right back asleep remembering I was dreaming still...

I was so happy that I realized it was a false awakening that I woke myself up.

But I fell back asleep and it happened again. I didn't realize I was sleeping, I tested it and again I was dreaming.

I kept waking myself back up for real and that got more confusing.

I know I was awake at one point and I convinced myself I was actually still dreaming... and it worked. (I could feel my body in bed and knew I was actually awake but I just pushed through it and made myself fall back asleep).

This time I was so happy I managed to get up, run out of the room, unlock the door to the house and go out into the street where there was lots of people and families walking around.

It was a neighborhood (not mine) and I have no idea who's house I had woken up in...

I remember walking around and trying to go to someone else's house and go inside. I got very excited and the dream started to fade so I reminded myself to spin. Spin spin spin.... I think I started it too late because next thing I know I could feel my body in bed and I was thinking spin spin spin.... It was a fight between the two states of LD and awake in bed... I think it almost worked but in the end I woke up.

So I will take this as another victory. Even though my LD's are still very short periods of time today I feel like I actually did work and learned some things.

Earlier today I spent time in my LD's dealing with controlling them and keeping them going.

Just now I feel like I learned how to identify false awakenings better. It also made me realize I have a hell of a lot more false awakenings then I think I do.

Last night I went to bed early and did a muscle relaxation technique. I then closed my eyes, put in ear plugs and tried to concentrate on the visuals.

I got some tingling sensations but after an hour or more nothing happened.

I flipped onto my side and went to sleep.

My alarm went off at 4 am so I tried again... but nothing happened and I drifted off to sleep.

Sent my kid off to school at 7 am, propped an extra pillow behind my head and started again. This is typically when I start to LD anyway.

Like the day before I drifted in and out. Overall I had several LDs but they were quite different than before.

They all started off as normal dreams and I wake up into them. The first one was the longest and it took me a while to realize I was dreaming. But once I did I immediately started to work on controlling it.

The LD was not as "intense and vivid" as the long one I had four days ago. But I had total control. The first one was about my extended family. I am quite sure that this was because one of my aunts made a comment on my facebook page and I read it before bed.

It took place in the bedroom I grew up in as a kid. Eventually I realized I was dreaming. I stayed in the room and experimented with different things. I remember doing something really odd like taking my hand and stretching it across the room. I don't recall much else at this point other than I had total control.

I had several small LDs after that. I would wake up and fall right back asleep. I remember some of them were sexual in nature.

The last one I can recall took place in a hallway. I remember saying I was looking for a "red head" and a bunch of people came running down the hallway and one girl came up to me and said something like "here I am".

The odd thing was she really didn't have red hair, it was more strawberry blonde. But I pulled her aside and focused on her and she became a red head. I remember once again having sex after that.

So this makes four LD night / days in a row. While none of the past three have matched how intense and real the first one was days ago, they were all different than in the past.

This latest one was by far the oddest and most interesting as it seemed like I was taking advantage of he time and honing my skills in getting control over the dream world. Like a sandbox version of a game I sat and played and experimented.

I would like to now combine the two and try to have a really deep LD with control that goes on for a while.

I think I am trying a combination of different techniques at night before I fall asleep and they are not working. I may also be attempting to have an OOB experience. I really need to learn the different techniques and the difference between the two and how to attain them.

Because of the street construction going that has been happening on my road starting around 7 am, I decided to go to bed early.

I set my alarm for 4 am and then listened to a relaxation tape in hopes of having a WILD directly after falling asleep. I figured worst case scenario, if I feel asleep without it, my alarm would wake me up at 4 and I would try again.

There were a number of minor set backs, including my alarm went off at 12 by mistake, I set it to snooze and it went off 10 mins later!!!! Then at 1:45 one of my tenant's guests decided to leave the house very loudly and that distracted me and put me in a rather bad mood.

I laid in bed most of the night trying to find and then observe the lights in the back of my eyes. I spent a lot of time focusing on them and tried to let them guide me into my dream but nothing worked.

I never fully fell asleep.

I was up and out of bed a few times, last one was at 5:30. Laid back down and still couldn't fall asleep.

My kid said goodbye at 7 am for school, so I refocused and tried again.

I had my ear plugs in due to the noise that was about to happen.

Not only could I not LD, I stil couldn't fall asleep.

Around 9 am I was frustrated but gave it one last attempt.

Something weird happened. I was so tired that I was falling in and out of sleep very quickly. I would become aware that I was dreaming and in a dream "world" but that awareness woke me back up. This happened maybe five times. Had to be less than a minute each time it happened.

Finally on the last time I attained Lucidity. It started off in my neighborhood. However it was not fully under my control. I could not fly very well.. but when I did I saw a beautiful field from my view above (a field that does not exist where I live).

From there I flew around the neighborhood in search of people. The neighborhood changed around me and soon I had no idea where I was located.

I briefly remember being inside of a warehouse of some kind at the top of some stairs.

Then I woke up and was not able to achieve lucidity again. I think in total my lucid trip was about 5 minutes.

Sadly I must have gotten a total of 10 minutes of actual sleep throughout the entire night.

Again I am frustrated by the possibility of having a whole night to explore and felt that I was on the right track. But at the same time this makes it three Lucid Dreams in a row (even if the last two were frustrating and brief.)

I was all ready to go. Sent my kid off to school at 7 am then got back into bed and closed my eyes to begin.

Right off the bat I could feel it start. My body got very light and tingly and I felt a lifting sensation.

Then loud construction trucks started to run up and down my street and after weeks of doing nothing, began to work on my road again. Right in front of my house.

I grabbed some ear plugs and turned up Enigma to try to block out the noise.

I tried several times to re-engage a dream state but the noise was too distracting. I came close but nothing.

I had been lying on my back the whole time so I decided to switch positions and try my side.

Eventually I just fell asleep. Which was actually a good thing. Because I woke back up and tried again.

I had been watching a video about OOB experiences and decided I would attempt it since I wasn't really able to fall asleep.

I remember falling asleep again and "waking up" but realized this was a false awakening of sorts so I tested it out and "rolled" out of my bed and onto the floor.

I don't recall seeing my body on the bed but I was standing up at this point and in my own room.

I walked into the hallway but the house was different. Older style, different paint, obviously not my house.

But it was a three family house like mine. I remember trying to float up through the ceiling and I may have been blocked. I don't remember if I had to actually take the stairs or not.

I did make it up to the third floor apartment, which was not the actual one in my house.

I also remember doing at least one "reality check" where I looked in the mirror and saw a very distorted image. Where normally I would be scared of such an image, I remember laughing because it confirmed I was dreaming.

The whole thing didn't last very long and I woke back up shortly after that in my bed.

It was a "dirty and unclear" dream state. Everything was fuzzy and I remember feeling that the house was not "clean". Not messy, just dirty.

It was a very strange experience all in all. One one hand I am glad that for the second day in a row I was able to have something happen. But at the same time upset because it started off to be a major LD with full awareness and control but ended up being a very minor episode because of all the noise.

They are supposed to be working on my road off and on again this week. I am still going to try but will have to find a way to compensate for the noise better than ear plugs and Enigma.

I have always had the ability to have lucid dreams, however I was never able to control them. They were always sporadic and I was able to have them once every month or two.

My lucid dreams always occur early in the morning. Typically once I am slightly awake and try to fall back asleep. Anywhere from 5am - 8am typically. I am not sure what sleep stage this is but obviously my mind is awake and aware and this carries over.

They were always very brief. I would attain lucidity but in my excitement to do things I would inevitably wake myself up. There was also little or no control.

For example, I would realize I was dreaming and try to "Fly" or "float" up through the ceiling only to have the ceiling block me. Another typical dream would be me finding myself aware but alone in a hallway or field with nothing and no one around me. I would search but nothing would happen.

Over the last year I have been having a new type of experience. The lucid dreams were much deeper and much more involved. There are people around whom I can interact with and things to do.

But now I could really feel, taste, touch, smell and see as if it was "real" life. It was actually quite alarming. So as soon as I realized how "deep" I was in this state I would instantly wake myself up.

I believe that I was afraid I would not be able to wake my physical body or perhaps I was dying.

I can not begin to tell you how frustrating this has been. This irrational fear keeping me from something amazing, beautiful and fun.


Yesterday morning I woke up early and turned the lights on. I put on a movie and laid in bed. I was awake but something odd started to happen.

My entire body started to tingle like pins and needles and I got the sensation of being lifted. I felt like I was coming up and out of my body. But, again, I was awake with the lights on a movie playing. I did feel like I was drifting in and out but I was NOT asleep.

It happened several times but each time I got to the point where I was about to lift up and possibly "Leave" my body I shook myself out of it and stopped it.

I was afraid of it causing a panic attack. Something I am prone to if I feel like I am out of control. Irrational fear like me dying or not being able to find my way back to my body.

This must have occurred five times. I pushed the amount of time in this state each time a little further but never let it take its possible "full effect."

Eventually I woke up and put it aside but I went to bed with the hopes and intention of having some lucid dreams this morning... and wow did I....

Typical of my lucid dreams they were broken up. Excitement during them causes the dream to slowly slip away and me to wake back up. I can actually see the dream start to disintegrate and fade and my consciousness slip back into my body.


The first part of my experience found me on a bus. I started to realize I was dreaming. I remember feeling like I was pushing through a barrier... almost like a cloth or plastic tarp and then BAM! I was fully aware and awake in my dream.

This has never occurred before. Normally before this level of dream took place I would wake myself up out of fear. To make sure that I could still wake up.

But something finally allowed me to push past it. I think that feeling of pushing through cloth or a tarp was my minds way of letting me know I had done what I had not been able to do before.

I remember being on the bus and fully knowing I was dreaming. I touched everything and there was solid weight behind it. Everything was real, vivid, alive.

So real in fact that I began to doubt that I was actually dreaming.

I walked to the front of the bus and started to have a conversation with a girl. She had opinions and acted as if she was not just a part of my dream but a person you would interact with in real life.

She then said something that made my thoughts about this being a dream or real life come to light again. At this point in any dream it is like a "reality check" and I would fail to recognize it was a dream. She was very negative about something and whatever she said caused me to push forward and question that reality instead of succumb to it and fall back into a dream with no control.

But I pushed forward past the reality check and the dream changed to the point where I could then control it. I wasn't just aware that I was dreaming, I could basically do whatever I wanted and change the scenery and physics as well.

The dream then took a sexual turn (sorry lol but I need to be as honest as I can here... part of the fun of lucid dreaming for me does involve sex) and as things got more intense I could feel the dream start to break apart. But more than that I could actually see it start to fade! Like a movie getting fuzzy.

My consciousness slowly started to slip back into my body. I could feel the odd transition as if I was in both worlds still... until I lost it all together and woke up.

But I fell right back asleep again. But this time I had a new control over the dream state. I remember shutting my eyes and calming my mind down again.

The next thing I know I am opening my eyes up in a fully lucid dream state. Amazing. Mind blowing. Imagine shutting your eyes and opening them a moment later to find yourself in a new world, fully awake and aware.

I awoke in the house I grew up in. There was no one around, the house and neighborhood seemed empty. I floated out of my old bedroom and remember floating around the neighborhood trying to remember who lived in what house and where people might be.

I realized that I was not in the correct neighborhood. There is a gap in what happened next but I remember coming to a house with a family living in it. I walked around the house went up stairs and found a person in one of the rooms.

As we started to interact I once again felt a sense of excitement and things started to fade.

But this time I think I was able to stop my consciousness from slipping back into my body by disengaging my interactions with people and moving on.

Again I need to point out the level of awareness in every sense was just as real as it is now that I am typing these words. I knew I was dreaming.

I remember things were still faded, possibly even black and white. I may have woken up for the briefest of moments but if I did I fell right back into the same dream again.

I recall jumping out of a window and willing myself to fly. Not float, but fly. As I did it the dream snapped back into place and I remember flying over an empty field with trees.

I don't recall how that "segment" ended but I ended up waking up again.

My mind was still in an excited state so I remember having to calm it down and shortly after I was asleep again and my eyes opened back up to the dream world.

All I can recall about this section of the dream was that there were a lot of people around me. At first glance they were mostly women... then I looked again and there were men also.

I recall trying to focus on their faces and make them change... make them look different. In some cases I succeeded but others I wasnt able to. Some I would change and they would morph back like play doh to some odd form.

I remember waking back up again. My mind was racing and recalling weird words and songs... it was time to wake up. I couldn't concentrate anymore.

I tried to lay in a different position and keep my mind calm but I just couldn't. So eventually I just got up and started my day.


So this all prompted me to keep a dream journal here. I feel like I started a new chapter in my dream life.

I just can't get over how amazing it was to literally push through to a new level of dream awareness and control.

Now I need to work on maintaining longer dreams, stopping my excitement from the dream from waking me up and how to get control over when I have lucid dreams.

I would sure like to have them more regularly.