lucid

Low lucidity

I feel sleep paralysis and stay still. I try not to focus on anything. I end up in a small room with vanilla colored walls and a security door. I make sure that I am lucid with the nose pinch. I leave the security room to find a hall way in a school. I do the hand and whole body stabilization. I briefly see Valda-1 and I think she tells me to go down stairs. So I do and it looks like a hotel down there. Very grand. Someone offers me a blue jacket. I find myself. In NZ. I walk along Colombo and then I see a lady selling clothes that are stored in boxes. I grab one to have a look. The arms of the sweater (black/gray) are not the same length (I laugh to myself). I walk along further to find an escalator. I go up it to find my brother and this chubby girl in a dull yellow shirt. I ask her, "Are you dreaming?"
"Yes, I am dreaming."
My mom comes holding a baby. I think to myself, "good! Now my sister has someone to play with." It is naked and my mom hands it over for me to hold. My mom pauses and the baby poops on me.
I go to the bathroom just behind me to wash off the poo. Bathroom is very filthy. There is this bucket with a whole lot of pills which I chuck down the toilet. I yell out to my brother for a cup to wash myself with. "Were the pills my grandpa's?"

I am waiting for a water taxi in Bangkok. Once it arrives I sing a rap for the captain from the platform at the top of my voice. I repeat the word white (as in the skin color) many times so I guess the rap is about race. The captain and his assistant are African-Americans as well. Once I'm on the boat the assistant asks me if I was dissing him. I wasn't but still there was the word white in there so I am afraid to tell him. So I say instead that it was just a nonsensical word. Then he starts talking to me and singing with me. The rest of the passengers are dead silent and probably listening to us and I feel uncomfortable. Eventually he stops bothering me and goes to annoy someone else.

The water taxi somewhere along the dream, turns into a long narrow bus. And when very few people remain on it, it turns into a car; a very economical transport. But this corner is not where I wanted to go. And the taxi just left. I feel distressful but see a familiar looking elderly couple on the other side of the road. I walk towards them and ask for help. They had dropped me off before in another dream location. The lady is holding a picture of something. She thanks me for entertaining her children but I say, "It wasn't me, well my body but different person. We have multiple consciousnesses." And here, I realize that I am a cute polar bear and the dream world has a cartoon texture.

I hop in to the jeep and off we go. The man shows me a picture of a building with a weird design. It is made of two small buildings and a bridge in the middle. It is white and cartoon-like. Drawn with a blue felt pen. He asks, "Is this your dream sign?"By the way he looks like a character from Tin Tin or something.

I say, "No, but I'll check!"

So I do the nose pinching reality check and it fails!

Then I say to him, "I am dreaming!"

I point to a mountain in front of us and I say, "Let's go there."

The car flies off the ground and I feel the acceleration and everything becomes a tiny bit clearer. The sun is behind the mountain. We are speeding upwards towards it.

But then I start to lose it. The dream becomes weaker. I do stabilization by rubbing my hands but it doesn't work. My dream scene fades and I start to feel my real body.

Last night I wasn't even trying to have a MILD but I had a lucid dream, I think.
I am sleeping in either an apartment in a tall building or in a hospital bedroom. I see green curtains and cool air is blowing in through the window which is wide open. I get up and do a reality check. I do many reality checks in this dream. About three nose pinches and one gravity check. And also stabilized by rubbing my hands together.
I see colored balloons briefly. And they have writing on them. They are floating in front of a blue background. There is a red and a green balloon and possibly a blue one.
I am walking in a mall at B-2. It is dark or very dimly lit. I see people vaguely walking around. They look a bit like zombies.
I am still wondering if I had a lucid dream or not so I try to fly (thought: because I can't do that in real life). And I see a picture of myself flapping my wings like a duck. Again I see myself against a blue background. And I am not wearing clothes.
I ask some guys if I'm dreaming. There are about three people. There is one old man. They say that I am not dreaming. Then I say, "so I've been doing all these things awake?"
Very low lucidity though. Or even none. Need expert opinion here.

I dreamed that I have SP. It couldn't have possibly happened for real since WILD's are so difficult to do. So I have this SP and I see fuzzy patterns for a while and whoosh! I wake up. I realized that I must have failed the WILD, BUT it could be a false awakening. So I did a REALITY CHECK. And it failed! Could I change colors now?
So I think to myself, "better not waste anytime." I look out the window of the small room and see unusual vividness. I fly out the window and the scene was in 3D. I mean more realistic than usual. But it didn't look like real life. I had very little control. It was like a mountain valley with lots of fog. And I saw purple and red colors in the background.

I suspect that this maybe have been DEILD.