lucid

After having had a shitty night due to a nasty cold, this morning I was feeling very sleepy. As I didn't have to go to the uni, I thought I would sleep more. It was 10 am when I last checked the clock in waking world.

I was lying on my bed and my mind was wandering, having random thoughts. My bed was on my boyfriend's corridor, the stairs of his house were at my left. Then I realised... that's not my bedroom, I must be in a dream. I felt somewhat strange, like I still wasn't entirely in the dream, because somehow I could still feel my waking body, it's hard to explain. It was like I had slept through the whole process of a WILD and I had awoken seconds away from entering the dream. Well, anyway. At this point I started hearing footsteps coming from the stairs at my left. I assumed that had to be an audible hallucination, but it still freaked me out. I thought I would test myself to see if I was in the dream for good or not yet. I tried turning my head towards the footsteps (my head was turned to the right) and if I could move it with ease, it meant I was already in the dream. When I did it, I felt I was completely paralysed. This scared me even more, I don't know why. Stupid as I am, instead of waiting a bit longer, I kept forcing my neck, I needed to turn it no matter what because the relentless footsteps were getting the better of me. I had never experienced paralysis or hallucinations this vivid ever before. At some point during this process, I didn't feel in the dream anymore, I felt my physical body so paralysed that even my eyelids were glued shut. And still, the footsteps were vivid. Ultimately, I managed to move my neck and when I did, I snapped out of the whole thing and the footsteps stopped. It was then when I cleared my mind and realised I had lost a golden opportunity. But anyway, I'm glad I finally experienced sleep paralysis and hallucinations with such vividness.

I haven't been paying much attention to my dreams lately because I've been busy, but tonight I've had a nightmare which has randomly turned into a lucid dream.

I was walking down a street when I found this guy staring at me and started harassing me. I got scared and turned to the left, into a very dark street. I couldn't see a thing, but I could hear his motorbike chasing after me. I tried to run, but my body felt very heavy and I was unable to. I have to say I tend to have dreams where someone is chasing after me and trying to hurt me, and every time I find that my body feels too heavy for me to run.

Thing is, I got into a building to hide from him, and while I was waiting, I thought it was strange that I couldn't run and that I had to be dreaming. Once aware, I decided I could turn the situation around to my advantage, that I had to do something to prevent the dream from fading away. When he got into the building, I stood before him and told him to stop chasing after me and trying to hurt me. All of a sudden, he didn't look dangerous anymore. I stopped for a second to think what to do next and I did what first came to my mind I could do with a guy in a lucid dream. I made him sit on a couch, sat on him and got it on with him.

This is the second lucid experience I've had since I got started with all this. I have to admit that this last month and a half I haven't quite done any reality checks or practised anything like ADA, so I wasn't expecting to have a lucid experience again yet. Hopefully, I'll get back to it now.

Before I start, let me say this is the first lucid experience I've had since I got started with all this only a month ago, so it's nothing too big, but it's a step forward for me.

I was in a strange place, it looked like a cloud, I could see the cotton-like floor and the blue sky above me. I was holding a piece of paper with both my hands and there was a legible text written on it. I noticed my surroundings were quite weird, so I started thinking that might be a dream. I stared at the piece of paper thinking I'd see the letters moving around, but they didn't. I thought "okay, if I was in a dream these letters wouldn't probably be still, but this place I'm in... I'll try staring at the letters, look away and then look back at them again, as if in a reality check". I did it and, sure enough, the text had changed completely. I then shouted "I'm dreaming!" and as I did I started feeling like a tickling and buzzing coming from inside my chest. This feeling kept growing and I knew I'd wake up if I wasn't able to stabilize the dream. I tried to spin around first but I felt like I couldn't move. I guess it took me a bit too long to react because I started feeling my real body on my bed while the dream hadn't finished completely yet, but anyway, I tried to rub my hands together in the dream to see if I could bring it back. However, it was too late, the dream was fading away.

I'm not entirely sure I woke up because I can't remember it clearly (maybe it was a false awakening). I only remember I tried my hardest to fall asleep again as fast as possible, keeping in mind I had been lucid just a few moments before in order to enter the next dream while still lucid. All of a sudden, I felt like something was taking me away floating and I entered another dream, but I think I wasn't lucid in this one.

I don't remember much of the second dream because I woke up startled in the morning and it went away while I was trying to bring back as many pieces of the lucid experience as I could.

Anyway, brief as it has been, it's been an interesting experience. I'm looking forward to something like this happening again soon and being able to stay in the dream.

Many years ago, as a child, I remember dreaming one night, I thought to myself that what I was seeing was very strange. I don't quite recall what I was dreaming, it's just the feeling I got. I kept thinking and at some point came to the conclusion that I had to be in a dream. When I woke up I told everybody that, while dreaming, I realised it was a dream. My parents told me that was impossible.

Back then I knew nothing about lucid dreaming. It was only just recently that I started reading about it and somewhere I read kids become lucid more easily than adults. That explained a big deal.