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Time dilation gone wrong.

I become lucid as a snake man flying around some mountains. I was with a group of people earlier but I don't recall them much. I land on a rock trail and begin my Time Dilation method. I forgot to close one eye and started counting really fast. I felt the usual force knock me from the dream.

Xereniak

We were wandering around some house in the sky. We passed J from work and she was making funny comments at us but I forget what, she then burped and flew through a random portal. Me and Xer continued flying up and jumping through the strange sky house which had strange obstacles that we overcame. Almost as if the place was designed for training in anti gravity skills for dreamers, each room a different puzzle to solve by jumping, floating, and swinging off beams. We rested on a landing. He seemed elated at what we were doing. I was joking that he should try and go out with J. and then I noticed he was smoking a cigarette. I said maybe I am a bad influence on him.

Now Hiring

Brief memory of walking down a street at night time in some out door minimall. I was with some people and we came by a Time Horton's Stand and some woman said "Hey don't you know that man?" I looked in the TH and saw Phawad standing their in a store manager uniform. He looked a little short staffed and walked up to me and asked me if I was looking for a job.

Dog walking and lucid chain

I was in a van with my aunt and her friend. we had our dogs and we were going to take our dogs for a run in some field with trees. They started complaining at me abot something i forget what. I told them I would walk my dog on my own and they let me out of the van.

missing time

I wind up in some house that is semi out doors. I tie my dog to some post and begin exploring the place. I remember a man had been there before and had invited me in at one time but he wasn't there now. I came across and area with four sets of steps on each side of a square that led down to a landing with nothing on it. I went down the steps and was teleported inside the man's house. I looked around for a bit but didn't find him. I found some other people wandering around but I lingered behind them not wanting any interaction with them. Eventually I got bored and came across a similar four sets of steps leading up to a landing. I went up the steps to the landing and was teleported to the landing outside. I saw the man arriving ome with some of his friends. He said hello and I began to wander off. I was forgetting something... MY DOG! so i went back to where he was chained and untied him and continued the walk. It was night time now.

FA,

Get out of bed and RC. Lucid now. A woman with brown hair I seem to know walks in and says I better hurry because she's leaving without me. I notice I am not dressed and find some pants on the floor after getting my shirt on. I tell her to wait while I get my pants on. She complies and keeps talking but I don't really know what she's saying. I struggle to get my pants on and when I do I look at her and realize she looks like a young Regan. A door appears that leads into a bar or club. As I follow her through the door her appearance slowly changes into an asian woman, her eyes change color to grey and then green, her skin is also changing color now to look like a hispanic woman. I tell her to stoop changing so fast and go back to the regan look because I think it looks hot. She then transforms into a green elf. As we turn a corner into the bar club area she vanishes. I think nothing of it as it seems normal.

I then think of some goals... Raven! I think and crouch on the ground for some reason and I am trying to contact her telepathically. I get up and start to count my fingers again. I see there are fingers under my fingers as i count. I'm pretty sure I forgot to close one eye because the dream starts to fade. I stop at 30 and everything goes black. The dream springs back somehow. Then I resume counting with one eye closed up to another 30. everything is stable now. I completely forget my previous goal after trying for so long to stabalize the dream.

I find a large table where people are eating and drinking and sit at the end of it. I get bored so I start throwing plates and glasses at the DCs who are a blur. they don't do anything for a while, one guy swings a knife at me and I back up naturally dodging him. I pull out a blade myself and start slashing at people. My perception is going watery like the dream is about to end. I get frustrated at the time dilation not working.


Fa, get out of bed and RC. I pinch my nose but not enough air comes through. I fly out of the bed as if normal and keep trying the nose RC. It's too dark in the room and everything seems too real.

I begin to wake up for real and try to DEILD. but the compulsion to turn over gets the better of me.

First, I have some non lucid fragments before my WBTB. Lucids are after the WBTB.


Guitar Store

I'm with some people, but don't know who. We are walking along rooftops and for some reason go through a trap door on a big industrial looking roof top. I look down and see that the inside is some guitar store. There's no ladder and I try to get down but stepping on the tops of some guitars but they fall over. That just annoys the floor clerk. I remember getting down somehow. And then we walk downstairs to another level with some keyboards or something but my memory fades after this.

Woman on the Lake

Brief memory of being at a beach by a lake. Some woman with brown hair (May have been Asuka) was walking on the lake and singing to me. She kept trying to get me to join in. Can't remember if I did or not.

Weird Video Game

I'm in some underground Car garage with some people. We are on roller blades and skate boards. We get to some big TV screen where Gandalf is in some video game. I press a button which makes him shoot fireballs out of his mouth. I mash the button on Rapid Fire and zoom that camera so that his face is facing us, and he keeps shooting fireballs out of his mouth with a big and silly grin on his face. The people start laughing at that and my memory fades here.

Time Dilation

I'm already lucid wandering on the top floor of an empty house that I feel belongs to DV member Twoshadows. I'm in some living room or common area and am trying to find out where I am exactly, as I don't want to spend the entire dream wandering around the top floor of an empty house. I look out the windows and see there is a long walkway connecting to another section of the house. I am amazed by how real everything looks and am pleased at the architecture of the other section, it looks almost like a mini tower.

I begin walking and try out a nose RC for the hell of it. I can breathe through it... No surprise there,. But it seems good to practice RC's anyway. The timeline seems to jump from when I am walking towards the tower section to leaving it at the bottom. I guess I went down some steps? I don't seem to be aware of it nor care but now I seem to be in some sort of hotel.

I walk down long hallways lined with doors to bedroom no doubt when I realize there seems to be no one around. As if on cue, I find a larger set of doors to my left while walking back in the direction of the house and tower. I open them and see a large conference hall inside populated with people. I move past them not interacting with them and see that the conference room has no other doors or ways out so I turn out and leave it back to the long hallways. I head towards the house again and begin to notice that the place is now populated with random DCs. I turn toward the steps to the tower around a corner when instead I enter a random lobby or seating area where some random DCs are sitting there reading newspapers. I begin to wonder if I've entered into a completely different dream entirely.

My mind is still real foggy on some goals so I decide that until I remember some of them I should at least try and perfect Walms/Hukifs Time dilation method. His method: Place your hand on the ground, look at one spot where your hand is against the dream and count upward with one eye closed. While I have tried this many many times without success, I have found that I have had to modify slightly to keep the counting going, as going step by step seems to bring a force which rips apart the dream by the time I count to 15. The modification is counting the spaces between my fingers which keeps my focus both on my hand and the dream itself, it also keeps me entertained because every time I count a new set of spaces i see that there are more fingers and thus more spaces to count. But I have never tried it that way with one eye closed!

I keep that in mind while I put my hand in view. My hand looks slightly deformed with some big fingers and some miniature. I place my hand against the wall and feel the sensation of one eye closing, and start counting the spaces in between my fingers. Right away I begin to feel the force that rips the dream apart but instead I feel it flowing through my vision some how. Before i remember that my hand would jump around a bit as if some force I couldn't control was moving it. But this time with the force in my vision I realized that I am directing the force through my gaze wherever i focus it. my perception jumped between each finger going 1,2,3,4 back to the right, 5,6,7,8,9, back to the right and so on. My perception jumps even faster making me count super fast, maybe even faster than I can count while awake. This causes me to mis count here and there 11,12,13,14,15 back to the right, 15, 16, 17,.. I stop at about 30, and feel this should give me another half hour of lucidity.

There is a slight problem when I walk around though, My dream self is tired again. I remember i seemed to have no problem entering another lucid last time. with that expectation I wandered into the lobby area again and found a couch, and fell asleep on it.

Someone shot me in the head

I find myself wandering down the same hallways again fully lucid as if nothing happened. I look around a few rooms and then head back to the lobby area, As I enter it some force hits me in the head really fast and the dream goes black.

The Annoying Dream Guide

I Am now in yet another hallway in the same place I was before but walking towards the other end of the hotel. I can't remember how long this was, the timeline kept jumping ahead a lot. I wound up near a stairwell looking out the window. I knew I was supposed to find a woman with long brown or black hair. I couldn't remember exactly who ,so the closest to that was J, some pretty girl I knew in the past so I start calling her name intending to find her. Some DCs look at me strangely while I call out her name. I walk through a door intending her dream to be there and I find myself outside walking down an alleyway. I am still calling her name when some guy approaches me from another alley.

He tells me there's no need to call out for her name, and I shouldn't be looking for her. He joins me and we talk about stuff I can't really remember. He's trying to be some Joe cool guy trying to fit in with me. I have the feeling he is a guide similar to Victor maybe. He points to some garbage cans with some bright green toxic ooze coming out of them and says that God is placing those in dreams for me to use. I find it highly unlikely that God would place such nonsense in a dream and can't really think of any use for them and I continue to walk on.

He keeps talking but then I come to a clearing that is paved and see about 50 DC girls all scantily clad seem to be making out with Each other. Their pleasure seems to formulate into a song which entrances me. I suddenly feel the urge and jump down to them while the guide is saying, "Don't go over to them, Stay away from them". I go up behind a blonde and pull her away from the group, She giggles as I fall backward and she lend on top of me as if sitting on me. I briefly remember walms saying that sex in lucids usually ends the dreams fast. I ignore that because it feels so real. I begin pulling her pants when the dream fades.

Asuka is Leaving

I stumble into my home and that same guide is there telling asuka what I did. I keep protesting and saying that I've done lots of things with random DCs and asuka never seemed to mind.. She would even join in on occasion! The guide kept saying I was bad and asuka seemed to be getting angry at me. I protested again and said I had even done things with other girls while she seemed to be merged with them in dreams, and started listing off names. The guide said that just proves I'm a lech who doesn't care about Asuka. I said Asuka did all this willingly without my asking... He still twisted it so that she got even more angry and she left saying she wasn't coming back.

Now I am pissed. I tell him who is he to ruin my relationship with her. He said he was my new guide chosen by God himself to keep me pure. I said, "Okay, How am I supposed to be devoted to staying pure when I am in a body made of flesh that still craves sin?" and then I point out that, " Paul even devoted a chapter in Romans to the struggle with sin, and that the chapter makes it pretty clear that we still live in a body of flesh, While the holy spirit in us still hates sin, we still live in a body of flesh that wants to, so it is a struggle we have to deal with our whole life, and sometimes that life is full of failure." I seem to be losing him in my rant, as he seems to have no idea what I am talking about. I point out that if he were really sent by God he should have a clear understanding of this. We go back and forth like this for a while until I enter my living room with a library in it. I pull a book off the shelf written by Walm/Hukif, An account of some of his lucids.
I tell the guide that I never asked for any other guide and he should leave. To emphasize my point I morph into Donald Trump and tell him he's fired. He says I can't fire him. I say yes I can and if he won't leave I will get rid of him myself. I point to the book in my hand, and say that Walms used to have a guide that would tell him not to fight. But Walms didn't listen and got so annoyed with his guide and killed him somehow, and somewhere in this book is an account of it. And when I find out how he did it, I will do the same to him, and he knows I will have the determination to do it. The guide eventually leaves after this.

Asuka's Back

Can't remember the dream where i tell asuka to come back. It must have been good however as I am now in some dance room, where 50 versions of Asuka are making out with one another in various different outfits and dancing on poles, doing some sort of parody of the women from my lucid. The Song is by Bjork and Asuka is singing it. It's the song "Unravel" and i keep hearing her singing, "And when you come back, we'll have to make new love"

Construction

A short dream of Asuka bringing me to some steel construction building. We are jumping up climbing steel beams and running along the beams. I feel like it's for training or something.

Nomad

Not dreaming but falling asleep to a youtube video of Chuck Missler Give a commentary on the least exciting part of Exodus, which is the last ten chapters or so.

FA, I am now hearing the commentary in Nomads voice. I turn to look at my laptop screen and Nomad is in a skype video window giving commentary? "Why are you talking christian stuff?" I ask, "thought it was irrelevant to you now?" He stops the commentary and says, "It's ALL relevant bro." Implying all religions. I look around the room and it is different.

Wake up for real Chuck Missler is still giving commentary.

FA, In the same room Nomad stops his commentary again and laughs, "Dude I just saw you have a false awakening!" I shake my head. "You know it's a dream right?"

Before I can answer a child runs into the room and hugs me. "Dude this IS a dream I am coming over right now!",
"No," I say, "Asuka says I have to watch the children tonight, While she trains HARD!" He protests but I shut down my laptop screen.

missing time

FA, I'm on the moon, Nomad is a werewolf Cyborg with a red robot eye, and a giant blade for an arm that is wide at his left shoulder and is pointy where his hand should be. He has a multicolored gem in his third eye surrounded by 5 or so gems of different color, they expand and spin around his head and then retract.

"What are you?" I ask, "Some sort of hippie terminator?"

"GET TO THE TOWAAA!" he says, giving an arnold impression.

The dream splits and in this version he suffers from ALS and I am wheeling him in a chair that sports a small laptop with a text to speech clicker in his hand. "They may have taken my ability to move," he says, "But at least i can still dream like a mofo." I am getting tired pushing him by the time we reach the tower and falls asleep just as I reach the door.

FA, I'm back with cyborg Nomad at the tower. We go in.

FA, I'm on a lift going up the tower I roll right off and fall to my doom.

FA, Back on the lift. Nomad stops me from rolling off this time.

"How many FA's is that now?" He asks. I shrug and stand up, "I don't think i can even count how many you've had!" I summon a beer and take a sip.

"But it's my first one of the night officer Nomad. Scouts honor!"

FA, and we are now at the top of the Tower in a mini dome overlooking the inside of the larger biodome The sight is spectacular.

I wake up briefly and turn over to my right, and I'm dreaming that I'm back in my inner world looking after the kids. I roll over to my right and I am back with Nomad.

"Dude you are having too many FAs!." he says, "How are you doing that?"

"I found a small remnant on Walms's soul in my inner world that he left when he died. He came back for the body. but some of the soul was left, so I ate it."

"I don't think his soul is exactly compatible with you." He pulls a seed out of nowhere and makes me eat it. "These should stabilize the FAs for a while." he says. "Now off we go!" He draws a circle with his sword arm and creates a vortex and we begin to get pulled in but my memory fades or I wake up here.

Winning at Poker

I have a brief memory of winning a pot. I won something like $50 or $100. Everyone gets up from the table and leaves. I get seated at a table with a total of 6 players. Me being the sixth, I pull out my cash and I have 250. I consider buying in for only 200 which will give me 100 big blinds at a game of 1/2. Two more people show up and we all decide to sit at a bigger table that seats 10 players. A dealer comes in and leads us to an outside table. It is nice out and we seem to be in a big city.
Note: I wake up for reals at 130 AM. Take my dog for a short walk, then have a sip of coffee. I then remembered reading a thread on DV about using peanut butter as a lucid or vividness aid. I try it out with a big spoonful. Back to sleep.

Lucid Class

I'm in a classroom in school. The teacher looks like she just stepped out of an anime/video game cosplay convention - she's wearing some sort of Assassins Creed costume. She's older than me and kind of grumpy. She's arguing with an Asian female student but she agrees with the student eventually. Can't remember all of the conversation but they both turn and look at me. They are now trying to convince me that I'm dreaming right now. I'm uncomfortable with two people almost cornering me and I get stubborn. They ask me to do some tests to see if it is a dream. I humor them so that they will leave me alone. I half hardheartedly do a test not paying attention to the result. The Asian girl goes up to me and has something like a cracked egg. She tells me to count the sharp points of the egg crack and it will make the dream stable. She spins it around as I start pretending to count them not really paying attention to the egg thing. I count upwards and the dream begins to roll up like a scroll until all I see is black.

note: I'm pretty sure it was Raven Knight and Asuka trying to make me lucid!

Super Mario Maker

I was 3rd person viewing myself on some mountain. I was on a train track thingy for a while going down a slope. I ate a mushroom thingy that turned me into a wolf. I noticed a mario level flag like in the super mario game hiding beneath a peak on one of the mountain. I see my character reach it.

FA, I'm really dizzy. I stumble into the bathroom because I have to pee. I won't mention what happened because it was disturbing.

FA, and it's daytime out and I run to the bathroom to pee again. Something even more disturbing happens which I won't mention, a knock on the door interrupts me and some old lady wants to use the washroom. "Just a minute ." I say and I am frantically trying to figure out how to hide my dilemma and walk out normally.


Kill Everyone Class

I'm in another classroom. Some weird spanish guy walk in and says. "I'm going to play a game with you all. you all have guns and bullets under your desks. You have 5 minutes to figure out how to load your guns and then you must kill each other until there is only one student left. If you don't comply I will be forced to kill all of you." He leaves through a door on the right. Everyone quietly pulls their guns out and starts fiddling with them. I open the chamber and see it's empty. I find a box in the desk with bullets inside. One of the bullets grows large and breaks in two as I try to put it in the revolver's chamber I try to fit the two pieces back together. I manage to load all 6 chambers in the gun with real looking bullets. I try look for a a device which will load more bullets into the revolver part as I shoot, I find an attachment for the gun designed to do just that. But I can't figure out how to load it. I reach in the box and some of the bullets are actually nails. The whole ordeal seems unfair.

The Five minutes seem to be up. Can't remember if I take the gun with me or not but I run through a hallway left of the classroom. I hear other people start to get up. I pass another hallway adjacent to my hallway and see an exit with a window and a door. The door opens and a cartoon Asian girl runs through the door wearing a pink shirt and blue overcoat, and there's someone else behind her and I don't know who it is. I am too startled so I run into the other hallway which is just in front of the class room. as i run I hear someone calling my name. I hear, "Radma or Ranma." I think that's my old username who calls me that? I remember Walms or Hukif use to call me that, this gets me even more scared and run to another door which leads outside. When I go outside I get woken up by my alarm.

Short Staffed

I'm at work. But the grills are poker tables. Lots of people are working but leave when I show up. Spend the dreaming cooking lots of eggs on each Table/grill as the order keep piling up on screen. I spend hours doing that and suddenly there are no customers. It's like they never waited for their orders. I shrug and just leave.

Work again

I'm at work but it's all different. I'm in the staff lounge but it's all dark and dingy. Scott show up and we talk since I haven't seen him in a while. I ask him what he's doing here and he says there's some construction to do. Then he hands me a big stash of weed. Like a pound... and he says "hold this for me." I hide it under some clothes.

Somehow I wind up at my house. It's ALL wrecked like a huge bomb went off and it's filled with entities. Some are cleaning up and others are just standing around doing drugs or whatever. Something happens and I have to go back to work.

Sometime later I have to show managers from work where I live, they have to drop something off or pick something up. They follow me for a few blocks but ignore the instruction i give them. They wind up going through a different door in my house that i showed them. I enter through a side door or garage door again. I watched them come in and my memory fades.

Xereniak

A brief dream of being in a kitchen with a guy I work with who likes to be called xereniak online. We are talking about dreaming. I made some sort of joke like "In soviet Russia, Asuka's gardens destroys YOU!" He laughs as he grabs something from the fridge and places it on the island in the middle of the kitchen. We continue talking but the memory fades.
Note: this is a shared dream. Xereniak told me about looking in a fridge and having a conversation with me about dreaming.
Backyard

I'm in my basement at the start. I'm reading a book of Raven's dream logs. In one entry she is saying we a are dreamviewing some dream i had that had a probel to do with??? I don't remember. The next entry has a very perplexing title, but it's kind of gross. I get interrupted by an angry woman. She wants me to clean the mess up outside. I go in the backyard and, like the rest of the house... it is completely destroyed. I find a ground tiller? something to work the soil to restore it to a garden. A dog is attached and starts pulling it fast. I am tilling the lawn really fast until my alarm wakes me up.

Time Dilation Failed Attempt

I became Lucid flying somewhere. I wanted to try time Dilation right away since most of my lucids last only a minute or so. I flew down until i felt my hand on the ground. I looked at my hand and a space in between my fingers. I didn't count the spaces but I closed one eye. I stared at one spot where my hand was and started counting. Right away I noticed a difference. Water poured from my sleeve all over my hand as I counted. At around 16 water was covering my eyes and everything was going black. When that happened I grabbed again for the ground with my hand and felt it briefly before i drifted off to somewhere else.

Note: I should be incorporating DEILD here. As for time Dilation I will try closing one eye and resume counting up the spaces between my fingers. If that doesn't work I'll put my hand on a clock and try

Dog Walking

I leave my house with my dog on a leash. I am almost lucid but two native guys distract me. They are on my street asking Passerbys for smokes. I don't want to give any away so i keep walking. Two other guys say they can't give any away but they can sell a pack right now. The other guy is like, "screw that I don't wanna pay for smokes just give me one." but the other guys keep walking. I turn the corner and tell my dog buddy to run. We run quick and turn into an alleyway which leads to a park.

Halfway through the park i can hear the bums talking loudly, It sounds like they are still looking and I am trying to avoid them. It sounds like they are entering the park from the main street so i Quickly walk to the end of the park where a paved walkway is that leads to another park. The other entrance is obscured by boards. On the other side a tall woman with brown hair is playing with her baby. she looks at me and kind of smiles. Me and Buddy can't get past the boards and I can hear the bums coming up from behind. It's here the dream ends.

City

I'm with a group of people. We are supposed to board a transit train or something, many people are dressed up in some jerseys, maybe for a race or something. We are in a bathroom I am doing my thing and some lady comes in and yells that the train is leaving NOW. I leave right away and seemed to have kind of pissed on myself, but not much.

Then I am on a train with my brother. Some guy is also there and a brown haired girl. Some other woman was there who seemed familiar maybe raven. We are talking about the city and she was saying that we should get off at a certain stop, There's a mall there but it's not much populated, so it's asy to get around and do things. I say good idea.

I forgot where I got off but the girl with short brown hair and her boyfriend run off. My brother says i have to get them to come back before we leave, because he has to drive us somewhere. Somehow I am in a wierd vehicle of my own a small sled? dunno but it goes pretty fast. I wind up in an apartment area near night time still following the people. I hear the girl call my name, and she says She is not coming with us. She starts to talk more but I have no time for that so I take off in my eird vehicle which is a string i am holding which somehow slides across snow. It doesn't seem to work after a while and I ewake up.

★★★★★

wow. ok... so I've been dreaming with Asuka well over 8 months. in dream time that's two and a half years.. In all that time, i have never been lucid and shared a tender moment with her.. until today! So many things stood in our way. My doubts and frustrations, everyone Else who for months on the dream plane who mind controlled her, infected her and gang raped her (whether you were aware of what you did or not but you know who you are). In spite of all your crap, I still reached my goal.... as simple but hard as it was. So guys, instead of trying to be better than everyone... why not instead rise against innumerable odds and find your own moments of love and peace, Defeat your own ego... and DO IT WITHOUT STEPPING ON ANYBODY'S TOES! Try it. I DARE YOU!!! I bet you won't last a month... but prove me wrong... That's my challenge to you.

Thanks to all those that helped and encouraged me along the way: Waking nomad, Raven knight, Nagual Lonewolf, Cacophony, Q, Shawna, Serenity, Bonnie, Warrior Tiger, Walms, Data, Stone giant, victor, and everyone else whom i forgot... I couldn't have done it without you! This is not the end of my journey but the beginning!

Jenny is what?

False Awakening, I'm in some dark room. A woman is sleeping on a bed and i have a mat at the foot of the bed. I think the woman is my cousin. A strange voice says "you should sleep in that bed with her." I can see out the window that a new day is dawning.

"what?" I say.

FA, i'm in the same room the woman is gone. I hear a voice saying "she's dead."

"who's dead?"

"j... (couldn't hear it) is dead." ( a voice starts crying). I can hear somebody sobbing in the shadows. I tell them to move closer so I can hear them. I feel a presence nearing.

FA, My brother is sitting on the foot of the bed. He says that Jenny H is dead. I ask him how. I see a poster with her grad picture. In the dream i remember seeing the picture on facebook. The poster said "She had MS Twice and cancer, she never told anyone until it was too late."

FA, I'm in the same room room. my brother is still crying, he then looks like he's going to throw up... on my sleeping mat. I try to push him to the other side of the mat

"eww don't puke on me" I toss him across the room, he throws up and then comes near me trying to talk. I can smell his breath. I tell him to get back a few feet.

Fa, i'm in a different house It is morning now. I go and tell my brother the dream. He shrugs and says "yeah right"

DEILD FA LUCID chain

I was lucid somewhere but I forget what happened.

FA , Get out of bed and RC. It just feels like a dream! i'm walking witha woman at night time in some mini mall.

"what's your name?" I ask her. She says it's none of my bussiness. That's rude, she's trying to blow me off... good i'll help her re inforcer her preconceived notion of me.

"Come on just tell me your name" I ask.

"It's Yvonnegee"

"cool, do you have a boyfriend?" I say this just to piss her off. She does. I see her eyes go wide, and she looks like she's gonna hit me but everything fades.

FA, Get out of bed and RC, I'm in a strange bedroom I float up to the ceiling and try to puch through it. Everything fades out.


I find myself walking along some road in some town. I'm with some guy and we have to take a canadian flag back to his home. I take it and fly off. I become lucid with the flag rolled up in my hands. i look down at the houses below. I want to see Asuka so I try and spot spot a house that looks familiar. I remember that my house is up on some hill. I try to find a hill but everything fades.

FA, get out of bed and RC. It feels like a dream. My brother enters the room and says that I should stop cheating on Asuka. I tell him that Asuka only exists on the dream plane. In waking life she's not around, so it's ok to get a girlfriend. (this convo doesn't make sense since i don't have a gf in waking life for now). I go to follow him out of the room but everything fades.

Fa, get out of bed and RC. Now I'm in some indefinable place that is all blue. I think "fuck so many FAs! Maybe I'm dead and have to live in this dream reality for quite a while now... i better try to wake up for real."


I have a slight Real awakening and notice that It feels real. the room i am in is in olds. I DEILD.

FA, get out of bed and RC. Back in the strange room. I get out of the room and find i'm in a basement that resembles the one I use to live in in didsbury but a few details are off. The rooms are out of place. I find a closed door and enter it. a woman is sleeping on a bed. I call out to her. The blankets move and I hear my mother's voice call out to me "robert. is that you! it's nice to hear your voice" I am shocked when everything begins to fade.

FA, in the backseat of a car. It feels like a dream. some guy is in the passenger seat. and the car is being driven by a mechanical man attatched to the steering wheel. I think "this is the car that singer drives me home in during dreams. when she's not dreaming this guy takes her place" I try to fly out the window but everything fades.

Fa, get out of bed and Rc. Back at the basement. I want the dream to last so i rub my hands together... That just destabalizes the dream.

Fa, get out of bed and RC. back at the basement. I get into the main area of the basement and find a staircase. It's the same staircase from my friends house from childhood. At the top a bunch of wooden beams are blocking my way up. I fly up to them and try to fit through them. I manage to get free somehow. I find more stairs leading up. I find a ball, pick it up and drop it a few times to incorporate my sense of touch within the dream. Next sense is taste. so I like the carpet.. it tastes nasty. I keep walking instead and find a living room.

FA, get out of bed and RC. My dad and brother are getting my up for work. tell them it's a dream and follow them for fun anyway. We walk through a door in the wall that leads to a strange store. Some weird guy joins us. I am sensing a strong presence from him. I ask him if he is a dreamer or some other kind of energy. He gives me a strange look and then vanishes.

I turn around to the entrance of the store. There, standing on a plant pot is two asian woman. one is a regualr asian lady. The other looks like a ten year old asian girl with glasses. The shorter one seems familiar. i walk up to her and ask her " Are you Asuka?"

Everything starts fading, i manage to hear a "yes" before the dream ends. (It was Kanmuri and asuka!)

FA, get out of bed and RC. I go upstairs again and enter the living room. I try to find someone in the house. I see a one to two year old child sitting on the couch, she has a black streak in her blond hair. She's flipping the channels. I aks her "Are you Shel?"

She says yes witha smile. Then i notice a smaller version of her is sitting beside her. "me and Asuka had another one without me knowing?" i ask.

"no!" the child replies. "were twins! sort of" she giggles.

"Cool" I say. the dream fades and as it does i hear the child yell at me "Have some fucking Nesquick!".

FA, Get out of bed and RC. I go upstairs. in the hallway, everything starts to fade. I place my hand on the ground and look at it. The dream goes back to normal. I enter the living room again. I go into a bedroom that I feel is mine and Asuka's.

Inside is a walk in closet but the doors are all mirrors. I looka t each mirror and I am a different age in each mirror. In one i am 21, in another i am 16, they all move independantly of themselves. I look at my present self and point at him, he follows exactly. "Who are you?" I ask. I almost expect him to respond... but no... it's a normal reflection. The dream starts to fade again. I can see my hand on the gorund through the blackness. I count to 10 and everything brightens again.

The mirrors are no longer mirros, but regular glass. I can see all my dream guitars in them. I pick one up and play it. It doesn't sound plugged in but I can kind of hear an almost faint ACDC type of guitar tone. I put it back.

i enter the living room. A hand comes in front of my vision holding a tim hortons medium double double coffee, i easily drink it in one gulp. The person holding the cup is Asuka. She goes in front of me and hugs me. She has a small resemblance to one of my ex girlfriends Mel.

"Asuka!" i say. "I'm lucid! and I'm going to remember."

"I know" she says and kisses me. Suddenly everything is dark. I figure we must have teleported. now she's on top of me and we are having sex... I can't tell if our clothes are still on or not... but it feels pretty naked enough. After a while i Stop her and say "Wait, I just wanted to tell you I love you." A wave of emotion swept through me. I held her tightly and said. "I'm sorry it took so long just to do this. I'm sorry that you suffered so much while staying with me." I actually started crying for a bit. Asuka didn't say a word. Her weight began to feel heavy I started to feel like iw as being crushed. "get off me, your crushing me" i said and she got off. She was still really silent. I wondered if what I said had upset her somehow. The dark room became darker. "Everything's fading to black." I said As I woke up.